Not eaten much yet today. Bad day, SC & ST were joined at the hip and totally ignored me & the other girl working. Feel like shit over it all, I know I havent helped by being paranoid and quiet, but I just do :(
Food: 1 oatmeal & sultana cookie, 1 packet of french fries, couple of chips, some chocolate buttons, some chocolate animals and tea is mince stew with dumplings, 1 slice mandarin cheesecake & cream, half bottle rose & half bottle white wine.
Weight gain day.
Saturday 10 February 2007
Friday 9 February 2007
Think I'm gonna eat some worms :nod:
Meh, I am such a grumpy bitch.Spent the day in the shed at work cos I couldnt face LOOKING at anyone without getting in a mood.
SB is just totally ignoring me and I genuinely have no idea what to do next. SC is the culprit - she flirts constantly with him which means he just fucks about all day, as does she, then D starts, cos, well, why should he do all the work on his own?
So the worms - they obviously don't like me enough to respect what I ask them to do, said to SB the other day that SC clearly didnt like me and he said that 'wasnt the case - she was really worried about telling you she was moving in with ST' (ST is my allegedly best friend....who didnt tell me ANY of the whole moving in together stuff until I found out from some one else). Pointed out was only the case cos they knew they were leaving me out of stuff and he just kind of shrugged.
ST & SC in tomorrow - shall we take bets on whether they push me out of stuff ('I know! I'll do this, and ST can do that bit!') It does make it hard that ST used to have my job and seems to forget the past tense when she does come back to work. RAHHHH. She texted me not so long ago and asked if I wanted to go round. I told her I didnt feel well and I'd see her tomorrow. I know its my current obsession with food which is making me like this, its a bloody big coincidence if not that all my friends start to be complete twats all at the same time.
Food: 1 packet French Fries, 1 banana, 1 twix top, 1 muller light yoghurt and 1 ham, pineapple, salami & mozzerella pizza. 1000calories.
SB is just totally ignoring me and I genuinely have no idea what to do next. SC is the culprit - she flirts constantly with him which means he just fucks about all day, as does she, then D starts, cos, well, why should he do all the work on his own?
So the worms - they obviously don't like me enough to respect what I ask them to do, said to SB the other day that SC clearly didnt like me and he said that 'wasnt the case - she was really worried about telling you she was moving in with ST' (ST is my allegedly best friend....who didnt tell me ANY of the whole moving in together stuff until I found out from some one else). Pointed out was only the case cos they knew they were leaving me out of stuff and he just kind of shrugged.
ST & SC in tomorrow - shall we take bets on whether they push me out of stuff ('I know! I'll do this, and ST can do that bit!') It does make it hard that ST used to have my job and seems to forget the past tense when she does come back to work. RAHHHH. She texted me not so long ago and asked if I wanted to go round. I told her I didnt feel well and I'd see her tomorrow. I know its my current obsession with food which is making me like this, its a bloody big coincidence if not that all my friends start to be complete twats all at the same time.
Food: 1 packet French Fries, 1 banana, 1 twix top, 1 muller light yoghurt and 1 ham, pineapple, salami & mozzerella pizza. 1000calories.
Thursday 8 February 2007
Didn't ride after all
Not really surprised, and not disappointed, really. The shocking news of the day is I got my money off N :thud: Well. Half of it, but she agreed she owes me what i think she owes me, so due another £100 soon - result.
NeedyKitten being horrifically needy - he can't quite cope with the idea of snow, an when he isnt running from room to room trying to hunt it all, he's either sat on my lap telling me all about it, or trying to get onto my lap, telling me how he's going to get there and then how when he's reached my lap, how he killed all the snow :rolleyes:
Only managed 500calories on the bike so far - although did walk N's dogs with her and spent a good 2-3 hours bored stiff watching her muck out & do waters etc. Oh yes, and chat to her friends. Went for lunch in a pub, wish I hadnt but still. Was nice.
Food: 1.5 slices garlic bread, tomatoes & onions, about 10 thick chips, and a chicken & bacon club sandwich, with mayonaise & salad cream too :eek: Wish I'd taken the bread off, but pffft. Done now. Tea will be bolognese sauce & pasta, with a Muller Light vanilla flavour yoghurt and a Twix top.
Had lost weight this morning, although suspect with not being at work + the lunch will have put back on tomorrow. Especially as now, after bath & all food, I weigh the same as I did 2 weeks ago :unsure: :bawling:
Other news - SC been warned re 'bad back'. M1 taken half day hol 'cos there's fuck all to do'. Quite glad I'm not going to be there on Tuesday.
Done 1100c now.
NeedyKitten being horrifically needy - he can't quite cope with the idea of snow, an when he isnt running from room to room trying to hunt it all, he's either sat on my lap telling me all about it, or trying to get onto my lap, telling me how he's going to get there and then how when he's reached my lap, how he killed all the snow :rolleyes:
Only managed 500calories on the bike so far - although did walk N's dogs with her and spent a good 2-3 hours bored stiff watching her muck out & do waters etc. Oh yes, and chat to her friends. Went for lunch in a pub, wish I hadnt but still. Was nice.
Food: 1.5 slices garlic bread, tomatoes & onions, about 10 thick chips, and a chicken & bacon club sandwich, with mayonaise & salad cream too :eek: Wish I'd taken the bread off, but pffft. Done now. Tea will be bolognese sauce & pasta, with a Muller Light vanilla flavour yoghurt and a Twix top.
Had lost weight this morning, although suspect with not being at work + the lunch will have put back on tomorrow. Especially as now, after bath & all food, I weigh the same as I did 2 weeks ago :unsure: :bawling:
Other news - SC been warned re 'bad back'. M1 taken half day hol 'cos there's fuck all to do'. Quite glad I'm not going to be there on Tuesday.
Done 1100c now.
Wednesday 7 February 2007
Gah
1lb on. Partly pleased its only 1lb, partly upset because its a gain and partly meh about it, because looking at my weightloss 'tracker' it looks like I've lost bugger all for last 3 months :bawling:
Still, it's only 1lb. It will be gone by next week.
Food: 1 FB salad (tomatoes, lettuce, rocket, salad onion, mozerella, ham, cheese & chive stuff), 1.5 bowls (:blush:) of pasta -macoroni & brown pasta- with sausages in a cheese sauce. 1 Roses chocolate. 1000 calories on bike in 1h40m.
Going to see N tomorrow - shes said she will ask if I can ride her friends horse. Both dubious and excited. I haven't ridden since, oof, October? The last time I saw the Furry Boy Bag at her old-new home anyway. What if horse isnt up to weight? Apparently some kind of overgrown Dales type anyway. What if I hate it? What if I love it and miss it huge amounts? As long as ponio is up to weight, then I think I might quite enjoy it. If owner says yes of course. AND I'm meant to be getting my money. I think I'll wait and see re that!
SC getting talking to tomorrow, re Tuesday, 'bad back' and moving house. Own fault, no sympathy. M1, apparently going to be paid off and asked to go. SOOOOO, fingers crossed, good vibes, spinks, whatever, I may be getting a pay rise before too long. Will also put 1 person in particulars nose out of joint, but... pah.
Heavy snow forecast for tonight/tomorrow. Its getting cold now. OH thinks it might be too cold for it. Kitten (despite being of the long haired variety) is ignoring both me & OH to sit by the fire on his own.
re, the panicking last night - unfounded *phew*
Still, it's only 1lb. It will be gone by next week.
Food: 1 FB salad (tomatoes, lettuce, rocket, salad onion, mozerella, ham, cheese & chive stuff), 1.5 bowls (:blush:) of pasta -macoroni & brown pasta- with sausages in a cheese sauce. 1 Roses chocolate. 1000 calories on bike in 1h40m.
Going to see N tomorrow - shes said she will ask if I can ride her friends horse. Both dubious and excited. I haven't ridden since, oof, October? The last time I saw the Furry Boy Bag at her old-new home anyway. What if horse isnt up to weight? Apparently some kind of overgrown Dales type anyway. What if I hate it? What if I love it and miss it huge amounts? As long as ponio is up to weight, then I think I might quite enjoy it. If owner says yes of course. AND I'm meant to be getting my money. I think I'll wait and see re that!
SC getting talking to tomorrow, re Tuesday, 'bad back' and moving house. Own fault, no sympathy. M1, apparently going to be paid off and asked to go. SOOOOO, fingers crossed, good vibes, spinks, whatever, I may be getting a pay rise before too long. Will also put 1 person in particulars nose out of joint, but... pah.
Heavy snow forecast for tonight/tomorrow. Its getting cold now. OH thinks it might be too cold for it. Kitten (despite being of the long haired variety) is ignoring both me & OH to sit by the fire on his own.
re, the panicking last night - unfounded *phew*
Tuesday 6 February 2007
rahhhhhhh
Its ok, I'm not ACTUALLY asking for advice or anything.
Still got another 350 calories to do on the bike, will do in a sec. Work, bit crap. SC phoned in sick - but isnt it highly convenient she is also moving tomorrow. Not gone unnoticed and will be questioned on it on Thursday and asked to produce a Drs note (reckons she went this morning).
I appear to be oversensitive and thin skinned. Apparently my 'narky' reply to a question has been overlooked and ppl carrying on as they did before. But. One more comment and I swear to Heat Magazine that I will swing for her. Honest, I will.
Other news - apparently I shall definately get my money on Thursday from N :thud: Wonder if she will give me what she actually owes me, or what she conveniently remembers she owes me.
Food: Salad (rocket, egg mayonnaise, ham, mozzerella, tomatoes, spring onions), French Fries, flapjack, some smarties & some maltesers (shared, didnt count them....), lasagne, lettuce leaves, salad cream & 8 dough balls. 1.5 glasses of wine.
Weigh day tomorrow. I'm not hopeful. Especially as..... :deepbreath: Me and OH weren't exactly careful with the old condoms when I was on antibiotics. I am feeling sick on a morning, and am a day late. To say I am panicking is an understatement. I am very broody atm which doesnt help, but Right Now would very definately be the Wrong Time - what with everything going on at work, I want to be established within the potential new role before I take anytime off, the extra money can go towards paying off my car(s) and saving for The Future. Plus it kind of puts paid to any weight loss plans, doesnt it, really? I think I've pickled it anyway these past 2 days if I am.
I want a baby, badly, just not now..... I think I need to buy a test tomorrow.
OH just told me I eat to much to lose weight. Don't *think* I need buy a test tomorrow *crossfingers*
Still got another 350 calories to do on the bike, will do in a sec. Work, bit crap. SC phoned in sick - but isnt it highly convenient she is also moving tomorrow. Not gone unnoticed and will be questioned on it on Thursday and asked to produce a Drs note (reckons she went this morning).
I appear to be oversensitive and thin skinned. Apparently my 'narky' reply to a question has been overlooked and ppl carrying on as they did before. But. One more comment and I swear to Heat Magazine that I will swing for her. Honest, I will.
Other news - apparently I shall definately get my money on Thursday from N :thud: Wonder if she will give me what she actually owes me, or what she conveniently remembers she owes me.
Food: Salad (rocket, egg mayonnaise, ham, mozzerella, tomatoes, spring onions), French Fries, flapjack, some smarties & some maltesers (shared, didnt count them....), lasagne, lettuce leaves, salad cream & 8 dough balls. 1.5 glasses of wine.
Weigh day tomorrow. I'm not hopeful. Especially as..... :deepbreath: Me and OH weren't exactly careful with the old condoms when I was on antibiotics. I am feeling sick on a morning, and am a day late. To say I am panicking is an understatement. I am very broody atm which doesnt help, but Right Now would very definately be the Wrong Time - what with everything going on at work, I want to be established within the potential new role before I take anytime off, the extra money can go towards paying off my car(s) and saving for The Future. Plus it kind of puts paid to any weight loss plans, doesnt it, really? I think I've pickled it anyway these past 2 days if I am.
I want a baby, badly, just not now..... I think I need to buy a test tomorrow.
OH just told me I eat to much to lose weight. Don't *think* I need buy a test tomorrow *crossfingers*
Monday 5 February 2007
I'm still a jealous bitch
and I AM getting on the bike today. Honest.
I can't decide if a friend is being 'unfeeling' without thinking how things come across or if I am being a silly cow taking things too much to heart too quickly. Probably a combination of both. At least my kitten and my OH heart me - although there are times when I dont know why either of them do! :lol:
My next target is to lose three/quarters of a stone by the end of February. For this I'll get the Lily Allen album (even though that was meant to be this months prize :lol: )
9.45 - first 30m13s (300 calories) gone.... :lol:
4.51pm - 920 calories gone....
Food: BILLIONS of Roses, yoghurt, blue berries & dried berries, FB salad (lettuce, rocket, spring onions, egg mayonnaise, cheese & chives (ick, may throw it), ham, mozzerella and cherry tomatoes), french fries. Tea is lasagne, garlic bread & salad when OH gets home from BigMeeting.
ETA:
Done 1235calories in 2 total hours :knackered: BigMeeting went well, just need to check a few things on employment law and hopefully will be free of the albatross. Meeting again next week. Not hopeful for weight loss tomorrow, considering amount of chocolate I have troughed.
Re The Other Thing. Face, bothered? See this face? Is it bothered? izzit.... :rolleyes:
I can't decide if a friend is being 'unfeeling' without thinking how things come across or if I am being a silly cow taking things too much to heart too quickly. Probably a combination of both. At least my kitten and my OH heart me - although there are times when I dont know why either of them do! :lol:
My next target is to lose three/quarters of a stone by the end of February. For this I'll get the Lily Allen album (even though that was meant to be this months prize :lol: )
9.45 - first 30m13s (300 calories) gone.... :lol:
4.51pm - 920 calories gone....
Food: BILLIONS of Roses, yoghurt, blue berries & dried berries, FB salad (lettuce, rocket, spring onions, egg mayonnaise, cheese & chives (ick, may throw it), ham, mozzerella and cherry tomatoes), french fries. Tea is lasagne, garlic bread & salad when OH gets home from BigMeeting.
ETA:
Done 1235calories in 2 total hours :knackered: BigMeeting went well, just need to check a few things on employment law and hopefully will be free of the albatross. Meeting again next week. Not hopeful for weight loss tomorrow, considering amount of chocolate I have troughed.
Re The Other Thing. Face, bothered? See this face? Is it bothered? izzit.... :rolleyes:
Sunday 4 February 2007
Wagon hitched up again, ready for tomorrow
1 M&Ms brownie, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, 1 vanilla muller light, 1 scotch egg, many Roses chocolates, 3 lemon tarts, pork, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, beans, carrots, apple sauce, gravy.
I. Am. Stuffed. Seriously, I can't move. Not biked today either.
Definately weight back on - was XX.6 this morning. Not as much as a gain as I expected, but a gain nevertheless.
D-Day tomorrow. Wibble.
I. Am. Stuffed. Seriously, I can't move. Not biked today either.
Definately weight back on - was XX.6 this morning. Not as much as a gain as I expected, but a gain nevertheless.
D-Day tomorrow. Wibble.
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