Achey Breaky Legs

My legs ache after yesterdays walk!! And we're off to do it again in a bit. Work not too bad, was in a foul mood again at the beginning. Wish I knew why.

Toying with the idea of joining a gym...It would mean that I KNEW I was targetting the right areas and doing it properly. It's £30 a month though and it's £30 I dont have.

Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) I worked it out that it was a HUGE box and still under 200calories, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, half a dime bar, 1 stick of Kinder Bueno, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle of Laughing Cow Light, limey chicken, pilau rice, apple pie, clotted cream

Exercise: 1 big long walk round the Chevin (OH reckons about 2miles), 60 sit ups, 6 minutes rowing (250 reps)

Really am undecided about joining a gym. Part of me thinks it would be a good thing, the other says it will last as long as the bike. BUT....if I have someone showing me how and where to target to lose weight from where I want to...well, there's my motivation. BUT...its £30 I dont have.

In a funny mood again. I dont know why and I dont like it.

calorie counter site...useful

So much for biking 40minutes a night still. Swimming tomorrow. According to site above, that should burn about 500calories, assuming we swim a mile.

Another Tantrum

I have no idea whats up with me.... I am still having the most stupid irrational mood swings.

I'm still not entirely enthralled with the idea of these reviews....Apparently they're going to be next Friday now. Great - another week of waking up after dreaming about it. OH is coaching me through what I should say, but the way he puts it isn't what I want to say. He wants me to try and put a positive spin on things, which I can understand why, but....Whats positive about not having enough money to live (if I wasnt in the fortunate position of no rent/mortgage), feeling undervalued and taken for a bit of a fool?

I was REALLY looking forward to doing overtime on Sunday as its so rare I actually get any....N gets offered it first, then LovelyM, then the rest of the shop staff, then any of the three managers, as they can take a day off in lieu instead of being paid, and then, and only then, if none of them want it, am I offered it. It doesnt exactly make me want to help them out of tight situations, which I know is the wrong attitude, but...Oh, I dont know.

Then on top of that, the weight tantrum has kicked in. I am sick sick sick of being on that bastard bike. But I have semi made (another) decision.... I should just do 40 minutes EVERY DAY, whether I've been for a big long walk, or swimming, or whatever. 40 minutes is fairly do able.... Then I will be more inclined to do rowing/situps as well, which I havent done since my birthday.

Am also semi considering joining FatFighters and a gym, but its more money I don't have... I dont know :(

V&M moved to Milton Keynes today. Hope this one works out better for her. Last place was crazy :(

Food: 1 chocolate muffin, lots of minimini chocolate rolls, lots of minimini flapjacks, 1 pork & apple sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 strawberry bun, pasta, cheese sause and sausages, garlic bread, apple pie, clotted cream.

Exercise: Big walk around Chevin - we were out about an hour and included lots of hills. Legs ache now! Also 10minutes on bike.

All these bad things. I know I shouldnt have them, yet I can't say no :(

Looks like today could be busy

Have just done 20mins on bike and DWSarah has just rung to cancel our Tuesday night swimming forever ( :rolleyes: ). She's going to Weight Watchers with a friend on a Tuesday and I'm half tempted to get her to go for a couple of sessions and maybe join her IF I can still swim - the pool is open till 8.45pm so SHOULD do it? I am also off out on a walk with her in a bit... No idea where though. AND!!! The other thing she wanted to tell me was she's heard of some Lab puppies which should be ready to leave their mum at the end of June time! Says they're absolutely cracking puppies. Have just rung OH to tell him and he's said to get the number and we can possibly go and see them over the weekend!

Off to do some more cycling before I have to go meet her.

(10.40am = 1hr on bike = 610calories)

What a day!! It's now 8.50pm and I have walked (with Sarah) 9 dogs and played with a puppy twice. Then gone clothes, shoes and bag shopping with her, then had a panic when she realised she'd left her house keys and the dogs house keys in a shop 10 miles away which shut in 5 minutes! Major panics till her friend ( :hail : Karen) rushed to shop and got them for her and S came round here and got changed & ready here.

Means I've only just finished my calories on the bike (1016c) but still its done. And 2 walks. And one was up a big hill which we climbed halfway up, then realised we'd lost a bloody dog, so walked back down, then he overtook us from the way we'd just come - typical - so we walked back up again.

Very tired and in dire need of a bath!!

Food: 1 chocolate muffin, 1 double caramel magnum ice cream, 1 packet of Snack bars (bought by S as a thank you!) spaghetti bolognese and home made garlic bread.

Sleeeepy

Can't decide if I'm upset re the extra weight as in how quickly it's gone back on, or not *that* bothered cos I know it WILL come back off again. Positive thinking :nod:

Well, I say that, but I am sat here, having just eaten a slice of toast & chocolate spread and half an easter egg.

I think I have almost made my final decision about ponies...I dont think I do want another one. And if V's circumstances changed and she couldnt have M after all, I think I would sell her anyway. I need the money to go towards the house etc, and I enjoy the fact I can come straight home and DO things, rather than rush from work, rush round the yard, rush home.... I'm not ruling out lessons, but I am never going to be a Good Rider, my nervousness will always hold me back - how many issues did I give M by thinking 'Eeek, C would have had a FIT at that...' or 'C would have carted me home here...' and made her do it? I still cant quite bring myself though to put her Clarendons or her Thermatex up for sale. Or her headcollar. But still, never say never.

Horses just dont really fit into the way I IMAGINE my life to pan out though... When we finish the extension, and have a puppy...I need to be divorced (more money) then I would like to marry OH (MORE money....can't imagine parents shelling out for a second wedding) and then...kids on the horizon I guess. I want kids, but this last 2 weeks of 'am I, arent I', has convinced me that I'm not ready yet. We need the extension doing first and I want to be divorced, and I cant even put that in motion till January next year. The only thing is....I dont want to constantly be saving up for the next part of my life. OH and I already behave like an old married couple, and while I usually enjoy it, I miss 'dating', especially as due to circumstances, we couldnt do that. So once a month, we're going to try and do something, whether that be going out to the cinema, going for a meal or whatever. Or even just hire a DVD and have a bottle of wine and cook ourselves something special....

Food for the day: 1 slice toast & chocolate spread, half an easter egg, 3 chocolate muffins, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, roast chicken with mashed potatoes, carrots, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & cranberry sauce.

Exercise: 40 lengths at the pool and a quick walk along the top of the Chevin after tea.

I'm definately getting old....Today *I* baked muffins. Admittedly, the baking of was a bit of a disaster - I got more muffin mix round the kitchen than I did in the bowl, and I ate half the mix... And also, next time I make them, I must remember to half the recipe - I assumed it would make 6 - it made 11..probably would have been 12 had I not eaten all that mix! Just as well they are yummy. Now I am going to get the veg ready for tea and do the pudding mix. Check me out!

Last Lazy Day

Before I hitch the wagon back up.

Well, I say lazy, OH and I went and walked up the crag earlier and looked out over the white horse, Emly moor and ferrybridge power station...Then went for a half hour walk with OHs mum round the fields. So while not biking for 10 hours and sit ups, its more than I've done recently!

Writing thank you letters for my birthday presents - havent done that in years! Makes me feel about 6, but do need doing. I've left it too late to ring up :blush:

We went to see the people who live nextdoor-but-one....THey've had done what we're planning to do to the house. I'm not sure I like it. I also think our house is longer than theirs, which is no bad thing :lol: BUT I didnt realise (think?) about how much of the garden it would take up. Puppy & minimal garden....doable? Hmmm.

It's also been quite shocking to me just how much I've come to rely on writing down what I eat on a day... I would be MORTIFIED if I had to write down what I've had today. So that helps a lot in making me not eat so much. Am also considering buying that Paul McKenna book....I dont know,I can't decide if it's a waste of money or not.

On a money saving front, I have bought myself a piggybank :wub: and am putting all my loose change I have at the end of the week in it. Partly to save up for a Radley bag & purse, and maybe Burghley trip, but also for Nice Things for the new house. And random things I want off tinternet instead of using my credit card....

Half a stone :eek:

But tbh, although I am :eek: at how quickly its gone back on, I am also quietly relieived thats all that went on. I have eaten out Wednesday evening, Friday evening, Saturday twice, then sunday lunch time AND had easter eggs and birthday cake.... No exercise. We're having duck tonight - its either going to be a total success or a complete disaster...we're having to substitute some ingredients :S

Did some gardening today :eek: its official, I am nearly 30!! And also a pregnancy test as am now almost 2 weeks late. Was negative. Thankfully.

The Three Day Rule

I read somewhere once that the longest a family can stay together is 3 days before they start to get fidgetty and pernickity with each other. We're now on the third day and I was ready to shovel my poor parents back to the hotel at 4pm.

We've (me, OH AND the kitten) have all been thoroughly spoilt - I have had loads of new books, some shoes, lots of meals bought and some frippery things....OH has had plants, seeds and all sorts bought and the kitten has had 4 toys.

Spent the day in Harrogate yesterday and also went to Harlow Carr, then went back to HC today cos mum wanted a walking stick - her walking is getting ever so bad.

My parents also met OHs parents....went well. Well, seemed to anyway.

Have eaten so much this weekend - havent dared get on the scales and have done NO exercise!! Will start again on Wednesday!