Aaaaahhhhhhh my legs :bawling:

We're back - we went, we saw, we ate, we ache.

Food - Thursday - Saturday

1 packet minstrals, 2 Dairylea DUnkers, 2 Babybel Emmental, 5 Pimms Lemon Mousse biscuits, 1.5 chocolate chip brioche, 1 bowl soup, 2 x shortbread biscuits, 3 x ham sandwiches, 1 x custard cream, 1 x mince pie, 1 x portion chip shop chips, half x ham & pineapple pizza, half x cheese & garlic pizza, 1 x almond criossant. 1 sausage, 2 x bacon, 1 fried egg, mushrooms, scrambled eggs, baked beans, 2 x hot chocolate & cream, 1 x chicken, mozzerella & cranberry panini, 1 x sausage, mashed potato, onion gravy, 2 x banana milkshake, 1 almond croissant, 3 x shortbread biscuits, 1 x roll & butter. Scrambled eggs, baked beans, mushrooms, roll & butter, almond croissant, hot chocolate, cream & marshmallows, cheese & bacon burger & chips with salad cream, lots of Irn Bru, many shortbread biscuits.

My calves are agony - can barely move. But we walked MILES. Went round the zoo at least 3 times (HUGE hill!!), OH bought me some ducks which change colour as the bathwater gets hotter & a hippo (I chose it). Had lovely time - I am DESPERATE to touch a tiger though. Made NeedyKitten look a bit pathetic. Drove back to hotel and walked to the Royal Mile - gazed up at the Castle (didnt go in), went to Museum of Childhood, trundled about for ages, went in all the tacky, overpriced tourist shops, then went down to MonsterMash, for, well, MonsterMash. Very nice and very filling.

Spent lots, but not on souveniers - just things I could buy from town really, but had a lovely, lovely time, apart from South Wales Fire Service who pissed in the street, made comments about girls bodies, hammered on our door at 3am (thought it was their friends room) and were generally rude and obnoxious. Took minds off Monday D-Day, and I realised again how much I do love OH, even if I am a total bitch to him at times.

Saw friend of mine today and shopped with her. Sorry :blush: :lol:

Kitten winner of Feline Oscar for 'Kitten Most Pleased to see Owners Home Again' and had smashed some eggs for us. Despite this, he has been most affectionate he was ever been lol and hasnt shut up since we walked though the door! I did miss him, specially waking up in the night and not having him on the bed :blush:

Meet the Fockers (kind of...)

Off to Edinburgh in a few minutes and stopping off to see my nan on the way up. Havent seen her since my wedding and I'm not sure she knows about OH. She knows me & ex have split up, but..... :dunno: Anyway, we're going to see my Aunt & Uncle too - was meant to be a surprise. Thank God dad rang :lol:

Having lunch with them, then driving up to Edinburgh. I'm really looking forward to it, but will miss the kitten. And my bike & my scales :blush: I have resigned myself to putting weight on this week, but OH says theres a car park about a mile from the hotel - maybe the walk would do me good everyday....

Havent done any cycling and won't do either, being as we're now seconds from leaving.

See you Sunday :wavey:

Hmmmmmm. Nothing short of a miracle.

I've lost a pound :thud: Did not see that coming, thought I'd either stay the same or put on. Still, not complaining :lol:

http://www.fhma.com/calories.htm this seems a good website - apparently I've burnt more than I thought on the bike this eve - good-o :lol: Only done 300 calories so far - but did it in 30mins. Will do another 700. Have to - have had chocolate AND a bottle of wine all to myself :lol:

which nicely leads me onto food today: 1 FB salad (rocket, ham, tomatoes, egg mayonaise, 1 spring onion, 1 slice mozzerella), 1 packet French Fries, 1 apple bake bar (Go Ahead), spaghetti bolognese (with brown spaghetti & white linguine), 6 Roses chocolates and 1 bottle Rose Grenache all to myself.

We also got Freeview today AND NeedyKittens breeder came into the shop - my god can she witter on forever :lol: was nice to see her though. Shocked at how big he looked in the pictures, which is no bad thing as he was a scrawny little bugger when we got him.

Best get back on the bike, otherwise I wont manage my calories....

ETA @ 20.20 - only 350 calories to go, 3 loads of washing, 1 load of hoovering, 1 bed remake,1 bag packed and 2 sets of directions left to go.... :sigh:

ETA again @ 21.25 - did my 1000calories in 95 minutes. Phew. Need bath :lol: Knackered. Might change bed tomorrow...

its so unFAIR /offkevin

Definately not a weightloss week unless a miracle happens overnight :(

Done my 1000 calories on the bike, foodwise today: 2 squares tear & share, FB Salad (only with ham instead of chicken & egg mayonnaise instead of egg & salad cream. Usual suspect otherwise - spring onion, tomatoes, rocket, lettuce, mozzerella...), cranberry & almond bar, packet french fries. Tea....omg, tea. :stuffed: some beef, some chicken, SIX yorkshires!!!!!!!, peas, carrots, mashed potato, gravy & mint sauce.

I am so pissed off :bawling: I cycle for at least 1h40m, I have SIGNIFICANTLY cut my diet down and for what? I am tempted to throw towel in and give up but I cant. I want to get married and have a nice dress and not be embarrassed to fly cos I dont fit properly into the seats and go shopping with friends and beable to buy stuff from the same shops as them, instead of having to go to the FatShop, I want to go dancing without being the elephant in the middle of the dance floor, but most of all I just want to be LIGHT. To not have to worry about falling through the floor at work and to ride whatever horse I like and to not take fat comments personally. I want to be proud of pictures of me, and not have to cut them up or avoid them completely, I want to walk into a room and not be the fattest person.

I also want to be a billionairess and the most popular person in the world, but that aint happening either.

:sigh: :tantrum:

Oh. My. Goodness.

Just finished my 1000calories. I think I may be about to have a heart attack. took 102m35s to do it - I *think* thats about 10mins quicker than normal. Made sure to keep between 24-28km the whole time even when reading :lol: hence the close proximity to a heart attack. Also upped the difficulty as well. Bit annoyed the calories dont clock on quicker, but oh well :( Beggars & all that.....

Still got this damned cold :rolleyes:

foodwise: 1 FB salad - chicken again instead of ham & no egg, but did put a bit extra cheese in. And lots of salad cream. 1 packet French Fries, 1 mars egg (Waitrose at Easter. I can't go shopping till May....I just cant resist it), roast chicken & skin PLUS it was a Waitrose roast chicken, so who knows what was on it, Yorkshire pudding, mashed potatoes, carrots, green beans, gravy, mint sauce, 4 cups of tea, 2 squares tear & share.

Me & warehouse manager were officially told about the meeting next monday. I cant see what I want to happen, happening (ie, gets sacked or leave), either way its going to be uncomfortable for a few weeks. Have told SC (stupid I know) to make damned sure the shop is immaculate next week. Obviously wanted to know why. I told her it was the way it should be kept.

OH and I go away on Thursday to Edinburgh till Saturday morning. I can't wait, although am already panicking about eating out & not biking. Its happened, I am a slave to exercise. Never saw that one coming :lol:

sunday, bloody sunday

1 FB salad, but with chargrilled chicken instead of ham and no egg (or white :rolleyes: ), a bowl of Greek yoghurt with blue/rasp/blackberries mixed in, 5 Lindt chocolates, beef, brussells, carrots, yorkshire pudding, gravy, mint sauce, 14 roses chocolates. :sick:

Done 1000 calories on the bike.

SC & SB registering high on my annoyance radar again :notolerance:

Still no loss this week - in fact am 1lb up, although I have eaten more chocolate this week, but boobs still appear to be getting smaller :lol: dropped another back size.

Going to Edinburgh on Thursday, just for a couple of days away - the calm before the storm I think, work wise for sure. So no biking + eating out all the time = weight gain next week.

:red-flap:

Cor dear, I have been in a FOUL mood all day. I pity my colleagues - I have taken it out on each and every one of them. I will end up in a 'boss from hell' feature one day.

1 packet crisps, 2 cups tea, some chip shop chips, 1 kitkat finger, 1 chunk pie d'angloys, tea is spaghetti bolognese with mozzerella & french stick.

Done 600 calories - felt so dire when I got up this morning I wasnt going to do any, but did 100 to show willing, then did another 500 when I got back from work.

Off to babysit now, joy.

K-nackered

1 FB Salad (spring onion, rocket, lettuce, cherry tomatoes, mozzerella, ham, egg white & salad cream), 1 kiwi fruit, 1 packet French Fries, 1 Lindt chocolate, 1 bite sausage & egg sandiwch (ick), chicken, wrapped in bacon with stuffing in middle & mozzerella on top, mashed potato, brussells, carrots, 2 yorkies, gravy. Bit peckish still and tin of Roses still to get through.

SC & SB werent too bad. Helped that I packed SC off to the shed for the morning.

I am so tired, I had approximately 3 minutes unbroken sleep last night - if it wasnt NeedyKitten bounding about the bed in search of the MonsterSpider, OH was wide awake and asking me stupid questions, such as poking me in the back and asking if I was awake. Reply would be an emphatic 'no', he'd get in a sulk, then carry on a conversation anyway, then get offended when I fell back asleep halfway through.... Men!

1050 calories on the bike today - 2 hours.

Babysitting tomorrow night, so pizza, possibly takeaway for tea. Hohum. Probably not enough time to do 1000calories either.

Jealousy is such an ugly emotion

I can't help it, I really can't. I assume every girl OH looks at, he's sizing up for Potential New Girlfriend Material, which means I feel like shit and get in a grump, so OH does too, so we're both in an arse with each other and neither of us will unbend. I can see us splitting up over it, but I can't help myself. I can't be happy for friends or family who have acheived anything fantastic, I just say well done and quietly seethe it isnt me, despite not doing anything to make it happen for myself.

I am jealous of people with money, people who are confident within themselves, people who seem to drift through life with no worries or problems at all.

Major changes may be happening at work. Owner of shop not happy with Big Manager so AM and MM having meeting with him a week on Monday. :crossfingers: my job title/pay gets bumped up a bit. SillyCow (SC) and StupidBoy (SB) working tomorrow. Might be horribly mean, might ignore pair of them and do all the fricking work myself.

Food wise, not good. Not Horribly Bad, but not angelic, like I'd hoped. 1000 calories on bike though.

1 salad I made myself - lettuce, rocket, cherry tomatoes, spring onion, ham, mozzerella, boiled egg white (yolk didnt cook properly) and salad cream. 1 kiwi fruit, 1 packet french fries. So far so good. THEN 5 Minstrals, half a bacon & cheese panini, half a satsuma, some of those rice cracker things, 4 Lindt chocolates, same tea as yesterday, 5 cups of tea, 3 Roses chocolates.

Had put 2lbs on this morning, so expecting more tomorrow :(

Shock

2lbs off today, so a stone in total :thud: since I started.

Only 300calories on the bike :blush: but as I was planning on allowing myself to succumb to cold and do bugger all, I'm quite pleased I did that.

1 ham & pie d'angloys minifrench stick, 3 Lindt chocolates, bowl yoghurt with rasp/blue/blackberries, 1 apple bake bar, 1 slice mozzerella, 1 huge bite of french stick & chocolate spread, half slice bread & flora. Tonight, sausages & pasta in tomato and marscapone sauce, dessert - 3 Lindt chocolates, 1 banana, cold custard. Half bottle rose wine

No weight loss this week

I'm sure of it, another bad day today.

4 cups of tea, 1 large biscuit with icing, limey chicken & pilau rice, 4 belgian chocolates, 3 biscuits with toffee & chocolate on, some Japanese Rice Crackers (whatever they are...) salt and vinegar French Fries, and a salad from some place which delivers - was great but about 1000000 calories. Lettuce, onions, peppers, gerkins, rocket, sweetcorn, chicken, egg, mozzerella.....It was good :nod:

I cant be arsed to type anymore, done my 1000 calories on bike, but why dont I have any self control? Tempted to do more later, but my arse HURTS.

I miss horses, but bizarrely, it's the mucking out I miss. How....odd.

Still in a constant foul mood :rolleyes:

Easiest £25 I've ever earnt....

Just been doing some market research, took an hour, was given a twix and a cup of tea, and was given £25 and sent merrily on my way. Result!

Food: (bad!!) half a bacon sandwich, pot of blue/rasp/blackberries, porridge, cheese & onion french fries, 5 cups of tea, beef, mashed potatoes, 2 yorkshire puddings, beans, carrots, gravy, mint sauce, 2 slices salami, 1 huge chunk pie d'angloys, 1 twix finger, 10 (TEN!!!) Roses chocolates, half bottle Rose Gallo wine.

Bad. Done 1200 calories. Nearly dead.

Work, soso.

Yummyyyyyyyyy

Bad Food Day :rolleyes:

am currently PLUS 2lbs to what I was on Wednesday so thought fuck it and have eaten Bad Stuff today :rolleyes:

4 cups of tea, roast beef (salmon cut, no fat, apparently) 2 HUGE yorkie puddings, brussells, carrots, tiny potato, mint sauce, gravy, porridge, pack maltesers, 2 spoons of beef stew, pack salt & vinegar french fries.

:eek:

Done 1000 calories on the bike though, and my pedometre would have me believe that I've burnt nearly 200c at work. I doubt it though.

hungry still :blush: and I am literally just finishing my last mouthful of Fat Tea.

:bawling: I hate shopping

Went to FatShop.

I dont fit in their trousers, nor the ones a friend gave me as I have put ON size.

Eaten: 2 x jelly-cherries, 1 bowl of plain yoghurt, blueberries, raspberries and blackberries, limey chicken & rice for tea, 2 cups of tea, 2 x croissants with nutella, 1000 calories on the bike.

Bad Food Day

Added to being a spoilt brat and 'everybody hates me' :rolleyes:

I am being horrific to OH, I know I am, but I cant quite stop myself and I hate myself for it.

Food: Half a bacon & mushroom sandwich (white bread), blueberries, porridge, c&o French Fries, 3 cups of tea, 1 french stick sandwich with ham & pie d'angloys and for tea we are having wine, (homemade) pizza and garlic bread.

To counteract this, I have done 1000 calories on the bike and did 130 at work. Pedometre seems fine now, so maybe I was more active than I thought yesterday. Doubtful.

Cross with myself with the sandwiches - as soon as I smelt it at work I HAD to have some, and then tonight, I was so hungry I could have eaten the kitten. Hadnt helped that we went food shopping straight from work.

still being a brat

Another day, another foul mood.

Caught 2 members of staff, who having had a verbal warning yesterday, having a biscuit eating contest :banghead: I need to learn to be more assertive, fast!!

Eating wise : 3 cups of tea, tub of blueberries and raspberries mixed, porridge, salt and vinegar french fries, 1 chocolate biscuit, half a sausage sandwich and beef stew (beef, lentily stuff, 3 homemade dumplings, brocolli and carrots in it) for tea.

Very nasty weather - road to work was allegedly shut due to floods - we had 77 customers in ALL DAY.

Something else I wanted to blog, but cant remember what it was. Have done my 800calories on the bike, contemplating doing another 200, but I'll get cross now if I dont manage 1000 any other day.....BUT if I only do 800 today, I might get bored and only do 600 tomorrow. This is where my self discipline really has to kick in. Pedometre said 241 calories by the time I finished work - bollocks cos I have done very little today. I must have managed to change my weight or something.

*spoilt brat moment*

I'm in a foul mood this evening and no idea why. Well, I'm more than slightly pissed off at the pathetic 1lb off this week, but I knew that was coming.

OH has confiscated my scales. I've been fine all day about that, dont think its that.

The big managers told off *my* staff, which technically is my fault as I have been pleading with their better nature to behave and actually work. Clearly they both hate me and I now have to be horrid to them. I can do that. That hasnt pissed me off.

I am tired though - that could be it.

I have done 1000calories on the bike tonight - 400 before work, 600 during this evening. Took me 2hours 20 minutes all told - the most boring 2h20 I think I've ever done and my arse is killing. Needed to though - definately did not do my 100 calories at work, and somehow my pedometre keeps setting itself to zero. Last time I saw it I think it was about 60ish - this was about 4pm though so no chance I did enough to get to 100c before finished work.

I'm also annoyed because something I said about someone (which I was told I would be backed up with :rolleyes: ) -in a public place, no secrets- didnot go down too well with friends. My 'friends' who said they would back me up would apparently rather stick with the group. Oh well. Actually, it probably was that. I've been in an arse since then.

Anyway, food: handful blueberries, handful raspberries, porridge, swiss roll (hence the extra 200c!), cheese & onion French Fries, toad in the hole, brussells, carrots gravy.

One poxy stupid pound. :grumps:

I hate days off

If I worked, constantly, with my OT at time & a half - I could be out of debt by November! Some hope.

1 scotch egg, 2 cream & jam biscuits, 1 cup of tea, handful blueberries, handful raspberries, pasta, cheese sauce, chicken breast, peas, sausages, 250ml smoothie (55kcals per 100ml), 3/4's bottle of white wine. OH was meant to be sharing, but obviously I drink quicker :lol:

Managed my 1000calories on the bike today, but my god does my arse hurt now :lol: Wont be able to do it on a work day. Spent the evening in the bath ridding stray hairs before weigh day tomorrow - then promptly heavied-myself back up again by pouring moisturiser into everywhere that had been plucked/shaved. Typical.

My picture came today, I LOVE it. Need to find a nice frame now :lol:

Pfffffft

I Am Stuffed - I've just eaten tea.

Did 400calories on the bike before work this morning, still only 100 at work (is my pedometre stuck at 100?! :lol: ) and another 400 this evening. My knees are about to give out :lol:

Not looking good for a weightloss this week :(

4 cups of tea, 1 clementine, 1 banana, 1 bowl porridge, 1 packet french fries, 1 almond raison & cranberry bar, lasagne, lettuce and garlic ciabatta bread. Very yummy, but 284calories a quarter and me and OH split it in half!!

ETA@10.40 - just done another 120 calories on the bike.....

I've got 21 calories to go, 21 calories to gooooo

Sung in style of craig david :nod: Its amused me so much today that by the time I've stopped singing it, I'm more or less at the 100 mark I aim for.

Just got 100 calories left to do on the bike - managed 100 at work, just!! We're only open for 6 hours on a Sunday opposed to the usual 8.5, so was harder work today.

Served somebody Famous in the shop as well - she was nice :) but vv clueless about what food for her dog :lol:

Food: 1 bowl porridge, 1 satsuma, 1 banana, 1 packet salt & vinegar French Fries. Tea is Lasagne and garlic ciabatta bread & lettuce. 3 cups of tea.

I'm hungry now.

Hmmmm, not hungry now :lol: Very yummy tea, and done my 100 calories on bike. Next week I think I should think about upping it :unsure: as weight has stabalized :cross:

I'm unmotivated again. I've just done another 100 on the bike, so 800calories on bike and 100 at work today.

I better have lost weight in the morning :grumps: