I wish:
1. That I'd never got to this stage to start with
2. That I was a nicer person
3. That I was rich so I could afford to fix myself
4. That I could find it within myself to start back losing weight again. There is not *that* much further to go now, why can't I do it?
5. That I could stop wanting.
6. That I could be happy with what I have. I have a Christopher, a home, a good job that I get paid well for relative to my productivity, a FatHorse and my 2 kittens. I really do not have anything to complain about at all.
7. That I could motivate myself to do MORE. Today I could have ridden, gymmed and run. I only went to the gym. Tomorrow I should be able to run/ride or gym. I bet I only gym. I MUST get myself out of the habit that the arena is wet so I have to hack. I'm so fucking BORED of the bridleway.
8. That I could do something positive instead of whinging about how unfair everything is.
9. That I could apologise to the people I need to apologise to.
I wish that was enough.
