today had the potential to start off just as bad as yesterday although crisis seemed to have been averted my just restarting my machine before I switched the tills on. Work, all in all, wasn't that bad, just busy. C was a tit, as ever but we all got on well enough and I didnt have to shout at anyone today.
Got to yard, tacked ponio up and took her in the school. Chris biked up east chevin road (crazy boy) and took some pics of me on her. Two he deleted without even letting me see ('there's no point, you look awful') and the 3rd he let me see, but honestly, I look bigger than the horse. And the blurb that says those jodhs give a flattering sillouhette? I'll sue under trades descriptions.
So, I've got home, he's cooked a lovely big roast chicken dinner and it WAS really lovely. But afterwards, my tummy swelled that badly it looks distended. Huge. Back on vegetables tomorrow. Really don't want to go off to his parents now, I feel shit.
Bad do earlier. Think infected.
Sunday, 20 April 2008
Saturday, 19 April 2008
I hated today
1. Got to yard early to find shetland already out so Molly couldnt go out. Kindly they'd hayed, watered and skipped her out, but it meant I'd had a journey up there for nothing, other than to tell her what a pretty pony she was.
2. Got to work, checked the broadband....nothing. Then my computer (master) crashed. So had to restart everything and ban everyone from touching anything. Got the broadband working again.
3. Credit card machine on the end till decided not to work. Had a tantrum, kicked some things and it worked again.
4. C is a tit. He cannot stay out of the office for longer than 5 minutes, which is no good when I am trying to concentrate because
5. S had put cash through on an account as a cheque, so I had no way of telling if the fact the till was up was because he'd put it through wrong or because people had paid their subs back. Finally finished banking at 11.30.
6. CUSTOMERS. Please don't expect me to make the decision for you. I don't tell you stuff because I like the sound of my own voice, I am telling (suggesting, whatever) you to do something because *I think* it will help your pet. I wont tell you to spend money needlessly, I wont recommend the most expensive product, if I recommend something it's because *I* think it's the best for whatever you want it to do .
7. STAFF. Don't take the piss, don't argue back when you're in the wrong and I wont get cross. Simple, no? You'd think.
8. COMPUTERS. It crashed again as I was doing the sat eve banking. Then I forgot to run the reports.
9. Got to the yard, wanted to ride, but no one about and no one likely to be about for a while. Yard is spooky (to horses and humans...) and I really didnt fancy riding on my own, esp as Cob has had a few days in. OH whinged about coming up (he had my saddle anyway), so I decided to lunge instead. Pony was a tit. BUT did some really lovely work, so, do I be pleased about what I did get or be frustrated at her 'I cant hear you...' behaviour?
10. I swear my phone got a text when I was on the way home, but it was as I was sliding it down. No text when I got home. This has frustrated me cos I want to know who it was from/what it said, or if I just imagined it, which is most likely.
11. I've just unsuccessfully managed to worm the cats. Well. They're wormed, but it's taken both chris and I a good 45 minutes and we're both covered in tuna.
12. I can't decide whether to get up early to the yard and ride before work (AND make sure she gets turned out), or get up early, turn out then go to the gym before work. The main thing that bothers me about riding before work is what if I lose track of time? I need to pick Dan up too. Plus...the idea of running for 45 minutes makes me want to poke my own eyes out. But I dont want to not go just cos I can't be arsed, because if I do that now I'll do it again....Basically, I'll be fucked off if I go, and fucked off if I dont.
13. I still havent cleaned my tack, made my lunch or got myself organised for tomorrow and I'm tired. :whinge:
I'm sure something good happened. No idea what it was though.
2. Got to work, checked the broadband....nothing. Then my computer (master) crashed. So had to restart everything and ban everyone from touching anything. Got the broadband working again.
3. Credit card machine on the end till decided not to work. Had a tantrum, kicked some things and it worked again.
4. C is a tit. He cannot stay out of the office for longer than 5 minutes, which is no good when I am trying to concentrate because
5. S had put cash through on an account as a cheque, so I had no way of telling if the fact the till was up was because he'd put it through wrong or because people had paid their subs back. Finally finished banking at 11.30.
6. CUSTOMERS. Please don't expect me to make the decision for you. I don't tell you stuff because I like the sound of my own voice, I am telling (suggesting, whatever) you to do something because *I think* it will help your pet. I wont tell you to spend money needlessly, I wont recommend the most expensive product, if I recommend something it's because *I* think it's the best for whatever you want it to do .
7. STAFF. Don't take the piss, don't argue back when you're in the wrong and I wont get cross. Simple, no? You'd think.
8. COMPUTERS. It crashed again as I was doing the sat eve banking. Then I forgot to run the reports.
9. Got to the yard, wanted to ride, but no one about and no one likely to be about for a while. Yard is spooky (to horses and humans...) and I really didnt fancy riding on my own, esp as Cob has had a few days in. OH whinged about coming up (he had my saddle anyway), so I decided to lunge instead. Pony was a tit. BUT did some really lovely work, so, do I be pleased about what I did get or be frustrated at her 'I cant hear you...' behaviour?
10. I swear my phone got a text when I was on the way home, but it was as I was sliding it down. No text when I got home. This has frustrated me cos I want to know who it was from/what it said, or if I just imagined it, which is most likely.
11. I've just unsuccessfully managed to worm the cats. Well. They're wormed, but it's taken both chris and I a good 45 minutes and we're both covered in tuna.
12. I can't decide whether to get up early to the yard and ride before work (AND make sure she gets turned out), or get up early, turn out then go to the gym before work. The main thing that bothers me about riding before work is what if I lose track of time? I need to pick Dan up too. Plus...the idea of running for 45 minutes makes me want to poke my own eyes out. But I dont want to not go just cos I can't be arsed, because if I do that now I'll do it again....Basically, I'll be fucked off if I go, and fucked off if I dont.
13. I still havent cleaned my tack, made my lunch or got myself organised for tomorrow and I'm tired. :whinge:
I'm sure something good happened. No idea what it was though.
Friday, 18 April 2008
Twice in 2 days
Gymmed again this morning.... 3 miles (41mins, not impressed, the idea is to get QUICKER), then rower and x-trainer...rubbish rower and even more rubbish x-trainer, had to put it down to level 10 cos I was knackered.
Might not ride :lazycow:
Not really much else to say...Managed to lock myself out of my internet banking earlier, rang up and apparently I failed on the questions (?!) so had to do an emergency trip back into town to get everything unlocked, cos they barred my cards and everything. Bit overkill but suppose I'd be grateful if someone had tried to pinch the 25p I have to my name. And they nearly didnt accept my passport and driving license as ID cos neither of them looked like me :rolleyes:
I'm really tired today as well, have really struggled to get motivated. Maybe 2 bottles of wine last night, although fun, was a bad idea?
Might not ride :lazycow:
Not really much else to say...Managed to lock myself out of my internet banking earlier, rang up and apparently I failed on the questions (?!) so had to do an emergency trip back into town to get everything unlocked, cos they barred my cards and everything. Bit overkill but suppose I'd be grateful if someone had tried to pinch the 25p I have to my name. And they nearly didnt accept my passport and driving license as ID cos neither of them looked like me :rolleyes:
I'm really tired today as well, have really struggled to get motivated. Maybe 2 bottles of wine last night, although fun, was a bad idea?
Thursday, 17 April 2008
sleepy and a little bit drunk
Am homealone as Chris at work catching up on stuff we just havent got time to do during work hours. Suspect I *should* be there with him, but tbh, my work is up to date and I'd just get bored and silly.
Went to the gym after work (smelly needs a new car, as her silver cross pram wont fit in her festa...oh and she's 'given up smoking' apparently. Wish I'd heard when she told the customer that, I'd have said something!!) and ran 3 miles, yay me. Well. I didnt run it all, but probably ran more than I walked, although def not in the last mile and a half. Took 39minutes, then did rower and x-trainer on level 13. Check me out. Went and did cob after, she didnt get her toes done today and clearly didnt go out. Raaah. Lunged her and she was a Good Pony. Love that horse, so much.
Really felt I deserved wine tonight, so have had 1 bottle and am about to open the second. Day off tomorrow. Was planning on going to the gym, but the thought of run/walking on the treadmill, on my own, for 40 minutes makes me want to poke my eyes out.
I'm knackered. Got blisters from the stupid rower.
Not itchyarms, yay me. Weigh day tomorrow. IAS tomorrow.
Went to the gym after work (smelly needs a new car, as her silver cross pram wont fit in her festa...oh and she's 'given up smoking' apparently. Wish I'd heard when she told the customer that, I'd have said something!!) and ran 3 miles, yay me. Well. I didnt run it all, but probably ran more than I walked, although def not in the last mile and a half. Took 39minutes, then did rower and x-trainer on level 13. Check me out. Went and did cob after, she didnt get her toes done today and clearly didnt go out. Raaah. Lunged her and she was a Good Pony. Love that horse, so much.
Really felt I deserved wine tonight, so have had 1 bottle and am about to open the second. Day off tomorrow. Was planning on going to the gym, but the thought of run/walking on the treadmill, on my own, for 40 minutes makes me want to poke my eyes out.
I'm knackered. Got blisters from the stupid rower.
Not itchyarms, yay me. Weigh day tomorrow. IAS tomorrow.
Wednesday, 16 April 2008
very very good....then incredibly bad. Oops.
Ah, well. I tried.
I jogged to and from the yard this morning....from the car which i parked at the top of the drive. Then after work I went to the gym (stef bailed out AGAIN) and Gymbitch made me run 2 miles on the treadmill...which I just managed (25mins - lots of walking tho), spent the whole time bitching at her needlessly... Especially as i think that if I hadnt done that, I would have a/ managed 3 miles (eventually) and b/ it was just unnecessary. Probably should have gone on the cross trainer too, but, lazycowitis today.
Didn't ride. Cob got a good groom instead. Getting a pedicure tomorrow, hopefully if farrier has time. I get a lie in too, so who bets I am up at 6am again?
Itchy arms. All kinds. Such an arse and utterly ridiculous.
I have a huge LONGING to get veryveryveryvery drunk. Not for any particular reason. And I'm buying Wii Fit. I'll save for it, it'll take 10 years, but I want it :brat:
So, the good - running 2 miles...and my slowest rower was 1.15m. Admittedly I did do that first before the treadmill. So, they were good.
The bad...2 slices toast & butter with steph, 1 creme egg and a bowl of posh waitrose ice cream.
The twatlike....itchy arms.
Such an ungrateful ratbag.
I jogged to and from the yard this morning....from the car which i parked at the top of the drive. Then after work I went to the gym (stef bailed out AGAIN) and Gymbitch made me run 2 miles on the treadmill...which I just managed (25mins - lots of walking tho), spent the whole time bitching at her needlessly... Especially as i think that if I hadnt done that, I would have a/ managed 3 miles (eventually) and b/ it was just unnecessary. Probably should have gone on the cross trainer too, but, lazycowitis today.
Didn't ride. Cob got a good groom instead. Getting a pedicure tomorrow, hopefully if farrier has time. I get a lie in too, so who bets I am up at 6am again?
Itchy arms. All kinds. Such an arse and utterly ridiculous.
I have a huge LONGING to get veryveryveryvery drunk. Not for any particular reason. And I'm buying Wii Fit. I'll save for it, it'll take 10 years, but I want it :brat:
So, the good - running 2 miles...and my slowest rower was 1.15m. Admittedly I did do that first before the treadmill. So, they were good.
The bad...2 slices toast & butter with steph, 1 creme egg and a bowl of posh waitrose ice cream.
The twatlike....itchy arms.
Such an ungrateful ratbag.
Tuesday, 15 April 2008
raaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
Here's the crash, slightly earlier than predicted but here nevertheless. I wonder why? It is obviously hormonal, so am back on the happy pills so that'll be another month or so before they kick in again.
So after yesterdays Triumphant Hack, I decided to ride in the arena tonight... Must ask the owner if I can ride in the field, it's horribly deep, flooded and she leaves her jumps up. NOT conducive to having a relaxed, attention-paying cobbit. The clay pigeon shooting in the next field didnt help either, but it wasnt the most inspiring of rides. I rode badlybadly, I still ache from going round Danefield yesterday and she took advantage. Pretty much every evasion (bar bucking and rearing, thankfully) were thrown at me and I failed on everything.
I've lost my phone charger as well which isnt helping my mood. I may yet be communicating through facebook for a while unless I can buy an ubercheap charger off ebay.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So after yesterdays Triumphant Hack, I decided to ride in the arena tonight... Must ask the owner if I can ride in the field, it's horribly deep, flooded and she leaves her jumps up. NOT conducive to having a relaxed, attention-paying cobbit. The clay pigeon shooting in the next field didnt help either, but it wasnt the most inspiring of rides. I rode badlybadly, I still ache from going round Danefield yesterday and she took advantage. Pretty much every evasion (bar bucking and rearing, thankfully) were thrown at me and I failed on everything.
I've lost my phone charger as well which isnt helping my mood. I may yet be communicating through facebook for a while unless I can buy an ubercheap charger off ebay.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Monday, 14 April 2008
quick blog
Urgh, I actually darent get on the scales, I really dont want to know. I'm guessing I'll be back at about 15.12 or so, which is disappointing, but Fat Fighters is most definately starting again tomorrow!!
Parents due round in a few minutes for our Last Supper before they go, with Chris' parents too, so an evening of fun.
Rode the Pony today, went round Danefield!! Am so proud of us both, we went alone and saw all sorts of dangerous monsters (a big lorry, a quad type affair, pushchairs, unruly dogs, other horses -nearly shit myself at that point as before she's spun and twatted about until I've ended up on the floor and she's gone to play with her new friends, but she completely ignored them- and there was a sheep feeder that got a suspicious snort) but then she had a paddy at a puddle? Que? Also had a moment where I parked her up some kind of cliff face while a runner came past on a really bad bit of ground, then when it came to coming off, instead of walking along to where the ground met the 'cliff face' Molly just decided to step off the side :rolleyes: Was only about a foot, but I had visions of coming off then LOL. Bless her she was a good girl, I rode like shit today and if she'd really argued the toss over anything, I'd have come off. Might do some schooling tomorrow, depends on if the school is still underwater. Oh! And I wore jodhpurs. Check me out. And no one obviously laughed either. Some man randomly let me out of the car park though, holding up a load of cars. No idea why as we were quite happy watching everyone go by (cob was pleased of the rest I think) then when I said thank you he utterly ignored me... Odd!!
So, I dont ache that much yet (famous last words) but am so chuffed, it;s unreal. Just hope I can do it again now!
Back to work tomorrow, don't wanna. I could get used to being a lady of leisure, very easily!! Must do lottery more often.
Parents due round in a few minutes for our Last Supper before they go, with Chris' parents too, so an evening of fun.
Rode the Pony today, went round Danefield!! Am so proud of us both, we went alone and saw all sorts of dangerous monsters (a big lorry, a quad type affair, pushchairs, unruly dogs, other horses -nearly shit myself at that point as before she's spun and twatted about until I've ended up on the floor and she's gone to play with her new friends, but she completely ignored them- and there was a sheep feeder that got a suspicious snort) but then she had a paddy at a puddle? Que? Also had a moment where I parked her up some kind of cliff face while a runner came past on a really bad bit of ground, then when it came to coming off, instead of walking along to where the ground met the 'cliff face' Molly just decided to step off the side :rolleyes: Was only about a foot, but I had visions of coming off then LOL. Bless her she was a good girl, I rode like shit today and if she'd really argued the toss over anything, I'd have come off. Might do some schooling tomorrow, depends on if the school is still underwater. Oh! And I wore jodhpurs. Check me out. And no one obviously laughed either. Some man randomly let me out of the car park though, holding up a load of cars. No idea why as we were quite happy watching everyone go by (cob was pleased of the rest I think) then when I said thank you he utterly ignored me... Odd!!
So, I dont ache that much yet (famous last words) but am so chuffed, it;s unreal. Just hope I can do it again now!
Back to work tomorrow, don't wanna. I could get used to being a lady of leisure, very easily!! Must do lottery more often.
Saturday, 12 April 2008
Podged....
I wont be able to ride soon, I'll be too fat again. We've eaten out for the last 2 nights, and big meals too. I darent get on the scales, but I know its going to be bad.
Pony is going to get lunged uber early tomorrow morning before we go trailing off relative visiting, then will hopefully ride on Monday :noplans:
Had lovely birthday, been very spoilt. Loads of books, cds, pair of joules breeches (have never worn breeches in my LIFE :unsure: - highly unflattering too), a charm bracelet with charms on as a combined parents&chris present...beautybox voucher (obv have turned too horsey already LOL), winestopper, Queen-related stuff, lottery ticket... LOL.
Parents driving me crazy though and I know how ungrateful I'm being, which makes me feel worse, but they can be so hurtful sometimes completely unintentionally.
FatFighters here I come again on Tuesday. Honest. Think I have eaten enough this weekend to last me all year.
Pony is going to get lunged uber early tomorrow morning before we go trailing off relative visiting, then will hopefully ride on Monday :noplans:
Had lovely birthday, been very spoilt. Loads of books, cds, pair of joules breeches (have never worn breeches in my LIFE :unsure: - highly unflattering too), a charm bracelet with charms on as a combined parents&chris present...beautybox voucher (obv have turned too horsey already LOL), winestopper, Queen-related stuff, lottery ticket... LOL.
Parents driving me crazy though and I know how ungrateful I'm being, which makes me feel worse, but they can be so hurtful sometimes completely unintentionally.
FatFighters here I come again on Tuesday. Honest. Think I have eaten enough this weekend to last me all year.
Thursday, 10 April 2008
I'm old :bawling:
It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm officially, properly, late 20's. Parents arrived just after 6pm and have spent the last 5 hours starting with 'What Went Wrong' at age 3 and we'd only got to age 16 by the time they left. I've been drinking and I suspect in the morning I'll be grateful for the ability to touch type.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
Huge grins
Rode the pony tonight. First time in 6 months, first time at new yard....so I rode bareback cos my stupid saddle STILL hasnt arrived :grumps: Love the cobbit, such a good girl. Got a pic cos her old sharer came up to see her and I just have the biggest grin ever, look a total fool.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
Decisions. Maybe.
Right. I need to stop being such a wimp. Pony was A Very Good Girl tonight - I forgot the gun club are based next door and they were clay pigeon shooting tonight. Took her in the arena to lunge and had a prancy, idiotic pony who thought she was walking hot coals for about 5 minutes, then she got bored and worked properly :wub:
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Monday, 7 April 2008
So tired
I've slept though the last couple of nights. Think the answer is no coffee, bugger. Miss my coffee.
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Friday, 4 April 2008
definately crazy
Today I have jogged/walked round Yeadon Tarn twice (took 20-ish minutes, shockingly I didnt check properly), then I went to the gym, I was going to do my normal treadmill stuff, but just walked for a mile on a 4% incline & at 4mph. Might not do so much for the fat shifting, but hey, I went running for that.... it's more than I would have done. Then I did a rubbish rower and on the x-trainer. Did do some arms, but started texting people so gave up and went home. Made OH come get me. Oops.
Still not sleeping greatly, but I genuinely dont know what it is that's making me so wide awake. Overexcitement, I think is part of it, but other than that? Money... Bought the baggage a new saddle this morning (ouch, better fucking fit) which at the minute will take approximately a million years to pay off, my weight, I hate it. It's not shifting and I can't stop eating. Have wine now, and if I still dont sleep tonight I'm having my migraine pills tomorrow night.
We've arranged to go out with friends tomorrow night with friends for a meal, I really dont want to go now. I don't hugely want to eat in front of people I dont know that well and I'm not drinking (not if I need the pills). I hatehatehate one of the boys that's going and I can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing.
Girl from the yard came down to work this morning with my keys - really must go look at it :blush: but have a backup ready, so that if it's hugely awful, The Pony only has to stay there one night then I can walk her to another yard. Sounds a bit too good to be true though, 40 per week inc haylage & shavings, use of 20x60 arena, showjumps (it's a showjumping yard), if I'm not there by a certain time in the morning, she'll get put out by the (one) other livery and YO will bring her in and check her every night. Doesnt sound like DIY to me, but I'm not complaining :lol: Think I'm going to have to be brave at hacking alone though, she said no one really did but there's no way I'm having her on the chevin and then not hacking on it :lol:
Please let me sleep tonight, I'm REALLY tired, but also wide awake, if that makes sense.
Food:
1 salami slice, 2 x laughing cow light, 1 x rice cake, 1 packet of crisps, 1 slice melon, 1 chocolate rice crispy cake with 2 mini eggs, chris stew, yorkshire pudding, chris-brioche, nutella, 1 bottle white wine.
Still not sleeping greatly, but I genuinely dont know what it is that's making me so wide awake. Overexcitement, I think is part of it, but other than that? Money... Bought the baggage a new saddle this morning (ouch, better fucking fit) which at the minute will take approximately a million years to pay off, my weight, I hate it. It's not shifting and I can't stop eating. Have wine now, and if I still dont sleep tonight I'm having my migraine pills tomorrow night.
We've arranged to go out with friends tomorrow night with friends for a meal, I really dont want to go now. I don't hugely want to eat in front of people I dont know that well and I'm not drinking (not if I need the pills). I hatehatehate one of the boys that's going and I can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing.
Girl from the yard came down to work this morning with my keys - really must go look at it :blush: but have a backup ready, so that if it's hugely awful, The Pony only has to stay there one night then I can walk her to another yard. Sounds a bit too good to be true though, 40 per week inc haylage & shavings, use of 20x60 arena, showjumps (it's a showjumping yard), if I'm not there by a certain time in the morning, she'll get put out by the (one) other livery and YO will bring her in and check her every night. Doesnt sound like DIY to me, but I'm not complaining :lol: Think I'm going to have to be brave at hacking alone though, she said no one really did but there's no way I'm having her on the chevin and then not hacking on it :lol:
Please let me sleep tonight, I'm REALLY tired, but also wide awake, if that makes sense.
Food:
1 salami slice, 2 x laughing cow light, 1 x rice cake, 1 packet of crisps, 1 slice melon, 1 chocolate rice crispy cake with 2 mini eggs, chris stew, yorkshire pudding, chris-brioche, nutella, 1 bottle white wine.
reasons i cant sleep
1. weight
2. money
3. IAS
4. worried I wont do the pony justice now!!
5. Work
6. letting people down
7. just being a bitch in general
I'll leave it there for now
2. money
3. IAS
4. worried I wont do the pony justice now!!
5. Work
6. letting people down
7. just being a bitch in general
I'll leave it there for now
Thursday, 3 April 2008
two days running...
Blimey, have blogged more in 2 days than in last 2 weeks.
Pony-mobile booked and insurance set up. Went to open her a bank account but Wednesday is earliest they can do - arse. Driver is a bit keen though, he wants to leave in the middle of the night to avoid the traffic... I'm hoping I can take my iPod and sleep. Would that be rude?
Went 'running' tonight with friend from work (who I am also doing race for life with) round Gallows Hill. Took us 20 minutes and we finished there cos she (not me!!) was bored. Huh. Think it's about a mile, we walked most of it I think. The problem with the 2 of us is we're both fundamentally really lazy and neither of us push each other. Going again tomorrow with the accountant (AND we find out if we're getting a bonus tomorrow - huge crossed fingers. If we dont get one I'm going to push her in the Tarn) and Sunday with Gymbitch.
Saw a new phone contract on tinterweb today with same network I'm with, for 35quid a month, you get 750calls and unlimited texts. Says you can cancel your existing contract as long as you're within 2 months of the end of the minimum contract - mines up next month, so hopefully I should be ok. Something will go wrong, I know it. But I'm going Sunday to ask about it.
I'm getting tired at long last, I'm really hoping I sleep tonight. However, N is on her way over. Usually has the opposite effect on me. I. Am. Not. Drinking. Owner came into work today and told me I looked like shite & exhausted. That's not great.
Wish I'd gone to the gym instead today. Oh well.
Todays food:
3 x laughing cow light
2 slice salami
2 x salt & vinegar rice cakes
1/2 of a Chris pork pie
1 packet crisps
grapes
Chris-Stew
Yorkshire pudding
half of some kind of nutty pastry affair
Hmm. I'm quite sure I ate more at lunchtime.
Pony-mobile booked and insurance set up. Went to open her a bank account but Wednesday is earliest they can do - arse. Driver is a bit keen though, he wants to leave in the middle of the night to avoid the traffic... I'm hoping I can take my iPod and sleep. Would that be rude?
Went 'running' tonight with friend from work (who I am also doing race for life with) round Gallows Hill. Took us 20 minutes and we finished there cos she (not me!!) was bored. Huh. Think it's about a mile, we walked most of it I think. The problem with the 2 of us is we're both fundamentally really lazy and neither of us push each other. Going again tomorrow with the accountant (AND we find out if we're getting a bonus tomorrow - huge crossed fingers. If we dont get one I'm going to push her in the Tarn) and Sunday with Gymbitch.
Saw a new phone contract on tinterweb today with same network I'm with, for 35quid a month, you get 750calls and unlimited texts. Says you can cancel your existing contract as long as you're within 2 months of the end of the minimum contract - mines up next month, so hopefully I should be ok. Something will go wrong, I know it. But I'm going Sunday to ask about it.
I'm getting tired at long last, I'm really hoping I sleep tonight. However, N is on her way over. Usually has the opposite effect on me. I. Am. Not. Drinking. Owner came into work today and told me I looked like shite & exhausted. That's not great.
Wish I'd gone to the gym instead today. Oh well.
Todays food:
3 x laughing cow light
2 slice salami
2 x salt & vinegar rice cakes
1/2 of a Chris pork pie
1 packet crisps
grapes
Chris-Stew
Yorkshire pudding
half of some kind of nutty pastry affair
Hmm. I'm quite sure I ate more at lunchtime.
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
WWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Right, if this doesnt work, I'm giving up entirely. This is the FOURTH time I've tried to post this fucking thing.
Essentially, if I was to round things up, in a nutshell, it would be thus:
1. We love the Gymbitch. I'm running, outside, in daylight, where people can see me. AND she doesnt laugh at me (openly!)even when I cant breathe, having run approximately a metre.
2. The pony is coming back!! Equal parts supreme overexcitement, terror and OMG I can't afford this... Actually, I think overexcitement is outweighing everything else at the minute. It'll kick in again once I've had a week of mucking out.
3. Due to combination of Gymbitch & Pony, I've just had the best workout ever. Nearly died doing it, but am so proud of myself tonight, in a 'it's all gonna go to shit soon' way.
4. Might be giving up Fat Fighters. I'm not really enjoying it anymore (the pointing), I'm forever going over points and I could do with the extra money. I should really give up the gym too, but I can't quite bring myself to do that. We'll see how it goes time & money wise.
I think part of the enthusiasm has gone because even though *I* don't see the change in me, I am wearing size 18-20 clothes which not so long ago was an unacheivable target... I dont know. I keep forgetting to do measurements as well, so maybe the obsession is going. lets hope so. Am off the happy pills too now and no one seems to have noticed any difference so ever onwards...I have had one huge slip, but. Itchy Arms Syndrome. I just dont want it all to come back.
Work is ok. The biggest irritant is away at the minute and comes back when I'm off for a week so that works out quite nicely for me.
I'll just have the lottery numbers for Saturday night please and then I think I'm sorted. Positivity, excitement and no whinging, all in one post. Today truly is a good day. Lets hope the fucking thing posts now.
Food:
half a boost bar
8 squares whole nut
the vast majority of a bag of Haribo (maybe thats what made me superpowered on the rower?)
1 packet crisps
1 sausage
vegetables
rachelraita
2 slices chris-brioche
nutella
1 x salami & laughing cow light.
Ouch. I felt thin today too.
Essentially, if I was to round things up, in a nutshell, it would be thus:
1. We love the Gymbitch. I'm running, outside, in daylight, where people can see me. AND she doesnt laugh at me (openly!)even when I cant breathe, having run approximately a metre.
2. The pony is coming back!! Equal parts supreme overexcitement, terror and OMG I can't afford this... Actually, I think overexcitement is outweighing everything else at the minute. It'll kick in again once I've had a week of mucking out.
3. Due to combination of Gymbitch & Pony, I've just had the best workout ever. Nearly died doing it, but am so proud of myself tonight, in a 'it's all gonna go to shit soon' way.
4. Might be giving up Fat Fighters. I'm not really enjoying it anymore (the pointing), I'm forever going over points and I could do with the extra money. I should really give up the gym too, but I can't quite bring myself to do that. We'll see how it goes time & money wise.
I think part of the enthusiasm has gone because even though *I* don't see the change in me, I am wearing size 18-20 clothes which not so long ago was an unacheivable target... I dont know. I keep forgetting to do measurements as well, so maybe the obsession is going. lets hope so. Am off the happy pills too now and no one seems to have noticed any difference so ever onwards...I have had one huge slip, but. Itchy Arms Syndrome. I just dont want it all to come back.
Work is ok. The biggest irritant is away at the minute and comes back when I'm off for a week so that works out quite nicely for me.
I'll just have the lottery numbers for Saturday night please and then I think I'm sorted. Positivity, excitement and no whinging, all in one post. Today truly is a good day. Lets hope the fucking thing posts now.
Food:
half a boost bar
8 squares whole nut
the vast majority of a bag of Haribo (maybe thats what made me superpowered on the rower?)
1 packet crisps
1 sausage
vegetables
rachelraita
2 slices chris-brioche
nutella
1 x salami & laughing cow light.
Ouch. I felt thin today too.
Friday, 28 March 2008
Long time no blog
I havent changed weight though.
Had a much more successful shopping trip last week - lots of jeans and a couple of tops, then today went again with the intention of MAYBE looking at an iPod and came home with an iPod, 3 tops, new bra (to go with the semi-backless top) and pants, a pair of jeans to thin into (really, they dont go above my hips...) and THE most gorgeous pair of shoes ever. Really quite high and I am going to fall off them and probably break my ankle.
Also had a really disapointing lunch in Costa. We broke the diet and truly wasnt worth it. AND it was 20quid. Robbing bastards.
I think my Garbage CD is broken :'( Will genuinely be really upset if it is, was so looking forward to having it on the ipod. Such a geek.
Must get back into eating properly, I've eaten a load of shit recently and although I dont *think* I've put any weight on, it's only cos I've been going to the gym loads. Think how much I could have lost if I'd gone to the gym and eaten less?!
Had a much more successful shopping trip last week - lots of jeans and a couple of tops, then today went again with the intention of MAYBE looking at an iPod and came home with an iPod, 3 tops, new bra (to go with the semi-backless top) and pants, a pair of jeans to thin into (really, they dont go above my hips...) and THE most gorgeous pair of shoes ever. Really quite high and I am going to fall off them and probably break my ankle.
Also had a really disapointing lunch in Costa. We broke the diet and truly wasnt worth it. AND it was 20quid. Robbing bastards.
I think my Garbage CD is broken :'( Will genuinely be really upset if it is, was so looking forward to having it on the ipod. Such a geek.
Must get back into eating properly, I've eaten a load of shit recently and although I dont *think* I've put any weight on, it's only cos I've been going to the gym loads. Think how much I could have lost if I'd gone to the gym and eaten less?!
Wednesday, 19 March 2008
long time no blog....
TPO is still pregnant and dragging everyone down, got a new girl who is FAB, has settled in really well and works hard. Can't fault her, although she wants to leave cos of TPO. So that's shit.
Went shopping cos everyone moaned that I had no decent trousers so went shopping and found fuck all fitted, so came home in tears, went to the gym and didnt eat for the day. That was grown up.
I've found a pony I really want but I must be grown up and desist. Quite apart from the fact I dont have the money. Or the time, or the...anything really.
Got my race for life stuff through last week, I'm runner 300. Must up my running. meant to be going round some reservoir somewhere at some point. Running in public. Erk.
Have badly fallen off the wagon this month, must get back into things.
Went shopping cos everyone moaned that I had no decent trousers so went shopping and found fuck all fitted, so came home in tears, went to the gym and didnt eat for the day. That was grown up.
I've found a pony I really want but I must be grown up and desist. Quite apart from the fact I dont have the money. Or the time, or the...anything really.
Got my race for life stuff through last week, I'm runner 300. Must up my running. meant to be going round some reservoir somewhere at some point. Running in public. Erk.
Have badly fallen off the wagon this month, must get back into things.
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
so fucked off
Had my bodyfat measured properly last night :bawling: 41% of me is Bad Fat. 9 stone is Good Fat. This bothers me as it looks like I will never get to 11stone goal, if 9stone of me now is Good - going to the gym surely means that will only increase...? Must find out what a good range is. BMI is 34 :bawling: (computer told me it was 33...ok, only a point, but hey).
Might not go to gym tonight - not cos I'm disillusioned, honest, but more because my house needs cleaning, properly, and I'll be knackered if I gym then clean :wimp: I'm yawning now!!
Next day off looks like it will be the 22nd March. Nightmare, but at least I'm getting paid The Deserters wage on the days that should have been my days off. They can go into New Clothes Fund.
Might not go to gym tonight - not cos I'm disillusioned, honest, but more because my house needs cleaning, properly, and I'll be knackered if I gym then clean :wimp: I'm yawning now!!
Next day off looks like it will be the 22nd March. Nightmare, but at least I'm getting paid The Deserters wage on the days that should have been my days off. They can go into New Clothes Fund.
Sunday, 2 March 2008
tired
B has walked out. TPO is still there, 'feeling really guilty you all have to do my work for you' :| I'm fast running out of sympathy, especially as tomorrow I will be the only one in.
Food-restraint is WAY out of the window.
Gymbitch suggested I do some boxing. Tempted.
Food-restraint is WAY out of the window.
Gymbitch suggested I do some boxing. Tempted.
Saturday, 1 March 2008
Measurements
Saturday March 1st 2008
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
8.5 inches gone... Better than I thought.
Looking through my diary last night, I saw my next target was to be 14.8 by my birthday. Really dont think that's going to happen :( I MUST get back into it, I've had such a bad week, last night we had pizza, wine and chocolate. :S But was same weight this morning as I was yesterday so not all bad. And I have a one on one with Gymbitch tomorrow.
I want to go shopping though.... I must admit now I need some more work jeans and possiblya belt or 2, but dont really want to go on my own. But what if the same happens as last time and I end up utterly depressed cos nothing fits? Dont really have the money for shopping either. Rahhh.
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
8.5 inches gone... Better than I thought.
Looking through my diary last night, I saw my next target was to be 14.8 by my birthday. Really dont think that's going to happen :( I MUST get back into it, I've had such a bad week, last night we had pizza, wine and chocolate. :S But was same weight this morning as I was yesterday so not all bad. And I have a one on one with Gymbitch tomorrow.
I want to go shopping though.... I must admit now I need some more work jeans and possiblya belt or 2, but dont really want to go on my own. But what if the same happens as last time and I end up utterly depressed cos nothing fits? Dont really have the money for shopping either. Rahhh.
Thursday, 28 February 2008
tantrums, hormones and meh-ness
rahhhh/ Stinky is still pregnant. She is 'not allowed' to lift AT ALL and has had everyone (bar me cos I'm mean) running about fetching and carrying for her. I want to rant on some forums I go on, but I know how it will be taken.
Weight is Not Good. Had a bad 2 days which involved chocolate and a hot ham sandwich. I'm shocked at how much I've put on tbh. I didnt think it would be as much. Definate gain week. And pizza tomorrow. Must go to gym tomorrow night.
Work not bad. S'ok.
Weight is Not Good. Had a bad 2 days which involved chocolate and a hot ham sandwich. I'm shocked at how much I've put on tbh. I didnt think it would be as much. Definate gain week. And pizza tomorrow. Must go to gym tomorrow night.
Work not bad. S'ok.
Sunday, 24 February 2008
tantruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmm
I cant stop eating and have put on 6lbs since my WI on Friday :bawling: First 2lbs I blamed on totm, but no chance now.
Wedding last night was gorgeous. I'm kind of jealous :rolleyes:
Wedding last night was gorgeous. I'm kind of jealous :rolleyes:
Friday, 22 February 2008
*sigh*
I was 15.5 yesterday morning :( So have put on weight through eating that yummy flapjack (not sure it was worth 12 points though)and drinking the pink wine. Sigh. But, hey, it's still a loss from last week.... New 10% goal is now 14 stone, by which point I will only be overweight according to my BMI, as opposed to morbidly obese :rolleyes:
Gym in a bit - tbh I cant really work up enthusiasm to go, esp as will do EVERYTHING.
I was oh-so-right re the Work Thing with S. Knew it. Boys are so shit at hiding stuff.
Must get motivated. Have Things To DO before I go to the gym, plus I need to remember to take the stupid grate with me to swap it. bah. Why couldnt OH do it tomorrow?
Gym in a bit - tbh I cant really work up enthusiasm to go, esp as will do EVERYTHING.
I was oh-so-right re the Work Thing with S. Knew it. Boys are so shit at hiding stuff.
Must get motivated. Have Things To DO before I go to the gym, plus I need to remember to take the stupid grate with me to swap it. bah. Why couldnt OH do it tomorrow?
Monday, 18 February 2008
sulky
The Pregnant One is pregnant no longer. Do we give it three months before she is again?
I dropped a bale of chop onto my leg which was out to the side earlier, nearly popping it out of the hip socket. Bastard well hurts now. OH is Off Games for the forseeable now. Also meant I didnt go to the gym. Half pissed off, half kind of relieved, we were so busy with TPO being off, that I'm not sure I really needed the gym tonight :lol:
There are Decisions and Dilemmas about TPO and also my job, I think, if I want to have a family, or get into the family way at any point.Erk.
Had to do an emergency Tesco shop today, which pissed me off (we only went Friday!!!). Just means we spend more money we dont really have on things we dont especially need (yes, I bought a DVD) and we've still forgotten stuff.
Hands are all dry and horrid :( They look like they belong to a 100yo woman :(
I dropped a bale of chop onto my leg which was out to the side earlier, nearly popping it out of the hip socket. Bastard well hurts now. OH is Off Games for the forseeable now. Also meant I didnt go to the gym. Half pissed off, half kind of relieved, we were so busy with TPO being off, that I'm not sure I really needed the gym tonight :lol:
There are Decisions and Dilemmas about TPO and also my job, I think, if I want to have a family, or get into the family way at any point.Erk.
Had to do an emergency Tesco shop today, which pissed me off (we only went Friday!!!). Just means we spend more money we dont really have on things we dont especially need (yes, I bought a DVD) and we've still forgotten stuff.
Hands are all dry and horrid :( They look like they belong to a 100yo woman :(
Sunday, 17 February 2008
Not the best day
Bad nights sleep, plus an 8am 'alarm' (haha) call from work, divided by The Most Irritating Man in the Universe, bar none = really fucking grumpy FB.
I had loads to blog earlier, I'm sure of it, but I just kept putting it off (ooh, I'll just put some washing on/mop the floor/hoover - clearly I am ill) and now I cant remember what it was.
I think it can be summed up by 1. This connection on the internet from this computer REALLY fucks me off, and 2. I'm fed up of hovering round this weight. I have 4 days to lose 4lbs (maybe a bit more) and it's SO not going to happen.
bugger it. I'm off to bed.
I had loads to blog earlier, I'm sure of it, but I just kept putting it off (ooh, I'll just put some washing on/mop the floor/hoover - clearly I am ill) and now I cant remember what it was.
I think it can be summed up by 1. This connection on the internet from this computer REALLY fucks me off, and 2. I'm fed up of hovering round this weight. I have 4 days to lose 4lbs (maybe a bit more) and it's SO not going to happen.
bugger it. I'm off to bed.
Friday, 15 February 2008
I'm not dead!
But I did run. New program is:
rower - 5 x 300metre/30seconds rest. The AIM is to do it in less than 1m15. That idea is laughable.
treadmill - 1min @ 3.5mph/5% incline, 1min @ 5mph/0% incline, although I may up it to 5.5mph.... Took me 14minutes to do a mile.
cross trainer - random setting, level 7, 7 minutes. I will build up to 10mins - in fact I might try it on monday. But :whinge: it will be busy and those fast running girls will be there and I'll fall off the treadmill.
I almost find it easier than the last one she did me. Dont tell her though.
Also went for a quick walk on the chevin - was out for 33 minutes. Now I have times for both walks, will try and beat myself back on them the next time I go up there.
Looby is being sick :( Silly bugger ate a packet of egg fried noodles yesterday.
rower - 5 x 300metre/30seconds rest. The AIM is to do it in less than 1m15. That idea is laughable.
treadmill - 1min @ 3.5mph/5% incline, 1min @ 5mph/0% incline, although I may up it to 5.5mph.... Took me 14minutes to do a mile.
cross trainer - random setting, level 7, 7 minutes. I will build up to 10mins - in fact I might try it on monday. But :whinge: it will be busy and those fast running girls will be there and I'll fall off the treadmill.
I almost find it easier than the last one she did me. Dont tell her though.
Also went for a quick walk on the chevin - was out for 33 minutes. Now I have times for both walks, will try and beat myself back on them the next time I go up there.
Looby is being sick :( Silly bugger ate a packet of egg fried noodles yesterday.
Thursday, 14 February 2008
So spoilt
:wub: OH. Lush toys and a necklace from Tiffanys awaited me this morning :hyperventilate: Such a shock, truly cant believe it. It's been everywhere with me today LOL.
Having a bit of a 'cant be arsed' mood today though. Day off and I have troughed my bodyweight in Bad Things. This is doubly bad as not only is it WI tomorrow, it's been such Bad Things, I'm STILL hungry.
Tried to get a fire going for OH to come home to, but it goes for about a minute then dies.
Gymbitch collared me at the gym last night and I had my arm twisted into booking another review for tomorrow. But it's still hard!! She wants me to run too. I dont want to.
N came round, moaned she was single, moaned I was so lucky, moaned she had no job (whos fault?) then left.
Really must get motivated, mum wants me to write something about the smallest kitten for her cat club newsletter and I. Have. No. Inspiration.
Food today:
6 pink & whites
1 packet cheese puffs
3 rice cakes
2 laughing cow light
LOTS of chocolate
2 packets jumbo munch dairylea dunkers (:S)
1 mars drink
slimey chicken
marshmallows
martini asti
hot chocolate (highlights)
Tomorrow will be a gain, I've checked :( I went for a long walk on the chevin (just under an hour) and had some laxatives but nowt. I cant get in an arse about it, it is my own undisciplined fault.
Having a bit of a 'cant be arsed' mood today though. Day off and I have troughed my bodyweight in Bad Things. This is doubly bad as not only is it WI tomorrow, it's been such Bad Things, I'm STILL hungry.
Tried to get a fire going for OH to come home to, but it goes for about a minute then dies.
Gymbitch collared me at the gym last night and I had my arm twisted into booking another review for tomorrow. But it's still hard!! She wants me to run too. I dont want to.
N came round, moaned she was single, moaned I was so lucky, moaned she had no job (whos fault?) then left.
Really must get motivated, mum wants me to write something about the smallest kitten for her cat club newsletter and I. Have. No. Inspiration.
Food today:
6 pink & whites
1 packet cheese puffs
3 rice cakes
2 laughing cow light
LOTS of chocolate
2 packets jumbo munch dairylea dunkers (:S)
1 mars drink
slimey chicken
marshmallows
martini asti
hot chocolate (highlights)
Tomorrow will be a gain, I've checked :( I went for a long walk on the chevin (just under an hour) and had some laxatives but nowt. I cant get in an arse about it, it is my own undisciplined fault.
Tuesday, 12 February 2008
really tired....
ran at the gym tonight again. Only managed a minute each time. Think I'm getting worse. Rower I just couldnt do....not under a minute anyway, more like 1m10. Arms really ached. Did core and legs today, going to attempt little plank for 1m30 tomorrow (laughable), side planks for 15 seconds (again... my feet slip out from under me) and upper planks for 40 (I did 30 today). Gymbitch still wants me to have a review.
B at work is pregnant. She found out today. Boyfriend doesnt know. They've been together less than 3 months. It was a deliberate accident.
Checked my account after Sundays shopping extravaganza. My current account is now #2.58 in credit. Shit. Still. At least it's in credit. And my credit card is at zero.
What else can I have for lunch? I'm kind of sick of fat fighters banoffee pies for dessert.
Gym again tomorrow, am tired just thinking about it.
B at work is pregnant. She found out today. Boyfriend doesnt know. They've been together less than 3 months. It was a deliberate accident.
Checked my account after Sundays shopping extravaganza. My current account is now #2.58 in credit. Shit. Still. At least it's in credit. And my credit card is at zero.
What else can I have for lunch? I'm kind of sick of fat fighters banoffee pies for dessert.
Gym again tomorrow, am tired just thinking about it.
Monday, 11 February 2008
podged....again
Loving the curry. Although I had put on 2lbs this morning :s . My joules jogging bottoms turned up this morning.....THEY FIT!!! An 18! In Joules!!! Bottoms!! S said they were fine (such a boy answer) but I'm not convinced I'd wear them in public.
Went to the gym tonight (fitting in an 18 bottoms inspired me) but only managed cardio and arms. Bit cross now as may as well done the lot, but can go tomorrow. Gymbitch thinks it's time for a review. Hmmm.
OH keeps mentioning my valentines present and what a HUGE thing it is but then gets cross when I ask about it. Boys.
My shoulder is a bit sore tonight.
I think I am going to have to be careful, looking at the new clothes I have bought is not to get carried away with the fact that I fit into clothes from XXXX shop on the high street and wear them regardless, but wear them because they actually FIT and look good.
Went to the gym tonight (fitting in an 18 bottoms inspired me) but only managed cardio and arms. Bit cross now as may as well done the lot, but can go tomorrow. Gymbitch thinks it's time for a review. Hmmm.
OH keeps mentioning my valentines present and what a HUGE thing it is but then gets cross when I ask about it. Boys.
My shoulder is a bit sore tonight.
I think I am going to have to be careful, looking at the new clothes I have bought is not to get carried away with the fact that I fit into clothes from XXXX shop on the high street and wear them regardless, but wear them because they actually FIT and look good.
Sunday, 10 February 2008
Uh-oh, who's in trouble?
I went Shopping today. Only went to HGate for some jogging bottoms and a *little* bit of Lush.
Came home with 2 DVDs, a Wii game, a cd, a *lot* of Lush, a hoody, some jogging bottoms, 4 books and some pants from La Senza.... Assistant in La Senza suggested I get measured for one of their bras :heehee: pointed out I was a GG cup (:blush:) and she told me to get measured there one day as they sized differently. Hmmmm. I might. Dont really want to go up a million back sizes though :S
Spent morning with N on the yard. I missed horses today. Even the shitty (haha) jobs like mucking out and pottering about. Sorted the horse out and got introduced to a few of the liveries. Some potty rules, but actually, they probably mean the yard runs very well. Sometimes they do part loans there, and I was so sorely tempted for in a couple of stones time....but its expensive, it's over 10 miles away, and i suspect I wouldnt fit in with the majority of liveries there (you know, I work and my OHs income is less than several million a year...).
Having fat fighters curry for tea tomorrow and Tuesday (had it lastnight and this too) so I can save points for valentines day. Bit of a bugger having WI the day after, esp as will be having sparkly wine. OH is winding me up saying I'm not allowed his present until after work so I dont blab to everyone about it. Odd.
Came home with 2 DVDs, a Wii game, a cd, a *lot* of Lush, a hoody, some jogging bottoms, 4 books and some pants from La Senza.... Assistant in La Senza suggested I get measured for one of their bras :heehee: pointed out I was a GG cup (:blush:) and she told me to get measured there one day as they sized differently. Hmmmm. I might. Dont really want to go up a million back sizes though :S
Spent morning with N on the yard. I missed horses today. Even the shitty (haha) jobs like mucking out and pottering about. Sorted the horse out and got introduced to a few of the liveries. Some potty rules, but actually, they probably mean the yard runs very well. Sometimes they do part loans there, and I was so sorely tempted for in a couple of stones time....but its expensive, it's over 10 miles away, and i suspect I wouldnt fit in with the majority of liveries there (you know, I work and my OHs income is less than several million a year...).
Having fat fighters curry for tea tomorrow and Tuesday (had it lastnight and this too) so I can save points for valentines day. Bit of a bugger having WI the day after, esp as will be having sparkly wine. OH is winding me up saying I'm not allowed his present until after work so I dont blab to everyone about it. Odd.
Saturday, 9 February 2008
Feeling Virtuous
And also poor...
Took the car down this morning to get the exhaust fixed. They werent quite ready to start it when I took it, so as I had my gym kit in the boot I went to the gym and just did my cardio program. So tomorrow can be a Nell day.
So virtuous - gym, yay me, as i wasnt planning on going, but poor....Car cost #176.
N is back. Going to see her and B tomorrow. I wonder if she is still self-diagnosed depressed? It is such hard work when she is like this as she expects (and demands) all the answers NOW to stuff no one else could ever possibly know, and then gets in an arse when either what you've said never pans out/she doesnt like it.
I really must motivate myself to get this house clean. So far I've washed up and thats it. Everywhere is such a state.
Took the car down this morning to get the exhaust fixed. They werent quite ready to start it when I took it, so as I had my gym kit in the boot I went to the gym and just did my cardio program. So tomorrow can be a Nell day.
So virtuous - gym, yay me, as i wasnt planning on going, but poor....Car cost #176.
N is back. Going to see her and B tomorrow. I wonder if she is still self-diagnosed depressed? It is such hard work when she is like this as she expects (and demands) all the answers NOW to stuff no one else could ever possibly know, and then gets in an arse when either what you've said never pans out/she doesnt like it.
I really must motivate myself to get this house clean. So far I've washed up and thats it. Everywhere is such a state.
Friday, 8 February 2008
weigh in....
I'm in the 15's!! I'm not getting over excited because a) I'm hardly convincingly in there, b) I've just eaten an OH pizza and c) I'm 4.5points over today.
I'm quite cross with myself because c) was my own fault. OH had left his lunch at work and I couldnt help myself and ate half his sandwich.... which was 4.5points for that half :S Still the pizza was amazing as always and...I'm in the 15's!
My aim of being 15.7 by Feb 26th seems a little far fetched though.
I thought I would feel so thin when I got to the 15's but I really dont.... 14's seems a much better number....13's even better etc.
My teeth are in dire need of being sorted now. I really must make a concerted effort now to save and get my broken tooth fixed (18months now it's been broken) and get the rest of them sorted and get me on DenPlan or similar. Plus I need to save for my divorce.
My bonus was paid today....yay!! But the exhaust on my car has fallen off, so guess where that's going. *sigh* I was so positive about money too, not so long ago.
I'm going to have put on so much tomorrow. Almost tempted not to look. Must gym. Or potentially a Nell DVD.
I'm quite cross with myself because c) was my own fault. OH had left his lunch at work and I couldnt help myself and ate half his sandwich.... which was 4.5points for that half :S Still the pizza was amazing as always and...I'm in the 15's!
My aim of being 15.7 by Feb 26th seems a little far fetched though.
I thought I would feel so thin when I got to the 15's but I really dont.... 14's seems a much better number....13's even better etc.
My teeth are in dire need of being sorted now. I really must make a concerted effort now to save and get my broken tooth fixed (18months now it's been broken) and get the rest of them sorted and get me on DenPlan or similar. Plus I need to save for my divorce.
My bonus was paid today....yay!! But the exhaust on my car has fallen off, so guess where that's going. *sigh* I was so positive about money too, not so long ago.
I'm going to have put on so much tomorrow. Almost tempted not to look. Must gym. Or potentially a Nell DVD.
Wednesday, 6 February 2008
Ubercore
Uuuurrrrgghhhh My tummy aches already. Doesnt really feel like we did much tbh, but I ache already. Managed plank for 1m13s - a personal best! Also increased the x-trainer to level 10.
cannot WAIT until payday.
cannot WAIT until payday.
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
so tired
Went to gym tonight and did my full program. Am knackered!! Not a chance in hell of running, was an effort to stay on the treadmill just walking. Didnt get any of the rower metres under a minute. I did, however, manage to plank for a whole minute and have increased the cross trainer to level 8. It's all good, right?
Pancakes for tea - I cant have pointed right, I still have 1.5points left and had 4 pancakes.... 2 with ham & mozzerella (mmmm), 1 with chocolate spread and marshmallows and one with lemon juice & sweetener.
Dont think laxatives worked. Well. They probably have. I am Fat Bloater-4 poo's today and am HIGHLY windy this evening.
Must motivate myself and go to bed. Am in grave danger of falling asleep here. This YouTube obsession is Very Bad.
Pancakes for tea - I cant have pointed right, I still have 1.5points left and had 4 pancakes.... 2 with ham & mozzerella (mmmm), 1 with chocolate spread and marshmallows and one with lemon juice & sweetener.
Dont think laxatives worked. Well. They probably have. I am Fat Bloater-4 poo's today and am HIGHLY windy this evening.
Must motivate myself and go to bed. Am in grave danger of falling asleep here. This YouTube obsession is Very Bad.
Monday, 4 February 2008
Woe is Me
*sigh* How do I get this pound off? I'm still just teetering on 16stone and it's starting to piss me off.
Without getting too graphic, I constantly feel like I need a Very Big Poo so OH has trundled out to Tesco and is getting me some laxatives. Must gym tomorrow. I did plan on going today, but I felt so shit at lunch time - blurry eyes, swaying, slurred speech, I really thought I was going to have a migraine. Typically I am fine now and itchy cos I havent done much today.
Not much else to blog really. A friend and I are considering doing the BHF Leeds-Skipton walk (the whole thing!!) but that isnt till September - she should have been her GW for months and I should just about be getting there. Race for Life is applied for etc, just waiting for my pack now. Different Friend still hasnt applied which has pissed me off - I really dont want to do it on my own.
Hope OH comes back soon. How long do they take to work? Hours? Minutes? I'm going to need my Big Poo at work, or at the gym, arent I? :(
Without getting too graphic, I constantly feel like I need a Very Big Poo so OH has trundled out to Tesco and is getting me some laxatives. Must gym tomorrow. I did plan on going today, but I felt so shit at lunch time - blurry eyes, swaying, slurred speech, I really thought I was going to have a migraine. Typically I am fine now and itchy cos I havent done much today.
Not much else to blog really. A friend and I are considering doing the BHF Leeds-Skipton walk (the whole thing!!) but that isnt till September - she should have been her GW for months and I should just about be getting there. Race for Life is applied for etc, just waiting for my pack now. Different Friend still hasnt applied which has pissed me off - I really dont want to do it on my own.
Hope OH comes back soon. How long do they take to work? Hours? Minutes? I'm going to need my Big Poo at work, or at the gym, arent I? :(
Sunday, 3 February 2008
Another Tantrum brewing...
Well, after the excitement of the other day of FINALLY being in the 15's, I dont think I'll make it under 16stone this week - Not unless I have a rice cake for tea on thursday night anyway.
Gym again today, was quite busy so I didnt do any running. Did do full program though. Can't decide whether to do cardio and core tomorrow or have a night off. Hmmm, decisions decisions.
Still loving YouTube and Facebook. Is it wrong to have such obsessions?
Work might be awkward tomorrow, one of the managers wants to sue for loss of earnings from yesterday :S Was busy today though.
Pancake day on Tuesday, another reason why my diet might be buggered. Lambstew & pudding again tomorrow, pancakes Tuesday, Omelette on Wednesday...what to have Thursday? A rice cake is looking an attractive option.
I'm so tired and not really done anything. treadmill was hard work today, maybe just as well I didnt run.
Gym again today, was quite busy so I didnt do any running. Did do full program though. Can't decide whether to do cardio and core tomorrow or have a night off. Hmmm, decisions decisions.
Still loving YouTube and Facebook. Is it wrong to have such obsessions?
Work might be awkward tomorrow, one of the managers wants to sue for loss of earnings from yesterday :S Was busy today though.
Pancake day on Tuesday, another reason why my diet might be buggered. Lambstew & pudding again tomorrow, pancakes Tuesday, Omelette on Wednesday...what to have Thursday? A rice cake is looking an attractive option.
I'm so tired and not really done anything. treadmill was hard work today, maybe just as well I didnt run.
Saturday, 2 February 2008
I wanna do great things
I don't wanna compromise....
Is going to be my new theme tune :nod:
I posted on a forum that I go on a lot (daily :rolleyes: ) about my weight loss and everyone is telling me how well I've done, which i can kind of accept on one hand. One the other, I still have another 5 stone to go, so I cant get TOO excited.
I got into the 15's today :grin: only just - half a pound in :lol: but, still, under 16 stone. I can't remember the last time that happened. In fact, I dont think I've EVER seen that on a set of scales when i've been stood on them. The excitement is actually unimaginable.
work was a bit baba today, really bad accident further down and the road was shut, so a lot of people assumed we werent open, despite the police allegedly telling them we were. I have my doubts. Very quiet, but it did mean we got some good work done in the shop.
Under 16 stone, me....weeee!!
Another 2.5 stone and I'll ask about riding lessons :)
Is going to be my new theme tune :nod:
I posted on a forum that I go on a lot (daily :rolleyes: ) about my weight loss and everyone is telling me how well I've done, which i can kind of accept on one hand. One the other, I still have another 5 stone to go, so I cant get TOO excited.
I got into the 15's today :grin: only just - half a pound in :lol: but, still, under 16 stone. I can't remember the last time that happened. In fact, I dont think I've EVER seen that on a set of scales when i've been stood on them. The excitement is actually unimaginable.
work was a bit baba today, really bad accident further down and the road was shut, so a lot of people assumed we werent open, despite the police allegedly telling them we were. I have my doubts. Very quiet, but it did mean we got some good work done in the shop.
Under 16 stone, me....weeee!!
Another 2.5 stone and I'll ask about riding lessons :)
Friday, 1 February 2008
Measurements Day
No pictures though, will do those 1st March to get (hopefully!) a better 'midway' pic.
Tuesday January 1st 2008:
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
Which if my adding is correct... I've lost 12 inches from ALL OVER my body in a month. Hail the GymBitch!! I'm having a day off from the gym this week, have been every day so far, but I *might* go on Sunday.
so, I've lost those 3lbs I'd put back on on Monday, but have failed on my 'into the 15's by February' challenge, so I now have to lose 8.5lbs this month to 'win' my 15.7lbs by March 1st challenge. It's do able. Now I'm out of my hormones induced tantrum, I know I CAN do it. This whole 'lost 12inches' malarky may have something to do with it too.
Wish I could find my fattest measurements. I think I put them on the fire so OH wouldnt see them.
Tuesday January 1st 2008:
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
Which if my adding is correct... I've lost 12 inches from ALL OVER my body in a month. Hail the GymBitch!! I'm having a day off from the gym this week, have been every day so far, but I *might* go on Sunday.
so, I've lost those 3lbs I'd put back on on Monday, but have failed on my 'into the 15's by February' challenge, so I now have to lose 8.5lbs this month to 'win' my 15.7lbs by March 1st challenge. It's do able. Now I'm out of my hormones induced tantrum, I know I CAN do it. This whole 'lost 12inches' malarky may have something to do with it too.
Wish I could find my fattest measurements. I think I put them on the fire so OH wouldnt see them.
Thursday, 31 January 2008
Feeling guilty
In these last 2 years, with the exception of having to 'give up on' MCob I've been horribly lucky - undeservingly so. With some of the crap that some people I know are dealing with, I can feel it's about to turn round and bite me on the arse big time.
Measurements Day tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, I dont THINK I've changed size. I thought I might have done the other day (I had a sneaky peek) but either I'd not eaten or something was going on because I havent budged on todays sneaky peek. Gym again tonight, I ran, again!! Did 1min @ 3.5mph, 1m30 @ 5.5mph and another 1m30 at 4mph twice, then a break of 3mins at 4mph and one at 3.5mph and then a final burst of 5mph for a whole minute :lol: to finish. Was so sweaty :blush: embarrassingly so. but the AIM is to run at least part of the Race For Life, which I registered for today.
Work very slow today. I looked for some GCSE Maths courses but I cant afford any of them :( so much for being Debt Free. *sigh*
Measurements Day tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, I dont THINK I've changed size. I thought I might have done the other day (I had a sneaky peek) but either I'd not eaten or something was going on because I havent budged on todays sneaky peek. Gym again tonight, I ran, again!! Did 1min @ 3.5mph, 1m30 @ 5.5mph and another 1m30 at 4mph twice, then a break of 3mins at 4mph and one at 3.5mph and then a final burst of 5mph for a whole minute :lol: to finish. Was so sweaty :blush: embarrassingly so. but the AIM is to run at least part of the Race For Life, which I registered for today.
Work very slow today. I looked for some GCSE Maths courses but I cant afford any of them :( so much for being Debt Free. *sigh*
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Exiled
Very odd. Havent been able to log in since Monday. No idea why, although tonight i tried going through blogger rather than signing in through my blog. Am posting so something seems to have worked, somewhere...
News? Well....we got the bonus :D So HOPEFULLY, it looks like by the end of next week I'll be able to pay off at least some of my second credit card (might not clear it now - reasons will become clear...) and pay off the car and mattress.
So...have been shopping. Joules have a sale on. I have spent about #70 :blush: but I have SAVED double that, easily. Honest. Plus I have some joggers to thin into. And they really will be to thin into, not a surprise like the Next joggers.
The tantrum seems to have passed. I struggle so hard though, the shopping on Saturday REALLY upset me and have spent the last 2 days constantly on the verge of tears. OH went out and got me some herbal happy pills in preperation for next month.
In Other News.... Gym tonight...I RAN on the treadmill :biggrin: for less than a minute and a half :lol: but I DID it, it was such a huge deal for me too.
Off for a bath now. I stink after The Run.
News? Well....we got the bonus :D So HOPEFULLY, it looks like by the end of next week I'll be able to pay off at least some of my second credit card (might not clear it now - reasons will become clear...) and pay off the car and mattress.
So...have been shopping. Joules have a sale on. I have spent about #70 :blush: but I have SAVED double that, easily. Honest. Plus I have some joggers to thin into. And they really will be to thin into, not a surprise like the Next joggers.
The tantrum seems to have passed. I struggle so hard though, the shopping on Saturday REALLY upset me and have spent the last 2 days constantly on the verge of tears. OH went out and got me some herbal happy pills in preperation for next month.
In Other News.... Gym tonight...I RAN on the treadmill :biggrin: for less than a minute and a half :lol: but I DID it, it was such a huge deal for me too.
Off for a bath now. I stink after The Run.
Sunday, 27 January 2008
*sigh*
Dont come to me for optimism...
Now, I am 100% sure than in a weeks time I'll be all upbeat and positive again, but right now I just wanht to curl up into a ball and not see anyone ever again. I've been this weight for 2 months now, nothing fit me yesterday and I still have so far to go.
I'm only just over half way. Another 2 years minimum of this? No way. I'll go crazy.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow evening after work. Show willing if nothing else. Maybe it is time for meetings? I dont know. I didnt think I'd been SO bad this week (ok the baguettes, toasted sandwiches and muffins were a minor blip) but half a stone? Really? Scales this morning said 16.7 stone. I so desperately wanted to be in the 15's this week.
Tried to stay in the shop for today - was expecting lots of going up and down stairs for customers etc.... spent most of the day upstairs texting - great example.
IdiotChild came in. I made her cry.
The Adventures of DietGirl is REALLY good. Still jealous though. I want to BE her.
OH has ManFlu. He is not long for this world.
It's 9pm and I'm about to go to bed, how sad is that?
Now, I am 100% sure than in a weeks time I'll be all upbeat and positive again, but right now I just wanht to curl up into a ball and not see anyone ever again. I've been this weight for 2 months now, nothing fit me yesterday and I still have so far to go.
I'm only just over half way. Another 2 years minimum of this? No way. I'll go crazy.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow evening after work. Show willing if nothing else. Maybe it is time for meetings? I dont know. I didnt think I'd been SO bad this week (ok the baguettes, toasted sandwiches and muffins were a minor blip) but half a stone? Really? Scales this morning said 16.7 stone. I so desperately wanted to be in the 15's this week.
Tried to stay in the shop for today - was expecting lots of going up and down stairs for customers etc.... spent most of the day upstairs texting - great example.
IdiotChild came in. I made her cry.
The Adventures of DietGirl is REALLY good. Still jealous though. I want to BE her.
OH has ManFlu. He is not long for this world.
It's 9pm and I'm about to go to bed, how sad is that?
Saturday, 26 January 2008
uuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm tired. No gym today, headachey and just meh in general.
Went into Leeds rather than HGate, what a disaster. Nothing fitted, not even a 22 M&S pair of jeans. Well. They went on and did up, but they were too tight to actually wear in public. And the top I tried on (in an attempt to lift my wardrobe of just dark colours) bagged badly at the back.
So I gave up, bought some Soap and Glory (new obsession) miracle creams and a book and came back home.
Why is my motivation slipping? I do wonder if it's the weather and the fact I am sick of winter now - and not even any ponies in sight. But, hmmm, I dont know. I want this so badly but I seem to have been trying for so long now.
I came on today as well (week early, hmm) which wont help. Also wont help in my 'lost 3lbs by monday to keep on track'. Need to lose 2lbs this week just to sts. Damn those baguettes/muffins over Tues & weds. Plus I now have the DEFINATE start of a cold.
IdiotChild has rung in 'sick' again for the weekend. Half hoped we'd see her in town, but nooo. Did hear a band playing live one of TheEx's bands songs today. Nearly had a fit, thought he was there.
Must stop spending money. It's my own fault I'm in so much debt.
I wanted to do an OU business course (I really am finding it hard at work) but it's SO expensive. I've asked the local college for information on any courses they might have instead. Shame because I would have liked a degree. No particular reason, I just want one... Was 1200 though just for the foundation - more again for the diploma and then even more for the actual honours certificate.
Went into Leeds rather than HGate, what a disaster. Nothing fitted, not even a 22 M&S pair of jeans. Well. They went on and did up, but they were too tight to actually wear in public. And the top I tried on (in an attempt to lift my wardrobe of just dark colours) bagged badly at the back.
So I gave up, bought some Soap and Glory (new obsession) miracle creams and a book and came back home.
Why is my motivation slipping? I do wonder if it's the weather and the fact I am sick of winter now - and not even any ponies in sight. But, hmmm, I dont know. I want this so badly but I seem to have been trying for so long now.
I came on today as well (week early, hmm) which wont help. Also wont help in my 'lost 3lbs by monday to keep on track'. Need to lose 2lbs this week just to sts. Damn those baguettes/muffins over Tues & weds. Plus I now have the DEFINATE start of a cold.
IdiotChild has rung in 'sick' again for the weekend. Half hoped we'd see her in town, but nooo. Did hear a band playing live one of TheEx's bands songs today. Nearly had a fit, thought he was there.
Must stop spending money. It's my own fault I'm in so much debt.
I wanted to do an OU business course (I really am finding it hard at work) but it's SO expensive. I've asked the local college for information on any courses they might have instead. Shame because I would have liked a degree. No particular reason, I just want one... Was 1200 though just for the foundation - more again for the diploma and then even more for the actual honours certificate.
Friday, 25 January 2008
Hmmmm
OH and I both have a day off tomorrow, but I dont know what to do.
We SHOULD go through our finances and decide how much is left to pay for etc. AFAIK, I SHOULD be debt free by my birthday, although I must make a concerted effort to get my teeth sorted this year too.
What I want to do though, is go into HGate, and Shop. The novelty of being able to shop in at least 2 extra shops (M&S and next) will take a while to wear off. I doubt we wil. In the time I've started this entry, I've stopped and gone to Tesco to do the Friday Big Shop and now we're back I feel utterly drained. Tired and achey. I was almost considering the gym tomorrow, but if I wake feeling like this, I wont bother.
Mattress is still :wub:
So tired. Going to have an evening of Family Guy I think.
We SHOULD go through our finances and decide how much is left to pay for etc. AFAIK, I SHOULD be debt free by my birthday, although I must make a concerted effort to get my teeth sorted this year too.
What I want to do though, is go into HGate, and Shop. The novelty of being able to shop in at least 2 extra shops (M&S and next) will take a while to wear off. I doubt we wil. In the time I've started this entry, I've stopped and gone to Tesco to do the Friday Big Shop and now we're back I feel utterly drained. Tired and achey. I was almost considering the gym tomorrow, but if I wake feeling like this, I wont bother.
Mattress is still :wub:
So tired. Going to have an evening of Family Guy I think.
Thursday, 24 January 2008
farty....and oh dear...
Oh my....I have horrendous wind. Such a classy girl lol.
CPD wasnt bad, bit boring in places, but the equine worming section was ace. Crap 'substantial buffet' so OH bought me 2 baguettes which i ate on the way home, along with 2 chocolate muffins and some Revels.
0point curry today.
My books arrived today, think I will read Dietgirl for inspiration. Doubt I will make it to 15's :(
OH!!! AND!!! I paid off AND cut up my barclaycard today. Just the car, my hsbc card, mattress, loan and surveying costs to pay back now :unsure:
Hopefully should be out of debt by my birthday. Dependant on a few things. Will have to ask for clothes for my birthday!!
CPD wasnt bad, bit boring in places, but the equine worming section was ace. Crap 'substantial buffet' so OH bought me 2 baguettes which i ate on the way home, along with 2 chocolate muffins and some Revels.
0point curry today.
My books arrived today, think I will read Dietgirl for inspiration. Doubt I will make it to 15's :(
OH!!! AND!!! I paid off AND cut up my barclaycard today. Just the car, my hsbc card, mattress, loan and surveying costs to pay back now :unsure:
Hopefully should be out of debt by my birthday. Dependant on a few things. Will have to ask for clothes for my birthday!!
Monday, 21 January 2008
rahhhhh
i cant really be arsed to blog.
Allegedly started early so I could go early. I did go early. I went to the gym and just did cardio (too lazy today for resistance too) and just as I came out....The alarm for work was going off. So have spent far too long waiting for a numpty to come out who took far to long to decide to leave it till tomorrow.
Also to make today go oh-so-slowly, the road outside is flooded, so we've had hardly any customers in. For a scary while we thought we might be flooded in, but thankfully not. Did mean though that instead of the 3 minute journey to the gym, it took me 23, and had to go up the bank, down the chevin and round about.
Mattress arrived today, looks FAB. I cannot wait to go to bed.
Thats about it for today. May have scuppered the 'be in the 15's by February' today - am 4 points over already. And CPD tomorrow and Wednesday....no pointage then. Sigh.
Allegedly started early so I could go early. I did go early. I went to the gym and just did cardio (too lazy today for resistance too) and just as I came out....The alarm for work was going off. So have spent far too long waiting for a numpty to come out who took far to long to decide to leave it till tomorrow.
Also to make today go oh-so-slowly, the road outside is flooded, so we've had hardly any customers in. For a scary while we thought we might be flooded in, but thankfully not. Did mean though that instead of the 3 minute journey to the gym, it took me 23, and had to go up the bank, down the chevin and round about.
Mattress arrived today, looks FAB. I cannot wait to go to bed.
Thats about it for today. May have scuppered the 'be in the 15's by February' today - am 4 points over already. And CPD tomorrow and Wednesday....no pointage then. Sigh.
Sunday, 20 January 2008
Still a little bit rahhh!
No idea why. Getting a little bit uptight about the CPD (why? Chances are I wont see anyone anyway) and just rahhh! in general.
Posted on the forum about makeup and either Clinique or Benefit seems to be the choice, although a few people have mentioned Lancombe too. Someone else suggested going to to proper beauty person and getting HER to pick my colours etc. And then there's mineral make up. Where to start? Where do I find a beauty person from?
Gym this morning, worked hard. Was bright red and very sweaty by the time I'd finished LOL. Think it is getting easier, and today I was 16.2 so something seems to be happening. Lets hope this next week or so doesnt go tit shaped cos then I will have easily made the Feb 1 target and be well on the way to March 1st target.
Didnt go to OHs sisters in the end, drank sparkly wine instead. Doubt we will go see I Am Legend either. I bought 28 Days Later today cos apparently IAL is like that and I managed 5 minutes before I made OH turn it off. Big pansy.
New mattress tomorrow. Cannot WAIT, I am so excited :grin:
Posted on the forum about makeup and either Clinique or Benefit seems to be the choice, although a few people have mentioned Lancombe too. Someone else suggested going to to proper beauty person and getting HER to pick my colours etc. And then there's mineral make up. Where to start? Where do I find a beauty person from?
Gym this morning, worked hard. Was bright red and very sweaty by the time I'd finished LOL. Think it is getting easier, and today I was 16.2 so something seems to be happening. Lets hope this next week or so doesnt go tit shaped cos then I will have easily made the Feb 1 target and be well on the way to March 1st target.
Didnt go to OHs sisters in the end, drank sparkly wine instead. Doubt we will go see I Am Legend either. I bought 28 Days Later today cos apparently IAL is like that and I managed 5 minutes before I made OH turn it off. Big pansy.
New mattress tomorrow. Cannot WAIT, I am so excited :grin:
Saturday, 19 January 2008
hair, decisions and a banghead
Hair - took 4 hours, but I'm chuffed :biggrin: First colour didnt take so she did another with a darker colour - I like :D Will be a shock to OH though!! However spending stupid amounts of time in the hairdresser meant that I couldnt go to Boots and spend lots of money OR go to Next to buy more stuff. And I walked there and back.
Have also done the Nell dvd.... only managed 15 minutes the first time, then had a bit of a break (read quite a big break) and did the rest. Constant prancing. Floor may need reinforcing. Gym tomorrow. At least that floor feels solid lol.
Off to OHs sisters tonight and it's been decided we're going to see I Am Legend on Monday night.
Work alarm went off again this morning at 7am thankfully (would have been SO pissed off if it had been any earlier) cos the builders had left a wire dangling. So day started early and am now feeling effects. MUST get washing out of machine and do veg for tonight but I cant be BOTHERED.
Hair really is VERY dark....
Decisions - well, not really decisions tbh, more extra determination re the diet/sizeloss.
And the banghead? Why do people ask for advice and then either totally ignore what you say or pay such little attentiion to you that they go and do it anyway? I give it 2 weeks.
Have also done the Nell dvd.... only managed 15 minutes the first time, then had a bit of a break (read quite a big break) and did the rest. Constant prancing. Floor may need reinforcing. Gym tomorrow. At least that floor feels solid lol.
Off to OHs sisters tonight and it's been decided we're going to see I Am Legend on Monday night.
Work alarm went off again this morning at 7am thankfully (would have been SO pissed off if it had been any earlier) cos the builders had left a wire dangling. So day started early and am now feeling effects. MUST get washing out of machine and do veg for tonight but I cant be BOTHERED.
Hair really is VERY dark....
Decisions - well, not really decisions tbh, more extra determination re the diet/sizeloss.
And the banghead? Why do people ask for advice and then either totally ignore what you say or pay such little attentiion to you that they go and do it anyway? I give it 2 weeks.
Friday, 18 January 2008
SSSSSSSSSSQQQQQQQQUUUUUUEEEEEEEEE
I'm so overexcited.
Today I went to Next (actually looking for shoes). I came out with a pair of joggers for me to thin into.
I am sat here, wearing them now. They fit.
I'll probably add to this later when I'm not quite so giddy...
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Haircut tomorrow, also I must not go crazy with Next shopping.... I dont understand the sizing though, I'm obviously not a size 20 (tape measure says) yet they do appear to fit....dont think they would if they were jeans though. Just a smidgeon to tight. Anyway, woo!!
NewKitten is being an absolute pain in the arse. Today, she has broken a mirror, knocked a panel out of the kitchen cabinet and jumped up my back - that earnt her a smacked arse.
My thumb is still sore. Will buy some second skin stuff tomorrow.
Also, breaking news, TheEx has been in touch, ironically as I am listening to one of *his* bands albums. Anyway, he wants a divorce and will phone again in a couple of weeks when he sorts out his financial situation. Also tried a few obvious guilt trips, but I ignored them. I know his life hasnt been THAT shit in the 2 years we split up and I managed to get him to admit that it was best we did split up.
Might do a carmen DVD tomorrow, as not going to the gym. Going Sunday instead.
Today I went to Next (actually looking for shoes). I came out with a pair of joggers for me to thin into.
I am sat here, wearing them now. They fit.
I'll probably add to this later when I'm not quite so giddy...
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Haircut tomorrow, also I must not go crazy with Next shopping.... I dont understand the sizing though, I'm obviously not a size 20 (tape measure says) yet they do appear to fit....dont think they would if they were jeans though. Just a smidgeon to tight. Anyway, woo!!
NewKitten is being an absolute pain in the arse. Today, she has broken a mirror, knocked a panel out of the kitchen cabinet and jumped up my back - that earnt her a smacked arse.
My thumb is still sore. Will buy some second skin stuff tomorrow.
Also, breaking news, TheEx has been in touch, ironically as I am listening to one of *his* bands albums. Anyway, he wants a divorce and will phone again in a couple of weeks when he sorts out his financial situation. Also tried a few obvious guilt trips, but I ignored them. I know his life hasnt been THAT shit in the 2 years we split up and I managed to get him to admit that it was best we did split up.
Might do a carmen DVD tomorrow, as not going to the gym. Going Sunday instead.
Thursday, 17 January 2008
meh, not so positive :rolleyes:
Checked on the scales this morning, had put on 1lb :( But went to the gym again tonight. LazyFriend and I were clearly delirious and spent much of the session in fits of laughter. Especially when I went to do a step up and did a big fart....think we managed to disguise it as the bench squeaking.
Not going to the gym tomorrow, and have the weekend off. Looking forward to getting my hair done Saturday and will gym on Sunday. Due to CPD will have to go to gym Mon thurs and friday cos I'm working the weekend too.
I MUST get off the amazon website. I'm tired, I should go to bed...
Not going to the gym tomorrow, and have the weekend off. Looking forward to getting my hair done Saturday and will gym on Sunday. Due to CPD will have to go to gym Mon thurs and friday cos I'm working the weekend too.
I MUST get off the amazon website. I'm tired, I should go to bed...
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
positive
But then I have been to the gym twice already this week, am going tomorrow and will probably go Sunday.
Was hard work tonight, but I was with lazymate who bitched and moaned the whole time which I'm sure made it harder work. Very tired now AND havent eaten all points. Having 0point curry tomorrow.
I was thinking tonight, mainly cos my newly uber-thin ( :D :D ) friend came round, just how much better I feel for losing weight. I think more about food and while I do sometimes crave a bacon sandwich, I am able to ignore it...for the most part anyway. I have more energy, I want to do more, I am more organised, because i can be BOTHERED to do it now whereas before I was just too lazy. When I think back to how I was, I get so embarrassed :( I remember being too lazy to walk to the garage (a 5 minute walk,if that) and the food I used to eat, thinking I was being healthy. It's all positive, I just wishwishwish I'd never got to the stage/weight I did.
Fruit epiphany still going well. Had a fatfighters recipe as well tonight - pan fried chicken & bacon. 4 points, very nice. Bulked it out with 0point veg too.
Was hard work tonight, but I was with lazymate who bitched and moaned the whole time which I'm sure made it harder work. Very tired now AND havent eaten all points. Having 0point curry tomorrow.
I was thinking tonight, mainly cos my newly uber-thin ( :D :D ) friend came round, just how much better I feel for losing weight. I think more about food and while I do sometimes crave a bacon sandwich, I am able to ignore it...for the most part anyway. I have more energy, I want to do more, I am more organised, because i can be BOTHERED to do it now whereas before I was just too lazy. When I think back to how I was, I get so embarrassed :( I remember being too lazy to walk to the garage (a 5 minute walk,if that) and the food I used to eat, thinking I was being healthy. It's all positive, I just wishwishwish I'd never got to the stage/weight I did.
Fruit epiphany still going well. Had a fatfighters recipe as well tonight - pan fried chicken & bacon. 4 points, very nice. Bulked it out with 0point veg too.
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Got a poorly...
Was sat in office this morning, having my (cold) cup of coffee, being as it was the first chance I'd had to actually have it. Heard a big crash from the shop, pondered on whether to ignore it and pretend I hadnt heard it, or to go and investigate.
I investigated and got slashed across the bottom of my thumb for my trouble. Not sure how, as I cant see what I did it on (a rat cage trap) but it's right on the bend, so everytime I move my right thumb - that would be a lot - it reopens. Very sore.
Gymmed tonight, did full program. Takes 1.5 hours. Was very sweaty by end :lol: but did EVERYTHING. Even the plank, and the step ups onto the bench (12). Sat on the boso ball and twisted with a 5kg weight, did 2 reps of 30 and my sides feel it now. Got a funky new sign in system now - all done on finger prints!! Bets on how long it takes before it breaks?
Spoke to a complete numpty at Bayer today....didnt have a clue what she was talking about, but I think we have it sorted now.
I'm so tired. Very chuffed I went to the gym though. Workout was hard work, but wasnt as bad as I was expecting. Bit cross because I ended up on the magically slow treadmill today but upped the speed so I hope I was doing similar. Didnt need to hold on today though till I got tired. Got a sweat on though. Is all good.
I investigated and got slashed across the bottom of my thumb for my trouble. Not sure how, as I cant see what I did it on (a rat cage trap) but it's right on the bend, so everytime I move my right thumb - that would be a lot - it reopens. Very sore.
Gymmed tonight, did full program. Takes 1.5 hours. Was very sweaty by end :lol: but did EVERYTHING. Even the plank, and the step ups onto the bench (12). Sat on the boso ball and twisted with a 5kg weight, did 2 reps of 30 and my sides feel it now. Got a funky new sign in system now - all done on finger prints!! Bets on how long it takes before it breaks?
Spoke to a complete numpty at Bayer today....didnt have a clue what she was talking about, but I think we have it sorted now.
I'm so tired. Very chuffed I went to the gym though. Workout was hard work, but wasnt as bad as I was expecting. Bit cross because I ended up on the magically slow treadmill today but upped the speed so I hope I was doing similar. Didnt need to hold on today though till I got tired. Got a sweat on though. Is all good.
Monday, 14 January 2008
MMmmmm, lovely fruit....
Better be bloody lovely and good at fat burning at 7points a serving....
Didnt go to the gym tonight, but did do (the warmup of) Nell McAndrews DVD. I would have done it all, but there was lots of prancing and it sounded like I might go through the floor :unsure: BUT....I did the warm up and wasnt remotely out of breath or sweaty! I believe this is a first.
Didnt go to the gym tonight, but did do (the warmup of) Nell McAndrews DVD. I would have done it all, but there was lots of prancing and it sounded like I might go through the floor :unsure: BUT....I did the warm up and wasnt remotely out of breath or sweaty! I believe this is a first.
Sunday, 13 January 2008
Absolutely tapped in the head....
I went to the gym AGAIN today. Not only that, I did my arms and core/abs review too (jenny wasnt busy and the gym was empty). MUCH harder work. Slightly confused over the arms I think, especially as I have to go into the boys bit for one of the bars (girls bars only go up to 6kg :blush: ) but i'm sure I'll cope. I ACHE now though.
Dont really have motivation to do much now. Work will hurt tomorrow lol. Not going to gym tomorrow - will be packed and I think I deserve a day off!!
Beginning of March treat can be a new gym kit....I muST be due one by then!!
Dont really have motivation to do much now. Work will hurt tomorrow lol. Not going to gym tomorrow - will be packed and I think I deserve a day off!!
Beginning of March treat can be a new gym kit....I muST be due one by then!!
Saturday, 12 January 2008
I fear this may be my last entry....
My gym program today. Had the girl who is LOVELY when just chatting to her about a workout you've just had...when she's doing the program, she's a bitch, I hate her etcetc :lol:
Rower - now have to do 250m in under a minute, 5 times with a 30second rest between them. Treadmill, still intervals... 1min 2% incline, 3.5mph, 3 minutes 6% incline at 4mph and I MUST NOT HOLD ON. so that 5 times each and then the cross trainer, still on level 6, but 30seconds under 50rpm, then a minute at over 60rpm for 5 minutes. I'm still bright red and I came out of the gym nearly an hour an a half ago. Then we did some resistance, instead of doing 3 sets of 15 of squats with the gym ball, I'm to do 2 sets of 15 but hold the squat for a count of 5 each time I go down. Also have to increase the weights on the ab- and aductors. Then I have to use the weights bench for step ups - 6 each side and then lastly stand on the edge of something with my heels hanging off and lift myself up and down. My God I ache now, not sure if it's combined with doing Carmen last night or if it's just a much harder workout LOL. I must be doubly crazy though, cos I've booked in for upper body and core for Wednesday night.
Now I'm writing a shopping list and instead of the curly wurlys and diet coke,I have written flavoured waters and plenty of fruit. Shame I am craving pizza for tea... LOL.
Rower - now have to do 250m in under a minute, 5 times with a 30second rest between them. Treadmill, still intervals... 1min 2% incline, 3.5mph, 3 minutes 6% incline at 4mph and I MUST NOT HOLD ON. so that 5 times each and then the cross trainer, still on level 6, but 30seconds under 50rpm, then a minute at over 60rpm for 5 minutes. I'm still bright red and I came out of the gym nearly an hour an a half ago. Then we did some resistance, instead of doing 3 sets of 15 of squats with the gym ball, I'm to do 2 sets of 15 but hold the squat for a count of 5 each time I go down. Also have to increase the weights on the ab- and aductors. Then I have to use the weights bench for step ups - 6 each side and then lastly stand on the edge of something with my heels hanging off and lift myself up and down. My God I ache now, not sure if it's combined with doing Carmen last night or if it's just a much harder workout LOL. I must be doubly crazy though, cos I've booked in for upper body and core for Wednesday night.
Now I'm writing a shopping list and instead of the curly wurlys and diet coke,I have written flavoured waters and plenty of fruit. Shame I am craving pizza for tea... LOL.
Friday, 11 January 2008
aims and goals....
Well, I've booked my 'getting into the 15's' present...sadly for before February 1st, so must make trebley sure I am Very Good. It's a haircut & colour on the 19th. The one after that (1st march - 15.7) is a Wii game off OH. Am wondering whether to make getting into the 14's my Harvey Nichols makeup make over. I'm not sure.
The 2 B's had a stand up fight in the middle of the shop today, much to my great sadness that as manager I had to break it up and give them both a talking to. OlderB apparently told the other one to 'stop disrespectin me, innit' :bawling: :heehee:
Did Carmen again tonight before the terrors came round (we ended up babysitting, hence the absense from MSN) and I really ache now lol. Tomorrow is New Gym Routine. Bit scared now. Also can't decide if tummy is starting to change shape. No point asking OH - if he thinks it'll make me happy he tells me it's smaller, although he did exclaim tits were bigger tonight, which he qualified with 'pert'. Bigger does not = pert in my book. Besides which, my tits are long past being pert.
Cannot WAIT until the new mattress arrives. Really can't. OH and I have swapped sides in bed cos I was too uncomfortable lol. Slept relatively well last night lol.
The 2 B's had a stand up fight in the middle of the shop today, much to my great sadness that as manager I had to break it up and give them both a talking to. OlderB apparently told the other one to 'stop disrespectin me, innit' :bawling: :heehee:
Did Carmen again tonight before the terrors came round (we ended up babysitting, hence the absense from MSN) and I really ache now lol. Tomorrow is New Gym Routine. Bit scared now. Also can't decide if tummy is starting to change shape. No point asking OH - if he thinks it'll make me happy he tells me it's smaller, although he did exclaim tits were bigger tonight, which he qualified with 'pert'. Bigger does not = pert in my book. Besides which, my tits are long past being pert.
Cannot WAIT until the new mattress arrives. Really can't. OH and I have swapped sides in bed cos I was too uncomfortable lol. Slept relatively well last night lol.
Thursday, 10 January 2008
DVDs arrived
The Carmen Electra ones. Apparently they're great and a bit like doing LB&T at home.... Lets hope so :lol: Anyway, I'm about to try it.
Work wasnt bad, one of the suppliers was an ARSE and have totally fucked up the order. I was mean.
And (veryveryvery small banana, just in case...) we MIGHT be getting a fairly healthy bonus at the end of the month.
Just as well, cos then I can buy my sparkly Tiffanys bracelet AND get my hair done (MUST book that actually, having it done so I look A OK at the CPD lol - how wrong is that?) Hopefully anyway. must book it for 19th.
Went to gym, knackered now. Good workout, MAY go tomorrow....havent decided yet. Am going on Saturday for another review and will say that I want to concentrate on my tummy and hips.
Work wasnt bad, one of the suppliers was an ARSE and have totally fucked up the order. I was mean.
And (veryveryvery small banana, just in case...) we MIGHT be getting a fairly healthy bonus at the end of the month.
Just as well, cos then I can buy my sparkly Tiffanys bracelet AND get my hair done (MUST book that actually, having it done so I look A OK at the CPD lol - how wrong is that?) Hopefully anyway. must book it for 19th.
Went to gym, knackered now. Good workout, MAY go tomorrow....havent decided yet. Am going on Saturday for another review and will say that I want to concentrate on my tummy and hips.
Wednesday, 9 January 2008
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
*sigh*
1. I want to go to a gig an hour away, OH doesnt. We argue for a day or so and now the tickets are sold out.
2. I decide I will go alone to a gig 3 hours away, but where a friend is I havent seen for AGES. We plan all sorts of Exciting Activities for the next day. OH gets in a strop because he isnt included (he didnt want to come to the gig originally).
Added to the fact I feel shitty anyway, my DVDs didnt turn up (am actually v upset), I am still :bawling: over not being able to see any size loss.
What to do? Am tempted not to go at all, just go see my mate. But then i'll be fucked off at not going to the gig. But I want to see my mate.
And I'm still fat. I may have lost 5.5stone, but I'm still the same size. Demoralising? You have no idea. I must start saving for the cosmetic surgery.
2. I decide I will go alone to a gig 3 hours away, but where a friend is I havent seen for AGES. We plan all sorts of Exciting Activities for the next day. OH gets in a strop because he isnt included (he didnt want to come to the gig originally).
Added to the fact I feel shitty anyway, my DVDs didnt turn up (am actually v upset), I am still :bawling: over not being able to see any size loss.
What to do? Am tempted not to go at all, just go see my mate. But then i'll be fucked off at not going to the gig. But I want to see my mate.
And I'm still fat. I may have lost 5.5stone, but I'm still the same size. Demoralising? You have no idea. I must start saving for the cosmetic surgery.
Monday, 7 January 2008
must stop spending money....
Today I bought a hot pink sports bra, so I can be wearing a gym kit while washing one rather that abusing the same clothes over and over (between washes, natch). Have bought a bra 2 cupsizes smaller than I wear as they didnt do my size. Straw poll of 3 people (lol) all agreed to do that. Now I have spent the money and I cant change the order, I now think I should have gone for 1 cupsize down. Ah well. It'll fit. Eventually.
I MUST stop buying now. I have horrified myself with my shopping this month. Wont afford the work on the house before long.
Gym tonight, seems everyone in town has ChristmasGuilt and there were queues for most of the machines. I ended up doing twenty minutes on the treadmill. First time I went on it, it was soooooo slow and I was congratulating myself on how easy I found things now, until I looked over at the girl next to me, who was easily going twice as fast as me to notice she was allegedly going 3mph when I was doing 4. So I did another 10mins on a different treadmill at the end and yup, I went twice as fast.
Having a night off gym tomorrow night, then going with mate Wednesday.
With any lucky my pornacise DVDs should turn up tomorrow, and I can spend the evening doing that, with OH firmly locked out of the room. Semi thinking about selling my exercise bike. I punished myself so hard with it when I first got it, I havent sat on it for over 6months now, and it is very definately In The Way. Have been going to this gym for 2 months now... Another month and that is when i started to trail off going to the other one - lets see how long this one lasts? It IS easier going to this one, being able to go on my way home, rather than having to make a special trip out.
My new mini-goal with myself is to reach the 15's by February. Must work hard, it's doable (2.5-3lbs a week) but must be disciplined. My points have dropped to 25 now, so should be easier. Should. :unsure:
I'm still fucked off there's no size loss on my tummy/hips. Rah!
I MUST stop buying now. I have horrified myself with my shopping this month. Wont afford the work on the house before long.
Gym tonight, seems everyone in town has ChristmasGuilt and there were queues for most of the machines. I ended up doing twenty minutes on the treadmill. First time I went on it, it was soooooo slow and I was congratulating myself on how easy I found things now, until I looked over at the girl next to me, who was easily going twice as fast as me to notice she was allegedly going 3mph when I was doing 4. So I did another 10mins on a different treadmill at the end and yup, I went twice as fast.
Having a night off gym tomorrow night, then going with mate Wednesday.
With any lucky my pornacise DVDs should turn up tomorrow, and I can spend the evening doing that, with OH firmly locked out of the room. Semi thinking about selling my exercise bike. I punished myself so hard with it when I first got it, I havent sat on it for over 6months now, and it is very definately In The Way. Have been going to this gym for 2 months now... Another month and that is when i started to trail off going to the other one - lets see how long this one lasts? It IS easier going to this one, being able to go on my way home, rather than having to make a special trip out.
My new mini-goal with myself is to reach the 15's by February. Must work hard, it's doable (2.5-3lbs a week) but must be disciplined. My points have dropped to 25 now, so should be easier. Should. :unsure:
I'm still fucked off there's no size loss on my tummy/hips. Rah!
Sunday, 6 January 2008
May I have a gold star please?
I have been to the gym (FAB time, I was only one there and it was great). Also feel like it's starting to get easier...Maybe time for a review? Or let it be easier a while longer?
Came home (I will admit to driving there and back) and then have spent the afternoon cleaning - the bathroom is spotless and I even mopped the floors and polished the wood.
Having stew tonight - have pointed it for 6 portions, but to be perfectly honest, it looks more like about 8, or even 10 - it's HUGE!!
Back to work tomorrow, but I do have the weekend off. Should be off to the gym tomorrow night as well - I'm determined to get on the door again!!
Came home (I will admit to driving there and back) and then have spent the afternoon cleaning - the bathroom is spotless and I even mopped the floors and polished the wood.
Having stew tonight - have pointed it for 6 portions, but to be perfectly honest, it looks more like about 8, or even 10 - it's HUGE!!
Back to work tomorrow, but I do have the weekend off. Should be off to the gym tomorrow night as well - I'm determined to get on the door again!!
Saturday, 5 January 2008
Regrets?
I've had a few...
1, I wish I had started WW in November 2006, instead of trying on my own. I'd (hopefully) be a couple of stone further on, and as my mother keeps pointing out, I'm not getting any younger.
2, I wish I had never got to this stage in the first place. Told OH today that while I've been together, I have been 22 stone. He almost DIED.
3, I wish I had tried harder, before now, at everything.
4, I wish I wasnt so blase with money.
5, I wish I had tried hard with The Pony.
So there we have it.
However:
1, Despite my best attempts occasionally, I am in rude health.
2, I am trying, not hard enough seemingly sometimes, but I AM trying to lose weight now.
3, Despite not having tried as hard as I could have, I've not done too badly for myself now.
4, I am ALMOST debt free
5, Well...She's in a good home now, and loving her was never my problem.
Then part of me wonders...is it all worth it? TBH, I'm only doing this so I can have pretty wedding pictures and be a normal size. I hope (fingerscrossed) to have kids at some point - I know, I must be crazy... and thats another figure ruiner. Is it worth it? I know it is, but I'm having wine and a 'snot fair' evening.
OH has said he'd buy my some underwear sets in the bravissimo sale (so romantic).... Never thought I'd be the type to have/wear sets... No one looks at it, right? But it feels so much better to be co-ordinating... (Am I destined to be a DQ after all?)
1, I wish I had started WW in November 2006, instead of trying on my own. I'd (hopefully) be a couple of stone further on, and as my mother keeps pointing out, I'm not getting any younger.
2, I wish I had never got to this stage in the first place. Told OH today that while I've been together, I have been 22 stone. He almost DIED.
3, I wish I had tried harder, before now, at everything.
4, I wish I wasnt so blase with money.
5, I wish I had tried hard with The Pony.
So there we have it.
However:
1, Despite my best attempts occasionally, I am in rude health.
2, I am trying, not hard enough seemingly sometimes, but I AM trying to lose weight now.
3, Despite not having tried as hard as I could have, I've not done too badly for myself now.
4, I am ALMOST debt free
5, Well...She's in a good home now, and loving her was never my problem.
Then part of me wonders...is it all worth it? TBH, I'm only doing this so I can have pretty wedding pictures and be a normal size. I hope (fingerscrossed) to have kids at some point - I know, I must be crazy... and thats another figure ruiner. Is it worth it? I know it is, but I'm having wine and a 'snot fair' evening.
OH has said he'd buy my some underwear sets in the bravissimo sale (so romantic).... Never thought I'd be the type to have/wear sets... No one looks at it, right? But it feels so much better to be co-ordinating... (Am I destined to be a DQ after all?)
Friday, 4 January 2008
tired and grumpy
Well, there's a turn up, when am I never tired and grumpy...? LOL
Work was ok today, have distinct rumblings of cold (high temp - face looks like a beacon/snotty nose/general meh-ness) so spent much of the day being a warehouse wench. B not in again - has Norovirus apparently and a sicknote to prove it... (I am so cynical - she has holiday booked for next week....last time she had a miscarriage right when she moved house, the time before a bad back when she moved from the flat...)
I must stop spending money, especially while things are bleak moneywise... Today I bought 3 DVDs...2 x carmen electra 'stripercise' (that is going to go wrong...) and 1 x Nell McAndrew one. This is in addition to the three books I bought last night. Still they were in the sale. OH will block Amazon before long lol.
Kittens are being spectacularly irritating tonight...T'OtherOne was sat happily on my chest in the bath, when OH came in, frightened her and she's gouged 2 lines out of my face. Nice. NK is moulting spectacularly. Sebo is going to self destruct soon.
Fat Fighters appears to be going well again - on the scales this morning I was 16.10... On NYD I was 17.6, so have stuck to WWpoints (26) and gone to gym twice...I am on though which would have added 2/3lbs, but still, thats half a stone just by eating more 'portioned' amounts. By 5.30 though I could have MURDERED an almond croissant.
No gym tonight, (being a Warehouse Wench though was some consolation) nor tomorrow (they shut at 4pm/I finish at 5pm) but depending on The Cold Situation, I may go Sunday.
Also being 'ill' may account for my irrational foul mood yesterday? Perhaps? OH seems to have forgotten anyway.
Work was ok today, have distinct rumblings of cold (high temp - face looks like a beacon/snotty nose/general meh-ness) so spent much of the day being a warehouse wench. B not in again - has Norovirus apparently and a sicknote to prove it... (I am so cynical - she has holiday booked for next week....last time she had a miscarriage right when she moved house, the time before a bad back when she moved from the flat...)
I must stop spending money, especially while things are bleak moneywise... Today I bought 3 DVDs...2 x carmen electra 'stripercise' (that is going to go wrong...) and 1 x Nell McAndrew one. This is in addition to the three books I bought last night. Still they were in the sale. OH will block Amazon before long lol.
Kittens are being spectacularly irritating tonight...T'OtherOne was sat happily on my chest in the bath, when OH came in, frightened her and she's gouged 2 lines out of my face. Nice. NK is moulting spectacularly. Sebo is going to self destruct soon.
Fat Fighters appears to be going well again - on the scales this morning I was 16.10... On NYD I was 17.6, so have stuck to WWpoints (26) and gone to gym twice...I am on though which would have added 2/3lbs, but still, thats half a stone just by eating more 'portioned' amounts. By 5.30 though I could have MURDERED an almond croissant.
No gym tonight, (being a Warehouse Wench though was some consolation) nor tomorrow (they shut at 4pm/I finish at 5pm) but depending on The Cold Situation, I may go Sunday.
Also being 'ill' may account for my irrational foul mood yesterday? Perhaps? OH seems to have forgotten anyway.
Thursday, 3 January 2008
Virtuous
I wasnt going to the gym this morning.
Then about 11am, I was.
By lunchtime it was snowing again so I'd changed my mind again.
I went to the gym. Did my whole program so feeling virtuous but am now super-hungry...OH made a pasta bake but I couldnt eat the cheese so only had half of it :S and my jelly refuses to set now. What can I eat? Bah.
Work not great. Someone pinching out the till again. No suspicions, could be anyone, once again they all have 'reasons' for doing it.
Wish it'd snow properly. I'd love a 'free' day off work.... Bonuses are apparently looking unlikely due to the pinching. If we dont get one I will be FURIOUS. I need that money....
Then about 11am, I was.
By lunchtime it was snowing again so I'd changed my mind again.
I went to the gym. Did my whole program so feeling virtuous but am now super-hungry...OH made a pasta bake but I couldnt eat the cheese so only had half of it :S and my jelly refuses to set now. What can I eat? Bah.
Work not great. Someone pinching out the till again. No suspicions, could be anyone, once again they all have 'reasons' for doing it.
Wish it'd snow properly. I'd love a 'free' day off work.... Bonuses are apparently looking unlikely due to the pinching. If we dont get one I will be FURIOUS. I need that money....
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
Today I have....
*Been to the Drs and got some antibacterial/steroid cream for my manky leg
*Been to the gym
*Told a member of staff off and made her cry because she did something REALLY fucking stupid over new year and cant see she's done anything wrong
*Am in 8th place in the 'people who go to the gym most' stakes from December!!
*got back on the diet plan.
*resisted chocolate
I was so dispirited in the gym - it was such hard work and there are mirrors everywhere. Still, have just had tea and eaten all my points, and am having the same tomorrow.
Was really busy at work, much busier than we thought we'd be. Went back in the warehouse, it is fun in there.
I have some chocolate coins in front of me, looking at me. I must move them as they are being uber tempting....
*Been to the gym
*Told a member of staff off and made her cry because she did something REALLY fucking stupid over new year and cant see she's done anything wrong
*Am in 8th place in the 'people who go to the gym most' stakes from December!!
*got back on the diet plan.
*resisted chocolate
I was so dispirited in the gym - it was such hard work and there are mirrors everywhere. Still, have just had tea and eaten all my points, and am having the same tomorrow.
Was really busy at work, much busier than we thought we'd be. Went back in the warehouse, it is fun in there.
I have some chocolate coins in front of me, looking at me. I must move them as they are being uber tempting....
Tuesday, 1 January 2008
Happy new year.... :bawling:
There we go, the cost of Christmas and new year - a stone back on. So this has obviously bodged my aim to have got to goal weight by 1st August. Sigh. Must not be depressed, must just be Very Good instead from now on. I am not going to tantrum (remember yesterdays post....all part of Being Positive from now on).
Now for the measurements. So, first thing on a morning (it's new year, first thing IS half 9) on the first of every month OH will take pictures of me in the same clothes and I will measure and post the results here. This WILL shame me into doing it properly again. Also, I will stand up the whole time.... Sometimes I think I sat while I did various ones and sometimes I didnt.
So. Measurements (inches).
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Eeeek, have just checked back on an old blog and the only place I havent put weight on now is my arms. :bawling: Off mattress shopping in a bit, so will see if OH fancies trundling round the big hill. Back to gym tomorrow.
Right... pictures....Have done some bra & knickers pictures too, but they're for when I'm Very Thin and sticking on the fridge.
front
left
back
right
Right, off to buy a mattress now. Wish gym was open :blush:
Now for the measurements. So, first thing on a morning (it's new year, first thing IS half 9) on the first of every month OH will take pictures of me in the same clothes and I will measure and post the results here. This WILL shame me into doing it properly again. Also, I will stand up the whole time.... Sometimes I think I sat while I did various ones and sometimes I didnt.
So. Measurements (inches).
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Eeeek, have just checked back on an old blog and the only place I havent put weight on now is my arms. :bawling: Off mattress shopping in a bit, so will see if OH fancies trundling round the big hill. Back to gym tomorrow.
Right... pictures....Have done some bra & knickers pictures too, but they're for when I'm Very Thin and sticking on the fridge.
front
left
back
right
Right, off to buy a mattress now. Wish gym was open :blush:
Monday, 31 December 2007
resolutions, pictures and measurements
I forget when I started out this year at, but think it was about 2.5stone heavier than I am now ( :O how shit does that sound now?)
Was PNMiL's 60th last night, good night...I wore my dress and got some lovely compliments :)
All in all, an odd year. Good though. 2008 will be the year I:
*get thin
*get divorced
*sell my horse
*sort finances out good and proper
*sort teeth out
*be organised.
*not get so stressed by things
OH and I will:
*get planning approved for our house
*get the building work started
*stop arguing over stupid things
*forget we're together at work and behave like Proper People.
Tomorrow starts with the monthly pictures/measurements. Will do them every month on the first day, wearing the same clothes so maybe *I* can see some difference.
MUSTMUSTMUST get back into the idea of fat fighters again, have failed badly so far.
Off to look at mattresses tomorrow. Can't wait, ours is knackered.
Was PNMiL's 60th last night, good night...I wore my dress and got some lovely compliments :)
All in all, an odd year. Good though. 2008 will be the year I:
*get thin
*get divorced
*sell my horse
*sort finances out good and proper
*sort teeth out
*be organised.
*not get so stressed by things
OH and I will:
*get planning approved for our house
*get the building work started
*stop arguing over stupid things
*forget we're together at work and behave like Proper People.
Tomorrow starts with the monthly pictures/measurements. Will do them every month on the first day, wearing the same clothes so maybe *I* can see some difference.
MUSTMUSTMUST get back into the idea of fat fighters again, have failed badly so far.
Off to look at mattresses tomorrow. Can't wait, ours is knackered.
Thursday, 27 December 2007
Good Christmas but bad now....
Good - loads of lovely materialistic presents, I am now the owner of not one but TWO Radley bags and purses, and lots of other lovely things.
Bad - I have eaten so much, I honestly darent get on the scales. 2....t'other kitten has ganky eyes and her third eyelid is slow to retract, so we're taking her to the vets tomorrow :bawling:
Panicking now, I just hope she's ok. I somehow think that she wont be the easiest to get pills down.
Bad - I have eaten so much, I honestly darent get on the scales. 2....t'other kitten has ganky eyes and her third eyelid is slow to retract, so we're taking her to the vets tomorrow :bawling:
Panicking now, I just hope she's ok. I somehow think that she wont be the easiest to get pills down.
Saturday, 22 December 2007
Don't fall in love cos we hate you still
The definitive in Bad Food Days today.
Chocolates, squirty cream, battered sausages and chips for lunch. Chinese takeaway and wine for tea.
Work was shit. If it had been a normal day, with normal amounts of staff on then it would have been a Busy day, but with ALL of us there, well....I probably could have found more to do but I spent most of the day arguing with OH, playing on Facebook and chatting on MSN. Such a good example to set.
I'm feeling :) though as I have managed to pay back a debt which is about 4, maybe five years old, with interest.
Reminising now about bands, back in the day.... :sigh: I miss being 17 sometimes. I do feel old tonight.
Chocolates, squirty cream, battered sausages and chips for lunch. Chinese takeaway and wine for tea.
Work was shit. If it had been a normal day, with normal amounts of staff on then it would have been a Busy day, but with ALL of us there, well....I probably could have found more to do but I spent most of the day arguing with OH, playing on Facebook and chatting on MSN. Such a good example to set.
I'm feeling :) though as I have managed to pay back a debt which is about 4, maybe five years old, with interest.
Reminising now about bands, back in the day.... :sigh: I miss being 17 sometimes. I do feel old tonight.
Thursday, 20 December 2007
busybusybusy
Work has been manic today - got sat down for the very first time at 2.30pm. Still, it's all good, although still no hint of a bonus - I'm still whinging about that. And we're being paid 3 weeks at once tomorrow, so will need to budget properly (I know thats still more often than most people get paid, but I've been paid weekly for the last 2.5 years!!) in order for me not to run out of money.
Went to the gym tonight (although was sorely tempted to give it a miss, was so tired). Am going to go again tomorrow in the day and that will be it till the new year! Must buy a new sports bra - monoboob MINGS. Would really like some new trackie bottoms...but will wait until hips are smaller.
Fat Fighters curry again tonight. I do like it, the raita makes it so much yummier. Shame the raita alone is 4 points though.
I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow, but in reality it boils down to 'go to gym, buy some gift tags, tidy up, do some washing, put tree up'.
Thought of so much to blog earlier. Can I now? Clearly not.
Went to the gym tonight (although was sorely tempted to give it a miss, was so tired). Am going to go again tomorrow in the day and that will be it till the new year! Must buy a new sports bra - monoboob MINGS. Would really like some new trackie bottoms...but will wait until hips are smaller.
Fat Fighters curry again tonight. I do like it, the raita makes it so much yummier. Shame the raita alone is 4 points though.
I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow, but in reality it boils down to 'go to gym, buy some gift tags, tidy up, do some washing, put tree up'.
Thought of so much to blog earlier. Can I now? Clearly not.
Wednesday, 19 December 2007
I think I'm getting the hang of this....
Being Organised, that is.
Shame it's so I can be lazy and so all I have to do in the morning is wake up, roll out of bed, get dressed and drink my coffee :rolleyes: Gym bag packed (I feel about 13, saying that) and by my clothes and handbag. Instead of leaving my hair to dry naturally/going to bed with it wet I have dried it. Contemplated straightening it, but suspect that the straightness would have dropped out by morning. Lunch is ready and Fat Fighters pointed. Just need to wrap the last 3 presents, and I'll be so organised even I'll hate me.
Not so good with food today. Well, the sweetie tin was right next to me, and open and it would have been rude not to. Gone over points too, erk. No self control. So I wont have made my personal target of being in the 15's by January. Arse. Nor my target of 3 inches by January :grumps:
Went to gym again tonight. Harder work, but was with Friend and she kept making me laugh. Will go tomorrow and Friday and then I can eat :ahem: slightly more of what I wouldnt normally next week without feeling overly guilty. No chance of getting to the gym over Christmas anyway.
Re ponies.... May go ride the ayrab anyway. Any riding is better than no riding and as I was told -see, I do listen- it will improve core strength etc and can always count towards points. And who knows what might happen?
Fat Fighters curry again for next 2 days to make sure I stay within points. Nearly Christmas though....
Shame it's so I can be lazy and so all I have to do in the morning is wake up, roll out of bed, get dressed and drink my coffee :rolleyes: Gym bag packed (I feel about 13, saying that) and by my clothes and handbag. Instead of leaving my hair to dry naturally/going to bed with it wet I have dried it. Contemplated straightening it, but suspect that the straightness would have dropped out by morning. Lunch is ready and Fat Fighters pointed. Just need to wrap the last 3 presents, and I'll be so organised even I'll hate me.
Not so good with food today. Well, the sweetie tin was right next to me, and open and it would have been rude not to. Gone over points too, erk. No self control. So I wont have made my personal target of being in the 15's by January. Arse. Nor my target of 3 inches by January :grumps:
Went to gym again tonight. Harder work, but was with Friend and she kept making me laugh. Will go tomorrow and Friday and then I can eat :ahem: slightly more of what I wouldnt normally next week without feeling overly guilty. No chance of getting to the gym over Christmas anyway.
Re ponies.... May go ride the ayrab anyway. Any riding is better than no riding and as I was told -see, I do listen- it will improve core strength etc and can always count towards points. And who knows what might happen?
Fat Fighters curry again for next 2 days to make sure I stay within points. Nearly Christmas though....
Tuesday, 18 December 2007
Someone tell me what to do...?
Ponies. Again. There's another tantrum incoming.... :rolleyes:
Mentioned to someone who comes into the shop today that I was really missing ponies and I wanted to ride again, did she know what TheLocalRidingSchool was like? Said not to worry about that and to go up to hers and she would teach me if I wanted. She's nice, but pikeyish in a posh way (if that makes sense) and I dont *quite* trust her. Nothing I can put my finger on, but on the face of things I do like her.
Then someone else came in, said dont go to her, she wins, she looks successful but only ever buys ponies someone else has brought on for her, so looks more accomplished than she is. Still with me? They suggested AnotherRidingSchool. Now, I've seen 2 riders from there and 1 horse. Neither rider is a good advert and neither was the horse. But I would normally trust his opinion.
So I may just give up all ideas of riding again until I'm 14 stone (April, May time?) and go to TheLocalRidingSchool before maybe thinking of one on loan again. I've been thinking about having a horse again - part of me is convinced if I am better with my money this time around (you know, budget...) and maybe get a sharer then things would all be ok. But with that, the extension/redecorating etc... I can just see myself having to sell/give back before long. And what if I have another crisis of confidence?
Have been good today, only half a chocolate chip shortbread biscuit - gave it back cos it really didnt taste how it looked, and have turned down all Bad Things at work :D AND been to the gym. Going again tomorrow. Accidentally had the work setting on the treadmill on 90seconds so got off rather red faced, but feel ok.
It's nearly Christmas, I cannot wait....
Mentioned to someone who comes into the shop today that I was really missing ponies and I wanted to ride again, did she know what TheLocalRidingSchool was like? Said not to worry about that and to go up to hers and she would teach me if I wanted. She's nice, but pikeyish in a posh way (if that makes sense) and I dont *quite* trust her. Nothing I can put my finger on, but on the face of things I do like her.
Then someone else came in, said dont go to her, she wins, she looks successful but only ever buys ponies someone else has brought on for her, so looks more accomplished than she is. Still with me? They suggested AnotherRidingSchool. Now, I've seen 2 riders from there and 1 horse. Neither rider is a good advert and neither was the horse. But I would normally trust his opinion.
So I may just give up all ideas of riding again until I'm 14 stone (April, May time?) and go to TheLocalRidingSchool before maybe thinking of one on loan again. I've been thinking about having a horse again - part of me is convinced if I am better with my money this time around (you know, budget...) and maybe get a sharer then things would all be ok. But with that, the extension/redecorating etc... I can just see myself having to sell/give back before long. And what if I have another crisis of confidence?
Have been good today, only half a chocolate chip shortbread biscuit - gave it back cos it really didnt taste how it looked, and have turned down all Bad Things at work :D AND been to the gym. Going again tomorrow. Accidentally had the work setting on the treadmill on 90seconds so got off rather red faced, but feel ok.
It's nearly Christmas, I cannot wait....
Monday, 17 December 2007
As predicted....
4lbs on :bawling: Hopefully that fact I'm so upset and annoyed will mean I can get back on track this week. Will have Fat Fighters curry tonight and tomorrow.
Although.... I've eaten chocolate all week, had that bacon sandwich on Friday, 2 ham sandwiches and a big meal and 1.5 bottles of wine Saturday night, then half a bottle of champagne, roast lamb and nibbly bits last night. So it's obvious why I've gained, it just pisses me off that I'm playing catch up this month.
I know it's my own fault. Will be going to the gym today, either on my own or with S, asked her to text me and let me know what she was planning. Sadly I've lost my phone, so I have no idea whats happening at the minute.
Alarm for work went off twice last night, false alarm both times.
Must get myself motivated, lots to do today, including a waitrose trip (again...). Must get OHs presents wrapped too. Got most of them done yesterday, just his mums to wrap for the 'not us' people. Cats were a major irritant, might lock them in the bathroom today lol.
So cross with myself. I feel guilty too....when the first alarm went off, I sent a text to everyone saying 'please please please dont put things on the bins when you bring in....They drop and it sets the alarm off. Thankfully it was now [6pm] and not 3am when I would have been REALLY cross lol! Well done for a great weekend though everyone, see you Tuesday' and got no response at all from 2 of them and a shitty one off the third. I did text round again pointing out I wasnt getting at anyone, and I was proud of everyone for the way they've worked this weekend, but still. We have asked them not to do it. Anyway, is all redundant cos it turns out that the alarm sensor isnt working. Fabulous. Can't find my phone though for a second apology :rolleyes:
Ah well, must shift the lardy arse. You know, do something...on my third day off and havent acheived anything.
Although.... I've eaten chocolate all week, had that bacon sandwich on Friday, 2 ham sandwiches and a big meal and 1.5 bottles of wine Saturday night, then half a bottle of champagne, roast lamb and nibbly bits last night. So it's obvious why I've gained, it just pisses me off that I'm playing catch up this month.
I know it's my own fault. Will be going to the gym today, either on my own or with S, asked her to text me and let me know what she was planning. Sadly I've lost my phone, so I have no idea whats happening at the minute.
Alarm for work went off twice last night, false alarm both times.
Must get myself motivated, lots to do today, including a waitrose trip (again...). Must get OHs presents wrapped too. Got most of them done yesterday, just his mums to wrap for the 'not us' people. Cats were a major irritant, might lock them in the bathroom today lol.
So cross with myself. I feel guilty too....when the first alarm went off, I sent a text to everyone saying 'please please please dont put things on the bins when you bring in....They drop and it sets the alarm off. Thankfully it was now [6pm] and not 3am when I would have been REALLY cross lol! Well done for a great weekend though everyone, see you Tuesday' and got no response at all from 2 of them and a shitty one off the third. I did text round again pointing out I wasnt getting at anyone, and I was proud of everyone for the way they've worked this weekend, but still. We have asked them not to do it. Anyway, is all redundant cos it turns out that the alarm sensor isnt working. Fabulous. Can't find my phone though for a second apology :rolleyes:
Ah well, must shift the lardy arse. You know, do something...on my third day off and havent acheived anything.
Sunday, 16 December 2007
Bollocks to Fat Fighters
I've given up for this month, I have no self control at all.
Last night was great, ended up getting drunk - nicely drunk, not like last time - remembered my make up and got loads of lovely comments! Was a lovely night.OH and I went up to the hill afterwards.
Got up this morning and wandered down to the farmers market - wore the pink Joules jacket I bought ages ago and then have never worn because it was tight round my tummy. Well, it's still tight, but not so tight I was embarrassed to go out in public in it! Saw a really lovely mounted photo of SmallTown, taken from where we were last night, so have bought it for OH as it's our 2 year anniversary today. Also saw a gardening kit so got that for OHs mum for either her birthday or Christmas.
Really should start wrapping presents and not be playing on Facebook.
Last night was great, ended up getting drunk - nicely drunk, not like last time - remembered my make up and got loads of lovely comments! Was a lovely night.OH and I went up to the hill afterwards.
Got up this morning and wandered down to the farmers market - wore the pink Joules jacket I bought ages ago and then have never worn because it was tight round my tummy. Well, it's still tight, but not so tight I was embarrassed to go out in public in it! Saw a really lovely mounted photo of SmallTown, taken from where we were last night, so have bought it for OH as it's our 2 year anniversary today. Also saw a gardening kit so got that for OHs mum for either her birthday or Christmas.
Really should start wrapping presents and not be playing on Facebook.
Saturday, 15 December 2007
Definately a gaining week
Went to town (inc gym, yay me), but also went to the butchers for ham for OH. Couldnt resist a hot ham sandwich. Then I got home and couldnt resist a ham & pie d'angloys sandwich....And then theres the meal (and alcohol...) tonight. :sigh:
Have done bugger all, all day and it's been fab. Just need a way for tummy to unbloat ready for The Dress. Typical.
Also have to attempt false nails again. could be, um, a disaster.
At least I wont get so pissed I'll forget my make up this time.
Have done bugger all, all day and it's been fab. Just need a way for tummy to unbloat ready for The Dress. Typical.
Also have to attempt false nails again. could be, um, a disaster.
At least I wont get so pissed I'll forget my make up this time.
Friday, 14 December 2007
Really shitty day
Today really shows why I ended up at the weight I did. Really am in the Food-Horrors now.
It didnt start so well when I didnt get to sleep till gone midnight. Then another call from the alarm at 3.03am. Again a false alarm, but the engineer didnt get out till 4am so by the time he had sorted everything and signed the job off etc it was 5am. Made the fatal mistake of going back to bed when we got home and now feel, I'm sure, a billion times worse.
Then, to make a shitty day just that bit worse, we had Pedigree, 15 pallets of horse feed and 5 pallets of SEJ in today. Plus the normal shop busy-ness.
So, um, I've eaten. Had a bacon, egg, mushroom and brown sauce sandwich at breakfast (the best thing I think I've eaten in MONTHS), then chocolates, biscuits, crumpets (I've sent OH on a SmallTown wide search for Warburtons crumpets - must be Warburtons)all in addition to my lunch and tea. Am craving chinese takeaway but OH has refused.
My SS present turned up this morning. Not quite what I expected. Have inadvertently bought a grotty old LP. Oops.
Also having wine tonight. Supreme lack of self control and I will be furious on Monday when I dont lose much, but right now, I dont care.
It didnt start so well when I didnt get to sleep till gone midnight. Then another call from the alarm at 3.03am. Again a false alarm, but the engineer didnt get out till 4am so by the time he had sorted everything and signed the job off etc it was 5am. Made the fatal mistake of going back to bed when we got home and now feel, I'm sure, a billion times worse.
Then, to make a shitty day just that bit worse, we had Pedigree, 15 pallets of horse feed and 5 pallets of SEJ in today. Plus the normal shop busy-ness.
So, um, I've eaten. Had a bacon, egg, mushroom and brown sauce sandwich at breakfast (the best thing I think I've eaten in MONTHS), then chocolates, biscuits, crumpets (I've sent OH on a SmallTown wide search for Warburtons crumpets - must be Warburtons)all in addition to my lunch and tea. Am craving chinese takeaway but OH has refused.
My SS present turned up this morning. Not quite what I expected. Have inadvertently bought a grotty old LP. Oops.
Also having wine tonight. Supreme lack of self control and I will be furious on Monday when I dont lose much, but right now, I dont care.
Thursday, 13 December 2007
still podged
Dont think I'll hit my target of being in 15's by January 1st. Bullied OH into agreeing to take pictures of me every month, wearing the same clothes each time. Maybe then I might see some difference?
Gym tonight, was HARD work. Dont think I did the squats properly, or the situps really and I did the upper body perhaps too quick to really work. Dont know why it was such hard work, wasnt especially busy really. Going to be a Warehouse Wench again tomorrow, more exercise, weee! Still undecided about going to the gym or not. Will see how I feel, then maybe go Saturday if I dont go tomorrow night.
Cant believe it's nearly Christmas. I dont feel festive at all. Am going to be caught out....All presents are bought, but no cards. Who will bet I'll either write them in a panic Christmas Eve, or just not bother?
Just weighed FatKitten. He really is a fatboy....13lbs. Must be all the kitten food he is pilfering. T'Other one is quite happy eating HIS breed specific food so what do you do? :lol:
Off out for a meal on Saturday night, which I am perfectly sure will end up being a drunken night out. Thankfully not in Leeds and I shant be allowed to be an Embarrassment like I was at the party the other week.
Credit cards mostly working today. CCMan had bought his airgun, so when one of The Staff broke my coffee mug [fuming] I brandished it crazily (the safety was on....) then in a moment of utter boredom - no jobs, customers, anything, I took it outside and shot some old paint tins. I REALLY WANT ONE. I suspect I may end up being inadvertently dangerous though.
Just finished reading a book about armed police. Part of me would LOVE the 'coolness' of being able to shout 'ARMED POLICE! Put the gun down, motherfucker!' while the other part is in real awe of what they do. Book was fascinating. The courage they have is mindblowing.
There was biscuits and Haribo at work today. This is why I fear for my target :rolleyes:
Gym tonight, was HARD work. Dont think I did the squats properly, or the situps really and I did the upper body perhaps too quick to really work. Dont know why it was such hard work, wasnt especially busy really. Going to be a Warehouse Wench again tomorrow, more exercise, weee! Still undecided about going to the gym or not. Will see how I feel, then maybe go Saturday if I dont go tomorrow night.
Cant believe it's nearly Christmas. I dont feel festive at all. Am going to be caught out....All presents are bought, but no cards. Who will bet I'll either write them in a panic Christmas Eve, or just not bother?
Just weighed FatKitten. He really is a fatboy....13lbs. Must be all the kitten food he is pilfering. T'Other one is quite happy eating HIS breed specific food so what do you do? :lol:
Off out for a meal on Saturday night, which I am perfectly sure will end up being a drunken night out. Thankfully not in Leeds and I shant be allowed to be an Embarrassment like I was at the party the other week.
Credit cards mostly working today. CCMan had bought his airgun, so when one of The Staff broke my coffee mug [fuming] I brandished it crazily (the safety was on....) then in a moment of utter boredom - no jobs, customers, anything, I took it outside and shot some old paint tins. I REALLY WANT ONE. I suspect I may end up being inadvertently dangerous though.
Just finished reading a book about armed police. Part of me would LOVE the 'coolness' of being able to shout 'ARMED POLICE! Put the gun down, motherfucker!' while the other part is in real awe of what they do. Book was fascinating. The courage they have is mindblowing.
There was biscuits and Haribo at work today. This is why I fear for my target :rolleyes:
Wednesday, 12 December 2007
Podged
Fat Fighters curry :hail: Just as well, as I ODd on the chocolate orange sweets the Hills rep brought. No gym tonight as I became a Warehouse Wench with W today as he had a few big deliveries to do. Was knackered and stripped down to only 3 layers.
Architect came this morning. Very positive, didnt think we'd have a problem with planning and gave us a good idea about maximising space in the upstairs bedroom and hopefully not losing too much space in total.
Work wasnt too bad. Man from computer systems came in, broke the credit card machines then buggered off, and then made me stay 2 hours after we'd closed in order to fix it. Coming back tomorrow. More hassle.
Part of me hopes we stay this busy (had lunch at 4.30) the other is desperately spinking for new staff in the new year.
Feel fat tonight. And tired. Architect also said we shouldnt have a problem with the planning - yay!
Architect came this morning. Very positive, didnt think we'd have a problem with planning and gave us a good idea about maximising space in the upstairs bedroom and hopefully not losing too much space in total.
Work wasnt too bad. Man from computer systems came in, broke the credit card machines then buggered off, and then made me stay 2 hours after we'd closed in order to fix it. Coming back tomorrow. More hassle.
Part of me hopes we stay this busy (had lunch at 4.30) the other is desperately spinking for new staff in the new year.
Feel fat tonight. And tired. Architect also said we shouldnt have a problem with the planning - yay!
Tuesday, 11 December 2007
sleeeeeppppppyyyyyyy
Who needs kids? Cats woke us up again about 4am. So now I am vvvv tired.
Am struggling now with Fat Fighters, I think. I can't decide if it's cos its December and I'm surrounded by Christmas temptation, the novelty has finally worn off, or the diminishing points are starting to show but it's been really really hard. I've been so hungry the past 2 weeks and it's HARD.... Bah.
So, worked today, kept busy...Had a managers meeting...think we were all secretly hoping that we'd be getting a christmas bonus extra to the one we're on target for in January, but no go. Was counting on it too :( Not much else said really....felt a bit of a waste of time. Went to the gym afterwards and did full program. Yawned most of my way round. Going to have a night off tomorrow.
Architect coming round tomorrow morning so have had a super quick tidy up. Still looks a tip.
Nothing else to say really. Buit of a nothing day. Hungry which isnt helping (and yes, I've had my tea and there has been more creative pointing as well).
Am struggling now with Fat Fighters, I think. I can't decide if it's cos its December and I'm surrounded by Christmas temptation, the novelty has finally worn off, or the diminishing points are starting to show but it's been really really hard. I've been so hungry the past 2 weeks and it's HARD.... Bah.
So, worked today, kept busy...Had a managers meeting...think we were all secretly hoping that we'd be getting a christmas bonus extra to the one we're on target for in January, but no go. Was counting on it too :( Not much else said really....felt a bit of a waste of time. Went to the gym afterwards and did full program. Yawned most of my way round. Going to have a night off tomorrow.
Architect coming round tomorrow morning so have had a super quick tidy up. Still looks a tip.
Nothing else to say really. Buit of a nothing day. Hungry which isnt helping (and yes, I've had my tea and there has been more creative pointing as well).
Monday, 10 December 2007
Gold Stars
I have finally discovered how to get The Staff to work! Slightly wrong in that they're all over 18 and are being conned into working with the promise of gold stars and a tickable sheet of Things to Do. Has worked today. Who am I to argue? Lets see how it works in a few weeks.
Weigh in today - had put on 4lbs from yesterday, but as I had a somewhat abrupt wake up call ('Are you a keyholder for FBs work?' 'yes' 'Your intruder alarm is going off!') I leapt onto the scales, did the WI then ran. Well. Drove. A jumper had fallen off the lockers. So I've been at work since 7am.
So, work went well, everyone nice and busy. A nice lady asked to speak to the vet, bless her, she meant me. AMTRA really need to employ some more approachable staff, but never mind.
Gym tonight, did full program. Was much easier than Friday, but never mind. Still struggle on the arms and squats, although I *was* admiring how thin my legs looked as I did the squats. And I think I might be seeing some definition in the old arms. That obviously could be delusion, but I live in hope.
Half a bottle of wine tonight, creatively pointed so to enable it, but it's all good. Must be good this week though. I so want to lose weight and be in the 15s by new year. How about that? start the new year 5 stone less than I started it. Thats something I didnt think I'd be saying now.
Facebook is addictive. Am doing a FIENDISHLY difficult puzzle. Oh how the might have fallen, I used to be quite cool once....
Weigh in today - had put on 4lbs from yesterday, but as I had a somewhat abrupt wake up call ('Are you a keyholder for FBs work?' 'yes' 'Your intruder alarm is going off!') I leapt onto the scales, did the WI then ran. Well. Drove. A jumper had fallen off the lockers. So I've been at work since 7am.
So, work went well, everyone nice and busy. A nice lady asked to speak to the vet, bless her, she meant me. AMTRA really need to employ some more approachable staff, but never mind.
Gym tonight, did full program. Was much easier than Friday, but never mind. Still struggle on the arms and squats, although I *was* admiring how thin my legs looked as I did the squats. And I think I might be seeing some definition in the old arms. That obviously could be delusion, but I live in hope.
Half a bottle of wine tonight, creatively pointed so to enable it, but it's all good. Must be good this week though. I so want to lose weight and be in the 15s by new year. How about that? start the new year 5 stone less than I started it. Thats something I didnt think I'd be saying now.
Facebook is addictive. Am doing a FIENDISHLY difficult puzzle. Oh how the might have fallen, I used to be quite cool once....
Sunday, 9 December 2007
Ressurected
I am the resurrection and I am the light
I couldnt ever bring myself to hate you as Id like
Been a long time. Am shocked I remembered not only the password but also the log in.
Am still a member of FatClub and till now has been going well. I'm blaming Christmas and the resulting food/free stuff off reps. Have now lost 5 stone 10lbs since November last year. By August 1st 2008 I will (I will!) have lost 11stone. Half my bodyweight.
So whats changed since I last blogged.... I have new Uber-Job, still in the same place but am now one of the managers (M1 :cough: left). I still have tantrums daily about how unfair it all is.
I still whinge and moan that I'm not losing size quick enough. Going to the gym lots at the minute though.
The pony is almost-sold. She should belong to her new owner in the new year... and then will fund the house extension. Sigh. Grown up things. I cant wait till I get to 13stone and can ring up about riding lessons and start again.
Must buy christmas cards...
I couldnt ever bring myself to hate you as Id like
Been a long time. Am shocked I remembered not only the password but also the log in.
Am still a member of FatClub and till now has been going well. I'm blaming Christmas and the resulting food/free stuff off reps. Have now lost 5 stone 10lbs since November last year. By August 1st 2008 I will (I will!) have lost 11stone. Half my bodyweight.
So whats changed since I last blogged.... I have new Uber-Job, still in the same place but am now one of the managers (M1 :cough: left). I still have tantrums daily about how unfair it all is.
I still whinge and moan that I'm not losing size quick enough. Going to the gym lots at the minute though.
The pony is almost-sold. She should belong to her new owner in the new year... and then will fund the house extension. Sigh. Grown up things. I cant wait till I get to 13stone and can ring up about riding lessons and start again.
Must buy christmas cards...
Saturday, 7 July 2007
Poor ignored blog....
Went to Harrogate today, bought lots of Lush stuff, some books and magazines, a card for Chris' dad and some weight watchers scales. Have stuck to it - ish for last 3 days...Portion sizes are slightly ambiguous though so am not sure if I'm doing it right. We're having pizza and garlic bread for tea, which I am desperate for!! But is 21 points of my 28 :S so have had cereal and tomatoes to eat today. Scales are very cool though. Were £60 reduced to £40 in Argos, so had them. Measures BMI, body water, body fat and age...Can have a password on it so Chris wouldnt be able to see my weight....Measures the oz's too, so will see any teeny bits of weight loss that happen!!
Am starving...am dreaming about this pizza...
Went to Harrogate today, bought lots of Lush stuff, some books and magazines, a card for Chris' dad and some weight watchers scales. Have stuck to it - ish for last 3 days...Portion sizes are slightly ambiguous though so am not sure if I'm doing it right. We're having pizza and garlic bread for tea, which I am desperate for!! But is 21 points of my 28 :S so have had cereal and tomatoes to eat today. Scales are very cool though. Were £60 reduced to £40 in Argos, so had them. Measures BMI, body water, body fat and age...Can have a password on it so Chris wouldnt be able to see my weight....Measures the oz's too, so will see any teeny bits of weight loss that happen!!
Am starving...am dreaming about this pizza...
Thursday, 5 July 2007
My head hurts
Oppsy....Didnt think I was THAT drunk last night.
Anyway. Day one of FatClub. Yesterday has already put me 7.5points over my weekly total :S. New weigh in day is now Mondays. Am going to have breakfast this morning, despite the fact I feel sick :S but have just done half an hour on the bike.
Been looking at FC site - by the looks of things I should only do 6points worth of evercise a week...My cycling was 2.5 :unsure: Was planning on going to the gym tonight...Perhaps it was a day. (edit - was wrong on all counts...daily exercise allowance is 4 points. hmm)
I really do feel poorly this morning. Was up and wide awake at 5am which I'm sure won;t have helped.
Just eating cornflakes...30g is MINISCULE. Would appear my previous cereal bowls have been about 100g...Hence about 400calories! Oops.
Food: crunchy nut cornflakes, semi skimmed milk, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), french fries, 2 bananas, beef stew
Exercise: 30mins (300 calories) on bike
Anyway. Day one of FatClub. Yesterday has already put me 7.5points over my weekly total :S. New weigh in day is now Mondays. Am going to have breakfast this morning, despite the fact I feel sick :S but have just done half an hour on the bike.
Been looking at FC site - by the looks of things I should only do 6points worth of evercise a week...My cycling was 2.5 :unsure: Was planning on going to the gym tonight...Perhaps it was a day. (edit - was wrong on all counts...daily exercise allowance is 4 points. hmm)
I really do feel poorly this morning. Was up and wide awake at 5am which I'm sure won;t have helped.
Just eating cornflakes...30g is MINISCULE. Would appear my previous cereal bowls have been about 100g...Hence about 400calories! Oops.
Food: crunchy nut cornflakes, semi skimmed milk, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), french fries, 2 bananas, beef stew
Exercise: 30mins (300 calories) on bike
Wednesday, 4 July 2007
what Have I done...
Have just joined FatClub online....Decided it was slightly less drastic (and cheaper) than Lipotrim. Also subscribing to the magazine. To celebrate am eating badly and drinking wine.
Food: 1 slice toast, 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller light crunchy corner, packet french fries, pasta & carbonara sauce, homemade garlic ciabatta, half a bottle rose wine
Exercise: none
Food: 1 slice toast, 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller light crunchy corner, packet french fries, pasta & carbonara sauce, homemade garlic ciabatta, half a bottle rose wine
Exercise: none
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
:bawling:
I am SO going to get sacked soon. SAGE is just going straight in one ear and out the other.
M2 and SC I'm convinced are now having an affair...apparently she was sending him rude pics during work on Friday and was getting some off him in return!!! Ick, the thought is foul...I actually dont know how anyone can find her attractive. She has bad teeth, never washes, greasy hair, is just plain dirty, neglects her pets which she proclaims to love so much, is also seeing jack again I found out today...Told M2 and he looked like I'd hit him :unsure:
So, with SC allegedly on holiday, but still coming in, NotSoLovelyM being an arse and complaining and also has Nod in to see me, MrD is getting stroppy as nothing ever really goes his way bless him and I am finding it hard to cope with everything.
Food: 3 slices toast, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, bag of Aero bubbles, packet French Fries, healthy eating muller corner, 4 fingers shortbread, half a small toberlone bar, 2 rectangles clotted cream ice cream, pilau rice, limey chicken, home made garlic ciabatta
Exercise: swimming (40 lengths)
M2 and SC I'm convinced are now having an affair...apparently she was sending him rude pics during work on Friday and was getting some off him in return!!! Ick, the thought is foul...I actually dont know how anyone can find her attractive. She has bad teeth, never washes, greasy hair, is just plain dirty, neglects her pets which she proclaims to love so much, is also seeing jack again I found out today...Told M2 and he looked like I'd hit him :unsure:
So, with SC allegedly on holiday, but still coming in, NotSoLovelyM being an arse and complaining and also has Nod in to see me, MrD is getting stroppy as nothing ever really goes his way bless him and I am finding it hard to cope with everything.
Food: 3 slices toast, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, bag of Aero bubbles, packet French Fries, healthy eating muller corner, 4 fingers shortbread, half a small toberlone bar, 2 rectangles clotted cream ice cream, pilau rice, limey chicken, home made garlic ciabatta
Exercise: swimming (40 lengths)
Monday, 2 July 2007
Bad, foul, grumpy mood
Raaahhh!!
LovelyM has very quickly become UnLovelyM since he & Nod have been together. He is irritating, completely lovestruck and impossible to get to do anything. I wouldnt mind so much if he actually did some work, but....he really didnt. RAAAAAAH.
Have been so pissed off have eaten lots too. Oh well.
Came off period today, and still same weight so dreams of bleeding for a month then losing 10stone are wildly unreachable. Seems like Pill may have had nothing to do with it.
So tired, has been a really muggy hot close day which wont have helped my mood. Forklift training was cancelled cos man had kidney infection :(
Food: hot ham & crackling sandwich, strawberry bun, 2 slices salami & pie d'angloys, 4 jam tarts, 1 chicken & salad sandwich, french fries, muller crunchy corner yoghurt, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, lots of Lindt chocolate, 1 almond croissant, raspberries
Exercise: Nothing
LovelyM has very quickly become UnLovelyM since he & Nod have been together. He is irritating, completely lovestruck and impossible to get to do anything. I wouldnt mind so much if he actually did some work, but....he really didnt. RAAAAAAH.
Have been so pissed off have eaten lots too. Oh well.
Came off period today, and still same weight so dreams of bleeding for a month then losing 10stone are wildly unreachable. Seems like Pill may have had nothing to do with it.
So tired, has been a really muggy hot close day which wont have helped my mood. Forklift training was cancelled cos man had kidney infection :(
Food: hot ham & crackling sandwich, strawberry bun, 2 slices salami & pie d'angloys, 4 jam tarts, 1 chicken & salad sandwich, french fries, muller crunchy corner yoghurt, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, lots of Lindt chocolate, 1 almond croissant, raspberries
Exercise: Nothing
Sunday, 1 July 2007
hmmmmm
Tired, unmotivated and eating already. Havent weighed myself, dont dare lol. Really need to keep thinking about the online stuff but...so tired... The Hickstead Derby is on later, can't wait to see it. I may even go back to bed....
Entertained ideas of going to the gym for about 5 minutes, then decided against it and thought I might just use my pilates rowing thing, the bike, sit up machine and spinny thing (all of which I have ignored recently..) while watching the Derby. Then S texted and asked if I wanted to go to the yard & gym later. So I did. Lunged her horse for a bit (I havent lunged for over a year :eek: !!!) then off we went to Aireborough....Didnt do a full programme. Straight onto the x-trainer for 15 minutes on level 7, then some weights...I did the leg weights pushing in I did 50kg and pushing out I did 40kg, so might start doing them all the time, also did seated row, arm press and leg press, then onto the treadmill for another 15minutes. At least I went...!!
Got back in time for the highlights of the whole Derby meeting, so did washing up, hoovering etc and finished just in time to sit in front of the Derby with my lunch. Simple things...
Food: 1 big bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller healthy corners yoghurt, roast chicken, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, green beans, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce, orangey solero ice cream, 1 jam tart.
Exercise: Gym
Entertained ideas of going to the gym for about 5 minutes, then decided against it and thought I might just use my pilates rowing thing, the bike, sit up machine and spinny thing (all of which I have ignored recently..) while watching the Derby. Then S texted and asked if I wanted to go to the yard & gym later. So I did. Lunged her horse for a bit (I havent lunged for over a year :eek: !!!) then off we went to Aireborough....Didnt do a full programme. Straight onto the x-trainer for 15 minutes on level 7, then some weights...I did the leg weights pushing in I did 50kg and pushing out I did 40kg, so might start doing them all the time, also did seated row, arm press and leg press, then onto the treadmill for another 15minutes. At least I went...!!
Got back in time for the highlights of the whole Derby meeting, so did washing up, hoovering etc and finished just in time to sit in front of the Derby with my lunch. Simple things...
Food: 1 big bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller healthy corners yoghurt, roast chicken, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, green beans, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce, orangey solero ice cream, 1 jam tart.
Exercise: Gym
Saturday, 30 June 2007
Fat Day
:thud: I managed to do the banking AND sheets AND SAGE with minimal mistakes and help! Weeeee!!
Hugely busy at work, was allegedly my first day as 'alone manager' but M3 was hovering. Must ask to be told when I'm going to magically know when orders are coming in.
Going to see Selfish N tonight...she rang as I walked in the door and I wasnt quick enough to come up with an excuse :S Also let slip I wasnt working tomorrow, so no doubt she will invite herself over/I'll have to do something for her...I wanted to watch the Derby... Will be nearly a year since Lily died.
Food: 2 x portions lasagne, half a portion chip shop chips, 1 muller light, 1 strawberry bun, maltesers, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, garlic bread, 1 J20, 2 hot chocolates
Exercise: nothing. MAY go to gym tomorrow before the Derby...
Hugely busy at work, was allegedly my first day as 'alone manager' but M3 was hovering. Must ask to be told when I'm going to magically know when orders are coming in.
Going to see Selfish N tonight...she rang as I walked in the door and I wasnt quick enough to come up with an excuse :S Also let slip I wasnt working tomorrow, so no doubt she will invite herself over/I'll have to do something for her...I wanted to watch the Derby... Will be nearly a year since Lily died.
Food: 2 x portions lasagne, half a portion chip shop chips, 1 muller light, 1 strawberry bun, maltesers, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, garlic bread, 1 J20, 2 hot chocolates
Exercise: nothing. MAY go to gym tomorrow before the Derby...
Friday, 29 June 2007
O....M....G
Apparently M2 & SC have been texting each other naked pictures all day :eek: Not entirely sure I believe it, but....Crazy.
Convinced myself I wasnt going to the gym tonight, but then, having eaten tea and had half a bottle of wine I went after all....
Not a bad day really, SAGE really winding me up. I cannot grasp it at all. Work in general is a bit weird.... I dont really feel I 'belong' in the shop anymore,yet I definately dont belong in the office either...
Food: banana, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, fruit corner, french fries, lasagne, salad & salad cream, garlic ciabatta, skinny cow ice cream
Exercise: Gym
Convinced myself I wasnt going to the gym tonight, but then, having eaten tea and had half a bottle of wine I went after all....
Not a bad day really, SAGE really winding me up. I cannot grasp it at all. Work in general is a bit weird.... I dont really feel I 'belong' in the shop anymore,yet I definately dont belong in the office either...
Food: banana, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, fruit corner, french fries, lasagne, salad & salad cream, garlic ciabatta, skinny cow ice cream
Exercise: Gym
Thursday, 28 June 2007
Hmmm
Maybe I will stop being an impulsive drama queen for a week or so.... I have come on today, so will either have huge weight loss, or nothing because it wasnt the pill/lack of periods make me stay the same weight.
So, I dont know. Maybe I am just destined to be fat and ugly forever :sad: especially as I am troughing more now...
Food: 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, grapes, french fries, muller light, homemade pizza, homemade garlic bread, 1 chocolate chip muffin
Exercise: nothing
So, I dont know. Maybe I am just destined to be fat and ugly forever :sad: especially as I am troughing more now...
Food: 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, grapes, french fries, muller light, homemade pizza, homemade garlic bread, 1 chocolate chip muffin
Exercise: nothing
Wednesday, 27 June 2007
Hmmmm
Now what to think? No loss this week, but OTOH, considering what I was on Saturday, the fact it isnt a huge great big gain is very definately Something To Shout About. But I'm not, I'm still gutted. Won't be happy now till I'm VV.7...
Banking/Sage etc seems to be going in better. Have till Saturday. No further on on the online stuff. OH has taken it over :nod: :grumps:
Eaten LOADS today :biggrin:
Food: Aero bubbles, 1 banana, lots of grapes, some chicken breast, some ham & mozzerella, 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller fruit corner, packet french fries, pasta and carbonara sauce, 1 solero ice cream, half a bottle piat d'or
Exercise: 40lengths swimming
Banking/Sage etc seems to be going in better. Have till Saturday. No further on on the online stuff. OH has taken it over :nod: :grumps:
Eaten LOADS today :biggrin:
Food: Aero bubbles, 1 banana, lots of grapes, some chicken breast, some ham & mozzerella, 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 muller fruit corner, packet french fries, pasta and carbonara sauce, 1 solero ice cream, half a bottle piat d'or
Exercise: 40lengths swimming
Tuesday, 26 June 2007
Banking Banking Banking
Went in one ear and out the other. One day, in about 3 years, it will make sense. Possibly.
Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, french fries, muller light, garlic ciabatta, bolognese sauce, pasta, parmesan, Muller Corner Healthy Balance
Exercise: Hmmm, Either I lost count and 'gained' some lengths or I speeded my swimming up a lot looking at the time it took. So, either 68 lengths or 72. Either way, for the first time in god knows how long, over a mile.
Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, french fries, muller light, garlic ciabatta, bolognese sauce, pasta, parmesan, Muller Corner Healthy Balance
Exercise: Hmmm, Either I lost count and 'gained' some lengths or I speeded my swimming up a lot looking at the time it took. So, either 68 lengths or 72. Either way, for the first time in god knows how long, over a mile.
Monday, 25 June 2007
Mmmm, Radley purse....
I had to get up early, just so I could look at it and stroke it :wub:
My hip/outside of right leg aches ever so much atm :S And I really must stop being a hormonal, depressed witch. OH will end up leaving me and it will be my own stupid fault.
Road outside work is flooded, road is closed but everyone just going round the blocks anyway.
Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, grapes, almond croissant, 3 cranberry & white chocolate butter cookies, 1 muller light, 2 bowls pork stew with mozzerella, apple and mint sauce and bread.
Exercise: 40 lengths in swimming pool
My hip/outside of right leg aches ever so much atm :S And I really must stop being a hormonal, depressed witch. OH will end up leaving me and it will be my own stupid fault.
Road outside work is flooded, road is closed but everyone just going round the blocks anyway.
Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, grapes, almond croissant, 3 cranberry & white chocolate butter cookies, 1 muller light, 2 bowls pork stew with mozzerella, apple and mint sauce and bread.
Exercise: 40 lengths in swimming pool
Sunday, 24 June 2007
Useful website
cerazette post
Hope admin emails me back with how to join - I cant see the codes you need to join, so have emailed them
Hope admin emails me back with how to join - I cant see the codes you need to join, so have emailed them
Bankrupt
:eek:
Just back from shopping at the White Rose centre with OHs sister. It is a close run thing as to who spent the most...I think I *just* won though.
I bought:
A nightie for E's birthday
A pencil case for L's birthday
5 pairs of knickers from La Senza (I must have a pair for every day of the month now...They were on 5 for £10)
2 tops from Evans
1 pair of shoes, ballet style, with crystals on
1 necklace
1 computer game for OH
A set of bed sheets
Some body butter, lip balm and exfoliating gloves from Body Shop (no Lush :bawling:)
AND
:blush: A pink one of these
A good day, but to say I've done 'nothing', I'm really tired! Not to mention skint now...
Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 ham and salad sandwice, 1 slice carrot cake, 1 large yorkshire pudding, filled with Pork stew. 3 spoons apple & mint sauce
Exercise: shopping...
Just back from shopping at the White Rose centre with OHs sister. It is a close run thing as to who spent the most...I think I *just* won though.
I bought:
A nightie for E's birthday
A pencil case for L's birthday
5 pairs of knickers from La Senza (I must have a pair for every day of the month now...They were on 5 for £10)
2 tops from Evans
1 pair of shoes, ballet style, with crystals on
1 necklace
1 computer game for OH
A set of bed sheets
Some body butter, lip balm and exfoliating gloves from Body Shop (no Lush :bawling:)
AND
:blush: A pink one of these
A good day, but to say I've done 'nothing', I'm really tired! Not to mention skint now...
Food: 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 ham and salad sandwice, 1 slice carrot cake, 1 large yorkshire pudding, filled with Pork stew. 3 spoons apple & mint sauce
Exercise: shopping...
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