Full of Cold

Was mildly entertaining ideas of going to the gym today as day off, but think I shall just do a load of housework instead....I say that, yet I am still sat here at the computer screen. I'm not full of cold yet, but it won't be long...sore throat this morning, headache, achey all over, tickly nose....Joy. It's been at least 3 months since I last had a cold though.

Have just texted SC to apologise for snapping at her yesterday. I still think she was being ridiculous but...I was starting to feel guilty. Arse. No reply yet, but then she is probably still festering in her horrid, mouldy bed. (Sadly, I'm not lying.) Wish I was going to Bramham :( Have no money to go though, I could have walked the XC course instead of doing housework/the gym.

Still no further forward in looking for a job. I really don't want to leave, but have sort of burnt my bridges now. Yesterdays meeting resulted in him being suspended on full pay (AGAIN) for another week. It's farcical. Although....Apparently the owner is FUMING as its the lawyers who have said he can't just sack him, and has come up with a contract that M1 has to write, and if Owner agrees with it all, he is going to show it to M2&M3, if they agree to it (which they wont unless its OUTSTANDING), then it is to be signed and with weekly visits to ensure that the work set out in the contract is being done. He is on his final warning NOW and one tiddly little step out of line...5minutes late, or too long for lunch/whatever, thats it. So I dont know what to do now!! My resgination hasnt yet formally been accepted or given in writing.

Have just mopped the floors. Hugely embarrassing confession....They havent been done since I moved in. Hoovered, yes. Mopped....No. Having said that, they were surprisingly clean. NeedyKitten is furious about the kitchen floor being wet and keeps walking in and out making a big deal about the fact his paws are wet. This is the cat that comes and sits in the bath with me. Hoovered throughout, on my second load of washing and need to dust still. OH did the washing up before he went to work, so only have the wine glasses from last night, his breakfast stuff and my lunch stuff to do.

I think my new aim should be to try and lose 3lbs a week....Will soon see whether the weight gain was due to not exercising/eating badly for that week or the pill. There is a loss already though from Wednesdays weigh in, so keep fingers crossed.

Mum cat has gone to stud - she appears to like this one and has mated 7 times since yesterday :eek:!! Hopefully this one will go full term :morecrossedfingers: Due date is 14th August and collection in November... Daddy

Food: 2 ham & pie d'angloys baguettes, greek yoghurt with blue/rasp/strawberries, 2 rice cakes, 1 laughing cow light triangle, crackling off the ham, pasta, pork, tomato sauce, marscepone, homemade garlic bread.

Exercise: Housework?! 120 situps

sleepy, grumpy, dopey....

Can't remember any other dwarves, except Happy and I ain't that...

I'm tired, I can't *really* be arsed with the gym tonight, but I must go, I am going and if I don't I will be furious with myself for not going. I'm really tired in that I'm slightly scared I may fall asleep on the cross trainer. Grumpy...well, there's still no decision apart from 'Tell FB that the job is hers, when M1 leaves....whenever that is'. His meeting was today at 4.30pm, but we all suspect he is on his final warning now. He won;t find another job and leave off his own bat - even if he works hard he's still on a fairly cushy number. Dopey...well, in that I can't really be arsed to do anything and I'm finding it hard to think straight. Looking on job centre website and nothing... There's a couple of pet shops I can ring tomorrow but I doubt they'll have anything.

My shoulder really is sore and clicky.

Food: half a chocolate chip muffin, salad (ham/halloumi/mozzerella/coleslaw) muller light, smoothie, quavers, pasta and bolognese sauce with parmesan, homemade garlic bread and wine.

Exercise: 20mins bike (200calories), 120 situps, gym (all weights, 18mins cross trainer, 10mins rower, 31mins treadmill)

Let the weight loss commence!!

It would appear I have lost 2lbs already :lol: I am not getting excited though until I've got past VV stones 11lbs again - this is just the warmup (again, sigh). Off to gym tonight with S to her gym, so won't be doing as much as I normally do at mine, but I'll be doing some different weights. Wish she could join my gym, I really don't like hers and I HATE going on my own.

Must remember to ring up LCC today about my gym card - it's still coming up invalid and I've rung the bank and they say the money has gone from my account. I suspect I have an old card, the number on the back is out of date anyway. Hopefully it's sorted now, but if not, ALC have to send back my card for a new one. Had to be mine which buggered up.

I feel quite podged...I can't see that those lbs that seem to have melted off will have stayed off :( I shouldnt have had the baguette (I knew I was eating in half hour or so as well) or the strawberry bun, but at least it was half and not a whole one.

Food: Ham/mozzerella/halloumi/coleslaw/avacado salad, quavers, muller light, 2 rice cakes and 1 triangle laughing cow lite, half a strawberry bun, small baguette, ham & pie d'angloys, spaghetti bolognese, garlic bread, chocolate chip muffin.

Exercise: 60 situps, 20 minutes (200 calories) on bike, half hour cardio at the gym.

Sigh....Let the weightloss commence

Put on 5lbs in 2 weeks. I suppose, thinking about the exercise I DIDN'T do, and the food I ate its not too bad really.

Still meh though :(

Food: ham/mozzerella/halloumi/coleslaw salad, quavers, muller light, 2 rice cakes, 1 triangle laughing cow cheese, half a packet maltesers, 1 sausage, homemade pizza & garlic bread, wine.

Exercise: 32 lengths swimming, 20mins bike

Confused....

I'm now reading about Cerazette - the Pill I've just come off of...Doesn't seem to be well liked anyway. I appear to have done quite well on it, in that my skin hasnt got bad, nor has it raised blood pressure....I have had mood swings, but I don't know if that is down to my inherent bitchiness/brattishness anyway OR if the Pill has magnified it. Now I'm reading a bit more, it seems you can have difficulties coming off it. A lot of people have said that they bloated after they came off it, and had bad skin and raised blood pressure anyway. So have I done the wrong thing?

I am mostly convinced that the pill has stopped my weight loss. It coincides with the right time anyway. Now I'm off it, I'm all motivated to lose weight again, but what if its just cos my enthusiasm was waning anyway? What if it's all psychological and I needn't have come off the Pill? Still, done now...Will give it 2 months and see what happens.

I'm so tired and I've done NOTHING to warrant it...Did some clothes washing and some washing up, surfed t'net most of the day, watched United 93, surfed some more, window shopped in the Next catologue, but I am yawning like nothing on this earth and could happily go to sleep. Just done 5minutes on the bike and am ready to have a heart attack!!! My legs ache, I'm sweaty like you wouldnt believe and I'm out of breath....Surely it hasnt been THAT long since I've been on it. How embarrassing. Was vaguely entertaining ideas of doing 20mins on it before work everyday - not a chance if I feel like this after 5mins!! Have the vague rumblings of the start of a cold, but have been like this for a week or so and it refuses to develop or go away. Sulk. It doesnt help that I am B.O.R.E.D and therefore eating.

Food: 1 x ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 2 x ham, coleslaw and mozzerella breadrolls, chunks of port salut, 1 packet quavers, 1 chunk of Halloumi, pork fillet, 1 sausage, beans, carrots, boiled potatoes, 2 yorkshire puddings, 3 teaspoons apple sauce, gravy, half a bottle rose wine

Exercise: 30mins (300calories) on the bike, 40 lengths in swimming pool

Hmmm, maybe I just needed a 'warmup' - have just done 25mins straight on bike and was ok...hot and sweaty and mildly out of breath, but otherwise ok... knees ache now! Will weigh myself in the morning (am expecting it to be around WWstones 5lbs or so), then get back into the routine again. And will see how quickly - if at all, weight loss happens. If nothing, I swear I am going for lipo.

(9.30pm - just back from swimming. I am KNACKERED. Lots of movement, not very much speed. Am convinced 2 girls were laughing at how slow I was :( Was a real struggle.)

I am BORED (and slightly drunk)

RAHHHHHHHh

Came off the pill today....Am going to sit back and wait for weight loss to happen :lol: Am hoping it will be within a month - I seemed to stop losing weight after a month when I went on it, so it stands to reason it will be the same this way round

Have eaten LOADS today :(

ham/mozzerella/salad cream/avacado salad, quavers, maltesers, a boost bar, some marzipan, an almond croissant, a scotch egg, some of OHs pies (I didnt eat them all...), 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 pint of pimms

exercise - nothing.

I wonder where all my motivation has disappeared to? I really hope its the pill that has stopped me losing weight(and therefore losing motivation...), but if it isnt then I dont know what to do.

Hmmmm.

What a crap day....

But not really for any particular reason - have just had zero motivation and feel quite achey - please don't say I'm coming down with another cold....

Busy searching for vacuum cleaners online....the current one just can't keep up with a fluffy Norwegian Forest moult. OH is of the opinion that if we buy something to last, we spend Money on it (this is how we ended up spending £1000 we don't have on a TV and surround sound thingy), but I dont want to spend £300 on a vacuum (of all things) and find it's shit.

Have also decided to come off the Pill. NOT to have babies, but to see if it helps with the weight loss. I know the resolve has slipped somewhat, but I AM still exercising and eating less that I did, but in last 2 weeks, I have put on HALF A STONE again. Back up to WWstone 6lbs :bawling: So coming off it for 2 months, if it works all well and good and I will stay off it till I can get to a weight where I can have my normal Pill back...if it doesn't, I am asking to have my stomach stapled.

So. Any vacuum recomendations anybody?

Food: salad (mozzerella/ham/sundried tomatoes), quavers, 1 big slice chocolate cake, lots of PiMMs, big bag Maltesers, pasta, tomato sauce, bacon and cheese, 2 slice salami, 1 chunk Halloumi.

Exercise: nowt.

So Very Tired

I think I've had 3 hours total sleep all night. Spent most of it on the Job Centre website (have printed off 2 jobs - neither related to pets) or trying to work out if any of the pet shops in the area are looking for people. Looks highly doubtful. OH is having a fit and keeps telling me to wait another week. But....How long has he been saying that? Love my job, but sick of the crap that comes with it.

Kitten stayed with me all night which was sweet, although the one time I DID fall asleep he started coughing up a hairball right by my ear, then proceeded to drink the glass of water I had left out for ME....

Got a cracking headache and in a foul mood already. I can tell today is going to be fun - it was N's 16th birthday yesterday so she will still be all giddy and overexcited from that - esp as its her party tonight! I can see myself having no friends at work by 5pm.

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Back from work, foul mood, ended up in tears with the INJUSTICE of everything today, having fallen out with everybody beforehand. Got banished to the shed, partly I think to stop any other huge displays of over emotional behaviour and partly because I was starting to make no sense at all I was so tired. I'm still impressed I didnt crawl onto a bale of hay and sleep there. At 3am this morning, I entertained the idea of going to the gym tonight. Nah. It's not gonna happen. Pizza, garlic bread (homemade), wine, long bath and sleep is FAR more appealing. Swimming in morning anyway. Have come home though, washed up, brought washing in and put it away, made tomorrow and Mondays lunch and made OH a cup of tea and a shortbread biscuit and turned his computer on for him by the time he was back from work too.

Food: half a packet of Planets, salad (ham/mozzerella/sun dried tomatoes/mushrooms), quavers, 1 shortbread biscuit, lots of PiMMs biscuits, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich, pizza, garlic bread, wine.

Exercise: None.

:bawling: :tantrum: :bawling:

Hypothetically, Potentially isn't happening at all. M1 being suspended on full pay for 1 week, then coming back under constant review. So am job hunting again. Fuckers.

As such have eaten shit today. 1 bacon, mushroom & brown sauce sandwich, 10 shortbread with chocolate chips, 1 strawberry bun, 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/stuffed mushrooms/sundried tomatoes), 1 packet quavers, half a chocolate muffin, 1 ham and pie d'angloys sandwich, half bottle rose wine (I broke one of my lovely big half-a-bottle-wine glasses :bawling: ), pilau rice, limey chicken, garlic ciabatta.

Spent ages at the gym. Did all my weights (2 reps of 10, have increased all the weights now, although I struggled A LOT with peck flyes and shoulder press), then accidentally did 26minutes on the cross trainer (I dont know how my mind was working - I did 10mins, then stopped for a break cos I thought it would pause what I had just done-it didnt- and then reprogrammed it to do another 13mins....crazy), 31 mins (inc warmup) on the treadmill and 10mins on the rower. Surprised I didnt have a heart attack by the time I came out. Now have a blister on my right foot.

Foul mood and wish I'd left months ago when I originally wanted to.

Will Hitch Back Up The Wagon Tomorrow....

Cos today I've had my last final, honest guv, big piggy fat day. Till the next time.

Still slightly dopey from the relexology, but have finally listened to Paul McKenna on the new cd player I got while at mum and dads. Dunno if its done any good but it might have contributed possibly... I only managed to leave the pork fat and the tiniest smidgen of Yorkshire pudding on this evenings tea. And I know I'm not hungry anymore, but I WANT some ice cream so OH has gone off to get some from the freezer :spoilt: :wub: but also :fat:

Went shopping with S - spent lots in Lush, some pants from La Senza and some hair dye!

Not much else to add, I really couldnt motivate myself to go to the gym tonight, I WILL go tomorrow and possibly saturday too...

May also find out tomorrow whether Hypothetically Potentially might happen.... :fingerscrossed:

All Treatment-ed Out

I am SHATTERED. We'll not talk about what I've eaten :blush:

Had reflexology today and :thud: lady was impressive. Picked up straight away on my poppy shoulder, my neck, sinuses and headaches, AND was able to tell me how long ago I gave up smoking, thanks to some hard skin on my left foot! Amazing. I am utterly shattered now though, which means I am in a foul mood.

Pedicure yesterday which was nice, but I put my socks on too early and have smudged the varnish. Oops.

OH and Dad went to France and have come back with all sorts of goodies, OH got me a lovely pair of trainers along with the millions of boxes of wine! Have been very good, as soon as we got home I got everything unpacked and either put away or in the washing machine - how domesticated have I got?!

Kitten is very pleased to be back home. Think he was getting upset with being constantly sworn at by siamese.

Also got a new pair of jeans - almost bordering on being too big on certain parts of my body.

Tomorrow, fingers crossed is Hypothetically Potentially becomming reality.

Off to parents today

So a week of no exercise, gluttony and people touching my feet :S

OH and I are off down to the farmers market to get some buffalo LOL and possibly some other stuff....Kitten has realised somethings happening and is generally being a pain in the arse.

Not going to blog till Wednesday as dont want parents to know this exists.

Now. Must get motivated and sorted.

Bum :(

Went into Leeds instead of Harrogate this morning after a blissful lie in...think we rolled out of bed about 10ish LOL. First stop was mk1...where the sizes STOP at 16 :bawling: Put me out of the idea of finding any nice clothes after that, so went to Lush to comfort shop, and STILL couldnt cheer myself up :thud: and only spent £13 :thud:

Went into Waterstones too, got myself a couple of books and then cos it was 3-for-2, got OH one too and a bag from somewhere that was closing down, so that can be my sports bag, rather than pinching OHs. Also some magazines from smiths, and that was it, we came away....OH got some tops and some bright-white (hehe) pants from H&M.

On the way home, scooted into town and got things for tonight from Waitrose and then wandered down to the butchers for some ham to take down to mums with us tomorrow.

Now have to summon up the enthusiasm to do hoovering, general tidying and start packing to make sure we have everything...

Food: chunk halloumi, toffee & pecan cookie, strawberry bun, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, chicken breast with mozzerella & bacon, boiled potatoes, green beans, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce, ben & jerrys ice cream :blush:

Exercise: none

YAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!

I have really looked forward to this coming week off. Not sure why. Mum has booked me a pedicure and a reflexology session....

Shopping in Harrogate tomorrow, then Sunday there's the Farmers Market, then we're driving down, then I'm off to see Pony! Yay! Monday it's dads birthday, then Tuesday him and OH are off to France for the day and mum and I are having our pedicure. Wednesday we're having this reflexology malarky and then coming home. Thursday I assume will be spent doing Boring Jobs and Friday am back at work and will hopefully find out if Hypothetically Potentially has become a Definate Reality :lol:

Lazy day at work, spent the morning sweeping everywhere, including under the tubs and under the stands. D did W&C, SC did bugger all and LovelyM spent most of his day requesting relationship advice...He needs a boyfriend. Badly!

Was a bit achey this morning, but sweeping worked it off and then I spent the afternoon in the shed, mainly chasing (notso)LovelyM with a pitchfork because he was being spectacularly irritating for the afternoon. Just back from the gym and worked Very Hard. Have a blister from the rower LOL. Just as well have enforced rest!

Food: quavers, salad (ham/cheddar/salad cream), muller light, maltesers, have D's bacon savoury, crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 large baguette with ham & pie d'angloys, 1 bowl Waitrose Gelato Nocciolato....Fucking lovely, although made gym visit pointless! Has dark chocolate in it, which I didnt realise til I'd eaten most of it, so may have a migraine tomorrow. Didn't stop me eating it! And sorry Paul...I didnt leave ANY of my food today, although I did share the quavers & maltesers.

Exercise: 120 situps, gym (increased weights up a 'weight' so now doing 2 sets of 10, put cross trainer on level 6,

Little Toad...

NeedyKitten that is. Has somehow found his catnip from whereever it was hidden - me and OH both thought it was on the mantlepeice in the living room, but that would involve the cat going in there last night, stealing it, then hiding it ready to spill everywhere this morning.... although knowing him, I wouldnt put it past him lol. The hallway is just a sea of catnip....He will have a shock when I hoover tonight!!

Currently eating a bowl of Crunchy nut cornflakes, very slowly and am enjoying every mouthful :nod: as told to by Paul McKenna. Must listen to that CD tonight, as definately have not woken up full of energy and ready to run 10 miles! I have left some remnants of cornflakes and some milk in the bowl though, just like he told me to...

Only today and tomorrow left at work and then a whole week off (again!) I will have no holiday left soon lol.
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Just back from work....Been so proud of myself all day for not being so hungry and was wondering if Paul was helping! No, I just forgot I had eaten those cornflakes :bawling: I did however leave bits of all my food so far today (except the chocolate hobnobs :blush: ).

Went to S' gym this evening. Very different to mine. The cross trainers made my legs ache more for a start! Did a different programme to what I do at Aireborough....5mins on bike to warm up, 15 on x-trainer, then 10 on rower. Then we arsed about on a toning table for a bit, then I did oblique twists (dont have that at mine, although do have one here at home which I forgot about), Pec Flys, adductor and abductor. They HURT!!! Oh, and one for your bum - you lie on front then lift on leg up at a time on this machiney thing. Very odd. Don't feel particularly worked out though, although will regret saying that tomorrow - I can feel it already!

Busybusy at work, SC was irritating, started waffling on about shires 'crap feet' until I got so irritated, I just turned round and said 'Actually SC, thats just bad farriery...' Looked at me as though I'd just kicked a kitten and walked off. Also made lots of unsubtle hints about baths, and walking dogs and making sure they had water. I'm so awful.

Food: 1 bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, porridge, muller light, quavers, 2 hobnobs, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light cheese, limey chicken, pilau rice, homemade garlic bread

Exercise: Gym

:cuddle: and :goodvibes: for today, E :)

(Just finished tea....didn't leave any of it. Or the rice cakes...)

Yay!! Books came!

And am a bit :huh: It seems fairly common sense-y really and all a bit too easy. I stand to be corrected, obviously, but *dunno* it just seems, well, too easy. Maybe the epiphany will come when i listen to the CD.

There's 4 'rules' - only 2 of which I can remember. 1 is eat what you want, when you want. The other I can remember is chew each mouthful slowly and savour each mouthful.

I managed the first of those, but not the second today :blush:

He says dont weigh yourself for 2 weeks :S thats when I tend to give up when I can't see how I'm doing....But suppose it fits in nicely with us being at mum and dads next week. He also suggests making sure you leave SOMETHING each meal...have cheated tonight and left the crusts, which I never eat anyway lol.

Work wasnt too bad. M1 is an utter arse and I can't wait for him to go. OH told me I eat too much and don't do enough exercise to lose weight :( Although the past 2 weeks I would have to agree with him :(

Food: salad (ham/halloumi/salad cream), muller light, quavers, 1 qalaxy cake bar, lots of caramel & choc biscuits, lots of Hobnobs, a packet of maltesers, half a bacon and cheese savory, a big bowl of crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 salami & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich.

Exercise: 70lengths swimming. Pool was empty! Well, full of women. Their OHs were all obviously watching the football too :rolleyes:

A gaining week :(

Paul McKenna ('s book) will have his work cut out!

COnvincing me I dont NEED nice things to eat, then getting grumpy when I refuse them (or not, as the case may be, then I get an attack of the guilts).

Amazon emailed me to say my order was dispatched today, so hopefully will get it tomorrow :crossedfingers:

Super-busy at work. M1 came back off holiday and was fine with everyone else but FOUL to me :unsure: *I* didnt contribute to his problems! Asked him to serve, and he shouted back to ask someone else - I shouted back that if anyone else was about to serve, I would! He came out then, but was NOT happy about it.I really wished Owner was there then... I would have loved to have seen his face. I dont care. I only have to put up with it till Friday, then hopefully never again. Stupid arse.

Tomorrow just me and Mr D in the shop.... Got hopper/biscuit kilos/bird kilos/stands to do plus the shop could do with a bloody good tidy up. It's so frustrating with the builders in - everythings had to move for them to be able to work, but its embarrassing when people ask us for stuff and it's either covered in dust or we just plain can't find it.

I am tired today, despite the fact I had a good sleep last night...I'm so pleased everything is resolved, and in the ponys best interests too. I am still going to see her on Sunday afternoon and I cannot WAIT. It's a nice day as well, which has helped my better mood.

Food: 2 packers Quavers, 1 packet maltesers, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream), muller light, 1 baguette with salami & pie d'angloys, half a pizza (homemade) and half a homemade garlic bread.

Exercise: 5minutes (48.8calories) on bike, 60 sit ups and either 50 lengths in 50 minutes in the pool, or 54 lengths in 50 minutes....I lost count.

(just got on scales....bit of a heads for tomorrow, but HALF A STONE ON! :bawling: )

Sorted

The Situation is no longer a Situation.

Pony is staying where she is, I am visiting on Sunday, we are pretending the last 2 weeks havent happened. Well, I am :unsure:

Now exhausted.

Utterly Exhausted

Only this time I know why..... Can't sleep for thinking of The Situation. :( Whatever happens it will be wrong. I have emailed a horse transport search thingy who make you fill out a form and then all the different transporters get back in touch with their quotes. Will wait till I have a few, then email V and tell her when we're coming to get Pony/Stuff. Not really sure what to do though tbh.

The options:

1. Offer Pony to V for sale, as long as I get £xxxx by a certain date. This is on the understanding that I will never have any further contact with the horse, as long as I get one last chance to say goodbye. (lets not confuse concern with stalking, hey?)

2. Bring Pony back, turn away on grass livery until back/legs sorted. Ask EH to reschool her/take her to parties, then sell.

3. Bring Pony back, turn away on grass livery until back/legs sorted. Loan to a very local home only.

4. Bring Pony back, discover nothing wrong, sell immediately.

5. Bring Pony back, disover pony knackered, field ornament forever.

Also had a shit day with food. I have no willpower and self control - I think I may be expecting too much of this Paul McKenna book.

Was meant to go for a walk with OH tonight, but OH has cried off cos 'it looks like it might rain', thought about going to the gym with S but she's working and I really need someone with me to motivate me and be competitive with today.

Food: half ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light cheese, a twirl (2 fingers), 3/4s packet chocolate hobnobs :blush: salad, quavers, muller light, lamb, boiled potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, gravy, mint sauce.

Exercise: Nothing.

Very tired!

And not for any particular reason why. Didnt swim this morning because me and OH just couldnt wake up. Eventually rolled out of bed around 9.20 :shock:

Really must pull finger out and look for yards. I suspect I will end up going back to Original Yard, purely for ease rather than anything else. People I know, a yard layout I know, arenas and hacking I am confident with, if I ever sit on her again. A big shame it appears V & I can't work things out though :( Had got myself all worked up for The Chat tonight, and it looks like she can't get to a computer. Heart skips everytime someone new signs into MSN. I am so pathetic.

Acquired (aka, stole) a petometre from work. I'm sure its quicker to rack up the calories than on my old (human!) one. Maybe a dogs metabolic rate is quicker than a humans, despite the fact I put my weight in? I dont know.

I am so hungry, constantly. Had eaten most of my lunch before we even opened the doors today. Just till Friday to go, then I have a half week off to see my parents, then hopefully The Big News will be common knowledge....If it happens.

Food: 1 salad (chicken/mozzerella/halloumi/cranberry sauce), quavers, twirl (both fingers!), 2 Go Ahead apple bars, muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, roast lamb, boiled potatoes, yorkshire pudding, carrots, peas, gravy, mint sauce.

Very yummy. I could eat it all again.

Exercise: Nothing.

Dont know whats wrong with me. No enthusiasm for anything really. Have just bought Paul McKennas book....Hopefully that will kick start everything again. If that works will think about hypnotherapy for confidence etc. I have no idea how I am going to pay for all this though....