:yawn:

Very tired, and fairly upset. Since the bike broke I have put on weight (although watch me be shocked on wednesday when it miraculously disappears...), AND...this is so pathetic :rolleyes:

I REALLY WANT A PUPPY. I can't have one and I getting, actually, really depressed about it. I can't even summon up the enthusiasm to help someone at work with their puppy buying which is bad, considering I work in a pet shop. Oh well.

Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), 1 caramel egg (bad OH), roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, green beans, mint sauce and gravy.

Exercise: 66 or maybe 68 (I say 66, OH says 68) lengths of the pool, 180 sit ups, 10 mins rowing, 40 reps each minute (done in 2 blocks).

Edit: :bawling: Yes, I am well aware I have just eaten a big tea, BUT, since last Wednesday, I have put on half a stone. Just from not biking :bawling:

I feel sick.

Temptation Waits

OH bought some us a Lindt rabbit each for Easter yesterday. I want all mine now.

Have put on weight due to bike, but have measured and have lost/stayed the same everywhere apart from my damned hips :bawling:

Exercise: 180 sit ups, 10 mins on rower (average 37 reps each minute)

Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, some of Ss chip shop chips, 2 squares of DairyMilk, half a bag of Giant Buttons, chunk of french stick with salami & pie d'angloys. Tea is lasagne, salad (spring onions & salad cream) and garlic bread again.

damn and blast

Didn't get paid today. Fucking BACS. Thank God I have other money and am not up shit creek.

Food: salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), muller light, smoothie, lasagne, sald & garlic bread, spring onion, salad cream, 3/4's bottle white wine.

Exercise: So far, a pathetic 120 situps!! A friend says she does about 34 things on her rowing machine, so have something to aim for tomorrow, instead of the random few fast bits and more slower bits.

Need to phone N back in the dutycall. Already going on about RAC and had to cut her off and say I was going cos my tea was ready. Ha! First time ever I have done that!

Working tomorrow and Sunday OT so lots of extra money, so new hair here I come!

http://jamesrwinter.typepad.com/northcoast_exile/images/mansonsm.jpg THIS is who i want to look like when I am thin.

Check me out

7am this morning....was in the pool! 32 lengths, so while it doesnt make up for missing Sunday, it evens it out a bit...

OH still hasnt had my bike fixed :bawling: which means unless I fancy biking on the slant tomorrow AND running risk of snapping it totally I can't do it tomorrow either.

Not a GREAT day food wise (when is it ever anymore?!): salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) - also added some cucumber too. Muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), roast chicken, mashed potato, Yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, cranberry sauce, 1 twix top.

Exercise - just those 32 lengths.

Spent 2 hours on phone to V - she is utterly convinced she has failed her stage 1 :rolleyes: she won't have done.

I dont get it :unsure:

I'm not complaining, but....What?! How?! I don't care, I am now DEFINATELY the lightest I have been in at least 7 years, if not longer.

Swimming tonight....Don't wanna face everyone again after my tantrum last week :lol: Work been ok, got some nice compliments from 'my' staff about me, but then had an argument with the WHmanager about the way he spoke to me.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), some of OHs sausage sandwich, loads of grapes, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich. Tea is pasta, cheese sauce, bacon & peas plus garlic bread.

Exercise: 66 lengths swimming, 120 sit ups, 5 mins rowing.

Just looked at the 'timetable' of my weight loss and I've lost a LOT more this month...wonder if its a/metabolism maybe getting quicker and b/changing my pill?

Work that one out

:dunno:

Have lost weight. Oodles, considering what I was yesterday morning. Ah well, I wont complain!

D told me I'd lost weight this morning, which was sweet. I still don't think I have, despite the numbers as, according to my tape measure, I havent - if anything I have gained!!

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 1 banana 2 chunks dairy milk, 1 packet maltesers, half a OH pizza, half a OH garlic bread, 3.5 Lindt chocolates.

Exercise: 120 situps, 4 minutes rowing, swum 50 lengths.

Damage Limitation

:bawling: definately a Fat Week. Snot fair. Have been same weight for 3 weeks now, and have now gained.

Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, galaxy caramel, 3 Lindt chocolates, pasta with cheese sauce & bacon.

Exercise - have just done 102minutes on the bike, but they've been a QUICK 102mins....1100calories. Did 100 situps.

NeedyKitten has done very well today - Owners wife came in a with a collapsable dog carrier (not quite a crate, but not exactly a carrier either) which is PERFECT for him - he fits in it lovely. He's spent the last 2 hours playing in it :rolleyes: AND there was a cat igloo chewed by mice, so I got told to waste it, so he is now NeedyKitten-6-Beds :eek:

M1 had a meeting with Owner and BM tonight, wonder how that went.... Must fill in my review sheets - they have to be in Wednesday.

ETA: One reason for the weightloss (other than being a fat pig this week) is that I am due on this week...last major loss was on *that* week.... AND I've broken my bike :( It's gone all wonky, so I lean to the right while I'm biking.

:fat:

Podged. Didnt go swimming this morning. Felt dire and it was swimathon day so would only have half the pool. Might go tomorrow instead. BUT I havent cycled either and only done 50 sit ups.

Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, 2 mini eggs, roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, mint sauce LOADS of gravy and ben & Jerrys for dessert. Sigh.

Weight gain week, am sure.

Very odd day at work, not busy at all. Didnt complain as shut heel in door this morning and took the skin off it and was in agony for most of the day.

Spoke to JO about maybe having Nag at hers if V does need me to look after her while she moves. She said yes!! Not getting overexcited, honest...

:bawling: :bawling: :bawling:

Found my first grey hairs today :bawling:

Food: not great (again) - porridge, muller light, grapes, Lindt chocolates (what HAS OH done?). Tea is limey chicken & garlic bread, 1 bowl ben & jerrys ice cream.

Done 100mins on bike (1020calories)& 100 sit ups.

I should never have said that last night made me feel old.

Meh

Bleeeehhhhhhh

SC all over M2 today. It is EMBARRASSING. He tried to get past her today and she stuck her arse out so he had to either be rude and tell her to move or squeeze by. Couldnt talk to him for more than 3 seconds before she muscled in, and if he called me, she went running :lol:

Ah well. I dont think she'll be getting married next year lol.

Food, not so good today, especially as today is an exercise day off, although I have done 50situps.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light yoghurt, smoothie, Lindt chocolate egg (YUM), pizza & garlic ciabatta, half bottle white zinfandel, 5 'gorgeous' chocolates, 1 shortbread & choc chip cookie, 1 cherry & pecan cookie.

Did not sleep well last night - kept waking up with a start cos I thought I was in my meeting with Owner and he kept giving me 1s for poor performance. Sigh. I want to write on this review thing that this IS my first managment job, but I dont think he'll see it that way. Either I'm ready for it or I'm not. I suspect the latter.

Bought OH Casino Royale on DVD for Valentines Day (pre-order) and he finally got it today, so we are watching that tonight, then bed for sleeps I think. He didnt sleep well last night either.

I'm getting old. This was the perfect night in. Pizza & garlic bread, eaten in the dark after a fabby Lush bath, with candles on the mantlepeice and the DVD on, having cuddles with OH. Either that or I've turned soft...

Sleepy & Unmotivated

Although, I say that, it's been an effort to get going this morning, but have so far done 100minutes on bike (completed 11.50am), 20 minutes with the rower and 100 situps.

Not dressed yet though LOL going to do last 20 minutes then jump in the bath.

My hair is horrid, it feels like straw and my skin is dry and chapped too. I hate the cold.

Got the 360Review forms last night - we have to EVERYONE. Big wibbles. Thought it would just be M1. Fuck. Won't get promotion when Owner sees what everyone else puts!!

Food: about 50 grapes (heh), salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) 1 muller light yoghurt. 1 smoothie 1 slice of ham. half a ham & pie d'angloys sandwich. Tea will be sausages, yorkshire pudding, mashed potato, carrots, brusells, gravy & mint sauce.

I'm REALLY hungry, and I dont think I've done that much to be so hungry....

Incomming.......tantrum!!

One measly pound. BUT I have drunk enough to call the navy in, eaten crisps, chocolate, sweets, tear and share and lemon tarts. I have not done more exercise. It's my own fault!

Swimming tonight and I have ANOTHER full blown cold again. Urgh.

I've decided against FatPills I think. I've lost a stone since I went to Drs I think, its just the size thing which upsets me now, but.... sigh. Patience I guess.

I'm very tired, I really didnt want to get up this morning.

:bawling: :bawling: :bawling: Have just measured myself. Last measured on 8th March, since then I have lost 2mm off right calf, almost a cm off right thigh, 2mm off left thigh, 2mm off waist, half an inch off under boobs :lol: half an inch off left & right arms, so I HAVE lost, BUT...

I have put ON an inch round my tummy and hips and on my boobs, therefore going up a bra size.

Fuck. What is the point?!?!?! Just as well I gave up on birthday target.

Food: Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) Muller light, smoothie, 3 huge handfuls of grapes, 1 bowl pasta, cheese sauce, sausages and bacon.

Exercise: 150 situps, 40 minutes on rower, 10 minutes on twister, 48 lengths at the swimming pool.

And now onto the tantrum. This bungalow is tiny. Minute. We couldnt even swing NeedyKitten around if we tried. The only thing that has kept me living here (apart from OH of course) is the fact we could extend and redecorate and finally things could be clean and nice and ours. But now, thanks to Fat Twat and his budget and his 'only allow the chavs to succeed' mindset, we now cannot afford to do it. We can't even afford to just redecorate so have to put up with cooked in grime on the kitchen walls which have been up 30 years.

My mother will be horrified when she comes up.

Also puts paid to any idea of kids as not a chance in hell I would bring up kids in this house as it is.

I hate it, am sat here in tears because I hate it THAT MUCH and there's fuck all I can really do cos its not even my fucking house.

Another :bawling: - V just sent me a video of Nag and I MISS her. I dont miss any of the associated horse stuff, I just miss Nag.

I'm all teary and tantrummy now. I hate not having any money, I hate putting ON size when LOSING weight, I hate the fact I can't replace anything cos I have no money, I hate that this place is so cluttered, I hate that nothing major is officially mine, I hate everything.

Cor blimey!

It's FREEZING! Mr Upstairs seems to have forgotten it's spring!

Off swimming with DWSarah in a bit....It's not going to be nice coming out, with wet hair etc...Be freezing.

Food wise, not so good. McCoys salt & vinegar crisps (256c :eek: ) ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, muller light yoghurt, tea is pasta, bolognese sauce, mozzerella & garlic bread, 2 lemon tarts.

Done 100 sit ups. Did 30 lengths in pool. Grumble.

I know I said last week I wouldnt tantrum if I didnt lose anything this week, but :rolleyes: guess what :lol: I dont think I'm going to lose anything AND I'm pissed off about it. BUT....I have drunk a LOT and eaten crap this week, so my own fault.

I'm so tired....

Not QUITE outcome I wanted, but not too shabby.....

Arse. Big Meeting tonight. M1 has been told to pull socks up and is only minor legalities which mean he still has his job. However. Not all bad news. He has a meeting with HUGE manager on Monday at 5pm, and also a 360 review, which is apparently where members of staff are asked to review his performance. Eek. Apparently his face dropped at that point as 'there has never NOT been someone sacked after one of them....' So he will be in a FOUL mood tomorrow, just as well I kicked staff butt (hehe) today and made damned sure the shop was left immaculate. He will be hard pressed to find something to shout at me about tomorrow. Hopefully. So, no nearer knowing whether I have a promotion or not....

Did an HOUR on the bike without getting off, so desperate was I to be distracted from Events :lol: Upshot is I am utterly buggered now :lol: but...only 40 minutes till I'm finished. DEFINATELY swimming with DWSarah tomorrow too (allegedly :lol: ) Have done 50 situps and have another 50 to do. Finished my situps AND a full 40mins on bike, so only done 2 sessions on it tonight. Yay me!

Food: Hmmm, not GREAT. Salad (chicken, mozzerella, cranberry sauce) Muller Light yoghurt, 1 smoothie, 1 Kinder Bueno, 1 chunk Dairy Milk, LOTS of Cola Cubes (small, sugary sweets), tea is same as last night, only with beans instead of brussels I think. Also 2 squares tear & share, 4 lemon tarts.

Kitten in foul mood this morning, and lemon meringue pie OHs mum bakes for us and WAS on kitchen unit ended up on floor opposite side of room. Little brat.

What A Day!!

The weather has been very odd. One minute blue skies, fluffy clouds, birds singing....blahblahblah. The next, SNOW!! Was complete whiteout about half hour ago.

Work...meh. SB had a tantrum at lunch time - 'Everyone hates me, I can't do anything right! It's so unfair!'. Was laughing at the Kevin-ness of it all. Also hoped he'd walk out in a strop, but no go.

Food and exercise....well its a bad one today. Only 30lengths in the pool cos I felt b.awful, and I swear I was going slower the harder I worked. Food: 1 square tear & share, 1 caramel egg, 1 muller light yoghurt, 1 smoothie (trying to increase my fruit intake), 1 ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, roast chicken, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, brussells, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce. Very yum, but also :fat:

It's so cold. I have another cold coming on as well, which won't be helping - is also why I've started with the Innocent smoothies - bump up my fruit intake a bit.

Rung mum to say Happy Mothers Day. No idea what to get her, but won't be a problem in that I havent got her anything till after my birthday.

I'm kind of nearly 30 :bawling:

weight on, weight off....

Put on weight today, but not surprising after Thursday and yesterday.

Work Situation overshadowing everything and making me miserable, going to job centre later.

Meant to be going into H shopping, but can't get motivated. OH is still in bed.

Just done 500calories and 50 sit ups (11.35am) will do another 500&50, then 10minutes rowing and 10 minutes twisting when we get back.

4pm. Back from shopping, spent lots in Lush, went into Lakeland and bought a wall hanging with pockets so hopefully the cat will stop using my head as a spring board to get to the stand now....although I feel a bit guilty for taking away his SpiderSpotter. Also went into FatShop and came out without buying anything! Tried on some 26 jeans which fitted ok (SLIGHTLY tight) but means that dream of fitting into a 24 by my birthday is impossible. Tried on a size 20top too and shockingly it is only marginally too small :eek:

PPH website isnt working. Might secretly ring them in a bit.

Food: 1 Muller Light yoghurt, 1 baguette with ham & Pie d'angloys, 2 sections tear & share. Limey chicken and pilau rice, half a garlic ciabatta, half a bottle white wine.

Edit: 9.20pm.... completed my 1000calories (actually 1020 lol) and 50 situps, did twist for a bit, but not done any rowing. Going to have a bath and might do some when I get out. Dont feel like it though after that wine.

I swear I could drink more when I weighed more....

4 bottles of wine, shared between 3, made me horribly, horribly pissed. Like verging on being sick pissed.

I have come to a decision re work - I shall give it another week, be job hunting all week and then if anything has come up from what I've applied for hand my notice in, if SC and or M1 not been sacked.

Food: porridge, 2 packets of quavers, 1 8 chunk whole nut, half a sausage and egg sandwich, 2 slices of ham, tea is pizza and garlic bread. No exercise yet.

Have just done 100situps with the abdotrim, some rowing and some twisting. I'm exhausted.

blah

Well, now SC has moved onto Manager2. She clearly fancies pants off him and its quite embarrassing. Whats worse is he is married with a young lad and he positively encourages it.

Rah!

My new weightloss toys arrived today. I have to say now, I cant see me staying on it for long. The twister is quite fun, but the rowing thing is...boring. Have done 100situps (50 this morning, 50 this eve).

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), lemon muller light yoghurt, tea is mince, mashed potato, brusells, carrots, yorkshire puddings, gravy, mint sauce. 1 pancake with lemon & sugar. Going to friends house tonight so will have bottle of wine.

Been in an odd mood for last few days, I genuinely think its this whole business of not losing size. I am constantly close to tears, but without actually being in tears. Very odd.

What a week!!

HOW have I lost 4.5lbs in a week? Not complaining though!!

Swimming tonight and have done 50 situps on the abdotrim :lol:

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), Muller Light strawberry yoghurt, handful of grapes, bolognese sauce with pasta, half a costcutters baguette, 1 sticky toffee pudding muller light yoghurt.

Still in shock, although am upset I havent lost any SIZE to go with the 2 stone total gone so far... 28 days till my birthday, therefore 28 days to lose 5 inches. Lets be honest, it probably won't happen. But...it would be nice. Have asked my parents for Evans vouchers, so would like to spend them a/while they're here and b/ on clothes I might fit into for longer than 10 minutes...

Just swum a mile, I swear the more I go swimming the slower I get :unsure:

I'm going to be grown up and say as I've lost so much this week, I'll settle for not losing any next (but not GAINING it either). We know this is bollocks. Come next Tuesday I'll be moaning I havent lost any weight whatsoever.

Shopping

Off to ChavShop in a bit, to buy a 'Twist Board with Refloxology Magnets' (you stand on it and twist from side to side and it has magnets for increased circulation, a massage action, improves balance and slim and tones abs, hips and thighs). Thinking of those 5 inches to lose before my birthday. Also buying an abdotrim, a pilates rowing action ab and back exerciser and some goggles. Cheaper at ChavShop than they are at the pool.

This will change my exercising slightly.... Will still swim 3 times a week, but maybe only cycle twice a week now, and then do 2 nights on the above.... No idea how you would work out calories burnt though. Hmm....

I'm very tired this morning, NeedyKitten woke me up at 5am, having dragged the lamb bone we had for tea from the bin onto our bed. Nice. Was not impressed at having his treasure taken off him and told me so for the next 3 hours. Sigh.

Arse. Just been to ChavShop, they only had the Abdotrim in. Have just built it and done 10 situps. It doesnt make you go very high and it seems rather flimsy.... Still, I felt it so must be doing something. Must work up to doing 50 at once. Hmmm, I have my credit card at the ready and ChavShop site up...if they will post instead of deliver I might just order off the site.... I am bad....I've just paid for them to be delivered. Oops. On the credit card, which is meant to be being paid off...

Managers had a word with SB today. Was rather hoping he'd have a fit and hand his notice in, but no go :( I'm such a bitch.

Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), a cherry Muller Light yoghurt, 5 handfuls of grapes. Tea was pasta with tomato sauce, sausages and mozzerella and a bowl of home made rice pudding with hundreds & thousands and maltesers. I am so podged...This WAS looking like a weight loss week again.

Just back from swimming - did 70 lengths in 75minutes - not bad, huh? Included a couple of breaks and trying to tie knots in the 'arms' of my costume so my tits didn't fall out LOL. Was lovely going in the afternoon - for the last half hour there was only 3 of us in there.

Have just done 50 situps with the abdotrim....I take it back, you can feel it working when you do 50 :lol:

Odd Day

Fed up of work, fed up of living in a matchbox (no ones fault, just the situation), fed up of having no money, fed up of my mums damned cat not coming into season long enough to make kittens.... FED UP.

Food....not GREAT, but it never is anymore! Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 3 ginger biscuits, 1 toffee muller light yoghurt, lamb, mashed potatoes, green beans, carrots, yorkshire puddings, gravy, mint sauce, 1 lemon juice & sugar pancake... No weight loss this week, heh.

Done 1050calories in 101minutes. So not too shabby, but not as good as the other day. However, I dont THINK I was working that day....

Day off tomorrow, meant to be swimming. Surprise, surprise, DWSarah has baled out AGAIN. She really really wants to do it though...

I wish we were rich.... Cash rich, I mean....I am very aware of just how lucky I am. I wish I could remember it sometimes. I wish for lots of things.... Why am I never satisfied with what I HAVE?

Rahhhhhhh

:dunno:

LovelyM back, like he was never away! Childish humour abounded today.

Swam 52 lengths this morning, did some not using my arms (just legs kicking away) and a few less just using my arms, then did most normally :lol:

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), some Quavers pinched off OH, French Fries, Roast lamb, mashed potatoes, brussel sprouts, carrots, yorkshire puddings, gravy, mint sauce.

Not much else to blog really.... NeedyKitten might be getting a new brother or sister.... Mums queen is off to stud tomorrow. Huge crossed fingers needed.

Banjaxed

Well, I made up today for yesterdays pathetic effort on the bike..... I have done :drumroll: 1110 calories in 103minutes. Fastest EVER, I believe. Feel it now though!!

Food has been Very Bad. A load of chocolate Wheetos (2 bowls), some chip shop chips, porridge, cheesey quavers, lasagne, some cheese puff monstrosity, and 4 pancakes, 2 with lemon & sugar, 2 with chocolate spread.

So, just as well I was supercharged on the bike, really! Swimming tomorrow, and LovelyM is back at work tomorrow, I have missed him. I really hope SB leaves so LovelyM can come and work fulltime.

Another :fingerscrossed: - Have got V to ring a friend who I used to be on a yard with, who now runs her own yard about a job. Very close, lots of goodvibes and crossedfingers that there is a job and V gets it.

I'm buggered, I really am. Dire need for a bath now...

Stoned Kitten

The cat is as high as a kite on catnip :heehee: Poor bugger has just fallen off the chair cos he's been rolling about on my work top which has been sprayed with the stuff.

I've been a Bad Girl today, I am yet to do any calories (6.50pm) and I have eaten: large salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), french fries, lasagne, garlic bread, salad and salad cream, half a bottle pink wine and a twix top. Oops. Still, if thats whats termed as falling off the wagon now, then pfffft. I could have eaten ten times that :nod:

I'm quite pissed, maybe I drank too quick...

Seems my exhusband has a new peice. I'm pleased for him, I really am. He irritated the hell out of me, but hopefully he's changed enough to become a nicer person to someone else. Just hope I have the spare money to afford the divorce....only 9 months to wait before it can be applied for...

Talking of 9 months.... I dreamt I was pregnant last night :unsure: and that was why I couldnt lose weight - cos I had a BabyBelly. Was very odd, I had pregnancy pains and everything. Thankfully an impossibility, but still!

Very tired, can't really be arsed to do the calories but must...!

ETA: 9.50pm. 600calories down.... I doubt very much I shall do the full 1000c.

Evans size guide (inches)

size 16: size 18: size 20:
Bust: 40.5 Bust: 43 Bust: 45
Waist: 34 Waist: 36 Waist: 38.5
Top Hip: 41.5 Top Hip: 44 Top Hip: 46.5
Bottom Hip: 42 Bottom Hip: 44.5 Bottom Hip: 47

size 22 size 24
Bust: 47.5 Bust: 49
Waist: 41 Waist: 44
Top Hip: 48.5 Top Hip: 51
Bottom Hip: 49.5 Bottom Hip: 51.5

size 26 size 28
Bust: 50.5 Bust: 52
Waist: 46.5 Waist: 49
Top Hip: 53.5 Top Hip: 56
Bottom Hip: 54 Bottom Hip: 56.5

size 30 size 30
Bust: 54 Bust: 55.5
Waist: 50 Waist: 51
Top Hip: 58.5 Top Hip: 61.5
Bottom Hip: 59 Bottom Hip: 62

I ache!!!

Jesus wept.... Have just got on the bike and done the first 400calories of the day as well, very sweaty! Niiiiccceee...

I have decided I am going to write my current measurements in my memories book, then I can't torture myself over not being able to remember what the previous weeks measurement was.

OH has half day today - the AIM is to have done all my calories, the washing up, the clothes washing and the hoovering by time he gets home....doable?

Got an hour to make the bed, have a shower and hoover before OH gets back now....I would suggest a race, but I'm knackered lol. I've finished my calories (1000), done the washing up and the clothes washing....

I did it! Hoovering and all, even had time to make him a cup of tea....

Food (its so bad on a day off..) egg mayonaise baguette, caramel shortcake, pork, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, green beans, 1 twix top.

I dont understand it!!!

But I'm not complaining!!!

ANOTHER weight loss week - I'd resigned myself to it being a gain.

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella & salad cream), french fries, 1 bite ham & cheese sandwich, 1 bite sausage & egg sandwich, 1 twix top and pasta and bolognese sauce for tea.

Just back from swimming, done 66 lengths, so JUST over a mile....we're saying spot on a mile though, because a few times we had to stop to turn round a couple of metres before the end of the pool, thanks to chavs loitering by the steps :rolleyes: My shoulders hurt, particularly the left (bad) one...well, hurt is a little bit of a exaggeration, ache definately.

I truly am shocked about the weight, and I am wondering whether to bother with fat pills or not....Somethings clearly working. :dunno:

SB was highly irritating today. I have no idea how much of it is pure the fact he wants to annoy, or what. SC let slip he's on anti-depressants yesterday....no idea if that would affect anything.

I've said it before, I'll say it again....

but this time I KNOW its a weight gain week.

I'm not sure about this aim of fitting into a size 24 by my birthday is actually do able, you know. I've just tried on a pair of 26 'skinny' (bleurgh) jeans and they are FAR too small.

So.... Off swimming tonight. Alone. Quite nervous actually :unsure: I'll be fine once I'm IN, it's just getting in (and out) which freak me out.

It bothers me just how much weight has gone on this week. Although I suppose I havent exercised, but I certainly havent eaten 3000 extra calories a day, which is meant to put on 1lb.

Not sure what I'm more nervous about, swimming on my own, or driving there, on my own. I think I might get lost on the way back, with the Complicated Roundabout. At least on the way there, I only have to turn left at it. On the way home, I have to make about 6 turnings....

Food: 1 salad (rocket, lettuce, spring onions, tomatoes, chicken, mozzerella, cranberry sauce), packet french fries. Tea was pizza with ham, chicken & pineapple.

I did 60 lengths at the pool, took longer than I wanted, really, and I only needed to do 4 more lengths to have done a mile, which was mildly annoying, but I didnt know if they were about to shut the pool, and I didnt fancy being stuck in there for the night. Will try for a mile tomorrow night instead :lol:

I'm cross, I won't have lost any weight for 2 weeks tomorrow :( (last weeks weight I swear I must have stood on them wrong or something....It can't have been a true weight).

OH has said we can go to Crufts next year, and we might have a puppy to buy for!!!! YAY!! I have turned this into we WILL have a puppy to buy for.

AND, we are going on holiday for a couple of days when mum and dad go home. Maybe to France, maybe to Wales if V & M havent moved up here.

Speaking of which, I dont think they are moving up :( Sent V a text earlier, saying she could stay here if she wanted, and to tell her safe journey up, but she hasnt replied, although I can't remember if I got a delivery msg or not. Her phone is a bit shit at receiving messages though. I haven a feeling though thatt they're not coming :( Gutted, but can't make her go to a job she doesnt want to go to!

Meh in general really. M1 had a big go today about the fact my work account hasnt had anything paid off for ages - so I paid off with all the coins in my purse, all £1.32 of it. :lol: I dont think he got the point though.

Bleurgh

Stuffed.

Food: 1 ham sandwich, 2 slices toast, baked beans, scrambled eggs (with single cream), beef, yorkshire pudding, cauliflower, roast potatoes, carrots, gravy.

Also walked along the track at F with OHs mum. Thats not a walk for a dog! This is why I want a dog - I used to walk B for MILES.

Done my 1000 calories. Sigh. It's SO boring, I would far rather swim, but cost is prohibitive. It's almost going to be too much going 3 times a week. May even increase it to 4 times a week if I get another swim suit for my birthday.

So much to do, so little time & money.....

As suspected, S has blown me out (again) for swimming tomorrow. Bar ill health etcetc, I'll still go on my own.

I'm really not seeing a difference. I want to have lost a clear dress size (24) by my birthday. That is my next aim, as it looks like FatPills are off.

Tantrums -- NO TANTRUMS!!

Swimming looking doubtful. Alarm going off at work, so OH has had to scamper down there and deal with the police & alarm people. A bag will have fallen off the shelves, thats all.

I wanted to go so badly :bawling:

Have put on 5.5lbs since I was poorly.

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Was able to go swimming after all! Did 40 laps (1000metres) and am now knackered! Took an hour or so - a bit less. Want to work up to doing a mile before work on a Sunday.

Work wasn't too bad. D isn't leaving now.

Food: Porridge, French Fries, roast chicken, mashed potatoes, yorkshire pudding, peas, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce.

I am utterly shattered now though, and would happily curl up and go to sleep right now.

Tantrums....then no tantrums

Can you BELIEVE the stupid leisure centre pool only opens between 8am-9am on a saturday for general swimming. I understand the rest of the day will be taken up by swimming lessons/clubs etc, but surely in the EVENING I thought they'd stay open, considering its open till at least 10pm through the week.

Still, not getting too upset, going before work tomorrow now :biggrin:.

BAD food day - porridge, French fries, a whole portion of chips, flapjack, spaghetti bolognese & cheese, garlic bread, half bottle white wine.

Done 600calories on the bike! I'm not going for 1000 tonight - I'm still coughing like nothing on this earth, and my chest and throat are still sore.

Wish I was swimming tonight though - still, head start on my swimming laps for the swimathon!

Funny Old Day

Not too bad at work - SB was infuriating. Has started putting plastic bags over his head and breathing in - he will end up dead one day. I actually wanted to beat him, hard earlier.

SC ....hmmm. Might have to do an unheard of change of opinion re her. LovelyD :bawling: he's looking for another job.

Still coughing, chest hurts.

I REALLY want to go swimming, my shoulder is ever so sore, plus I only have 6 sessions to do 2500metres in for the swimathon. :eek: I can't face the bike tonight, although I should

Pedometre at work, started the day at 0 calories - by the end of the day - 1202calories burnt, just by coughing!!!

Food: Salad, french fries, limey chicken, garlic bread.

miserable

Head hurts, chest hurts, guts hurt (from coughing), nose hurts, eyes hurts, lips hurt.....miserablemiserablemiserable!!!

Weight which was amazingly lost yesterday has gone back on.

Only 1 bath so far today, desperate for another, but K is coming round later so will save the bath for then :lol: Antisocial witch that I am.

Food: Caramel egg, ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, half of which I threw away :shocker: toad in the hole, green beans, carrots, mashed potato, gravy, mint sauce.

Can't smell anything, therefore can't taste anything.

Want a pony again. Found one who sounds PERFECT but I just cant afford him. My only hope is they can't sell him and I'll offer them stupid money come winter.

Now there's a shocker

I lost weight for today. :thud: Really thought I would have put on.

Have emailed B witness protection saying I am available to go and give evidence. I dont want to though.

No calories done yesterday and none done today.

1 packet French Fries, 1 muller light yoghurt, oasta & bolognese sauce with parmesan, ice cream.

Needed some tissues, so I drove to the shop (all of 2minutes walk away) :blush: It was raining and cold and my chest hurt outside.

Tried convincing OH to go swimming tonight, but he refused :grumps: so got him to say we could go tomorrow.

Definately ill

Off work today and am about to go back to bed.

Only ate minstrals and popcorn and a mini sandwich yesterday.

Coughing up crap, constantly sneezing.

Hot Fuzz was ok. Too loud and too fast moving for me to be able to keep up with it properly though. Felt shit the whole way through.

1 packet french fries, some minstrals, ice cream, some of Ks cake, yorkshire pudding, chicken, brussells, carrots, boiled potatoes, cranberry sauce.

Eaten a lot :unsure: didnt finish the ice cream and nearly didnt finish tea.

ARGH!!!!!!

Have another cold brewing - I can feel it. All achy this morning and chest feels a bit icky. Typical.

Done 1010 calories on bike (another day off), and swimming tomorrow - with OH, not DWSarah - shes blown me out. Not entirely unexpected.

No food yet, off to see Hot Fuzz in a bit. Will eat popcorn and minstrals at cinema, so that can constitute my lunch.

Tired, just got in the bath to try and ease my achey achey muscles and nearly fell asleep. Am cold, coughing up crap again and just generally Meh.

Urgh.

Shaping up to be a bad week

First things first - have done 1015 calories today. I was determined to fit them all in as I've barely been on it for any 'real' length of time and its showing in my weight loss - or lack of it and I've eaten more this week too. I need to lose 4lbs this week if I am to make this week count :unsure: Not looking good for the FatPills target.

Theres a ladies session at the pool tonight and I'm half wondering if I want to go - I'd have to go to the outlaws with wet swimming pool hair though and I dont want them to know yet. I know its ridiculous, but I can't tell them in case this all falls by the wayside in 3 months.

Got a letter re a statement I had to give to the police ages ago - a man said he was in our shop at the time of a crime being committed and I dont remember seeing him at all, so thats what my statement said. Thats all. This letter says I have to let LCC know by Wednesday which days I'm NOT available to give evidence in court. I dont want to give evidence!! This on top of The Other Thing at work, means I hate being there atm.

I've decided I should go swimming at least twice a week (once on a Tues with DWSarah and once on a Wednesday with OH,) cycle 3 times a week, and either walk once a week or go swimming (on a Thurs or Sun eve) on my own. The other day is a day off. I'm not convinced about swimming on my own though.

Food: 1 salad - ham & egg with salad cream, no mozzerella, 1 mini ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, tea is roast chicken, 1 yorkshire puddings, green beans, carrots, gravy & cranberry sauce. 1 hot chocolate.

Cross with myself now about the sandwich, but it tasted sooooo gooood.....

Alright, Still

Food: 1 apple & raspberry porridge, half a manky banana, 1 caramel chocolate egg, load of chip shop chips, some shreddies, cheesy garlic bread, pasta & bolognese sauce, ice cream, half bottle rose wine, 1 mug hot chocolate.

Must make a concerted effort to do my calories tonight.

Work wasnt too bad. Stupid, retarded customers as usual, but pffft.

500 calories

Bad wind...

Christ, have I got bad wind after last night :S

Food: 1 salad (chicken with lemon & pepper, and no eggmayonaise), 1 Blueberry cheesecake which wasnt near as nice as its potential :lol: then burger with mozzerella, mashed potatoes, carrots, brusells, gravy and ice cream.

Done 500calories on the bike so far. May not do the full 1000 as a/I can't be arsed, b/ OHs sister coming round at 10.30 and c/ still need to bath & wash hair.

SC not too annoying at work. Will see how tomorrow goes.

Thursday

:dunno: dont ache too badly.

Horribly quiet day at work, very slow. Off out in a few minutes for Ks birthday. Can't say I'm looking forward to it, but, it should be a nice meal!

Food: 1 salad, packet french fries, 1 sultana and oat cookie, garlic mushrooms & mayonaise, lasagne and chips, sticky toffee pudding.

Sigh.

bouncebouncebounce

New car is LUSH.

Went shopping, still shopping in FatShop, but a size smaller than last time. Swimming costume is size smaller than that due to chest being smaller!! had minispree in LushShop, had lunch in Bettys RIGHT before Drs, which wasnt sensible really, but was lovely.

So, Drs. To certain extents, it was a bit of a waste of her time.... But, she's said if I can lose 3kgs by March 25th, I can have FatPills. :crossedfingers: Shes put me on a new Pill too.

Food: Omelette with peppers and chips in Bettys, pizza and garlic bread, 1 muller light yoghurt, 2 Thorntons Turkish Delights.

Just got back from swimming - I ache already :lol: Really enjoyed it though, and my shoulder seems ok too. I'd love to go 3 times a week (once with DWSarah -tues, once with OH -weds, and once on my own on a thursday...) May be overkill though, same as with the bike. I think my top speed was about 2 miles an hour and I couldnt quite manage 50m without stalling, but as I go more often, it's get better.

It's £3.20 a time, but if I do enjoy it, apparently, you can get a card which gives you free admission every time for £130odd. Might be useful, will look into it on Tuesday when I go with DWSarah.

Out for pub meal tomorrow night with K, TractorJ, his mate and OH. :dunno: how that will go food wise. Or even exercise wise

I got my car!!!

:bouncesfromonefoottoother:

Very weird driving it :lol: the dashboard is very odd! Cool though.

Food: 1 FB salad, 1 packet french fries, 1 strawberry tart, 1 caramel creme egg, some almonds, some hula hoops and tea is pancakes (some lemon & sugar, some chocolate, 1 ham and cheese, 1 with LOADS of maple syrup...). Have only done 200calories cos of DWSarah coming over.

Off to stroke my car again, its all shiny and its SILVER!!

DWSarah just left (midnight) so no more biking. Lots of business ideas though for us both. Off to buy swimming cossie tomorrow.

Hmmmmm

Looks like this swimming idea is actually a goer.

M2 who used to be a lifeguard assures me no-one would look at my body ( :unsure: ) so am off into PoshTown on Wednesday before I go to Drs for a swimming costume, before going to Drs in the afternoon for FatPills (:crossedfingers:) and then hopefully see if there is a swimming session Weds evening.

Food: FB salad (no eggmayonaise, but light saladcream), 1 packet French Fries, jelly sweets, some Yorkie bar, 2 bites sausage sandwich,lamb, mashed potatoes, peas, carrots, yorkshire pudding, gravy, mint jelly.

Sadly, the bras I was excited about being too big yesterday actually are too small when I need to do anything. :( I've gone up a back size :O :O :O :horrified:

Done 1015calories. DWSarah coming over tomorrow (and I get my new car!!) so no biking - just before weigh day too :S

bad day food/bike wise

Plus my shoulder is cracking like anything, and even being on the bike aggravates it :unsure:

Food: 1 muller light, 1 FB salad, 1 packet French Fries, half a pancake with chocolate spread. tea is roast lamb with everything. Hence why its not good I can't bring myself to go on the bike.

Have done about 150calories on it. May well do some later, just can't face the full 1000calories.

MUST see if I can afford weekly pilates lessons. I know it will hurt like anything, but my shoulder pain IS muscular - apparently my shoulder is at 45degrees to the rest of my body, so pilates would help. Just got to get over the embarrassment factor I suppose. Talking of embarassment....I am considering going swimming.

Now THAT would be something for the people of SmallTown to chat about! Don't even know if they do swimming costumes in my size....

ETA: It would appear my new bra's are too big.... :unsure:

Good Things

1. I have a job I enjoy with the prospect of a promotion soon ( huge :crossedfingers: )

2. Despite the weight, I am frighteningly healthy

3. I have OH, who, despite my attempts to make him think otherwise, thinks I'm a bit of alright.

4. I have a kitten who thinks I am the best thing ever since Whiskas Kitbits were invented (and who is piling weight on even quicker than me - he is 9lbs now)

5. Despite being well above the weight limit for my bike, I havent broken it yet

6. I do have some good friends, who ignore my moods and tantrums and the fact I ignore them for weeks.

7. I bought my favouritest album in the world for the 100th time yesterday (needed as previous copies have been borrowed/scratched/played too much..)

8. OH bought me a car yesterday for my birthday :thud:

I didnt say yesterday

OH bought me a car for my birthday (incidentally...in April). X reg Yaris :thud: Newest car I've ever had!

Debating whether to have a Muller Light Yoghurt for breakfast - I've done 300calories already on the bike. I may do. Should really be eating less thanks to banoffi pie & champagne truffles yesterday but it was sooooo good. Damn OH and his ability to eat huge portions every 2 minutes and still lose weight AND not be as active as me!!!

I dont know why he puts up with me. I was horrific and vile to him last night, burst into tears for no reason and told him to leave (!!) and still he does nice things. I really don't deserve him.

Kitten being very cute and cuddly too. Love him when he's like this - he likes to be near but isnt so keen on cuddles so when he does have them I like to hold him for hours. Normally he picks the most inconvenient time to be cuddly but today seems to be a good day.

Batteries ran out on my scales last night, so using OHs old ones for now - I can't see the dial on them! Must find out where to get lithium batteries from...

Food today: 3 cups of tea, 6 champagne truffles (had to finish them...), FB salad-lettuce,rocket,tomatoes,sping onion,ham,grated mozzerella(use less),eggmayonaise), 1 muller light yoghurt. Tea is pasta and bolognese sauce with garlic bread. Half a iced fairy cake, 1 Thorntons milk chocolate lollipop.

1267calories on bike

Hateful Day

Fat.

salad - lettuce, rocket, tomatoes, spring onions, mozzerella, ham, egg mayonaise. Mince, garlicky potatoes, peas, carrots, gravy, mint sauce, 1 banoffi pie. 4 chocolates.

1000calories.

General consensus - dont waste Drs time.

Sigh.

Bad Day

3lbs on this morning.

Still, 1000 calories done, 1 salad (ham, egg mayonaise & avacado) 1 packet French Fries, pork, gravy, brussells, carrots, jacket potato & mozzerella.

K here :grump: so OH and he are locked in the living room together and it is clear that I am Not Invited.

SC showed me her ring. Its.....not what *I* would pick. The bitch in me is mildly gratified it isnt real diamonds and cost £40. I KNOW its the thought and the sentiment etcetc, but....I want a Nice ring if me and OH ever get engaged! Have been looking at Tiffany website....Prices start at £6750. Maybe not....

Still pissed off.

Good Day

Good day for weight loss, presents and feelings.

Bad day for weight loss generally.

OH got me a lovely card, a HUGE bag filled to the brim of Lush stuff and LOADS of chocolates (thorntons). Feelings = much more chilled towards people in general.

Bad day - well, I had to eat the chocolates, plus the croissants I'd bought me & OH, and just a fat day in general. I wasn't planning on getting on the bike, but I may do later.

Food: 2 croissants (1 with chocolate spread), 1 scotch egg, 1 flapjack, 1 salad with avacado and chicken, loads of chocolate, lots of boobs (boiled sweets lol) and then roast pork, mashed potatoes, green beans carrots, yorkshire puddings & mint sauce and then rasberry & apple pie with custard. Half bottle white wine

:stuffed:

Re job - they're not doing anything yet. About anything. Arse.

ETA: 9.25. Done 202 calories on the bike lol. Better than nowt!

A nice surprise this morning

But will try and keep it quiet till tomorrow lol.

Lovely day off today - went into Harrogate On My Own - this is a big thing. The (only) car park I know of was shut (horror) so had to drive until I found one, then find my way back to the shops! Managed it though although I did go down a couple of dead ends and had to walk back along them, trying it make it look as if I'd MEANT to walk that way. Also managed to avoid getting lost on the way home :result:

Bought: 2 bras and 3 pairs of matching pants :lol: (as if I dont have enough knickers now), Bring it On DVD (not as good as I remembered!), couple of magazines, Lush Stuff, pre ordered Casino Royale for OH valentines day, then also for him some thorntons turkish delight, some fruit flavoured boobs, chocolate paint, and 'lust dust' :heehee: also found a clip frame for NeedyKittens picture at long last. Have bought some croissants for tomorrow morning too. Just need to make sure I get up first!!

Have done 1050 calories today on the bike, maybe do some more later although I am knackered!

Food: 1 Almond croissant, 1 bowl of Greek yoghurt with blueberries & raspberries, 1 cup of tea, 1 bowl of white pasta with cheese sauce, cheese and sausages

I have been very good and made myself some eggmayonnaise to put in my salads - 2 eggs and Very Light Mayonnaise - got to be better calorie wise than the stuff I bought last week? Cheaper anyway. Although I *did* use the last of the eggs.

stupid silly rude horrid bitch

a customer in today. Would it have killed her to be polite, or, at the very least, civil for TEN minutes? Silly bitch.

Food: salad (lettuce/rocket/tomatoes/spring onion/ham/mozzerella/light salad cream), 1 packet french fries, 1 banana, 1 bowl pasta, cheese sauce & ham.

1000calories on bike.

Untold stress levels thanks to dozy bint above.

Have made a Drs appt re weight. It can't be right that what I eat + the exercise I do = if not weight gain, then an increase in dress size. Surely it shouldnt take 3 month to lose a stone?

No idea what they can say or do - am seriously wondering if I can qualify for stomach stapling on NHS :unsure: Lets hope so - appt is weds 21st.

Raaaahhhhhh

Food: Salad (lettuce, tomatoes, spring onion, egg mayonaise, ham, mozzerella, rocket) french fries, stew from yesterday without dumplings but with yorkshire pudding, muller light yoghurt, half slice bread.

Done 200calories on the bike, can't really be bothered to do anymore, tbh.

Better day at work today. Sending SC to shed tomorrow so I dont have to look at her.

Hungry hungry hippo

Not eaten much yet today. Bad day, SC & ST were joined at the hip and totally ignored me & the other girl working. Feel like shit over it all, I know I havent helped by being paranoid and quiet, but I just do :(

Food: 1 oatmeal & sultana cookie, 1 packet of french fries, couple of chips, some chocolate buttons, some chocolate animals and tea is mince stew with dumplings, 1 slice mandarin cheesecake & cream, half bottle rose & half bottle white wine.

Weight gain day.

Think I'm gonna eat some worms :nod:

Meh, I am such a grumpy bitch.Spent the day in the shed at work cos I couldnt face LOOKING at anyone without getting in a mood.

SB is just totally ignoring me and I genuinely have no idea what to do next. SC is the culprit - she flirts constantly with him which means he just fucks about all day, as does she, then D starts, cos, well, why should he do all the work on his own?

So the worms - they obviously don't like me enough to respect what I ask them to do, said to SB the other day that SC clearly didnt like me and he said that 'wasnt the case - she was really worried about telling you she was moving in with ST' (ST is my allegedly best friend....who didnt tell me ANY of the whole moving in together stuff until I found out from some one else). Pointed out was only the case cos they knew they were leaving me out of stuff and he just kind of shrugged.

ST & SC in tomorrow - shall we take bets on whether they push me out of stuff ('I know! I'll do this, and ST can do that bit!') It does make it hard that ST used to have my job and seems to forget the past tense when she does come back to work. RAHHHH. She texted me not so long ago and asked if I wanted to go round. I told her I didnt feel well and I'd see her tomorrow. I know its my current obsession with food which is making me like this, its a bloody big coincidence if not that all my friends start to be complete twats all at the same time.

Food: 1 packet French Fries, 1 banana, 1 twix top, 1 muller light yoghurt and 1 ham, pineapple, salami & mozzerella pizza. 1000calories.

Didn't ride after all

Not really surprised, and not disappointed, really. The shocking news of the day is I got my money off N :thud: Well. Half of it, but she agreed she owes me what i think she owes me, so due another £100 soon - result.

NeedyKitten being horrifically needy - he can't quite cope with the idea of snow, an when he isnt running from room to room trying to hunt it all, he's either sat on my lap telling me all about it, or trying to get onto my lap, telling me how he's going to get there and then how when he's reached my lap, how he killed all the snow :rolleyes:

Only managed 500calories on the bike so far - although did walk N's dogs with her and spent a good 2-3 hours bored stiff watching her muck out & do waters etc. Oh yes, and chat to her friends. Went for lunch in a pub, wish I hadnt but still. Was nice.

Food: 1.5 slices garlic bread, tomatoes & onions, about 10 thick chips, and a chicken & bacon club sandwich, with mayonaise & salad cream too :eek: Wish I'd taken the bread off, but pffft. Done now. Tea will be bolognese sauce & pasta, with a Muller Light vanilla flavour yoghurt and a Twix top.

Had lost weight this morning, although suspect with not being at work + the lunch will have put back on tomorrow. Especially as now, after bath & all food, I weigh the same as I did 2 weeks ago :unsure: :bawling:

Other news - SC been warned re 'bad back'. M1 taken half day hol 'cos there's fuck all to do'. Quite glad I'm not going to be there on Tuesday.

Done 1100c now.

Gah

1lb on. Partly pleased its only 1lb, partly upset because its a gain and partly meh about it, because looking at my weightloss 'tracker' it looks like I've lost bugger all for last 3 months :bawling:

Still, it's only 1lb. It will be gone by next week.

Food: 1 FB salad (tomatoes, lettuce, rocket, salad onion, mozerella, ham, cheese & chive stuff), 1.5 bowls (:blush:) of pasta -macoroni & brown pasta- with sausages in a cheese sauce. 1 Roses chocolate. 1000 calories on bike in 1h40m.

Going to see N tomorrow - shes said she will ask if I can ride her friends horse. Both dubious and excited. I haven't ridden since, oof, October? The last time I saw the Furry Boy Bag at her old-new home anyway. What if horse isnt up to weight? Apparently some kind of overgrown Dales type anyway. What if I hate it? What if I love it and miss it huge amounts? As long as ponio is up to weight, then I think I might quite enjoy it. If owner says yes of course. AND I'm meant to be getting my money. I think I'll wait and see re that!

SC getting talking to tomorrow, re Tuesday, 'bad back' and moving house. Own fault, no sympathy. M1, apparently going to be paid off and asked to go. SOOOOO, fingers crossed, good vibes, spinks, whatever, I may be getting a pay rise before too long. Will also put 1 person in particulars nose out of joint, but... pah.

Heavy snow forecast for tonight/tomorrow. Its getting cold now. OH thinks it might be too cold for it. Kitten (despite being of the long haired variety) is ignoring both me & OH to sit by the fire on his own.

re, the panicking last night - unfounded *phew*

rahhhhhhh

Its ok, I'm not ACTUALLY asking for advice or anything.

Still got another 350 calories to do on the bike, will do in a sec. Work, bit crap. SC phoned in sick - but isnt it highly convenient she is also moving tomorrow. Not gone unnoticed and will be questioned on it on Thursday and asked to produce a Drs note (reckons she went this morning).

I appear to be oversensitive and thin skinned. Apparently my 'narky' reply to a question has been overlooked and ppl carrying on as they did before. But. One more comment and I swear to Heat Magazine that I will swing for her. Honest, I will.

Other news - apparently I shall definately get my money on Thursday from N :thud: Wonder if she will give me what she actually owes me, or what she conveniently remembers she owes me.

Food: Salad (rocket, egg mayonnaise, ham, mozzerella, tomatoes, spring onions), French Fries, flapjack, some smarties & some maltesers (shared, didnt count them....), lasagne, lettuce leaves, salad cream & 8 dough balls. 1.5 glasses of wine.

Weigh day tomorrow. I'm not hopeful. Especially as..... :deepbreath: Me and OH weren't exactly careful with the old condoms when I was on antibiotics. I am feeling sick on a morning, and am a day late. To say I am panicking is an understatement. I am very broody atm which doesnt help, but Right Now would very definately be the Wrong Time - what with everything going on at work, I want to be established within the potential new role before I take anytime off, the extra money can go towards paying off my car(s) and saving for The Future. Plus it kind of puts paid to any weight loss plans, doesnt it, really? I think I've pickled it anyway these past 2 days if I am.

I want a baby, badly, just not now..... I think I need to buy a test tomorrow.

OH just told me I eat to much to lose weight. Don't *think* I need buy a test tomorrow *crossfingers*

I'm still a jealous bitch

and I AM getting on the bike today. Honest.

I can't decide if a friend is being 'unfeeling' without thinking how things come across or if I am being a silly cow taking things too much to heart too quickly. Probably a combination of both. At least my kitten and my OH heart me - although there are times when I dont know why either of them do! :lol:

My next target is to lose three/quarters of a stone by the end of February. For this I'll get the Lily Allen album (even though that was meant to be this months prize :lol: )

9.45 - first 30m13s (300 calories) gone.... :lol:

4.51pm - 920 calories gone....

Food: BILLIONS of Roses, yoghurt, blue berries & dried berries, FB salad (lettuce, rocket, spring onions, egg mayonnaise, cheese & chives (ick, may throw it), ham, mozzerella and cherry tomatoes), french fries. Tea is lasagne, garlic bread & salad when OH gets home from BigMeeting.

ETA:

Done 1235calories in 2 total hours :knackered: BigMeeting went well, just need to check a few things on employment law and hopefully will be free of the albatross. Meeting again next week. Not hopeful for weight loss tomorrow, considering amount of chocolate I have troughed.

Re The Other Thing. Face, bothered? See this face? Is it bothered? izzit.... :rolleyes:

Wagon hitched up again, ready for tomorrow

1 M&Ms brownie, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, 1 vanilla muller light, 1 scotch egg, many Roses chocolates, 3 lemon tarts, pork, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, beans, carrots, apple sauce, gravy.

I. Am. Stuffed. Seriously, I can't move. Not biked today either.

Definately weight back on - was XX.6 this morning. Not as much as a gain as I expected, but a gain nevertheless.

D-Day tomorrow. Wibble.

Aaaaahhhhhhh my legs :bawling:

We're back - we went, we saw, we ate, we ache.

Food - Thursday - Saturday

1 packet minstrals, 2 Dairylea DUnkers, 2 Babybel Emmental, 5 Pimms Lemon Mousse biscuits, 1.5 chocolate chip brioche, 1 bowl soup, 2 x shortbread biscuits, 3 x ham sandwiches, 1 x custard cream, 1 x mince pie, 1 x portion chip shop chips, half x ham & pineapple pizza, half x cheese & garlic pizza, 1 x almond criossant. 1 sausage, 2 x bacon, 1 fried egg, mushrooms, scrambled eggs, baked beans, 2 x hot chocolate & cream, 1 x chicken, mozzerella & cranberry panini, 1 x sausage, mashed potato, onion gravy, 2 x banana milkshake, 1 almond croissant, 3 x shortbread biscuits, 1 x roll & butter. Scrambled eggs, baked beans, mushrooms, roll & butter, almond croissant, hot chocolate, cream & marshmallows, cheese & bacon burger & chips with salad cream, lots of Irn Bru, many shortbread biscuits.

My calves are agony - can barely move. But we walked MILES. Went round the zoo at least 3 times (HUGE hill!!), OH bought me some ducks which change colour as the bathwater gets hotter & a hippo (I chose it). Had lovely time - I am DESPERATE to touch a tiger though. Made NeedyKitten look a bit pathetic. Drove back to hotel and walked to the Royal Mile - gazed up at the Castle (didnt go in), went to Museum of Childhood, trundled about for ages, went in all the tacky, overpriced tourist shops, then went down to MonsterMash, for, well, MonsterMash. Very nice and very filling.

Spent lots, but not on souveniers - just things I could buy from town really, but had a lovely, lovely time, apart from South Wales Fire Service who pissed in the street, made comments about girls bodies, hammered on our door at 3am (thought it was their friends room) and were generally rude and obnoxious. Took minds off Monday D-Day, and I realised again how much I do love OH, even if I am a total bitch to him at times.

Saw friend of mine today and shopped with her. Sorry :blush: :lol:

Kitten winner of Feline Oscar for 'Kitten Most Pleased to see Owners Home Again' and had smashed some eggs for us. Despite this, he has been most affectionate he was ever been lol and hasnt shut up since we walked though the door! I did miss him, specially waking up in the night and not having him on the bed :blush:

Meet the Fockers (kind of...)

Off to Edinburgh in a few minutes and stopping off to see my nan on the way up. Havent seen her since my wedding and I'm not sure she knows about OH. She knows me & ex have split up, but..... :dunno: Anyway, we're going to see my Aunt & Uncle too - was meant to be a surprise. Thank God dad rang :lol:

Having lunch with them, then driving up to Edinburgh. I'm really looking forward to it, but will miss the kitten. And my bike & my scales :blush: I have resigned myself to putting weight on this week, but OH says theres a car park about a mile from the hotel - maybe the walk would do me good everyday....

Havent done any cycling and won't do either, being as we're now seconds from leaving.

See you Sunday :wavey:

Hmmmmmm. Nothing short of a miracle.

I've lost a pound :thud: Did not see that coming, thought I'd either stay the same or put on. Still, not complaining :lol:

http://www.fhma.com/calories.htm this seems a good website - apparently I've burnt more than I thought on the bike this eve - good-o :lol: Only done 300 calories so far - but did it in 30mins. Will do another 700. Have to - have had chocolate AND a bottle of wine all to myself :lol:

which nicely leads me onto food today: 1 FB salad (rocket, ham, tomatoes, egg mayonaise, 1 spring onion, 1 slice mozzerella), 1 packet French Fries, 1 apple bake bar (Go Ahead), spaghetti bolognese (with brown spaghetti & white linguine), 6 Roses chocolates and 1 bottle Rose Grenache all to myself.

We also got Freeview today AND NeedyKittens breeder came into the shop - my god can she witter on forever :lol: was nice to see her though. Shocked at how big he looked in the pictures, which is no bad thing as he was a scrawny little bugger when we got him.

Best get back on the bike, otherwise I wont manage my calories....

ETA @ 20.20 - only 350 calories to go, 3 loads of washing, 1 load of hoovering, 1 bed remake,1 bag packed and 2 sets of directions left to go.... :sigh:

ETA again @ 21.25 - did my 1000calories in 95 minutes. Phew. Need bath :lol: Knackered. Might change bed tomorrow...

its so unFAIR /offkevin

Definately not a weightloss week unless a miracle happens overnight :(

Done my 1000 calories on the bike, foodwise today: 2 squares tear & share, FB Salad (only with ham instead of chicken & egg mayonnaise instead of egg & salad cream. Usual suspect otherwise - spring onion, tomatoes, rocket, lettuce, mozzerella...), cranberry & almond bar, packet french fries. Tea....omg, tea. :stuffed: some beef, some chicken, SIX yorkshires!!!!!!!, peas, carrots, mashed potato, gravy & mint sauce.

I am so pissed off :bawling: I cycle for at least 1h40m, I have SIGNIFICANTLY cut my diet down and for what? I am tempted to throw towel in and give up but I cant. I want to get married and have a nice dress and not be embarrassed to fly cos I dont fit properly into the seats and go shopping with friends and beable to buy stuff from the same shops as them, instead of having to go to the FatShop, I want to go dancing without being the elephant in the middle of the dance floor, but most of all I just want to be LIGHT. To not have to worry about falling through the floor at work and to ride whatever horse I like and to not take fat comments personally. I want to be proud of pictures of me, and not have to cut them up or avoid them completely, I want to walk into a room and not be the fattest person.

I also want to be a billionairess and the most popular person in the world, but that aint happening either.

:sigh: :tantrum:

Oh. My. Goodness.

Just finished my 1000calories. I think I may be about to have a heart attack. took 102m35s to do it - I *think* thats about 10mins quicker than normal. Made sure to keep between 24-28km the whole time even when reading :lol: hence the close proximity to a heart attack. Also upped the difficulty as well. Bit annoyed the calories dont clock on quicker, but oh well :( Beggars & all that.....

Still got this damned cold :rolleyes:

foodwise: 1 FB salad - chicken again instead of ham & no egg, but did put a bit extra cheese in. And lots of salad cream. 1 packet French Fries, 1 mars egg (Waitrose at Easter. I can't go shopping till May....I just cant resist it), roast chicken & skin PLUS it was a Waitrose roast chicken, so who knows what was on it, Yorkshire pudding, mashed potatoes, carrots, green beans, gravy, mint sauce, 4 cups of tea, 2 squares tear & share.

Me & warehouse manager were officially told about the meeting next monday. I cant see what I want to happen, happening (ie, gets sacked or leave), either way its going to be uncomfortable for a few weeks. Have told SC (stupid I know) to make damned sure the shop is immaculate next week. Obviously wanted to know why. I told her it was the way it should be kept.

OH and I go away on Thursday to Edinburgh till Saturday morning. I can't wait, although am already panicking about eating out & not biking. Its happened, I am a slave to exercise. Never saw that one coming :lol:

sunday, bloody sunday

1 FB salad, but with chargrilled chicken instead of ham and no egg (or white :rolleyes: ), a bowl of Greek yoghurt with blue/rasp/blackberries mixed in, 5 Lindt chocolates, beef, brussells, carrots, yorkshire pudding, gravy, mint sauce, 14 roses chocolates. :sick:

Done 1000 calories on the bike.

SC & SB registering high on my annoyance radar again :notolerance:

Still no loss this week - in fact am 1lb up, although I have eaten more chocolate this week, but boobs still appear to be getting smaller :lol: dropped another back size.

Going to Edinburgh on Thursday, just for a couple of days away - the calm before the storm I think, work wise for sure. So no biking + eating out all the time = weight gain next week.

:red-flap:

Cor dear, I have been in a FOUL mood all day. I pity my colleagues - I have taken it out on each and every one of them. I will end up in a 'boss from hell' feature one day.

1 packet crisps, 2 cups tea, some chip shop chips, 1 kitkat finger, 1 chunk pie d'angloys, tea is spaghetti bolognese with mozzerella & french stick.

Done 600 calories - felt so dire when I got up this morning I wasnt going to do any, but did 100 to show willing, then did another 500 when I got back from work.

Off to babysit now, joy.

K-nackered

1 FB Salad (spring onion, rocket, lettuce, cherry tomatoes, mozzerella, ham, egg white & salad cream), 1 kiwi fruit, 1 packet French Fries, 1 Lindt chocolate, 1 bite sausage & egg sandiwch (ick), chicken, wrapped in bacon with stuffing in middle & mozzerella on top, mashed potato, brussells, carrots, 2 yorkies, gravy. Bit peckish still and tin of Roses still to get through.

SC & SB werent too bad. Helped that I packed SC off to the shed for the morning.

I am so tired, I had approximately 3 minutes unbroken sleep last night - if it wasnt NeedyKitten bounding about the bed in search of the MonsterSpider, OH was wide awake and asking me stupid questions, such as poking me in the back and asking if I was awake. Reply would be an emphatic 'no', he'd get in a sulk, then carry on a conversation anyway, then get offended when I fell back asleep halfway through.... Men!

1050 calories on the bike today - 2 hours.

Babysitting tomorrow night, so pizza, possibly takeaway for tea. Hohum. Probably not enough time to do 1000calories either.

Jealousy is such an ugly emotion

I can't help it, I really can't. I assume every girl OH looks at, he's sizing up for Potential New Girlfriend Material, which means I feel like shit and get in a grump, so OH does too, so we're both in an arse with each other and neither of us will unbend. I can see us splitting up over it, but I can't help myself. I can't be happy for friends or family who have acheived anything fantastic, I just say well done and quietly seethe it isnt me, despite not doing anything to make it happen for myself.

I am jealous of people with money, people who are confident within themselves, people who seem to drift through life with no worries or problems at all.

Major changes may be happening at work. Owner of shop not happy with Big Manager so AM and MM having meeting with him a week on Monday. :crossfingers: my job title/pay gets bumped up a bit. SillyCow (SC) and StupidBoy (SB) working tomorrow. Might be horribly mean, might ignore pair of them and do all the fricking work myself.

Food wise, not good. Not Horribly Bad, but not angelic, like I'd hoped. 1000 calories on bike though.

1 salad I made myself - lettuce, rocket, cherry tomatoes, spring onion, ham, mozzerella, boiled egg white (yolk didnt cook properly) and salad cream. 1 kiwi fruit, 1 packet french fries. So far so good. THEN 5 Minstrals, half a bacon & cheese panini, half a satsuma, some of those rice cracker things, 4 Lindt chocolates, same tea as yesterday, 5 cups of tea, 3 Roses chocolates.

Had put 2lbs on this morning, so expecting more tomorrow :(

Shock

2lbs off today, so a stone in total :thud: since I started.

Only 300calories on the bike :blush: but as I was planning on allowing myself to succumb to cold and do bugger all, I'm quite pleased I did that.

1 ham & pie d'angloys minifrench stick, 3 Lindt chocolates, bowl yoghurt with rasp/blue/blackberries, 1 apple bake bar, 1 slice mozzerella, 1 huge bite of french stick & chocolate spread, half slice bread & flora. Tonight, sausages & pasta in tomato and marscapone sauce, dessert - 3 Lindt chocolates, 1 banana, cold custard. Half bottle rose wine

No weight loss this week

I'm sure of it, another bad day today.

4 cups of tea, 1 large biscuit with icing, limey chicken & pilau rice, 4 belgian chocolates, 3 biscuits with toffee & chocolate on, some Japanese Rice Crackers (whatever they are...) salt and vinegar French Fries, and a salad from some place which delivers - was great but about 1000000 calories. Lettuce, onions, peppers, gerkins, rocket, sweetcorn, chicken, egg, mozzerella.....It was good :nod:

I cant be arsed to type anymore, done my 1000 calories on bike, but why dont I have any self control? Tempted to do more later, but my arse HURTS.

I miss horses, but bizarrely, it's the mucking out I miss. How....odd.

Still in a constant foul mood :rolleyes:

Easiest £25 I've ever earnt....

Just been doing some market research, took an hour, was given a twix and a cup of tea, and was given £25 and sent merrily on my way. Result!

Food: (bad!!) half a bacon sandwich, pot of blue/rasp/blackberries, porridge, cheese & onion french fries, 5 cups of tea, beef, mashed potatoes, 2 yorkshire puddings, beans, carrots, gravy, mint sauce, 2 slices salami, 1 huge chunk pie d'angloys, 1 twix finger, 10 (TEN!!!) Roses chocolates, half bottle Rose Gallo wine.

Bad. Done 1200 calories. Nearly dead.

Work, soso.

Yummyyyyyyyyy

Bad Food Day :rolleyes:

am currently PLUS 2lbs to what I was on Wednesday so thought fuck it and have eaten Bad Stuff today :rolleyes:

4 cups of tea, roast beef (salmon cut, no fat, apparently) 2 HUGE yorkie puddings, brussells, carrots, tiny potato, mint sauce, gravy, porridge, pack maltesers, 2 spoons of beef stew, pack salt & vinegar french fries.

:eek:

Done 1000 calories on the bike though, and my pedometre would have me believe that I've burnt nearly 200c at work. I doubt it though.

hungry still :blush: and I am literally just finishing my last mouthful of Fat Tea.

:bawling: I hate shopping

Went to FatShop.

I dont fit in their trousers, nor the ones a friend gave me as I have put ON size.

Eaten: 2 x jelly-cherries, 1 bowl of plain yoghurt, blueberries, raspberries and blackberries, limey chicken & rice for tea, 2 cups of tea, 2 x croissants with nutella, 1000 calories on the bike.

Bad Food Day

Added to being a spoilt brat and 'everybody hates me' :rolleyes:

I am being horrific to OH, I know I am, but I cant quite stop myself and I hate myself for it.

Food: Half a bacon & mushroom sandwich (white bread), blueberries, porridge, c&o French Fries, 3 cups of tea, 1 french stick sandwich with ham & pie d'angloys and for tea we are having wine, (homemade) pizza and garlic bread.

To counteract this, I have done 1000 calories on the bike and did 130 at work. Pedometre seems fine now, so maybe I was more active than I thought yesterday. Doubtful.

Cross with myself with the sandwiches - as soon as I smelt it at work I HAD to have some, and then tonight, I was so hungry I could have eaten the kitten. Hadnt helped that we went food shopping straight from work.

still being a brat

Another day, another foul mood.

Caught 2 members of staff, who having had a verbal warning yesterday, having a biscuit eating contest :banghead: I need to learn to be more assertive, fast!!

Eating wise : 3 cups of tea, tub of blueberries and raspberries mixed, porridge, salt and vinegar french fries, 1 chocolate biscuit, half a sausage sandwich and beef stew (beef, lentily stuff, 3 homemade dumplings, brocolli and carrots in it) for tea.

Very nasty weather - road to work was allegedly shut due to floods - we had 77 customers in ALL DAY.

Something else I wanted to blog, but cant remember what it was. Have done my 800calories on the bike, contemplating doing another 200, but I'll get cross now if I dont manage 1000 any other day.....BUT if I only do 800 today, I might get bored and only do 600 tomorrow. This is where my self discipline really has to kick in. Pedometre said 241 calories by the time I finished work - bollocks cos I have done very little today. I must have managed to change my weight or something.

*spoilt brat moment*

I'm in a foul mood this evening and no idea why. Well, I'm more than slightly pissed off at the pathetic 1lb off this week, but I knew that was coming.

OH has confiscated my scales. I've been fine all day about that, dont think its that.

The big managers told off *my* staff, which technically is my fault as I have been pleading with their better nature to behave and actually work. Clearly they both hate me and I now have to be horrid to them. I can do that. That hasnt pissed me off.

I am tired though - that could be it.

I have done 1000calories on the bike tonight - 400 before work, 600 during this evening. Took me 2hours 20 minutes all told - the most boring 2h20 I think I've ever done and my arse is killing. Needed to though - definately did not do my 100 calories at work, and somehow my pedometre keeps setting itself to zero. Last time I saw it I think it was about 60ish - this was about 4pm though so no chance I did enough to get to 100c before finished work.

I'm also annoyed because something I said about someone (which I was told I would be backed up with :rolleyes: ) -in a public place, no secrets- didnot go down too well with friends. My 'friends' who said they would back me up would apparently rather stick with the group. Oh well. Actually, it probably was that. I've been in an arse since then.

Anyway, food: handful blueberries, handful raspberries, porridge, swiss roll (hence the extra 200c!), cheese & onion French Fries, toad in the hole, brussells, carrots gravy.

One poxy stupid pound. :grumps:

I hate days off

If I worked, constantly, with my OT at time & a half - I could be out of debt by November! Some hope.

1 scotch egg, 2 cream & jam biscuits, 1 cup of tea, handful blueberries, handful raspberries, pasta, cheese sauce, chicken breast, peas, sausages, 250ml smoothie (55kcals per 100ml), 3/4's bottle of white wine. OH was meant to be sharing, but obviously I drink quicker :lol:

Managed my 1000calories on the bike today, but my god does my arse hurt now :lol: Wont be able to do it on a work day. Spent the evening in the bath ridding stray hairs before weigh day tomorrow - then promptly heavied-myself back up again by pouring moisturiser into everywhere that had been plucked/shaved. Typical.

My picture came today, I LOVE it. Need to find a nice frame now :lol:

Pfffffft

I Am Stuffed - I've just eaten tea.

Did 400calories on the bike before work this morning, still only 100 at work (is my pedometre stuck at 100?! :lol: ) and another 400 this evening. My knees are about to give out :lol:

Not looking good for a weightloss this week :(

4 cups of tea, 1 clementine, 1 banana, 1 bowl porridge, 1 packet french fries, 1 almond raison & cranberry bar, lasagne, lettuce and garlic ciabatta bread. Very yummy, but 284calories a quarter and me and OH split it in half!!

ETA@10.40 - just done another 120 calories on the bike.....

I've got 21 calories to go, 21 calories to gooooo

Sung in style of craig david :nod: Its amused me so much today that by the time I've stopped singing it, I'm more or less at the 100 mark I aim for.

Just got 100 calories left to do on the bike - managed 100 at work, just!! We're only open for 6 hours on a Sunday opposed to the usual 8.5, so was harder work today.

Served somebody Famous in the shop as well - she was nice :) but vv clueless about what food for her dog :lol:

Food: 1 bowl porridge, 1 satsuma, 1 banana, 1 packet salt & vinegar French Fries. Tea is Lasagne and garlic ciabatta bread & lettuce. 3 cups of tea.

I'm hungry now.

Hmmmm, not hungry now :lol: Very yummy tea, and done my 100 calories on bike. Next week I think I should think about upping it :unsure: as weight has stabalized :cross:

I'm unmotivated again. I've just done another 100 on the bike, so 800calories on bike and 100 at work today.

I better have lost weight in the morning :grumps:

Not quite on the winching list, but not far....

1 bowl porridge, shared bag french fries, shared hula hoops, shared mini cheddars, shared double decker, half chicken, bacon & cheese panini, 2 cups of tea, bowl of pasta, tomato sauce, pork & mozzerella, some Roses chocolates, some grapes and a hazlenut & pistachio bar :bawling:

100 calories at work, 800 on bike.

Pissed off at lack of self control :bawling:

I've been thinking though - will dramatically cutting my food intake & increasing my exercise just mean that all I'm doing is training my body to stay at this weight? Or will I actually lose weight? I can't believe that by not doing as much exercise on wednesday and thursday, I put on 2lbs :bawling:

EDIT: Can't remember when I measured my boobs, but have just done it again - it was recently I measured them. Anyway, I've lost a back size and 10 (TEN!!!!) cup sizes :thud: :lol: Slightly remotivated :lol:

Grrrrr

Definately 2lbs on :( I'm not going to be disheartened though - its all coming off.

Today: 4 cups of tea, 1 bowl porridge, 1 packet crisps, 1 hazlenut & pistachio bar, plate of pasta and bolognese sauce, lettuce and garlic bread.

Did 300calories before work, 100 at work and have just done another 300 - will aim for another 100 before tonight is out! Just went for a walk (up 2 steep, but short, hills) which burnt a pathetic 49 calories. ETA and done the final 100 - so, 100 @ work, 700 on bike and a poxy 49 on that stupid walk.

I am trying hard not to be pissed off re those 2lbs, but I am. It also bothers me greatly how quickly it went back on. If I havent lost weight tomorrow, then I'll eat till I become 50 stone and have to be winched everywhere.

Back :)

It was interesting - more interesting really was what WASNT said and shown, but it always is.

Yesterday, I ate: 1 bowl porridge, 1 banana, 1 99calorie bag of crisps, 1 flapjack, 3 chocolate chip cookies, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 chicken ham & mayonaise sandwich, 1 bit of turkish delight.

Today: 1 1/4 egg sandwich, 1 1/4 cheese, mayonaise & chive sandwich, some crisps, 2 bits banana bread, celebration sweets, bag maltesers, quiche, pork, mashed potatoes, beans, carrots, yorkshire puddings (2), gravy, 1 cup of tea, 1 hazlenut & pistachio bar.

Got on scales when I got home -before tea -(fully dressed, although in a t-shirt, not fleece or anything) and was XX.13. So not put on as much as I thought, but definately put on. Managed 500 calories on the bike so far so will do my best to get it to at least 700 before bed.

Edited @ 9.10pm - have done my 700calories - so I've proved to myself I can do it all on an evening and not die - I think by end of next week I should aim to be doing 200 before work & 700 after... As I get fitter it should be quicker - I did 200calories fairly easily as soon as I came back, slowly, but I did it. But, OTOH, I had just spent a day doing bugger all. I also weighed myself a few minutes ago - I know I've just eaten, but after being XX.13 when I came home, wearing same clothes, just having eaten, I was XY.3 again :bawling:

NeedyKitten torn between being overjoyed we're back and sulking cos we left him :lol:

Edited again 10.50pm - just weighed myself after bath. I've definately put 2lbs on :bawling: HOW, after doing 500calories less for 1 day and basically eating bread the next, can it have out 2lbs on?! (this is assuming I lose 2lbs overnight btw - if I dont I'll have put on FOUR lbs!!) I think I am destined for the rest of my life to eat 1 lettuce leaf and exercise for 10 hours a day to become a size 14 :(

Before I go

Not really looking forward to tonight/tomorrow - tonight is a 3 hour, rush hour, car journey to my parents, straight from work with no shower, nothing, then having to sit and make small talk when I'm tired and want to wash and go to bed :blush: then tomorrow, trundling round a petfood company listening to all their new product lines. I have things I'd far rather be doing - biking, internet, pulling my toenails out.... No idea when we'll be back tomorrow but at a guess, too late to do anything worthwhile on the bike.

Anyway, hasnt the weightloss for this week been a bit good? :lol: Very on target for new goal!! Maybe even on target for the goal I set back in November before I put it all back on again!

Just done 200calories on bike - think thats it till Friday!

What an odd day

Back to work, urgh. Felt dire for morning, then was fine for afternoon. Worked through all my breaks so came home an hour early - also meant though that all I've eaten tonight was tea :S

Managed my 700calories though(!!) - 124 at work (200 is just an ambition too far) and 700 on the bike - although did 100 before work. I was bored and did another 100, so 824 is my grand total for today.

Not entirely convinced there isnt something going on between asst manager and member of staff, who is allegedly having an affair with someone else.

3 x slices tomato/cheese/salami/beef pizza & 3 x slices garlic bread. 3 x cups of tea, half bottle Gallo White Zinfadel. Yes, I'm pissed.

Off to parents tomorrow so may not get chance to blog - infact I very much doubt I will. Will have to post Wednesdays weight on Thursday :rolleyes: Even if I stay the same as I was this morning, it is a Good Loss, may, miraculous loss. Also, as at parents, no biking. Must see this positively as a Good Thing ( break :nod: ) and not use it as an excuse not to bother getting on again. Today I did over what I was planning to do calories-wise.... I thought I would struggle with 700 - depends on how bored I am on an evening. Managed 300c within an hour without dieing - this is good for me.

Off to Docs

In a bit, for Open Surgery - lasts an hour and you sit and wait and are called in in order - will get there for 10.15, but how long will I be waiting? All bets are on :lol:

Another lb down this morning - at this rate I'll be 10stone by February :lol: So, as I've hit the target I wanted to hit by the end of january, I'll increase it to a stone :D

So, walking to Drs, I'll try and find my pedometre, but I reckon its about 100calories there and back. Back is up the hill, so could be more.

Hope they give me some antibiotics - I think I'll need a note too :unsure: this is my 4th day off work.

Going into town could be fun, being so close to Bad Food and Nice Things but must resist.

EDIT: Sat waiting for an hour. Got told nothing wrong, but given 500mg Amoxicillin anyway :dunno: A pathetic 62 calories burnt walking to & from Drs :rolleyes:

Eaten: 1 bowl porridge(138c)(more than normal milk-probs125c), 1 crumpet & flora light(115c), packet baked cheese things (Walkers-99c), 1 carton apple juice(110c), 1 440ml bottle apple and cranberry Fruit Spring (30c). So thats 755c on lunch already :unsure: cross I had the apple juice cos I didnt need it as had already bought the Fruit Spring. Rahh!! Anyway, tea, (not on a side plate today :rolleyes: ) beef, 2 yorkshire puddings, mashed potatoes, beans, carrots, sprouts, peas and gravy. Full today!

I've burnt 700calories on the bike today - dont know how I'll fit all this in when I'm back at work tomorrow :unsure:

So, actually, with 62 calories gone from walking to Drs, I've done 762! I've worked off those stupid drinks!

Also discovered an 'easier' way on the bike - do 10 calories 'slow', 1 minute 'fast' (atm = 10/11calories), 10 calories slow, then 2 minutes fast etc till I get to 100. Just did my last 100calories in 10.25 :acclaim:

*whisper* I believe there may be a difference in my legs already....

Meh, meep, bluergh

I feel like death warmed up. Mum rang, spoke to her and shes made me promise to get to Docs tomorrow as 'its clear there's infection somewhere'. Which, thinking about it, yes, there is. She also reminded me about dads sinus problems (nice) which now I've remembered, I can literally feel my sinus' filling up. Head still hurts, taken miagraine tablet - despite it not being a miagraine - and nothing.

Already eaten 2 crumpets :( And managed 60 calories on the bike. I feel so crap, I might just give today up as a bad job.

Rahhhh!

EDIT: 7.30pm.

This is why I didnt tell OH about The Diet. I am hungry (still) after the main meal which was served on a side plate(!!) as it was psychological, to make me think I was eating more. No, it just makes me feel like shit.

I have given today up as a bad job - 2 crumpets, flora light on them, 2 go ahead strawberry bars(72 calories a bar), some grapes, 1 marzipan fruit, a banana, beef, potato, beans, peas and carrots. Gravy, 1 cup of tea. Just those 60calories on the bike.

My bum hurts

My head is ever so sore - I hate having colds.

Biking working though *dancer* Desperate to measure my legs, but dont want to because I'll be very demoralised if no difference.

EDIT: Its taken me 50minutes to do 404.4 calories (not all at once, so including the 200 I did earlier), dunno if thats good or not. Aim is 700, but not sure if I can do it today :blush:

I measured my legs. There *might* be a millimetres difference, but as I've deleted all my measurements, I can't remember :rolleyes:

Hmm, can arse stand up to getting to 500calories before lunch?

Edited again (before lunch) yes it could, kind of :lol: Did 22calories, then somehow managed to press reset :angry: So did another 100 on top of those 22calories because there was no point getting to 78c and stopping, was there? Might as well get to 100 while I was doing it. I did 100c in 11m46s :proud: first time I did got on, it took me 13m45s to do same calories. So just 178 calories left to burn for today. *Should* manage it unless I fall asleep on sofa!

Edited (AGAIN!!) at 2.41pm 700calories :dancer:

THought the bike was going to fall apart at one point though :rolleyes: BUT! Managed it in 11m30s - so faster still! Going to stop for today though otherwise I run risk of bike actually falling apart! Plus I stink now, so need bath fairly urgently. Never going to be able to keep it when I have to work too :lol: although will drop it down to 500calories when I'm at work as usually burn about 200 there.

Food today: bowl porridge, 1 banana, 1 packet walkers cheese...things. 99 calories a bag anyway, so healthier than proper crisps, 2 fig rolls, 1 clementine. Tea is sausages, mashed potatoes, peas and carrots. 1 cup of tea and a haxlenut and pistachio bar. Diet coke too.

Another 100calories done on the bike this evening :blush:

Feeling Sorry for myself

My sore throat has got worse, lost my voice and was coughing up blood last night :scared: although that seems to have stopped now, thankfully. So I have a day off work, which I'm not entirely enthralled about - there's loads to do. Wonder if girl remembered her bra this morning? She text me earlier to say she had the worst period pains ever and was undecided about what to do. i just sent back that I wasnt going in. Nothings been said, so assume she went in.

I am a little worried about the thyroid thing :unsure: I think I might leave it a while before I go to docs about it (I suspect they will make me be weighed and I might as well be the weight they think I am when I go...) Some of the symptoms sound very familiar, but :dunno: :hypochondriac:

Done another 100calories on the bike this morning, going to go back and do another 100 in a minute. Got on scales this morning and it is working!! I suppose it depends on if I can put up with the sore arse as to whether I carry on :lol:

I've done 500 calories now (Its 12.20pm) :biggrin: Trying to decide what to have for lunch. So many choices - at least when I'm at work, I have to eat what I took!

4 cups of tea, 1 bowl porridge (probs about 250 calories worth of milk), 1 large banana, 1 packet s&v French Fries, so around 663 calories eaten so far, compared with 500 burnt off. :scratchchin: 163 calories should take 2 leisurely viewings of Family Guy to get rid of... Can my arse hold up to it?

5pm - I did it! I did 700 calories over the whole day. :wimp: but also :proud: !! So I have worked off my lunch and will be allowed a hazlenut bar thing later with a cup of tea :nod:

So....to round it all up...todays consumption: 4 cups of tea, 1 bowl porridge (probs about 250 calories worth of milk), 1 large banana, 1 packet s&v French Fries, 1 Hazelnut bar, 1 christmas tree chocolate (last one!), pilau rice and Limey Chicken.

Not doing anymore cycling - my arse cant hold up to anymore, but, still, 700 isnt too shabby IMO.

Thyroid symptoms

General tiredness
Excessive need of sleep
Increased awareness of the cold
The skin may become dry and thick and feels cold
The hair may begin to thin out become dry and coarse
Unusual loss of body hair – eyebrows may become sparse, and hair on forearms short and stubbly
Flaking, splitting nails
The voice may become hoarse or croaky
Constipation
Muscle weakness, cramps and aches; difficulty climbing stairs
Sore muscles
Pins and needles in the fingers and hands
In women of reproductive years the periods may become heavier and longer, but sometimes can prematurely stop
Fertility problems – failure to conceive, miscarriage.
Unexplained weight gain
Puffy face and bags under the eyes, change in facial appearance
Slow speech, movements and thoughts
Low mood, depression
Memory problems and lack of concentration
Slow heart beat and slightly raised blood pressure
Increased cholesterol
Anaemia
Hearing problems
Swelling at the front of the neck
Sensation of a lump in the throat
Although rare, in severe cases, unsteadiness on their feet, mental disturbance and even hallucinations may be experienced
Loss of libido / impotency

About 12 apply to me :dunno: :scratchchin:

rah!

'New' bike received today - been on it, works.... :lol: well, I get on, cycle a bit, it tells me how many calories I've burnt (100 in 13.45minutes - is that good or bad? :S ) and it didnt collapse under me, so I'm happy.

Girl at work 'forgot' to wear her bra today. How do you forget something like that? Its not really like she can get away without either..... :ick: Quite cross about it. No ones said anything and normally they would, so maybe they didnt notice? TBH, I didnt REALLY until she said she'd 'forgotten'. Silly bint.

So far eaten today: 1 bowl porridge & full fat blue milk, 1 packet salt & vinegar french fries. Nearly a full packet of lockets!! Tea is more pasta, pork,tomato sauce, peas & cheddar, 1 banana, 1 go ahead hazlenut bar, 2 go ahead fig biscuits. I've worked off the crisps anyway :lol:

OHs surprise is nearly ready - friends OH is doing a cartoon of NeedyKitten. What I've seen so far is amazing :wub: if OH is ungrateful I'll keep it for myself, I love it lol.

Feel quite crap still - my cold hasnt fully gone away at all and sore throat is back. Arse. Havent done a bad thing (;)) since Saturday either :D

Also need a cure for Exercise Bike Bum - badly. Just done 500calories on it, although not all at once (about 200 at a time is my limit atm :$) and OMG, my ARSE. I want to cry.

Hmmmmm. :scratcheschin: A lot is familar, but I've already been checked once and was fine, just depressed ( :rolleyes: )

Cor blimey

Hadn't I got myself into a tizz this morning? :rolleyes:

Anyway, slightly calmer now, still in a bit of an arse, but....Positive thinking, I'm off to the argos catalogue to find me a cheap exercise bike. I am trying hard not to think of the resulting increase in debt. Ha.

So far eaten:

1 crumpet (ooh, I do like a bit of crumpet, hohoho)
1 cheesey doritoes sandwich (last one - finished pack today)
pint lemonade
2 slices toast
scrambled legs :yum:
tomatoes
4 large toblerone triangles.
1 peice marzipan
Tea is pork in tomato sauce. I am hoping with mozzerella too.

I just bought a bike, and already it has to go back. Got it out of box and it was all cracked. Arse.

Another edit - I have decided I want to be at least half a stone lighter by January. That is my first aim. Obviously I'll not be upset if its more, but there will be serious tantrums if its less. Another aim is to do at least half an hour on the bike (when I eventually get it....), if not an hour. I like the idea of exercising while watching telly. Had tantrum at OH earlier when he told me to go for a walk. 'Ragghhhh!!! Its cold, its windy, its raining, walking is boring, theres no POINT to walking unless you have a dog or a purpose (such as to go buy a new pair of shoes) to go walking FOR!!' As I had this tantrum in the middle of a busy street, he shut up and let me buy the bike. Most unlike me though to have public drama queen tendancies. Huh.

More musings on the horse situation. I've now decided when I've lost weight, then I might fancy sharing instead. By this time next week I'll have talked myself back into buying another horse.

Another edit:

Where can I expect the exercise bike to help shift the weight? Just thighs or hips too? :crossfingers: Just measured myself using fignleaves.com. Depressingly large and dont fit into Bravissimo bras. :sigh:

Dunno whats up with me

Just meh, can't sleep, have deleted measurements cos they just depress me. :rolleyes: Will weigh myself tomorrow and that can start the weekly weigh in again.

I'm brewing up to have a big tantrum about SOMETHING :dunno: why or what.

Part jealousy, part 'I have no money-ness', part OH giving 'wrong answers' to questions, part 'woe is me-ness'.

Mostly jealousy though :rollseyes:

I must remember point 3 of my aims this year - I want to be a nicer person.

I am nice, I am nice, I am nice, I am nice, I am nice......

(ETA: someone has just left an ad for money (dollars, thanks, but no use in UK) to spend in Abercrombie and Fitch. Do I sound like I fit in those clothes? Sorry to be ungrateful and all -its the mood I'm in- but please dont spam me :tantrum: Although its nice to feel popular.)

Right. This is it.

Diet starts again, for real, tomorrow morning. Honest.

Today: 2 bits marzipan, 1 cheesy doritoes sandwich, 1 strawberry tart, 2 ham & p.d'a sandwiches 1 packet cheese and onion french fries, 1 strawberry bar, lamb, chips, 2 yorkshire puddings, peas, mint jelly and lindt chocolates.

I disgust myself. Christmas and New Year are now over.

I have had a big tantrum today about the state of the house and have left OH reading the Ikea catalogue. I have also decided that when I reach a weight I am happy with, I am going to ring round some riding schools and book some lessons.

Although. Do I want to? Really? My old horse saved my sanity while I had her, she really did, then I found OH and didnt/dont really 'need' her anymore. I make jokes about when i get the money from having sold her, that she will be turned into a new kitchen or somesuch, rather than another horse, and everyone takes it as a joke, but really, I dont think I AM joking.

I think I am really a lazy fair weather rider, in that I dont mind riding as long as I dont have to do all the faffy work before hand - I always forgot to check legs properly which is the main reason the horse used to get mud fever so 'quickly' I hadnt looked for it, so hadnt seen it. :( But, if I have lessons, my confidence levels will soar again, I will ride better, but....can I still really be arsed with the hassle of having a horse again? And I do see it as a hassle now. I love being able to come straight home after work, not getting involved with yard politics and being in a warm dry house on shitty days. I love having money - despite being in bigger mountains of debt, I am probably better off now that I was when I had the horse lol.

Apart from anything else, as my mother helpfully pointed out when I split up with my husband, I'm NOT getting any younger, while I dont particularly like other peoples children, my little clock IS ticking a bit louder....Then there's the house - it needs a lot of work doing on it, OH is on about buying another house to rent out, and...I dont know if I would have the spare money for another horse. And, at the moment, tbh, I'm not that fussed - my kids can have a pony.

Huh. Dont know where all that came from.

Anyway, let the diet commence!

Happy New Year

Meh. Not hungover though, so small mercies. I am, however, turning into my mother. I have spent the day Tidying and Sorting, including the airing cupboard, IRONED stuff and put it back away, neatly and in a specific ORDER. There must be something wrong with me.

I am not making resolutions this year, but I AM making aims.

1, the ubequitous 'lose weight'
2, get out of debt (ha)
3, be a nicer person

I will break all of them by the end of today :rolleyes:

anyway, today: 1 crumpet, 1 brioche, last bit of stollen, chocolates, 5 biscuits (chocolate), ham and p.d'a cheese sandwich, tea will be roast lamb and vegetables.

Like I said, I do want to lose weight.