Diet starts again, for real, tomorrow morning. Honest.
Today: 2 bits marzipan, 1 cheesy doritoes sandwich, 1 strawberry tart, 2 ham & p.d'a sandwiches 1 packet cheese and onion french fries, 1 strawberry bar, lamb, chips, 2 yorkshire puddings, peas, mint jelly and lindt chocolates.
I disgust myself. Christmas and New Year are now over.
I have had a big tantrum today about the state of the house and have left OH reading the Ikea catalogue. I have also decided that when I reach a weight I am happy with, I am going to ring round some riding schools and book some lessons.
Although. Do I want to? Really? My old horse saved my sanity while I had her, she really did, then I found OH and didnt/dont really 'need' her anymore. I make jokes about when i get the money from having sold her, that she will be turned into a new kitchen or somesuch, rather than another horse, and everyone takes it as a joke, but really, I dont think I AM joking.
I think I am really a lazy fair weather rider, in that I dont mind riding as long as I dont have to do all the faffy work before hand - I always forgot to check legs properly which is the main reason the horse used to get mud fever so 'quickly' I hadnt looked for it, so hadnt seen it. :( But, if I have lessons, my confidence levels will soar again, I will ride better, but....can I still really be arsed with the hassle of having a horse again? And I do see it as a hassle now. I love being able to come straight home after work, not getting involved with yard politics and being in a warm dry house on shitty days. I love having money - despite being in bigger mountains of debt, I am probably better off now that I was when I had the horse lol.
Apart from anything else, as my mother helpfully pointed out when I split up with my husband, I'm NOT getting any younger, while I dont particularly like other peoples children, my little clock IS ticking a bit louder....Then there's the house - it needs a lot of work doing on it, OH is on about buying another house to rent out, and...I dont know if I would have the spare money for another horse. And, at the moment, tbh, I'm not that fussed - my kids can have a pony.
Huh. Dont know where all that came from.
Anyway, let the diet commence!
