Hair - took 4 hours, but I'm chuffed :biggrin: First colour didnt take so she did another with a darker colour - I like :D Will be a shock to OH though!! However spending stupid amounts of time in the hairdresser meant that I couldnt go to Boots and spend lots of money OR go to Next to buy more stuff. And I walked there and back.
Have also done the Nell dvd.... only managed 15 minutes the first time, then had a bit of a break (read quite a big break) and did the rest. Constant prancing. Floor may need reinforcing. Gym tomorrow. At least that floor feels solid lol.
Off to OHs sisters tonight and it's been decided we're going to see I Am Legend on Monday night.
Work alarm went off again this morning at 7am thankfully (would have been SO pissed off if it had been any earlier) cos the builders had left a wire dangling. So day started early and am now feeling effects. MUST get washing out of machine and do veg for tonight but I cant be BOTHERED.
Hair really is VERY dark....
Decisions - well, not really decisions tbh, more extra determination re the diet/sizeloss.
And the banghead? Why do people ask for advice and then either totally ignore what you say or pay such little attentiion to you that they go and do it anyway? I give it 2 weeks.
Saturday, 19 January 2008
Friday, 18 January 2008
SSSSSSSSSSQQQQQQQQUUUUUUEEEEEEEEE
I'm so overexcited.
Today I went to Next (actually looking for shoes). I came out with a pair of joggers for me to thin into.
I am sat here, wearing them now. They fit.
I'll probably add to this later when I'm not quite so giddy...
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Haircut tomorrow, also I must not go crazy with Next shopping.... I dont understand the sizing though, I'm obviously not a size 20 (tape measure says) yet they do appear to fit....dont think they would if they were jeans though. Just a smidgeon to tight. Anyway, woo!!
NewKitten is being an absolute pain in the arse. Today, she has broken a mirror, knocked a panel out of the kitchen cabinet and jumped up my back - that earnt her a smacked arse.
My thumb is still sore. Will buy some second skin stuff tomorrow.
Also, breaking news, TheEx has been in touch, ironically as I am listening to one of *his* bands albums. Anyway, he wants a divorce and will phone again in a couple of weeks when he sorts out his financial situation. Also tried a few obvious guilt trips, but I ignored them. I know his life hasnt been THAT shit in the 2 years we split up and I managed to get him to admit that it was best we did split up.
Might do a carmen DVD tomorrow, as not going to the gym. Going Sunday instead.
Today I went to Next (actually looking for shoes). I came out with a pair of joggers for me to thin into.
I am sat here, wearing them now. They fit.
I'll probably add to this later when I'm not quite so giddy...
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Haircut tomorrow, also I must not go crazy with Next shopping.... I dont understand the sizing though, I'm obviously not a size 20 (tape measure says) yet they do appear to fit....dont think they would if they were jeans though. Just a smidgeon to tight. Anyway, woo!!
NewKitten is being an absolute pain in the arse. Today, she has broken a mirror, knocked a panel out of the kitchen cabinet and jumped up my back - that earnt her a smacked arse.
My thumb is still sore. Will buy some second skin stuff tomorrow.
Also, breaking news, TheEx has been in touch, ironically as I am listening to one of *his* bands albums. Anyway, he wants a divorce and will phone again in a couple of weeks when he sorts out his financial situation. Also tried a few obvious guilt trips, but I ignored them. I know his life hasnt been THAT shit in the 2 years we split up and I managed to get him to admit that it was best we did split up.
Might do a carmen DVD tomorrow, as not going to the gym. Going Sunday instead.
Thursday, 17 January 2008
meh, not so positive :rolleyes:
Checked on the scales this morning, had put on 1lb :( But went to the gym again tonight. LazyFriend and I were clearly delirious and spent much of the session in fits of laughter. Especially when I went to do a step up and did a big fart....think we managed to disguise it as the bench squeaking.
Not going to the gym tomorrow, and have the weekend off. Looking forward to getting my hair done Saturday and will gym on Sunday. Due to CPD will have to go to gym Mon thurs and friday cos I'm working the weekend too.
I MUST get off the amazon website. I'm tired, I should go to bed...
Not going to the gym tomorrow, and have the weekend off. Looking forward to getting my hair done Saturday and will gym on Sunday. Due to CPD will have to go to gym Mon thurs and friday cos I'm working the weekend too.
I MUST get off the amazon website. I'm tired, I should go to bed...
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
positive
But then I have been to the gym twice already this week, am going tomorrow and will probably go Sunday.
Was hard work tonight, but I was with lazymate who bitched and moaned the whole time which I'm sure made it harder work. Very tired now AND havent eaten all points. Having 0point curry tomorrow.
I was thinking tonight, mainly cos my newly uber-thin ( :D :D ) friend came round, just how much better I feel for losing weight. I think more about food and while I do sometimes crave a bacon sandwich, I am able to ignore it...for the most part anyway. I have more energy, I want to do more, I am more organised, because i can be BOTHERED to do it now whereas before I was just too lazy. When I think back to how I was, I get so embarrassed :( I remember being too lazy to walk to the garage (a 5 minute walk,if that) and the food I used to eat, thinking I was being healthy. It's all positive, I just wishwishwish I'd never got to the stage/weight I did.
Fruit epiphany still going well. Had a fatfighters recipe as well tonight - pan fried chicken & bacon. 4 points, very nice. Bulked it out with 0point veg too.
Was hard work tonight, but I was with lazymate who bitched and moaned the whole time which I'm sure made it harder work. Very tired now AND havent eaten all points. Having 0point curry tomorrow.
I was thinking tonight, mainly cos my newly uber-thin ( :D :D ) friend came round, just how much better I feel for losing weight. I think more about food and while I do sometimes crave a bacon sandwich, I am able to ignore it...for the most part anyway. I have more energy, I want to do more, I am more organised, because i can be BOTHERED to do it now whereas before I was just too lazy. When I think back to how I was, I get so embarrassed :( I remember being too lazy to walk to the garage (a 5 minute walk,if that) and the food I used to eat, thinking I was being healthy. It's all positive, I just wishwishwish I'd never got to the stage/weight I did.
Fruit epiphany still going well. Had a fatfighters recipe as well tonight - pan fried chicken & bacon. 4 points, very nice. Bulked it out with 0point veg too.
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Got a poorly...
Was sat in office this morning, having my (cold) cup of coffee, being as it was the first chance I'd had to actually have it. Heard a big crash from the shop, pondered on whether to ignore it and pretend I hadnt heard it, or to go and investigate.
I investigated and got slashed across the bottom of my thumb for my trouble. Not sure how, as I cant see what I did it on (a rat cage trap) but it's right on the bend, so everytime I move my right thumb - that would be a lot - it reopens. Very sore.
Gymmed tonight, did full program. Takes 1.5 hours. Was very sweaty by end :lol: but did EVERYTHING. Even the plank, and the step ups onto the bench (12). Sat on the boso ball and twisted with a 5kg weight, did 2 reps of 30 and my sides feel it now. Got a funky new sign in system now - all done on finger prints!! Bets on how long it takes before it breaks?
Spoke to a complete numpty at Bayer today....didnt have a clue what she was talking about, but I think we have it sorted now.
I'm so tired. Very chuffed I went to the gym though. Workout was hard work, but wasnt as bad as I was expecting. Bit cross because I ended up on the magically slow treadmill today but upped the speed so I hope I was doing similar. Didnt need to hold on today though till I got tired. Got a sweat on though. Is all good.
I investigated and got slashed across the bottom of my thumb for my trouble. Not sure how, as I cant see what I did it on (a rat cage trap) but it's right on the bend, so everytime I move my right thumb - that would be a lot - it reopens. Very sore.
Gymmed tonight, did full program. Takes 1.5 hours. Was very sweaty by end :lol: but did EVERYTHING. Even the plank, and the step ups onto the bench (12). Sat on the boso ball and twisted with a 5kg weight, did 2 reps of 30 and my sides feel it now. Got a funky new sign in system now - all done on finger prints!! Bets on how long it takes before it breaks?
Spoke to a complete numpty at Bayer today....didnt have a clue what she was talking about, but I think we have it sorted now.
I'm so tired. Very chuffed I went to the gym though. Workout was hard work, but wasnt as bad as I was expecting. Bit cross because I ended up on the magically slow treadmill today but upped the speed so I hope I was doing similar. Didnt need to hold on today though till I got tired. Got a sweat on though. Is all good.
Monday, 14 January 2008
MMmmmm, lovely fruit....
Better be bloody lovely and good at fat burning at 7points a serving....
Didnt go to the gym tonight, but did do (the warmup of) Nell McAndrews DVD. I would have done it all, but there was lots of prancing and it sounded like I might go through the floor :unsure: BUT....I did the warm up and wasnt remotely out of breath or sweaty! I believe this is a first.
Didnt go to the gym tonight, but did do (the warmup of) Nell McAndrews DVD. I would have done it all, but there was lots of prancing and it sounded like I might go through the floor :unsure: BUT....I did the warm up and wasnt remotely out of breath or sweaty! I believe this is a first.
Sunday, 13 January 2008
Absolutely tapped in the head....
I went to the gym AGAIN today. Not only that, I did my arms and core/abs review too (jenny wasnt busy and the gym was empty). MUCH harder work. Slightly confused over the arms I think, especially as I have to go into the boys bit for one of the bars (girls bars only go up to 6kg :blush: ) but i'm sure I'll cope. I ACHE now though.
Dont really have motivation to do much now. Work will hurt tomorrow lol. Not going to gym tomorrow - will be packed and I think I deserve a day off!!
Beginning of March treat can be a new gym kit....I muST be due one by then!!
Dont really have motivation to do much now. Work will hurt tomorrow lol. Not going to gym tomorrow - will be packed and I think I deserve a day off!!
Beginning of March treat can be a new gym kit....I muST be due one by then!!
Saturday, 12 January 2008
I fear this may be my last entry....
My gym program today. Had the girl who is LOVELY when just chatting to her about a workout you've just had...when she's doing the program, she's a bitch, I hate her etcetc :lol:
Rower - now have to do 250m in under a minute, 5 times with a 30second rest between them. Treadmill, still intervals... 1min 2% incline, 3.5mph, 3 minutes 6% incline at 4mph and I MUST NOT HOLD ON. so that 5 times each and then the cross trainer, still on level 6, but 30seconds under 50rpm, then a minute at over 60rpm for 5 minutes. I'm still bright red and I came out of the gym nearly an hour an a half ago. Then we did some resistance, instead of doing 3 sets of 15 of squats with the gym ball, I'm to do 2 sets of 15 but hold the squat for a count of 5 each time I go down. Also have to increase the weights on the ab- and aductors. Then I have to use the weights bench for step ups - 6 each side and then lastly stand on the edge of something with my heels hanging off and lift myself up and down. My God I ache now, not sure if it's combined with doing Carmen last night or if it's just a much harder workout LOL. I must be doubly crazy though, cos I've booked in for upper body and core for Wednesday night.
Now I'm writing a shopping list and instead of the curly wurlys and diet coke,I have written flavoured waters and plenty of fruit. Shame I am craving pizza for tea... LOL.
Rower - now have to do 250m in under a minute, 5 times with a 30second rest between them. Treadmill, still intervals... 1min 2% incline, 3.5mph, 3 minutes 6% incline at 4mph and I MUST NOT HOLD ON. so that 5 times each and then the cross trainer, still on level 6, but 30seconds under 50rpm, then a minute at over 60rpm for 5 minutes. I'm still bright red and I came out of the gym nearly an hour an a half ago. Then we did some resistance, instead of doing 3 sets of 15 of squats with the gym ball, I'm to do 2 sets of 15 but hold the squat for a count of 5 each time I go down. Also have to increase the weights on the ab- and aductors. Then I have to use the weights bench for step ups - 6 each side and then lastly stand on the edge of something with my heels hanging off and lift myself up and down. My God I ache now, not sure if it's combined with doing Carmen last night or if it's just a much harder workout LOL. I must be doubly crazy though, cos I've booked in for upper body and core for Wednesday night.
Now I'm writing a shopping list and instead of the curly wurlys and diet coke,I have written flavoured waters and plenty of fruit. Shame I am craving pizza for tea... LOL.
Friday, 11 January 2008
aims and goals....
Well, I've booked my 'getting into the 15's' present...sadly for before February 1st, so must make trebley sure I am Very Good. It's a haircut & colour on the 19th. The one after that (1st march - 15.7) is a Wii game off OH. Am wondering whether to make getting into the 14's my Harvey Nichols makeup make over. I'm not sure.
The 2 B's had a stand up fight in the middle of the shop today, much to my great sadness that as manager I had to break it up and give them both a talking to. OlderB apparently told the other one to 'stop disrespectin me, innit' :bawling: :heehee:
Did Carmen again tonight before the terrors came round (we ended up babysitting, hence the absense from MSN) and I really ache now lol. Tomorrow is New Gym Routine. Bit scared now. Also can't decide if tummy is starting to change shape. No point asking OH - if he thinks it'll make me happy he tells me it's smaller, although he did exclaim tits were bigger tonight, which he qualified with 'pert'. Bigger does not = pert in my book. Besides which, my tits are long past being pert.
Cannot WAIT until the new mattress arrives. Really can't. OH and I have swapped sides in bed cos I was too uncomfortable lol. Slept relatively well last night lol.
The 2 B's had a stand up fight in the middle of the shop today, much to my great sadness that as manager I had to break it up and give them both a talking to. OlderB apparently told the other one to 'stop disrespectin me, innit' :bawling: :heehee:
Did Carmen again tonight before the terrors came round (we ended up babysitting, hence the absense from MSN) and I really ache now lol. Tomorrow is New Gym Routine. Bit scared now. Also can't decide if tummy is starting to change shape. No point asking OH - if he thinks it'll make me happy he tells me it's smaller, although he did exclaim tits were bigger tonight, which he qualified with 'pert'. Bigger does not = pert in my book. Besides which, my tits are long past being pert.
Cannot WAIT until the new mattress arrives. Really can't. OH and I have swapped sides in bed cos I was too uncomfortable lol. Slept relatively well last night lol.
Thursday, 10 January 2008
DVDs arrived
The Carmen Electra ones. Apparently they're great and a bit like doing LB&T at home.... Lets hope so :lol: Anyway, I'm about to try it.
Work wasnt bad, one of the suppliers was an ARSE and have totally fucked up the order. I was mean.
And (veryveryvery small banana, just in case...) we MIGHT be getting a fairly healthy bonus at the end of the month.
Just as well, cos then I can buy my sparkly Tiffanys bracelet AND get my hair done (MUST book that actually, having it done so I look A OK at the CPD lol - how wrong is that?) Hopefully anyway. must book it for 19th.
Went to gym, knackered now. Good workout, MAY go tomorrow....havent decided yet. Am going on Saturday for another review and will say that I want to concentrate on my tummy and hips.
Work wasnt bad, one of the suppliers was an ARSE and have totally fucked up the order. I was mean.
And (veryveryvery small banana, just in case...) we MIGHT be getting a fairly healthy bonus at the end of the month.
Just as well, cos then I can buy my sparkly Tiffanys bracelet AND get my hair done (MUST book that actually, having it done so I look A OK at the CPD lol - how wrong is that?) Hopefully anyway. must book it for 19th.
Went to gym, knackered now. Good workout, MAY go tomorrow....havent decided yet. Am going on Saturday for another review and will say that I want to concentrate on my tummy and hips.
Wednesday, 9 January 2008
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
*sigh*
1. I want to go to a gig an hour away, OH doesnt. We argue for a day or so and now the tickets are sold out.
2. I decide I will go alone to a gig 3 hours away, but where a friend is I havent seen for AGES. We plan all sorts of Exciting Activities for the next day. OH gets in a strop because he isnt included (he didnt want to come to the gig originally).
Added to the fact I feel shitty anyway, my DVDs didnt turn up (am actually v upset), I am still :bawling: over not being able to see any size loss.
What to do? Am tempted not to go at all, just go see my mate. But then i'll be fucked off at not going to the gig. But I want to see my mate.
And I'm still fat. I may have lost 5.5stone, but I'm still the same size. Demoralising? You have no idea. I must start saving for the cosmetic surgery.
2. I decide I will go alone to a gig 3 hours away, but where a friend is I havent seen for AGES. We plan all sorts of Exciting Activities for the next day. OH gets in a strop because he isnt included (he didnt want to come to the gig originally).
Added to the fact I feel shitty anyway, my DVDs didnt turn up (am actually v upset), I am still :bawling: over not being able to see any size loss.
What to do? Am tempted not to go at all, just go see my mate. But then i'll be fucked off at not going to the gig. But I want to see my mate.
And I'm still fat. I may have lost 5.5stone, but I'm still the same size. Demoralising? You have no idea. I must start saving for the cosmetic surgery.
Monday, 7 January 2008
must stop spending money....
Today I bought a hot pink sports bra, so I can be wearing a gym kit while washing one rather that abusing the same clothes over and over (between washes, natch). Have bought a bra 2 cupsizes smaller than I wear as they didnt do my size. Straw poll of 3 people (lol) all agreed to do that. Now I have spent the money and I cant change the order, I now think I should have gone for 1 cupsize down. Ah well. It'll fit. Eventually.
I MUST stop buying now. I have horrified myself with my shopping this month. Wont afford the work on the house before long.
Gym tonight, seems everyone in town has ChristmasGuilt and there were queues for most of the machines. I ended up doing twenty minutes on the treadmill. First time I went on it, it was soooooo slow and I was congratulating myself on how easy I found things now, until I looked over at the girl next to me, who was easily going twice as fast as me to notice she was allegedly going 3mph when I was doing 4. So I did another 10mins on a different treadmill at the end and yup, I went twice as fast.
Having a night off gym tomorrow night, then going with mate Wednesday.
With any lucky my pornacise DVDs should turn up tomorrow, and I can spend the evening doing that, with OH firmly locked out of the room. Semi thinking about selling my exercise bike. I punished myself so hard with it when I first got it, I havent sat on it for over 6months now, and it is very definately In The Way. Have been going to this gym for 2 months now... Another month and that is when i started to trail off going to the other one - lets see how long this one lasts? It IS easier going to this one, being able to go on my way home, rather than having to make a special trip out.
My new mini-goal with myself is to reach the 15's by February. Must work hard, it's doable (2.5-3lbs a week) but must be disciplined. My points have dropped to 25 now, so should be easier. Should. :unsure:
I'm still fucked off there's no size loss on my tummy/hips. Rah!
I MUST stop buying now. I have horrified myself with my shopping this month. Wont afford the work on the house before long.
Gym tonight, seems everyone in town has ChristmasGuilt and there were queues for most of the machines. I ended up doing twenty minutes on the treadmill. First time I went on it, it was soooooo slow and I was congratulating myself on how easy I found things now, until I looked over at the girl next to me, who was easily going twice as fast as me to notice she was allegedly going 3mph when I was doing 4. So I did another 10mins on a different treadmill at the end and yup, I went twice as fast.
Having a night off gym tomorrow night, then going with mate Wednesday.
With any lucky my pornacise DVDs should turn up tomorrow, and I can spend the evening doing that, with OH firmly locked out of the room. Semi thinking about selling my exercise bike. I punished myself so hard with it when I first got it, I havent sat on it for over 6months now, and it is very definately In The Way. Have been going to this gym for 2 months now... Another month and that is when i started to trail off going to the other one - lets see how long this one lasts? It IS easier going to this one, being able to go on my way home, rather than having to make a special trip out.
My new mini-goal with myself is to reach the 15's by February. Must work hard, it's doable (2.5-3lbs a week) but must be disciplined. My points have dropped to 25 now, so should be easier. Should. :unsure:
I'm still fucked off there's no size loss on my tummy/hips. Rah!
Sunday, 6 January 2008
May I have a gold star please?
I have been to the gym (FAB time, I was only one there and it was great). Also feel like it's starting to get easier...Maybe time for a review? Or let it be easier a while longer?
Came home (I will admit to driving there and back) and then have spent the afternoon cleaning - the bathroom is spotless and I even mopped the floors and polished the wood.
Having stew tonight - have pointed it for 6 portions, but to be perfectly honest, it looks more like about 8, or even 10 - it's HUGE!!
Back to work tomorrow, but I do have the weekend off. Should be off to the gym tomorrow night as well - I'm determined to get on the door again!!
Came home (I will admit to driving there and back) and then have spent the afternoon cleaning - the bathroom is spotless and I even mopped the floors and polished the wood.
Having stew tonight - have pointed it for 6 portions, but to be perfectly honest, it looks more like about 8, or even 10 - it's HUGE!!
Back to work tomorrow, but I do have the weekend off. Should be off to the gym tomorrow night as well - I'm determined to get on the door again!!
Saturday, 5 January 2008
Regrets?
I've had a few...
1, I wish I had started WW in November 2006, instead of trying on my own. I'd (hopefully) be a couple of stone further on, and as my mother keeps pointing out, I'm not getting any younger.
2, I wish I had never got to this stage in the first place. Told OH today that while I've been together, I have been 22 stone. He almost DIED.
3, I wish I had tried harder, before now, at everything.
4, I wish I wasnt so blase with money.
5, I wish I had tried hard with The Pony.
So there we have it.
However:
1, Despite my best attempts occasionally, I am in rude health.
2, I am trying, not hard enough seemingly sometimes, but I AM trying to lose weight now.
3, Despite not having tried as hard as I could have, I've not done too badly for myself now.
4, I am ALMOST debt free
5, Well...She's in a good home now, and loving her was never my problem.
Then part of me wonders...is it all worth it? TBH, I'm only doing this so I can have pretty wedding pictures and be a normal size. I hope (fingerscrossed) to have kids at some point - I know, I must be crazy... and thats another figure ruiner. Is it worth it? I know it is, but I'm having wine and a 'snot fair' evening.
OH has said he'd buy my some underwear sets in the bravissimo sale (so romantic).... Never thought I'd be the type to have/wear sets... No one looks at it, right? But it feels so much better to be co-ordinating... (Am I destined to be a DQ after all?)
1, I wish I had started WW in November 2006, instead of trying on my own. I'd (hopefully) be a couple of stone further on, and as my mother keeps pointing out, I'm not getting any younger.
2, I wish I had never got to this stage in the first place. Told OH today that while I've been together, I have been 22 stone. He almost DIED.
3, I wish I had tried harder, before now, at everything.
4, I wish I wasnt so blase with money.
5, I wish I had tried hard with The Pony.
So there we have it.
However:
1, Despite my best attempts occasionally, I am in rude health.
2, I am trying, not hard enough seemingly sometimes, but I AM trying to lose weight now.
3, Despite not having tried as hard as I could have, I've not done too badly for myself now.
4, I am ALMOST debt free
5, Well...She's in a good home now, and loving her was never my problem.
Then part of me wonders...is it all worth it? TBH, I'm only doing this so I can have pretty wedding pictures and be a normal size. I hope (fingerscrossed) to have kids at some point - I know, I must be crazy... and thats another figure ruiner. Is it worth it? I know it is, but I'm having wine and a 'snot fair' evening.
OH has said he'd buy my some underwear sets in the bravissimo sale (so romantic).... Never thought I'd be the type to have/wear sets... No one looks at it, right? But it feels so much better to be co-ordinating... (Am I destined to be a DQ after all?)
Friday, 4 January 2008
tired and grumpy
Well, there's a turn up, when am I never tired and grumpy...? LOL
Work was ok today, have distinct rumblings of cold (high temp - face looks like a beacon/snotty nose/general meh-ness) so spent much of the day being a warehouse wench. B not in again - has Norovirus apparently and a sicknote to prove it... (I am so cynical - she has holiday booked for next week....last time she had a miscarriage right when she moved house, the time before a bad back when she moved from the flat...)
I must stop spending money, especially while things are bleak moneywise... Today I bought 3 DVDs...2 x carmen electra 'stripercise' (that is going to go wrong...) and 1 x Nell McAndrew one. This is in addition to the three books I bought last night. Still they were in the sale. OH will block Amazon before long lol.
Kittens are being spectacularly irritating tonight...T'OtherOne was sat happily on my chest in the bath, when OH came in, frightened her and she's gouged 2 lines out of my face. Nice. NK is moulting spectacularly. Sebo is going to self destruct soon.
Fat Fighters appears to be going well again - on the scales this morning I was 16.10... On NYD I was 17.6, so have stuck to WWpoints (26) and gone to gym twice...I am on though which would have added 2/3lbs, but still, thats half a stone just by eating more 'portioned' amounts. By 5.30 though I could have MURDERED an almond croissant.
No gym tonight, (being a Warehouse Wench though was some consolation) nor tomorrow (they shut at 4pm/I finish at 5pm) but depending on The Cold Situation, I may go Sunday.
Also being 'ill' may account for my irrational foul mood yesterday? Perhaps? OH seems to have forgotten anyway.
Work was ok today, have distinct rumblings of cold (high temp - face looks like a beacon/snotty nose/general meh-ness) so spent much of the day being a warehouse wench. B not in again - has Norovirus apparently and a sicknote to prove it... (I am so cynical - she has holiday booked for next week....last time she had a miscarriage right when she moved house, the time before a bad back when she moved from the flat...)
I must stop spending money, especially while things are bleak moneywise... Today I bought 3 DVDs...2 x carmen electra 'stripercise' (that is going to go wrong...) and 1 x Nell McAndrew one. This is in addition to the three books I bought last night. Still they were in the sale. OH will block Amazon before long lol.
Kittens are being spectacularly irritating tonight...T'OtherOne was sat happily on my chest in the bath, when OH came in, frightened her and she's gouged 2 lines out of my face. Nice. NK is moulting spectacularly. Sebo is going to self destruct soon.
Fat Fighters appears to be going well again - on the scales this morning I was 16.10... On NYD I was 17.6, so have stuck to WWpoints (26) and gone to gym twice...I am on though which would have added 2/3lbs, but still, thats half a stone just by eating more 'portioned' amounts. By 5.30 though I could have MURDERED an almond croissant.
No gym tonight, (being a Warehouse Wench though was some consolation) nor tomorrow (they shut at 4pm/I finish at 5pm) but depending on The Cold Situation, I may go Sunday.
Also being 'ill' may account for my irrational foul mood yesterday? Perhaps? OH seems to have forgotten anyway.
Thursday, 3 January 2008
Virtuous
I wasnt going to the gym this morning.
Then about 11am, I was.
By lunchtime it was snowing again so I'd changed my mind again.
I went to the gym. Did my whole program so feeling virtuous but am now super-hungry...OH made a pasta bake but I couldnt eat the cheese so only had half of it :S and my jelly refuses to set now. What can I eat? Bah.
Work not great. Someone pinching out the till again. No suspicions, could be anyone, once again they all have 'reasons' for doing it.
Wish it'd snow properly. I'd love a 'free' day off work.... Bonuses are apparently looking unlikely due to the pinching. If we dont get one I will be FURIOUS. I need that money....
Then about 11am, I was.
By lunchtime it was snowing again so I'd changed my mind again.
I went to the gym. Did my whole program so feeling virtuous but am now super-hungry...OH made a pasta bake but I couldnt eat the cheese so only had half of it :S and my jelly refuses to set now. What can I eat? Bah.
Work not great. Someone pinching out the till again. No suspicions, could be anyone, once again they all have 'reasons' for doing it.
Wish it'd snow properly. I'd love a 'free' day off work.... Bonuses are apparently looking unlikely due to the pinching. If we dont get one I will be FURIOUS. I need that money....
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
Today I have....
*Been to the Drs and got some antibacterial/steroid cream for my manky leg
*Been to the gym
*Told a member of staff off and made her cry because she did something REALLY fucking stupid over new year and cant see she's done anything wrong
*Am in 8th place in the 'people who go to the gym most' stakes from December!!
*got back on the diet plan.
*resisted chocolate
I was so dispirited in the gym - it was such hard work and there are mirrors everywhere. Still, have just had tea and eaten all my points, and am having the same tomorrow.
Was really busy at work, much busier than we thought we'd be. Went back in the warehouse, it is fun in there.
I have some chocolate coins in front of me, looking at me. I must move them as they are being uber tempting....
*Been to the gym
*Told a member of staff off and made her cry because she did something REALLY fucking stupid over new year and cant see she's done anything wrong
*Am in 8th place in the 'people who go to the gym most' stakes from December!!
*got back on the diet plan.
*resisted chocolate
I was so dispirited in the gym - it was such hard work and there are mirrors everywhere. Still, have just had tea and eaten all my points, and am having the same tomorrow.
Was really busy at work, much busier than we thought we'd be. Went back in the warehouse, it is fun in there.
I have some chocolate coins in front of me, looking at me. I must move them as they are being uber tempting....
Tuesday, 1 January 2008
Happy new year.... :bawling:
There we go, the cost of Christmas and new year - a stone back on. So this has obviously bodged my aim to have got to goal weight by 1st August. Sigh. Must not be depressed, must just be Very Good instead from now on. I am not going to tantrum (remember yesterdays post....all part of Being Positive from now on).
Now for the measurements. So, first thing on a morning (it's new year, first thing IS half 9) on the first of every month OH will take pictures of me in the same clothes and I will measure and post the results here. This WILL shame me into doing it properly again. Also, I will stand up the whole time.... Sometimes I think I sat while I did various ones and sometimes I didnt.
So. Measurements (inches).
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Eeeek, have just checked back on an old blog and the only place I havent put weight on now is my arms. :bawling: Off mattress shopping in a bit, so will see if OH fancies trundling round the big hill. Back to gym tomorrow.
Right... pictures....Have done some bra & knickers pictures too, but they're for when I'm Very Thin and sticking on the fridge.
front
left
back
right
Right, off to buy a mattress now. Wish gym was open :blush:
Now for the measurements. So, first thing on a morning (it's new year, first thing IS half 9) on the first of every month OH will take pictures of me in the same clothes and I will measure and post the results here. This WILL shame me into doing it properly again. Also, I will stand up the whole time.... Sometimes I think I sat while I did various ones and sometimes I didnt.
So. Measurements (inches).
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Eeeek, have just checked back on an old blog and the only place I havent put weight on now is my arms. :bawling: Off mattress shopping in a bit, so will see if OH fancies trundling round the big hill. Back to gym tomorrow.
Right... pictures....Have done some bra & knickers pictures too, but they're for when I'm Very Thin and sticking on the fridge.
front
left
back
right
Right, off to buy a mattress now. Wish gym was open :blush:
Monday, 31 December 2007
resolutions, pictures and measurements
I forget when I started out this year at, but think it was about 2.5stone heavier than I am now ( :O how shit does that sound now?)
Was PNMiL's 60th last night, good night...I wore my dress and got some lovely compliments :)
All in all, an odd year. Good though. 2008 will be the year I:
*get thin
*get divorced
*sell my horse
*sort finances out good and proper
*sort teeth out
*be organised.
*not get so stressed by things
OH and I will:
*get planning approved for our house
*get the building work started
*stop arguing over stupid things
*forget we're together at work and behave like Proper People.
Tomorrow starts with the monthly pictures/measurements. Will do them every month on the first day, wearing the same clothes so maybe *I* can see some difference.
MUSTMUSTMUST get back into the idea of fat fighters again, have failed badly so far.
Off to look at mattresses tomorrow. Can't wait, ours is knackered.
Was PNMiL's 60th last night, good night...I wore my dress and got some lovely compliments :)
All in all, an odd year. Good though. 2008 will be the year I:
*get thin
*get divorced
*sell my horse
*sort finances out good and proper
*sort teeth out
*be organised.
*not get so stressed by things
OH and I will:
*get planning approved for our house
*get the building work started
*stop arguing over stupid things
*forget we're together at work and behave like Proper People.
Tomorrow starts with the monthly pictures/measurements. Will do them every month on the first day, wearing the same clothes so maybe *I* can see some difference.
MUSTMUSTMUST get back into the idea of fat fighters again, have failed badly so far.
Off to look at mattresses tomorrow. Can't wait, ours is knackered.
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