Don't fall in love cos we hate you still

The definitive in Bad Food Days today.

Chocolates, squirty cream, battered sausages and chips for lunch. Chinese takeaway and wine for tea.

Work was shit. If it had been a normal day, with normal amounts of staff on then it would have been a Busy day, but with ALL of us there, well....I probably could have found more to do but I spent most of the day arguing with OH, playing on Facebook and chatting on MSN. Such a good example to set.

I'm feeling :) though as I have managed to pay back a debt which is about 4, maybe five years old, with interest.

Reminising now about bands, back in the day.... :sigh: I miss being 17 sometimes. I do feel old tonight.

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Work has been manic today - got sat down for the very first time at 2.30pm. Still, it's all good, although still no hint of a bonus - I'm still whinging about that. And we're being paid 3 weeks at once tomorrow, so will need to budget properly (I know thats still more often than most people get paid, but I've been paid weekly for the last 2.5 years!!) in order for me not to run out of money.

Went to the gym tonight (although was sorely tempted to give it a miss, was so tired). Am going to go again tomorrow in the day and that will be it till the new year! Must buy a new sports bra - monoboob MINGS. Would really like some new trackie bottoms...but will wait until hips are smaller.

Fat Fighters curry again tonight. I do like it, the raita makes it so much yummier. Shame the raita alone is 4 points though.

I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow, but in reality it boils down to 'go to gym, buy some gift tags, tidy up, do some washing, put tree up'.

Thought of so much to blog earlier. Can I now? Clearly not.

I think I'm getting the hang of this....

Being Organised, that is.

Shame it's so I can be lazy and so all I have to do in the morning is wake up, roll out of bed, get dressed and drink my coffee :rolleyes: Gym bag packed (I feel about 13, saying that) and by my clothes and handbag. Instead of leaving my hair to dry naturally/going to bed with it wet I have dried it. Contemplated straightening it, but suspect that the straightness would have dropped out by morning. Lunch is ready and Fat Fighters pointed. Just need to wrap the last 3 presents, and I'll be so organised even I'll hate me.

Not so good with food today. Well, the sweetie tin was right next to me, and open and it would have been rude not to. Gone over points too, erk. No self control. So I wont have made my personal target of being in the 15's by January. Arse. Nor my target of 3 inches by January :grumps:

Went to gym again tonight. Harder work, but was with Friend and she kept making me laugh. Will go tomorrow and Friday and then I can eat :ahem: slightly more of what I wouldnt normally next week without feeling overly guilty. No chance of getting to the gym over Christmas anyway.

Re ponies.... May go ride the ayrab anyway. Any riding is better than no riding and as I was told -see, I do listen- it will improve core strength etc and can always count towards points. And who knows what might happen?

Fat Fighters curry again for next 2 days to make sure I stay within points. Nearly Christmas though....

Someone tell me what to do...?

Ponies. Again. There's another tantrum incoming.... :rolleyes:

Mentioned to someone who comes into the shop today that I was really missing ponies and I wanted to ride again, did she know what TheLocalRidingSchool was like? Said not to worry about that and to go up to hers and she would teach me if I wanted. She's nice, but pikeyish in a posh way (if that makes sense) and I dont *quite* trust her. Nothing I can put my finger on, but on the face of things I do like her.

Then someone else came in, said dont go to her, she wins, she looks successful but only ever buys ponies someone else has brought on for her, so looks more accomplished than she is. Still with me? They suggested AnotherRidingSchool. Now, I've seen 2 riders from there and 1 horse. Neither rider is a good advert and neither was the horse. But I would normally trust his opinion.

So I may just give up all ideas of riding again until I'm 14 stone (April, May time?) and go to TheLocalRidingSchool before maybe thinking of one on loan again. I've been thinking about having a horse again - part of me is convinced if I am better with my money this time around (you know, budget...) and maybe get a sharer then things would all be ok. But with that, the extension/redecorating etc... I can just see myself having to sell/give back before long. And what if I have another crisis of confidence?

Have been good today, only half a chocolate chip shortbread biscuit - gave it back cos it really didnt taste how it looked, and have turned down all Bad Things at work :D AND been to the gym. Going again tomorrow. Accidentally had the work setting on the treadmill on 90seconds so got off rather red faced, but feel ok.

It's nearly Christmas, I cannot wait....

As predicted....

4lbs on :bawling: Hopefully that fact I'm so upset and annoyed will mean I can get back on track this week. Will have Fat Fighters curry tonight and tomorrow.

Although.... I've eaten chocolate all week, had that bacon sandwich on Friday, 2 ham sandwiches and a big meal and 1.5 bottles of wine Saturday night, then half a bottle of champagne, roast lamb and nibbly bits last night. So it's obvious why I've gained, it just pisses me off that I'm playing catch up this month.

I know it's my own fault. Will be going to the gym today, either on my own or with S, asked her to text me and let me know what she was planning. Sadly I've lost my phone, so I have no idea whats happening at the minute.

Alarm for work went off twice last night, false alarm both times.

Must get myself motivated, lots to do today, including a waitrose trip (again...). Must get OHs presents wrapped too. Got most of them done yesterday, just his mums to wrap for the 'not us' people. Cats were a major irritant, might lock them in the bathroom today lol.

So cross with myself. I feel guilty too....when the first alarm went off, I sent a text to everyone saying 'please please please dont put things on the bins when you bring in....They drop and it sets the alarm off. Thankfully it was now [6pm] and not 3am when I would have been REALLY cross lol! Well done for a great weekend though everyone, see you Tuesday' and got no response at all from 2 of them and a shitty one off the third. I did text round again pointing out I wasnt getting at anyone, and I was proud of everyone for the way they've worked this weekend, but still. We have asked them not to do it. Anyway, is all redundant cos it turns out that the alarm sensor isnt working. Fabulous. Can't find my phone though for a second apology :rolleyes:

Ah well, must shift the lardy arse. You know, do something...on my third day off and havent acheived anything.

Bollocks to Fat Fighters

I've given up for this month, I have no self control at all.

Last night was great, ended up getting drunk - nicely drunk, not like last time - remembered my make up and got loads of lovely comments! Was a lovely night.OH and I went up to the hill afterwards.

Got up this morning and wandered down to the farmers market - wore the pink Joules jacket I bought ages ago and then have never worn because it was tight round my tummy. Well, it's still tight, but not so tight I was embarrassed to go out in public in it! Saw a really lovely mounted photo of SmallTown, taken from where we were last night, so have bought it for OH as it's our 2 year anniversary today. Also saw a gardening kit so got that for OHs mum for either her birthday or Christmas.

Really should start wrapping presents and not be playing on Facebook.