:thud: A Reply!!

At midnight last night and :S dunno.

'Is everything ok? I've just seen post on the forum :S I sent you a txt the day before yesterday, didnt you get it? And I went to the internet cafe but you went offline. Havent spoken to the vet re Dectomax but visit is already booked and she did say at the time no other treatment available. Have to work on Sunday. If you come Monday, I have 2 hours off over lunch but not allowed holidays yet as only been here a couple of weeks. You can come and see her on your own no probs, no one will bother you and can definately skive for half an hour or so :)'

So, hmmm. At 2am I came to the conclusion I *may* tell her the sale is off (there is nothing in writing as such to say M was ever offered for sale) and update the contract, put in a few more specific clauses.

Am still yet to reply to the text. Not sure what to put. No weight loss.

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9.30pm. replied, saying I didnt like the fact I'd sent 7 messages to her 1 reply, and re-asked all the questions I asked in previous texts. Still waiting for an answer. She's been online.

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), quavers, grapes, 2 mini yorkie bars, half a packet maltesers (:blush:), limey chicken, pilau rice, 6 biscuits

Exercise: 50 lengths in the pool

Nearly 36 hours later

I still dont have a reply! I sent another text at around 7pm as well, no reply to that either.There are Plans in place!

Went to gym this eve, but didnt manage whole routine - it was PACKED. Will try not to go on a Monday evening again I think, it was so busy. Or if I do go, will go later than tonight. Didnt get on rower, leg press,seated row or pec flies.

Finally have an almost date for my review! Either Wednesday or Thursday morning.Starting to prepare my speech.

Food: salad (ham & salad cream), yoghurt, quavers, maltesers, tomato and pasta bake, HUGE garlic bread, banoffi pie (bought when I thought I was going to do whole gym routine!)

Exercise: Gym, 60 sit ups

Hiccups!

Had them since about 4pm, they stopped while I was at the gym but have not started again - but I HAVE eaten my tea very quickly!

Odd day, lots of texts sent, but none in return. Still waiting for a reply from one I sent 10hours ago. Sigh.

Did a bit less at the gym today - 15minutes on treadmill (after 11 warmup), 15 on cross trainer and 10 on rower, then weights. I feel like I've worked though!!

Food: salad (ham/cheddar/salad cream), muller light, quavers, pasta bake with pork and tomato, garlic bread

Exercise: gym, 20 sit ups

Difficult Dilemmas

My pony is poorly - has a very bad back. I really dont know what to do for the best. V is being uncommunicative other than to tell me about the leg mites (what leg mites?!) and vets way of clearing them up *I* don't agree with, but... Nor do I really agree with the 'turn away and dose with painkillers for a month' attitude to her back. Am sat here absolutely bawling my eyes out, can't help but think of my dream the other night where she died, but can't afford to have her back really, but right now...Oh, I dont know. Fuck, shit, bollocks, arse.

Might ring SelfishN and see what she thinks.

Not going to gym today - not that stiff considering, but need a(nother!) day off. Feel awful about the horse now.

Now spending the day uploading more songs to the mp3 player. I can forget how long things (exercise!) takes with it on. My saviour LOL.

Food: 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes, 12 biscuits, garlic ciabatta, pasta with tomato and marscapone cheese.

No exercise

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Rang SelfishN. She thinks I should take her back :S I dont know what to do. People I have discussed it with also think I should take her back. Finally had a text from V, says a lot without saying anything, and still no response to most of my questions. So have sent another text back, and no response to that one. I know she's tired, but :S Someone tell me what to do, I really dont want to be a bitch and I'm trying not to be a selfish brat, but :'(

Fuck fuck fuck

I need to learn the word 'no' !!

Or self restraint. One of the 2. Preferably both!

Odd day at work, horrid atmosphere. Both MrD & SC are being really 'please watch me do this so no one thinks I'm stealing'. LovelyM thinks its outragous that his 'till priviledges' have been taken away, which I semi agree with but also agree with the fact they *have* been taken away. *dizzy* lol. Didnt really get much done.

S appears to have split up with her boyfriend. Again.

Went to the gym this evening, did 20mins (inc cooldown) on cross trainer, 33 on treadmill (11mins warm up, 22 fast walk and cooldown), then 15mins on rower for first time! Think I did it all wrong and on the highest setting :S Did 144calories in 15 minutes. Burnt about 600 I think in total on the cardio stuff, then I did my weights.

Food: porridge, banana, dime bar, quavers, muller light, 1 pie d'angloys and ham french stick sandwich, 1 big bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, 4 sweet biscuits! See, wheres that self restraint! Just as well I did the 15mins on the rower.

Exercise: gym.

Bah

It would appear I might have had the tiniest weightloss since yesterday. Going out tonight and will eat Fat Food. Bah.
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6pm. Joy. Just got home to find we have no water. May not be going now.

Food: salad (chicken/cheddar/cranberry sauce), greek yoghurt, blueberries, raspberries, packet quavers, 1 bacon and cheese burger with bun, chips, coleslaw, salad, tomato sauce, half a slice of cheesy garlic bread, sticky toffee pudding and custard.

Exercise: none.

Bah indeed. Good night though, nice to see everyone.

:bawling:

No weight change whatsoever this week.

I'm so glad I've swum so far and been to the gym 4 times.

Whinge whinge whinge. Yes, I am in an arse about it. Why can't my body do what it's SUPPOSED to?

Anyway, just back from work. A significant amount of money has gone missing in the last week or so. Only 2 people that could have done it - SC and MrD. Sadly, *I* suspect the latter although....bah, I dont know.

Food: porridge, banana, muller light, 2 biscuits, pasta, cheese sauce, sausages, peas, garlic bread, natural yoghurt, handful blueberries, handful raspberries

Exercise: 40 lengths swimming

Fat but also fit LOL

Went to lunch with SelfishN. Went to White Hart. Very nice, very posh, very expensive. Didn't help that I had spilt petrol all over myself when filling my car up and stank the place out. :blush: Lunch was really nice though. I got 5 minutes to talk about me and my stuff *shock* but then things went downhill until it was time for my fictional Drs appointment :blush: I'm so awful.

Came home, pottered about for a bit, then went to gym with S. Was quite fun, did my usual workout, and have increased the reps on my weights, so now I do 3 sets of 8. Must remember to keep counting though!!! Moved up to level 5 on the cross trainer too and by the time we finished on the treadmill, the incline was at 4.0 and speed at 6kph. Very red by time I had finished and my legs ache now! I must be crazy to be considering going swimming tonight too! Was fun doing it with S, much easier to stay motivated I think and it helped we're both competitive, although obviously she's far fitter than I am. Hopefully we're going to go next Wednesday as well - fingers crossed this turns into something we do when we both have a day off together.

In other news....apparently, reviews are for definate next week, while G is off. I am hoping this is a good thing.

Food: spaghetti, cream sauce, mushrooms, smoked bacon, half a pizza sized garlic bread, 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes and milk, 5 biscuits.

Exercise: gym, 70 lengths in pool

Irritated

9am this morning, I was in the gym, had done my 10mins warm up and was on the leg press, when who should I see walk in, but IrritatingColin who I used to work with :thud: I ignored him and he did likewise although the gym is so small we couldnt fail but to see each other, especially when he went on the pec fly thing RIGHT IN FRONT of my cross trainer. Got incredibly sweaty on the cross trainer, I swear went quicker but burnt less calories? Odd. So, irritations number 1&2.

Irritation 3 - Bank Holiday, had to work. Funny day. Not busy yet still didnt manage to get much done at all. I was knackered anyway, despite it not feeling (mentally!) like I'd done much at the gym, had irritating customers all day (I love my job, I love my job) and then home to find ...

Irritation 4 - the cat appears to have been sick, numerous times. Mostly on our bed. OH had washed the duvet, so have stuck the bottom sheet and pillows on too.

Irritation 5 - SelfishN is back, and has found out tomorrow is my day off. Have invented a Drs appt to go to in the afternoon, but know my morning is now ruined as will have to trail round after her all morning, listening to herherher. I'm so awful, but I know if I was in a position where I needed the help I've given her or advice or whatever, I know I would be given her opinion, that is what I should do and there would be no further comment on it. FFS, when my horse went on loan, she drove us there (for a fee!), and while I spent the whole time in tears, she wittered on about boy trouble!! Forgive me if I sound bitter.

Irritation 6 - well, there is no irritation 6, yet. No, there is. Why have I not lost weight, and why, knowing this, have I agreed to go out, far away, on Thursday, so no time for the gym? part of me thinks my body isnt used to the gym routine and I should just swim tomorrow and weds, and 'nothing' on Thursday, but the other part thinks 'I'm really not going to lose weight with that attitude'. I dont know, I might swim AND gym tomorrow, or I might go to the gym Friday evening instead :nolife: I also appear, at long last, to be having some kind of excuse of a period. Maybe that will help...

Irritation 7 - I have no self control whatsoever and have had chocolate, a quarter of garlic bread and a slice of pizza today. Therefore have cancelled out the gym-going this morning.

I have also decided that when I get a repeat prescription for the Pill, I will make sure I see a Dr, point out that all weight loss appears to have stopped since I went on Cerazette, my periods have stopped and am generally tired, ratty and moody. Am also going to ask for Fat Pills I think.

Irritation 8 - I think I have another cold starting.

Food: 1 slice ham and mushroom takeaway pizza, 1 quarter home made garlic bread, half a slice homemade pizza, half a penguin, half a blue riband, 1 chunk dairy milk, 1 chicken, cheddar and cranberry sauce salad, 1 muller light, 1 banana, chicken, boiled potatoes & butter, carrots, green beans, gravy, cranberry sauce, 2 rice cakes, 1 laughing cow light triangle.

Exercise: Gym.

Going to need my day off on Tuesday!

Even so, I can't imagine that the ensuing exercise will in any way, shape or form forgo the gluttony which I am about to partake in. Bah.

Went swimming this morning - did 70 lengths :thud: Finding it very easy to sit here now and say I could have done 80lengths fairly happily...although, I really think I could have done. By the time I got to 60lengths I had a proper energy surge, and while it didnt make me QUICKER exactly, I just kept plugging on. Took 80 minutes, so not great but not exactly shabby either. Bank Holiday tomorrow, so off to the gym at 9am to fit it in before work. With S coming round, this could mean I end up with about 3 hours sleep :lol:

Work....pah. While I do enjoy my job, customers do irritate me occasionally. Although MrD sold a collar and a choke chain to someone doing a bondage show!!

Food: Salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), snack a jacks, muller light, 3 apple custard sucky sweets, pizza, garlic bread, wine, 1 caramel, some tangy cola sweets.

Exercise: 70 lengths in the pool, 40 minutes (416calories) on the bike.

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S & her OH have just gone...they brought their (lab) puppy with them. Once Kitten was over his shock they played together fairly happily, as far as a 8month old dog can be about being chased by a cat.

Stiff!!

Had a horrid awful dream last night, dreamt Pony was shot because she wouldn't travel. Took me ages to cry :S but since then havent really stopped. Texted V at 7am this morning, requesting a picture :blush: she must think I'm crazy, but at least it was better than at 4am which was when I originally woke up! Have been in an iffy mood since then. I know it was only a dream, but still :(

Was stiff from the gym today, kept myself busy at work though by stocking up all day. Very tired now though.

Eaten lots and not exercised much.

Food: 1 handful each of grapes, blueberries and raspberries, 1 laughing cow light triangle, 1 packet snack a jacks (BBQ), porridge, banana, muller light, 1 chewit, some stolen chips, 5 biscuits, chicken, bacon, mozzerella, boiled potatoes with butter, carrots, beans, gravy, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream

Exercise: 1 walk (the 'backwards, 3hills walk on the chevin lol), 20 minutes (210 calories) on bike.

S & her OH coming over tomorrow night, so there will be pizza, garlic bread and lots of wine :S watch that weight pile back on...

oooh, check me out!

Went to the gym tonight :lol: was meant to be a 'night off' bearing in mind it's friday, but went anyway. No one outwardly laughed at me, despite me being very hot (bright red!!!) and sweaty, doing obviously a quarter of everyone else. Was a bit, not embarrassing, but...I dont what the word is, but it was that, watching everyone else doing huge weights/hours on cardio machines, then me putting them down to lowest weights and settings when I got on. Had an embarrassing moment when I couldnt get the cross trainer to work - must remember to press HARDER!

It was still fun, even if I did muck up the times on the cross trainer, so I ended up doing more. No bad thing though! As long as it isnt too busy, I think I shall quite enjoy it. Was humilating watching myself on the cross trainer though - unwittingly picked a machine right in front of a mirror. MP3 player was a godsend. Must put some more songs on it, as long as I remember than when I'm on the cross trainer, I shouldnt let go or move my feet, other wise I get disorientated :lol:

Work not too bad today, stayed in the shed for most of it, but SC REEKED. Of, well, piss. Has finally taken water bowls for those poor dogs. Spaced my food out over the whole day, which meant I wasn't hungry - fab. Did eat a lot today though :lol:

My gym workoutas of today is: (no laughing at the back...or anywhere)
10mins warmup - free choice, but will use treadmill, gradually increasing difficulty
then weights: leg press = 2 x 8 reps of 52kg, shoulder press = 2 x 8 reps of 15kg, seated row = 2 x 8 reps of 14kg, pec flies = 2 x 8 reps of 14kg, arm ext 2 x 8 reps of 10kg and arm curl 2 x 8 reps of 15kg. Cardio = 15mins + cooldown of cross trainer on level 4 - tended to go at 7-8kph and then 15mins + cooldown of treadmill again, but increasing difficulty, so by 12minutes am on incline 3 and walking at 5.7kph till cooldown kicks in. Very glad for that then LOL.

Food: 1 x smoothie, 1 x pack of 30g snack a jacks (cheese), 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/LOTS of salad cream), 1 muller light, 5 chewits, 1 whole packet maltesers, half bottle white wine, half garlic ciabatta, pasta, cheese sauce, bacon and peas, 2 peices of turkish delight.

Exercise: gym.

I am glad I went tonight, reminded me it wasnt so scary on my own. Was hoping occasionally to do gym and swim, but will have to work up to that very gradually I think LOL. Am very glad I went, especially as I only decided at 3pm that I would consider it and the whole way there I was getting myself worked up.

Just remembered, went to pick up 30kg today and couldnt do it! unheard of LOL so even if the exercises do feel easy, they're doing something!

nervous nervous nervous

Gym induction in half hour. Very nervous :lol:

Just been to vote for the first time ever. Fairly painless.

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Pooofffff!! I think I can see myself getting addicted to the gym! Had a great time, as much as I can do getting hot and sweaty on my own :rolleyes: :lol: Have to do 10mins on treadmill to warm up, then upper body machines for 2 sets of 8 reps each I think, then 15minutes each on a combination of 2 on the cross trainer, rower, bike and treadmill again, but working harder than in the warm up. HOW MUCH FUN was the cross trainer?! :lol: I really enjoyed it. Didnt burn as many calories as I hoped though. My bike calorie counter is DEFINATELY wrong!! Wasn't hugely out of breath either, but WAS sweaty....must remember to take a towel and a drink on Monday. I ache a bit now though!

Food: 1 baguette with salami & pie d'angloys, some snack a jacks, limey chicken and basmati rice, 1 piece turkish delight, 1 twix top.

Exercise: Gym, walk with OH and K

Work was fairly boring today. SC REALLY smelt. Then I got a text from S, who said she'd gone and got it from the pile of dirty clothes by the washer, that had been there since AT LEAST Saturday. Well, OH & I saw it on Saturday, and it had been there a *while* before. Ick. I can't understand it, I really can't.

Will ache tomorrow!! I am a bit worried I'll forget how to use the equipment though :blush: and will make sure MP3 has plenty of batteries! What I might do is the 10 mins warm up on treadmill, then my reps, then the 2 x cardio (check me out, sounding like a gym person!), then come home and do 15 mins on bike as a cool down. Maybe. In theory it sounds easy and doable, in practice I could be half dead come Monday evening :lol:

Slightly less demoralised

After spending til 3.30 this morning wide awake, thinking constantly....Must have burnt off some calories, cos I am 1lb off where I was 2 weeks ago :crossedfingers: So shockingly, a weight loss week.

Still havent come on since I started this new Pill, but started my last packet of 3 on Monday so will trundle off to Docs for more and have a chat with them. Noticeably harder to lose weight since being on it too and more mood swings. The way I am going, I will have no friends left by July.

Gym induction tomorrow morning, and an afternoon of overtime! I must be crazy lol. Have 45minutes to get back from gym, shower, change, eat and go again!

Sports bra arrived today as well. What a peice of equipment! Belly jiggles more than boobs do :lol: takes me 10 minutes to get in the damned thing.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/LOTS of salad cream), 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, pasta and bolognese sauce, garlic ciabatta, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream, 1 finger Mars delight.

Exercise: 2.5ish mile walk (2 out-of-breath hills), 34 lengths swimming.

Shocked and amazed I am still awake. I fully intended not to go swimming tonight, I was so tired. Wish I had gone a bit earlier though, cos I bet had I not been so adament I was only doing 34 lengths I would have done the whole mile.

I am annoyed its taking me so long to get back to where I was. I know it will come off (it has to, I will actually go crazy if i am still this weight at the end of the month) but...I get so irrationally upset. I can't see it coming off, my scales say it isnt coming off and so does the tape measure. But why am I working so hard for what feels like most of the time, absolutely nothing?

disappointed

Having such a miserable, irritated time at the minute. Everything irritates or upsets me, even when people have been trying to help. I hate it when I text someone a question (which to me is highly important!) and they dont reply until they see me on MSN or the next day etc. OH keeps asking why I am constantly so grumpy. I don't know, I really wish I did.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, 2 smoothies, 2 griddled lamb burgers, huge handful grated mozzerella, lettuce, rocket, tomatoes, 1 red onion, 4 shittake mushrooms, new potatoes with a blob of butter. Stuffed!

Exercise: A pathetic 50 lengths, hence why I am disappointed. It was such hard work too.

Still, am now an official member of the gym.

Unmotivated and Upset

I KNOW that I've eaten shit this weekend, but to have put on 5lbs worth of shit? When I've been walking/bike too? Snot fair, and when I get my repeat prescription for the Pill I'm going to ask about Fat Pills again.

OH's sister in law asked me last night if I'd lost weight. I said no, mainly because it would be round West Yorkshire in about 5 seconds that 'FatBloater is on a diet', people will laugh and then laugh harder when it doesnt come off. I think I was expected to say something about her weight loss (she has slimming world certificates everywhere), but....you can't tell yet. I dont think you can anyway :blush: Does that make me a bitch? Also slightly mollified as she's clearly lost a fair amount to get those certificates, and OH said he couldnt tell any difference either.

Done 30minutes (300calories) on the bike already, had my mp3 player on and played with my phone and just got on with it. The gym is going to be hugely embarrassing, I get so sweaty, so quickly.

Been for a very minimal walk with S & her dogs, to the tennis courts at the park and back. Will convince OH to go to the chevin with me tonight when he finishes work.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light cheese, 1 muller light, 1glace cherry, beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream.

Exercise: 61 minutes on bike (600calories) 50 sit ups, walk round Chevin. Went the 'wrong' way round, so did the 'so big you nearly run down it' hill, but upwards, then went along the bridlepath and then turned left up the next hill (as high as the first hill), back down the way we went up (still with me?!) then back to the car the normal way. So 3 hills in total! Was sweaty & out of breath, so thats good surely.

Went to SCs house to get the dogs with S. It's....I can't even explain it, she doesnt wash - herself or her clothes, she's been wearing the same fleece (m2 gave her it!) since October last year, she neglects her horse, she leaves her dogs in tiny crates all day with no water, we looked in her fridge (we're so awful) and it has some potatoes (?!), out of date sausages, some hard cheese and a mouldy cucumber. She doesnt cook, she just gets take aways. There is mouldy pizza in her bedroom :bluergh: How? I genuinely dont understand how anyone could live like that. I know I was bordering on it when I was with ex, but... I still bathed and my clothes were clean. That poor horse though, she expected to get £10k for her, we told her that was ridiculous, so now she's advertising at £6k. The idea she'll get it is laughable.

Talking of horses....V is being kind of uncommunicative atm. Just dont want her to forget that until she's paid for, she IS still my horse, and I want to come and see her. I don't know, I'm being irritable about almost everything atm. Maybe I'm just over reacting.

Its nice to walk round the chevin, and think of just how lovely it would be to hack round there daily, if only I had a horse. It's harder to remember how much I actually hate hacking and how nervous and uptight I get, and the chevin would just be a minefield. All those joggers and dogs and rustly things in bushes. Its very easy to be a good rider as long as you dont have to be physically within 10foot of a horse :nod:

Have asked a solicitor about divorce, lots of questions about what ex is and isnt entitled to, any future claim he has, if anything, over stuff I do (mortgage) before we get divorced etc.

My sports bra still hasnt turned up, so have ordered another one from a different site. :unsure: Havent got order confirmation from b2g and can't get on their webpage. :wibble: so with this other damned bra costing about a billion pounds, I have spent £70 on bras in last 2 weeks :eek:

More Piggery

Walked down to the Farmers Market in the town centre this morning. Bought OH some wild venison haunch, some buffalo burgers, some lamb burgers (I'm thinking BBQ!), some soaps, some Yorkshire Punch, some shitake mushrooms, and sticky toffee pudding which OH announced he wont eat when I got home as it has dates in it :rolleyes: There was a stall selling buffalo burgers (cooked), god they smelt good. Took all of my self restraint not to have one, especially when they did it with mozzerella, onions and mushrooms. Mmmmmmm. I want one. Just as well they've gone home now, otherwise I would talk back and get one!

Walked back, was just hanging washing out and S rang to see if I wanted to take the dogs for a walk with her, so off we went down by the river.

Spent most of the morning putting songs onto my MP3 player, had a great time :blush: :lol: Now trying to convince people to lend me their cds so I can pinch more music :lol:

Seeing the pony next month, can't wait.

I'm very tired today, we were at S' drinking wine till 2am this morning, glad it was just OH who had to work today! Can't really motivate myself to do anything really. Early night tonight....rock n roll.

Food: half bag smarties, 2 rice cakes with 1 laughing cow light cheese triangle, muller light. Tea is roast beef, yorkshire puddings, potatoes, mushrooms, carrots, green beans and gravy with Supergold ice cream for after.

Exercise: Walk round chevin, walk into town and back this morning.

A Fat Pig Day

Where does my diet willpower go on a weekend? Bah. Have had a day off with OH, so went up to Brymors in Masham for ice cream :wub: and we decided we were going to get our wedding cake made there :lol: Drove through the Dales on the way home....Lovely, although a bit hair raising in places!

Having a lovely nerdy day going through all my songs to find ones I want on my mp3 player for the gym-going. Lots of chavvy songs (Bob Sinclar :lol: ) some fun ones to make me smile half way through (B*witched!) and then some of my songs.

Food: 1 ham & mushroom omelette with salad and coleslaw, 1 glass full cream dairy milk, 1 bag smarties, 1 waffle double cone with 2 scoops ice cream, 1 sausage roll, pizza and garlic bread, 1 bottle pink wine.

Exercise: 40 minutes on bike (400calories) walk round chevin.

Had my photo taken for my gym card today :blush: they're AWFUL. And I'm stuck with them for a year. Bah.

Gaaaah

Must not let myself get stressed by idiotic customers. Was really upset though today by one woman who was lovely in the shop, I checked she wanted junior food and not adult or puppy, she definately wanted junior, but then this afternoon rang back (I answered) and accused me of not doing my job properly cos she'd taken the wrong thing, and then told me I was a liar. Admittedly, I didn't handle it that well, but was close to tears for the rest of the afternoon.

Still no review, but yes to a payrise *dances* a whole 3%. So that should make up what the extra tax has taken from my old wage.

My mp3 player arrived today so suspect will spend most of tomorrow playing with it :lol: It's TINY, about quarter the size of my phone, which is hardly brick-size.

AND!!!! We've found a puppy!! Sadly it won't be born till next year, but need to think of a champagne-related name. Grandma is called Bollinger and Mummy is Tattinger! But Corinna isn't breeding Tat till next year, so will have to be patient. Bah. Anyway, plenty of time to save!! Also, just ready to come live in chaos with builders, pah.

Food: 4 fingers minty kitkat (must instruct Danny to eat them all, I have no self control), salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, a couple of forkfuls of super noodles (mmm, I like super noodles!!), pork casserole with yorkshire pudding, apple sauce and gravy again, a mini magnum, milk chocolate in a strawberry truffle and half a bottle of wine. Oh well, the wagon can be hitched back up tomorrow. I dont care.... That customer I said about at the top REALLY upset me.

Exercise: 2 mile walk round Chevin, 100 sit ups.

Eeeeeek

Have just booked induction at gym - 10.30am next Thursday! Must be crazy :lol: Will take about an hour, need to wear trainers (and sports bra :lol: ), my gym membership form, 2 photographs and the money (cash!) for first months payment.

AND....I got home to an email from Amazon to say my mp3 player had been dispatched - fab!

Exercise: 2 mile walk on chevin

Food: 1 banana, 2 fingers minty kitkat, porridge, muller light, pork stew, big yorkshire pudding and a pastry custardy thing, 1 caramel sweet.

AND!!!! I might have found a puppy :ph34r: advert says: well bred pedigree labrador puppies for sale. Father is a working field champion and mother comes from a line of field champions. Dogs and bitches, black and golden- ready at 7 weeks. Good homes only.

Means they're ready end of May... Just need to show OH the advert... (showed OH the advert, pups are from Harehills. Being total snobs and suspect pups wont be what we want. so search goes ever onwards)

Weigh Day

A loss! Not much admittedly, and am still more than I was this time last month, but...it's back on the downwards trend again - huzzah!

We're babysitting for OHs sister tonight, so no swimming, but hopefully going to go tomorrow morning instead. We're WERE going to walk there too - its a mile and all flat, but hey, it was still going to be a walk. I've actually missed going on the chevin the last couple days, I guess thats a good thing! Unfortunately we ran a bit late.... So HAD to go in car.

Food: salad (ham, mozerella, salad cream), muller light, 1 mint KitKat (2 fingers), 1 easter egg, bolognese sauce and pasta, garlic bread.

Measured myself again this morning. There is a (significant!) change in my thighs, even though you can't tell :(, but waist and hips have put on. Minimal amounts, but still, it is a gain. So clearly the biking and walking is working for the pins, but hips? waist? I really thought swimming would help there.

I've had 5 hours sleep, so I am going to be the grumpiest bitch EVER today. Not looking forwards to work, M2 (SC day off), the builders and customers.

I WANT to go to the gym, I just dont want people seeing me sweaty, out of breath and struggling.

Exercise: 100 sit ups

Spoiltus Brattus

What a horrid day. Building work started in earnest as they got the rest of the wooden 'sheeting' up around where they're knocking the wall down, and drilling and Big Loud Noises abounds ALL FUCKING AFTERNOON. I have a cracking headache now. Made 100% worse by not being able to hear a damned thing, people being too stupid or ignorant to take heed of 'please look at me while you talk', or just plain complaining about the fact there was noise/things had moved/being generally irritating, such as asking me where to get Lion poo from. Gah. She looked at me gone out when I suggested the zoo.

Then, a man in a suit came in, and announced that the wall which we're having knocked down is a supporting wall and the whole place will fall in. Joy! So we have to have a supporting beam apparently, but needs to be dug down to the foundations, which are 6ft deep.

SC is still following M2 around like a sheep. It is very irritating now. Especially as I suspect he and his wife (oh, yes, he is married and has a young son, and she is getting married next year. As if!) are having major difficulties and she (SC) is Not Helping. Work would be unbearable if those 2 got together.

Food: Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) 1 muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 laughing cow light triangle divided between them, 2 squares shortbread, pizza, garlic bread.

Exercise: 100 situps, 50 lengths swimming. Very busy in the pool tonight.

This losing weight better be damned well worth it...I am constantly tired, snappy and miserable.

Big Sigh

What an odd day.

Did NOT want to get up this morning, ached everywhere after 3 mammoth walks :lol: Got up, got to work and remembered the builders were meant to be knocking the main wall down today, so had 4 shelves and a set of racking to clear and find space for. Found space on a rickety old table and was promptly told they needed the table moving too. Moaning customers, plain irritating customers, stupid customers... I had them all today, I did NOT feel customer orientated by the end of the day, especially when one particular customer refused to take any advice whatsoever, wanted the world ordering in for her, then complained about the price.

SC and her 'thing' with M2 is REALLY pissing me off now. If we lose M2, we just need to listen for SCs girly laugh and we'll find him :rolleyes: She smells bad as well, its getting horrid, but I dont know how or what to say to her.

Went on another huge walk this evening after work - walked from the carpark, to almost the top of Leeds Road, then back down to re join the path where we normally turn up the hill, and then carried on with our walk as normal. Reckon it must have been about 3miles this time and some hills. My bottom and legs ache tremendously now though :lol: Will be glad of swimming tomorrow for the rest (ha!). Going to ask as well if I can book an induction for the gym, and join up for the bodyline card.

Food: 1 salad (ham/salad cream/mozzerella), 1 smoothie, 5 squares of short bread, 4 squares of Lindt chocolate caramel, 1 lamb casserole with half a bread flute.

Exercise: 3 mile hilly walk, 60 sit ups

This gym lark is costing me a fortune already... Have just bought a Creative Zen 1GB MP3 player, using the vouchers mum got me for my birthday, and a sports bra, using my, ummm, credit card.

My legs ACHE. This walking must be doing something... Either that or I am going to have the biggest muscles in the UNIVERSE and thats why I'm not losing size. Have changed thinking about starting the gym this Thursday coming to next Thursday. That way my bra has time to turn up and I can get passport photos etc done for the card. Half looking forward to it, half dreading it. I know I will be elated the first time I walk out of the gym, having done a 'workout', but its whether I can do it, on my own, without finding an easier (and therefore, wrong) way of doing it, or just having a tantrum and throwing the towel in.

Was semi considering a second job to increase my money a bit, but.... I want to go to gym Monday and Thursday evenings, so those are out, I swim Tuesday and Wednesday evenings, so they're out. Sunday we go to OHs parents, can't work then, so that just leaves Friday and Saturday night, and despite the fact I never go out and I never do anything....I dont want to give them up. So it looks like thats a non-starter :lol:

I think that is a decision made....

I picked up a gym membership form from the pool today...If I've read it right, then it means that if I join, I have to pay £30 a month, but get to use everything (bar the classes) for free - including swimming. So it would be cheaper to get the card and even not use the gym.

I do think I need to join, it's just a/ getting over the fact boys will see me and b/ going on my own. But I COULD go on a Thursday, which leaves OH to have his night with K. And I'm not over impressed with the idea of some little tiny gym bunny knowing how much I weigh. And I didnt want to go swimming on my own, but I have.

Hmmm, this gym lark could end up costing a small fortune. I need new jogging bottoms (well, jogging bottoms, let alone new ones), a gym-only top, a sports bra, an MP3 player....

Been busybusy this morning, even cooking! Baked some short bread when I got home....It couldnt be described as a COMPLETE success... but it's edible.

Food: shortbread!! lots of it as well :(, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), smoothie, muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light. Roast lamb for tea, with green beans, carrots, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, gravy and mint sauce.

Exercise: 1 mile swimming, 2 mile brisk walk (same as with OH, just on my own and it would appear I walk quicker on my own :lol: )

And at 8.30pm, we have the crash...

WHY after 2 stone is there no SIZE loss??? What more can I do? Four nights a week I will be exercising at the gym/swimming, 2 nights I will be walking... what more can I do?

My next target is to have lost another stone by June.

Achey Breaky Legs

My legs ache after yesterdays walk!! And we're off to do it again in a bit. Work not too bad, was in a foul mood again at the beginning. Wish I knew why.

Toying with the idea of joining a gym...It would mean that I KNEW I was targetting the right areas and doing it properly. It's £30 a month though and it's £30 I dont have.

Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) I worked it out that it was a HUGE box and still under 200calories, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, half a dime bar, 1 stick of Kinder Bueno, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle of Laughing Cow Light, limey chicken, pilau rice, apple pie, clotted cream

Exercise: 1 big long walk round the Chevin (OH reckons about 2miles), 60 sit ups, 6 minutes rowing (250 reps)

Really am undecided about joining a gym. Part of me thinks it would be a good thing, the other says it will last as long as the bike. BUT....if I have someone showing me how and where to target to lose weight from where I want to...well, there's my motivation. BUT...its £30 I dont have.

In a funny mood again. I dont know why and I dont like it.

calorie counter site...useful

So much for biking 40minutes a night still. Swimming tomorrow. According to site above, that should burn about 500calories, assuming we swim a mile.

Another Tantrum

I have no idea whats up with me.... I am still having the most stupid irrational mood swings.

I'm still not entirely enthralled with the idea of these reviews....Apparently they're going to be next Friday now. Great - another week of waking up after dreaming about it. OH is coaching me through what I should say, but the way he puts it isn't what I want to say. He wants me to try and put a positive spin on things, which I can understand why, but....Whats positive about not having enough money to live (if I wasnt in the fortunate position of no rent/mortgage), feeling undervalued and taken for a bit of a fool?

I was REALLY looking forward to doing overtime on Sunday as its so rare I actually get any....N gets offered it first, then LovelyM, then the rest of the shop staff, then any of the three managers, as they can take a day off in lieu instead of being paid, and then, and only then, if none of them want it, am I offered it. It doesnt exactly make me want to help them out of tight situations, which I know is the wrong attitude, but...Oh, I dont know.

Then on top of that, the weight tantrum has kicked in. I am sick sick sick of being on that bastard bike. But I have semi made (another) decision.... I should just do 40 minutes EVERY DAY, whether I've been for a big long walk, or swimming, or whatever. 40 minutes is fairly do able.... Then I will be more inclined to do rowing/situps as well, which I havent done since my birthday.

Am also semi considering joining FatFighters and a gym, but its more money I don't have... I dont know :(

V&M moved to Milton Keynes today. Hope this one works out better for her. Last place was crazy :(

Food: 1 chocolate muffin, lots of minimini chocolate rolls, lots of minimini flapjacks, 1 pork & apple sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 strawberry bun, pasta, cheese sause and sausages, garlic bread, apple pie, clotted cream.

Exercise: Big walk around Chevin - we were out about an hour and included lots of hills. Legs ache now! Also 10minutes on bike.

All these bad things. I know I shouldnt have them, yet I can't say no :(

Looks like today could be busy

Have just done 20mins on bike and DWSarah has just rung to cancel our Tuesday night swimming forever ( :rolleyes: ). She's going to Weight Watchers with a friend on a Tuesday and I'm half tempted to get her to go for a couple of sessions and maybe join her IF I can still swim - the pool is open till 8.45pm so SHOULD do it? I am also off out on a walk with her in a bit... No idea where though. AND!!! The other thing she wanted to tell me was she's heard of some Lab puppies which should be ready to leave their mum at the end of June time! Says they're absolutely cracking puppies. Have just rung OH to tell him and he's said to get the number and we can possibly go and see them over the weekend!

Off to do some more cycling before I have to go meet her.

(10.40am = 1hr on bike = 610calories)

What a day!! It's now 8.50pm and I have walked (with Sarah) 9 dogs and played with a puppy twice. Then gone clothes, shoes and bag shopping with her, then had a panic when she realised she'd left her house keys and the dogs house keys in a shop 10 miles away which shut in 5 minutes! Major panics till her friend ( :hail : Karen) rushed to shop and got them for her and S came round here and got changed & ready here.

Means I've only just finished my calories on the bike (1016c) but still its done. And 2 walks. And one was up a big hill which we climbed halfway up, then realised we'd lost a bloody dog, so walked back down, then he overtook us from the way we'd just come - typical - so we walked back up again.

Very tired and in dire need of a bath!!

Food: 1 chocolate muffin, 1 double caramel magnum ice cream, 1 packet of Snack bars (bought by S as a thank you!) spaghetti bolognese and home made garlic bread.

Sleeeepy

Can't decide if I'm upset re the extra weight as in how quickly it's gone back on, or not *that* bothered cos I know it WILL come back off again. Positive thinking :nod:

Well, I say that, but I am sat here, having just eaten a slice of toast & chocolate spread and half an easter egg.

I think I have almost made my final decision about ponies...I dont think I do want another one. And if V's circumstances changed and she couldnt have M after all, I think I would sell her anyway. I need the money to go towards the house etc, and I enjoy the fact I can come straight home and DO things, rather than rush from work, rush round the yard, rush home.... I'm not ruling out lessons, but I am never going to be a Good Rider, my nervousness will always hold me back - how many issues did I give M by thinking 'Eeek, C would have had a FIT at that...' or 'C would have carted me home here...' and made her do it? I still cant quite bring myself though to put her Clarendons or her Thermatex up for sale. Or her headcollar. But still, never say never.

Horses just dont really fit into the way I IMAGINE my life to pan out though... When we finish the extension, and have a puppy...I need to be divorced (more money) then I would like to marry OH (MORE money....can't imagine parents shelling out for a second wedding) and then...kids on the horizon I guess. I want kids, but this last 2 weeks of 'am I, arent I', has convinced me that I'm not ready yet. We need the extension doing first and I want to be divorced, and I cant even put that in motion till January next year. The only thing is....I dont want to constantly be saving up for the next part of my life. OH and I already behave like an old married couple, and while I usually enjoy it, I miss 'dating', especially as due to circumstances, we couldnt do that. So once a month, we're going to try and do something, whether that be going out to the cinema, going for a meal or whatever. Or even just hire a DVD and have a bottle of wine and cook ourselves something special....

Food for the day: 1 slice toast & chocolate spread, half an easter egg, 3 chocolate muffins, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, roast chicken with mashed potatoes, carrots, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & cranberry sauce.

Exercise: 40 lengths at the pool and a quick walk along the top of the Chevin after tea.

I'm definately getting old....Today *I* baked muffins. Admittedly, the baking of was a bit of a disaster - I got more muffin mix round the kitchen than I did in the bowl, and I ate half the mix... And also, next time I make them, I must remember to half the recipe - I assumed it would make 6 - it made 11..probably would have been 12 had I not eaten all that mix! Just as well they are yummy. Now I am going to get the veg ready for tea and do the pudding mix. Check me out!

Last Lazy Day

Before I hitch the wagon back up.

Well, I say lazy, OH and I went and walked up the crag earlier and looked out over the white horse, Emly moor and ferrybridge power station...Then went for a half hour walk with OHs mum round the fields. So while not biking for 10 hours and sit ups, its more than I've done recently!

Writing thank you letters for my birthday presents - havent done that in years! Makes me feel about 6, but do need doing. I've left it too late to ring up :blush:

We went to see the people who live nextdoor-but-one....THey've had done what we're planning to do to the house. I'm not sure I like it. I also think our house is longer than theirs, which is no bad thing :lol: BUT I didnt realise (think?) about how much of the garden it would take up. Puppy & minimal garden....doable? Hmmm.

It's also been quite shocking to me just how much I've come to rely on writing down what I eat on a day... I would be MORTIFIED if I had to write down what I've had today. So that helps a lot in making me not eat so much. Am also considering buying that Paul McKenna book....I dont know,I can't decide if it's a waste of money or not.

On a money saving front, I have bought myself a piggybank :wub: and am putting all my loose change I have at the end of the week in it. Partly to save up for a Radley bag & purse, and maybe Burghley trip, but also for Nice Things for the new house. And random things I want off tinternet instead of using my credit card....

Half a stone :eek:

But tbh, although I am :eek: at how quickly its gone back on, I am also quietly relieived thats all that went on. I have eaten out Wednesday evening, Friday evening, Saturday twice, then sunday lunch time AND had easter eggs and birthday cake.... No exercise. We're having duck tonight - its either going to be a total success or a complete disaster...we're having to substitute some ingredients :S

Did some gardening today :eek: its official, I am nearly 30!! And also a pregnancy test as am now almost 2 weeks late. Was negative. Thankfully.

The Three Day Rule

I read somewhere once that the longest a family can stay together is 3 days before they start to get fidgetty and pernickity with each other. We're now on the third day and I was ready to shovel my poor parents back to the hotel at 4pm.

We've (me, OH AND the kitten) have all been thoroughly spoilt - I have had loads of new books, some shoes, lots of meals bought and some frippery things....OH has had plants, seeds and all sorts bought and the kitten has had 4 toys.

Spent the day in Harrogate yesterday and also went to Harlow Carr, then went back to HC today cos mum wanted a walking stick - her walking is getting ever so bad.

My parents also met OHs parents....went well. Well, seemed to anyway.

Have eaten so much this weekend - havent dared get on the scales and have done NO exercise!! Will start again on Wednesday!

Happy Birthday to me!

Very spoilt, very :fat: have just had tea and wine at Ask.

No exercise.

Back on the bike

It's easier when I have a day off. Having to do 20mins at a time again cos otherwise I snuffle and snort and sweat and can't breathe. Having said that at 10.25 have still only done 20mins :lol:

Birthday tomorrow and havent made my target which is a bit of an arse. I have just measured myself though and I HAVE lost weight :thud: Only an inch or so, but still. At last there's also a size loss. Taken long enough!!

Another big work meeting tonight - hopefully I will get advance warning of whats happening....I just hope to God I don't get sacked on my birthday :rolleyes:

Humm. Back on the bike :lol:

Finished biking! 100mins, 1032calories.

Food: salad (ham,mozzerella,mayonaise) plus some extra ham and mozzerella :lol: and a muller light and a smoothie. 1 Twix top. Tea was 2 helpings of some kind of sausagey soupy stewy thing with garlic bread, then an apple tart with cream & 4 chocolate fudges.

SC broken her finger lunging her crazy horse. So they called M in, all the way from Halifax, took him hours as he had to come on the bus. They could have just asked me, I could have been there in 5 minutes. I could really have done with the extra money or the time off.

So, it looks like just me & SB tomorrow. Have told OH that if this is the case then I will take a day off unpaid. Childish, yes, but I am not having my birthday ruined by him.

Update after meeting: No job changes. Looking for a new job somewhere else.

Urrrrggggghhhhhh

Still no sign :S

Am all bunged up, barely breathe at times, throat hurts, nose is bright red....I hate colds and I'm sick and tired of having them.

Doubt I'll go on the bike tonight either, just feel so mank. Even OH has it this time, which is unusual.

Didn't help we were woken up at 4.30am by the cat stealing a bag of bread off the kitchen side and hiding it under our bed. Little bugger.

Food: - a BAD day! 1 kinder bueno, 3 BLT sandwiches, 1 packet tangy cheese doritoes, chocolate, tea is sausages, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & mint sauce plus mini eggs.

No exercise. Can't be bothered and I can't breathe when I do.

Been reading the side effects for my pill - remind me why I am on it...:
common side effects: acne, breast pain, headache, mood changes, nausea, decreased libido and weight increase. You may also not have any bleeding at all.

So that hopefully explains why I am 5 days late...

Happy Easter!

I now know why I've been feeling generally meh about everything.... ANOTHER cold :rolleyes:

Food: Half a pack of mini-eggs, 1 bacon & egg sandwich, some of a Buttons easter egg, 1 smoothie, chicken, boiled potatoes, 1 yorkshire pudding, beans, white sauce, gravy. Tea same as last night (2 helpings), with 4 slices white bread and a whole Lindt chocolate bunny AND some pink wine :rolleyes:

Exercise: Walk down to F.Lake, round lake (20acres) and back up hill :lol:

Still not on.

http://www.rydaleclothing.com/shop/pc/viewPrd.asp?idcategory=38&idproduct=5101 Need to save this site - I want those shoes and also maybe some tops off there.

Also want to go to Buggerly this year - we can take the puppy!!

lovely day

So sunny and warm and nice. Shame I had to work really :rolleyes:

Food: porridge, creme egg, muller light, smoothie, mince casserole, baguette, 1 almond magnum, 5 marzipan sweet things.

Exercise: 60 sit ups.

I can't bring myself to bike, i really can't face it. Utterly tired and we're babysitting for OHs sister & her OH in a bit.

Still not on.

Sigh. I dont know whats up with me atm. I cannot be happy about anything.

Good Friday

Still not on. Sigh. But have read up and apparently the pill I'm on can cause missed periods - helpful.

Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 1 twix top, loads of grapes, 1 yoghurt, 1 smoothie, limey chicken, pilau rice, half a pack Mars Planets, 6 PiMs citroen, 3/4's bottle rose wine.

Exercise: 100minutes on bike. 1030calories. Very hard work tonight. 60 situps.

My dad appears to have gone missing. :unsure: Mum hasnt heard from him since 7.30am, his phone is off (this never happens...) and she can't get hold of him. This may sound like nothing, but its not normal behaviour for my dad. Erk. Dad back now (9.10)

poo, sweaty....

Have been on the bike for an hour (first time in a week!!) and I am all sweaty and horrid. Hands are clammy and I am STARVING. Having to do it in 20minute spurts as I've got that unused to doing it!

I think I have decided against a weimaraner :( We don't have the space and walking it constantly would be an issue. I don't know though. We don't NEED a pedigree dog - we won't show, breed or work it. The point of it being a pedigree would hopefully mean better bred, therefore less likely to develop DJD etc. But I've only ever had crossbreds and they've all been great...and probably healthier than any pedigree I've ever met. I dont know...Who thought puppy buying would be so difficult?

Still not come on :S

Exercise: 100mins on bike = 1060calories, 60 sit ups, 1 hour long dog walk with S.
Food: 1 mars top, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light. 1.5bowls pasta, bolognese sauce & mozzerella, half garlic ciabatta, 4 Lindt chocolate squares. 1 pint Pimms & lemonade.

:bawling: I SAID it was going to be a weight gain week!!

Weight gain week :nod: Have put on 2lbs. So I suppose that isn't horrific, considering I've done minimal exercise this week. Still not impressed though.

Bah. So no birthday blow out next week :lol: as will not lose 9lbs in a week!

Exercise: 120 sit ups, 5 mins on rower (40reps a min) swimming tonight - will see if I really am getting fitter as going with OH and he won't let me get stuck behind slow people!

ETA: 66 lengths and done much quicker than I did it last night - was knackered by end!!

ANOTHER bad food day....: Strawberry bun, LOTS of Easter chocolates (easily 300calories worth) a flump, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 2 helpings OH's sausage casserole again and 3 slices of bread.

Erk.

Bad Food Day AGAIN!!!

AND right before weigh day - I will not have lost enough weight next week for my Big Birthday Blow-out!!

Food: 1 bacon & mushroom sandwich with brown sauce, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), TWO helpings sausage stew (sausage, potatoes, brussells, carrots, green beans, peas, mint sauce). :blush: 2 slices bread. 1 twix top

Exercise: 60 situps this morning and a max of 72 lengths in the pool (is at least 66 :lol: but I kind of lost count and I know I added a few....) I *think* I am getting faster and I certainly don't feel as knackered as I would normally.

But the big news of the day.....

I CAN HAVE A PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! M2 has agreed in principle, as he hoped to do exactly the same thing later in the year. The only thing is, as the pups get older, he wants them to go outside. Nah!!

Search (well, emails to breeder and hope puppies are within our price range) is now on! Definately a Weimaraner IF we can afford one. Just looked at breedersonline and they range from £500 - £700.... :( Even with their bizarre long tails :lol: We still can't afford it.

must not get overexcited, must not get over excited, must not get overexcited.....

I. Must. Not. Get. Overexcited.

ARGH!!!!!!!

Good day today, bike fixed, OH has gone to get it. Spent day in H, went to Lush, had my hair cut, which I am torn between loving and hating :rolleyes: bought a slow cooker and some stuff for NeedyKitten.

Food: 1 chicken, bacon & mayonaise baguette, 2 J20, 1 almond croissant with custard & whipped cream. Erk. Tea was pasta in tomato & garlic sauce with beef and mozzerella on top AND garlic ciabatta :fat: - lovely! And a muller light for after.

Exercise. 60 situps.

OH has agreed to a puppy when we have saved up - I fully expected him to say 'in 4 years time', but no....3 months we're aiming for, so we have time to convince the powers that be we can have him (I dont want a bitch) at work with us AND have time to save for crate etc.

I dont know what I want though, now I can have one :unsure: I'd love a lab, but they can be either full on OR 'dead', weimaraners I've gone off since the Kennel Club ruling of no docked tails I think :blush: and setters I think would just be too full on ALL the time. I WOULD like a Weimaraner though.

Still unsure of hair, have managed to scrape it into the most pathetic pony tail ever :lol:

Have just seen pic of a long tailed Weimaraner... I think I may have changed my mind back again :rolleyes: :lol: I suppose its what you're used to. AND there's a very well respected breeder near us....

:yawn:

Very tired, and fairly upset. Since the bike broke I have put on weight (although watch me be shocked on wednesday when it miraculously disappears...), AND...this is so pathetic :rolleyes:

I REALLY WANT A PUPPY. I can't have one and I getting, actually, really depressed about it. I can't even summon up the enthusiasm to help someone at work with their puppy buying which is bad, considering I work in a pet shop. Oh well.

Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), 1 caramel egg (bad OH), roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, green beans, mint sauce and gravy.

Exercise: 66 or maybe 68 (I say 66, OH says 68) lengths of the pool, 180 sit ups, 10 mins rowing, 40 reps each minute (done in 2 blocks).

Edit: :bawling: Yes, I am well aware I have just eaten a big tea, BUT, since last Wednesday, I have put on half a stone. Just from not biking :bawling:

I feel sick.

Temptation Waits

OH bought some us a Lindt rabbit each for Easter yesterday. I want all mine now.

Have put on weight due to bike, but have measured and have lost/stayed the same everywhere apart from my damned hips :bawling:

Exercise: 180 sit ups, 10 mins on rower (average 37 reps each minute)

Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, some of Ss chip shop chips, 2 squares of DairyMilk, half a bag of Giant Buttons, chunk of french stick with salami & pie d'angloys. Tea is lasagne, salad (spring onions & salad cream) and garlic bread again.

damn and blast

Didn't get paid today. Fucking BACS. Thank God I have other money and am not up shit creek.

Food: salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), muller light, smoothie, lasagne, sald & garlic bread, spring onion, salad cream, 3/4's bottle white wine.

Exercise: So far, a pathetic 120 situps!! A friend says she does about 34 things on her rowing machine, so have something to aim for tomorrow, instead of the random few fast bits and more slower bits.

Need to phone N back in the dutycall. Already going on about RAC and had to cut her off and say I was going cos my tea was ready. Ha! First time ever I have done that!

Working tomorrow and Sunday OT so lots of extra money, so new hair here I come!

http://jamesrwinter.typepad.com/northcoast_exile/images/mansonsm.jpg THIS is who i want to look like when I am thin.

Check me out

7am this morning....was in the pool! 32 lengths, so while it doesnt make up for missing Sunday, it evens it out a bit...

OH still hasnt had my bike fixed :bawling: which means unless I fancy biking on the slant tomorrow AND running risk of snapping it totally I can't do it tomorrow either.

Not a GREAT day food wise (when is it ever anymore?!): salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) - also added some cucumber too. Muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), roast chicken, mashed potato, Yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, cranberry sauce, 1 twix top.

Exercise - just those 32 lengths.

Spent 2 hours on phone to V - she is utterly convinced she has failed her stage 1 :rolleyes: she won't have done.

I dont get it :unsure:

I'm not complaining, but....What?! How?! I don't care, I am now DEFINATELY the lightest I have been in at least 7 years, if not longer.

Swimming tonight....Don't wanna face everyone again after my tantrum last week :lol: Work been ok, got some nice compliments from 'my' staff about me, but then had an argument with the WHmanager about the way he spoke to me.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), some of OHs sausage sandwich, loads of grapes, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich. Tea is pasta, cheese sauce, bacon & peas plus garlic bread.

Exercise: 66 lengths swimming, 120 sit ups, 5 mins rowing.

Just looked at the 'timetable' of my weight loss and I've lost a LOT more this month...wonder if its a/metabolism maybe getting quicker and b/changing my pill?

Work that one out

:dunno:

Have lost weight. Oodles, considering what I was yesterday morning. Ah well, I wont complain!

D told me I'd lost weight this morning, which was sweet. I still don't think I have, despite the numbers as, according to my tape measure, I havent - if anything I have gained!!

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 1 banana 2 chunks dairy milk, 1 packet maltesers, half a OH pizza, half a OH garlic bread, 3.5 Lindt chocolates.

Exercise: 120 situps, 4 minutes rowing, swum 50 lengths.

Damage Limitation

:bawling: definately a Fat Week. Snot fair. Have been same weight for 3 weeks now, and have now gained.

Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, galaxy caramel, 3 Lindt chocolates, pasta with cheese sauce & bacon.

Exercise - have just done 102minutes on the bike, but they've been a QUICK 102mins....1100calories. Did 100 situps.

NeedyKitten has done very well today - Owners wife came in a with a collapsable dog carrier (not quite a crate, but not exactly a carrier either) which is PERFECT for him - he fits in it lovely. He's spent the last 2 hours playing in it :rolleyes: AND there was a cat igloo chewed by mice, so I got told to waste it, so he is now NeedyKitten-6-Beds :eek:

M1 had a meeting with Owner and BM tonight, wonder how that went.... Must fill in my review sheets - they have to be in Wednesday.

ETA: One reason for the weightloss (other than being a fat pig this week) is that I am due on this week...last major loss was on *that* week.... AND I've broken my bike :( It's gone all wonky, so I lean to the right while I'm biking.

:fat:

Podged. Didnt go swimming this morning. Felt dire and it was swimathon day so would only have half the pool. Might go tomorrow instead. BUT I havent cycled either and only done 50 sit ups.

Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, 2 mini eggs, roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, mint sauce LOADS of gravy and ben & Jerrys for dessert. Sigh.

Weight gain week, am sure.

Very odd day at work, not busy at all. Didnt complain as shut heel in door this morning and took the skin off it and was in agony for most of the day.

Spoke to JO about maybe having Nag at hers if V does need me to look after her while she moves. She said yes!! Not getting overexcited, honest...

:bawling: :bawling: :bawling:

Found my first grey hairs today :bawling:

Food: not great (again) - porridge, muller light, grapes, Lindt chocolates (what HAS OH done?). Tea is limey chicken & garlic bread, 1 bowl ben & jerrys ice cream.

Done 100mins on bike (1020calories)& 100 sit ups.

I should never have said that last night made me feel old.

Meh

Bleeeehhhhhhh

SC all over M2 today. It is EMBARRASSING. He tried to get past her today and she stuck her arse out so he had to either be rude and tell her to move or squeeze by. Couldnt talk to him for more than 3 seconds before she muscled in, and if he called me, she went running :lol:

Ah well. I dont think she'll be getting married next year lol.

Food, not so good today, especially as today is an exercise day off, although I have done 50situps.

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light yoghurt, smoothie, Lindt chocolate egg (YUM), pizza & garlic ciabatta, half bottle white zinfandel, 5 'gorgeous' chocolates, 1 shortbread & choc chip cookie, 1 cherry & pecan cookie.

Did not sleep well last night - kept waking up with a start cos I thought I was in my meeting with Owner and he kept giving me 1s for poor performance. Sigh. I want to write on this review thing that this IS my first managment job, but I dont think he'll see it that way. Either I'm ready for it or I'm not. I suspect the latter.

Bought OH Casino Royale on DVD for Valentines Day (pre-order) and he finally got it today, so we are watching that tonight, then bed for sleeps I think. He didnt sleep well last night either.

I'm getting old. This was the perfect night in. Pizza & garlic bread, eaten in the dark after a fabby Lush bath, with candles on the mantlepeice and the DVD on, having cuddles with OH. Either that or I've turned soft...

Sleepy & Unmotivated

Although, I say that, it's been an effort to get going this morning, but have so far done 100minutes on bike (completed 11.50am), 20 minutes with the rower and 100 situps.

Not dressed yet though LOL going to do last 20 minutes then jump in the bath.

My hair is horrid, it feels like straw and my skin is dry and chapped too. I hate the cold.

Got the 360Review forms last night - we have to EVERYONE. Big wibbles. Thought it would just be M1. Fuck. Won't get promotion when Owner sees what everyone else puts!!

Food: about 50 grapes (heh), salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) 1 muller light yoghurt. 1 smoothie 1 slice of ham. half a ham & pie d'angloys sandwich. Tea will be sausages, yorkshire pudding, mashed potato, carrots, brusells, gravy & mint sauce.

I'm REALLY hungry, and I dont think I've done that much to be so hungry....

Incomming.......tantrum!!

One measly pound. BUT I have drunk enough to call the navy in, eaten crisps, chocolate, sweets, tear and share and lemon tarts. I have not done more exercise. It's my own fault!

Swimming tonight and I have ANOTHER full blown cold again. Urgh.

I've decided against FatPills I think. I've lost a stone since I went to Drs I think, its just the size thing which upsets me now, but.... sigh. Patience I guess.

I'm very tired, I really didnt want to get up this morning.

:bawling: :bawling: :bawling: Have just measured myself. Last measured on 8th March, since then I have lost 2mm off right calf, almost a cm off right thigh, 2mm off left thigh, 2mm off waist, half an inch off under boobs :lol: half an inch off left & right arms, so I HAVE lost, BUT...

I have put ON an inch round my tummy and hips and on my boobs, therefore going up a bra size.

Fuck. What is the point?!?!?! Just as well I gave up on birthday target.

Food: Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) Muller light, smoothie, 3 huge handfuls of grapes, 1 bowl pasta, cheese sauce, sausages and bacon.

Exercise: 150 situps, 40 minutes on rower, 10 minutes on twister, 48 lengths at the swimming pool.

And now onto the tantrum. This bungalow is tiny. Minute. We couldnt even swing NeedyKitten around if we tried. The only thing that has kept me living here (apart from OH of course) is the fact we could extend and redecorate and finally things could be clean and nice and ours. But now, thanks to Fat Twat and his budget and his 'only allow the chavs to succeed' mindset, we now cannot afford to do it. We can't even afford to just redecorate so have to put up with cooked in grime on the kitchen walls which have been up 30 years.

My mother will be horrified when she comes up.

Also puts paid to any idea of kids as not a chance in hell I would bring up kids in this house as it is.

I hate it, am sat here in tears because I hate it THAT MUCH and there's fuck all I can really do cos its not even my fucking house.

Another :bawling: - V just sent me a video of Nag and I MISS her. I dont miss any of the associated horse stuff, I just miss Nag.

I'm all teary and tantrummy now. I hate not having any money, I hate putting ON size when LOSING weight, I hate the fact I can't replace anything cos I have no money, I hate that this place is so cluttered, I hate that nothing major is officially mine, I hate everything.

Cor blimey!

It's FREEZING! Mr Upstairs seems to have forgotten it's spring!

Off swimming with DWSarah in a bit....It's not going to be nice coming out, with wet hair etc...Be freezing.

Food wise, not so good. McCoys salt & vinegar crisps (256c :eek: ) ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, muller light yoghurt, tea is pasta, bolognese sauce, mozzerella & garlic bread, 2 lemon tarts.

Done 100 sit ups. Did 30 lengths in pool. Grumble.

I know I said last week I wouldnt tantrum if I didnt lose anything this week, but :rolleyes: guess what :lol: I dont think I'm going to lose anything AND I'm pissed off about it. BUT....I have drunk a LOT and eaten crap this week, so my own fault.

I'm so tired....

Not QUITE outcome I wanted, but not too shabby.....

Arse. Big Meeting tonight. M1 has been told to pull socks up and is only minor legalities which mean he still has his job. However. Not all bad news. He has a meeting with HUGE manager on Monday at 5pm, and also a 360 review, which is apparently where members of staff are asked to review his performance. Eek. Apparently his face dropped at that point as 'there has never NOT been someone sacked after one of them....' So he will be in a FOUL mood tomorrow, just as well I kicked staff butt (hehe) today and made damned sure the shop was left immaculate. He will be hard pressed to find something to shout at me about tomorrow. Hopefully. So, no nearer knowing whether I have a promotion or not....

Did an HOUR on the bike without getting off, so desperate was I to be distracted from Events :lol: Upshot is I am utterly buggered now :lol: but...only 40 minutes till I'm finished. DEFINATELY swimming with DWSarah tomorrow too (allegedly :lol: ) Have done 50 situps and have another 50 to do. Finished my situps AND a full 40mins on bike, so only done 2 sessions on it tonight. Yay me!

Food: Hmmm, not GREAT. Salad (chicken, mozzerella, cranberry sauce) Muller Light yoghurt, 1 smoothie, 1 Kinder Bueno, 1 chunk Dairy Milk, LOTS of Cola Cubes (small, sugary sweets), tea is same as last night, only with beans instead of brussels I think. Also 2 squares tear & share, 4 lemon tarts.

Kitten in foul mood this morning, and lemon meringue pie OHs mum bakes for us and WAS on kitchen unit ended up on floor opposite side of room. Little brat.

What A Day!!

The weather has been very odd. One minute blue skies, fluffy clouds, birds singing....blahblahblah. The next, SNOW!! Was complete whiteout about half hour ago.

Work...meh. SB had a tantrum at lunch time - 'Everyone hates me, I can't do anything right! It's so unfair!'. Was laughing at the Kevin-ness of it all. Also hoped he'd walk out in a strop, but no go.

Food and exercise....well its a bad one today. Only 30lengths in the pool cos I felt b.awful, and I swear I was going slower the harder I worked. Food: 1 square tear & share, 1 caramel egg, 1 muller light yoghurt, 1 smoothie (trying to increase my fruit intake), 1 ham/mozzerella/salad cream salad, roast chicken, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, brussells, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce. Very yum, but also :fat:

It's so cold. I have another cold coming on as well, which won't be helping - is also why I've started with the Innocent smoothies - bump up my fruit intake a bit.

Rung mum to say Happy Mothers Day. No idea what to get her, but won't be a problem in that I havent got her anything till after my birthday.

I'm kind of nearly 30 :bawling:

weight on, weight off....

Put on weight today, but not surprising after Thursday and yesterday.

Work Situation overshadowing everything and making me miserable, going to job centre later.

Meant to be going into H shopping, but can't get motivated. OH is still in bed.

Just done 500calories and 50 sit ups (11.35am) will do another 500&50, then 10minutes rowing and 10 minutes twisting when we get back.

4pm. Back from shopping, spent lots in Lush, went into Lakeland and bought a wall hanging with pockets so hopefully the cat will stop using my head as a spring board to get to the stand now....although I feel a bit guilty for taking away his SpiderSpotter. Also went into FatShop and came out without buying anything! Tried on some 26 jeans which fitted ok (SLIGHTLY tight) but means that dream of fitting into a 24 by my birthday is impossible. Tried on a size 20top too and shockingly it is only marginally too small :eek:

PPH website isnt working. Might secretly ring them in a bit.

Food: 1 Muller Light yoghurt, 1 baguette with ham & Pie d'angloys, 2 sections tear & share. Limey chicken and pilau rice, half a garlic ciabatta, half a bottle white wine.

Edit: 9.20pm.... completed my 1000calories (actually 1020 lol) and 50 situps, did twist for a bit, but not done any rowing. Going to have a bath and might do some when I get out. Dont feel like it though after that wine.

I swear I could drink more when I weighed more....

4 bottles of wine, shared between 3, made me horribly, horribly pissed. Like verging on being sick pissed.

I have come to a decision re work - I shall give it another week, be job hunting all week and then if anything has come up from what I've applied for hand my notice in, if SC and or M1 not been sacked.

Food: porridge, 2 packets of quavers, 1 8 chunk whole nut, half a sausage and egg sandwich, 2 slices of ham, tea is pizza and garlic bread. No exercise yet.

Have just done 100situps with the abdotrim, some rowing and some twisting. I'm exhausted.

blah

Well, now SC has moved onto Manager2. She clearly fancies pants off him and its quite embarrassing. Whats worse is he is married with a young lad and he positively encourages it.

Rah!

My new weightloss toys arrived today. I have to say now, I cant see me staying on it for long. The twister is quite fun, but the rowing thing is...boring. Have done 100situps (50 this morning, 50 this eve).

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), lemon muller light yoghurt, tea is mince, mashed potato, brusells, carrots, yorkshire puddings, gravy, mint sauce. 1 pancake with lemon & sugar. Going to friends house tonight so will have bottle of wine.

Been in an odd mood for last few days, I genuinely think its this whole business of not losing size. I am constantly close to tears, but without actually being in tears. Very odd.

What a week!!

HOW have I lost 4.5lbs in a week? Not complaining though!!

Swimming tonight and have done 50 situps on the abdotrim :lol:

Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), Muller Light strawberry yoghurt, handful of grapes, bolognese sauce with pasta, half a costcutters baguette, 1 sticky toffee pudding muller light yoghurt.

Still in shock, although am upset I havent lost any SIZE to go with the 2 stone total gone so far... 28 days till my birthday, therefore 28 days to lose 5 inches. Lets be honest, it probably won't happen. But...it would be nice. Have asked my parents for Evans vouchers, so would like to spend them a/while they're here and b/ on clothes I might fit into for longer than 10 minutes...

Just swum a mile, I swear the more I go swimming the slower I get :unsure:

I'm going to be grown up and say as I've lost so much this week, I'll settle for not losing any next (but not GAINING it either). We know this is bollocks. Come next Tuesday I'll be moaning I havent lost any weight whatsoever.

Shopping

Off to ChavShop in a bit, to buy a 'Twist Board with Refloxology Magnets' (you stand on it and twist from side to side and it has magnets for increased circulation, a massage action, improves balance and slim and tones abs, hips and thighs). Thinking of those 5 inches to lose before my birthday. Also buying an abdotrim, a pilates rowing action ab and back exerciser and some goggles. Cheaper at ChavShop than they are at the pool.

This will change my exercising slightly.... Will still swim 3 times a week, but maybe only cycle twice a week now, and then do 2 nights on the above.... No idea how you would work out calories burnt though. Hmm....

I'm very tired this morning, NeedyKitten woke me up at 5am, having dragged the lamb bone we had for tea from the bin onto our bed. Nice. Was not impressed at having his treasure taken off him and told me so for the next 3 hours. Sigh.

Arse. Just been to ChavShop, they only had the Abdotrim in. Have just built it and done 10 situps. It doesnt make you go very high and it seems rather flimsy.... Still, I felt it so must be doing something. Must work up to doing 50 at once. Hmmm, I have my credit card at the ready and ChavShop site up...if they will post instead of deliver I might just order off the site.... I am bad....I've just paid for them to be delivered. Oops. On the credit card, which is meant to be being paid off...

Managers had a word with SB today. Was rather hoping he'd have a fit and hand his notice in, but no go :( I'm such a bitch.

Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), a cherry Muller Light yoghurt, 5 handfuls of grapes. Tea was pasta with tomato sauce, sausages and mozzerella and a bowl of home made rice pudding with hundreds & thousands and maltesers. I am so podged...This WAS looking like a weight loss week again.

Just back from swimming - did 70 lengths in 75minutes - not bad, huh? Included a couple of breaks and trying to tie knots in the 'arms' of my costume so my tits didn't fall out LOL. Was lovely going in the afternoon - for the last half hour there was only 3 of us in there.

Have just done 50 situps with the abdotrim....I take it back, you can feel it working when you do 50 :lol:

Odd Day

Fed up of work, fed up of living in a matchbox (no ones fault, just the situation), fed up of having no money, fed up of my mums damned cat not coming into season long enough to make kittens.... FED UP.

Food....not GREAT, but it never is anymore! Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 3 ginger biscuits, 1 toffee muller light yoghurt, lamb, mashed potatoes, green beans, carrots, yorkshire puddings, gravy, mint sauce, 1 lemon juice & sugar pancake... No weight loss this week, heh.

Done 1050calories in 101minutes. So not too shabby, but not as good as the other day. However, I dont THINK I was working that day....

Day off tomorrow, meant to be swimming. Surprise, surprise, DWSarah has baled out AGAIN. She really really wants to do it though...

I wish we were rich.... Cash rich, I mean....I am very aware of just how lucky I am. I wish I could remember it sometimes. I wish for lots of things.... Why am I never satisfied with what I HAVE?

Rahhhhhhh

:dunno:

LovelyM back, like he was never away! Childish humour abounded today.

Swam 52 lengths this morning, did some not using my arms (just legs kicking away) and a few less just using my arms, then did most normally :lol:

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), some Quavers pinched off OH, French Fries, Roast lamb, mashed potatoes, brussel sprouts, carrots, yorkshire puddings, gravy, mint sauce.

Not much else to blog really.... NeedyKitten might be getting a new brother or sister.... Mums queen is off to stud tomorrow. Huge crossed fingers needed.

Banjaxed

Well, I made up today for yesterdays pathetic effort on the bike..... I have done :drumroll: 1110 calories in 103minutes. Fastest EVER, I believe. Feel it now though!!

Food has been Very Bad. A load of chocolate Wheetos (2 bowls), some chip shop chips, porridge, cheesey quavers, lasagne, some cheese puff monstrosity, and 4 pancakes, 2 with lemon & sugar, 2 with chocolate spread.

So, just as well I was supercharged on the bike, really! Swimming tomorrow, and LovelyM is back at work tomorrow, I have missed him. I really hope SB leaves so LovelyM can come and work fulltime.

Another :fingerscrossed: - Have got V to ring a friend who I used to be on a yard with, who now runs her own yard about a job. Very close, lots of goodvibes and crossedfingers that there is a job and V gets it.

I'm buggered, I really am. Dire need for a bath now...

Stoned Kitten

The cat is as high as a kite on catnip :heehee: Poor bugger has just fallen off the chair cos he's been rolling about on my work top which has been sprayed with the stuff.

I've been a Bad Girl today, I am yet to do any calories (6.50pm) and I have eaten: large salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), french fries, lasagne, garlic bread, salad and salad cream, half a bottle pink wine and a twix top. Oops. Still, if thats whats termed as falling off the wagon now, then pfffft. I could have eaten ten times that :nod:

I'm quite pissed, maybe I drank too quick...

Seems my exhusband has a new peice. I'm pleased for him, I really am. He irritated the hell out of me, but hopefully he's changed enough to become a nicer person to someone else. Just hope I have the spare money to afford the divorce....only 9 months to wait before it can be applied for...

Talking of 9 months.... I dreamt I was pregnant last night :unsure: and that was why I couldnt lose weight - cos I had a BabyBelly. Was very odd, I had pregnancy pains and everything. Thankfully an impossibility, but still!

Very tired, can't really be arsed to do the calories but must...!

ETA: 9.50pm. 600calories down.... I doubt very much I shall do the full 1000c.

Evans size guide (inches)

size 16: size 18: size 20:
Bust: 40.5 Bust: 43 Bust: 45
Waist: 34 Waist: 36 Waist: 38.5
Top Hip: 41.5 Top Hip: 44 Top Hip: 46.5
Bottom Hip: 42 Bottom Hip: 44.5 Bottom Hip: 47

size 22 size 24
Bust: 47.5 Bust: 49
Waist: 41 Waist: 44
Top Hip: 48.5 Top Hip: 51
Bottom Hip: 49.5 Bottom Hip: 51.5

size 26 size 28
Bust: 50.5 Bust: 52
Waist: 46.5 Waist: 49
Top Hip: 53.5 Top Hip: 56
Bottom Hip: 54 Bottom Hip: 56.5

size 30 size 30
Bust: 54 Bust: 55.5
Waist: 50 Waist: 51
Top Hip: 58.5 Top Hip: 61.5
Bottom Hip: 59 Bottom Hip: 62

I ache!!!

Jesus wept.... Have just got on the bike and done the first 400calories of the day as well, very sweaty! Niiiiccceee...

I have decided I am going to write my current measurements in my memories book, then I can't torture myself over not being able to remember what the previous weeks measurement was.

OH has half day today - the AIM is to have done all my calories, the washing up, the clothes washing and the hoovering by time he gets home....doable?

Got an hour to make the bed, have a shower and hoover before OH gets back now....I would suggest a race, but I'm knackered lol. I've finished my calories (1000), done the washing up and the clothes washing....

I did it! Hoovering and all, even had time to make him a cup of tea....

Food (its so bad on a day off..) egg mayonaise baguette, caramel shortcake, pork, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, green beans, 1 twix top.

I dont understand it!!!

But I'm not complaining!!!

ANOTHER weight loss week - I'd resigned myself to it being a gain.

Food: salad (ham, mozzerella & salad cream), french fries, 1 bite ham & cheese sandwich, 1 bite sausage & egg sandwich, 1 twix top and pasta and bolognese sauce for tea.

Just back from swimming, done 66 lengths, so JUST over a mile....we're saying spot on a mile though, because a few times we had to stop to turn round a couple of metres before the end of the pool, thanks to chavs loitering by the steps :rolleyes: My shoulders hurt, particularly the left (bad) one...well, hurt is a little bit of a exaggeration, ache definately.

I truly am shocked about the weight, and I am wondering whether to bother with fat pills or not....Somethings clearly working. :dunno:

SB was highly irritating today. I have no idea how much of it is pure the fact he wants to annoy, or what. SC let slip he's on anti-depressants yesterday....no idea if that would affect anything.

I've said it before, I'll say it again....

but this time I KNOW its a weight gain week.

I'm not sure about this aim of fitting into a size 24 by my birthday is actually do able, you know. I've just tried on a pair of 26 'skinny' (bleurgh) jeans and they are FAR too small.

So.... Off swimming tonight. Alone. Quite nervous actually :unsure: I'll be fine once I'm IN, it's just getting in (and out) which freak me out.

It bothers me just how much weight has gone on this week. Although I suppose I havent exercised, but I certainly havent eaten 3000 extra calories a day, which is meant to put on 1lb.

Not sure what I'm more nervous about, swimming on my own, or driving there, on my own. I think I might get lost on the way back, with the Complicated Roundabout. At least on the way there, I only have to turn left at it. On the way home, I have to make about 6 turnings....

Food: 1 salad (rocket, lettuce, spring onions, tomatoes, chicken, mozzerella, cranberry sauce), packet french fries. Tea was pizza with ham, chicken & pineapple.

I did 60 lengths at the pool, took longer than I wanted, really, and I only needed to do 4 more lengths to have done a mile, which was mildly annoying, but I didnt know if they were about to shut the pool, and I didnt fancy being stuck in there for the night. Will try for a mile tomorrow night instead :lol:

I'm cross, I won't have lost any weight for 2 weeks tomorrow :( (last weeks weight I swear I must have stood on them wrong or something....It can't have been a true weight).

OH has said we can go to Crufts next year, and we might have a puppy to buy for!!!! YAY!! I have turned this into we WILL have a puppy to buy for.

AND, we are going on holiday for a couple of days when mum and dad go home. Maybe to France, maybe to Wales if V & M havent moved up here.

Speaking of which, I dont think they are moving up :( Sent V a text earlier, saying she could stay here if she wanted, and to tell her safe journey up, but she hasnt replied, although I can't remember if I got a delivery msg or not. Her phone is a bit shit at receiving messages though. I haven a feeling though thatt they're not coming :( Gutted, but can't make her go to a job she doesnt want to go to!

Meh in general really. M1 had a big go today about the fact my work account hasnt had anything paid off for ages - so I paid off with all the coins in my purse, all £1.32 of it. :lol: I dont think he got the point though.

Bleurgh

Stuffed.

Food: 1 ham sandwich, 2 slices toast, baked beans, scrambled eggs (with single cream), beef, yorkshire pudding, cauliflower, roast potatoes, carrots, gravy.

Also walked along the track at F with OHs mum. Thats not a walk for a dog! This is why I want a dog - I used to walk B for MILES.

Done my 1000 calories. Sigh. It's SO boring, I would far rather swim, but cost is prohibitive. It's almost going to be too much going 3 times a week. May even increase it to 4 times a week if I get another swim suit for my birthday.

So much to do, so little time & money.....

As suspected, S has blown me out (again) for swimming tomorrow. Bar ill health etcetc, I'll still go on my own.

I'm really not seeing a difference. I want to have lost a clear dress size (24) by my birthday. That is my next aim, as it looks like FatPills are off.

Tantrums -- NO TANTRUMS!!

Swimming looking doubtful. Alarm going off at work, so OH has had to scamper down there and deal with the police & alarm people. A bag will have fallen off the shelves, thats all.

I wanted to go so badly :bawling:

Have put on 5.5lbs since I was poorly.

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Was able to go swimming after all! Did 40 laps (1000metres) and am now knackered! Took an hour or so - a bit less. Want to work up to doing a mile before work on a Sunday.

Work wasn't too bad. D isn't leaving now.

Food: Porridge, French Fries, roast chicken, mashed potatoes, yorkshire pudding, peas, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce.

I am utterly shattered now though, and would happily curl up and go to sleep right now.

Tantrums....then no tantrums

Can you BELIEVE the stupid leisure centre pool only opens between 8am-9am on a saturday for general swimming. I understand the rest of the day will be taken up by swimming lessons/clubs etc, but surely in the EVENING I thought they'd stay open, considering its open till at least 10pm through the week.

Still, not getting too upset, going before work tomorrow now :biggrin:.

BAD food day - porridge, French fries, a whole portion of chips, flapjack, spaghetti bolognese & cheese, garlic bread, half bottle white wine.

Done 600calories on the bike! I'm not going for 1000 tonight - I'm still coughing like nothing on this earth, and my chest and throat are still sore.

Wish I was swimming tonight though - still, head start on my swimming laps for the swimathon!

Funny Old Day

Not too bad at work - SB was infuriating. Has started putting plastic bags over his head and breathing in - he will end up dead one day. I actually wanted to beat him, hard earlier.

SC ....hmmm. Might have to do an unheard of change of opinion re her. LovelyD :bawling: he's looking for another job.

Still coughing, chest hurts.

I REALLY want to go swimming, my shoulder is ever so sore, plus I only have 6 sessions to do 2500metres in for the swimathon. :eek: I can't face the bike tonight, although I should

Pedometre at work, started the day at 0 calories - by the end of the day - 1202calories burnt, just by coughing!!!

Food: Salad, french fries, limey chicken, garlic bread.

miserable

Head hurts, chest hurts, guts hurt (from coughing), nose hurts, eyes hurts, lips hurt.....miserablemiserablemiserable!!!

Weight which was amazingly lost yesterday has gone back on.

Only 1 bath so far today, desperate for another, but K is coming round later so will save the bath for then :lol: Antisocial witch that I am.

Food: Caramel egg, ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, half of which I threw away :shocker: toad in the hole, green beans, carrots, mashed potato, gravy, mint sauce.

Can't smell anything, therefore can't taste anything.

Want a pony again. Found one who sounds PERFECT but I just cant afford him. My only hope is they can't sell him and I'll offer them stupid money come winter.

Now there's a shocker

I lost weight for today. :thud: Really thought I would have put on.

Have emailed B witness protection saying I am available to go and give evidence. I dont want to though.

No calories done yesterday and none done today.

1 packet French Fries, 1 muller light yoghurt, oasta & bolognese sauce with parmesan, ice cream.

Needed some tissues, so I drove to the shop (all of 2minutes walk away) :blush: It was raining and cold and my chest hurt outside.

Tried convincing OH to go swimming tonight, but he refused :grumps: so got him to say we could go tomorrow.

Definately ill

Off work today and am about to go back to bed.

Only ate minstrals and popcorn and a mini sandwich yesterday.

Coughing up crap, constantly sneezing.

Hot Fuzz was ok. Too loud and too fast moving for me to be able to keep up with it properly though. Felt shit the whole way through.

1 packet french fries, some minstrals, ice cream, some of Ks cake, yorkshire pudding, chicken, brussells, carrots, boiled potatoes, cranberry sauce.

Eaten a lot :unsure: didnt finish the ice cream and nearly didnt finish tea.

ARGH!!!!!!

Have another cold brewing - I can feel it. All achy this morning and chest feels a bit icky. Typical.

Done 1010 calories on bike (another day off), and swimming tomorrow - with OH, not DWSarah - shes blown me out. Not entirely unexpected.

No food yet, off to see Hot Fuzz in a bit. Will eat popcorn and minstrals at cinema, so that can constitute my lunch.

Tired, just got in the bath to try and ease my achey achey muscles and nearly fell asleep. Am cold, coughing up crap again and just generally Meh.

Urgh.

Shaping up to be a bad week

First things first - have done 1015 calories today. I was determined to fit them all in as I've barely been on it for any 'real' length of time and its showing in my weight loss - or lack of it and I've eaten more this week too. I need to lose 4lbs this week if I am to make this week count :unsure: Not looking good for the FatPills target.

Theres a ladies session at the pool tonight and I'm half wondering if I want to go - I'd have to go to the outlaws with wet swimming pool hair though and I dont want them to know yet. I know its ridiculous, but I can't tell them in case this all falls by the wayside in 3 months.

Got a letter re a statement I had to give to the police ages ago - a man said he was in our shop at the time of a crime being committed and I dont remember seeing him at all, so thats what my statement said. Thats all. This letter says I have to let LCC know by Wednesday which days I'm NOT available to give evidence in court. I dont want to give evidence!! This on top of The Other Thing at work, means I hate being there atm.

I've decided I should go swimming at least twice a week (once on a Tues with DWSarah and once on a Wednesday with OH,) cycle 3 times a week, and either walk once a week or go swimming (on a Thurs or Sun eve) on my own. The other day is a day off. I'm not convinced about swimming on my own though.

Food: 1 salad - ham & egg with salad cream, no mozzerella, 1 mini ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, tea is roast chicken, 1 yorkshire puddings, green beans, carrots, gravy & cranberry sauce. 1 hot chocolate.

Cross with myself now about the sandwich, but it tasted sooooo gooood.....

Alright, Still

Food: 1 apple & raspberry porridge, half a manky banana, 1 caramel chocolate egg, load of chip shop chips, some shreddies, cheesy garlic bread, pasta & bolognese sauce, ice cream, half bottle rose wine, 1 mug hot chocolate.

Must make a concerted effort to do my calories tonight.

Work wasnt too bad. Stupid, retarded customers as usual, but pffft.

500 calories

Bad wind...

Christ, have I got bad wind after last night :S

Food: 1 salad (chicken with lemon & pepper, and no eggmayonaise), 1 Blueberry cheesecake which wasnt near as nice as its potential :lol: then burger with mozzerella, mashed potatoes, carrots, brusells, gravy and ice cream.

Done 500calories on the bike so far. May not do the full 1000 as a/I can't be arsed, b/ OHs sister coming round at 10.30 and c/ still need to bath & wash hair.

SC not too annoying at work. Will see how tomorrow goes.

Thursday

:dunno: dont ache too badly.

Horribly quiet day at work, very slow. Off out in a few minutes for Ks birthday. Can't say I'm looking forward to it, but, it should be a nice meal!

Food: 1 salad, packet french fries, 1 sultana and oat cookie, garlic mushrooms & mayonaise, lasagne and chips, sticky toffee pudding.

Sigh.

bouncebouncebounce

New car is LUSH.

Went shopping, still shopping in FatShop, but a size smaller than last time. Swimming costume is size smaller than that due to chest being smaller!! had minispree in LushShop, had lunch in Bettys RIGHT before Drs, which wasnt sensible really, but was lovely.

So, Drs. To certain extents, it was a bit of a waste of her time.... But, she's said if I can lose 3kgs by March 25th, I can have FatPills. :crossedfingers: Shes put me on a new Pill too.

Food: Omelette with peppers and chips in Bettys, pizza and garlic bread, 1 muller light yoghurt, 2 Thorntons Turkish Delights.

Just got back from swimming - I ache already :lol: Really enjoyed it though, and my shoulder seems ok too. I'd love to go 3 times a week (once with DWSarah -tues, once with OH -weds, and once on my own on a thursday...) May be overkill though, same as with the bike. I think my top speed was about 2 miles an hour and I couldnt quite manage 50m without stalling, but as I go more often, it's get better.

It's £3.20 a time, but if I do enjoy it, apparently, you can get a card which gives you free admission every time for £130odd. Might be useful, will look into it on Tuesday when I go with DWSarah.

Out for pub meal tomorrow night with K, TractorJ, his mate and OH. :dunno: how that will go food wise. Or even exercise wise

I got my car!!!

:bouncesfromonefoottoother:

Very weird driving it :lol: the dashboard is very odd! Cool though.

Food: 1 FB salad, 1 packet french fries, 1 strawberry tart, 1 caramel creme egg, some almonds, some hula hoops and tea is pancakes (some lemon & sugar, some chocolate, 1 ham and cheese, 1 with LOADS of maple syrup...). Have only done 200calories cos of DWSarah coming over.

Off to stroke my car again, its all shiny and its SILVER!!

DWSarah just left (midnight) so no more biking. Lots of business ideas though for us both. Off to buy swimming cossie tomorrow.

Hmmmmm

Looks like this swimming idea is actually a goer.

M2 who used to be a lifeguard assures me no-one would look at my body ( :unsure: ) so am off into PoshTown on Wednesday before I go to Drs for a swimming costume, before going to Drs in the afternoon for FatPills (:crossedfingers:) and then hopefully see if there is a swimming session Weds evening.

Food: FB salad (no eggmayonaise, but light saladcream), 1 packet French Fries, jelly sweets, some Yorkie bar, 2 bites sausage sandwich,lamb, mashed potatoes, peas, carrots, yorkshire pudding, gravy, mint jelly.

Sadly, the bras I was excited about being too big yesterday actually are too small when I need to do anything. :( I've gone up a back size :O :O :O :horrified:

Done 1015calories. DWSarah coming over tomorrow (and I get my new car!!) so no biking - just before weigh day too :S

bad day food/bike wise

Plus my shoulder is cracking like anything, and even being on the bike aggravates it :unsure:

Food: 1 muller light, 1 FB salad, 1 packet French Fries, half a pancake with chocolate spread. tea is roast lamb with everything. Hence why its not good I can't bring myself to go on the bike.

Have done about 150calories on it. May well do some later, just can't face the full 1000calories.

MUST see if I can afford weekly pilates lessons. I know it will hurt like anything, but my shoulder pain IS muscular - apparently my shoulder is at 45degrees to the rest of my body, so pilates would help. Just got to get over the embarrassment factor I suppose. Talking of embarassment....I am considering going swimming.

Now THAT would be something for the people of SmallTown to chat about! Don't even know if they do swimming costumes in my size....

ETA: It would appear my new bra's are too big.... :unsure: