Pfffffft

I Am Stuffed - I've just eaten tea.

Did 400calories on the bike before work this morning, still only 100 at work (is my pedometre stuck at 100?! :lol: ) and another 400 this evening. My knees are about to give out :lol:

Not looking good for a weightloss this week :(

4 cups of tea, 1 clementine, 1 banana, 1 bowl porridge, 1 packet french fries, 1 almond raison & cranberry bar, lasagne, lettuce and garlic ciabatta bread. Very yummy, but 284calories a quarter and me and OH split it in half!!

ETA@10.40 - just done another 120 calories on the bike.....

I've got 21 calories to go, 21 calories to gooooo

Sung in style of craig david :nod: Its amused me so much today that by the time I've stopped singing it, I'm more or less at the 100 mark I aim for.

Just got 100 calories left to do on the bike - managed 100 at work, just!! We're only open for 6 hours on a Sunday opposed to the usual 8.5, so was harder work today.

Served somebody Famous in the shop as well - she was nice :) but vv clueless about what food for her dog :lol:

Food: 1 bowl porridge, 1 satsuma, 1 banana, 1 packet salt & vinegar French Fries. Tea is Lasagne and garlic ciabatta bread & lettuce. 3 cups of tea.

I'm hungry now.

Hmmmm, not hungry now :lol: Very yummy tea, and done my 100 calories on bike. Next week I think I should think about upping it :unsure: as weight has stabalized :cross:

I'm unmotivated again. I've just done another 100 on the bike, so 800calories on bike and 100 at work today.

I better have lost weight in the morning :grumps:

Not quite on the winching list, but not far....

1 bowl porridge, shared bag french fries, shared hula hoops, shared mini cheddars, shared double decker, half chicken, bacon & cheese panini, 2 cups of tea, bowl of pasta, tomato sauce, pork & mozzerella, some Roses chocolates, some grapes and a hazlenut & pistachio bar :bawling:

100 calories at work, 800 on bike.

Pissed off at lack of self control :bawling:

I've been thinking though - will dramatically cutting my food intake & increasing my exercise just mean that all I'm doing is training my body to stay at this weight? Or will I actually lose weight? I can't believe that by not doing as much exercise on wednesday and thursday, I put on 2lbs :bawling:

EDIT: Can't remember when I measured my boobs, but have just done it again - it was recently I measured them. Anyway, I've lost a back size and 10 (TEN!!!!) cup sizes :thud: :lol: Slightly remotivated :lol:

Grrrrr

Definately 2lbs on :( I'm not going to be disheartened though - its all coming off.

Today: 4 cups of tea, 1 bowl porridge, 1 packet crisps, 1 hazlenut & pistachio bar, plate of pasta and bolognese sauce, lettuce and garlic bread.

Did 300calories before work, 100 at work and have just done another 300 - will aim for another 100 before tonight is out! Just went for a walk (up 2 steep, but short, hills) which burnt a pathetic 49 calories. ETA and done the final 100 - so, 100 @ work, 700 on bike and a poxy 49 on that stupid walk.

I am trying hard not to be pissed off re those 2lbs, but I am. It also bothers me greatly how quickly it went back on. If I havent lost weight tomorrow, then I'll eat till I become 50 stone and have to be winched everywhere.

Back :)

It was interesting - more interesting really was what WASNT said and shown, but it always is.

Yesterday, I ate: 1 bowl porridge, 1 banana, 1 99calorie bag of crisps, 1 flapjack, 3 chocolate chip cookies, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 chicken ham & mayonaise sandwich, 1 bit of turkish delight.

Today: 1 1/4 egg sandwich, 1 1/4 cheese, mayonaise & chive sandwich, some crisps, 2 bits banana bread, celebration sweets, bag maltesers, quiche, pork, mashed potatoes, beans, carrots, yorkshire puddings (2), gravy, 1 cup of tea, 1 hazlenut & pistachio bar.

Got on scales when I got home -before tea -(fully dressed, although in a t-shirt, not fleece or anything) and was XX.13. So not put on as much as I thought, but definately put on. Managed 500 calories on the bike so far so will do my best to get it to at least 700 before bed.

Edited @ 9.10pm - have done my 700calories - so I've proved to myself I can do it all on an evening and not die - I think by end of next week I should aim to be doing 200 before work & 700 after... As I get fitter it should be quicker - I did 200calories fairly easily as soon as I came back, slowly, but I did it. But, OTOH, I had just spent a day doing bugger all. I also weighed myself a few minutes ago - I know I've just eaten, but after being XX.13 when I came home, wearing same clothes, just having eaten, I was XY.3 again :bawling:

NeedyKitten torn between being overjoyed we're back and sulking cos we left him :lol:

Edited again 10.50pm - just weighed myself after bath. I've definately put 2lbs on :bawling: HOW, after doing 500calories less for 1 day and basically eating bread the next, can it have out 2lbs on?! (this is assuming I lose 2lbs overnight btw - if I dont I'll have put on FOUR lbs!!) I think I am destined for the rest of my life to eat 1 lettuce leaf and exercise for 10 hours a day to become a size 14 :(

Before I go

Not really looking forward to tonight/tomorrow - tonight is a 3 hour, rush hour, car journey to my parents, straight from work with no shower, nothing, then having to sit and make small talk when I'm tired and want to wash and go to bed :blush: then tomorrow, trundling round a petfood company listening to all their new product lines. I have things I'd far rather be doing - biking, internet, pulling my toenails out.... No idea when we'll be back tomorrow but at a guess, too late to do anything worthwhile on the bike.

Anyway, hasnt the weightloss for this week been a bit good? :lol: Very on target for new goal!! Maybe even on target for the goal I set back in November before I put it all back on again!

Just done 200calories on bike - think thats it till Friday!

What an odd day

Back to work, urgh. Felt dire for morning, then was fine for afternoon. Worked through all my breaks so came home an hour early - also meant though that all I've eaten tonight was tea :S

Managed my 700calories though(!!) - 124 at work (200 is just an ambition too far) and 700 on the bike - although did 100 before work. I was bored and did another 100, so 824 is my grand total for today.

Not entirely convinced there isnt something going on between asst manager and member of staff, who is allegedly having an affair with someone else.

3 x slices tomato/cheese/salami/beef pizza & 3 x slices garlic bread. 3 x cups of tea, half bottle Gallo White Zinfadel. Yes, I'm pissed.

Off to parents tomorrow so may not get chance to blog - infact I very much doubt I will. Will have to post Wednesdays weight on Thursday :rolleyes: Even if I stay the same as I was this morning, it is a Good Loss, may, miraculous loss. Also, as at parents, no biking. Must see this positively as a Good Thing ( break :nod: ) and not use it as an excuse not to bother getting on again. Today I did over what I was planning to do calories-wise.... I thought I would struggle with 700 - depends on how bored I am on an evening. Managed 300c within an hour without dieing - this is good for me.

Off to Docs

In a bit, for Open Surgery - lasts an hour and you sit and wait and are called in in order - will get there for 10.15, but how long will I be waiting? All bets are on :lol:

Another lb down this morning - at this rate I'll be 10stone by February :lol: So, as I've hit the target I wanted to hit by the end of january, I'll increase it to a stone :D

So, walking to Drs, I'll try and find my pedometre, but I reckon its about 100calories there and back. Back is up the hill, so could be more.

Hope they give me some antibiotics - I think I'll need a note too :unsure: this is my 4th day off work.

Going into town could be fun, being so close to Bad Food and Nice Things but must resist.

EDIT: Sat waiting for an hour. Got told nothing wrong, but given 500mg Amoxicillin anyway :dunno: A pathetic 62 calories burnt walking to & from Drs :rolleyes:

Eaten: 1 bowl porridge(138c)(more than normal milk-probs125c), 1 crumpet & flora light(115c), packet baked cheese things (Walkers-99c), 1 carton apple juice(110c), 1 440ml bottle apple and cranberry Fruit Spring (30c). So thats 755c on lunch already :unsure: cross I had the apple juice cos I didnt need it as had already bought the Fruit Spring. Rahh!! Anyway, tea, (not on a side plate today :rolleyes: ) beef, 2 yorkshire puddings, mashed potatoes, beans, carrots, sprouts, peas and gravy. Full today!

I've burnt 700calories on the bike today - dont know how I'll fit all this in when I'm back at work tomorrow :unsure:

So, actually, with 62 calories gone from walking to Drs, I've done 762! I've worked off those stupid drinks!

Also discovered an 'easier' way on the bike - do 10 calories 'slow', 1 minute 'fast' (atm = 10/11calories), 10 calories slow, then 2 minutes fast etc till I get to 100. Just did my last 100calories in 10.25 :acclaim:

*whisper* I believe there may be a difference in my legs already....

Meh, meep, bluergh

I feel like death warmed up. Mum rang, spoke to her and shes made me promise to get to Docs tomorrow as 'its clear there's infection somewhere'. Which, thinking about it, yes, there is. She also reminded me about dads sinus problems (nice) which now I've remembered, I can literally feel my sinus' filling up. Head still hurts, taken miagraine tablet - despite it not being a miagraine - and nothing.

Already eaten 2 crumpets :( And managed 60 calories on the bike. I feel so crap, I might just give today up as a bad job.

Rahhhh!

EDIT: 7.30pm.

This is why I didnt tell OH about The Diet. I am hungry (still) after the main meal which was served on a side plate(!!) as it was psychological, to make me think I was eating more. No, it just makes me feel like shit.

I have given today up as a bad job - 2 crumpets, flora light on them, 2 go ahead strawberry bars(72 calories a bar), some grapes, 1 marzipan fruit, a banana, beef, potato, beans, peas and carrots. Gravy, 1 cup of tea. Just those 60calories on the bike.

My bum hurts

My head is ever so sore - I hate having colds.

Biking working though *dancer* Desperate to measure my legs, but dont want to because I'll be very demoralised if no difference.

EDIT: Its taken me 50minutes to do 404.4 calories (not all at once, so including the 200 I did earlier), dunno if thats good or not. Aim is 700, but not sure if I can do it today :blush:

I measured my legs. There *might* be a millimetres difference, but as I've deleted all my measurements, I can't remember :rolleyes:

Hmm, can arse stand up to getting to 500calories before lunch?

Edited again (before lunch) yes it could, kind of :lol: Did 22calories, then somehow managed to press reset :angry: So did another 100 on top of those 22calories because there was no point getting to 78c and stopping, was there? Might as well get to 100 while I was doing it. I did 100c in 11m46s :proud: first time I did got on, it took me 13m45s to do same calories. So just 178 calories left to burn for today. *Should* manage it unless I fall asleep on sofa!

Edited (AGAIN!!) at 2.41pm 700calories :dancer:

THought the bike was going to fall apart at one point though :rolleyes: BUT! Managed it in 11m30s - so faster still! Going to stop for today though otherwise I run risk of bike actually falling apart! Plus I stink now, so need bath fairly urgently. Never going to be able to keep it when I have to work too :lol: although will drop it down to 500calories when I'm at work as usually burn about 200 there.

Food today: bowl porridge, 1 banana, 1 packet walkers cheese...things. 99 calories a bag anyway, so healthier than proper crisps, 2 fig rolls, 1 clementine. Tea is sausages, mashed potatoes, peas and carrots. 1 cup of tea and a haxlenut and pistachio bar. Diet coke too.

Another 100calories done on the bike this evening :blush:

Feeling Sorry for myself

My sore throat has got worse, lost my voice and was coughing up blood last night :scared: although that seems to have stopped now, thankfully. So I have a day off work, which I'm not entirely enthralled about - there's loads to do. Wonder if girl remembered her bra this morning? She text me earlier to say she had the worst period pains ever and was undecided about what to do. i just sent back that I wasnt going in. Nothings been said, so assume she went in.

I am a little worried about the thyroid thing :unsure: I think I might leave it a while before I go to docs about it (I suspect they will make me be weighed and I might as well be the weight they think I am when I go...) Some of the symptoms sound very familiar, but :dunno: :hypochondriac:

Done another 100calories on the bike this morning, going to go back and do another 100 in a minute. Got on scales this morning and it is working!! I suppose it depends on if I can put up with the sore arse as to whether I carry on :lol:

I've done 500 calories now (Its 12.20pm) :biggrin: Trying to decide what to have for lunch. So many choices - at least when I'm at work, I have to eat what I took!

4 cups of tea, 1 bowl porridge (probs about 250 calories worth of milk), 1 large banana, 1 packet s&v French Fries, so around 663 calories eaten so far, compared with 500 burnt off. :scratchchin: 163 calories should take 2 leisurely viewings of Family Guy to get rid of... Can my arse hold up to it?

5pm - I did it! I did 700 calories over the whole day. :wimp: but also :proud: !! So I have worked off my lunch and will be allowed a hazlenut bar thing later with a cup of tea :nod:

So....to round it all up...todays consumption: 4 cups of tea, 1 bowl porridge (probs about 250 calories worth of milk), 1 large banana, 1 packet s&v French Fries, 1 Hazelnut bar, 1 christmas tree chocolate (last one!), pilau rice and Limey Chicken.

Not doing anymore cycling - my arse cant hold up to anymore, but, still, 700 isnt too shabby IMO.

Thyroid symptoms

General tiredness
Excessive need of sleep
Increased awareness of the cold
The skin may become dry and thick and feels cold
The hair may begin to thin out become dry and coarse
Unusual loss of body hair – eyebrows may become sparse, and hair on forearms short and stubbly
Flaking, splitting nails
The voice may become hoarse or croaky
Constipation
Muscle weakness, cramps and aches; difficulty climbing stairs
Sore muscles
Pins and needles in the fingers and hands
In women of reproductive years the periods may become heavier and longer, but sometimes can prematurely stop
Fertility problems – failure to conceive, miscarriage.
Unexplained weight gain
Puffy face and bags under the eyes, change in facial appearance
Slow speech, movements and thoughts
Low mood, depression
Memory problems and lack of concentration
Slow heart beat and slightly raised blood pressure
Increased cholesterol
Anaemia
Hearing problems
Swelling at the front of the neck
Sensation of a lump in the throat
Although rare, in severe cases, unsteadiness on their feet, mental disturbance and even hallucinations may be experienced
Loss of libido / impotency

About 12 apply to me :dunno: :scratchchin:

rah!

'New' bike received today - been on it, works.... :lol: well, I get on, cycle a bit, it tells me how many calories I've burnt (100 in 13.45minutes - is that good or bad? :S ) and it didnt collapse under me, so I'm happy.

Girl at work 'forgot' to wear her bra today. How do you forget something like that? Its not really like she can get away without either..... :ick: Quite cross about it. No ones said anything and normally they would, so maybe they didnt notice? TBH, I didnt REALLY until she said she'd 'forgotten'. Silly bint.

So far eaten today: 1 bowl porridge & full fat blue milk, 1 packet salt & vinegar french fries. Nearly a full packet of lockets!! Tea is more pasta, pork,tomato sauce, peas & cheddar, 1 banana, 1 go ahead hazlenut bar, 2 go ahead fig biscuits. I've worked off the crisps anyway :lol:

OHs surprise is nearly ready - friends OH is doing a cartoon of NeedyKitten. What I've seen so far is amazing :wub: if OH is ungrateful I'll keep it for myself, I love it lol.

Feel quite crap still - my cold hasnt fully gone away at all and sore throat is back. Arse. Havent done a bad thing (;)) since Saturday either :D

Also need a cure for Exercise Bike Bum - badly. Just done 500calories on it, although not all at once (about 200 at a time is my limit atm :$) and OMG, my ARSE. I want to cry.

Hmmmmm. :scratcheschin: A lot is familar, but I've already been checked once and was fine, just depressed ( :rolleyes: )

Cor blimey

Hadn't I got myself into a tizz this morning? :rolleyes:

Anyway, slightly calmer now, still in a bit of an arse, but....Positive thinking, I'm off to the argos catalogue to find me a cheap exercise bike. I am trying hard not to think of the resulting increase in debt. Ha.

So far eaten:

1 crumpet (ooh, I do like a bit of crumpet, hohoho)
1 cheesey doritoes sandwich (last one - finished pack today)
pint lemonade
2 slices toast
scrambled legs :yum:
tomatoes
4 large toblerone triangles.
1 peice marzipan
Tea is pork in tomato sauce. I am hoping with mozzerella too.

I just bought a bike, and already it has to go back. Got it out of box and it was all cracked. Arse.

Another edit - I have decided I want to be at least half a stone lighter by January. That is my first aim. Obviously I'll not be upset if its more, but there will be serious tantrums if its less. Another aim is to do at least half an hour on the bike (when I eventually get it....), if not an hour. I like the idea of exercising while watching telly. Had tantrum at OH earlier when he told me to go for a walk. 'Ragghhhh!!! Its cold, its windy, its raining, walking is boring, theres no POINT to walking unless you have a dog or a purpose (such as to go buy a new pair of shoes) to go walking FOR!!' As I had this tantrum in the middle of a busy street, he shut up and let me buy the bike. Most unlike me though to have public drama queen tendancies. Huh.

More musings on the horse situation. I've now decided when I've lost weight, then I might fancy sharing instead. By this time next week I'll have talked myself back into buying another horse.

Another edit:

Where can I expect the exercise bike to help shift the weight? Just thighs or hips too? :crossfingers: Just measured myself using fignleaves.com. Depressingly large and dont fit into Bravissimo bras. :sigh:

Dunno whats up with me

Just meh, can't sleep, have deleted measurements cos they just depress me. :rolleyes: Will weigh myself tomorrow and that can start the weekly weigh in again.

I'm brewing up to have a big tantrum about SOMETHING :dunno: why or what.

Part jealousy, part 'I have no money-ness', part OH giving 'wrong answers' to questions, part 'woe is me-ness'.

Mostly jealousy though :rollseyes:

I must remember point 3 of my aims this year - I want to be a nicer person.

I am nice, I am nice, I am nice, I am nice, I am nice......

(ETA: someone has just left an ad for money (dollars, thanks, but no use in UK) to spend in Abercrombie and Fitch. Do I sound like I fit in those clothes? Sorry to be ungrateful and all -its the mood I'm in- but please dont spam me :tantrum: Although its nice to feel popular.)

Right. This is it.

Diet starts again, for real, tomorrow morning. Honest.

Today: 2 bits marzipan, 1 cheesy doritoes sandwich, 1 strawberry tart, 2 ham & p.d'a sandwiches 1 packet cheese and onion french fries, 1 strawberry bar, lamb, chips, 2 yorkshire puddings, peas, mint jelly and lindt chocolates.

I disgust myself. Christmas and New Year are now over.

I have had a big tantrum today about the state of the house and have left OH reading the Ikea catalogue. I have also decided that when I reach a weight I am happy with, I am going to ring round some riding schools and book some lessons.

Although. Do I want to? Really? My old horse saved my sanity while I had her, she really did, then I found OH and didnt/dont really 'need' her anymore. I make jokes about when i get the money from having sold her, that she will be turned into a new kitchen or somesuch, rather than another horse, and everyone takes it as a joke, but really, I dont think I AM joking.

I think I am really a lazy fair weather rider, in that I dont mind riding as long as I dont have to do all the faffy work before hand - I always forgot to check legs properly which is the main reason the horse used to get mud fever so 'quickly' I hadnt looked for it, so hadnt seen it. :( But, if I have lessons, my confidence levels will soar again, I will ride better, but....can I still really be arsed with the hassle of having a horse again? And I do see it as a hassle now. I love being able to come straight home after work, not getting involved with yard politics and being in a warm dry house on shitty days. I love having money - despite being in bigger mountains of debt, I am probably better off now that I was when I had the horse lol.

Apart from anything else, as my mother helpfully pointed out when I split up with my husband, I'm NOT getting any younger, while I dont particularly like other peoples children, my little clock IS ticking a bit louder....Then there's the house - it needs a lot of work doing on it, OH is on about buying another house to rent out, and...I dont know if I would have the spare money for another horse. And, at the moment, tbh, I'm not that fussed - my kids can have a pony.

Huh. Dont know where all that came from.

Anyway, let the diet commence!

Happy New Year

Meh. Not hungover though, so small mercies. I am, however, turning into my mother. I have spent the day Tidying and Sorting, including the airing cupboard, IRONED stuff and put it back away, neatly and in a specific ORDER. There must be something wrong with me.

I am not making resolutions this year, but I AM making aims.

1, the ubequitous 'lose weight'
2, get out of debt (ha)
3, be a nicer person

I will break all of them by the end of today :rolleyes:

anyway, today: 1 crumpet, 1 brioche, last bit of stollen, chocolates, 5 biscuits (chocolate), ham and p.d'a cheese sandwich, tea will be roast lamb and vegetables.

Like I said, I do want to lose weight.

Urgh

Just.....urgh.

Can't remember what I ate yesterday - porridge, banana, scrambled eggs, chipolatas in bacon, baked beans, ice cream and biscuits, some chips, scollop & breadcake. Those are definates - I'm sure theres more.

Anyway-today:

1 chocolate chip brioche
1 pork, stuffing & apple sauce sandwich
some chips and scollop
1 whole nut bar
biscuits
tea is chicken, bacon & mozzerella, mashed potatoes and I suspect carrots and brussels.

I do want to lose weight, honest. AND I'm off to the pub later too.

Things.....Can Only Get Fatter.....

:rolleyes:

1 pork and apple hot sandwich
1 salami & pie d'angloys sandwich
1 peice shortcake
mountains of chocolate
butter biscuits
1 tangy cheese doritos sandwich ( :blush: )
few green-flavour pringles
tea is cold gammon
vegetables - suspect brusells carrots and potatoes
yorkshire pudding.

OH putting telly & home cinema together. Cannot BELIEVE we have just spent £900 on a TV. I am now aiming to be out of debt in December 2008. Sigh.

Docs was a waste of time. Got the pill, but she forgot to weigh me, then remembered when I'd got my 10million layers back on - told her I'd weighed myself this morning (I had) and that I weighed a stone less than I actually do. She believed me, but still gave me the 'You're too fat' lecture. I know that, dumbass, and despite what I've eaten today shows, I AM trying. I think I will make an appt anyway with someone else and ask about water retention/under active thyroid/blahdeblah.

Kitten being so incredibly cute, but he is FURIOUS he's not allowed to 'help' OH put the surround sound bit together. Heard ripping from bathroom - I suspect we are a toilet roll down now due to his anger.

OHs birthday tomorrow - am winding him up by telling him I havent bought him anything and was spent up at Christmas. *snigger* such a bitch. Cant remember what I HAVE bought him, so will be as much a surprise for me as it will be him :lol:

Merry fucking Christmas

I know I said I'd give up over Christmas, but this was ridiculous :bawling: I didnt particularly 'give up' - I was still very conscious of what I ate and doing exercise etcetc, but in the last week I have put back on EVERYTHING and more that I lost :bawling:

Have an appointment for represcription of pill tomorrow, suspect I wont be allowed it.

Good Christmas though.

Arse.