No less than I deserve really

And I (and Chris) absolutely predicted it too. In fact Chris outright TOLD me that I ruined things with friends by being crazy and I didnt quite believe him. All ok now but is too late, but also means some people arent who I thought they were, which I find far more upsetting and wish I hadnt let so many things go.

Anyway. To thinness!

Tried TAMs dress on again today. I think it does fit better, but my flabby belly shows far too much, dress is still tight over it. Plus I dont think I'd trust a strapless bra in it. Chris had to agree and he also says that 7 weeks isnt long enough to get rid of the bellyness so we've agreed I'll find something else to wear. What I have no idea. New Look has failed me and I like some Monsoon stuff but they are WAY out of my price range. Plus TAMs dress is Monsoon so it seems a bit pointless replacing it with something from there, because I dont want to go up a size if that makes sense.

I can't make up my mind about whether to gym today or not. I've been up and done the horses but not ridden. I should ride later but dont want to go for a hack, and field and school both still wet. Bah. Well..... must motivate self... urgh housework

Blahhhhhh

I MUST start blogging again properly and writing down what exercise I do each day. I've forgotten what I've done during the week and thats not great.

The gym was rubbish today. I tried to recreate Tuesdays amazing running-all-the-time run, but managed 5 minutes before giving up and doing fast intervals instead, rather than the hard, incline stuff. Rower was average and cross trainer was slow. Managed situps and a minute of a normal plank. Also did arms.

Not massively impressed with myself at work or in general really. I am obnoxious sometimes.

IdiotHorse (and Good Day Yesterday Shocker)

Yesterday I got to the yard to bring her in at lunchtime (trying to turn her into ThinHorse) to find the little shit hock deep in the pond at the bottom of the field, eating reeds off the island. Her wellies were sopping and she sported highly attractive black fetlocks, white cannon bones and black to the knee/hock yesterday afternoon. Turns out there's a man who comes shooting and he puts corn on that island to encourage the ducks there. Apparently he can't work out why he's not had that many birds this year. I think I've found out why.

Anyway, brought her in, went back to work and then to the gym afterwards... Had my BEST EVER run - 2.5miles in 25minutes dead. I walked for 2 minutes. Was nearly dead by the end and I made Fanny take a picture on her phone to prove it, then I texted everyone with it :geek: Bit cross though, in that I had to stop so I wasnt late for FatClub, but I KNOW I could have made it to 3miles. Probably not in 30minutes, but near enough. FatClub though...think (hope) my weightloss mojo is back...had lost 7lbs from last Tuesday. And yes, I am eating.And not being sick.Wish I could do that every week!! So naturally Chris and I went for pizza for tea. Was SO good. Garlic bread was the best ever.

So, yeah, good day yesterday.

Today...not so good, but its still cool cos yesterday was my favourite day of this week so far. Went on a hack with FatHorse this morning, went the 'wrong' way round the bridleway. Raced a cow (technically, I think it was chasing us) then had a full on fit at a (stationery) 4x4 with an (empty) sheep trailer attatched. Was horrible at the time... First we were in the bush, then the middle of the road (cars behind) then I made the mistake of whacking her, so we had PROPER toys out of the pram for about a minute - felt like a lifetime. Had to stop any thought of doing anything effective and just cling on. Then the little fucker finished her tantrum and strolled on as if nothing had happened!!! We were nearly home as well, like 100metres from the turning back to the yard.

Got to work...had an ok day, bit boring really and just had a really shit gym session, although I DID do 2000m on the rower in 8.30minutes. Itched though, which was shit. And Chris brought some Ben and Jerrys home, which was a bit rubbish lol, although am still within points. Going to go running round Cambridge tomorrow night with Fanny.

Am determined to be in the dress Tam gave me for the Christmas party. I need a strapless bra though, which could be ...difficult. I have 7 weeks to lose 2 dress sizes. I am assured it's doable. Had a FatScan tonight which shows almost no difference to last time I had one, which is shit. Next time will be better.

So tired...

Have had a kind of rubbish gym session, a fab ride - schooling - when she wasnt rushing she was Very Good Indeed and then went to Swinsty with Fanny and the dogs. Took us 50minutes, which was rubbish, but hey...3 workouts today. I'm knackered now though.

Not got nags to do in the morning either, probably just as well, I'm feeling a bit rubbish now. Thought it was dehydration earlier, but I've drunk nearly 6litres of fluid this afternoon/evening, so can't be, surely? FatHorse is playing out in the field tonight, big :crossfingers: she doesnt colic overnight. She was such a star today, was SO proud of her.

OK food, have pointed everything I've eaten and am still 0.5point inside. Think thats probably actually been used up by the generous helping of Nutella I had though. Tomorrow have Shreddies & porridge for lunch, along with the obligatory pink & whites and rice cakes. Must. Be. Good. Can't decide whether to attempt an evening ride tomorrow, ask Fanny if she wants to go for a run, then some sit ups at the gym afterwards or just go running on my own. Oh, these decisions I have. OR I might even gym tomorrow morning. Depends on what time I get up/how I feel. Was awake from 4am to 5am this morning then went back to bed, the next time I looked at the clock it was 9am. Poor ponies.

Or, I might just do nothing :rolleyes:

Woman about the yard never phoned back. Will try again tomorrow morning.