But I did run. New program is:
rower - 5 x 300metre/30seconds rest. The AIM is to do it in less than 1m15. That idea is laughable.
treadmill - 1min @ 3.5mph/5% incline, 1min @ 5mph/0% incline, although I may up it to 5.5mph.... Took me 14minutes to do a mile.
cross trainer - random setting, level 7, 7 minutes. I will build up to 10mins - in fact I might try it on monday. But :whinge: it will be busy and those fast running girls will be there and I'll fall off the treadmill.
I almost find it easier than the last one she did me. Dont tell her though.
Also went for a quick walk on the chevin - was out for 33 minutes. Now I have times for both walks, will try and beat myself back on them the next time I go up there.
Looby is being sick :( Silly bugger ate a packet of egg fried noodles yesterday.
Friday, 15 February 2008
Thursday, 14 February 2008
So spoilt
:wub: OH. Lush toys and a necklace from Tiffanys awaited me this morning :hyperventilate: Such a shock, truly cant believe it. It's been everywhere with me today LOL.
Having a bit of a 'cant be arsed' mood today though. Day off and I have troughed my bodyweight in Bad Things. This is doubly bad as not only is it WI tomorrow, it's been such Bad Things, I'm STILL hungry.
Tried to get a fire going for OH to come home to, but it goes for about a minute then dies.
Gymbitch collared me at the gym last night and I had my arm twisted into booking another review for tomorrow. But it's still hard!! She wants me to run too. I dont want to.
N came round, moaned she was single, moaned I was so lucky, moaned she had no job (whos fault?) then left.
Really must get motivated, mum wants me to write something about the smallest kitten for her cat club newsletter and I. Have. No. Inspiration.
Food today:
6 pink & whites
1 packet cheese puffs
3 rice cakes
2 laughing cow light
LOTS of chocolate
2 packets jumbo munch dairylea dunkers (:S)
1 mars drink
slimey chicken
marshmallows
martini asti
hot chocolate (highlights)
Tomorrow will be a gain, I've checked :( I went for a long walk on the chevin (just under an hour) and had some laxatives but nowt. I cant get in an arse about it, it is my own undisciplined fault.
Having a bit of a 'cant be arsed' mood today though. Day off and I have troughed my bodyweight in Bad Things. This is doubly bad as not only is it WI tomorrow, it's been such Bad Things, I'm STILL hungry.
Tried to get a fire going for OH to come home to, but it goes for about a minute then dies.
Gymbitch collared me at the gym last night and I had my arm twisted into booking another review for tomorrow. But it's still hard!! She wants me to run too. I dont want to.
N came round, moaned she was single, moaned I was so lucky, moaned she had no job (whos fault?) then left.
Really must get motivated, mum wants me to write something about the smallest kitten for her cat club newsletter and I. Have. No. Inspiration.
Food today:
6 pink & whites
1 packet cheese puffs
3 rice cakes
2 laughing cow light
LOTS of chocolate
2 packets jumbo munch dairylea dunkers (:S)
1 mars drink
slimey chicken
marshmallows
martini asti
hot chocolate (highlights)
Tomorrow will be a gain, I've checked :( I went for a long walk on the chevin (just under an hour) and had some laxatives but nowt. I cant get in an arse about it, it is my own undisciplined fault.
Tuesday, 12 February 2008
really tired....
ran at the gym tonight again. Only managed a minute each time. Think I'm getting worse. Rower I just couldnt do....not under a minute anyway, more like 1m10. Arms really ached. Did core and legs today, going to attempt little plank for 1m30 tomorrow (laughable), side planks for 15 seconds (again... my feet slip out from under me) and upper planks for 40 (I did 30 today). Gymbitch still wants me to have a review.
B at work is pregnant. She found out today. Boyfriend doesnt know. They've been together less than 3 months. It was a deliberate accident.
Checked my account after Sundays shopping extravaganza. My current account is now #2.58 in credit. Shit. Still. At least it's in credit. And my credit card is at zero.
What else can I have for lunch? I'm kind of sick of fat fighters banoffee pies for dessert.
Gym again tomorrow, am tired just thinking about it.
B at work is pregnant. She found out today. Boyfriend doesnt know. They've been together less than 3 months. It was a deliberate accident.
Checked my account after Sundays shopping extravaganza. My current account is now #2.58 in credit. Shit. Still. At least it's in credit. And my credit card is at zero.
What else can I have for lunch? I'm kind of sick of fat fighters banoffee pies for dessert.
Gym again tomorrow, am tired just thinking about it.
Monday, 11 February 2008
podged....again
Loving the curry. Although I had put on 2lbs this morning :s . My joules jogging bottoms turned up this morning.....THEY FIT!!! An 18! In Joules!!! Bottoms!! S said they were fine (such a boy answer) but I'm not convinced I'd wear them in public.
Went to the gym tonight (fitting in an 18 bottoms inspired me) but only managed cardio and arms. Bit cross now as may as well done the lot, but can go tomorrow. Gymbitch thinks it's time for a review. Hmmm.
OH keeps mentioning my valentines present and what a HUGE thing it is but then gets cross when I ask about it. Boys.
My shoulder is a bit sore tonight.
I think I am going to have to be careful, looking at the new clothes I have bought is not to get carried away with the fact that I fit into clothes from XXXX shop on the high street and wear them regardless, but wear them because they actually FIT and look good.
Went to the gym tonight (fitting in an 18 bottoms inspired me) but only managed cardio and arms. Bit cross now as may as well done the lot, but can go tomorrow. Gymbitch thinks it's time for a review. Hmmm.
OH keeps mentioning my valentines present and what a HUGE thing it is but then gets cross when I ask about it. Boys.
My shoulder is a bit sore tonight.
I think I am going to have to be careful, looking at the new clothes I have bought is not to get carried away with the fact that I fit into clothes from XXXX shop on the high street and wear them regardless, but wear them because they actually FIT and look good.
Sunday, 10 February 2008
Uh-oh, who's in trouble?
I went Shopping today. Only went to HGate for some jogging bottoms and a *little* bit of Lush.
Came home with 2 DVDs, a Wii game, a cd, a *lot* of Lush, a hoody, some jogging bottoms, 4 books and some pants from La Senza.... Assistant in La Senza suggested I get measured for one of their bras :heehee: pointed out I was a GG cup (:blush:) and she told me to get measured there one day as they sized differently. Hmmmm. I might. Dont really want to go up a million back sizes though :S
Spent morning with N on the yard. I missed horses today. Even the shitty (haha) jobs like mucking out and pottering about. Sorted the horse out and got introduced to a few of the liveries. Some potty rules, but actually, they probably mean the yard runs very well. Sometimes they do part loans there, and I was so sorely tempted for in a couple of stones time....but its expensive, it's over 10 miles away, and i suspect I wouldnt fit in with the majority of liveries there (you know, I work and my OHs income is less than several million a year...).
Having fat fighters curry for tea tomorrow and Tuesday (had it lastnight and this too) so I can save points for valentines day. Bit of a bugger having WI the day after, esp as will be having sparkly wine. OH is winding me up saying I'm not allowed his present until after work so I dont blab to everyone about it. Odd.
Came home with 2 DVDs, a Wii game, a cd, a *lot* of Lush, a hoody, some jogging bottoms, 4 books and some pants from La Senza.... Assistant in La Senza suggested I get measured for one of their bras :heehee: pointed out I was a GG cup (:blush:) and she told me to get measured there one day as they sized differently. Hmmmm. I might. Dont really want to go up a million back sizes though :S
Spent morning with N on the yard. I missed horses today. Even the shitty (haha) jobs like mucking out and pottering about. Sorted the horse out and got introduced to a few of the liveries. Some potty rules, but actually, they probably mean the yard runs very well. Sometimes they do part loans there, and I was so sorely tempted for in a couple of stones time....but its expensive, it's over 10 miles away, and i suspect I wouldnt fit in with the majority of liveries there (you know, I work and my OHs income is less than several million a year...).
Having fat fighters curry for tea tomorrow and Tuesday (had it lastnight and this too) so I can save points for valentines day. Bit of a bugger having WI the day after, esp as will be having sparkly wine. OH is winding me up saying I'm not allowed his present until after work so I dont blab to everyone about it. Odd.
Saturday, 9 February 2008
Feeling Virtuous
And also poor...
Took the car down this morning to get the exhaust fixed. They werent quite ready to start it when I took it, so as I had my gym kit in the boot I went to the gym and just did my cardio program. So tomorrow can be a Nell day.
So virtuous - gym, yay me, as i wasnt planning on going, but poor....Car cost #176.
N is back. Going to see her and B tomorrow. I wonder if she is still self-diagnosed depressed? It is such hard work when she is like this as she expects (and demands) all the answers NOW to stuff no one else could ever possibly know, and then gets in an arse when either what you've said never pans out/she doesnt like it.
I really must motivate myself to get this house clean. So far I've washed up and thats it. Everywhere is such a state.
Took the car down this morning to get the exhaust fixed. They werent quite ready to start it when I took it, so as I had my gym kit in the boot I went to the gym and just did my cardio program. So tomorrow can be a Nell day.
So virtuous - gym, yay me, as i wasnt planning on going, but poor....Car cost #176.
N is back. Going to see her and B tomorrow. I wonder if she is still self-diagnosed depressed? It is such hard work when she is like this as she expects (and demands) all the answers NOW to stuff no one else could ever possibly know, and then gets in an arse when either what you've said never pans out/she doesnt like it.
I really must motivate myself to get this house clean. So far I've washed up and thats it. Everywhere is such a state.
Friday, 8 February 2008
weigh in....
I'm in the 15's!! I'm not getting over excited because a) I'm hardly convincingly in there, b) I've just eaten an OH pizza and c) I'm 4.5points over today.
I'm quite cross with myself because c) was my own fault. OH had left his lunch at work and I couldnt help myself and ate half his sandwich.... which was 4.5points for that half :S Still the pizza was amazing as always and...I'm in the 15's!
My aim of being 15.7 by Feb 26th seems a little far fetched though.
I thought I would feel so thin when I got to the 15's but I really dont.... 14's seems a much better number....13's even better etc.
My teeth are in dire need of being sorted now. I really must make a concerted effort now to save and get my broken tooth fixed (18months now it's been broken) and get the rest of them sorted and get me on DenPlan or similar. Plus I need to save for my divorce.
My bonus was paid today....yay!! But the exhaust on my car has fallen off, so guess where that's going. *sigh* I was so positive about money too, not so long ago.
I'm going to have put on so much tomorrow. Almost tempted not to look. Must gym. Or potentially a Nell DVD.
I'm quite cross with myself because c) was my own fault. OH had left his lunch at work and I couldnt help myself and ate half his sandwich.... which was 4.5points for that half :S Still the pizza was amazing as always and...I'm in the 15's!
My aim of being 15.7 by Feb 26th seems a little far fetched though.
I thought I would feel so thin when I got to the 15's but I really dont.... 14's seems a much better number....13's even better etc.
My teeth are in dire need of being sorted now. I really must make a concerted effort now to save and get my broken tooth fixed (18months now it's been broken) and get the rest of them sorted and get me on DenPlan or similar. Plus I need to save for my divorce.
My bonus was paid today....yay!! But the exhaust on my car has fallen off, so guess where that's going. *sigh* I was so positive about money too, not so long ago.
I'm going to have put on so much tomorrow. Almost tempted not to look. Must gym. Or potentially a Nell DVD.
Wednesday, 6 February 2008
Ubercore
Uuuurrrrgghhhh My tummy aches already. Doesnt really feel like we did much tbh, but I ache already. Managed plank for 1m13s - a personal best! Also increased the x-trainer to level 10.
cannot WAIT until payday.
cannot WAIT until payday.
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
so tired
Went to gym tonight and did my full program. Am knackered!! Not a chance in hell of running, was an effort to stay on the treadmill just walking. Didnt get any of the rower metres under a minute. I did, however, manage to plank for a whole minute and have increased the cross trainer to level 8. It's all good, right?
Pancakes for tea - I cant have pointed right, I still have 1.5points left and had 4 pancakes.... 2 with ham & mozzerella (mmmm), 1 with chocolate spread and marshmallows and one with lemon juice & sweetener.
Dont think laxatives worked. Well. They probably have. I am Fat Bloater-4 poo's today and am HIGHLY windy this evening.
Must motivate myself and go to bed. Am in grave danger of falling asleep here. This YouTube obsession is Very Bad.
Pancakes for tea - I cant have pointed right, I still have 1.5points left and had 4 pancakes.... 2 with ham & mozzerella (mmmm), 1 with chocolate spread and marshmallows and one with lemon juice & sweetener.
Dont think laxatives worked. Well. They probably have. I am Fat Bloater-4 poo's today and am HIGHLY windy this evening.
Must motivate myself and go to bed. Am in grave danger of falling asleep here. This YouTube obsession is Very Bad.
Monday, 4 February 2008
Woe is Me
*sigh* How do I get this pound off? I'm still just teetering on 16stone and it's starting to piss me off.
Without getting too graphic, I constantly feel like I need a Very Big Poo so OH has trundled out to Tesco and is getting me some laxatives. Must gym tomorrow. I did plan on going today, but I felt so shit at lunch time - blurry eyes, swaying, slurred speech, I really thought I was going to have a migraine. Typically I am fine now and itchy cos I havent done much today.
Not much else to blog really. A friend and I are considering doing the BHF Leeds-Skipton walk (the whole thing!!) but that isnt till September - she should have been her GW for months and I should just about be getting there. Race for Life is applied for etc, just waiting for my pack now. Different Friend still hasnt applied which has pissed me off - I really dont want to do it on my own.
Hope OH comes back soon. How long do they take to work? Hours? Minutes? I'm going to need my Big Poo at work, or at the gym, arent I? :(
Without getting too graphic, I constantly feel like I need a Very Big Poo so OH has trundled out to Tesco and is getting me some laxatives. Must gym tomorrow. I did plan on going today, but I felt so shit at lunch time - blurry eyes, swaying, slurred speech, I really thought I was going to have a migraine. Typically I am fine now and itchy cos I havent done much today.
Not much else to blog really. A friend and I are considering doing the BHF Leeds-Skipton walk (the whole thing!!) but that isnt till September - she should have been her GW for months and I should just about be getting there. Race for Life is applied for etc, just waiting for my pack now. Different Friend still hasnt applied which has pissed me off - I really dont want to do it on my own.
Hope OH comes back soon. How long do they take to work? Hours? Minutes? I'm going to need my Big Poo at work, or at the gym, arent I? :(
Sunday, 3 February 2008
Another Tantrum brewing...
Well, after the excitement of the other day of FINALLY being in the 15's, I dont think I'll make it under 16stone this week - Not unless I have a rice cake for tea on thursday night anyway.
Gym again today, was quite busy so I didnt do any running. Did do full program though. Can't decide whether to do cardio and core tomorrow or have a night off. Hmmm, decisions decisions.
Still loving YouTube and Facebook. Is it wrong to have such obsessions?
Work might be awkward tomorrow, one of the managers wants to sue for loss of earnings from yesterday :S Was busy today though.
Pancake day on Tuesday, another reason why my diet might be buggered. Lambstew & pudding again tomorrow, pancakes Tuesday, Omelette on Wednesday...what to have Thursday? A rice cake is looking an attractive option.
I'm so tired and not really done anything. treadmill was hard work today, maybe just as well I didnt run.
Gym again today, was quite busy so I didnt do any running. Did do full program though. Can't decide whether to do cardio and core tomorrow or have a night off. Hmmm, decisions decisions.
Still loving YouTube and Facebook. Is it wrong to have such obsessions?
Work might be awkward tomorrow, one of the managers wants to sue for loss of earnings from yesterday :S Was busy today though.
Pancake day on Tuesday, another reason why my diet might be buggered. Lambstew & pudding again tomorrow, pancakes Tuesday, Omelette on Wednesday...what to have Thursday? A rice cake is looking an attractive option.
I'm so tired and not really done anything. treadmill was hard work today, maybe just as well I didnt run.
Saturday, 2 February 2008
I wanna do great things
I don't wanna compromise....
Is going to be my new theme tune :nod:
I posted on a forum that I go on a lot (daily :rolleyes: ) about my weight loss and everyone is telling me how well I've done, which i can kind of accept on one hand. One the other, I still have another 5 stone to go, so I cant get TOO excited.
I got into the 15's today :grin: only just - half a pound in :lol: but, still, under 16 stone. I can't remember the last time that happened. In fact, I dont think I've EVER seen that on a set of scales when i've been stood on them. The excitement is actually unimaginable.
work was a bit baba today, really bad accident further down and the road was shut, so a lot of people assumed we werent open, despite the police allegedly telling them we were. I have my doubts. Very quiet, but it did mean we got some good work done in the shop.
Under 16 stone, me....weeee!!
Another 2.5 stone and I'll ask about riding lessons :)
Is going to be my new theme tune :nod:
I posted on a forum that I go on a lot (daily :rolleyes: ) about my weight loss and everyone is telling me how well I've done, which i can kind of accept on one hand. One the other, I still have another 5 stone to go, so I cant get TOO excited.
I got into the 15's today :grin: only just - half a pound in :lol: but, still, under 16 stone. I can't remember the last time that happened. In fact, I dont think I've EVER seen that on a set of scales when i've been stood on them. The excitement is actually unimaginable.
work was a bit baba today, really bad accident further down and the road was shut, so a lot of people assumed we werent open, despite the police allegedly telling them we were. I have my doubts. Very quiet, but it did mean we got some good work done in the shop.
Under 16 stone, me....weeee!!
Another 2.5 stone and I'll ask about riding lessons :)
Friday, 1 February 2008
Measurements Day
No pictures though, will do those 1st March to get (hopefully!) a better 'midway' pic.
Tuesday January 1st 2008:
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
Which if my adding is correct... I've lost 12 inches from ALL OVER my body in a month. Hail the GymBitch!! I'm having a day off from the gym this week, have been every day so far, but I *might* go on Sunday.
so, I've lost those 3lbs I'd put back on on Monday, but have failed on my 'into the 15's by February' challenge, so I now have to lose 8.5lbs this month to 'win' my 15.7lbs by March 1st challenge. It's do able. Now I'm out of my hormones induced tantrum, I know I CAN do it. This whole 'lost 12inches' malarky may have something to do with it too.
Wish I could find my fattest measurements. I think I put them on the fire so OH wouldnt see them.
Tuesday January 1st 2008:
L. calf - 18
R. calf - 17.5
L. thigh - 29.5
R. thigh - 29.5
Hips (inc tummy)- 52
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51.5
waist -43
under boobs - 37
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 15
Friday February 1st 2008
L. calf - 17.5
R. calf - 17
L. thigh - 28&aquarter
R. thigh - 28&aquarter
Hips (inc tummy)- 50
top hips (on bellybutton)- 51
waist - 40.5
under boobs - 34.5
L upper arm - 15
R upper arm - 14.5
Which if my adding is correct... I've lost 12 inches from ALL OVER my body in a month. Hail the GymBitch!! I'm having a day off from the gym this week, have been every day so far, but I *might* go on Sunday.
so, I've lost those 3lbs I'd put back on on Monday, but have failed on my 'into the 15's by February' challenge, so I now have to lose 8.5lbs this month to 'win' my 15.7lbs by March 1st challenge. It's do able. Now I'm out of my hormones induced tantrum, I know I CAN do it. This whole 'lost 12inches' malarky may have something to do with it too.
Wish I could find my fattest measurements. I think I put them on the fire so OH wouldnt see them.
Thursday, 31 January 2008
Feeling guilty
In these last 2 years, with the exception of having to 'give up on' MCob I've been horribly lucky - undeservingly so. With some of the crap that some people I know are dealing with, I can feel it's about to turn round and bite me on the arse big time.
Measurements Day tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, I dont THINK I've changed size. I thought I might have done the other day (I had a sneaky peek) but either I'd not eaten or something was going on because I havent budged on todays sneaky peek. Gym again tonight, I ran, again!! Did 1min @ 3.5mph, 1m30 @ 5.5mph and another 1m30 at 4mph twice, then a break of 3mins at 4mph and one at 3.5mph and then a final burst of 5mph for a whole minute :lol: to finish. Was so sweaty :blush: embarrassingly so. but the AIM is to run at least part of the Race For Life, which I registered for today.
Work very slow today. I looked for some GCSE Maths courses but I cant afford any of them :( so much for being Debt Free. *sigh*
Measurements Day tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, I dont THINK I've changed size. I thought I might have done the other day (I had a sneaky peek) but either I'd not eaten or something was going on because I havent budged on todays sneaky peek. Gym again tonight, I ran, again!! Did 1min @ 3.5mph, 1m30 @ 5.5mph and another 1m30 at 4mph twice, then a break of 3mins at 4mph and one at 3.5mph and then a final burst of 5mph for a whole minute :lol: to finish. Was so sweaty :blush: embarrassingly so. but the AIM is to run at least part of the Race For Life, which I registered for today.
Work very slow today. I looked for some GCSE Maths courses but I cant afford any of them :( so much for being Debt Free. *sigh*
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Exiled
Very odd. Havent been able to log in since Monday. No idea why, although tonight i tried going through blogger rather than signing in through my blog. Am posting so something seems to have worked, somewhere...
News? Well....we got the bonus :D So HOPEFULLY, it looks like by the end of next week I'll be able to pay off at least some of my second credit card (might not clear it now - reasons will become clear...) and pay off the car and mattress.
So...have been shopping. Joules have a sale on. I have spent about #70 :blush: but I have SAVED double that, easily. Honest. Plus I have some joggers to thin into. And they really will be to thin into, not a surprise like the Next joggers.
The tantrum seems to have passed. I struggle so hard though, the shopping on Saturday REALLY upset me and have spent the last 2 days constantly on the verge of tears. OH went out and got me some herbal happy pills in preperation for next month.
In Other News.... Gym tonight...I RAN on the treadmill :biggrin: for less than a minute and a half :lol: but I DID it, it was such a huge deal for me too.
Off for a bath now. I stink after The Run.
News? Well....we got the bonus :D So HOPEFULLY, it looks like by the end of next week I'll be able to pay off at least some of my second credit card (might not clear it now - reasons will become clear...) and pay off the car and mattress.
So...have been shopping. Joules have a sale on. I have spent about #70 :blush: but I have SAVED double that, easily. Honest. Plus I have some joggers to thin into. And they really will be to thin into, not a surprise like the Next joggers.
The tantrum seems to have passed. I struggle so hard though, the shopping on Saturday REALLY upset me and have spent the last 2 days constantly on the verge of tears. OH went out and got me some herbal happy pills in preperation for next month.
In Other News.... Gym tonight...I RAN on the treadmill :biggrin: for less than a minute and a half :lol: but I DID it, it was such a huge deal for me too.
Off for a bath now. I stink after The Run.
Sunday, 27 January 2008
*sigh*
Dont come to me for optimism...
Now, I am 100% sure than in a weeks time I'll be all upbeat and positive again, but right now I just wanht to curl up into a ball and not see anyone ever again. I've been this weight for 2 months now, nothing fit me yesterday and I still have so far to go.
I'm only just over half way. Another 2 years minimum of this? No way. I'll go crazy.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow evening after work. Show willing if nothing else. Maybe it is time for meetings? I dont know. I didnt think I'd been SO bad this week (ok the baguettes, toasted sandwiches and muffins were a minor blip) but half a stone? Really? Scales this morning said 16.7 stone. I so desperately wanted to be in the 15's this week.
Tried to stay in the shop for today - was expecting lots of going up and down stairs for customers etc.... spent most of the day upstairs texting - great example.
IdiotChild came in. I made her cry.
The Adventures of DietGirl is REALLY good. Still jealous though. I want to BE her.
OH has ManFlu. He is not long for this world.
It's 9pm and I'm about to go to bed, how sad is that?
Now, I am 100% sure than in a weeks time I'll be all upbeat and positive again, but right now I just wanht to curl up into a ball and not see anyone ever again. I've been this weight for 2 months now, nothing fit me yesterday and I still have so far to go.
I'm only just over half way. Another 2 years minimum of this? No way. I'll go crazy.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow evening after work. Show willing if nothing else. Maybe it is time for meetings? I dont know. I didnt think I'd been SO bad this week (ok the baguettes, toasted sandwiches and muffins were a minor blip) but half a stone? Really? Scales this morning said 16.7 stone. I so desperately wanted to be in the 15's this week.
Tried to stay in the shop for today - was expecting lots of going up and down stairs for customers etc.... spent most of the day upstairs texting - great example.
IdiotChild came in. I made her cry.
The Adventures of DietGirl is REALLY good. Still jealous though. I want to BE her.
OH has ManFlu. He is not long for this world.
It's 9pm and I'm about to go to bed, how sad is that?
Saturday, 26 January 2008
uuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm tired. No gym today, headachey and just meh in general.
Went into Leeds rather than HGate, what a disaster. Nothing fitted, not even a 22 M&S pair of jeans. Well. They went on and did up, but they were too tight to actually wear in public. And the top I tried on (in an attempt to lift my wardrobe of just dark colours) bagged badly at the back.
So I gave up, bought some Soap and Glory (new obsession) miracle creams and a book and came back home.
Why is my motivation slipping? I do wonder if it's the weather and the fact I am sick of winter now - and not even any ponies in sight. But, hmmm, I dont know. I want this so badly but I seem to have been trying for so long now.
I came on today as well (week early, hmm) which wont help. Also wont help in my 'lost 3lbs by monday to keep on track'. Need to lose 2lbs this week just to sts. Damn those baguettes/muffins over Tues & weds. Plus I now have the DEFINATE start of a cold.
IdiotChild has rung in 'sick' again for the weekend. Half hoped we'd see her in town, but nooo. Did hear a band playing live one of TheEx's bands songs today. Nearly had a fit, thought he was there.
Must stop spending money. It's my own fault I'm in so much debt.
I wanted to do an OU business course (I really am finding it hard at work) but it's SO expensive. I've asked the local college for information on any courses they might have instead. Shame because I would have liked a degree. No particular reason, I just want one... Was 1200 though just for the foundation - more again for the diploma and then even more for the actual honours certificate.
Went into Leeds rather than HGate, what a disaster. Nothing fitted, not even a 22 M&S pair of jeans. Well. They went on and did up, but they were too tight to actually wear in public. And the top I tried on (in an attempt to lift my wardrobe of just dark colours) bagged badly at the back.
So I gave up, bought some Soap and Glory (new obsession) miracle creams and a book and came back home.
Why is my motivation slipping? I do wonder if it's the weather and the fact I am sick of winter now - and not even any ponies in sight. But, hmmm, I dont know. I want this so badly but I seem to have been trying for so long now.
I came on today as well (week early, hmm) which wont help. Also wont help in my 'lost 3lbs by monday to keep on track'. Need to lose 2lbs this week just to sts. Damn those baguettes/muffins over Tues & weds. Plus I now have the DEFINATE start of a cold.
IdiotChild has rung in 'sick' again for the weekend. Half hoped we'd see her in town, but nooo. Did hear a band playing live one of TheEx's bands songs today. Nearly had a fit, thought he was there.
Must stop spending money. It's my own fault I'm in so much debt.
I wanted to do an OU business course (I really am finding it hard at work) but it's SO expensive. I've asked the local college for information on any courses they might have instead. Shame because I would have liked a degree. No particular reason, I just want one... Was 1200 though just for the foundation - more again for the diploma and then even more for the actual honours certificate.
Friday, 25 January 2008
Hmmmm
OH and I both have a day off tomorrow, but I dont know what to do.
We SHOULD go through our finances and decide how much is left to pay for etc. AFAIK, I SHOULD be debt free by my birthday, although I must make a concerted effort to get my teeth sorted this year too.
What I want to do though, is go into HGate, and Shop. The novelty of being able to shop in at least 2 extra shops (M&S and next) will take a while to wear off. I doubt we wil. In the time I've started this entry, I've stopped and gone to Tesco to do the Friday Big Shop and now we're back I feel utterly drained. Tired and achey. I was almost considering the gym tomorrow, but if I wake feeling like this, I wont bother.
Mattress is still :wub:
So tired. Going to have an evening of Family Guy I think.
We SHOULD go through our finances and decide how much is left to pay for etc. AFAIK, I SHOULD be debt free by my birthday, although I must make a concerted effort to get my teeth sorted this year too.
What I want to do though, is go into HGate, and Shop. The novelty of being able to shop in at least 2 extra shops (M&S and next) will take a while to wear off. I doubt we wil. In the time I've started this entry, I've stopped and gone to Tesco to do the Friday Big Shop and now we're back I feel utterly drained. Tired and achey. I was almost considering the gym tomorrow, but if I wake feeling like this, I wont bother.
Mattress is still :wub:
So tired. Going to have an evening of Family Guy I think.
Thursday, 24 January 2008
farty....and oh dear...
Oh my....I have horrendous wind. Such a classy girl lol.
CPD wasnt bad, bit boring in places, but the equine worming section was ace. Crap 'substantial buffet' so OH bought me 2 baguettes which i ate on the way home, along with 2 chocolate muffins and some Revels.
0point curry today.
My books arrived today, think I will read Dietgirl for inspiration. Doubt I will make it to 15's :(
OH!!! AND!!! I paid off AND cut up my barclaycard today. Just the car, my hsbc card, mattress, loan and surveying costs to pay back now :unsure:
Hopefully should be out of debt by my birthday. Dependant on a few things. Will have to ask for clothes for my birthday!!
CPD wasnt bad, bit boring in places, but the equine worming section was ace. Crap 'substantial buffet' so OH bought me 2 baguettes which i ate on the way home, along with 2 chocolate muffins and some Revels.
0point curry today.
My books arrived today, think I will read Dietgirl for inspiration. Doubt I will make it to 15's :(
OH!!! AND!!! I paid off AND cut up my barclaycard today. Just the car, my hsbc card, mattress, loan and surveying costs to pay back now :unsure:
Hopefully should be out of debt by my birthday. Dependant on a few things. Will have to ask for clothes for my birthday!!
Monday, 21 January 2008
rahhhhh
i cant really be arsed to blog.
Allegedly started early so I could go early. I did go early. I went to the gym and just did cardio (too lazy today for resistance too) and just as I came out....The alarm for work was going off. So have spent far too long waiting for a numpty to come out who took far to long to decide to leave it till tomorrow.
Also to make today go oh-so-slowly, the road outside is flooded, so we've had hardly any customers in. For a scary while we thought we might be flooded in, but thankfully not. Did mean though that instead of the 3 minute journey to the gym, it took me 23, and had to go up the bank, down the chevin and round about.
Mattress arrived today, looks FAB. I cannot wait to go to bed.
Thats about it for today. May have scuppered the 'be in the 15's by February' today - am 4 points over already. And CPD tomorrow and Wednesday....no pointage then. Sigh.
Allegedly started early so I could go early. I did go early. I went to the gym and just did cardio (too lazy today for resistance too) and just as I came out....The alarm for work was going off. So have spent far too long waiting for a numpty to come out who took far to long to decide to leave it till tomorrow.
Also to make today go oh-so-slowly, the road outside is flooded, so we've had hardly any customers in. For a scary while we thought we might be flooded in, but thankfully not. Did mean though that instead of the 3 minute journey to the gym, it took me 23, and had to go up the bank, down the chevin and round about.
Mattress arrived today, looks FAB. I cannot wait to go to bed.
Thats about it for today. May have scuppered the 'be in the 15's by February' today - am 4 points over already. And CPD tomorrow and Wednesday....no pointage then. Sigh.
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