I have no idea whats up with me.... I am still having the most stupid irrational mood swings.
I'm still not entirely enthralled with the idea of these reviews....Apparently they're going to be next Friday now. Great - another week of waking up after dreaming about it. OH is coaching me through what I should say, but the way he puts it isn't what I want to say. He wants me to try and put a positive spin on things, which I can understand why, but....Whats positive about not having enough money to live (if I wasnt in the fortunate position of no rent/mortgage), feeling undervalued and taken for a bit of a fool?
I was REALLY looking forward to doing overtime on Sunday as its so rare I actually get any....N gets offered it first, then LovelyM, then the rest of the shop staff, then any of the three managers, as they can take a day off in lieu instead of being paid, and then, and only then, if none of them want it, am I offered it. It doesnt exactly make me want to help them out of tight situations, which I know is the wrong attitude, but...Oh, I dont know.
Then on top of that, the weight tantrum has kicked in. I am sick sick sick of being on that bastard bike. But I have semi made (another) decision.... I should just do 40 minutes EVERY DAY, whether I've been for a big long walk, or swimming, or whatever. 40 minutes is fairly do able.... Then I will be more inclined to do rowing/situps as well, which I havent done since my birthday.
Am also semi considering joining FatFighters and a gym, but its more money I don't have... I dont know :(
V&M moved to Milton Keynes today. Hope this one works out better for her. Last place was crazy :(
Food: 1 chocolate muffin, lots of minimini chocolate rolls, lots of minimini flapjacks, 1 pork & apple sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 strawberry bun, pasta, cheese sause and sausages, garlic bread, apple pie, clotted cream.
Exercise: Big walk around Chevin - we were out about an hour and included lots of hills. Legs ache now! Also 10minutes on bike.
All these bad things. I know I shouldnt have them, yet I can't say no :(
