Urgh

Just.....urgh.

Can't remember what I ate yesterday - porridge, banana, scrambled eggs, chipolatas in bacon, baked beans, ice cream and biscuits, some chips, scollop & breadcake. Those are definates - I'm sure theres more.

Anyway-today:

1 chocolate chip brioche
1 pork, stuffing & apple sauce sandwich
some chips and scollop
1 whole nut bar
biscuits
tea is chicken, bacon & mozzerella, mashed potatoes and I suspect carrots and brussels.

I do want to lose weight, honest. AND I'm off to the pub later too.

Things.....Can Only Get Fatter.....

:rolleyes:

1 pork and apple hot sandwich
1 salami & pie d'angloys sandwich
1 peice shortcake
mountains of chocolate
butter biscuits
1 tangy cheese doritos sandwich ( :blush: )
few green-flavour pringles
tea is cold gammon
vegetables - suspect brusells carrots and potatoes
yorkshire pudding.

OH putting telly & home cinema together. Cannot BELIEVE we have just spent £900 on a TV. I am now aiming to be out of debt in December 2008. Sigh.

Docs was a waste of time. Got the pill, but she forgot to weigh me, then remembered when I'd got my 10million layers back on - told her I'd weighed myself this morning (I had) and that I weighed a stone less than I actually do. She believed me, but still gave me the 'You're too fat' lecture. I know that, dumbass, and despite what I've eaten today shows, I AM trying. I think I will make an appt anyway with someone else and ask about water retention/under active thyroid/blahdeblah.

Kitten being so incredibly cute, but he is FURIOUS he's not allowed to 'help' OH put the surround sound bit together. Heard ripping from bathroom - I suspect we are a toilet roll down now due to his anger.

OHs birthday tomorrow - am winding him up by telling him I havent bought him anything and was spent up at Christmas. *snigger* such a bitch. Cant remember what I HAVE bought him, so will be as much a surprise for me as it will be him :lol:

Merry fucking Christmas

I know I said I'd give up over Christmas, but this was ridiculous :bawling: I didnt particularly 'give up' - I was still very conscious of what I ate and doing exercise etcetc, but in the last week I have put back on EVERYTHING and more that I lost :bawling:

Have an appointment for represcription of pill tomorrow, suspect I wont be allowed it.

Good Christmas though.

Arse.

pffffft

I may as well give up till after Christmas now :rolleyes:

1 bacon, mushroom & brown sauce sandwich
a MASS of chocolate biscuits
1 packet big eat flamin hot monster munch
1 muffin
bowl porridge
sausages (2)
yorkshire pudding
sprouts
carrots
mashed potatoes
gravy
mint sauce
brioche with chocolate spread.

Meh.

Arsebandits

Today is a bad day - I have a cold as well which has been hovering for a couple of weeks, but has come out in full glory today - joy, my nose could rival Rudolphs. I'm always ill at Christmas :(

Anyway:

slice stollen
1 bowl porridge
1 packet kettle chips (red gloucester & onion)
1 packet cheese and onion french fries
1 flapjack
1 full packet cherry soothers (throat)
5 fruitsers biscuits (working on theory hard things should help throat)
tea: chicken wrapped in bacon with mozzerella, green beans, carrots, mashed potatoes & yorkshire pudding

:sigh:

May as well give this week up as a bad job.

soso

5 celebrations chocolates
1 lindt calender chocolate
1 kinder bueno
bowl porridge
pasta & bolognese sauce
2 slices white bread & margerine
mozzerella

Swear I am about to commit gbh on girl at work. HOW LONG, genuinely, does it take to check and put away one order?

Apparently a day and a half.

I suppose I shouldnt be cross

But I can't help but think that I'm still the same weight I was 2 weeks ago. Although I have eaten more chocolate :rolleyes:

Walking into town to see OHs old neighbour in a few minutes, so that should be good.

Did walk into town, then around town, then back home. Then went to Kborough on the train for a bit (big hill) then when we got back to Hforth had to walk up another hill to get to car, then done some cleaning tonight.

1 x mince pie
1 x chunk cheese
1 x ham & pie d'angloys sandwich
1 x flapjack
2 x tree decorations
5 x chocolate orange things
pasta & bolognese sauce
1 x breadcake

still cross

4 marzipan fruits
half salami & pie dangloys sandwich
porridge
banana
praline flake
roast chicken
mashed potatoes (white and blue!!!)
carrots
green beans
peas
gravy
mint sauce
2 tree chocolates
1 cheese straw
half bottle white wine

Meh.

Self control, shmelf control.

cross. again.

5 fruit shortcake biscuits
2 marzipan fruits
banana
porridge
lasagne (x 2 - 2nd helpings)
oven chips
mayonaise
1 square tear & share
half a chocolate pudding (shared with OH)

Podged now. Big bangs and huge plume of smoke from town centre :unsure: loud enough to shake the house and scare the NeedyKitten - hope everythings ok.

another could go either way

Not eaten yet today, but is mine and OHs anniversary (a year!) and he is cooking.

We had:

filled potato skins with cheese, bacon and mayonnaise
lasagne and garlic bread also topped with cheese and bacon
after 8 ice cream with some pistachio ice cream
4 marzipan fruits

Do love him.

Bad food day :(

Work was lazy - no work was done yesterday orders-wise so spent whole day stood pricing things up. Forgot my pedometre (calorie counter) but probably just as well.

bowl porridge
flake
potato snacks
pork & pasta in cheese sauce
garlic bread
pecan cookie
'Kinder Delice' - we got it in france, chocolate and coconut.
chunk wensleydale
chunk cheddar
3 slices marzipan stollen
lindt style chocolate - last 4 a surprise from OH.
Half bottle rose

I'm so pissed off. Where has my self control gone?

hey ho

Another day off - things are much harder to resist when you are sat in front of them :rolleyes:

Still, ran for 10 minutes and did the Hard Walk (which, :eek: is no longer as hard as it was....) and have burnt more calories than I did yesterday.

However:

1 bowl porridge
1 banana
1 muller light yogurt. :sigh:
3 chocolate tree decorations
4 chocolates
pizza

Heyho, off to do some tidying which I should have done this morning. Still OHs presents are all wrapped now, even birthday ones. Check me out.

Also, as a :thumbsup: I did not put weight on yesterday. I am back on a downwards trend. (possibly not having eaten that pizza & chocolates :rolleyes: )

Well

I wish it was yesterday today :rolleyes: It's official, days off are bad for me.

'Square' of tear and share
bowl porridge
banana
some tree chocolate
pasta
tomato sauce & mozzerella, Haloumi & cheddar
8 chocolate orange sticks
handful salted large peanuts
half bottle wine

Not much else to say really. My life is full of excitement :lol:

Not unexpected

But still :(

Had put on 1lb since last Tuesday.

Porridge
1 banana
1 packet cheese heads (128 calories)
2 Christmas tree chocolates
2 squares of tear&share (kind of like choc chip brioche)
tea is same as yesterday.

Went for 2 walks and kept busy at work - have burnt 242 calories. So fairly shit, but has burnt off the cheeseheads and hopefully the T&S.

Grrrr.

:bawling:

I have until tomorrow morning to lose 2lbs or more to make this week count as a weight loss week. I dont think I'm going to.

I can't wait till I've lost a few dress sizes. I can shop in more shops then. Was so painful on Saturday trying to point out to OH that I *had* to find something to wear in one particular shop cos nowhere else did clothes big enough for me. Ended up in tears in the changing room :rolleyes:

I know it has to come off slowly other wise it will go back on quickly but still. I suppose though even if I DO put on this week, if I spread last weeks weight loss over 2 weeks, it's still a respectable loss, isn't it?

I still can't tell OH I am trying again with losing weight, otherwise he only lets me eat plain food and 2 bits of fruit for lunch. That just makes me crave the bad stuff even more. I will do it. My first aim is to be XWstone by end of January.

Anyway: food today:

1.5 slices toast & chocolate spread
hald emmentaal & salami sandwich
1 chicken & salad cream sandwich
1 banana
1 kinder chocolate thing we got from france
2 christmas tree chocolates
beef
2 x yorkshire puddings
mashed potatoes
beans
carrots
gravy
mint sauce
smarties icecream
3/4's bottle white wine

Not holding my breath for losing any weight tomorrow :(

Didnt walk into town. Part cross and part relieved although had we known we were walking back we wouldnt have bought so much stuff :rolleyes:

Became a member of you tube today. lots of gratuitious videos of NeedyKitten

Hmmmmmm

Well. I havent put on. Unfortunately I havent lost either - and this is from last Tuesday. Even if its just a pound!!

Was very drunk last night though - got major headache now :lol:

2 x slices toast & marmite
2 x slices toast & chocolate spread
1 packet potato snacks
roast beef
2 x yorkshire puddings
roast potatoes
brussells
carrots
gravy
mint sauce

I have just run for 10 minutes, will probably do so later on as well, and maybe some yoga too. Bending down is an effort lol, my head is sore. I did run for another 10 minutes, but no yoga.

Good night though last night.

Christmas party tonight

:sigh:

So will be very drunk and eaten a ton by time I get home this evening.

Got thai soup with bread to eat in a bit
shape yoghurt
filled skins (cheese,bacon, sour cream & chive dip)
some chicken wings
cheese & bacon burger
some chips
2 white russians
copious amounts double vodka & cokes

Went on a shopping spree earlier. Spent a lot, mainly on stuff for tonight :rolleyes:

I fit comfortably into a size 28 now :bawling:

:podge:

Am stuffed.

Didnt eat anything else last night and spent the whole evening bouncing about - band were FAB.

Today I have eaten:
Lots of celebrations chocolates
a banana
7 chocolate biscuits
lemon thai soup
baguette & margerine
mince
mashed potatoes
gravy
mint sauce
brussells
carrots
yorkshire puddings
6 Lindt chocolates
1 lemon tart
3/4's bottle wine

Made up for yesterday. uncomfortably full now. Bah humbug to christmas

Tomorrow I will have put back on the 2lbs I lost yesterday grrrr.

Off to see a band tonight

Cant wait!

Eaten bacon & mushroom sandwich
lots of chocolates again
5 cups of tea.

hmmm. Got 20 minutes to bath, change and eat. Toodles.

Hmmmm. The Christmas Badness Has Begun.

LOTS of celebration chocolates
5 cups of tea
1 bowl porridge
1 banana
toad in the hole
mashed potato
carrots
brussels

(the veg is a guess, tea not cooked yet lol)

Not so good today - was stocktaking so lots of sitting counting and not much running up and downstairs. Did the 'hard' walk (UP!) with OH this evening, still burnt a pathetic amount of calories but still, more than I would have. Quite pleased I did it - thought I may have a heart attack lol also I recovered much quicker than I thought I would.

Started reordering stuff after what happened sunday. Suspect little bastards will wait till we've restocked and then do it again. The loss of stock + loss of sales = HUGE defecit and no Christmas bonus *cries*

Off to see a band tomorrow night, I can't WAIT. I doubt I'll be the oldest there, but the last time I saw them live was NINE years ago!!! Stu, who we're going with saw them 14 years ago! So drinking tomorrow night, then christmas party Saturday. Suspect this will be a putting on week.

Tuesday = weigh in day

And I am H.A.P.P.Y *grin*

20.10. A loss of SEVEN POUNDS in my first week.

I kind of celebrated today though :rollseyes: so will be back on tomorrow.

1 syrup porridge
1 banana
some cheese snack things
5 lemon tarts
bit of chocolate (like, really, a bit - about half a 'slab' on a bar)
tea is pasta and pork in a tomato sauce - hopefully with mozzerella
Half bottle Piat D'Or

Minimal exercise, work was still spent clearing up the fallout from Sunday night so not much trotting up and down stairs.

Anyway. HALF A STONE. If only I could keep this up for the next 20 weeks :lol:

H.A.P.P.Y

I know it wont come off as easily the whole time, but I must remember this and not think 'fuck it, lets have 10 chocolate bars'. Christmas will be hard though.

SEVEN POUNDS. See this face? :D This is a happy face.

Self discipline.

Can't decide if good or bad

4 cups of tea
1 jam tart
2 lindt chocolate
1 bowl syrup porridge with blue full fat milk
1 banana
1 packet crispy things (128 calories)
pork, mashed potatoes, green beans, carrots, gravy & apple sauce.
Probably dessert too but dont know what.

I am cross that I havent lost more weight, despite the fact I know I HAVE lost a fair amount already. I think its because I put on 2 stone in the last 4 months (dont say it) so I find it hard to actually believe my weight is where it is at the moment - in my head I am still far lighter than I actually am. I'm also cross cos I feel like I've eaten a lot today when I know I havent.

Work got broken into last night. Little scroats. Conservative estimate is about £3.5k retail value of stock pinched. Had to spend all afternoon counting what was left. Most of the stocktake had a long row of zeros by it. Searching eBay now, trying to see if any of the wellies have come up on there. The amount of people though who have either been incandescent we havent allowed them down to the horsey section was unreal - we told them why and they were still foul about it. Or grumbling that we hadnt much stock. I got cross at one point and pointed out that I was very sorry, but as 90% of equine stock was taken last night there wasnt a fat lot I could do about it. One woman was so put out - she had driven TEN MILES and we hadnt got what she wanted. She was FURIOUS. I had to walk away in the end otherwise I would have belted her. Customer service? Never heard of it.

3rd Dec

I am getting Cross.

Breakfast (made by OH as a surprise)
2 croissants, 1 with bacon (fried) and cheese, 1 with chocolate spread
1 cup of tea
having roast pork for tea tonight.

Stayed same again. Cross.

EDIT:
I have just run for 11minutes. In the house, natch. Dont want people seeing me and my blubber about town. Had to have a quick break at 5 minutes though. Don't know how long, but not very long - about 30 seconds. Less than a minute anyway.

Sweating like the fat pig that I am, heart is going and I have allegedly burnt 63.9 calories.

Trouble is am only going to be able to do this when OH is out. Feel ridiculous enough doing it my own without him gawping at me too.

For some reason I can't edit the sidebars :unsure: :cross:

EDIT 2:
Tea will be roast pork, crackling, apple sauce, carrots, brussell sprouts, yorkshire pudding and mashed potatoes. Also drunk 2 more cups of tea and a pint of apple juice/lemonade.

Worked out that despite the exercise I will have accumulated 1740 calories today.

:sigh:

So scales this morning read the same as the did yesterday. :sigh: Still, it's not a gain. And it must be done slowly.

I'm not going to get cross.

Yesterday I forgot to add the 6 Minstrals (yes, I counted :rolleyes: ) to the foody bit.

Today:
bowl of appley flavour Oatso Simple - bloody lovely.
1 banana
4 cups of tea
1 Lindt chocolate
Spaghetti Bolognese for tea - we'll have parmesan on top and crusty bread with it.
half bottole white wine
Strawberry Muller Light yoghurt for after.

Burnt 229 calories at work - not as much as yesterday but more than Thursday. Tomorrow is a day off, so will probably burn about 3 calories :rolleyes:

NeedyKitten is being very Needy. Wasn't so cute when he divebombed my tummy this morning.

OH being sweet too and convinced he has done something wrong - he really hasnt but I just feel a bit meh in general.

'archived' from an old blog

Friday 1st December
3 cups of tea
2 chicken and salad cream sandwiches
grapes
a twix top
Tagiatelle with cheese & bacon
1 apple muller rice
Half cheese and chive baguette thing. Very cross about this. Didnt really want it, but had it anyway. :searches: wheres my self control gone today?
Half bottle Echo Falls

Was :) when I got on scales this morning, rather than :biggrin;. Still, better than :huh:, ;( or :bawling; hey?

Burnt treble amount of calories at work today, so all good :acclaim;

Hot gossip at work today is Jack and Beci - they appear to be getting it on :lol; although nothings happened yet, just a ot of flirting and maybe a bit of touching. Its the worst kept secret in the world, even Stu knows and he's on holiday lmao.

Kitten stole us some bread on our return from shopping tonight. Bless.

Talking of shopping, went to Morrisons tonight. Hell On Earth. Spent a fortune as well. Oops. Bought Drop Dead Fred on DVD though, I used to LOVE that when I was younger. How much do you bet I hate it now?!

Very 'eat some worms-y' today.

Left OH perving over Nigella Lawson. Nice to know his 'type' is the polar opposite of me :rollseyes:


Nov 30 2006, 06:42 PM

5 cups of tea
1 satsuma
1 banana
1 go ahead apple bar
2 chicken & salad cream sandwiches
and tea is mince, brussels, carrots and potatoes. Possibly cheesey.
Doubt we'll have wine or ice cream.

Was still :biggrin: this morning after getting on scales, if I could keep this up I will have lost 15 stone by end of February :wishes:

Work not so bad, wore calorie counter and despite good intentions burnt a pitiful amount. Will Try Harder tomorrow.

Had amazing sleep last night, definately caught up what I missed night before - Maybe its the yoga? Havent pulled any muscles (did last time I did it), so either I'm bendier than I thought or I didnt do enough.

Kitten being Very Cute, I wish I could work out how to get pics off my phone online. I do love him lots.20mins yoga. Unflexy tonight.

Nov 29 2006, 10:24 AM
2 cups of tea (2 sugars)
1.5 slices toast & Nutella.
Covent Garden tomato soup
mozzerella
2 slices toast
1 mars top
Pork chops
cheesy mash ( :rolleye: )
carrots
green beans
Yorkshire pudding
There'll be gravy and apple sauce too.
also ice cream (same as yesterday although no cream)
and half bottle Piat D'Or too.

It was going fairly well up to the cheesy mash :bawling;

I havent told OH I'm doing this yet cos otherwise he gets a bit hitler about it (trust me, he really does) and I am 'allowed' to eat 2 bits of fruit and have my tea. Which makes me grumpy and crave Bad Things all the more. Which is why the Nutella this morning and the icecream last night. Soup, maybe for lunch today. I did part of the Geri Yoga video earlier :blush; I am SO unbendy its unreal. I could only do up to the advanced warmup(!!!!!! ) before admitting defeat. Anyway, I have decided to do that once a week when OH is out cos he will just laugh. Plus there isnt really enough room to do it, so I was kind of adapting 'postures' :snigger: to fit round the sofa/in the fire. Probably not quite the Correct Way.

No crisps today. I seem to lose weight vvvvv quickly, there are times I am sure my scales can't be right - I seem to be able to lose up to 3lbs in a day. Am sure its part just water, but still. Of course, this also means I can put on 3lbs in a day I do wish we had a dog though, it seems so pointless just walking for the sake of walking. I do get very bored.Just been to get Heat mag, walked down to shop, then back up the hill, so I had to walk downhill to get home. Got me out of breath and sweaty. I am going to have soup - I've been thinking about it all morning Just wondering why I can't sleep at the moment :S

Nov 28 2006, 07:12 PM

1 banana
2 pie d'angloys & salami sandwiches
1 packet low fat potato snacks
some peking sensations crisps
chicken
jacket potato
brussell sprouts
carrots
gravy
pistachio icecream
vanilla icecream
squirty cream on top
2 Lindt chocolates
half bottle Gallo pink wine

So not great. Could be worse. (Honestly, it could )pointless day in that I've just had a week off, I went back to work today, and I am rota'd tomorrow off. D 2 hours late, b forgotten that actually, *I* am manager and *I* say who does what and when. :autonomous: :grump:I have decided on An Aim (as well all know, plans are bad).I am AIMING to be totally debt free by February 2008, assuming no major disasters of the financial kind before then.I am AIMING to have lost at least 4 stone by then. I am AIMING to be looking for Mr Perfect New Horse by March 2008 I have to do it now, if I dont manage it now, I never will. I am going to start wearing my pedometer again. I WILL be thin(ish)

Nov 27 2006, 03:04 PM
Fruitsers biscuits (EIGHT throughout the day)Some Walkers Sensations peking flavour Crisps2 slices toast & nutella2 slices toast & 2 boiled eggsand off to TGIs tonight Self control? Wossat?