I dont feel ill, but I've felt sick since Tuesday night. Drinking 2 bottles of pink wine and some vodka won't have helped but its thursday now. Why still the sick-feeling? Tried ALL yesterday to be sick so I'd feel better, but only managed once, which made me feel ok for about half an hour. How do you do it??
Gymmed last night, which was a bit of a disaster. Stef dropped her towel on the treadmill, then had to jump over it, then swore (it was packed) so loudly I heard her over my earphones, which set me off laughing till I was out of breath - literally, I couldnt breathe - and was sat on the treadmill crying. Wasnt even that funny!! But then I couldnt really get back into running and just did the 2 miles, in a rubbish time. Rower was fairly shit too. Bike and cross trainer not so bad.
Then went and rode, trying to put into practise stuff from the lesson Tuesday night. Wasnt really happening. Then we had an argument about closing the gate (I was going to walk her off down the lane) so we both hada tantrum with each other. At least she was forwards tonight though. Can't decide whether to hack tonight or not. She was such a witch the other day I'm not sure I want to, but also I cant be a wimp over it. And I can't be arsed with schooling, especially not after the gym.
Food has been shit this week. Must be good today and tomorrow for another shit-food weekend lol. Looking forward to seeing Emmie and Carle, not seen Emmie for....must be 3 years at least. And never met Carle!
Going to be a good exercise girl tomorrow as well and am hoping (ha) to get to the gym for a run before work, and then me and Jen are off to swinsty.Although maybe I'll do bike cross trainer and rower, if we're running in the evening...Hmm. Getting my hair done tomorrow too!
Still feel sick. Rubbish
Thursday, 22 May 2008
Tuesday, 20 May 2008
Monday, 19 May 2008
I did it
But predictably, I'm not pleased :rolleyes:
We thought we were being so clever, getting to the front of the walkers but the back of the runners, thought we would be in the perfect place... We were, until they turned everyone round and we ended up right at the back of the walkers. Seriously, there was only about 20 people behind us. Took us about a km to get nearish the middle, but some of the tracks were so narrow, you HAD to walk because everyone was so tightly packed. So, we did a lot more walking than we planned to. Still, I did it, AND I ran up the hill at the end. Next year (hahahahaha) I'm going to run the lot and make sure I'm at the bloody front. Oh yeah, and get there early enough to get parking, we were parked a mile and a half away so I was knackered before we started!
Oh, and next year, I will not have a bacon sandwich (was good though), then another sandwich and half a pot of Ben & Jerrys icecream when I got home (did go to gym though and did my program before I came home, no excuse though), then because everywhere was shut ( :bawling: :bawling: )have a bowl of cereal, another sandwich, packet of crisps and greek yogurt with honey and peanut butter. I've put on 4lbs :blush:
Pleased I went to the gym though, even though I ache now. Part of me wants to do the Harrogate race for life on the 28th, but its dads birthday (needs calling) its at 7.30, it's round GYS and it's #12.50 I dont really have to enter. Decisions. I think I;d rather just run round Swinsty again. OR, go back to Temple Newsam and do it without anyone else being about, see if I can do it any quicker. We did it in 43minutes.
Got itchy arms in the gym too, they really hurt today and look awful.
Stil tired, wish I wasnt working today and I ACHE!!
We thought we were being so clever, getting to the front of the walkers but the back of the runners, thought we would be in the perfect place... We were, until they turned everyone round and we ended up right at the back of the walkers. Seriously, there was only about 20 people behind us. Took us about a km to get nearish the middle, but some of the tracks were so narrow, you HAD to walk because everyone was so tightly packed. So, we did a lot more walking than we planned to. Still, I did it, AND I ran up the hill at the end. Next year (hahahahaha) I'm going to run the lot and make sure I'm at the bloody front. Oh yeah, and get there early enough to get parking, we were parked a mile and a half away so I was knackered before we started!
Oh, and next year, I will not have a bacon sandwich (was good though), then another sandwich and half a pot of Ben & Jerrys icecream when I got home (did go to gym though and did my program before I came home, no excuse though), then because everywhere was shut ( :bawling: :bawling: )have a bowl of cereal, another sandwich, packet of crisps and greek yogurt with honey and peanut butter. I've put on 4lbs :blush:
Pleased I went to the gym though, even though I ache now. Part of me wants to do the Harrogate race for life on the 28th, but its dads birthday (needs calling) its at 7.30, it's round GYS and it's #12.50 I dont really have to enter. Decisions. I think I;d rather just run round Swinsty again. OR, go back to Temple Newsam and do it without anyone else being about, see if I can do it any quicker. We did it in 43minutes.
Got itchy arms in the gym too, they really hurt today and look awful.
Stil tired, wish I wasnt working today and I ACHE!!
Saturday, 17 May 2008
It's all good
I'm still bricking it about tomorrow. Dont know why, logically, I know I can do it, no one (hopefully) is going to be laughing at me for running/walking, I wont be the only one doing it, dare I say it, for once I hope I wont be the fattest one doing it and I have my ipod. I dont want to do it with Stef now. At all. I'll just feel rubbish by the end. It's good.
New jogging bottoms for me yesterday. Am close to a mini tantrum over it but it's fine. I'll get over it. And some socks :biggrin:
Had such a bad food day yesterday. Felt sick by the end. Have put on a couple of lbs this morning, but it's good. I have all week to get rid of it. Better get rid of it, next weekend is going to be one long bad food weekend!!
Pony was a pain last night. Took forever to establish forwardsness, then once that button was flicked she became turbocharged. It was hot and muggy though. She is cool.
Must motivate myself to do something. Like get ready for work. Really can't be arsed.
New jogging bottoms for me yesterday. Am close to a mini tantrum over it but it's fine. I'll get over it. And some socks :biggrin:
Had such a bad food day yesterday. Felt sick by the end. Have put on a couple of lbs this morning, but it's good. I have all week to get rid of it. Better get rid of it, next weekend is going to be one long bad food weekend!!
Pony was a pain last night. Took forever to establish forwardsness, then once that button was flicked she became turbocharged. It was hot and muggy though. She is cool.
Must motivate myself to do something. Like get ready for work. Really can't be arsed.
Thursday, 15 May 2008
Nothing you can say
Will convince me otherwise.
I am not naturally pretty or attractive, I am not naturally clever or funny.
I really dont have much of an imagination so I borrow (steal) other peoples words to describe how I feel.
I wont ever believe I've lost enough weight, because I will never be perfect, but I will get bored of trying before long.
People only say I'm thinner now because they are comparing me to how I used to be.
Weigh in tomorrow, I've had bread, cheese and wine.
I am not naturally pretty or attractive, I am not naturally clever or funny.
I really dont have much of an imagination so I borrow (steal) other peoples words to describe how I feel.
I wont ever believe I've lost enough weight, because I will never be perfect, but I will get bored of trying before long.
People only say I'm thinner now because they are comparing me to how I used to be.
Weigh in tomorrow, I've had bread, cheese and wine.
Wednesday, 14 May 2008
tired now
36mins on treadmill = 3miles
8.50mins on rower = 2000metres
10 mins on bike on some kind of program = 2.4miles
15 mins level 15, hill program on cross trainer
Fat scan = 36% bad fat
According to calorie-count site I've eaten 2477calories and burnt 2862calories. Long way off the goal of eating 1600 calories!!! But at least I've burnt more than I've eaten.
8.50mins on rower = 2000metres
10 mins on bike on some kind of program = 2.4miles
15 mins level 15, hill program on cross trainer
Fat scan = 36% bad fat
According to calorie-count site I've eaten 2477calories and burnt 2862calories. Long way off the goal of eating 1600 calories!!! But at least I've burnt more than I've eaten.
Sunday, 11 May 2008
This time next week
I should have done Race for Life.... Scary thought now, still feels like it should be months away. I'm so not ready.
Had the potential to have a really good gym morning, on the treadmill I ran a full mile in one go for the first time ever AND did the 2 miles in 23m30s (this is good for me :blush: ) which is 2 minutes faster than I did it on Friday, then on the rower I did 2000m in 8m52s (again, good for me). Didnt get time to go on the cross trainer which has annoyed me greatly. Am I becomming an exercise fanatic? I would have happily gone running tonight too. Shame the weight isnt coming off, although it wont when I'm 'forgetting' to point stuff. :rolleyes: No self control and I'll never shift anything if I dont kick myself up the arse soon.
Pony has been fenced in with electric fencing, which she hates. If she gets out again I dont know what I'll do. Will have to move if she does, there's no other way of keeping her in.
Diet starts again tomorrow I guess. Tempted to attempt 3 miles every night from now till Sunday (R4L) but I suspect that would be madness.
Had the potential to have a really good gym morning, on the treadmill I ran a full mile in one go for the first time ever AND did the 2 miles in 23m30s (this is good for me :blush: ) which is 2 minutes faster than I did it on Friday, then on the rower I did 2000m in 8m52s (again, good for me). Didnt get time to go on the cross trainer which has annoyed me greatly. Am I becomming an exercise fanatic? I would have happily gone running tonight too. Shame the weight isnt coming off, although it wont when I'm 'forgetting' to point stuff. :rolleyes: No self control and I'll never shift anything if I dont kick myself up the arse soon.
Pony has been fenced in with electric fencing, which she hates. If she gets out again I dont know what I'll do. Will have to move if she does, there's no other way of keeping her in.
Diet starts again tomorrow I guess. Tempted to attempt 3 miles every night from now till Sunday (R4L) but I suspect that would be madness.
Saturday, 10 May 2008
Sleepy
Well am still not entirely happy with the whole weight issue, but I'm sure I'll get over it soon enough.
Pony has taken to jumping out of her field, irritatingly. I am hugelyhugely thankful that she has so far only turned right (ie, down to the other horses) and not left to the road. So I've spent the evening electric fencing the outside edge of her field. Box said 200metres should only take half an hour to set up. Bollocks. Took me about 2 hours.
Went out on a nice little hackette before I did the fencing, went down past the horses along the road, back up the bridleway and along Yorkgate. She was a Good Pony, although fascinated by the cows. Sunburn is sore now though.
Work was shit, in every way. Shit takings, shit customers, just...shit. Oh well, I like Sundays.
Lets hope pony manages to stay in the field tonight and not contort her way through the maze of fencing I've constructed....
Pony has taken to jumping out of her field, irritatingly. I am hugelyhugely thankful that she has so far only turned right (ie, down to the other horses) and not left to the road. So I've spent the evening electric fencing the outside edge of her field. Box said 200metres should only take half an hour to set up. Bollocks. Took me about 2 hours.
Went out on a nice little hackette before I did the fencing, went down past the horses along the road, back up the bridleway and along Yorkgate. She was a Good Pony, although fascinated by the cows. Sunburn is sore now though.
Work was shit, in every way. Shit takings, shit customers, just...shit. Oh well, I like Sundays.
Lets hope pony manages to stay in the field tonight and not contort her way through the maze of fencing I've constructed....
Thursday, 8 May 2008
Here we go again....
Already. Think I'm a couple of weeks ahead of where I should be.
Anyway. Everything's pathetic, useless and I am giant mass of (cooked) fat.
Bollocks.
Anyway. Everything's pathetic, useless and I am giant mass of (cooked) fat.
Bollocks.
Tuesday, 6 May 2008
Tired....
Today I went to the Tarn and ran (and walked) round 4 times. Then I went to the yard and rode cobbit. She was good, but *ahem* inattentive and unco-operative. Ended up just trundling down the lane to have something good. Has occured to me now that they were clay pigeon shooting tonight though.
Yesterday I worked then rode and I'm really stiff now. Did lots of work without stirrups and sitting jockey-esque (while praying to all sorts of Gods that she wouldnt suddenly invent a monster from somewhere) and am paying for it now. Gym tomorrow could be interesting.
Work is ok at the minute. Have been complimented on the fact I was in and stayed in a good mood for 2 days in a row! Yay me! Thats quite bad really, isnt it :S
Yesterday I worked then rode and I'm really stiff now. Did lots of work without stirrups and sitting jockey-esque (while praying to all sorts of Gods that she wouldnt suddenly invent a monster from somewhere) and am paying for it now. Gym tomorrow could be interesting.
Work is ok at the minute. Have been complimented on the fact I was in and stayed in a good mood for 2 days in a row! Yay me! Thats quite bad really, isnt it :S
Sunday, 4 May 2008
Almost proud of myself
Check me out, in the gym.... 40minutes running (3.16miles), then rower, can't remember what fastest 300m was, but slowest was 1m13something, 10 minutes on the x trainer on level 14 AND THEN 10 minutes on the stepper. I hate the stepper. I get so bored.
Came home, did housework :geek: pootled about on the internet, went up and made sure pony got to go out in the field for once, then went running round the chevin with gymbitch.... This is what I'm not so proud of. I could have run so much more than I did :S I think anyway.
Pony's feet are appalling and I am looking for somewhere else for her to live I think. I'm not convinced she's getting to go out at all hence the horrid witch pony behaviour yesterday. There's another yard a bit further down on west chevin road. I'll look there.
I'm knackered now.
Came home, did housework :geek: pootled about on the internet, went up and made sure pony got to go out in the field for once, then went running round the chevin with gymbitch.... This is what I'm not so proud of. I could have run so much more than I did :S I think anyway.
Pony's feet are appalling and I am looking for somewhere else for her to live I think. I'm not convinced she's getting to go out at all hence the horrid witch pony behaviour yesterday. There's another yard a bit further down on west chevin road. I'll look there.
I'm knackered now.
Saturday, 3 May 2008
Feeling rubbish
Dont really know why, just do. I've been in a bad mood since i left the yard, for a variety of reasons. First off I went to the yard WANTING to ride, really wanting to do some schooling (yesterdays hack consisted mainly of tenseness) got there and she was in (again :grumps: ) so took her out and tied her at the doors while I mucked out. We had BrattyPony for a while and lots of dancing about, but the leadrope was never tight. Then :shockhorror: a group of horses trotted by on the lane. MY GOD. You'd think the world had ended. She had a fit and ended up breaking her leadrope then rampaged round the yard bucking and kicking for 20 minutes, not letting anyone within 2foot of her, and if they tried, she kicked. MOST unlike her, although I have pointed out that if she doesnt go out daily she gets silly the longer she's in.
Yard expressed astonishment that I was still going to ride and I was in a FOUL mood by this point, so admitted it was probably going to be wiser to lunge. Should have ridden. She was a lazy donkey on the lunge. Tomorrow we shall school.
So, I come home. Came through town and got stuck behind The Slowest Driver in the World. Took 5 minutes to get about 10 metres. They turned up towards home, so I decided to carry on up the hill and come across the crossways. Nearly crashed cos some dick pulled out in front of me as I was crossing the junction. So I enjoyed some road rage.
My phone is fuckarsing about as wel, every couple of hours or so it seems to shut down and to receive any messages I have to switch it off and on again, which means I didnt get to go for a run either which has also fucked me off greatly. I could, obviously, go on my own, only I wont because I know I wont run far enough. So that fact has pissed me off too. I'm in a great mood.
So now I'm at home uploading yet more stuff onto the ipod and Thinking while I'm doing it. I can feel myself getting more grumpy and down as the weeks go on and I am desperately trying to stay sane and it's not really happening. What really doesnt help now is I just cant stick to my points, I try so hard and I am fine until I get home (or about 3.30 if I'm at work). I still cant see this alleged thinness. I dont think I'll be happy until I see bones.
Yard expressed astonishment that I was still going to ride and I was in a FOUL mood by this point, so admitted it was probably going to be wiser to lunge. Should have ridden. She was a lazy donkey on the lunge. Tomorrow we shall school.
So, I come home. Came through town and got stuck behind The Slowest Driver in the World. Took 5 minutes to get about 10 metres. They turned up towards home, so I decided to carry on up the hill and come across the crossways. Nearly crashed cos some dick pulled out in front of me as I was crossing the junction. So I enjoyed some road rage.
My phone is fuckarsing about as wel, every couple of hours or so it seems to shut down and to receive any messages I have to switch it off and on again, which means I didnt get to go for a run either which has also fucked me off greatly. I could, obviously, go on my own, only I wont because I know I wont run far enough. So that fact has pissed me off too. I'm in a great mood.
So now I'm at home uploading yet more stuff onto the ipod and Thinking while I'm doing it. I can feel myself getting more grumpy and down as the weeks go on and I am desperately trying to stay sane and it's not really happening. What really doesnt help now is I just cant stick to my points, I try so hard and I am fine until I get home (or about 3.30 if I'm at work). I still cant see this alleged thinness. I dont think I'll be happy until I see bones.
Friday, 2 May 2008
Told you...
5lbs on :(
Havent adjusted my points back up and I'll stick to it this week. Honest. My own fault though I've had such a bad food week.Although the Fat Fighters site is now down :bawling: so I can't even point anything now.
Walked up the chevin last night. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be :blush: I'm not dead anyway although my thighs hurt!
bah :bawling:
Havent adjusted my points back up and I'll stick to it this week. Honest. My own fault though I've had such a bad food week.Although the Fat Fighters site is now down :bawling: so I can't even point anything now.
Walked up the chevin last night. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be :blush: I'm not dead anyway although my thighs hurt!
bah :bawling:
Thursday, 1 May 2008
measurements
Thursday May 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 27
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 48
top hips (on bellybutton)- 46.5
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Staurday March 1st 2008
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Bah :bawling: So not gonna be thin for Ash on 31st.
And :eek: Race for Life is in 18 days.
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 27
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 48
top hips (on bellybutton)- 46.5
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Staurday March 1st 2008
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Bah :bawling: So not gonna be thin for Ash on 31st.
And :eek: Race for Life is in 18 days.
Wednesday, 30 April 2008
measurements tomorrow
It wont be inspiring. Was going to have a fat scan tonight then decided I didnt want to know. Still dont.
Did gym, but that wasnt especially inspiring either, did walk for 1min/run for 3mins for 20minutes but wish I'd either gone longer or faster now. Cross trainer and rower were ok though - rower only cos gymbitch yelled at me. I really cant row any faster....
Wii Fit came, that thinks I'm rubbish too lol, although I did best at running, oh the irony...
Bonus gets paid on Friday...cant wait.
Spoke to ex about a divorce today. he reckons he's seen something where you dont involve courts or solicitors at all. Not right, surely? Or at least, not legal?
Did gym, but that wasnt especially inspiring either, did walk for 1min/run for 3mins for 20minutes but wish I'd either gone longer or faster now. Cross trainer and rower were ok though - rower only cos gymbitch yelled at me. I really cant row any faster....
Wii Fit came, that thinks I'm rubbish too lol, although I did best at running, oh the irony...
Bonus gets paid on Friday...cant wait.
Spoke to ex about a divorce today. he reckons he's seen something where you dont involve courts or solicitors at all. Not right, surely? Or at least, not legal?
Monday, 28 April 2008
things and stuff
Had a funny day in that i havent started very much and finished even less today. My head is somewhere else entirely. I'd start a job, get distracted and then do something else.
Managed to hold my attention though for long enough to find out I'd got my bonus - weee!! Sadly tax has eaten a big chunk, but as Christopher keeps telling me, it's better than a poke in the eye with a shitty stick. It is, infinitely better. It'll pay for wii fit (which I dont actually appear to have been charged for...) and pay a bit off my saddle. Or go towards the extension. One of the two. Talking of wii fit, it arrived today, but they took it to the depot because there was no one in to sign for it :bawling: Rang up to try and get it delivered to work, but it was just a computer you talk to. I'm not hopeful of ever getting it tbh now!!
Then went running round the Tarn this evening, got drenched, it rained the whole time. Went twice round, took 20mins. Cant remember if thats any good or not. We run more than we walk though, for definate. Then went to do t'nag, full of 'I want to ride' type demeanor, but got there and she'd been fed. Dont have to do mornings now, weee! Although last night she had a tantrum about being out on her own. Am now bothered she might try and jump out into the lane :S So sja is gonna turn her out in the afternoon and she HAS to come in on a night. Even if it takes me 10 hours to catch the little bag.
Cos I couldnt ride, I went to the gym but it was rubbishrubbishrubbish. Only managed 10 mins on treadmill and did the rower. Thats it. Bollocks and a waste of time going. It was busy and my knee started to hurt. I must try and see if any hacks go left out of the yard, although they are clay pigeon shooting tomorrow night, hence it might be best not to try it then.
Pissed off about lack of exercise and have just eaten a big bowl of ice cream. No wonder I'm still fat.
Managed to hold my attention though for long enough to find out I'd got my bonus - weee!! Sadly tax has eaten a big chunk, but as Christopher keeps telling me, it's better than a poke in the eye with a shitty stick. It is, infinitely better. It'll pay for wii fit (which I dont actually appear to have been charged for...) and pay a bit off my saddle. Or go towards the extension. One of the two. Talking of wii fit, it arrived today, but they took it to the depot because there was no one in to sign for it :bawling: Rang up to try and get it delivered to work, but it was just a computer you talk to. I'm not hopeful of ever getting it tbh now!!
Then went running round the Tarn this evening, got drenched, it rained the whole time. Went twice round, took 20mins. Cant remember if thats any good or not. We run more than we walk though, for definate. Then went to do t'nag, full of 'I want to ride' type demeanor, but got there and she'd been fed. Dont have to do mornings now, weee! Although last night she had a tantrum about being out on her own. Am now bothered she might try and jump out into the lane :S So sja is gonna turn her out in the afternoon and she HAS to come in on a night. Even if it takes me 10 hours to catch the little bag.
Cos I couldnt ride, I went to the gym but it was rubbishrubbishrubbish. Only managed 10 mins on treadmill and did the rower. Thats it. Bollocks and a waste of time going. It was busy and my knee started to hurt. I must try and see if any hacks go left out of the yard, although they are clay pigeon shooting tomorrow night, hence it might be best not to try it then.
Pissed off about lack of exercise and have just eaten a big bowl of ice cream. No wonder I'm still fat.
Cool Cob
how the hell do you teach rising trot?
Cob was such a good girl yesterday, am so proud of her. She was lazy but that was no bad thing really, considering. I even did a tiny, piddy, not-even-a-jump jump, check me out...well, I say we jumped...I hate jumping out of trot - can't seem to get myself organised - so I just shut my eyes and prayed I didnt fall off. Then Gymbitch got on and we went for a trundle down the lane, she was such a good girl :D Had a trot (come on, how do you teach rising trot? Without laughing, preferably) and she didnt fall off! Check her out lol.
Shame for the whole day preceeding that I was a lazy assed bitch and did absolutely nothing, so predictably have put on weight this morning, but then, also I did eat shit all day and no exercise. Today I am back on the plan, it's a monday so no banking so will play out in the shop all day, then off to the Tarn (maybe 3 times today? See how TAM feels) then will ride this evening. Tempted to go for a hack but I'm not sure where. Am sure there's a bridleway if you go left out of the yard.
I have 10.5points left. Technically, had I not decided I wasnt going to drink for 2 weeks, I could have wine. Technically.
Cob was such a good girl yesterday, am so proud of her. She was lazy but that was no bad thing really, considering. I even did a tiny, piddy, not-even-a-jump jump, check me out...well, I say we jumped...I hate jumping out of trot - can't seem to get myself organised - so I just shut my eyes and prayed I didnt fall off. Then Gymbitch got on and we went for a trundle down the lane, she was such a good girl :D Had a trot (come on, how do you teach rising trot? Without laughing, preferably) and she didnt fall off! Check her out lol.
Shame for the whole day preceeding that I was a lazy assed bitch and did absolutely nothing, so predictably have put on weight this morning, but then, also I did eat shit all day and no exercise. Today I am back on the plan, it's a monday so no banking so will play out in the shop all day, then off to the Tarn (maybe 3 times today? See how TAM feels) then will ride this evening. Tempted to go for a hack but I'm not sure where. Am sure there's a bridleway if you go left out of the yard.
I have 10.5points left. Technically, had I not decided I wasnt going to drink for 2 weeks, I could have wine. Technically.
Sunday, 27 April 2008
Tired.
I vowed yesterday, at work, that I wasnt drinking any alcohol at all for at least 2 weeks.
N came over last night, had one bottle to myself then started on the white russians. Shockingly dont feel too rubbish today (yet) and managed to resist a sausage sandwich from the farmers market.
Went round Danefield on pony while Nicola ran. Was muchos fun trotting off saying 'come on! just a bit further! to the bin! no, to the bench!' Maybe I have Gymbitch tendancies too? She whinged about the boy the whole way round then wanted to watch a DVD (mmm, socialble) but bitched cos everything we had reminded her of this boy, who, lets remember, she didnt actually want to to be with?!?!
I need to get back on track with eating, and MUST point wine. I do not have magical, non pointed wine, it makes me fat. Vodka, however, is far better points wise. Plus Chris prefers me on vodka :lol:
Must get motivated and do some cleaning and other boring domesticated shit, but itunes and, umm, spider solitaire is so much more fun..,.
N came over last night, had one bottle to myself then started on the white russians. Shockingly dont feel too rubbish today (yet) and managed to resist a sausage sandwich from the farmers market.
Went round Danefield on pony while Nicola ran. Was muchos fun trotting off saying 'come on! just a bit further! to the bin! no, to the bench!' Maybe I have Gymbitch tendancies too? She whinged about the boy the whole way round then wanted to watch a DVD (mmm, socialble) but bitched cos everything we had reminded her of this boy, who, lets remember, she didnt actually want to to be with?!?!
I need to get back on track with eating, and MUST point wine. I do not have magical, non pointed wine, it makes me fat. Vodka, however, is far better points wise. Plus Chris prefers me on vodka :lol:
Must get motivated and do some cleaning and other boring domesticated shit, but itunes and, umm, spider solitaire is so much more fun..,.
Friday, 25 April 2008
Two Good Days....
Today has been lovely. Not for any particular reason, other than everyone was in a good mood, even my irritating customers were tempered by others who either openly laughed at or sympathised with me. Smelly wasnt wearing a bra (clearly she thought stu was in) and her nipples hurt because of the baby. No, darling, they hurt because you are wearing NO FUCKING BRA AT WORK. She's taken all day to white & carter and it still isnt done. Still, happy day, I dont care.
Gym was spectacularly successful - rower was ok-ish (couple of rubbish ones), x-trainer on level 13 for 10 mins AFTER a 41minute run/walk job in which I travelled 3.14miles. I'm not ENTIRELY sure I trust those treadmills in a distance sense, but that's what it said. Whatever, I did it, was knackered afterwards and am now having ice cream AND wine. Just as well I had a call to say s would do t'nag.
This is turning me mildly philosophical, but it's also been semi brought on by a conversation with the Gymbitch. The idea of this all was that I would feel more confident in myself and I've been SO looking forwards to looking thin, because obviously being thin is going to be the answer to everything that is wrong with me. However, the whole 'arms' thing is worse than it ever was, even at my veryvery worst, but only in the week after I come off my period. Still undecided about the happy pills effectiveness, will see next month I guess. I think I'm more insecure now than I ever was and it's not a good feeling.
Also, when do *I* get to see the whole thinness thing? no-one believes that i dont see it, I know they dont. Logically I do know I've lost a fair amount and that should also include size, but my mirror says it doesnt. So I'm actually frightened that I wont ever see when I'm too thin (ha). And what happens then?
I think I might want a fat scan doing at some point soon. I promise I wont cry afterwards (in the gym).
Anyway, happy day. We've laughed loads, worked hard and had fun. I really enjoyed today. The fact I've bought Wii Fit has helped, along with the copious amounts of wine, I think.
Happy happy happy.
Gym was spectacularly successful - rower was ok-ish (couple of rubbish ones), x-trainer on level 13 for 10 mins AFTER a 41minute run/walk job in which I travelled 3.14miles. I'm not ENTIRELY sure I trust those treadmills in a distance sense, but that's what it said. Whatever, I did it, was knackered afterwards and am now having ice cream AND wine. Just as well I had a call to say s would do t'nag.
This is turning me mildly philosophical, but it's also been semi brought on by a conversation with the Gymbitch. The idea of this all was that I would feel more confident in myself and I've been SO looking forwards to looking thin, because obviously being thin is going to be the answer to everything that is wrong with me. However, the whole 'arms' thing is worse than it ever was, even at my veryvery worst, but only in the week after I come off my period. Still undecided about the happy pills effectiveness, will see next month I guess. I think I'm more insecure now than I ever was and it's not a good feeling.
Also, when do *I* get to see the whole thinness thing? no-one believes that i dont see it, I know they dont. Logically I do know I've lost a fair amount and that should also include size, but my mirror says it doesnt. So I'm actually frightened that I wont ever see when I'm too thin (ha). And what happens then?
I think I might want a fat scan doing at some point soon. I promise I wont cry afterwards (in the gym).
Anyway, happy day. We've laughed loads, worked hard and had fun. I really enjoyed today. The fact I've bought Wii Fit has helped, along with the copious amounts of wine, I think.
Happy happy happy.
Thursday, 24 April 2008
Today is a good day.
I'm not really sure why, to be honest, but after the week of feeling like utter shite today has been lovely. It's helped that it was t-shirt weather for most of the afternoon I think. Seems to have been winter for the longest time.
I felt so thin today, I really dont know why as I obviously havent dropped 10 dress sizes in a day, but it was nice. Shame then that I went to the gym, did badly, then went to Netto on the way up to pony and got some fake haribo. I only went in for a cucumber.
I think I have to accept the pretend happy pills arent really working. Stupid hormones.
Lesson on Pony on saturday, should be good. Ipod loaded with more music and more coming via amazon...
All I really needed was a lottery win and wii fit to be available and it'd be the most perfect day ever!
I felt so thin today, I really dont know why as I obviously havent dropped 10 dress sizes in a day, but it was nice. Shame then that I went to the gym, did badly, then went to Netto on the way up to pony and got some fake haribo. I only went in for a cucumber.
I think I have to accept the pretend happy pills arent really working. Stupid hormones.
Lesson on Pony on saturday, should be good. Ipod loaded with more music and more coming via amazon...
All I really needed was a lottery win and wii fit to be available and it'd be the most perfect day ever!
Wednesday, 23 April 2008
So horrible
Yesterday I was comparing myself to another girl at work, thinking 'at least now I've lost weight, i'm not as big as that anymore'... Then we got chatting about weight loss, cos although still big, she has lost loads since being at work just cos she's on her feet all the time. Turns out she's a size 18-20 :S So truly am not smaller than her in any way, shape or form!! Feel awful now, for a/ being smug that I was thinner than her, b/ cos it's a horrid thing to have done and c/i'm huge then if she's an 18-20. She's the same height as me so it's not that.
So, I've had a measure quickly this morning. Hips are fatter, calves arms and thighs have stayed the same and my waist is smaller. My wrists have got fatter as well :S
Was more positive yesterday because I'd lost some more weight but it's back on this morning.
Got a lesson on cobbit on Saturday. Kind of looking forward to it.
Gym tonight, then a night off ponies. I'm doing this morning so sja will sort her out in the eve.
Walked home from the yard last night down east chevin road. Took an hour :S
So, I've had a measure quickly this morning. Hips are fatter, calves arms and thighs have stayed the same and my waist is smaller. My wrists have got fatter as well :S
Was more positive yesterday because I'd lost some more weight but it's back on this morning.
Got a lesson on cobbit on Saturday. Kind of looking forward to it.
Gym tonight, then a night off ponies. I'm doing this morning so sja will sort her out in the eve.
Walked home from the yard last night down east chevin road. Took an hour :S
Tuesday, 22 April 2008
today has the potential to be a good day
I feel (even if I dont LOOK) thin this morning, I've lost everything and more from being a fat cow last weekend and I slept ok.
BUT i talk too much, I still look fat and nicola is coming over later. She'll tell me the yard Moll is at is awful and then I'll have to listen about her boy-woes.
I have 8.5 points left apparently. I might have wine tonight after all.
BUT i talk too much, I still look fat and nicola is coming over later. She'll tell me the yard Moll is at is awful and then I'll have to listen about her boy-woes.
I have 8.5 points left apparently. I might have wine tonight after all.
Monday, 21 April 2008
300 posts
blimey, who would have thought my boredom threshold would have held out so long?
Not a great day today, still bothered by the picture. Didnt stop me squashing tonight, she was a good girl, if a bit strong at times.
Work was...work.
Happy pills either really not kicking in or a load of bollocks. Not sure which.
Not a great day today, still bothered by the picture. Didnt stop me squashing tonight, she was a good girl, if a bit strong at times.
Work was...work.
Happy pills either really not kicking in or a load of bollocks. Not sure which.
Sunday, 20 April 2008
stupid stupid stupid
today had the potential to start off just as bad as yesterday although crisis seemed to have been averted my just restarting my machine before I switched the tills on. Work, all in all, wasn't that bad, just busy. C was a tit, as ever but we all got on well enough and I didnt have to shout at anyone today.
Got to yard, tacked ponio up and took her in the school. Chris biked up east chevin road (crazy boy) and took some pics of me on her. Two he deleted without even letting me see ('there's no point, you look awful') and the 3rd he let me see, but honestly, I look bigger than the horse. And the blurb that says those jodhs give a flattering sillouhette? I'll sue under trades descriptions.
So, I've got home, he's cooked a lovely big roast chicken dinner and it WAS really lovely. But afterwards, my tummy swelled that badly it looks distended. Huge. Back on vegetables tomorrow. Really don't want to go off to his parents now, I feel shit.
Bad do earlier. Think infected.
Got to yard, tacked ponio up and took her in the school. Chris biked up east chevin road (crazy boy) and took some pics of me on her. Two he deleted without even letting me see ('there's no point, you look awful') and the 3rd he let me see, but honestly, I look bigger than the horse. And the blurb that says those jodhs give a flattering sillouhette? I'll sue under trades descriptions.
So, I've got home, he's cooked a lovely big roast chicken dinner and it WAS really lovely. But afterwards, my tummy swelled that badly it looks distended. Huge. Back on vegetables tomorrow. Really don't want to go off to his parents now, I feel shit.
Bad do earlier. Think infected.
Saturday, 19 April 2008
I hated today
1. Got to yard early to find shetland already out so Molly couldnt go out. Kindly they'd hayed, watered and skipped her out, but it meant I'd had a journey up there for nothing, other than to tell her what a pretty pony she was.
2. Got to work, checked the broadband....nothing. Then my computer (master) crashed. So had to restart everything and ban everyone from touching anything. Got the broadband working again.
3. Credit card machine on the end till decided not to work. Had a tantrum, kicked some things and it worked again.
4. C is a tit. He cannot stay out of the office for longer than 5 minutes, which is no good when I am trying to concentrate because
5. S had put cash through on an account as a cheque, so I had no way of telling if the fact the till was up was because he'd put it through wrong or because people had paid their subs back. Finally finished banking at 11.30.
6. CUSTOMERS. Please don't expect me to make the decision for you. I don't tell you stuff because I like the sound of my own voice, I am telling (suggesting, whatever) you to do something because *I think* it will help your pet. I wont tell you to spend money needlessly, I wont recommend the most expensive product, if I recommend something it's because *I* think it's the best for whatever you want it to do .
7. STAFF. Don't take the piss, don't argue back when you're in the wrong and I wont get cross. Simple, no? You'd think.
8. COMPUTERS. It crashed again as I was doing the sat eve banking. Then I forgot to run the reports.
9. Got to the yard, wanted to ride, but no one about and no one likely to be about for a while. Yard is spooky (to horses and humans...) and I really didnt fancy riding on my own, esp as Cob has had a few days in. OH whinged about coming up (he had my saddle anyway), so I decided to lunge instead. Pony was a tit. BUT did some really lovely work, so, do I be pleased about what I did get or be frustrated at her 'I cant hear you...' behaviour?
10. I swear my phone got a text when I was on the way home, but it was as I was sliding it down. No text when I got home. This has frustrated me cos I want to know who it was from/what it said, or if I just imagined it, which is most likely.
11. I've just unsuccessfully managed to worm the cats. Well. They're wormed, but it's taken both chris and I a good 45 minutes and we're both covered in tuna.
12. I can't decide whether to get up early to the yard and ride before work (AND make sure she gets turned out), or get up early, turn out then go to the gym before work. The main thing that bothers me about riding before work is what if I lose track of time? I need to pick Dan up too. Plus...the idea of running for 45 minutes makes me want to poke my own eyes out. But I dont want to not go just cos I can't be arsed, because if I do that now I'll do it again....Basically, I'll be fucked off if I go, and fucked off if I dont.
13. I still havent cleaned my tack, made my lunch or got myself organised for tomorrow and I'm tired. :whinge:
I'm sure something good happened. No idea what it was though.
2. Got to work, checked the broadband....nothing. Then my computer (master) crashed. So had to restart everything and ban everyone from touching anything. Got the broadband working again.
3. Credit card machine on the end till decided not to work. Had a tantrum, kicked some things and it worked again.
4. C is a tit. He cannot stay out of the office for longer than 5 minutes, which is no good when I am trying to concentrate because
5. S had put cash through on an account as a cheque, so I had no way of telling if the fact the till was up was because he'd put it through wrong or because people had paid their subs back. Finally finished banking at 11.30.
6. CUSTOMERS. Please don't expect me to make the decision for you. I don't tell you stuff because I like the sound of my own voice, I am telling (suggesting, whatever) you to do something because *I think* it will help your pet. I wont tell you to spend money needlessly, I wont recommend the most expensive product, if I recommend something it's because *I* think it's the best for whatever you want it to do .
7. STAFF. Don't take the piss, don't argue back when you're in the wrong and I wont get cross. Simple, no? You'd think.
8. COMPUTERS. It crashed again as I was doing the sat eve banking. Then I forgot to run the reports.
9. Got to the yard, wanted to ride, but no one about and no one likely to be about for a while. Yard is spooky (to horses and humans...) and I really didnt fancy riding on my own, esp as Cob has had a few days in. OH whinged about coming up (he had my saddle anyway), so I decided to lunge instead. Pony was a tit. BUT did some really lovely work, so, do I be pleased about what I did get or be frustrated at her 'I cant hear you...' behaviour?
10. I swear my phone got a text when I was on the way home, but it was as I was sliding it down. No text when I got home. This has frustrated me cos I want to know who it was from/what it said, or if I just imagined it, which is most likely.
11. I've just unsuccessfully managed to worm the cats. Well. They're wormed, but it's taken both chris and I a good 45 minutes and we're both covered in tuna.
12. I can't decide whether to get up early to the yard and ride before work (AND make sure she gets turned out), or get up early, turn out then go to the gym before work. The main thing that bothers me about riding before work is what if I lose track of time? I need to pick Dan up too. Plus...the idea of running for 45 minutes makes me want to poke my own eyes out. But I dont want to not go just cos I can't be arsed, because if I do that now I'll do it again....Basically, I'll be fucked off if I go, and fucked off if I dont.
13. I still havent cleaned my tack, made my lunch or got myself organised for tomorrow and I'm tired. :whinge:
I'm sure something good happened. No idea what it was though.
Friday, 18 April 2008
Twice in 2 days
Gymmed again this morning.... 3 miles (41mins, not impressed, the idea is to get QUICKER), then rower and x-trainer...rubbish rower and even more rubbish x-trainer, had to put it down to level 10 cos I was knackered.
Might not ride :lazycow:
Not really much else to say...Managed to lock myself out of my internet banking earlier, rang up and apparently I failed on the questions (?!) so had to do an emergency trip back into town to get everything unlocked, cos they barred my cards and everything. Bit overkill but suppose I'd be grateful if someone had tried to pinch the 25p I have to my name. And they nearly didnt accept my passport and driving license as ID cos neither of them looked like me :rolleyes:
I'm really tired today as well, have really struggled to get motivated. Maybe 2 bottles of wine last night, although fun, was a bad idea?
Might not ride :lazycow:
Not really much else to say...Managed to lock myself out of my internet banking earlier, rang up and apparently I failed on the questions (?!) so had to do an emergency trip back into town to get everything unlocked, cos they barred my cards and everything. Bit overkill but suppose I'd be grateful if someone had tried to pinch the 25p I have to my name. And they nearly didnt accept my passport and driving license as ID cos neither of them looked like me :rolleyes:
I'm really tired today as well, have really struggled to get motivated. Maybe 2 bottles of wine last night, although fun, was a bad idea?
Thursday, 17 April 2008
sleepy and a little bit drunk
Am homealone as Chris at work catching up on stuff we just havent got time to do during work hours. Suspect I *should* be there with him, but tbh, my work is up to date and I'd just get bored and silly.
Went to the gym after work (smelly needs a new car, as her silver cross pram wont fit in her festa...oh and she's 'given up smoking' apparently. Wish I'd heard when she told the customer that, I'd have said something!!) and ran 3 miles, yay me. Well. I didnt run it all, but probably ran more than I walked, although def not in the last mile and a half. Took 39minutes, then did rower and x-trainer on level 13. Check me out. Went and did cob after, she didnt get her toes done today and clearly didnt go out. Raaah. Lunged her and she was a Good Pony. Love that horse, so much.
Really felt I deserved wine tonight, so have had 1 bottle and am about to open the second. Day off tomorrow. Was planning on going to the gym, but the thought of run/walking on the treadmill, on my own, for 40 minutes makes me want to poke my eyes out.
I'm knackered. Got blisters from the stupid rower.
Not itchyarms, yay me. Weigh day tomorrow. IAS tomorrow.
Went to the gym after work (smelly needs a new car, as her silver cross pram wont fit in her festa...oh and she's 'given up smoking' apparently. Wish I'd heard when she told the customer that, I'd have said something!!) and ran 3 miles, yay me. Well. I didnt run it all, but probably ran more than I walked, although def not in the last mile and a half. Took 39minutes, then did rower and x-trainer on level 13. Check me out. Went and did cob after, she didnt get her toes done today and clearly didnt go out. Raaah. Lunged her and she was a Good Pony. Love that horse, so much.
Really felt I deserved wine tonight, so have had 1 bottle and am about to open the second. Day off tomorrow. Was planning on going to the gym, but the thought of run/walking on the treadmill, on my own, for 40 minutes makes me want to poke my eyes out.
I'm knackered. Got blisters from the stupid rower.
Not itchyarms, yay me. Weigh day tomorrow. IAS tomorrow.
Wednesday, 16 April 2008
very very good....then incredibly bad. Oops.
Ah, well. I tried.
I jogged to and from the yard this morning....from the car which i parked at the top of the drive. Then after work I went to the gym (stef bailed out AGAIN) and Gymbitch made me run 2 miles on the treadmill...which I just managed (25mins - lots of walking tho), spent the whole time bitching at her needlessly... Especially as i think that if I hadnt done that, I would have a/ managed 3 miles (eventually) and b/ it was just unnecessary. Probably should have gone on the cross trainer too, but, lazycowitis today.
Didn't ride. Cob got a good groom instead. Getting a pedicure tomorrow, hopefully if farrier has time. I get a lie in too, so who bets I am up at 6am again?
Itchy arms. All kinds. Such an arse and utterly ridiculous.
I have a huge LONGING to get veryveryveryvery drunk. Not for any particular reason. And I'm buying Wii Fit. I'll save for it, it'll take 10 years, but I want it :brat:
So, the good - running 2 miles...and my slowest rower was 1.15m. Admittedly I did do that first before the treadmill. So, they were good.
The bad...2 slices toast & butter with steph, 1 creme egg and a bowl of posh waitrose ice cream.
The twatlike....itchy arms.
Such an ungrateful ratbag.
I jogged to and from the yard this morning....from the car which i parked at the top of the drive. Then after work I went to the gym (stef bailed out AGAIN) and Gymbitch made me run 2 miles on the treadmill...which I just managed (25mins - lots of walking tho), spent the whole time bitching at her needlessly... Especially as i think that if I hadnt done that, I would have a/ managed 3 miles (eventually) and b/ it was just unnecessary. Probably should have gone on the cross trainer too, but, lazycowitis today.
Didn't ride. Cob got a good groom instead. Getting a pedicure tomorrow, hopefully if farrier has time. I get a lie in too, so who bets I am up at 6am again?
Itchy arms. All kinds. Such an arse and utterly ridiculous.
I have a huge LONGING to get veryveryveryvery drunk. Not for any particular reason. And I'm buying Wii Fit. I'll save for it, it'll take 10 years, but I want it :brat:
So, the good - running 2 miles...and my slowest rower was 1.15m. Admittedly I did do that first before the treadmill. So, they were good.
The bad...2 slices toast & butter with steph, 1 creme egg and a bowl of posh waitrose ice cream.
The twatlike....itchy arms.
Such an ungrateful ratbag.
Tuesday, 15 April 2008
raaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
Here's the crash, slightly earlier than predicted but here nevertheless. I wonder why? It is obviously hormonal, so am back on the happy pills so that'll be another month or so before they kick in again.
So after yesterdays Triumphant Hack, I decided to ride in the arena tonight... Must ask the owner if I can ride in the field, it's horribly deep, flooded and she leaves her jumps up. NOT conducive to having a relaxed, attention-paying cobbit. The clay pigeon shooting in the next field didnt help either, but it wasnt the most inspiring of rides. I rode badlybadly, I still ache from going round Danefield yesterday and she took advantage. Pretty much every evasion (bar bucking and rearing, thankfully) were thrown at me and I failed on everything.
I've lost my phone charger as well which isnt helping my mood. I may yet be communicating through facebook for a while unless I can buy an ubercheap charger off ebay.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So after yesterdays Triumphant Hack, I decided to ride in the arena tonight... Must ask the owner if I can ride in the field, it's horribly deep, flooded and she leaves her jumps up. NOT conducive to having a relaxed, attention-paying cobbit. The clay pigeon shooting in the next field didnt help either, but it wasnt the most inspiring of rides. I rode badlybadly, I still ache from going round Danefield yesterday and she took advantage. Pretty much every evasion (bar bucking and rearing, thankfully) were thrown at me and I failed on everything.
I've lost my phone charger as well which isnt helping my mood. I may yet be communicating through facebook for a while unless I can buy an ubercheap charger off ebay.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Monday, 14 April 2008
quick blog
Urgh, I actually darent get on the scales, I really dont want to know. I'm guessing I'll be back at about 15.12 or so, which is disappointing, but Fat Fighters is most definately starting again tomorrow!!
Parents due round in a few minutes for our Last Supper before they go, with Chris' parents too, so an evening of fun.
Rode the Pony today, went round Danefield!! Am so proud of us both, we went alone and saw all sorts of dangerous monsters (a big lorry, a quad type affair, pushchairs, unruly dogs, other horses -nearly shit myself at that point as before she's spun and twatted about until I've ended up on the floor and she's gone to play with her new friends, but she completely ignored them- and there was a sheep feeder that got a suspicious snort) but then she had a paddy at a puddle? Que? Also had a moment where I parked her up some kind of cliff face while a runner came past on a really bad bit of ground, then when it came to coming off, instead of walking along to where the ground met the 'cliff face' Molly just decided to step off the side :rolleyes: Was only about a foot, but I had visions of coming off then LOL. Bless her she was a good girl, I rode like shit today and if she'd really argued the toss over anything, I'd have come off. Might do some schooling tomorrow, depends on if the school is still underwater. Oh! And I wore jodhpurs. Check me out. And no one obviously laughed either. Some man randomly let me out of the car park though, holding up a load of cars. No idea why as we were quite happy watching everyone go by (cob was pleased of the rest I think) then when I said thank you he utterly ignored me... Odd!!
So, I dont ache that much yet (famous last words) but am so chuffed, it;s unreal. Just hope I can do it again now!
Back to work tomorrow, don't wanna. I could get used to being a lady of leisure, very easily!! Must do lottery more often.
Parents due round in a few minutes for our Last Supper before they go, with Chris' parents too, so an evening of fun.
Rode the Pony today, went round Danefield!! Am so proud of us both, we went alone and saw all sorts of dangerous monsters (a big lorry, a quad type affair, pushchairs, unruly dogs, other horses -nearly shit myself at that point as before she's spun and twatted about until I've ended up on the floor and she's gone to play with her new friends, but she completely ignored them- and there was a sheep feeder that got a suspicious snort) but then she had a paddy at a puddle? Que? Also had a moment where I parked her up some kind of cliff face while a runner came past on a really bad bit of ground, then when it came to coming off, instead of walking along to where the ground met the 'cliff face' Molly just decided to step off the side :rolleyes: Was only about a foot, but I had visions of coming off then LOL. Bless her she was a good girl, I rode like shit today and if she'd really argued the toss over anything, I'd have come off. Might do some schooling tomorrow, depends on if the school is still underwater. Oh! And I wore jodhpurs. Check me out. And no one obviously laughed either. Some man randomly let me out of the car park though, holding up a load of cars. No idea why as we were quite happy watching everyone go by (cob was pleased of the rest I think) then when I said thank you he utterly ignored me... Odd!!
So, I dont ache that much yet (famous last words) but am so chuffed, it;s unreal. Just hope I can do it again now!
Back to work tomorrow, don't wanna. I could get used to being a lady of leisure, very easily!! Must do lottery more often.
Saturday, 12 April 2008
Podged....
I wont be able to ride soon, I'll be too fat again. We've eaten out for the last 2 nights, and big meals too. I darent get on the scales, but I know its going to be bad.
Pony is going to get lunged uber early tomorrow morning before we go trailing off relative visiting, then will hopefully ride on Monday :noplans:
Had lovely birthday, been very spoilt. Loads of books, cds, pair of joules breeches (have never worn breeches in my LIFE :unsure: - highly unflattering too), a charm bracelet with charms on as a combined parents&chris present...beautybox voucher (obv have turned too horsey already LOL), winestopper, Queen-related stuff, lottery ticket... LOL.
Parents driving me crazy though and I know how ungrateful I'm being, which makes me feel worse, but they can be so hurtful sometimes completely unintentionally.
FatFighters here I come again on Tuesday. Honest. Think I have eaten enough this weekend to last me all year.
Pony is going to get lunged uber early tomorrow morning before we go trailing off relative visiting, then will hopefully ride on Monday :noplans:
Had lovely birthday, been very spoilt. Loads of books, cds, pair of joules breeches (have never worn breeches in my LIFE :unsure: - highly unflattering too), a charm bracelet with charms on as a combined parents&chris present...beautybox voucher (obv have turned too horsey already LOL), winestopper, Queen-related stuff, lottery ticket... LOL.
Parents driving me crazy though and I know how ungrateful I'm being, which makes me feel worse, but they can be so hurtful sometimes completely unintentionally.
FatFighters here I come again on Tuesday. Honest. Think I have eaten enough this weekend to last me all year.
Thursday, 10 April 2008
I'm old :bawling:
It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm officially, properly, late 20's. Parents arrived just after 6pm and have spent the last 5 hours starting with 'What Went Wrong' at age 3 and we'd only got to age 16 by the time they left. I've been drinking and I suspect in the morning I'll be grateful for the ability to touch type.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
Huge grins
Rode the pony tonight. First time in 6 months, first time at new yard....so I rode bareback cos my stupid saddle STILL hasnt arrived :grumps: Love the cobbit, such a good girl. Got a pic cos her old sharer came up to see her and I just have the biggest grin ever, look a total fool.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
Decisions. Maybe.
Right. I need to stop being such a wimp. Pony was A Very Good Girl tonight - I forgot the gun club are based next door and they were clay pigeon shooting tonight. Took her in the arena to lunge and had a prancy, idiotic pony who thought she was walking hot coals for about 5 minutes, then she got bored and worked properly :wub:
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Monday, 7 April 2008
So tired
I've slept though the last couple of nights. Think the answer is no coffee, bugger. Miss my coffee.
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Friday, 4 April 2008
definately crazy
Today I have jogged/walked round Yeadon Tarn twice (took 20-ish minutes, shockingly I didnt check properly), then I went to the gym, I was going to do my normal treadmill stuff, but just walked for a mile on a 4% incline & at 4mph. Might not do so much for the fat shifting, but hey, I went running for that.... it's more than I would have done. Then I did a rubbish rower and on the x-trainer. Did do some arms, but started texting people so gave up and went home. Made OH come get me. Oops.
Still not sleeping greatly, but I genuinely dont know what it is that's making me so wide awake. Overexcitement, I think is part of it, but other than that? Money... Bought the baggage a new saddle this morning (ouch, better fucking fit) which at the minute will take approximately a million years to pay off, my weight, I hate it. It's not shifting and I can't stop eating. Have wine now, and if I still dont sleep tonight I'm having my migraine pills tomorrow night.
We've arranged to go out with friends tomorrow night with friends for a meal, I really dont want to go now. I don't hugely want to eat in front of people I dont know that well and I'm not drinking (not if I need the pills). I hatehatehate one of the boys that's going and I can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing.
Girl from the yard came down to work this morning with my keys - really must go look at it :blush: but have a backup ready, so that if it's hugely awful, The Pony only has to stay there one night then I can walk her to another yard. Sounds a bit too good to be true though, 40 per week inc haylage & shavings, use of 20x60 arena, showjumps (it's a showjumping yard), if I'm not there by a certain time in the morning, she'll get put out by the (one) other livery and YO will bring her in and check her every night. Doesnt sound like DIY to me, but I'm not complaining :lol: Think I'm going to have to be brave at hacking alone though, she said no one really did but there's no way I'm having her on the chevin and then not hacking on it :lol:
Please let me sleep tonight, I'm REALLY tired, but also wide awake, if that makes sense.
Food:
1 salami slice, 2 x laughing cow light, 1 x rice cake, 1 packet of crisps, 1 slice melon, 1 chocolate rice crispy cake with 2 mini eggs, chris stew, yorkshire pudding, chris-brioche, nutella, 1 bottle white wine.
Still not sleeping greatly, but I genuinely dont know what it is that's making me so wide awake. Overexcitement, I think is part of it, but other than that? Money... Bought the baggage a new saddle this morning (ouch, better fucking fit) which at the minute will take approximately a million years to pay off, my weight, I hate it. It's not shifting and I can't stop eating. Have wine now, and if I still dont sleep tonight I'm having my migraine pills tomorrow night.
We've arranged to go out with friends tomorrow night with friends for a meal, I really dont want to go now. I don't hugely want to eat in front of people I dont know that well and I'm not drinking (not if I need the pills). I hatehatehate one of the boys that's going and I can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing.
Girl from the yard came down to work this morning with my keys - really must go look at it :blush: but have a backup ready, so that if it's hugely awful, The Pony only has to stay there one night then I can walk her to another yard. Sounds a bit too good to be true though, 40 per week inc haylage & shavings, use of 20x60 arena, showjumps (it's a showjumping yard), if I'm not there by a certain time in the morning, she'll get put out by the (one) other livery and YO will bring her in and check her every night. Doesnt sound like DIY to me, but I'm not complaining :lol: Think I'm going to have to be brave at hacking alone though, she said no one really did but there's no way I'm having her on the chevin and then not hacking on it :lol:
Please let me sleep tonight, I'm REALLY tired, but also wide awake, if that makes sense.
Food:
1 salami slice, 2 x laughing cow light, 1 x rice cake, 1 packet of crisps, 1 slice melon, 1 chocolate rice crispy cake with 2 mini eggs, chris stew, yorkshire pudding, chris-brioche, nutella, 1 bottle white wine.
reasons i cant sleep
1. weight
2. money
3. IAS
4. worried I wont do the pony justice now!!
5. Work
6. letting people down
7. just being a bitch in general
I'll leave it there for now
2. money
3. IAS
4. worried I wont do the pony justice now!!
5. Work
6. letting people down
7. just being a bitch in general
I'll leave it there for now
Thursday, 3 April 2008
two days running...
Blimey, have blogged more in 2 days than in last 2 weeks.
Pony-mobile booked and insurance set up. Went to open her a bank account but Wednesday is earliest they can do - arse. Driver is a bit keen though, he wants to leave in the middle of the night to avoid the traffic... I'm hoping I can take my iPod and sleep. Would that be rude?
Went 'running' tonight with friend from work (who I am also doing race for life with) round Gallows Hill. Took us 20 minutes and we finished there cos she (not me!!) was bored. Huh. Think it's about a mile, we walked most of it I think. The problem with the 2 of us is we're both fundamentally really lazy and neither of us push each other. Going again tomorrow with the accountant (AND we find out if we're getting a bonus tomorrow - huge crossed fingers. If we dont get one I'm going to push her in the Tarn) and Sunday with Gymbitch.
Saw a new phone contract on tinterweb today with same network I'm with, for 35quid a month, you get 750calls and unlimited texts. Says you can cancel your existing contract as long as you're within 2 months of the end of the minimum contract - mines up next month, so hopefully I should be ok. Something will go wrong, I know it. But I'm going Sunday to ask about it.
I'm getting tired at long last, I'm really hoping I sleep tonight. However, N is on her way over. Usually has the opposite effect on me. I. Am. Not. Drinking. Owner came into work today and told me I looked like shite & exhausted. That's not great.
Wish I'd gone to the gym instead today. Oh well.
Todays food:
3 x laughing cow light
2 slice salami
2 x salt & vinegar rice cakes
1/2 of a Chris pork pie
1 packet crisps
grapes
Chris-Stew
Yorkshire pudding
half of some kind of nutty pastry affair
Hmm. I'm quite sure I ate more at lunchtime.
Pony-mobile booked and insurance set up. Went to open her a bank account but Wednesday is earliest they can do - arse. Driver is a bit keen though, he wants to leave in the middle of the night to avoid the traffic... I'm hoping I can take my iPod and sleep. Would that be rude?
Went 'running' tonight with friend from work (who I am also doing race for life with) round Gallows Hill. Took us 20 minutes and we finished there cos she (not me!!) was bored. Huh. Think it's about a mile, we walked most of it I think. The problem with the 2 of us is we're both fundamentally really lazy and neither of us push each other. Going again tomorrow with the accountant (AND we find out if we're getting a bonus tomorrow - huge crossed fingers. If we dont get one I'm going to push her in the Tarn) and Sunday with Gymbitch.
Saw a new phone contract on tinterweb today with same network I'm with, for 35quid a month, you get 750calls and unlimited texts. Says you can cancel your existing contract as long as you're within 2 months of the end of the minimum contract - mines up next month, so hopefully I should be ok. Something will go wrong, I know it. But I'm going Sunday to ask about it.
I'm getting tired at long last, I'm really hoping I sleep tonight. However, N is on her way over. Usually has the opposite effect on me. I. Am. Not. Drinking. Owner came into work today and told me I looked like shite & exhausted. That's not great.
Wish I'd gone to the gym instead today. Oh well.
Todays food:
3 x laughing cow light
2 slice salami
2 x salt & vinegar rice cakes
1/2 of a Chris pork pie
1 packet crisps
grapes
Chris-Stew
Yorkshire pudding
half of some kind of nutty pastry affair
Hmm. I'm quite sure I ate more at lunchtime.
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
WWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Right, if this doesnt work, I'm giving up entirely. This is the FOURTH time I've tried to post this fucking thing.
Essentially, if I was to round things up, in a nutshell, it would be thus:
1. We love the Gymbitch. I'm running, outside, in daylight, where people can see me. AND she doesnt laugh at me (openly!)even when I cant breathe, having run approximately a metre.
2. The pony is coming back!! Equal parts supreme overexcitement, terror and OMG I can't afford this... Actually, I think overexcitement is outweighing everything else at the minute. It'll kick in again once I've had a week of mucking out.
3. Due to combination of Gymbitch & Pony, I've just had the best workout ever. Nearly died doing it, but am so proud of myself tonight, in a 'it's all gonna go to shit soon' way.
4. Might be giving up Fat Fighters. I'm not really enjoying it anymore (the pointing), I'm forever going over points and I could do with the extra money. I should really give up the gym too, but I can't quite bring myself to do that. We'll see how it goes time & money wise.
I think part of the enthusiasm has gone because even though *I* don't see the change in me, I am wearing size 18-20 clothes which not so long ago was an unacheivable target... I dont know. I keep forgetting to do measurements as well, so maybe the obsession is going. lets hope so. Am off the happy pills too now and no one seems to have noticed any difference so ever onwards...I have had one huge slip, but. Itchy Arms Syndrome. I just dont want it all to come back.
Work is ok. The biggest irritant is away at the minute and comes back when I'm off for a week so that works out quite nicely for me.
I'll just have the lottery numbers for Saturday night please and then I think I'm sorted. Positivity, excitement and no whinging, all in one post. Today truly is a good day. Lets hope the fucking thing posts now.
Food:
half a boost bar
8 squares whole nut
the vast majority of a bag of Haribo (maybe thats what made me superpowered on the rower?)
1 packet crisps
1 sausage
vegetables
rachelraita
2 slices chris-brioche
nutella
1 x salami & laughing cow light.
Ouch. I felt thin today too.
Essentially, if I was to round things up, in a nutshell, it would be thus:
1. We love the Gymbitch. I'm running, outside, in daylight, where people can see me. AND she doesnt laugh at me (openly!)even when I cant breathe, having run approximately a metre.
2. The pony is coming back!! Equal parts supreme overexcitement, terror and OMG I can't afford this... Actually, I think overexcitement is outweighing everything else at the minute. It'll kick in again once I've had a week of mucking out.
3. Due to combination of Gymbitch & Pony, I've just had the best workout ever. Nearly died doing it, but am so proud of myself tonight, in a 'it's all gonna go to shit soon' way.
4. Might be giving up Fat Fighters. I'm not really enjoying it anymore (the pointing), I'm forever going over points and I could do with the extra money. I should really give up the gym too, but I can't quite bring myself to do that. We'll see how it goes time & money wise.
I think part of the enthusiasm has gone because even though *I* don't see the change in me, I am wearing size 18-20 clothes which not so long ago was an unacheivable target... I dont know. I keep forgetting to do measurements as well, so maybe the obsession is going. lets hope so. Am off the happy pills too now and no one seems to have noticed any difference so ever onwards...I have had one huge slip, but. Itchy Arms Syndrome. I just dont want it all to come back.
Work is ok. The biggest irritant is away at the minute and comes back when I'm off for a week so that works out quite nicely for me.
I'll just have the lottery numbers for Saturday night please and then I think I'm sorted. Positivity, excitement and no whinging, all in one post. Today truly is a good day. Lets hope the fucking thing posts now.
Food:
half a boost bar
8 squares whole nut
the vast majority of a bag of Haribo (maybe thats what made me superpowered on the rower?)
1 packet crisps
1 sausage
vegetables
rachelraita
2 slices chris-brioche
nutella
1 x salami & laughing cow light.
Ouch. I felt thin today too.
Friday, 28 March 2008
Long time no blog
I havent changed weight though.
Had a much more successful shopping trip last week - lots of jeans and a couple of tops, then today went again with the intention of MAYBE looking at an iPod and came home with an iPod, 3 tops, new bra (to go with the semi-backless top) and pants, a pair of jeans to thin into (really, they dont go above my hips...) and THE most gorgeous pair of shoes ever. Really quite high and I am going to fall off them and probably break my ankle.
Also had a really disapointing lunch in Costa. We broke the diet and truly wasnt worth it. AND it was 20quid. Robbing bastards.
I think my Garbage CD is broken :'( Will genuinely be really upset if it is, was so looking forward to having it on the ipod. Such a geek.
Must get back into eating properly, I've eaten a load of shit recently and although I dont *think* I've put any weight on, it's only cos I've been going to the gym loads. Think how much I could have lost if I'd gone to the gym and eaten less?!
Had a much more successful shopping trip last week - lots of jeans and a couple of tops, then today went again with the intention of MAYBE looking at an iPod and came home with an iPod, 3 tops, new bra (to go with the semi-backless top) and pants, a pair of jeans to thin into (really, they dont go above my hips...) and THE most gorgeous pair of shoes ever. Really quite high and I am going to fall off them and probably break my ankle.
Also had a really disapointing lunch in Costa. We broke the diet and truly wasnt worth it. AND it was 20quid. Robbing bastards.
I think my Garbage CD is broken :'( Will genuinely be really upset if it is, was so looking forward to having it on the ipod. Such a geek.
Must get back into eating properly, I've eaten a load of shit recently and although I dont *think* I've put any weight on, it's only cos I've been going to the gym loads. Think how much I could have lost if I'd gone to the gym and eaten less?!
Wednesday, 19 March 2008
long time no blog....
TPO is still pregnant and dragging everyone down, got a new girl who is FAB, has settled in really well and works hard. Can't fault her, although she wants to leave cos of TPO. So that's shit.
Went shopping cos everyone moaned that I had no decent trousers so went shopping and found fuck all fitted, so came home in tears, went to the gym and didnt eat for the day. That was grown up.
I've found a pony I really want but I must be grown up and desist. Quite apart from the fact I dont have the money. Or the time, or the...anything really.
Got my race for life stuff through last week, I'm runner 300. Must up my running. meant to be going round some reservoir somewhere at some point. Running in public. Erk.
Have badly fallen off the wagon this month, must get back into things.
Went shopping cos everyone moaned that I had no decent trousers so went shopping and found fuck all fitted, so came home in tears, went to the gym and didnt eat for the day. That was grown up.
I've found a pony I really want but I must be grown up and desist. Quite apart from the fact I dont have the money. Or the time, or the...anything really.
Got my race for life stuff through last week, I'm runner 300. Must up my running. meant to be going round some reservoir somewhere at some point. Running in public. Erk.
Have badly fallen off the wagon this month, must get back into things.
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
so fucked off
Had my bodyfat measured properly last night :bawling: 41% of me is Bad Fat. 9 stone is Good Fat. This bothers me as it looks like I will never get to 11stone goal, if 9stone of me now is Good - going to the gym surely means that will only increase...? Must find out what a good range is. BMI is 34 :bawling: (computer told me it was 33...ok, only a point, but hey).
Might not go to gym tonight - not cos I'm disillusioned, honest, but more because my house needs cleaning, properly, and I'll be knackered if I gym then clean :wimp: I'm yawning now!!
Next day off looks like it will be the 22nd March. Nightmare, but at least I'm getting paid The Deserters wage on the days that should have been my days off. They can go into New Clothes Fund.
Might not go to gym tonight - not cos I'm disillusioned, honest, but more because my house needs cleaning, properly, and I'll be knackered if I gym then clean :wimp: I'm yawning now!!
Next day off looks like it will be the 22nd March. Nightmare, but at least I'm getting paid The Deserters wage on the days that should have been my days off. They can go into New Clothes Fund.
Sunday, 2 March 2008
tired
B has walked out. TPO is still there, 'feeling really guilty you all have to do my work for you' :| I'm fast running out of sympathy, especially as tomorrow I will be the only one in.
Food-restraint is WAY out of the window.
Gymbitch suggested I do some boxing. Tempted.
Food-restraint is WAY out of the window.
Gymbitch suggested I do some boxing. Tempted.
Saturday, 1 March 2008
Measurements
Saturday March 1st 2008
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
8.5 inches gone... Better than I thought.
Looking through my diary last night, I saw my next target was to be 14.8 by my birthday. Really dont think that's going to happen :( I MUST get back into it, I've had such a bad week, last night we had pizza, wine and chocolate. :S But was same weight this morning as I was yesterday so not all bad. And I have a one on one with Gymbitch tomorrow.
I want to go shopping though.... I must admit now I need some more work jeans and possiblya belt or 2, but dont really want to go on my own. But what if the same happens as last time and I end up utterly depressed cos nothing fits? Dont really have the money for shopping either. Rahhh.
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
8.5 inches gone... Better than I thought.
Looking through my diary last night, I saw my next target was to be 14.8 by my birthday. Really dont think that's going to happen :( I MUST get back into it, I've had such a bad week, last night we had pizza, wine and chocolate. :S But was same weight this morning as I was yesterday so not all bad. And I have a one on one with Gymbitch tomorrow.
I want to go shopping though.... I must admit now I need some more work jeans and possiblya belt or 2, but dont really want to go on my own. But what if the same happens as last time and I end up utterly depressed cos nothing fits? Dont really have the money for shopping either. Rahhh.
Thursday, 28 February 2008
tantrums, hormones and meh-ness
rahhhh/ Stinky is still pregnant. She is 'not allowed' to lift AT ALL and has had everyone (bar me cos I'm mean) running about fetching and carrying for her. I want to rant on some forums I go on, but I know how it will be taken.
Weight is Not Good. Had a bad 2 days which involved chocolate and a hot ham sandwich. I'm shocked at how much I've put on tbh. I didnt think it would be as much. Definate gain week. And pizza tomorrow. Must go to gym tomorrow night.
Work not bad. S'ok.
Weight is Not Good. Had a bad 2 days which involved chocolate and a hot ham sandwich. I'm shocked at how much I've put on tbh. I didnt think it would be as much. Definate gain week. And pizza tomorrow. Must go to gym tomorrow night.
Work not bad. S'ok.
Sunday, 24 February 2008
tantruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmm
I cant stop eating and have put on 6lbs since my WI on Friday :bawling: First 2lbs I blamed on totm, but no chance now.
Wedding last night was gorgeous. I'm kind of jealous :rolleyes:
Wedding last night was gorgeous. I'm kind of jealous :rolleyes:
Friday, 22 February 2008
*sigh*
I was 15.5 yesterday morning :( So have put on weight through eating that yummy flapjack (not sure it was worth 12 points though)and drinking the pink wine. Sigh. But, hey, it's still a loss from last week.... New 10% goal is now 14 stone, by which point I will only be overweight according to my BMI, as opposed to morbidly obese :rolleyes:
Gym in a bit - tbh I cant really work up enthusiasm to go, esp as will do EVERYTHING.
I was oh-so-right re the Work Thing with S. Knew it. Boys are so shit at hiding stuff.
Must get motivated. Have Things To DO before I go to the gym, plus I need to remember to take the stupid grate with me to swap it. bah. Why couldnt OH do it tomorrow?
Gym in a bit - tbh I cant really work up enthusiasm to go, esp as will do EVERYTHING.
I was oh-so-right re the Work Thing with S. Knew it. Boys are so shit at hiding stuff.
Must get motivated. Have Things To DO before I go to the gym, plus I need to remember to take the stupid grate with me to swap it. bah. Why couldnt OH do it tomorrow?
Monday, 18 February 2008
sulky
The Pregnant One is pregnant no longer. Do we give it three months before she is again?
I dropped a bale of chop onto my leg which was out to the side earlier, nearly popping it out of the hip socket. Bastard well hurts now. OH is Off Games for the forseeable now. Also meant I didnt go to the gym. Half pissed off, half kind of relieved, we were so busy with TPO being off, that I'm not sure I really needed the gym tonight :lol:
There are Decisions and Dilemmas about TPO and also my job, I think, if I want to have a family, or get into the family way at any point.Erk.
Had to do an emergency Tesco shop today, which pissed me off (we only went Friday!!!). Just means we spend more money we dont really have on things we dont especially need (yes, I bought a DVD) and we've still forgotten stuff.
Hands are all dry and horrid :( They look like they belong to a 100yo woman :(
I dropped a bale of chop onto my leg which was out to the side earlier, nearly popping it out of the hip socket. Bastard well hurts now. OH is Off Games for the forseeable now. Also meant I didnt go to the gym. Half pissed off, half kind of relieved, we were so busy with TPO being off, that I'm not sure I really needed the gym tonight :lol:
There are Decisions and Dilemmas about TPO and also my job, I think, if I want to have a family, or get into the family way at any point.Erk.
Had to do an emergency Tesco shop today, which pissed me off (we only went Friday!!!). Just means we spend more money we dont really have on things we dont especially need (yes, I bought a DVD) and we've still forgotten stuff.
Hands are all dry and horrid :( They look like they belong to a 100yo woman :(
Sunday, 17 February 2008
Not the best day
Bad nights sleep, plus an 8am 'alarm' (haha) call from work, divided by The Most Irritating Man in the Universe, bar none = really fucking grumpy FB.
I had loads to blog earlier, I'm sure of it, but I just kept putting it off (ooh, I'll just put some washing on/mop the floor/hoover - clearly I am ill) and now I cant remember what it was.
I think it can be summed up by 1. This connection on the internet from this computer REALLY fucks me off, and 2. I'm fed up of hovering round this weight. I have 4 days to lose 4lbs (maybe a bit more) and it's SO not going to happen.
bugger it. I'm off to bed.
I had loads to blog earlier, I'm sure of it, but I just kept putting it off (ooh, I'll just put some washing on/mop the floor/hoover - clearly I am ill) and now I cant remember what it was.
I think it can be summed up by 1. This connection on the internet from this computer REALLY fucks me off, and 2. I'm fed up of hovering round this weight. I have 4 days to lose 4lbs (maybe a bit more) and it's SO not going to happen.
bugger it. I'm off to bed.
Friday, 15 February 2008
I'm not dead!
But I did run. New program is:
rower - 5 x 300metre/30seconds rest. The AIM is to do it in less than 1m15. That idea is laughable.
treadmill - 1min @ 3.5mph/5% incline, 1min @ 5mph/0% incline, although I may up it to 5.5mph.... Took me 14minutes to do a mile.
cross trainer - random setting, level 7, 7 minutes. I will build up to 10mins - in fact I might try it on monday. But :whinge: it will be busy and those fast running girls will be there and I'll fall off the treadmill.
I almost find it easier than the last one she did me. Dont tell her though.
Also went for a quick walk on the chevin - was out for 33 minutes. Now I have times for both walks, will try and beat myself back on them the next time I go up there.
Looby is being sick :( Silly bugger ate a packet of egg fried noodles yesterday.
rower - 5 x 300metre/30seconds rest. The AIM is to do it in less than 1m15. That idea is laughable.
treadmill - 1min @ 3.5mph/5% incline, 1min @ 5mph/0% incline, although I may up it to 5.5mph.... Took me 14minutes to do a mile.
cross trainer - random setting, level 7, 7 minutes. I will build up to 10mins - in fact I might try it on monday. But :whinge: it will be busy and those fast running girls will be there and I'll fall off the treadmill.
I almost find it easier than the last one she did me. Dont tell her though.
Also went for a quick walk on the chevin - was out for 33 minutes. Now I have times for both walks, will try and beat myself back on them the next time I go up there.
Looby is being sick :( Silly bugger ate a packet of egg fried noodles yesterday.
Thursday, 14 February 2008
So spoilt
:wub: OH. Lush toys and a necklace from Tiffanys awaited me this morning :hyperventilate: Such a shock, truly cant believe it. It's been everywhere with me today LOL.
Having a bit of a 'cant be arsed' mood today though. Day off and I have troughed my bodyweight in Bad Things. This is doubly bad as not only is it WI tomorrow, it's been such Bad Things, I'm STILL hungry.
Tried to get a fire going for OH to come home to, but it goes for about a minute then dies.
Gymbitch collared me at the gym last night and I had my arm twisted into booking another review for tomorrow. But it's still hard!! She wants me to run too. I dont want to.
N came round, moaned she was single, moaned I was so lucky, moaned she had no job (whos fault?) then left.
Really must get motivated, mum wants me to write something about the smallest kitten for her cat club newsletter and I. Have. No. Inspiration.
Food today:
6 pink & whites
1 packet cheese puffs
3 rice cakes
2 laughing cow light
LOTS of chocolate
2 packets jumbo munch dairylea dunkers (:S)
1 mars drink
slimey chicken
marshmallows
martini asti
hot chocolate (highlights)
Tomorrow will be a gain, I've checked :( I went for a long walk on the chevin (just under an hour) and had some laxatives but nowt. I cant get in an arse about it, it is my own undisciplined fault.
Having a bit of a 'cant be arsed' mood today though. Day off and I have troughed my bodyweight in Bad Things. This is doubly bad as not only is it WI tomorrow, it's been such Bad Things, I'm STILL hungry.
Tried to get a fire going for OH to come home to, but it goes for about a minute then dies.
Gymbitch collared me at the gym last night and I had my arm twisted into booking another review for tomorrow. But it's still hard!! She wants me to run too. I dont want to.
N came round, moaned she was single, moaned I was so lucky, moaned she had no job (whos fault?) then left.
Really must get motivated, mum wants me to write something about the smallest kitten for her cat club newsletter and I. Have. No. Inspiration.
Food today:
6 pink & whites
1 packet cheese puffs
3 rice cakes
2 laughing cow light
LOTS of chocolate
2 packets jumbo munch dairylea dunkers (:S)
1 mars drink
slimey chicken
marshmallows
martini asti
hot chocolate (highlights)
Tomorrow will be a gain, I've checked :( I went for a long walk on the chevin (just under an hour) and had some laxatives but nowt. I cant get in an arse about it, it is my own undisciplined fault.
Tuesday, 12 February 2008
really tired....
ran at the gym tonight again. Only managed a minute each time. Think I'm getting worse. Rower I just couldnt do....not under a minute anyway, more like 1m10. Arms really ached. Did core and legs today, going to attempt little plank for 1m30 tomorrow (laughable), side planks for 15 seconds (again... my feet slip out from under me) and upper planks for 40 (I did 30 today). Gymbitch still wants me to have a review.
B at work is pregnant. She found out today. Boyfriend doesnt know. They've been together less than 3 months. It was a deliberate accident.
Checked my account after Sundays shopping extravaganza. My current account is now #2.58 in credit. Shit. Still. At least it's in credit. And my credit card is at zero.
What else can I have for lunch? I'm kind of sick of fat fighters banoffee pies for dessert.
Gym again tomorrow, am tired just thinking about it.
B at work is pregnant. She found out today. Boyfriend doesnt know. They've been together less than 3 months. It was a deliberate accident.
Checked my account after Sundays shopping extravaganza. My current account is now #2.58 in credit. Shit. Still. At least it's in credit. And my credit card is at zero.
What else can I have for lunch? I'm kind of sick of fat fighters banoffee pies for dessert.
Gym again tomorrow, am tired just thinking about it.
Monday, 11 February 2008
podged....again
Loving the curry. Although I had put on 2lbs this morning :s . My joules jogging bottoms turned up this morning.....THEY FIT!!! An 18! In Joules!!! Bottoms!! S said they were fine (such a boy answer) but I'm not convinced I'd wear them in public.
Went to the gym tonight (fitting in an 18 bottoms inspired me) but only managed cardio and arms. Bit cross now as may as well done the lot, but can go tomorrow. Gymbitch thinks it's time for a review. Hmmm.
OH keeps mentioning my valentines present and what a HUGE thing it is but then gets cross when I ask about it. Boys.
My shoulder is a bit sore tonight.
I think I am going to have to be careful, looking at the new clothes I have bought is not to get carried away with the fact that I fit into clothes from XXXX shop on the high street and wear them regardless, but wear them because they actually FIT and look good.
Went to the gym tonight (fitting in an 18 bottoms inspired me) but only managed cardio and arms. Bit cross now as may as well done the lot, but can go tomorrow. Gymbitch thinks it's time for a review. Hmmm.
OH keeps mentioning my valentines present and what a HUGE thing it is but then gets cross when I ask about it. Boys.
My shoulder is a bit sore tonight.
I think I am going to have to be careful, looking at the new clothes I have bought is not to get carried away with the fact that I fit into clothes from XXXX shop on the high street and wear them regardless, but wear them because they actually FIT and look good.
Sunday, 10 February 2008
Uh-oh, who's in trouble?
I went Shopping today. Only went to HGate for some jogging bottoms and a *little* bit of Lush.
Came home with 2 DVDs, a Wii game, a cd, a *lot* of Lush, a hoody, some jogging bottoms, 4 books and some pants from La Senza.... Assistant in La Senza suggested I get measured for one of their bras :heehee: pointed out I was a GG cup (:blush:) and she told me to get measured there one day as they sized differently. Hmmmm. I might. Dont really want to go up a million back sizes though :S
Spent morning with N on the yard. I missed horses today. Even the shitty (haha) jobs like mucking out and pottering about. Sorted the horse out and got introduced to a few of the liveries. Some potty rules, but actually, they probably mean the yard runs very well. Sometimes they do part loans there, and I was so sorely tempted for in a couple of stones time....but its expensive, it's over 10 miles away, and i suspect I wouldnt fit in with the majority of liveries there (you know, I work and my OHs income is less than several million a year...).
Having fat fighters curry for tea tomorrow and Tuesday (had it lastnight and this too) so I can save points for valentines day. Bit of a bugger having WI the day after, esp as will be having sparkly wine. OH is winding me up saying I'm not allowed his present until after work so I dont blab to everyone about it. Odd.
Came home with 2 DVDs, a Wii game, a cd, a *lot* of Lush, a hoody, some jogging bottoms, 4 books and some pants from La Senza.... Assistant in La Senza suggested I get measured for one of their bras :heehee: pointed out I was a GG cup (:blush:) and she told me to get measured there one day as they sized differently. Hmmmm. I might. Dont really want to go up a million back sizes though :S
Spent morning with N on the yard. I missed horses today. Even the shitty (haha) jobs like mucking out and pottering about. Sorted the horse out and got introduced to a few of the liveries. Some potty rules, but actually, they probably mean the yard runs very well. Sometimes they do part loans there, and I was so sorely tempted for in a couple of stones time....but its expensive, it's over 10 miles away, and i suspect I wouldnt fit in with the majority of liveries there (you know, I work and my OHs income is less than several million a year...).
Having fat fighters curry for tea tomorrow and Tuesday (had it lastnight and this too) so I can save points for valentines day. Bit of a bugger having WI the day after, esp as will be having sparkly wine. OH is winding me up saying I'm not allowed his present until after work so I dont blab to everyone about it. Odd.
Saturday, 9 February 2008
Feeling Virtuous
And also poor...
Took the car down this morning to get the exhaust fixed. They werent quite ready to start it when I took it, so as I had my gym kit in the boot I went to the gym and just did my cardio program. So tomorrow can be a Nell day.
So virtuous - gym, yay me, as i wasnt planning on going, but poor....Car cost #176.
N is back. Going to see her and B tomorrow. I wonder if she is still self-diagnosed depressed? It is such hard work when she is like this as she expects (and demands) all the answers NOW to stuff no one else could ever possibly know, and then gets in an arse when either what you've said never pans out/she doesnt like it.
I really must motivate myself to get this house clean. So far I've washed up and thats it. Everywhere is such a state.
Took the car down this morning to get the exhaust fixed. They werent quite ready to start it when I took it, so as I had my gym kit in the boot I went to the gym and just did my cardio program. So tomorrow can be a Nell day.
So virtuous - gym, yay me, as i wasnt planning on going, but poor....Car cost #176.
N is back. Going to see her and B tomorrow. I wonder if she is still self-diagnosed depressed? It is such hard work when she is like this as she expects (and demands) all the answers NOW to stuff no one else could ever possibly know, and then gets in an arse when either what you've said never pans out/she doesnt like it.
I really must motivate myself to get this house clean. So far I've washed up and thats it. Everywhere is such a state.
Friday, 8 February 2008
weigh in....
I'm in the 15's!! I'm not getting over excited because a) I'm hardly convincingly in there, b) I've just eaten an OH pizza and c) I'm 4.5points over today.
I'm quite cross with myself because c) was my own fault. OH had left his lunch at work and I couldnt help myself and ate half his sandwich.... which was 4.5points for that half :S Still the pizza was amazing as always and...I'm in the 15's!
My aim of being 15.7 by Feb 26th seems a little far fetched though.
I thought I would feel so thin when I got to the 15's but I really dont.... 14's seems a much better number....13's even better etc.
My teeth are in dire need of being sorted now. I really must make a concerted effort now to save and get my broken tooth fixed (18months now it's been broken) and get the rest of them sorted and get me on DenPlan or similar. Plus I need to save for my divorce.
My bonus was paid today....yay!! But the exhaust on my car has fallen off, so guess where that's going. *sigh* I was so positive about money too, not so long ago.
I'm going to have put on so much tomorrow. Almost tempted not to look. Must gym. Or potentially a Nell DVD.
I'm quite cross with myself because c) was my own fault. OH had left his lunch at work and I couldnt help myself and ate half his sandwich.... which was 4.5points for that half :S Still the pizza was amazing as always and...I'm in the 15's!
My aim of being 15.7 by Feb 26th seems a little far fetched though.
I thought I would feel so thin when I got to the 15's but I really dont.... 14's seems a much better number....13's even better etc.
My teeth are in dire need of being sorted now. I really must make a concerted effort now to save and get my broken tooth fixed (18months now it's been broken) and get the rest of them sorted and get me on DenPlan or similar. Plus I need to save for my divorce.
My bonus was paid today....yay!! But the exhaust on my car has fallen off, so guess where that's going. *sigh* I was so positive about money too, not so long ago.
I'm going to have put on so much tomorrow. Almost tempted not to look. Must gym. Or potentially a Nell DVD.
Wednesday, 6 February 2008
Ubercore
Uuuurrrrgghhhh My tummy aches already. Doesnt really feel like we did much tbh, but I ache already. Managed plank for 1m13s - a personal best! Also increased the x-trainer to level 10.
cannot WAIT until payday.
cannot WAIT until payday.
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
so tired
Went to gym tonight and did my full program. Am knackered!! Not a chance in hell of running, was an effort to stay on the treadmill just walking. Didnt get any of the rower metres under a minute. I did, however, manage to plank for a whole minute and have increased the cross trainer to level 8. It's all good, right?
Pancakes for tea - I cant have pointed right, I still have 1.5points left and had 4 pancakes.... 2 with ham & mozzerella (mmmm), 1 with chocolate spread and marshmallows and one with lemon juice & sweetener.
Dont think laxatives worked. Well. They probably have. I am Fat Bloater-4 poo's today and am HIGHLY windy this evening.
Must motivate myself and go to bed. Am in grave danger of falling asleep here. This YouTube obsession is Very Bad.
Pancakes for tea - I cant have pointed right, I still have 1.5points left and had 4 pancakes.... 2 with ham & mozzerella (mmmm), 1 with chocolate spread and marshmallows and one with lemon juice & sweetener.
Dont think laxatives worked. Well. They probably have. I am Fat Bloater-4 poo's today and am HIGHLY windy this evening.
Must motivate myself and go to bed. Am in grave danger of falling asleep here. This YouTube obsession is Very Bad.
Monday, 4 February 2008
Woe is Me
*sigh* How do I get this pound off? I'm still just teetering on 16stone and it's starting to piss me off.
Without getting too graphic, I constantly feel like I need a Very Big Poo so OH has trundled out to Tesco and is getting me some laxatives. Must gym tomorrow. I did plan on going today, but I felt so shit at lunch time - blurry eyes, swaying, slurred speech, I really thought I was going to have a migraine. Typically I am fine now and itchy cos I havent done much today.
Not much else to blog really. A friend and I are considering doing the BHF Leeds-Skipton walk (the whole thing!!) but that isnt till September - she should have been her GW for months and I should just about be getting there. Race for Life is applied for etc, just waiting for my pack now. Different Friend still hasnt applied which has pissed me off - I really dont want to do it on my own.
Hope OH comes back soon. How long do they take to work? Hours? Minutes? I'm going to need my Big Poo at work, or at the gym, arent I? :(
Without getting too graphic, I constantly feel like I need a Very Big Poo so OH has trundled out to Tesco and is getting me some laxatives. Must gym tomorrow. I did plan on going today, but I felt so shit at lunch time - blurry eyes, swaying, slurred speech, I really thought I was going to have a migraine. Typically I am fine now and itchy cos I havent done much today.
Not much else to blog really. A friend and I are considering doing the BHF Leeds-Skipton walk (the whole thing!!) but that isnt till September - she should have been her GW for months and I should just about be getting there. Race for Life is applied for etc, just waiting for my pack now. Different Friend still hasnt applied which has pissed me off - I really dont want to do it on my own.
Hope OH comes back soon. How long do they take to work? Hours? Minutes? I'm going to need my Big Poo at work, or at the gym, arent I? :(
Sunday, 3 February 2008
Another Tantrum brewing...
Well, after the excitement of the other day of FINALLY being in the 15's, I dont think I'll make it under 16stone this week - Not unless I have a rice cake for tea on thursday night anyway.
Gym again today, was quite busy so I didnt do any running. Did do full program though. Can't decide whether to do cardio and core tomorrow or have a night off. Hmmm, decisions decisions.
Still loving YouTube and Facebook. Is it wrong to have such obsessions?
Work might be awkward tomorrow, one of the managers wants to sue for loss of earnings from yesterday :S Was busy today though.
Pancake day on Tuesday, another reason why my diet might be buggered. Lambstew & pudding again tomorrow, pancakes Tuesday, Omelette on Wednesday...what to have Thursday? A rice cake is looking an attractive option.
I'm so tired and not really done anything. treadmill was hard work today, maybe just as well I didnt run.
Gym again today, was quite busy so I didnt do any running. Did do full program though. Can't decide whether to do cardio and core tomorrow or have a night off. Hmmm, decisions decisions.
Still loving YouTube and Facebook. Is it wrong to have such obsessions?
Work might be awkward tomorrow, one of the managers wants to sue for loss of earnings from yesterday :S Was busy today though.
Pancake day on Tuesday, another reason why my diet might be buggered. Lambstew & pudding again tomorrow, pancakes Tuesday, Omelette on Wednesday...what to have Thursday? A rice cake is looking an attractive option.
I'm so tired and not really done anything. treadmill was hard work today, maybe just as well I didnt run.
Saturday, 2 February 2008
I wanna do great things
I don't wanna compromise....
Is going to be my new theme tune :nod:
I posted on a forum that I go on a lot (daily :rolleyes: ) about my weight loss and everyone is telling me how well I've done, which i can kind of accept on one hand. One the other, I still have another 5 stone to go, so I cant get TOO excited.
I got into the 15's today :grin: only just - half a pound in :lol: but, still, under 16 stone. I can't remember the last time that happened. In fact, I dont think I've EVER seen that on a set of scales when i've been stood on them. The excitement is actually unimaginable.
work was a bit baba today, really bad accident further down and the road was shut, so a lot of people assumed we werent open, despite the police allegedly telling them we were. I have my doubts. Very quiet, but it did mean we got some good work done in the shop.
Under 16 stone, me....weeee!!
Another 2.5 stone and I'll ask about riding lessons :)
Is going to be my new theme tune :nod:
I posted on a forum that I go on a lot (daily :rolleyes: ) about my weight loss and everyone is telling me how well I've done, which i can kind of accept on one hand. One the other, I still have another 5 stone to go, so I cant get TOO excited.
I got into the 15's today :grin: only just - half a pound in :lol: but, still, under 16 stone. I can't remember the last time that happened. In fact, I dont think I've EVER seen that on a set of scales when i've been stood on them. The excitement is actually unimaginable.
work was a bit baba today, really bad accident further down and the road was shut, so a lot of people assumed we werent open, despite the police allegedly telling them we were. I have my doubts. Very quiet, but it did mean we got some good work done in the shop.
Under 16 stone, me....weeee!!
Another 2.5 stone and I'll ask about riding lessons :)
Friday, 1 February 2008
Measurements Day
No pictures though, will do those 1st March to get (hopefully!) a better 'midway' pic.
Tuesday January 1st 2008:
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
Which if my adding is correct... I've lost 12 inches from ALL OVER my body in a month. Hail the GymBitch!! I'm having a day off from the gym this week, have been every day so far, but I *might* go on Sunday.
so, I've lost those 3lbs I'd put back on on Monday, but have failed on my 'into the 15's by February' challenge, so I now have to lose 8.5lbs this month to 'win' my 15.7lbs by March 1st challenge. It's do able. Now I'm out of my hormones induced tantrum, I know I CAN do it. This whole 'lost 12inches' malarky may have something to do with it too.
Wish I could find my fattest measurements. I think I put them on the fire so OH wouldnt see them.
Tuesday January 1st 2008:
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
Which if my adding is correct... I've lost 12 inches from ALL OVER my body in a month. Hail the GymBitch!! I'm having a day off from the gym this week, have been every day so far, but I *might* go on Sunday.
so, I've lost those 3lbs I'd put back on on Monday, but have failed on my 'into the 15's by February' challenge, so I now have to lose 8.5lbs this month to 'win' my 15.7lbs by March 1st challenge. It's do able. Now I'm out of my hormones induced tantrum, I know I CAN do it. This whole 'lost 12inches' malarky may have something to do with it too.
Wish I could find my fattest measurements. I think I put them on the fire so OH wouldnt see them.
Thursday, 31 January 2008
Feeling guilty
In these last 2 years, with the exception of having to 'give up on' MCob I've been horribly lucky - undeservingly so. With some of the crap that some people I know are dealing with, I can feel it's about to turn round and bite me on the arse big time.
Measurements Day tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, I dont THINK I've changed size. I thought I might have done the other day (I had a sneaky peek) but either I'd not eaten or something was going on because I havent budged on todays sneaky peek. Gym again tonight, I ran, again!! Did 1min @ 3.5mph, 1m30 @ 5.5mph and another 1m30 at 4mph twice, then a break of 3mins at 4mph and one at 3.5mph and then a final burst of 5mph for a whole minute :lol: to finish. Was so sweaty :blush: embarrassingly so. but the AIM is to run at least part of the Race For Life, which I registered for today.
Work very slow today. I looked for some GCSE Maths courses but I cant afford any of them :( so much for being Debt Free. *sigh*
Measurements Day tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, I dont THINK I've changed size. I thought I might have done the other day (I had a sneaky peek) but either I'd not eaten or something was going on because I havent budged on todays sneaky peek. Gym again tonight, I ran, again!! Did 1min @ 3.5mph, 1m30 @ 5.5mph and another 1m30 at 4mph twice, then a break of 3mins at 4mph and one at 3.5mph and then a final burst of 5mph for a whole minute :lol: to finish. Was so sweaty :blush: embarrassingly so. but the AIM is to run at least part of the Race For Life, which I registered for today.
Work very slow today. I looked for some GCSE Maths courses but I cant afford any of them :( so much for being Debt Free. *sigh*
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Exiled
Very odd. Havent been able to log in since Monday. No idea why, although tonight i tried going through blogger rather than signing in through my blog. Am posting so something seems to have worked, somewhere...
News? Well....we got the bonus :D So HOPEFULLY, it looks like by the end of next week I'll be able to pay off at least some of my second credit card (might not clear it now - reasons will become clear...) and pay off the car and mattress.
So...have been shopping. Joules have a sale on. I have spent about #70 :blush: but I have SAVED double that, easily. Honest. Plus I have some joggers to thin into. And they really will be to thin into, not a surprise like the Next joggers.
The tantrum seems to have passed. I struggle so hard though, the shopping on Saturday REALLY upset me and have spent the last 2 days constantly on the verge of tears. OH went out and got me some herbal happy pills in preperation for next month.
In Other News.... Gym tonight...I RAN on the treadmill :biggrin: for less than a minute and a half :lol: but I DID it, it was such a huge deal for me too.
Off for a bath now. I stink after The Run.
News? Well....we got the bonus :D So HOPEFULLY, it looks like by the end of next week I'll be able to pay off at least some of my second credit card (might not clear it now - reasons will become clear...) and pay off the car and mattress.
So...have been shopping. Joules have a sale on. I have spent about #70 :blush: but I have SAVED double that, easily. Honest. Plus I have some joggers to thin into. And they really will be to thin into, not a surprise like the Next joggers.
The tantrum seems to have passed. I struggle so hard though, the shopping on Saturday REALLY upset me and have spent the last 2 days constantly on the verge of tears. OH went out and got me some herbal happy pills in preperation for next month.
In Other News.... Gym tonight...I RAN on the treadmill :biggrin: for less than a minute and a half :lol: but I DID it, it was such a huge deal for me too.
Off for a bath now. I stink after The Run.
Sunday, 27 January 2008
*sigh*
Dont come to me for optimism...
Now, I am 100% sure than in a weeks time I'll be all upbeat and positive again, but right now I just wanht to curl up into a ball and not see anyone ever again. I've been this weight for 2 months now, nothing fit me yesterday and I still have so far to go.
I'm only just over half way. Another 2 years minimum of this? No way. I'll go crazy.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow evening after work. Show willing if nothing else. Maybe it is time for meetings? I dont know. I didnt think I'd been SO bad this week (ok the baguettes, toasted sandwiches and muffins were a minor blip) but half a stone? Really? Scales this morning said 16.7 stone. I so desperately wanted to be in the 15's this week.
Tried to stay in the shop for today - was expecting lots of going up and down stairs for customers etc.... spent most of the day upstairs texting - great example.
IdiotChild came in. I made her cry.
The Adventures of DietGirl is REALLY good. Still jealous though. I want to BE her.
OH has ManFlu. He is not long for this world.
It's 9pm and I'm about to go to bed, how sad is that?
Now, I am 100% sure than in a weeks time I'll be all upbeat and positive again, but right now I just wanht to curl up into a ball and not see anyone ever again. I've been this weight for 2 months now, nothing fit me yesterday and I still have so far to go.
I'm only just over half way. Another 2 years minimum of this? No way. I'll go crazy.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow evening after work. Show willing if nothing else. Maybe it is time for meetings? I dont know. I didnt think I'd been SO bad this week (ok the baguettes, toasted sandwiches and muffins were a minor blip) but half a stone? Really? Scales this morning said 16.7 stone. I so desperately wanted to be in the 15's this week.
Tried to stay in the shop for today - was expecting lots of going up and down stairs for customers etc.... spent most of the day upstairs texting - great example.
IdiotChild came in. I made her cry.
The Adventures of DietGirl is REALLY good. Still jealous though. I want to BE her.
OH has ManFlu. He is not long for this world.
It's 9pm and I'm about to go to bed, how sad is that?
Saturday, 26 January 2008
uuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm tired. No gym today, headachey and just meh in general.
Went into Leeds rather than HGate, what a disaster. Nothing fitted, not even a 22 M&S pair of jeans. Well. They went on and did up, but they were too tight to actually wear in public. And the top I tried on (in an attempt to lift my wardrobe of just dark colours) bagged badly at the back.
So I gave up, bought some Soap and Glory (new obsession) miracle creams and a book and came back home.
Why is my motivation slipping? I do wonder if it's the weather and the fact I am sick of winter now - and not even any ponies in sight. But, hmmm, I dont know. I want this so badly but I seem to have been trying for so long now.
I came on today as well (week early, hmm) which wont help. Also wont help in my 'lost 3lbs by monday to keep on track'. Need to lose 2lbs this week just to sts. Damn those baguettes/muffins over Tues & weds. Plus I now have the DEFINATE start of a cold.
IdiotChild has rung in 'sick' again for the weekend. Half hoped we'd see her in town, but nooo. Did hear a band playing live one of TheEx's bands songs today. Nearly had a fit, thought he was there.
Must stop spending money. It's my own fault I'm in so much debt.
I wanted to do an OU business course (I really am finding it hard at work) but it's SO expensive. I've asked the local college for information on any courses they might have instead. Shame because I would have liked a degree. No particular reason, I just want one... Was 1200 though just for the foundation - more again for the diploma and then even more for the actual honours certificate.
Went into Leeds rather than HGate, what a disaster. Nothing fitted, not even a 22 M&S pair of jeans. Well. They went on and did up, but they were too tight to actually wear in public. And the top I tried on (in an attempt to lift my wardrobe of just dark colours) bagged badly at the back.
So I gave up, bought some Soap and Glory (new obsession) miracle creams and a book and came back home.
Why is my motivation slipping? I do wonder if it's the weather and the fact I am sick of winter now - and not even any ponies in sight. But, hmmm, I dont know. I want this so badly but I seem to have been trying for so long now.
I came on today as well (week early, hmm) which wont help. Also wont help in my 'lost 3lbs by monday to keep on track'. Need to lose 2lbs this week just to sts. Damn those baguettes/muffins over Tues & weds. Plus I now have the DEFINATE start of a cold.
IdiotChild has rung in 'sick' again for the weekend. Half hoped we'd see her in town, but nooo. Did hear a band playing live one of TheEx's bands songs today. Nearly had a fit, thought he was there.
Must stop spending money. It's my own fault I'm in so much debt.
I wanted to do an OU business course (I really am finding it hard at work) but it's SO expensive. I've asked the local college for information on any courses they might have instead. Shame because I would have liked a degree. No particular reason, I just want one... Was 1200 though just for the foundation - more again for the diploma and then even more for the actual honours certificate.
Friday, 25 January 2008
Hmmmm
OH and I both have a day off tomorrow, but I dont know what to do.
We SHOULD go through our finances and decide how much is left to pay for etc. AFAIK, I SHOULD be debt free by my birthday, although I must make a concerted effort to get my teeth sorted this year too.
What I want to do though, is go into HGate, and Shop. The novelty of being able to shop in at least 2 extra shops (M&S and next) will take a while to wear off. I doubt we wil. In the time I've started this entry, I've stopped and gone to Tesco to do the Friday Big Shop and now we're back I feel utterly drained. Tired and achey. I was almost considering the gym tomorrow, but if I wake feeling like this, I wont bother.
Mattress is still :wub:
So tired. Going to have an evening of Family Guy I think.
We SHOULD go through our finances and decide how much is left to pay for etc. AFAIK, I SHOULD be debt free by my birthday, although I must make a concerted effort to get my teeth sorted this year too.
What I want to do though, is go into HGate, and Shop. The novelty of being able to shop in at least 2 extra shops (M&S and next) will take a while to wear off. I doubt we wil. In the time I've started this entry, I've stopped and gone to Tesco to do the Friday Big Shop and now we're back I feel utterly drained. Tired and achey. I was almost considering the gym tomorrow, but if I wake feeling like this, I wont bother.
Mattress is still :wub:
So tired. Going to have an evening of Family Guy I think.
Thursday, 24 January 2008
farty....and oh dear...
Oh my....I have horrendous wind. Such a classy girl lol.
CPD wasnt bad, bit boring in places, but the equine worming section was ace. Crap 'substantial buffet' so OH bought me 2 baguettes which i ate on the way home, along with 2 chocolate muffins and some Revels.
0point curry today.
My books arrived today, think I will read Dietgirl for inspiration. Doubt I will make it to 15's :(
OH!!! AND!!! I paid off AND cut up my barclaycard today. Just the car, my hsbc card, mattress, loan and surveying costs to pay back now :unsure:
Hopefully should be out of debt by my birthday. Dependant on a few things. Will have to ask for clothes for my birthday!!
CPD wasnt bad, bit boring in places, but the equine worming section was ace. Crap 'substantial buffet' so OH bought me 2 baguettes which i ate on the way home, along with 2 chocolate muffins and some Revels.
0point curry today.
My books arrived today, think I will read Dietgirl for inspiration. Doubt I will make it to 15's :(
OH!!! AND!!! I paid off AND cut up my barclaycard today. Just the car, my hsbc card, mattress, loan and surveying costs to pay back now :unsure:
Hopefully should be out of debt by my birthday. Dependant on a few things. Will have to ask for clothes for my birthday!!
Monday, 21 January 2008
rahhhhh
i cant really be arsed to blog.
Allegedly started early so I could go early. I did go early. I went to the gym and just did cardio (too lazy today for resistance too) and just as I came out....The alarm for work was going off. So have spent far too long waiting for a numpty to come out who took far to long to decide to leave it till tomorrow.
Also to make today go oh-so-slowly, the road outside is flooded, so we've had hardly any customers in. For a scary while we thought we might be flooded in, but thankfully not. Did mean though that instead of the 3 minute journey to the gym, it took me 23, and had to go up the bank, down the chevin and round about.
Mattress arrived today, looks FAB. I cannot wait to go to bed.
Thats about it for today. May have scuppered the 'be in the 15's by February' today - am 4 points over already. And CPD tomorrow and Wednesday....no pointage then. Sigh.
Allegedly started early so I could go early. I did go early. I went to the gym and just did cardio (too lazy today for resistance too) and just as I came out....The alarm for work was going off. So have spent far too long waiting for a numpty to come out who took far to long to decide to leave it till tomorrow.
Also to make today go oh-so-slowly, the road outside is flooded, so we've had hardly any customers in. For a scary while we thought we might be flooded in, but thankfully not. Did mean though that instead of the 3 minute journey to the gym, it took me 23, and had to go up the bank, down the chevin and round about.
Mattress arrived today, looks FAB. I cannot wait to go to bed.
Thats about it for today. May have scuppered the 'be in the 15's by February' today - am 4 points over already. And CPD tomorrow and Wednesday....no pointage then. Sigh.
Sunday, 20 January 2008
Still a little bit rahhh!
No idea why. Getting a little bit uptight about the CPD (why? Chances are I wont see anyone anyway) and just rahhh! in general.
Posted on the forum about makeup and either Clinique or Benefit seems to be the choice, although a few people have mentioned Lancombe too. Someone else suggested going to to proper beauty person and getting HER to pick my colours etc. And then there's mineral make up. Where to start? Where do I find a beauty person from?
Gym this morning, worked hard. Was bright red and very sweaty by the time I'd finished LOL. Think it is getting easier, and today I was 16.2 so something seems to be happening. Lets hope this next week or so doesnt go tit shaped cos then I will have easily made the Feb 1 target and be well on the way to March 1st target.
Didnt go to OHs sisters in the end, drank sparkly wine instead. Doubt we will go see I Am Legend either. I bought 28 Days Later today cos apparently IAL is like that and I managed 5 minutes before I made OH turn it off. Big pansy.
New mattress tomorrow. Cannot WAIT, I am so excited :grin:
Posted on the forum about makeup and either Clinique or Benefit seems to be the choice, although a few people have mentioned Lancombe too. Someone else suggested going to to proper beauty person and getting HER to pick my colours etc. And then there's mineral make up. Where to start? Where do I find a beauty person from?
Gym this morning, worked hard. Was bright red and very sweaty by the time I'd finished LOL. Think it is getting easier, and today I was 16.2 so something seems to be happening. Lets hope this next week or so doesnt go tit shaped cos then I will have easily made the Feb 1 target and be well on the way to March 1st target.
Didnt go to OHs sisters in the end, drank sparkly wine instead. Doubt we will go see I Am Legend either. I bought 28 Days Later today cos apparently IAL is like that and I managed 5 minutes before I made OH turn it off. Big pansy.
New mattress tomorrow. Cannot WAIT, I am so excited :grin:
Saturday, 19 January 2008
hair, decisions and a banghead
Hair - took 4 hours, but I'm chuffed :biggrin: First colour didnt take so she did another with a darker colour - I like :D Will be a shock to OH though!! However spending stupid amounts of time in the hairdresser meant that I couldnt go to Boots and spend lots of money OR go to Next to buy more stuff. And I walked there and back.
Have also done the Nell dvd.... only managed 15 minutes the first time, then had a bit of a break (read quite a big break) and did the rest. Constant prancing. Floor may need reinforcing. Gym tomorrow. At least that floor feels solid lol.
Off to OHs sisters tonight and it's been decided we're going to see I Am Legend on Monday night.
Work alarm went off again this morning at 7am thankfully (would have been SO pissed off if it had been any earlier) cos the builders had left a wire dangling. So day started early and am now feeling effects. MUST get washing out of machine and do veg for tonight but I cant be BOTHERED.
Hair really is VERY dark....
Decisions - well, not really decisions tbh, more extra determination re the diet/sizeloss.
And the banghead? Why do people ask for advice and then either totally ignore what you say or pay such little attentiion to you that they go and do it anyway? I give it 2 weeks.
Have also done the Nell dvd.... only managed 15 minutes the first time, then had a bit of a break (read quite a big break) and did the rest. Constant prancing. Floor may need reinforcing. Gym tomorrow. At least that floor feels solid lol.
Off to OHs sisters tonight and it's been decided we're going to see I Am Legend on Monday night.
Work alarm went off again this morning at 7am thankfully (would have been SO pissed off if it had been any earlier) cos the builders had left a wire dangling. So day started early and am now feeling effects. MUST get washing out of machine and do veg for tonight but I cant be BOTHERED.
Hair really is VERY dark....
Decisions - well, not really decisions tbh, more extra determination re the diet/sizeloss.
And the banghead? Why do people ask for advice and then either totally ignore what you say or pay such little attentiion to you that they go and do it anyway? I give it 2 weeks.
Friday, 18 January 2008
SSSSSSSSSSQQQQQQQQUUUUUUEEEEEEEEE
I'm so overexcited.
Today I went to Next (actually looking for shoes). I came out with a pair of joggers for me to thin into.
I am sat here, wearing them now. They fit.
I'll probably add to this later when I'm not quite so giddy...
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Haircut tomorrow, also I must not go crazy with Next shopping.... I dont understand the sizing though, I'm obviously not a size 20 (tape measure says) yet they do appear to fit....dont think they would if they were jeans though. Just a smidgeon to tight. Anyway, woo!!
NewKitten is being an absolute pain in the arse. Today, she has broken a mirror, knocked a panel out of the kitchen cabinet and jumped up my back - that earnt her a smacked arse.
My thumb is still sore. Will buy some second skin stuff tomorrow.
Also, breaking news, TheEx has been in touch, ironically as I am listening to one of *his* bands albums. Anyway, he wants a divorce and will phone again in a couple of weeks when he sorts out his financial situation. Also tried a few obvious guilt trips, but I ignored them. I know his life hasnt been THAT shit in the 2 years we split up and I managed to get him to admit that it was best we did split up.
Might do a carmen DVD tomorrow, as not going to the gym. Going Sunday instead.
Today I went to Next (actually looking for shoes). I came out with a pair of joggers for me to thin into.
I am sat here, wearing them now. They fit.
I'll probably add to this later when I'm not quite so giddy...
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Haircut tomorrow, also I must not go crazy with Next shopping.... I dont understand the sizing though, I'm obviously not a size 20 (tape measure says) yet they do appear to fit....dont think they would if they were jeans though. Just a smidgeon to tight. Anyway, woo!!
NewKitten is being an absolute pain in the arse. Today, she has broken a mirror, knocked a panel out of the kitchen cabinet and jumped up my back - that earnt her a smacked arse.
My thumb is still sore. Will buy some second skin stuff tomorrow.
Also, breaking news, TheEx has been in touch, ironically as I am listening to one of *his* bands albums. Anyway, he wants a divorce and will phone again in a couple of weeks when he sorts out his financial situation. Also tried a few obvious guilt trips, but I ignored them. I know his life hasnt been THAT shit in the 2 years we split up and I managed to get him to admit that it was best we did split up.
Might do a carmen DVD tomorrow, as not going to the gym. Going Sunday instead.
Thursday, 17 January 2008
meh, not so positive :rolleyes:
Checked on the scales this morning, had put on 1lb :( But went to the gym again tonight. LazyFriend and I were clearly delirious and spent much of the session in fits of laughter. Especially when I went to do a step up and did a big fart....think we managed to disguise it as the bench squeaking.
Not going to the gym tomorrow, and have the weekend off. Looking forward to getting my hair done Saturday and will gym on Sunday. Due to CPD will have to go to gym Mon thurs and friday cos I'm working the weekend too.
I MUST get off the amazon website. I'm tired, I should go to bed...
Not going to the gym tomorrow, and have the weekend off. Looking forward to getting my hair done Saturday and will gym on Sunday. Due to CPD will have to go to gym Mon thurs and friday cos I'm working the weekend too.
I MUST get off the amazon website. I'm tired, I should go to bed...
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
positive
But then I have been to the gym twice already this week, am going tomorrow and will probably go Sunday.
Was hard work tonight, but I was with lazymate who bitched and moaned the whole time which I'm sure made it harder work. Very tired now AND havent eaten all points. Having 0point curry tomorrow.
I was thinking tonight, mainly cos my newly uber-thin ( :D :D ) friend came round, just how much better I feel for losing weight. I think more about food and while I do sometimes crave a bacon sandwich, I am able to ignore it...for the most part anyway. I have more energy, I want to do more, I am more organised, because i can be BOTHERED to do it now whereas before I was just too lazy. When I think back to how I was, I get so embarrassed :( I remember being too lazy to walk to the garage (a 5 minute walk,if that) and the food I used to eat, thinking I was being healthy. It's all positive, I just wishwishwish I'd never got to the stage/weight I did.
Fruit epiphany still going well. Had a fatfighters recipe as well tonight - pan fried chicken & bacon. 4 points, very nice. Bulked it out with 0point veg too.
Was hard work tonight, but I was with lazymate who bitched and moaned the whole time which I'm sure made it harder work. Very tired now AND havent eaten all points. Having 0point curry tomorrow.
I was thinking tonight, mainly cos my newly uber-thin ( :D :D ) friend came round, just how much better I feel for losing weight. I think more about food and while I do sometimes crave a bacon sandwich, I am able to ignore it...for the most part anyway. I have more energy, I want to do more, I am more organised, because i can be BOTHERED to do it now whereas before I was just too lazy. When I think back to how I was, I get so embarrassed :( I remember being too lazy to walk to the garage (a 5 minute walk,if that) and the food I used to eat, thinking I was being healthy. It's all positive, I just wishwishwish I'd never got to the stage/weight I did.
Fruit epiphany still going well. Had a fatfighters recipe as well tonight - pan fried chicken & bacon. 4 points, very nice. Bulked it out with 0point veg too.
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Got a poorly...
Was sat in office this morning, having my (cold) cup of coffee, being as it was the first chance I'd had to actually have it. Heard a big crash from the shop, pondered on whether to ignore it and pretend I hadnt heard it, or to go and investigate.
I investigated and got slashed across the bottom of my thumb for my trouble. Not sure how, as I cant see what I did it on (a rat cage trap) but it's right on the bend, so everytime I move my right thumb - that would be a lot - it reopens. Very sore.
Gymmed tonight, did full program. Takes 1.5 hours. Was very sweaty by end :lol: but did EVERYTHING. Even the plank, and the step ups onto the bench (12). Sat on the boso ball and twisted with a 5kg weight, did 2 reps of 30 and my sides feel it now. Got a funky new sign in system now - all done on finger prints!! Bets on how long it takes before it breaks?
Spoke to a complete numpty at Bayer today....didnt have a clue what she was talking about, but I think we have it sorted now.
I'm so tired. Very chuffed I went to the gym though. Workout was hard work, but wasnt as bad as I was expecting. Bit cross because I ended up on the magically slow treadmill today but upped the speed so I hope I was doing similar. Didnt need to hold on today though till I got tired. Got a sweat on though. Is all good.
I investigated and got slashed across the bottom of my thumb for my trouble. Not sure how, as I cant see what I did it on (a rat cage trap) but it's right on the bend, so everytime I move my right thumb - that would be a lot - it reopens. Very sore.
Gymmed tonight, did full program. Takes 1.5 hours. Was very sweaty by end :lol: but did EVERYTHING. Even the plank, and the step ups onto the bench (12). Sat on the boso ball and twisted with a 5kg weight, did 2 reps of 30 and my sides feel it now. Got a funky new sign in system now - all done on finger prints!! Bets on how long it takes before it breaks?
Spoke to a complete numpty at Bayer today....didnt have a clue what she was talking about, but I think we have it sorted now.
I'm so tired. Very chuffed I went to the gym though. Workout was hard work, but wasnt as bad as I was expecting. Bit cross because I ended up on the magically slow treadmill today but upped the speed so I hope I was doing similar. Didnt need to hold on today though till I got tired. Got a sweat on though. Is all good.
Monday, 14 January 2008
MMmmmm, lovely fruit....
Better be bloody lovely and good at fat burning at 7points a serving....
Didnt go to the gym tonight, but did do (the warmup of) Nell McAndrews DVD. I would have done it all, but there was lots of prancing and it sounded like I might go through the floor :unsure: BUT....I did the warm up and wasnt remotely out of breath or sweaty! I believe this is a first.
Didnt go to the gym tonight, but did do (the warmup of) Nell McAndrews DVD. I would have done it all, but there was lots of prancing and it sounded like I might go through the floor :unsure: BUT....I did the warm up and wasnt remotely out of breath or sweaty! I believe this is a first.
Sunday, 13 January 2008
Absolutely tapped in the head....
I went to the gym AGAIN today. Not only that, I did my arms and core/abs review too (jenny wasnt busy and the gym was empty). MUCH harder work. Slightly confused over the arms I think, especially as I have to go into the boys bit for one of the bars (girls bars only go up to 6kg :blush: ) but i'm sure I'll cope. I ACHE now though.
Dont really have motivation to do much now. Work will hurt tomorrow lol. Not going to gym tomorrow - will be packed and I think I deserve a day off!!
Beginning of March treat can be a new gym kit....I muST be due one by then!!
Dont really have motivation to do much now. Work will hurt tomorrow lol. Not going to gym tomorrow - will be packed and I think I deserve a day off!!
Beginning of March treat can be a new gym kit....I muST be due one by then!!
Saturday, 12 January 2008
I fear this may be my last entry....
My gym program today. Had the girl who is LOVELY when just chatting to her about a workout you've just had...when she's doing the program, she's a bitch, I hate her etcetc :lol:
Rower - now have to do 250m in under a minute, 5 times with a 30second rest between them. Treadmill, still intervals... 1min 2% incline, 3.5mph, 3 minutes 6% incline at 4mph and I MUST NOT HOLD ON. so that 5 times each and then the cross trainer, still on level 6, but 30seconds under 50rpm, then a minute at over 60rpm for 5 minutes. I'm still bright red and I came out of the gym nearly an hour an a half ago. Then we did some resistance, instead of doing 3 sets of 15 of squats with the gym ball, I'm to do 2 sets of 15 but hold the squat for a count of 5 each time I go down. Also have to increase the weights on the ab- and aductors. Then I have to use the weights bench for step ups - 6 each side and then lastly stand on the edge of something with my heels hanging off and lift myself up and down. My God I ache now, not sure if it's combined with doing Carmen last night or if it's just a much harder workout LOL. I must be doubly crazy though, cos I've booked in for upper body and core for Wednesday night.
Now I'm writing a shopping list and instead of the curly wurlys and diet coke,I have written flavoured waters and plenty of fruit. Shame I am craving pizza for tea... LOL.
Rower - now have to do 250m in under a minute, 5 times with a 30second rest between them. Treadmill, still intervals... 1min 2% incline, 3.5mph, 3 minutes 6% incline at 4mph and I MUST NOT HOLD ON. so that 5 times each and then the cross trainer, still on level 6, but 30seconds under 50rpm, then a minute at over 60rpm for 5 minutes. I'm still bright red and I came out of the gym nearly an hour an a half ago. Then we did some resistance, instead of doing 3 sets of 15 of squats with the gym ball, I'm to do 2 sets of 15 but hold the squat for a count of 5 each time I go down. Also have to increase the weights on the ab- and aductors. Then I have to use the weights bench for step ups - 6 each side and then lastly stand on the edge of something with my heels hanging off and lift myself up and down. My God I ache now, not sure if it's combined with doing Carmen last night or if it's just a much harder workout LOL. I must be doubly crazy though, cos I've booked in for upper body and core for Wednesday night.
Now I'm writing a shopping list and instead of the curly wurlys and diet coke,I have written flavoured waters and plenty of fruit. Shame I am craving pizza for tea... LOL.
Friday, 11 January 2008
aims and goals....
Well, I've booked my 'getting into the 15's' present...sadly for before February 1st, so must make trebley sure I am Very Good. It's a haircut & colour on the 19th. The one after that (1st march - 15.7) is a Wii game off OH. Am wondering whether to make getting into the 14's my Harvey Nichols makeup make over. I'm not sure.
The 2 B's had a stand up fight in the middle of the shop today, much to my great sadness that as manager I had to break it up and give them both a talking to. OlderB apparently told the other one to 'stop disrespectin me, innit' :bawling: :heehee:
Did Carmen again tonight before the terrors came round (we ended up babysitting, hence the absense from MSN) and I really ache now lol. Tomorrow is New Gym Routine. Bit scared now. Also can't decide if tummy is starting to change shape. No point asking OH - if he thinks it'll make me happy he tells me it's smaller, although he did exclaim tits were bigger tonight, which he qualified with 'pert'. Bigger does not = pert in my book. Besides which, my tits are long past being pert.
Cannot WAIT until the new mattress arrives. Really can't. OH and I have swapped sides in bed cos I was too uncomfortable lol. Slept relatively well last night lol.
The 2 B's had a stand up fight in the middle of the shop today, much to my great sadness that as manager I had to break it up and give them both a talking to. OlderB apparently told the other one to 'stop disrespectin me, innit' :bawling: :heehee:
Did Carmen again tonight before the terrors came round (we ended up babysitting, hence the absense from MSN) and I really ache now lol. Tomorrow is New Gym Routine. Bit scared now. Also can't decide if tummy is starting to change shape. No point asking OH - if he thinks it'll make me happy he tells me it's smaller, although he did exclaim tits were bigger tonight, which he qualified with 'pert'. Bigger does not = pert in my book. Besides which, my tits are long past being pert.
Cannot WAIT until the new mattress arrives. Really can't. OH and I have swapped sides in bed cos I was too uncomfortable lol. Slept relatively well last night lol.
Thursday, 10 January 2008
DVDs arrived
The Carmen Electra ones. Apparently they're great and a bit like doing LB&T at home.... Lets hope so :lol: Anyway, I'm about to try it.
Work wasnt bad, one of the suppliers was an ARSE and have totally fucked up the order. I was mean.
And (veryveryvery small banana, just in case...) we MIGHT be getting a fairly healthy bonus at the end of the month.
Just as well, cos then I can buy my sparkly Tiffanys bracelet AND get my hair done (MUST book that actually, having it done so I look A OK at the CPD lol - how wrong is that?) Hopefully anyway. must book it for 19th.
Went to gym, knackered now. Good workout, MAY go tomorrow....havent decided yet. Am going on Saturday for another review and will say that I want to concentrate on my tummy and hips.
Work wasnt bad, one of the suppliers was an ARSE and have totally fucked up the order. I was mean.
And (veryveryvery small banana, just in case...) we MIGHT be getting a fairly healthy bonus at the end of the month.
Just as well, cos then I can buy my sparkly Tiffanys bracelet AND get my hair done (MUST book that actually, having it done so I look A OK at the CPD lol - how wrong is that?) Hopefully anyway. must book it for 19th.
Went to gym, knackered now. Good workout, MAY go tomorrow....havent decided yet. Am going on Saturday for another review and will say that I want to concentrate on my tummy and hips.
Wednesday, 9 January 2008
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
*sigh*
1. I want to go to a gig an hour away, OH doesnt. We argue for a day or so and now the tickets are sold out.
2. I decide I will go alone to a gig 3 hours away, but where a friend is I havent seen for AGES. We plan all sorts of Exciting Activities for the next day. OH gets in a strop because he isnt included (he didnt want to come to the gig originally).
Added to the fact I feel shitty anyway, my DVDs didnt turn up (am actually v upset), I am still :bawling: over not being able to see any size loss.
What to do? Am tempted not to go at all, just go see my mate. But then i'll be fucked off at not going to the gig. But I want to see my mate.
And I'm still fat. I may have lost 5.5stone, but I'm still the same size. Demoralising? You have no idea. I must start saving for the cosmetic surgery.
2. I decide I will go alone to a gig 3 hours away, but where a friend is I havent seen for AGES. We plan all sorts of Exciting Activities for the next day. OH gets in a strop because he isnt included (he didnt want to come to the gig originally).
Added to the fact I feel shitty anyway, my DVDs didnt turn up (am actually v upset), I am still :bawling: over not being able to see any size loss.
What to do? Am tempted not to go at all, just go see my mate. But then i'll be fucked off at not going to the gig. But I want to see my mate.
And I'm still fat. I may have lost 5.5stone, but I'm still the same size. Demoralising? You have no idea. I must start saving for the cosmetic surgery.
Monday, 7 January 2008
must stop spending money....
Today I bought a hot pink sports bra, so I can be wearing a gym kit while washing one rather that abusing the same clothes over and over (between washes, natch). Have bought a bra 2 cupsizes smaller than I wear as they didnt do my size. Straw poll of 3 people (lol) all agreed to do that. Now I have spent the money and I cant change the order, I now think I should have gone for 1 cupsize down. Ah well. It'll fit. Eventually.
I MUST stop buying now. I have horrified myself with my shopping this month. Wont afford the work on the house before long.
Gym tonight, seems everyone in town has ChristmasGuilt and there were queues for most of the machines. I ended up doing twenty minutes on the treadmill. First time I went on it, it was soooooo slow and I was congratulating myself on how easy I found things now, until I looked over at the girl next to me, who was easily going twice as fast as me to notice she was allegedly going 3mph when I was doing 4. So I did another 10mins on a different treadmill at the end and yup, I went twice as fast.
Having a night off gym tomorrow night, then going with mate Wednesday.
With any lucky my pornacise DVDs should turn up tomorrow, and I can spend the evening doing that, with OH firmly locked out of the room. Semi thinking about selling my exercise bike. I punished myself so hard with it when I first got it, I havent sat on it for over 6months now, and it is very definately In The Way. Have been going to this gym for 2 months now... Another month and that is when i started to trail off going to the other one - lets see how long this one lasts? It IS easier going to this one, being able to go on my way home, rather than having to make a special trip out.
My new mini-goal with myself is to reach the 15's by February. Must work hard, it's doable (2.5-3lbs a week) but must be disciplined. My points have dropped to 25 now, so should be easier. Should. :unsure:
I'm still fucked off there's no size loss on my tummy/hips. Rah!
I MUST stop buying now. I have horrified myself with my shopping this month. Wont afford the work on the house before long.
Gym tonight, seems everyone in town has ChristmasGuilt and there were queues for most of the machines. I ended up doing twenty minutes on the treadmill. First time I went on it, it was soooooo slow and I was congratulating myself on how easy I found things now, until I looked over at the girl next to me, who was easily going twice as fast as me to notice she was allegedly going 3mph when I was doing 4. So I did another 10mins on a different treadmill at the end and yup, I went twice as fast.
Having a night off gym tomorrow night, then going with mate Wednesday.
With any lucky my pornacise DVDs should turn up tomorrow, and I can spend the evening doing that, with OH firmly locked out of the room. Semi thinking about selling my exercise bike. I punished myself so hard with it when I first got it, I havent sat on it for over 6months now, and it is very definately In The Way. Have been going to this gym for 2 months now... Another month and that is when i started to trail off going to the other one - lets see how long this one lasts? It IS easier going to this one, being able to go on my way home, rather than having to make a special trip out.
My new mini-goal with myself is to reach the 15's by February. Must work hard, it's doable (2.5-3lbs a week) but must be disciplined. My points have dropped to 25 now, so should be easier. Should. :unsure:
I'm still fucked off there's no size loss on my tummy/hips. Rah!
Sunday, 6 January 2008
May I have a gold star please?
I have been to the gym (FAB time, I was only one there and it was great). Also feel like it's starting to get easier...Maybe time for a review? Or let it be easier a while longer?
Came home (I will admit to driving there and back) and then have spent the afternoon cleaning - the bathroom is spotless and I even mopped the floors and polished the wood.
Having stew tonight - have pointed it for 6 portions, but to be perfectly honest, it looks more like about 8, or even 10 - it's HUGE!!
Back to work tomorrow, but I do have the weekend off. Should be off to the gym tomorrow night as well - I'm determined to get on the door again!!
Came home (I will admit to driving there and back) and then have spent the afternoon cleaning - the bathroom is spotless and I even mopped the floors and polished the wood.
Having stew tonight - have pointed it for 6 portions, but to be perfectly honest, it looks more like about 8, or even 10 - it's HUGE!!
Back to work tomorrow, but I do have the weekend off. Should be off to the gym tomorrow night as well - I'm determined to get on the door again!!
Saturday, 5 January 2008
Regrets?
I've had a few...
1, I wish I had started WW in November 2006, instead of trying on my own. I'd (hopefully) be a couple of stone further on, and as my mother keeps pointing out, I'm not getting any younger.
2, I wish I had never got to this stage in the first place. Told OH today that while I've been together, I have been 22 stone. He almost DIED.
3, I wish I had tried harder, before now, at everything.
4, I wish I wasnt so blase with money.
5, I wish I had tried hard with The Pony.
So there we have it.
However:
1, Despite my best attempts occasionally, I am in rude health.
2, I am trying, not hard enough seemingly sometimes, but I AM trying to lose weight now.
3, Despite not having tried as hard as I could have, I've not done too badly for myself now.
4, I am ALMOST debt free
5, Well...She's in a good home now, and loving her was never my problem.
Then part of me wonders...is it all worth it? TBH, I'm only doing this so I can have pretty wedding pictures and be a normal size. I hope (fingerscrossed) to have kids at some point - I know, I must be crazy... and thats another figure ruiner. Is it worth it? I know it is, but I'm having wine and a 'snot fair' evening.
OH has said he'd buy my some underwear sets in the bravissimo sale (so romantic).... Never thought I'd be the type to have/wear sets... No one looks at it, right? But it feels so much better to be co-ordinating... (Am I destined to be a DQ after all?)
1, I wish I had started WW in November 2006, instead of trying on my own. I'd (hopefully) be a couple of stone further on, and as my mother keeps pointing out, I'm not getting any younger.
2, I wish I had never got to this stage in the first place. Told OH today that while I've been together, I have been 22 stone. He almost DIED.
3, I wish I had tried harder, before now, at everything.
4, I wish I wasnt so blase with money.
5, I wish I had tried hard with The Pony.
So there we have it.
However:
1, Despite my best attempts occasionally, I am in rude health.
2, I am trying, not hard enough seemingly sometimes, but I AM trying to lose weight now.
3, Despite not having tried as hard as I could have, I've not done too badly for myself now.
4, I am ALMOST debt free
5, Well...She's in a good home now, and loving her was never my problem.
Then part of me wonders...is it all worth it? TBH, I'm only doing this so I can have pretty wedding pictures and be a normal size. I hope (fingerscrossed) to have kids at some point - I know, I must be crazy... and thats another figure ruiner. Is it worth it? I know it is, but I'm having wine and a 'snot fair' evening.
OH has said he'd buy my some underwear sets in the bravissimo sale (so romantic).... Never thought I'd be the type to have/wear sets... No one looks at it, right? But it feels so much better to be co-ordinating... (Am I destined to be a DQ after all?)
Friday, 4 January 2008
tired and grumpy
Well, there's a turn up, when am I never tired and grumpy...? LOL
Work was ok today, have distinct rumblings of cold (high temp - face looks like a beacon/snotty nose/general meh-ness) so spent much of the day being a warehouse wench. B not in again - has Norovirus apparently and a sicknote to prove it... (I am so cynical - she has holiday booked for next week....last time she had a miscarriage right when she moved house, the time before a bad back when she moved from the flat...)
I must stop spending money, especially while things are bleak moneywise... Today I bought 3 DVDs...2 x carmen electra 'stripercise' (that is going to go wrong...) and 1 x Nell McAndrew one. This is in addition to the three books I bought last night. Still they were in the sale. OH will block Amazon before long lol.
Kittens are being spectacularly irritating tonight...T'OtherOne was sat happily on my chest in the bath, when OH came in, frightened her and she's gouged 2 lines out of my face. Nice. NK is moulting spectacularly. Sebo is going to self destruct soon.
Fat Fighters appears to be going well again - on the scales this morning I was 16.10... On NYD I was 17.6, so have stuck to WWpoints (26) and gone to gym twice...I am on though which would have added 2/3lbs, but still, thats half a stone just by eating more 'portioned' amounts. By 5.30 though I could have MURDERED an almond croissant.
No gym tonight, (being a Warehouse Wench though was some consolation) nor tomorrow (they shut at 4pm/I finish at 5pm) but depending on The Cold Situation, I may go Sunday.
Also being 'ill' may account for my irrational foul mood yesterday? Perhaps? OH seems to have forgotten anyway.
Work was ok today, have distinct rumblings of cold (high temp - face looks like a beacon/snotty nose/general meh-ness) so spent much of the day being a warehouse wench. B not in again - has Norovirus apparently and a sicknote to prove it... (I am so cynical - she has holiday booked for next week....last time she had a miscarriage right when she moved house, the time before a bad back when she moved from the flat...)
I must stop spending money, especially while things are bleak moneywise... Today I bought 3 DVDs...2 x carmen electra 'stripercise' (that is going to go wrong...) and 1 x Nell McAndrew one. This is in addition to the three books I bought last night. Still they were in the sale. OH will block Amazon before long lol.
Kittens are being spectacularly irritating tonight...T'OtherOne was sat happily on my chest in the bath, when OH came in, frightened her and she's gouged 2 lines out of my face. Nice. NK is moulting spectacularly. Sebo is going to self destruct soon.
Fat Fighters appears to be going well again - on the scales this morning I was 16.10... On NYD I was 17.6, so have stuck to WWpoints (26) and gone to gym twice...I am on though which would have added 2/3lbs, but still, thats half a stone just by eating more 'portioned' amounts. By 5.30 though I could have MURDERED an almond croissant.
No gym tonight, (being a Warehouse Wench though was some consolation) nor tomorrow (they shut at 4pm/I finish at 5pm) but depending on The Cold Situation, I may go Sunday.
Also being 'ill' may account for my irrational foul mood yesterday? Perhaps? OH seems to have forgotten anyway.
Thursday, 3 January 2008
Virtuous
I wasnt going to the gym this morning.
Then about 11am, I was.
By lunchtime it was snowing again so I'd changed my mind again.
I went to the gym. Did my whole program so feeling virtuous but am now super-hungry...OH made a pasta bake but I couldnt eat the cheese so only had half of it :S and my jelly refuses to set now. What can I eat? Bah.
Work not great. Someone pinching out the till again. No suspicions, could be anyone, once again they all have 'reasons' for doing it.
Wish it'd snow properly. I'd love a 'free' day off work.... Bonuses are apparently looking unlikely due to the pinching. If we dont get one I will be FURIOUS. I need that money....
Then about 11am, I was.
By lunchtime it was snowing again so I'd changed my mind again.
I went to the gym. Did my whole program so feeling virtuous but am now super-hungry...OH made a pasta bake but I couldnt eat the cheese so only had half of it :S and my jelly refuses to set now. What can I eat? Bah.
Work not great. Someone pinching out the till again. No suspicions, could be anyone, once again they all have 'reasons' for doing it.
Wish it'd snow properly. I'd love a 'free' day off work.... Bonuses are apparently looking unlikely due to the pinching. If we dont get one I will be FURIOUS. I need that money....
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
Today I have....
*Been to the Drs and got some antibacterial/steroid cream for my manky leg
*Been to the gym
*Told a member of staff off and made her cry because she did something REALLY fucking stupid over new year and cant see she's done anything wrong
*Am in 8th place in the 'people who go to the gym most' stakes from December!!
*got back on the diet plan.
*resisted chocolate
I was so dispirited in the gym - it was such hard work and there are mirrors everywhere. Still, have just had tea and eaten all my points, and am having the same tomorrow.
Was really busy at work, much busier than we thought we'd be. Went back in the warehouse, it is fun in there.
I have some chocolate coins in front of me, looking at me. I must move them as they are being uber tempting....
*Been to the gym
*Told a member of staff off and made her cry because she did something REALLY fucking stupid over new year and cant see she's done anything wrong
*Am in 8th place in the 'people who go to the gym most' stakes from December!!
*got back on the diet plan.
*resisted chocolate
I was so dispirited in the gym - it was such hard work and there are mirrors everywhere. Still, have just had tea and eaten all my points, and am having the same tomorrow.
Was really busy at work, much busier than we thought we'd be. Went back in the warehouse, it is fun in there.
I have some chocolate coins in front of me, looking at me. I must move them as they are being uber tempting....
Tuesday, 1 January 2008
Happy new year.... :bawling:
There we go, the cost of Christmas and new year - a stone back on. So this has obviously bodged my aim to have got to goal weight by 1st August. Sigh. Must not be depressed, must just be Very Good instead from now on. I am not going to tantrum (remember yesterdays post....all part of Being Positive from now on).
Now for the measurements. So, first thing on a morning (it's new year, first thing IS half 9) on the first of every month OH will take pictures of me in the same clothes and I will measure and post the results here. This WILL shame me into doing it properly again. Also, I will stand up the whole time.... Sometimes I think I sat while I did various ones and sometimes I didnt.
So. Measurements (inches).
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Eeeek, have just checked back on an old blog and the only place I havent put weight on now is my arms. :bawling: Off mattress shopping in a bit, so will see if OH fancies trundling round the big hill. Back to gym tomorrow.
Right... pictures....Have done some bra & knickers pictures too, but they're for when I'm Very Thin and sticking on the fridge.
front
left
back
right
Right, off to buy a mattress now. Wish gym was open :blush:
Now for the measurements. So, first thing on a morning (it's new year, first thing IS half 9) on the first of every month OH will take pictures of me in the same clothes and I will measure and post the results here. This WILL shame me into doing it properly again. Also, I will stand up the whole time.... Sometimes I think I sat while I did various ones and sometimes I didnt.
So. Measurements (inches).
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Eeeek, have just checked back on an old blog and the only place I havent put weight on now is my arms. :bawling: Off mattress shopping in a bit, so will see if OH fancies trundling round the big hill. Back to gym tomorrow.
Right... pictures....Have done some bra & knickers pictures too, but they're for when I'm Very Thin and sticking on the fridge.
front
left
back
right
Right, off to buy a mattress now. Wish gym was open :blush:
Monday, 31 December 2007
resolutions, pictures and measurements
I forget when I started out this year at, but think it was about 2.5stone heavier than I am now ( :O how shit does that sound now?)
Was PNMiL's 60th last night, good night...I wore my dress and got some lovely compliments :)
All in all, an odd year. Good though. 2008 will be the year I:
*get thin
*get divorced
*sell my horse
*sort finances out good and proper
*sort teeth out
*be organised.
*not get so stressed by things
OH and I will:
*get planning approved for our house
*get the building work started
*stop arguing over stupid things
*forget we're together at work and behave like Proper People.
Tomorrow starts with the monthly pictures/measurements. Will do them every month on the first day, wearing the same clothes so maybe *I* can see some difference.
MUSTMUSTMUST get back into the idea of fat fighters again, have failed badly so far.
Off to look at mattresses tomorrow. Can't wait, ours is knackered.
Was PNMiL's 60th last night, good night...I wore my dress and got some lovely compliments :)
All in all, an odd year. Good though. 2008 will be the year I:
*get thin
*get divorced
*sell my horse
*sort finances out good and proper
*sort teeth out
*be organised.
*not get so stressed by things
OH and I will:
*get planning approved for our house
*get the building work started
*stop arguing over stupid things
*forget we're together at work and behave like Proper People.
Tomorrow starts with the monthly pictures/measurements. Will do them every month on the first day, wearing the same clothes so maybe *I* can see some difference.
MUSTMUSTMUST get back into the idea of fat fighters again, have failed badly so far.
Off to look at mattresses tomorrow. Can't wait, ours is knackered.
Thursday, 27 December 2007
Good Christmas but bad now....
Good - loads of lovely materialistic presents, I am now the owner of not one but TWO Radley bags and purses, and lots of other lovely things.
Bad - I have eaten so much, I honestly darent get on the scales. 2....t'other kitten has ganky eyes and her third eyelid is slow to retract, so we're taking her to the vets tomorrow :bawling:
Panicking now, I just hope she's ok. I somehow think that she wont be the easiest to get pills down.
Bad - I have eaten so much, I honestly darent get on the scales. 2....t'other kitten has ganky eyes and her third eyelid is slow to retract, so we're taking her to the vets tomorrow :bawling:
Panicking now, I just hope she's ok. I somehow think that she wont be the easiest to get pills down.
Saturday, 22 December 2007
Don't fall in love cos we hate you still
The definitive in Bad Food Days today.
Chocolates, squirty cream, battered sausages and chips for lunch. Chinese takeaway and wine for tea.
Work was shit. If it had been a normal day, with normal amounts of staff on then it would have been a Busy day, but with ALL of us there, well....I probably could have found more to do but I spent most of the day arguing with OH, playing on Facebook and chatting on MSN. Such a good example to set.
I'm feeling :) though as I have managed to pay back a debt which is about 4, maybe five years old, with interest.
Reminising now about bands, back in the day.... :sigh: I miss being 17 sometimes. I do feel old tonight.
Chocolates, squirty cream, battered sausages and chips for lunch. Chinese takeaway and wine for tea.
Work was shit. If it had been a normal day, with normal amounts of staff on then it would have been a Busy day, but with ALL of us there, well....I probably could have found more to do but I spent most of the day arguing with OH, playing on Facebook and chatting on MSN. Such a good example to set.
I'm feeling :) though as I have managed to pay back a debt which is about 4, maybe five years old, with interest.
Reminising now about bands, back in the day.... :sigh: I miss being 17 sometimes. I do feel old tonight.
Thursday, 20 December 2007
busybusybusy
Work has been manic today - got sat down for the very first time at 2.30pm. Still, it's all good, although still no hint of a bonus - I'm still whinging about that. And we're being paid 3 weeks at once tomorrow, so will need to budget properly (I know thats still more often than most people get paid, but I've been paid weekly for the last 2.5 years!!) in order for me not to run out of money.
Went to the gym tonight (although was sorely tempted to give it a miss, was so tired). Am going to go again tomorrow in the day and that will be it till the new year! Must buy a new sports bra - monoboob MINGS. Would really like some new trackie bottoms...but will wait until hips are smaller.
Fat Fighters curry again tonight. I do like it, the raita makes it so much yummier. Shame the raita alone is 4 points though.
I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow, but in reality it boils down to 'go to gym, buy some gift tags, tidy up, do some washing, put tree up'.
Thought of so much to blog earlier. Can I now? Clearly not.
Went to the gym tonight (although was sorely tempted to give it a miss, was so tired). Am going to go again tomorrow in the day and that will be it till the new year! Must buy a new sports bra - monoboob MINGS. Would really like some new trackie bottoms...but will wait until hips are smaller.
Fat Fighters curry again tonight. I do like it, the raita makes it so much yummier. Shame the raita alone is 4 points though.
I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow, but in reality it boils down to 'go to gym, buy some gift tags, tidy up, do some washing, put tree up'.
Thought of so much to blog earlier. Can I now? Clearly not.
Wednesday, 19 December 2007
I think I'm getting the hang of this....
Being Organised, that is.
Shame it's so I can be lazy and so all I have to do in the morning is wake up, roll out of bed, get dressed and drink my coffee :rolleyes: Gym bag packed (I feel about 13, saying that) and by my clothes and handbag. Instead of leaving my hair to dry naturally/going to bed with it wet I have dried it. Contemplated straightening it, but suspect that the straightness would have dropped out by morning. Lunch is ready and Fat Fighters pointed. Just need to wrap the last 3 presents, and I'll be so organised even I'll hate me.
Not so good with food today. Well, the sweetie tin was right next to me, and open and it would have been rude not to. Gone over points too, erk. No self control. So I wont have made my personal target of being in the 15's by January. Arse. Nor my target of 3 inches by January :grumps:
Went to gym again tonight. Harder work, but was with Friend and she kept making me laugh. Will go tomorrow and Friday and then I can eat :ahem: slightly more of what I wouldnt normally next week without feeling overly guilty. No chance of getting to the gym over Christmas anyway.
Re ponies.... May go ride the ayrab anyway. Any riding is better than no riding and as I was told -see, I do listen- it will improve core strength etc and can always count towards points. And who knows what might happen?
Fat Fighters curry again for next 2 days to make sure I stay within points. Nearly Christmas though....
Shame it's so I can be lazy and so all I have to do in the morning is wake up, roll out of bed, get dressed and drink my coffee :rolleyes: Gym bag packed (I feel about 13, saying that) and by my clothes and handbag. Instead of leaving my hair to dry naturally/going to bed with it wet I have dried it. Contemplated straightening it, but suspect that the straightness would have dropped out by morning. Lunch is ready and Fat Fighters pointed. Just need to wrap the last 3 presents, and I'll be so organised even I'll hate me.
Not so good with food today. Well, the sweetie tin was right next to me, and open and it would have been rude not to. Gone over points too, erk. No self control. So I wont have made my personal target of being in the 15's by January. Arse. Nor my target of 3 inches by January :grumps:
Went to gym again tonight. Harder work, but was with Friend and she kept making me laugh. Will go tomorrow and Friday and then I can eat :ahem: slightly more of what I wouldnt normally next week without feeling overly guilty. No chance of getting to the gym over Christmas anyway.
Re ponies.... May go ride the ayrab anyway. Any riding is better than no riding and as I was told -see, I do listen- it will improve core strength etc and can always count towards points. And who knows what might happen?
Fat Fighters curry again for next 2 days to make sure I stay within points. Nearly Christmas though....
Tuesday, 18 December 2007
Someone tell me what to do...?
Ponies. Again. There's another tantrum incoming.... :rolleyes:
Mentioned to someone who comes into the shop today that I was really missing ponies and I wanted to ride again, did she know what TheLocalRidingSchool was like? Said not to worry about that and to go up to hers and she would teach me if I wanted. She's nice, but pikeyish in a posh way (if that makes sense) and I dont *quite* trust her. Nothing I can put my finger on, but on the face of things I do like her.
Then someone else came in, said dont go to her, she wins, she looks successful but only ever buys ponies someone else has brought on for her, so looks more accomplished than she is. Still with me? They suggested AnotherRidingSchool. Now, I've seen 2 riders from there and 1 horse. Neither rider is a good advert and neither was the horse. But I would normally trust his opinion.
So I may just give up all ideas of riding again until I'm 14 stone (April, May time?) and go to TheLocalRidingSchool before maybe thinking of one on loan again. I've been thinking about having a horse again - part of me is convinced if I am better with my money this time around (you know, budget...) and maybe get a sharer then things would all be ok. But with that, the extension/redecorating etc... I can just see myself having to sell/give back before long. And what if I have another crisis of confidence?
Have been good today, only half a chocolate chip shortbread biscuit - gave it back cos it really didnt taste how it looked, and have turned down all Bad Things at work :D AND been to the gym. Going again tomorrow. Accidentally had the work setting on the treadmill on 90seconds so got off rather red faced, but feel ok.
It's nearly Christmas, I cannot wait....
Mentioned to someone who comes into the shop today that I was really missing ponies and I wanted to ride again, did she know what TheLocalRidingSchool was like? Said not to worry about that and to go up to hers and she would teach me if I wanted. She's nice, but pikeyish in a posh way (if that makes sense) and I dont *quite* trust her. Nothing I can put my finger on, but on the face of things I do like her.
Then someone else came in, said dont go to her, she wins, she looks successful but only ever buys ponies someone else has brought on for her, so looks more accomplished than she is. Still with me? They suggested AnotherRidingSchool. Now, I've seen 2 riders from there and 1 horse. Neither rider is a good advert and neither was the horse. But I would normally trust his opinion.
So I may just give up all ideas of riding again until I'm 14 stone (April, May time?) and go to TheLocalRidingSchool before maybe thinking of one on loan again. I've been thinking about having a horse again - part of me is convinced if I am better with my money this time around (you know, budget...) and maybe get a sharer then things would all be ok. But with that, the extension/redecorating etc... I can just see myself having to sell/give back before long. And what if I have another crisis of confidence?
Have been good today, only half a chocolate chip shortbread biscuit - gave it back cos it really didnt taste how it looked, and have turned down all Bad Things at work :D AND been to the gym. Going again tomorrow. Accidentally had the work setting on the treadmill on 90seconds so got off rather red faced, but feel ok.
It's nearly Christmas, I cannot wait....
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