I wont be able to ride soon, I'll be too fat again. We've eaten out for the last 2 nights, and big meals too. I darent get on the scales, but I know its going to be bad.
Pony is going to get lunged uber early tomorrow morning before we go trailing off relative visiting, then will hopefully ride on Monday :noplans:
Had lovely birthday, been very spoilt. Loads of books, cds, pair of joules breeches (have never worn breeches in my LIFE :unsure: - highly unflattering too), a charm bracelet with charms on as a combined parents&chris present...beautybox voucher (obv have turned too horsey already LOL), winestopper, Queen-related stuff, lottery ticket... LOL.
Parents driving me crazy though and I know how ungrateful I'm being, which makes me feel worse, but they can be so hurtful sometimes completely unintentionally.
FatFighters here I come again on Tuesday. Honest. Think I have eaten enough this weekend to last me all year.
Saturday 12 April 2008
Thursday 10 April 2008
I'm old :bawling:
It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm officially, properly, late 20's. Parents arrived just after 6pm and have spent the last 5 hours starting with 'What Went Wrong' at age 3 and we'd only got to age 16 by the time they left. I've been drinking and I suspect in the morning I'll be grateful for the ability to touch type.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Wednesday 9 April 2008
Huge grins
Rode the pony tonight. First time in 6 months, first time at new yard....so I rode bareback cos my stupid saddle STILL hasnt arrived :grumps: Love the cobbit, such a good girl. Got a pic cos her old sharer came up to see her and I just have the biggest grin ever, look a total fool.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Tuesday 8 April 2008
Decisions. Maybe.
Right. I need to stop being such a wimp. Pony was A Very Good Girl tonight - I forgot the gun club are based next door and they were clay pigeon shooting tonight. Took her in the arena to lunge and had a prancy, idiotic pony who thought she was walking hot coals for about 5 minutes, then she got bored and worked properly :wub:
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Monday 7 April 2008
So tired
I've slept though the last couple of nights. Think the answer is no coffee, bugger. Miss my coffee.
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
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