Fat Day

:thud: I managed to do the banking AND sheets AND SAGE with minimal mistakes and help! Weeeee!!

Hugely busy at work, was allegedly my first day as 'alone manager' but M3 was hovering. Must ask to be told when I'm going to magically know when orders are coming in.

Going to see Selfish N tonight...she rang as I walked in the door and I wasnt quick enough to come up with an excuse :S Also let slip I wasnt working tomorrow, so no doubt she will invite herself over/I'll have to do something for her...I wanted to watch the Derby... Will be nearly a year since Lily died.

Food: 2 x portions lasagne, half a portion chip shop chips, 1 muller light, 1 strawberry bun, maltesers, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, garlic bread, 1 J20, 2 hot chocolates

Exercise: nothing. MAY go to gym tomorrow before the Derby...

O....M....G

Apparently M2 & SC have been texting each other naked pictures all day :eek: Not entirely sure I believe it, but....Crazy.

Convinced myself I wasnt going to the gym tonight, but then, having eaten tea and had half a bottle of wine I went after all....

Not a bad day really, SAGE really winding me up. I cannot grasp it at all. Work in general is a bit weird.... I dont really feel I 'belong' in the shop anymore,yet I definately dont belong in the office either...

Food: banana, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, fruit corner, french fries, lasagne, salad & salad cream, garlic ciabatta, skinny cow ice cream

Exercise: Gym

Hmmm

Maybe I will stop being an impulsive drama queen for a week or so.... I have come on today, so will either have huge weight loss, or nothing because it wasnt the pill/lack of periods make me stay the same weight.

So, I dont know. Maybe I am just destined to be fat and ugly forever :sad: especially as I am troughing more now...

Food: 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, grapes, french fries, muller light, homemade pizza, homemade garlic bread, 1 chocolate chip muffin

Exercise: nothing

Hmmmm

Now what to think? No loss this week, but OTOH, considering what I was on Saturday, the fact it isnt a huge great big gain is very definately Something To Shout About. But I'm not, I'm still gutted. Won't be happy now till I'm VV.7...

Banking/Sage etc seems to be going in better. Have till Saturday. No further on on the online stuff. OH has taken it over :nod: :grumps:

Eaten LOADS today :biggrin:

Food: Aero bubbles, 1 banana, lots of grapes, some chicken breast, some ham & mozzerella, 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller fruit corner, packet french fries, pasta and carbonara sauce, 1 solero ice cream, half a bottle piat d'or

Exercise: 40lengths swimming

Banking Banking Banking

Went in one ear and out the other. One day, in about 3 years, it will make sense. Possibly.

Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, french fries, muller light, garlic ciabatta, bolognese sauce, pasta, parmesan, Muller Corner Healthy Balance

Exercise: Hmmm, Either I lost count and 'gained' some lengths or I speeded my swimming up a lot looking at the time it took. So, either 68 lengths or 72. Either way, for the first time in god knows how long, over a mile.

Mmmm, Radley purse....

I had to get up early, just so I could look at it and stroke it :wub:

My hip/outside of right leg aches ever so much atm :S And I really must stop being a hormonal, depressed witch. OH will end up leaving me and it will be my own stupid fault.

Road outside work is flooded, road is closed but everyone just going round the blocks anyway.

Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, grapes, almond croissant, 3 cranberry & white chocolate butter cookies, 1 muller light, 2 bowls pork stew with mozzerella, apple and mint sauce and bread.

Exercise: 40 lengths in swimming pool

Useful website

cerazette post

Hope admin emails me back with how to join - I cant see the codes you need to join, so have emailed them

Bankrupt

:eek:

Just back from shopping at the White Rose centre with OHs sister. It is a close run thing as to who spent the most...I think I *just* won though.

I bought:
A nightie for E's birthday
A pencil case for L's birthday
5 pairs of knickers from La Senza (I must have a pair for every day of the month now...They were on 5 for £10)
2 tops from Evans
1 pair of shoes, ballet style, with crystals on
1 necklace
1 computer game for OH
A set of bed sheets
Some body butter, lip balm and exfoliating gloves from Body Shop (no Lush :bawling:)
AND
:blush: A pink one of these

A good day, but to say I've done 'nothing', I'm really tired! Not to mention skint now...

Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 ham and salad sandwice, 1 slice carrot cake, 1 large yorkshire pudding, filled with Pork stew. 3 spoons apple & mint sauce

Exercise: shopping...

Thank you and goodnight

Nearly back at XX stones now. :bawling:

Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, 1 bowl lamb stew with 2 slices brown bread and mint sauce. Going out tonight. deep fried garlic mushrooms, missippi chicken and chips (brown, sweet sauce) and half of OHs hot fudge cake and my toffee sundae, 1 bottle white wine.

Exercise: None.

Still Fat

And now podged and sleepy too.

Been to gym and increased reps so am at 3 sets of 10 now. I am KNACKERED. Wondering whether or not to join a diet club (online, natch).

Food: 2 x helpings lamb stew, 4 slices brown bread, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), quavers, french fries, boost bar, yoghurt drink

Exercise: Gym

:bawling:

How on EARTH did that happen? :bawling: Have put on half a stone since yesterday morning :eek: How?! Seriously??? Absolutely gutted doesnt even begin to describe it. Am semi thinking about going back to the Drs.

Not a great day, M was being irritating. SC amazingly just kept her head down and got on with work :thud: M2 was out in van and M3 busy in office. I now have my own keys, cashed up both the tills and set the alarm. Yay me.

Gym was busy tonight, upped the cross trainer a level so am now on level 7 and managed 2minutes on treadmill at incline:6 and speed:6. Half considering doing 3 reps of 10 on the weight machine things now. Starting to get easier.

Food: ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, French Fries, maltesers, half a salami and emmental sandwich, 1 croissant, pork, mashed potato, yorkshire puddings, green beans, carrots, 2 teaspoons apple sauce, gravy

Exercise: Gym.

slowly going down....

So much for my aim of losing 3lbs a week! So far I've lost 2lbs in 2weeks. Still, at least it's going down. Must stay positive.

Huge thunder and lightning at 3am, so was awake for an hour or so. Was right overhead for ages. NeedyKitten was astounded.

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Started the discussions...seems new website isnt being launched till March which reassures me slightly. What with owners announcements that M2, M3 and me had till August to impress him, I was getting a little worried that he would be expecting something by September at the latest. Thankfully I was wrong! Also need to come up with a name. This has also shocked me - rather assumed it would just be 'FatBloaters Work Websites Online Shop'....

Felt really shit just after lunch. Speech went...odd...eyesight blurred and I started to shake. Didnt feel right all afternoon really but by 5pm-ish I felt ok. Havent gone swimming. Not only was OH preturbed by shakey fit, there is also the bike race in the town, so hell on earth to get through. Plus the alarm wouldnt set (great - the first time I ever set it, it shags up) so we didnt get home till 7.30pm. D thinks its cos I havent had a day off for ages. He could be right. Was quite shocked though to notice that I only have 2 more days until my weekend off. Feels like forever.

I feel a bit crap now, tbh, but think its cos I'm just podged. Hope it thunders again...Just not enough to wake me up this time. In fact, I hope it thunders while we're at work tomorrow.

Nan seems better, should be out of hospital on Friday.

Food: homemade garlic bread, pasta, carbonara sauce, 1 almond croissant, 1 plain croissant, 1 ham & pie d'angloys ciabatta, salad (ham/salad cream/mozzerella), French Fries (6 precious calories less than Quavers!) and a packet maltesers, half bottle Echo Falls.

Exercise: Nothing :S

Tomorrow the online stuff starts being planned for real. I still don't know where to start.

Iffy day at work. Did lots but not very much at all. Learnt the banking, it's all done on SAGE but it went in one ear and out the other.

Planned to eat cereal for tea, but was so hungry by the time I finished swimming we're having chicken and garlic bread instead. Was fun going with S - she made me swim quicker I'm sure and it didnt seem to take nearly as long as it does when I go on my own.

Things to think about stocking online: Kookamunga catnip, better cat toys (Ancol?), blingy collars and leads...Maybe use staff pets? NeedyKittens favourite product is...: etc. Need to work out how to sell wormers etc too. So badly want this to be a success.

Food: 1 bowl fruit and fibre, half a slice toast, 1 ham and pie d'angloys sandwich, ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, 2 slices bread, 1 mini Yorkie, packet maltesers, quavers, limey chicken, homemade garlic bread, 1 skinny cow ice cream

Exercise: 40 lengths in pool

Your diet will crush me....

Still no loss....please don't tell me I have to wait another 4months... :unsure:

My aim of losing 3lbs a week until Christmas is long by the wayside....2 weeks in and I already need to lose 6lbs in order to keep up with that.

NeedyKitten went to the vets tonight for his booster jabs, spent the whole time in his carrier eyeballing everyone, then when the vet dealt with him, glared at her too. Was a good boy though, let her check everything, had his jab, then slunk back into his carrier....Doesnt seem to have upset him much now he's home.

Really must start thinking properly about this online thing...First meeting is Wednesday and all I've done is think about what colour laptop I'm going to get (being fobbed off with the old crap one at work :red-flap: ) and which sites I like the look of. Thats it. I have no idea where to start.

No exercise today, other than work... Kept busy though. SC is back and has managed to acquire a sick note, saying she'd had a miscarriage. Feel a bit shit now, but...I guess you have to know her to understand my reservations. She tried being all sad and snivvelly till about 10am, when she realised no one was paying her the blindest bit of attention and she suddenly cheered up.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), quavers, packet planets, 2 mini Yorkies :blush: , pasta & carbonara sauce, garlic bread, 2 Go Ahead plain yoghurt breaks (72 calories each)

Exercise: nothing

hot and tired

Don't know why - its been a nice day, not too manic at work, no idiots....SC is back tomorrow, after her 'miscarriage' during which she coincidentally happened to move house....Last time she moved house, she had a bad back. Cynical, moi?

Had a lazy day really in the shop. Didnt go swimming this morning, just couldnt motivate myself, but went to the gym instead this evening. Was nice....Not many people in and the ones who were in were just quietly doing their stuff, and not making big deals about how much they were lifting etc.

Tomorrow I get to find out what my new job actually entails...And by 1pm, the owner will too. He will be constantly popping down to make sure everything is as it should be from now on too :wibble:

My tummy really hurts :S And also my Nan is in hospital....

Food: 4 squares tear and share, small ham & pie d'angloys baguette, ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, quavers, 1 oatmeal & sultana cookie, some of OHs toffee cookie, packet maltesers, toad in the hole, mashed potato, green beans, carrots, mint sauce

Exercise: Gym - full work out

I wanna be so skinny....

No fucking wonder I'm not losing weight. I can't stop eating and I SWEAR my tits are getting bigger :bawling:

Was meant to be going out for a meal tonight, but M had knocked the alarm, buggered it up and OH had to wait for the alarm people to come out to him. They arrived at 7.45. Our table was booked for 7.30. We could still go out, just, but neither of us are really in the mood now.

Pissed off with everything and still having a confidence crisis. Where the hell do I start with setting up a business?

Food: 2 squares tear and share, 1 strawberry bun, half a mini muffin, half a slice of cake, some mouthfuls of lasagne, porridge, muller light, quavers, 2 ham and pie d'angloys baguettes, 1 HUGE Waitrose chunk of shortbread and chocolate chips, pasta, cheese sauce, sausages, peas

Exercise: Nothing

:bawling: :bawling: and also....oh, shit

Remember months ago I said I wanted a baby? Then I thought I was pregnant and I realised I didnt want one after all...? Well, M1 has finally been sacked, so not only do I now have the online business as my 'baby', I now have the new job title of 'Duty Manager'.... Which, obviously I am super-excited about but am also having a huge crisis of confidence. The online store is a HUGE thing....If it takes off I will look amazing, have loads of bonuses, be Best Girl etc, but if it all goes tits up, there will be questions as to WHY and HOW I fucked up. Thats without all the muttering that I only got the 2 of them with OH/M3's help....

Tried to go to the gym today, but was thwarted by traffic, flooding and roadworks. Took half an hour to get from home to Waitrose - I could have walked there quicker - OH wanted me home by 9pm and as it was getting on for 8pm and I like to be at the gym for hour & a half I decided I may as well just come home. Still don't know why traffic was so horrific.

I am having a down day anyway... I checked my tape measurements today. If I haven't stayed the same on stuff I have gained inches. How? :( :bawling: This is since March. Maybe I need to go back to the Drs and talk properly with them?

Food: Quavers, slice of Power Rangers cake, 1 mini muffin, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, Lasagne, salad, garlic bread, salad cream, 3 Kiplings Mini apple pies, vanilla custard, half a bottle Tattinger

Exercise: nothing.

Thursdays post....

Owner has officially asked me to do the online business today :biggrin: 'Interview: went... Owner: I assume M3 has mentioned the online thing.... me: yep Owner: You up for it? Me: yep Owner: Cool. :lol: Have started collecting catalogues already :lol: Also looking at laptops....well I'll NEED one now, won't I? ;)

Not a bad day, unmotivated at work, although I have bought a gym ball to do sit ups on. Now just need to try and blow the damned thing up. M2 said he would bring his football pump tomorrow.

It's ex's birthday tomorrow.

Knackered now, went to the gym straight from work which was BUSY. Remembered why I leave it an hour or so, then go. S's boyfriend/not boyfriend was a dick so we came out earlier than *I* really wanted...only 5minutes or so, but....that could have been my weightloss 5minutes!

Food: 1 slice toast & margerine, 1 muller light, 1 bowl oatiflakes, some grapes, 1 banana, ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, quavers, 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes, 250ml B&J Caramel Chew Chew icecream :blush:

Exercise: My gym. 29minutes treadmill, 18mins cross trainer, 10mins rower then the weights.

Slightly late....Wednesday

Only 1lb gone, so already way off my target of losing 3lbs a week :heehee: Oh well. Maybe I'll be thin by NEXT December. :rolleyes:

Was babysitting last night, hence being a day late blogging. I love babysitting those kids. They sit and play on the X-Box till we say bedtime, then they run upstairs, clean their teeth and go straight to bed. I was never that good.

Me and OHs sister are going shopping next Sunday - eek!! Never spent a huge amount of time together and never 'alone'! (Although I dunno if the kids will be coming with us...)

Bit of an update on Work Situation....Well. I don't know what to do now. Have been offered the online shop as MY baby, to set up, keep running, just run entirely.... It is an Opportunity and I suspect is linked to me telling Owner that what I was doing now was my first 'management' role. Payrise (almost, but not quite the Original Payrise apparently), bonuses over and above what everyone else gets if it does well, am to ignore M1 totally when he chunters about it (he's coming back on Monday) and go to M3 or Owner. I think I am officially being offered it on Friday. Oh, and I am being booked to do my AMTRA conversion exam on 10th September.

Food: half bag Planets, half bag buttons, some pepperami, ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, quavers, yoghurt, 1 slice garlic bread, pasta and bolognese sauce, half a garlic ciabatta, 1 and a half rocky bars.

Exercise: Half hour cardio at the gym with S (10mins rower, 5mins sitdown bike, 5mins treadmill, 10mins cross trainer).

Hmmmm

:scratchchin: SC has lost the baby. Isn't it awful that I am not surprised and that it's all rather convenient.... She can't come back to work though until Saturday, as she still needs tests... *shrug* Apparently on Sunday though, she could feel the baby moving and when it rested on her bladder, she needed to go wee right there and then! Her mother has bought her a maternity top :rolleyes: apparently she was wearing it all yesterday.

Work was a bit shit today, no motivation. Nothing heard from M1 handing this contract thing in to Owner.Doubt will hear anything now till Friday.

Bad food day, especially considering tomorrow is Weigh Day and those lbs that had melted off on Saturday are back again :( However, I got told today by someone I used to be on the same yard as when I had the Pony that I had lost LOADS of weight! Result! Sadly since I last saw her, I know I've put it on, but still, it was nice to hear.

My friend lost her horse today :bawling: He was one of the coolest horses I've ever sat on and *I* am sat here :bawling: too, so God only knows how she is. I'm so so so so sorry E, I know I keep saying that, but I can't tell you enough how sorry I am.

Food: 1 strawberry bun, some spicy chicken breasts, half a packet maltesers, half a mini muffin, ham, mozzerella, salad cream salad, quavers, muller light, tea is pasta and cheese sauce with homemade garlic bread.

Exercise: 46lengths swimming, 120 situps