I wont be able to ride soon, I'll be too fat again. We've eaten out for the last 2 nights, and big meals too. I darent get on the scales, but I know its going to be bad.
Pony is going to get lunged uber early tomorrow morning before we go trailing off relative visiting, then will hopefully ride on Monday :noplans:
Had lovely birthday, been very spoilt. Loads of books, cds, pair of joules breeches (have never worn breeches in my LIFE :unsure: - highly unflattering too), a charm bracelet with charms on as a combined parents&chris present...beautybox voucher (obv have turned too horsey already LOL), winestopper, Queen-related stuff, lottery ticket... LOL.
Parents driving me crazy though and I know how ungrateful I'm being, which makes me feel worse, but they can be so hurtful sometimes completely unintentionally.
FatFighters here I come again on Tuesday. Honest. Think I have eaten enough this weekend to last me all year.
Saturday, 12 April 2008
Thursday, 10 April 2008
I'm old :bawling:
It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm officially, properly, late 20's. Parents arrived just after 6pm and have spent the last 5 hours starting with 'What Went Wrong' at age 3 and we'd only got to age 16 by the time they left. I've been drinking and I suspect in the morning I'll be grateful for the ability to touch type.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Just had a text of a staff memeber to say they'll be sick tomorrow, told them to ring the other manager in the morning but I wasnt going in! I'm so mean
Saddle arrived today so took it up to the yard full of excitement to ride, then realised I have no stirrup leathers :angryfire: so borrowed some of stephs which were tiddy and my left foot slipped straight out of the stirrup as soon as I put any weight in it, so we trundled around the arena in walk & spook (really doesnt like the shetland :rolleyes: ) then I just walked up the lane on her....then crossed the road onto the bridleway... ended up turning round halfway down cos it was rush hour and I duidnt really fancy any arguments going the full way round. I dont think there would be, she was so cool.
Saddle is lush, I've obsessively cleaned everything twixe today, just cos its mostly all new I think but I love that saddle. It's wrong just how much I love it.
Have said I will turn out in the morning. Will regret that I think.
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
Huge grins
Rode the pony tonight. First time in 6 months, first time at new yard....so I rode bareback cos my stupid saddle STILL hasnt arrived :grumps: Love the cobbit, such a good girl. Got a pic cos her old sharer came up to see her and I just have the biggest grin ever, look a total fool.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Gymmed tonight too (keen), was so rubbish it's unreal. Had a bit of a shit day foodwise, people bought me cakes cos it was my last day at work before my birthday so obviously I was obliged to eat them all, just as I am obliged to be on my 2nd bottle of wine now.
Sarah is here to see Chris and is irritating me cos she keeps going ON about how much weight I've lost. SHUT UP. I dont want to hear it. Logically I know I must have lost plenty of size - I know I have, I have the smaller clothes - but I dont see it and it makes me uncomfortable that other people DO. Dont look at me, I dont like it.
Want my saddle to come.
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
Decisions. Maybe.
Right. I need to stop being such a wimp. Pony was A Very Good Girl tonight - I forgot the gun club are based next door and they were clay pigeon shooting tonight. Took her in the arena to lunge and had a prancy, idiotic pony who thought she was walking hot coals for about 5 minutes, then she got bored and worked properly :wub:
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Wanted to get on her tonight, just for 5 minutes, but no stupid saddle.
So, she was such a good girl. I have no reason to believe she wont be out hacking, but *I* will tense and she will react. I'll just take a hip flask with me maybe.
More decisions - The Diet (with subheading The Gym)... Will get the parentals visit out the way then stop eating. Was meant to go to the gym tomorrow night, but friend has already bailed out on me :rolleyes: so will go on my own, get OH to pick me up, hopefully with saddle and go in the arena for a toddle about.
There are no lights up at the yard so winter-riding will be impossible unless I can hire the arena at the bottom of the lane (on a bridleway, so no roads in the dark). So my gym membership will be used far more over winter, I'm guessing. I'll still try to go at least 3 times a week in summer though. Having said that, I didnt get back till half 7 tonight, but much of that was just fannying about with Cob.
Havent dared get on the scales and will wait for weight to be under 15stone before I have another fat scan. Is that cheating?
Monday, 7 April 2008
So tired
I've slept though the last couple of nights. Think the answer is no coffee, bugger. Miss my coffee.
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Even slept last night, despite the 4am alarm :sigh: Was worth it tho, we were down there (MK) by 9am and after some kerfuffle and 5 minutes where molly said 'will I wont I go on the box' were back on the road and home by 1pm. And THEN... I went to the gym. Was a bit rubbish though, it's the treadmill that knackers me out. Didnt do it today cos I had new(ish) trainers on and they're a bit too small (bless the christopher for trying though) and I thought they'd make my feet hurt so I did the bike instead and got numb toes on there. Plus the bike is BOR-ing.
So at least I did some exercise to counteract the sat-on-my-arse-all-day ness & bread/chocolate chip cookies.
Knackered now, have already fallen asleep in the bath and still have much to sort out. No idea how to work logistics of getting to the yard-work out :unsure:
Friday, 4 April 2008
definately crazy
Today I have jogged/walked round Yeadon Tarn twice (took 20-ish minutes, shockingly I didnt check properly), then I went to the gym, I was going to do my normal treadmill stuff, but just walked for a mile on a 4% incline & at 4mph. Might not do so much for the fat shifting, but hey, I went running for that.... it's more than I would have done. Then I did a rubbish rower and on the x-trainer. Did do some arms, but started texting people so gave up and went home. Made OH come get me. Oops.
Still not sleeping greatly, but I genuinely dont know what it is that's making me so wide awake. Overexcitement, I think is part of it, but other than that? Money... Bought the baggage a new saddle this morning (ouch, better fucking fit) which at the minute will take approximately a million years to pay off, my weight, I hate it. It's not shifting and I can't stop eating. Have wine now, and if I still dont sleep tonight I'm having my migraine pills tomorrow night.
We've arranged to go out with friends tomorrow night with friends for a meal, I really dont want to go now. I don't hugely want to eat in front of people I dont know that well and I'm not drinking (not if I need the pills). I hatehatehate one of the boys that's going and I can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing.
Girl from the yard came down to work this morning with my keys - really must go look at it :blush: but have a backup ready, so that if it's hugely awful, The Pony only has to stay there one night then I can walk her to another yard. Sounds a bit too good to be true though, 40 per week inc haylage & shavings, use of 20x60 arena, showjumps (it's a showjumping yard), if I'm not there by a certain time in the morning, she'll get put out by the (one) other livery and YO will bring her in and check her every night. Doesnt sound like DIY to me, but I'm not complaining :lol: Think I'm going to have to be brave at hacking alone though, she said no one really did but there's no way I'm having her on the chevin and then not hacking on it :lol:
Please let me sleep tonight, I'm REALLY tired, but also wide awake, if that makes sense.
Food:
1 salami slice, 2 x laughing cow light, 1 x rice cake, 1 packet of crisps, 1 slice melon, 1 chocolate rice crispy cake with 2 mini eggs, chris stew, yorkshire pudding, chris-brioche, nutella, 1 bottle white wine.
Still not sleeping greatly, but I genuinely dont know what it is that's making me so wide awake. Overexcitement, I think is part of it, but other than that? Money... Bought the baggage a new saddle this morning (ouch, better fucking fit) which at the minute will take approximately a million years to pay off, my weight, I hate it. It's not shifting and I can't stop eating. Have wine now, and if I still dont sleep tonight I'm having my migraine pills tomorrow night.
We've arranged to go out with friends tomorrow night with friends for a meal, I really dont want to go now. I don't hugely want to eat in front of people I dont know that well and I'm not drinking (not if I need the pills). I hatehatehate one of the boys that's going and I can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing.
Girl from the yard came down to work this morning with my keys - really must go look at it :blush: but have a backup ready, so that if it's hugely awful, The Pony only has to stay there one night then I can walk her to another yard. Sounds a bit too good to be true though, 40 per week inc haylage & shavings, use of 20x60 arena, showjumps (it's a showjumping yard), if I'm not there by a certain time in the morning, she'll get put out by the (one) other livery and YO will bring her in and check her every night. Doesnt sound like DIY to me, but I'm not complaining :lol: Think I'm going to have to be brave at hacking alone though, she said no one really did but there's no way I'm having her on the chevin and then not hacking on it :lol:
Please let me sleep tonight, I'm REALLY tired, but also wide awake, if that makes sense.
Food:
1 salami slice, 2 x laughing cow light, 1 x rice cake, 1 packet of crisps, 1 slice melon, 1 chocolate rice crispy cake with 2 mini eggs, chris stew, yorkshire pudding, chris-brioche, nutella, 1 bottle white wine.
reasons i cant sleep
1. weight
2. money
3. IAS
4. worried I wont do the pony justice now!!
5. Work
6. letting people down
7. just being a bitch in general
I'll leave it there for now
2. money
3. IAS
4. worried I wont do the pony justice now!!
5. Work
6. letting people down
7. just being a bitch in general
I'll leave it there for now
Thursday, 3 April 2008
two days running...
Blimey, have blogged more in 2 days than in last 2 weeks.
Pony-mobile booked and insurance set up. Went to open her a bank account but Wednesday is earliest they can do - arse. Driver is a bit keen though, he wants to leave in the middle of the night to avoid the traffic... I'm hoping I can take my iPod and sleep. Would that be rude?
Went 'running' tonight with friend from work (who I am also doing race for life with) round Gallows Hill. Took us 20 minutes and we finished there cos she (not me!!) was bored. Huh. Think it's about a mile, we walked most of it I think. The problem with the 2 of us is we're both fundamentally really lazy and neither of us push each other. Going again tomorrow with the accountant (AND we find out if we're getting a bonus tomorrow - huge crossed fingers. If we dont get one I'm going to push her in the Tarn) and Sunday with Gymbitch.
Saw a new phone contract on tinterweb today with same network I'm with, for 35quid a month, you get 750calls and unlimited texts. Says you can cancel your existing contract as long as you're within 2 months of the end of the minimum contract - mines up next month, so hopefully I should be ok. Something will go wrong, I know it. But I'm going Sunday to ask about it.
I'm getting tired at long last, I'm really hoping I sleep tonight. However, N is on her way over. Usually has the opposite effect on me. I. Am. Not. Drinking. Owner came into work today and told me I looked like shite & exhausted. That's not great.
Wish I'd gone to the gym instead today. Oh well.
Todays food:
3 x laughing cow light
2 slice salami
2 x salt & vinegar rice cakes
1/2 of a Chris pork pie
1 packet crisps
grapes
Chris-Stew
Yorkshire pudding
half of some kind of nutty pastry affair
Hmm. I'm quite sure I ate more at lunchtime.
Pony-mobile booked and insurance set up. Went to open her a bank account but Wednesday is earliest they can do - arse. Driver is a bit keen though, he wants to leave in the middle of the night to avoid the traffic... I'm hoping I can take my iPod and sleep. Would that be rude?
Went 'running' tonight with friend from work (who I am also doing race for life with) round Gallows Hill. Took us 20 minutes and we finished there cos she (not me!!) was bored. Huh. Think it's about a mile, we walked most of it I think. The problem with the 2 of us is we're both fundamentally really lazy and neither of us push each other. Going again tomorrow with the accountant (AND we find out if we're getting a bonus tomorrow - huge crossed fingers. If we dont get one I'm going to push her in the Tarn) and Sunday with Gymbitch.
Saw a new phone contract on tinterweb today with same network I'm with, for 35quid a month, you get 750calls and unlimited texts. Says you can cancel your existing contract as long as you're within 2 months of the end of the minimum contract - mines up next month, so hopefully I should be ok. Something will go wrong, I know it. But I'm going Sunday to ask about it.
I'm getting tired at long last, I'm really hoping I sleep tonight. However, N is on her way over. Usually has the opposite effect on me. I. Am. Not. Drinking. Owner came into work today and told me I looked like shite & exhausted. That's not great.
Wish I'd gone to the gym instead today. Oh well.
Todays food:
3 x laughing cow light
2 slice salami
2 x salt & vinegar rice cakes
1/2 of a Chris pork pie
1 packet crisps
grapes
Chris-Stew
Yorkshire pudding
half of some kind of nutty pastry affair
Hmm. I'm quite sure I ate more at lunchtime.
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
WWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Right, if this doesnt work, I'm giving up entirely. This is the FOURTH time I've tried to post this fucking thing.
Essentially, if I was to round things up, in a nutshell, it would be thus:
1. We love the Gymbitch. I'm running, outside, in daylight, where people can see me. AND she doesnt laugh at me (openly!)even when I cant breathe, having run approximately a metre.
2. The pony is coming back!! Equal parts supreme overexcitement, terror and OMG I can't afford this... Actually, I think overexcitement is outweighing everything else at the minute. It'll kick in again once I've had a week of mucking out.
3. Due to combination of Gymbitch & Pony, I've just had the best workout ever. Nearly died doing it, but am so proud of myself tonight, in a 'it's all gonna go to shit soon' way.
4. Might be giving up Fat Fighters. I'm not really enjoying it anymore (the pointing), I'm forever going over points and I could do with the extra money. I should really give up the gym too, but I can't quite bring myself to do that. We'll see how it goes time & money wise.
I think part of the enthusiasm has gone because even though *I* don't see the change in me, I am wearing size 18-20 clothes which not so long ago was an unacheivable target... I dont know. I keep forgetting to do measurements as well, so maybe the obsession is going. lets hope so. Am off the happy pills too now and no one seems to have noticed any difference so ever onwards...I have had one huge slip, but. Itchy Arms Syndrome. I just dont want it all to come back.
Work is ok. The biggest irritant is away at the minute and comes back when I'm off for a week so that works out quite nicely for me.
I'll just have the lottery numbers for Saturday night please and then I think I'm sorted. Positivity, excitement and no whinging, all in one post. Today truly is a good day. Lets hope the fucking thing posts now.
Food:
half a boost bar
8 squares whole nut
the vast majority of a bag of Haribo (maybe thats what made me superpowered on the rower?)
1 packet crisps
1 sausage
vegetables
rachelraita
2 slices chris-brioche
nutella
1 x salami & laughing cow light.
Ouch. I felt thin today too.
Essentially, if I was to round things up, in a nutshell, it would be thus:
1. We love the Gymbitch. I'm running, outside, in daylight, where people can see me. AND she doesnt laugh at me (openly!)even when I cant breathe, having run approximately a metre.
2. The pony is coming back!! Equal parts supreme overexcitement, terror and OMG I can't afford this... Actually, I think overexcitement is outweighing everything else at the minute. It'll kick in again once I've had a week of mucking out.
3. Due to combination of Gymbitch & Pony, I've just had the best workout ever. Nearly died doing it, but am so proud of myself tonight, in a 'it's all gonna go to shit soon' way.
4. Might be giving up Fat Fighters. I'm not really enjoying it anymore (the pointing), I'm forever going over points and I could do with the extra money. I should really give up the gym too, but I can't quite bring myself to do that. We'll see how it goes time & money wise.
I think part of the enthusiasm has gone because even though *I* don't see the change in me, I am wearing size 18-20 clothes which not so long ago was an unacheivable target... I dont know. I keep forgetting to do measurements as well, so maybe the obsession is going. lets hope so. Am off the happy pills too now and no one seems to have noticed any difference so ever onwards...I have had one huge slip, but. Itchy Arms Syndrome. I just dont want it all to come back.
Work is ok. The biggest irritant is away at the minute and comes back when I'm off for a week so that works out quite nicely for me.
I'll just have the lottery numbers for Saturday night please and then I think I'm sorted. Positivity, excitement and no whinging, all in one post. Today truly is a good day. Lets hope the fucking thing posts now.
Food:
half a boost bar
8 squares whole nut
the vast majority of a bag of Haribo (maybe thats what made me superpowered on the rower?)
1 packet crisps
1 sausage
vegetables
rachelraita
2 slices chris-brioche
nutella
1 x salami & laughing cow light.
Ouch. I felt thin today too.
Friday, 28 March 2008
Long time no blog
I havent changed weight though.
Had a much more successful shopping trip last week - lots of jeans and a couple of tops, then today went again with the intention of MAYBE looking at an iPod and came home with an iPod, 3 tops, new bra (to go with the semi-backless top) and pants, a pair of jeans to thin into (really, they dont go above my hips...) and THE most gorgeous pair of shoes ever. Really quite high and I am going to fall off them and probably break my ankle.
Also had a really disapointing lunch in Costa. We broke the diet and truly wasnt worth it. AND it was 20quid. Robbing bastards.
I think my Garbage CD is broken :'( Will genuinely be really upset if it is, was so looking forward to having it on the ipod. Such a geek.
Must get back into eating properly, I've eaten a load of shit recently and although I dont *think* I've put any weight on, it's only cos I've been going to the gym loads. Think how much I could have lost if I'd gone to the gym and eaten less?!
Had a much more successful shopping trip last week - lots of jeans and a couple of tops, then today went again with the intention of MAYBE looking at an iPod and came home with an iPod, 3 tops, new bra (to go with the semi-backless top) and pants, a pair of jeans to thin into (really, they dont go above my hips...) and THE most gorgeous pair of shoes ever. Really quite high and I am going to fall off them and probably break my ankle.
Also had a really disapointing lunch in Costa. We broke the diet and truly wasnt worth it. AND it was 20quid. Robbing bastards.
I think my Garbage CD is broken :'( Will genuinely be really upset if it is, was so looking forward to having it on the ipod. Such a geek.
Must get back into eating properly, I've eaten a load of shit recently and although I dont *think* I've put any weight on, it's only cos I've been going to the gym loads. Think how much I could have lost if I'd gone to the gym and eaten less?!
Wednesday, 19 March 2008
long time no blog....
TPO is still pregnant and dragging everyone down, got a new girl who is FAB, has settled in really well and works hard. Can't fault her, although she wants to leave cos of TPO. So that's shit.
Went shopping cos everyone moaned that I had no decent trousers so went shopping and found fuck all fitted, so came home in tears, went to the gym and didnt eat for the day. That was grown up.
I've found a pony I really want but I must be grown up and desist. Quite apart from the fact I dont have the money. Or the time, or the...anything really.
Got my race for life stuff through last week, I'm runner 300. Must up my running. meant to be going round some reservoir somewhere at some point. Running in public. Erk.
Have badly fallen off the wagon this month, must get back into things.
Went shopping cos everyone moaned that I had no decent trousers so went shopping and found fuck all fitted, so came home in tears, went to the gym and didnt eat for the day. That was grown up.
I've found a pony I really want but I must be grown up and desist. Quite apart from the fact I dont have the money. Or the time, or the...anything really.
Got my race for life stuff through last week, I'm runner 300. Must up my running. meant to be going round some reservoir somewhere at some point. Running in public. Erk.
Have badly fallen off the wagon this month, must get back into things.
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
so fucked off
Had my bodyfat measured properly last night :bawling: 41% of me is Bad Fat. 9 stone is Good Fat. This bothers me as it looks like I will never get to 11stone goal, if 9stone of me now is Good - going to the gym surely means that will only increase...? Must find out what a good range is. BMI is 34 :bawling: (computer told me it was 33...ok, only a point, but hey).
Might not go to gym tonight - not cos I'm disillusioned, honest, but more because my house needs cleaning, properly, and I'll be knackered if I gym then clean :wimp: I'm yawning now!!
Next day off looks like it will be the 22nd March. Nightmare, but at least I'm getting paid The Deserters wage on the days that should have been my days off. They can go into New Clothes Fund.
Might not go to gym tonight - not cos I'm disillusioned, honest, but more because my house needs cleaning, properly, and I'll be knackered if I gym then clean :wimp: I'm yawning now!!
Next day off looks like it will be the 22nd March. Nightmare, but at least I'm getting paid The Deserters wage on the days that should have been my days off. They can go into New Clothes Fund.
Sunday, 2 March 2008
tired
B has walked out. TPO is still there, 'feeling really guilty you all have to do my work for you' :| I'm fast running out of sympathy, especially as tomorrow I will be the only one in.
Food-restraint is WAY out of the window.
Gymbitch suggested I do some boxing. Tempted.
Food-restraint is WAY out of the window.
Gymbitch suggested I do some boxing. Tempted.
Saturday, 1 March 2008
Measurements
Saturday March 1st 2008
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
8.5 inches gone... Better than I thought.
Looking through my diary last night, I saw my next target was to be 14.8 by my birthday. Really dont think that's going to happen :( I MUST get back into it, I've had such a bad week, last night we had pizza, wine and chocolate. :S But was same weight this morning as I was yesterday so not all bad. And I have a one on one with Gymbitch tomorrow.
I want to go shopping though.... I must admit now I need some more work jeans and possiblya belt or 2, but dont really want to go on my own. But what if the same happens as last time and I end up utterly depressed cos nothing fits? Dont really have the money for shopping either. Rahhh.
L. calf - 17
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28
R. thigh - 28
Hips (inc tummy)- 49
top hips (on bellybutton)- 49
waist - 38
under boobs - 34
L upper arm - 14
R upper arm - 14
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
8.5 inches gone... Better than I thought.
Looking through my diary last night, I saw my next target was to be 14.8 by my birthday. Really dont think that's going to happen :( I MUST get back into it, I've had such a bad week, last night we had pizza, wine and chocolate. :S But was same weight this morning as I was yesterday so not all bad. And I have a one on one with Gymbitch tomorrow.
I want to go shopping though.... I must admit now I need some more work jeans and possiblya belt or 2, but dont really want to go on my own. But what if the same happens as last time and I end up utterly depressed cos nothing fits? Dont really have the money for shopping either. Rahhh.
Thursday, 28 February 2008
tantrums, hormones and meh-ness
rahhhh/ Stinky is still pregnant. She is 'not allowed' to lift AT ALL and has had everyone (bar me cos I'm mean) running about fetching and carrying for her. I want to rant on some forums I go on, but I know how it will be taken.
Weight is Not Good. Had a bad 2 days which involved chocolate and a hot ham sandwich. I'm shocked at how much I've put on tbh. I didnt think it would be as much. Definate gain week. And pizza tomorrow. Must go to gym tomorrow night.
Work not bad. S'ok.
Weight is Not Good. Had a bad 2 days which involved chocolate and a hot ham sandwich. I'm shocked at how much I've put on tbh. I didnt think it would be as much. Definate gain week. And pizza tomorrow. Must go to gym tomorrow night.
Work not bad. S'ok.
Sunday, 24 February 2008
tantruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmm
I cant stop eating and have put on 6lbs since my WI on Friday :bawling: First 2lbs I blamed on totm, but no chance now.
Wedding last night was gorgeous. I'm kind of jealous :rolleyes:
Wedding last night was gorgeous. I'm kind of jealous :rolleyes:
Friday, 22 February 2008
*sigh*
I was 15.5 yesterday morning :( So have put on weight through eating that yummy flapjack (not sure it was worth 12 points though)and drinking the pink wine. Sigh. But, hey, it's still a loss from last week.... New 10% goal is now 14 stone, by which point I will only be overweight according to my BMI, as opposed to morbidly obese :rolleyes:
Gym in a bit - tbh I cant really work up enthusiasm to go, esp as will do EVERYTHING.
I was oh-so-right re the Work Thing with S. Knew it. Boys are so shit at hiding stuff.
Must get motivated. Have Things To DO before I go to the gym, plus I need to remember to take the stupid grate with me to swap it. bah. Why couldnt OH do it tomorrow?
Gym in a bit - tbh I cant really work up enthusiasm to go, esp as will do EVERYTHING.
I was oh-so-right re the Work Thing with S. Knew it. Boys are so shit at hiding stuff.
Must get motivated. Have Things To DO before I go to the gym, plus I need to remember to take the stupid grate with me to swap it. bah. Why couldnt OH do it tomorrow?
Monday, 18 February 2008
sulky
The Pregnant One is pregnant no longer. Do we give it three months before she is again?
I dropped a bale of chop onto my leg which was out to the side earlier, nearly popping it out of the hip socket. Bastard well hurts now. OH is Off Games for the forseeable now. Also meant I didnt go to the gym. Half pissed off, half kind of relieved, we were so busy with TPO being off, that I'm not sure I really needed the gym tonight :lol:
There are Decisions and Dilemmas about TPO and also my job, I think, if I want to have a family, or get into the family way at any point.Erk.
Had to do an emergency Tesco shop today, which pissed me off (we only went Friday!!!). Just means we spend more money we dont really have on things we dont especially need (yes, I bought a DVD) and we've still forgotten stuff.
Hands are all dry and horrid :( They look like they belong to a 100yo woman :(
I dropped a bale of chop onto my leg which was out to the side earlier, nearly popping it out of the hip socket. Bastard well hurts now. OH is Off Games for the forseeable now. Also meant I didnt go to the gym. Half pissed off, half kind of relieved, we were so busy with TPO being off, that I'm not sure I really needed the gym tonight :lol:
There are Decisions and Dilemmas about TPO and also my job, I think, if I want to have a family, or get into the family way at any point.Erk.
Had to do an emergency Tesco shop today, which pissed me off (we only went Friday!!!). Just means we spend more money we dont really have on things we dont especially need (yes, I bought a DVD) and we've still forgotten stuff.
Hands are all dry and horrid :( They look like they belong to a 100yo woman :(
Sunday, 17 February 2008
Not the best day
Bad nights sleep, plus an 8am 'alarm' (haha) call from work, divided by The Most Irritating Man in the Universe, bar none = really fucking grumpy FB.
I had loads to blog earlier, I'm sure of it, but I just kept putting it off (ooh, I'll just put some washing on/mop the floor/hoover - clearly I am ill) and now I cant remember what it was.
I think it can be summed up by 1. This connection on the internet from this computer REALLY fucks me off, and 2. I'm fed up of hovering round this weight. I have 4 days to lose 4lbs (maybe a bit more) and it's SO not going to happen.
bugger it. I'm off to bed.
I had loads to blog earlier, I'm sure of it, but I just kept putting it off (ooh, I'll just put some washing on/mop the floor/hoover - clearly I am ill) and now I cant remember what it was.
I think it can be summed up by 1. This connection on the internet from this computer REALLY fucks me off, and 2. I'm fed up of hovering round this weight. I have 4 days to lose 4lbs (maybe a bit more) and it's SO not going to happen.
bugger it. I'm off to bed.
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