I don't really feel like I've woken up all day... Swimming was HARD, a real struggle today. Been fairly steady at work, but mainly people needing stuff weighing out, although we had a few idiotic customers. The amount of people who don't realise that using someone elses credit card is called STEALING....
Off to a BBQ tonight at OHs SiLs. Can't especially say I'm looking forward to it..... Not eating as we have roast beef here to eat.
Food: Ham/mozzerella/coleslaw salad, muller light, quavers, half a galaxy bar, half a banana, 2 lemon tarts, roast beef, boiled potatoes, green beans, yorkshire puddings, carrots, gravy, mint sauce, 2 glasses white wine, greek yoghurt, handful blue/rasp/strawberries
Exercise: 44lengths in swimming pool, 120 sit ups, 20mins on bike
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Back from the BBQ. Am considered rude cos I didnt eat as I said we had tea ready at home :unsure: They only old us about it at 3pm!! Anyway, not eating till 10pm now. Was ok, kids appeared to have a good time. it bothers me that I am the 13th person....
Maybe I needn't have come off the pill :S
Sunday, 10 June 2007
Saturday, 9 June 2007
Full of Cold
Was mildly entertaining ideas of going to the gym today as day off, but think I shall just do a load of housework instead....I say that, yet I am still sat here at the computer screen. I'm not full of cold yet, but it won't be long...sore throat this morning, headache, achey all over, tickly nose....Joy. It's been at least 3 months since I last had a cold though.
Have just texted SC to apologise for snapping at her yesterday. I still think she was being ridiculous but...I was starting to feel guilty. Arse. No reply yet, but then she is probably still festering in her horrid, mouldy bed. (Sadly, I'm not lying.) Wish I was going to Bramham :( Have no money to go though, I could have walked the XC course instead of doing housework/the gym.
Still no further forward in looking for a job. I really don't want to leave, but have sort of burnt my bridges now. Yesterdays meeting resulted in him being suspended on full pay (AGAIN) for another week. It's farcical. Although....Apparently the owner is FUMING as its the lawyers who have said he can't just sack him, and has come up with a contract that M1 has to write, and if Owner agrees with it all, he is going to show it to M2&M3, if they agree to it (which they wont unless its OUTSTANDING), then it is to be signed and with weekly visits to ensure that the work set out in the contract is being done. He is on his final warning NOW and one tiddly little step out of line...5minutes late, or too long for lunch/whatever, thats it. So I dont know what to do now!! My resgination hasnt yet formally been accepted or given in writing.
Have just mopped the floors. Hugely embarrassing confession....They havent been done since I moved in. Hoovered, yes. Mopped....No. Having said that, they were surprisingly clean. NeedyKitten is furious about the kitchen floor being wet and keeps walking in and out making a big deal about the fact his paws are wet. This is the cat that comes and sits in the bath with me. Hoovered throughout, on my second load of washing and need to dust still. OH did the washing up before he went to work, so only have the wine glasses from last night, his breakfast stuff and my lunch stuff to do.
I think my new aim should be to try and lose 3lbs a week....Will soon see whether the weight gain was due to not exercising/eating badly for that week or the pill. There is a loss already though from Wednesdays weigh in, so keep fingers crossed.
Mum cat has gone to stud - she appears to like this one and has mated 7 times since yesterday :eek:!! Hopefully this one will go full term :morecrossedfingers: Due date is 14th August and collection in November... Daddy
Food: 2 ham & pie d'angloys baguettes, greek yoghurt with blue/rasp/strawberries, 2 rice cakes, 1 laughing cow light triangle, crackling off the ham, pasta, pork, tomato sauce, marscepone, homemade garlic bread.
Exercise: Housework?! 120 situps
Have just texted SC to apologise for snapping at her yesterday. I still think she was being ridiculous but...I was starting to feel guilty. Arse. No reply yet, but then she is probably still festering in her horrid, mouldy bed. (Sadly, I'm not lying.) Wish I was going to Bramham :( Have no money to go though, I could have walked the XC course instead of doing housework/the gym.
Still no further forward in looking for a job. I really don't want to leave, but have sort of burnt my bridges now. Yesterdays meeting resulted in him being suspended on full pay (AGAIN) for another week. It's farcical. Although....Apparently the owner is FUMING as its the lawyers who have said he can't just sack him, and has come up with a contract that M1 has to write, and if Owner agrees with it all, he is going to show it to M2&M3, if they agree to it (which they wont unless its OUTSTANDING), then it is to be signed and with weekly visits to ensure that the work set out in the contract is being done. He is on his final warning NOW and one tiddly little step out of line...5minutes late, or too long for lunch/whatever, thats it. So I dont know what to do now!! My resgination hasnt yet formally been accepted or given in writing.
Have just mopped the floors. Hugely embarrassing confession....They havent been done since I moved in. Hoovered, yes. Mopped....No. Having said that, they were surprisingly clean. NeedyKitten is furious about the kitchen floor being wet and keeps walking in and out making a big deal about the fact his paws are wet. This is the cat that comes and sits in the bath with me. Hoovered throughout, on my second load of washing and need to dust still. OH did the washing up before he went to work, so only have the wine glasses from last night, his breakfast stuff and my lunch stuff to do.
I think my new aim should be to try and lose 3lbs a week....Will soon see whether the weight gain was due to not exercising/eating badly for that week or the pill. There is a loss already though from Wednesdays weigh in, so keep fingers crossed.
Mum cat has gone to stud - she appears to like this one and has mated 7 times since yesterday :eek:!! Hopefully this one will go full term :morecrossedfingers: Due date is 14th August and collection in November... Daddy
Food: 2 ham & pie d'angloys baguettes, greek yoghurt with blue/rasp/strawberries, 2 rice cakes, 1 laughing cow light triangle, crackling off the ham, pasta, pork, tomato sauce, marscepone, homemade garlic bread.
Exercise: Housework?! 120 situps
Friday, 8 June 2007
sleepy, grumpy, dopey....
Can't remember any other dwarves, except Happy and I ain't that...
I'm tired, I can't *really* be arsed with the gym tonight, but I must go, I am going and if I don't I will be furious with myself for not going. I'm really tired in that I'm slightly scared I may fall asleep on the cross trainer. Grumpy...well, there's still no decision apart from 'Tell FB that the job is hers, when M1 leaves....whenever that is'. His meeting was today at 4.30pm, but we all suspect he is on his final warning now. He won;t find another job and leave off his own bat - even if he works hard he's still on a fairly cushy number. Dopey...well, in that I can't really be arsed to do anything and I'm finding it hard to think straight. Looking on job centre website and nothing... There's a couple of pet shops I can ring tomorrow but I doubt they'll have anything.
My shoulder really is sore and clicky.
Food: half a chocolate chip muffin, salad (ham/halloumi/mozzerella/coleslaw) muller light, smoothie, quavers, pasta and bolognese sauce with parmesan, homemade garlic bread and wine.
Exercise: 20mins bike (200calories), 120 situps, gym (all weights, 18mins cross trainer, 10mins rower, 31mins treadmill)
I'm tired, I can't *really* be arsed with the gym tonight, but I must go, I am going and if I don't I will be furious with myself for not going. I'm really tired in that I'm slightly scared I may fall asleep on the cross trainer. Grumpy...well, there's still no decision apart from 'Tell FB that the job is hers, when M1 leaves....whenever that is'. His meeting was today at 4.30pm, but we all suspect he is on his final warning now. He won;t find another job and leave off his own bat - even if he works hard he's still on a fairly cushy number. Dopey...well, in that I can't really be arsed to do anything and I'm finding it hard to think straight. Looking on job centre website and nothing... There's a couple of pet shops I can ring tomorrow but I doubt they'll have anything.
My shoulder really is sore and clicky.
Food: half a chocolate chip muffin, salad (ham/halloumi/mozzerella/coleslaw) muller light, smoothie, quavers, pasta and bolognese sauce with parmesan, homemade garlic bread and wine.
Exercise: 20mins bike (200calories), 120 situps, gym (all weights, 18mins cross trainer, 10mins rower, 31mins treadmill)
Thursday, 7 June 2007
Let the weight loss commence!!
It would appear I have lost 2lbs already :lol: I am not getting excited though until I've got past VV stones 11lbs again - this is just the warmup (again, sigh). Off to gym tonight with S to her gym, so won't be doing as much as I normally do at mine, but I'll be doing some different weights. Wish she could join my gym, I really don't like hers and I HATE going on my own.
Must remember to ring up LCC today about my gym card - it's still coming up invalid and I've rung the bank and they say the money has gone from my account. I suspect I have an old card, the number on the back is out of date anyway. Hopefully it's sorted now, but if not, ALC have to send back my card for a new one. Had to be mine which buggered up.
I feel quite podged...I can't see that those lbs that seem to have melted off will have stayed off :( I shouldnt have had the baguette (I knew I was eating in half hour or so as well) or the strawberry bun, but at least it was half and not a whole one.
Food: Ham/mozzerella/halloumi/coleslaw/avacado salad, quavers, muller light, 2 rice cakes and 1 triangle laughing cow lite, half a strawberry bun, small baguette, ham & pie d'angloys, spaghetti bolognese, garlic bread, chocolate chip muffin.
Exercise: 60 situps, 20 minutes (200 calories) on bike, half hour cardio at the gym.
Must remember to ring up LCC today about my gym card - it's still coming up invalid and I've rung the bank and they say the money has gone from my account. I suspect I have an old card, the number on the back is out of date anyway. Hopefully it's sorted now, but if not, ALC have to send back my card for a new one. Had to be mine which buggered up.
I feel quite podged...I can't see that those lbs that seem to have melted off will have stayed off :( I shouldnt have had the baguette (I knew I was eating in half hour or so as well) or the strawberry bun, but at least it was half and not a whole one.
Food: Ham/mozzerella/halloumi/coleslaw/avacado salad, quavers, muller light, 2 rice cakes and 1 triangle laughing cow lite, half a strawberry bun, small baguette, ham & pie d'angloys, spaghetti bolognese, garlic bread, chocolate chip muffin.
Exercise: 60 situps, 20 minutes (200 calories) on bike, half hour cardio at the gym.
Wednesday, 6 June 2007
Sigh....Let the weightloss commence
Put on 5lbs in 2 weeks. I suppose, thinking about the exercise I DIDN'T do, and the food I ate its not too bad really.
Still meh though :(
Food: ham/mozzerella/halloumi/coleslaw salad, quavers, muller light, 2 rice cakes, 1 triangle laughing cow cheese, half a packet maltesers, 1 sausage, homemade pizza & garlic bread, wine.
Exercise: 32 lengths swimming, 20mins bike
Still meh though :(
Food: ham/mozzerella/halloumi/coleslaw salad, quavers, muller light, 2 rice cakes, 1 triangle laughing cow cheese, half a packet maltesers, 1 sausage, homemade pizza & garlic bread, wine.
Exercise: 32 lengths swimming, 20mins bike
Tuesday, 5 June 2007
Confused....
I'm now reading about Cerazette - the Pill I've just come off of...Doesn't seem to be well liked anyway. I appear to have done quite well on it, in that my skin hasnt got bad, nor has it raised blood pressure....I have had mood swings, but I don't know if that is down to my inherent bitchiness/brattishness anyway OR if the Pill has magnified it. Now I'm reading a bit more, it seems you can have difficulties coming off it. A lot of people have said that they bloated after they came off it, and had bad skin and raised blood pressure anyway. So have I done the wrong thing?
I am mostly convinced that the pill has stopped my weight loss. It coincides with the right time anyway. Now I'm off it, I'm all motivated to lose weight again, but what if its just cos my enthusiasm was waning anyway? What if it's all psychological and I needn't have come off the Pill? Still, done now...Will give it 2 months and see what happens.
I'm so tired and I've done NOTHING to warrant it...Did some clothes washing and some washing up, surfed t'net most of the day, watched United 93, surfed some more, window shopped in the Next catologue, but I am yawning like nothing on this earth and could happily go to sleep. Just done 5minutes on the bike and am ready to have a heart attack!!! My legs ache, I'm sweaty like you wouldnt believe and I'm out of breath....Surely it hasnt been THAT long since I've been on it. How embarrassing. Was vaguely entertaining ideas of doing 20mins on it before work everyday - not a chance if I feel like this after 5mins!! Have the vague rumblings of the start of a cold, but have been like this for a week or so and it refuses to develop or go away. Sulk. It doesnt help that I am B.O.R.E.D and therefore eating.
Food: 1 x ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 2 x ham, coleslaw and mozzerella breadrolls, chunks of port salut, 1 packet quavers, 1 chunk of Halloumi, pork fillet, 1 sausage, beans, carrots, boiled potatoes, 2 yorkshire puddings, 3 teaspoons apple sauce, gravy, half a bottle rose wine
Exercise: 30mins (300calories) on the bike, 40 lengths in swimming pool
Hmmm, maybe I just needed a 'warmup' - have just done 25mins straight on bike and was ok...hot and sweaty and mildly out of breath, but otherwise ok... knees ache now! Will weigh myself in the morning (am expecting it to be around WWstones 5lbs or so), then get back into the routine again. And will see how quickly - if at all, weight loss happens. If nothing, I swear I am going for lipo.
(9.30pm - just back from swimming. I am KNACKERED. Lots of movement, not very much speed. Am convinced 2 girls were laughing at how slow I was :( Was a real struggle.)
I am mostly convinced that the pill has stopped my weight loss. It coincides with the right time anyway. Now I'm off it, I'm all motivated to lose weight again, but what if its just cos my enthusiasm was waning anyway? What if it's all psychological and I needn't have come off the Pill? Still, done now...Will give it 2 months and see what happens.
I'm so tired and I've done NOTHING to warrant it...Did some clothes washing and some washing up, surfed t'net most of the day, watched United 93, surfed some more, window shopped in the Next catologue, but I am yawning like nothing on this earth and could happily go to sleep. Just done 5minutes on the bike and am ready to have a heart attack!!! My legs ache, I'm sweaty like you wouldnt believe and I'm out of breath....Surely it hasnt been THAT long since I've been on it. How embarrassing. Was vaguely entertaining ideas of doing 20mins on it before work everyday - not a chance if I feel like this after 5mins!! Have the vague rumblings of the start of a cold, but have been like this for a week or so and it refuses to develop or go away. Sulk. It doesnt help that I am B.O.R.E.D and therefore eating.
Food: 1 x ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 2 x ham, coleslaw and mozzerella breadrolls, chunks of port salut, 1 packet quavers, 1 chunk of Halloumi, pork fillet, 1 sausage, beans, carrots, boiled potatoes, 2 yorkshire puddings, 3 teaspoons apple sauce, gravy, half a bottle rose wine
Exercise: 30mins (300calories) on the bike, 40 lengths in swimming pool
Hmmm, maybe I just needed a 'warmup' - have just done 25mins straight on bike and was ok...hot and sweaty and mildly out of breath, but otherwise ok... knees ache now! Will weigh myself in the morning (am expecting it to be around WWstones 5lbs or so), then get back into the routine again. And will see how quickly - if at all, weight loss happens. If nothing, I swear I am going for lipo.
(9.30pm - just back from swimming. I am KNACKERED. Lots of movement, not very much speed. Am convinced 2 girls were laughing at how slow I was :( Was a real struggle.)
Monday, 4 June 2007
I am BORED (and slightly drunk)
RAHHHHHHHh
Came off the pill today....Am going to sit back and wait for weight loss to happen :lol: Am hoping it will be within a month - I seemed to stop losing weight after a month when I went on it, so it stands to reason it will be the same this way round
Have eaten LOADS today :(
ham/mozzerella/salad cream/avacado salad, quavers, maltesers, a boost bar, some marzipan, an almond croissant, a scotch egg, some of OHs pies (I didnt eat them all...), 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 pint of pimms
exercise - nothing.
I wonder where all my motivation has disappeared to? I really hope its the pill that has stopped me losing weight(and therefore losing motivation...), but if it isnt then I dont know what to do.
Hmmmm.
Came off the pill today....Am going to sit back and wait for weight loss to happen :lol: Am hoping it will be within a month - I seemed to stop losing weight after a month when I went on it, so it stands to reason it will be the same this way round
Have eaten LOADS today :(
ham/mozzerella/salad cream/avacado salad, quavers, maltesers, a boost bar, some marzipan, an almond croissant, a scotch egg, some of OHs pies (I didnt eat them all...), 3 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, 1 pint of pimms
exercise - nothing.
I wonder where all my motivation has disappeared to? I really hope its the pill that has stopped me losing weight(and therefore losing motivation...), but if it isnt then I dont know what to do.
Hmmmm.
Sunday, 3 June 2007
What a crap day....
But not really for any particular reason - have just had zero motivation and feel quite achey - please don't say I'm coming down with another cold....
Busy searching for vacuum cleaners online....the current one just can't keep up with a fluffy Norwegian Forest moult. OH is of the opinion that if we buy something to last, we spend Money on it (this is how we ended up spending £1000 we don't have on a TV and surround sound thingy), but I dont want to spend £300 on a vacuum (of all things) and find it's shit.
Have also decided to come off the Pill. NOT to have babies, but to see if it helps with the weight loss. I know the resolve has slipped somewhat, but I AM still exercising and eating less that I did, but in last 2 weeks, I have put on HALF A STONE again. Back up to WWstone 6lbs :bawling: So coming off it for 2 months, if it works all well and good and I will stay off it till I can get to a weight where I can have my normal Pill back...if it doesn't, I am asking to have my stomach stapled.
So. Any vacuum recomendations anybody?
Food: salad (mozzerella/ham/sundried tomatoes), quavers, 1 big slice chocolate cake, lots of PiMMs, big bag Maltesers, pasta, tomato sauce, bacon and cheese, 2 slice salami, 1 chunk Halloumi.
Exercise: nowt.
Busy searching for vacuum cleaners online....the current one just can't keep up with a fluffy Norwegian Forest moult. OH is of the opinion that if we buy something to last, we spend Money on it (this is how we ended up spending £1000 we don't have on a TV and surround sound thingy), but I dont want to spend £300 on a vacuum (of all things) and find it's shit.
Have also decided to come off the Pill. NOT to have babies, but to see if it helps with the weight loss. I know the resolve has slipped somewhat, but I AM still exercising and eating less that I did, but in last 2 weeks, I have put on HALF A STONE again. Back up to WWstone 6lbs :bawling: So coming off it for 2 months, if it works all well and good and I will stay off it till I can get to a weight where I can have my normal Pill back...if it doesn't, I am asking to have my stomach stapled.
So. Any vacuum recomendations anybody?
Food: salad (mozzerella/ham/sundried tomatoes), quavers, 1 big slice chocolate cake, lots of PiMMs, big bag Maltesers, pasta, tomato sauce, bacon and cheese, 2 slice salami, 1 chunk Halloumi.
Exercise: nowt.
Saturday, 2 June 2007
So Very Tired
I think I've had 3 hours total sleep all night. Spent most of it on the Job Centre website (have printed off 2 jobs - neither related to pets) or trying to work out if any of the pet shops in the area are looking for people. Looks highly doubtful. OH is having a fit and keeps telling me to wait another week. But....How long has he been saying that? Love my job, but sick of the crap that comes with it.
Kitten stayed with me all night which was sweet, although the one time I DID fall asleep he started coughing up a hairball right by my ear, then proceeded to drink the glass of water I had left out for ME....
Got a cracking headache and in a foul mood already. I can tell today is going to be fun - it was N's 16th birthday yesterday so she will still be all giddy and overexcited from that - esp as its her party tonight! I can see myself having no friends at work by 5pm.
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Back from work, foul mood, ended up in tears with the INJUSTICE of everything today, having fallen out with everybody beforehand. Got banished to the shed, partly I think to stop any other huge displays of over emotional behaviour and partly because I was starting to make no sense at all I was so tired. I'm still impressed I didnt crawl onto a bale of hay and sleep there. At 3am this morning, I entertained the idea of going to the gym tonight. Nah. It's not gonna happen. Pizza, garlic bread (homemade), wine, long bath and sleep is FAR more appealing. Swimming in morning anyway. Have come home though, washed up, brought washing in and put it away, made tomorrow and Mondays lunch and made OH a cup of tea and a shortbread biscuit and turned his computer on for him by the time he was back from work too.
Food: half a packet of Planets, salad (ham/mozzerella/sun dried tomatoes/mushrooms), quavers, 1 shortbread biscuit, lots of PiMMs biscuits, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich, pizza, garlic bread, wine.
Exercise: None.
Kitten stayed with me all night which was sweet, although the one time I DID fall asleep he started coughing up a hairball right by my ear, then proceeded to drink the glass of water I had left out for ME....
Got a cracking headache and in a foul mood already. I can tell today is going to be fun - it was N's 16th birthday yesterday so she will still be all giddy and overexcited from that - esp as its her party tonight! I can see myself having no friends at work by 5pm.
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Back from work, foul mood, ended up in tears with the INJUSTICE of everything today, having fallen out with everybody beforehand. Got banished to the shed, partly I think to stop any other huge displays of over emotional behaviour and partly because I was starting to make no sense at all I was so tired. I'm still impressed I didnt crawl onto a bale of hay and sleep there. At 3am this morning, I entertained the idea of going to the gym tonight. Nah. It's not gonna happen. Pizza, garlic bread (homemade), wine, long bath and sleep is FAR more appealing. Swimming in morning anyway. Have come home though, washed up, brought washing in and put it away, made tomorrow and Mondays lunch and made OH a cup of tea and a shortbread biscuit and turned his computer on for him by the time he was back from work too.
Food: half a packet of Planets, salad (ham/mozzerella/sun dried tomatoes/mushrooms), quavers, 1 shortbread biscuit, lots of PiMMs biscuits, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich, pizza, garlic bread, wine.
Exercise: None.
Friday, 1 June 2007
:bawling: :tantrum: :bawling:
Hypothetically, Potentially isn't happening at all. M1 being suspended on full pay for 1 week, then coming back under constant review. So am job hunting again. Fuckers.
As such have eaten shit today. 1 bacon, mushroom & brown sauce sandwich, 10 shortbread with chocolate chips, 1 strawberry bun, 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/stuffed mushrooms/sundried tomatoes), 1 packet quavers, half a chocolate muffin, 1 ham and pie d'angloys sandwich, half bottle rose wine (I broke one of my lovely big half-a-bottle-wine glasses :bawling: ), pilau rice, limey chicken, garlic ciabatta.
Spent ages at the gym. Did all my weights (2 reps of 10, have increased all the weights now, although I struggled A LOT with peck flyes and shoulder press), then accidentally did 26minutes on the cross trainer (I dont know how my mind was working - I did 10mins, then stopped for a break cos I thought it would pause what I had just done-it didnt- and then reprogrammed it to do another 13mins....crazy), 31 mins (inc warmup) on the treadmill and 10mins on the rower. Surprised I didnt have a heart attack by the time I came out. Now have a blister on my right foot.
Foul mood and wish I'd left months ago when I originally wanted to.
As such have eaten shit today. 1 bacon, mushroom & brown sauce sandwich, 10 shortbread with chocolate chips, 1 strawberry bun, 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/stuffed mushrooms/sundried tomatoes), 1 packet quavers, half a chocolate muffin, 1 ham and pie d'angloys sandwich, half bottle rose wine (I broke one of my lovely big half-a-bottle-wine glasses :bawling: ), pilau rice, limey chicken, garlic ciabatta.
Spent ages at the gym. Did all my weights (2 reps of 10, have increased all the weights now, although I struggled A LOT with peck flyes and shoulder press), then accidentally did 26minutes on the cross trainer (I dont know how my mind was working - I did 10mins, then stopped for a break cos I thought it would pause what I had just done-it didnt- and then reprogrammed it to do another 13mins....crazy), 31 mins (inc warmup) on the treadmill and 10mins on the rower. Surprised I didnt have a heart attack by the time I came out. Now have a blister on my right foot.
Foul mood and wish I'd left months ago when I originally wanted to.
Thursday, 31 May 2007
Will Hitch Back Up The Wagon Tomorrow....
Cos today I've had my last final, honest guv, big piggy fat day. Till the next time.
Still slightly dopey from the relexology, but have finally listened to Paul McKenna on the new cd player I got while at mum and dads. Dunno if its done any good but it might have contributed possibly... I only managed to leave the pork fat and the tiniest smidgen of Yorkshire pudding on this evenings tea. And I know I'm not hungry anymore, but I WANT some ice cream so OH has gone off to get some from the freezer :spoilt: :wub: but also :fat:
Went shopping with S - spent lots in Lush, some pants from La Senza and some hair dye!
Not much else to add, I really couldnt motivate myself to go to the gym tonight, I WILL go tomorrow and possibly saturday too...
May also find out tomorrow whether Hypothetically Potentially might happen.... :fingerscrossed:
Still slightly dopey from the relexology, but have finally listened to Paul McKenna on the new cd player I got while at mum and dads. Dunno if its done any good but it might have contributed possibly... I only managed to leave the pork fat and the tiniest smidgen of Yorkshire pudding on this evenings tea. And I know I'm not hungry anymore, but I WANT some ice cream so OH has gone off to get some from the freezer :spoilt: :wub: but also :fat:
Went shopping with S - spent lots in Lush, some pants from La Senza and some hair dye!
Not much else to add, I really couldnt motivate myself to go to the gym tonight, I WILL go tomorrow and possibly saturday too...
May also find out tomorrow whether Hypothetically Potentially might happen.... :fingerscrossed:
Wednesday, 30 May 2007
All Treatment-ed Out
I am SHATTERED. We'll not talk about what I've eaten :blush:
Had reflexology today and :thud: lady was impressive. Picked up straight away on my poppy shoulder, my neck, sinuses and headaches, AND was able to tell me how long ago I gave up smoking, thanks to some hard skin on my left foot! Amazing. I am utterly shattered now though, which means I am in a foul mood.
Pedicure yesterday which was nice, but I put my socks on too early and have smudged the varnish. Oops.
OH and Dad went to France and have come back with all sorts of goodies, OH got me a lovely pair of trainers along with the millions of boxes of wine! Have been very good, as soon as we got home I got everything unpacked and either put away or in the washing machine - how domesticated have I got?!
Kitten is very pleased to be back home. Think he was getting upset with being constantly sworn at by siamese.
Also got a new pair of jeans - almost bordering on being too big on certain parts of my body.
Tomorrow, fingers crossed is Hypothetically Potentially becomming reality.
Had reflexology today and :thud: lady was impressive. Picked up straight away on my poppy shoulder, my neck, sinuses and headaches, AND was able to tell me how long ago I gave up smoking, thanks to some hard skin on my left foot! Amazing. I am utterly shattered now though, which means I am in a foul mood.
Pedicure yesterday which was nice, but I put my socks on too early and have smudged the varnish. Oops.
OH and Dad went to France and have come back with all sorts of goodies, OH got me a lovely pair of trainers along with the millions of boxes of wine! Have been very good, as soon as we got home I got everything unpacked and either put away or in the washing machine - how domesticated have I got?!
Kitten is very pleased to be back home. Think he was getting upset with being constantly sworn at by siamese.
Also got a new pair of jeans - almost bordering on being too big on certain parts of my body.
Tomorrow, fingers crossed is Hypothetically Potentially becomming reality.
Sunday, 27 May 2007
Off to parents today
So a week of no exercise, gluttony and people touching my feet :S
OH and I are off down to the farmers market to get some buffalo LOL and possibly some other stuff....Kitten has realised somethings happening and is generally being a pain in the arse.
Not going to blog till Wednesday as dont want parents to know this exists.
Now. Must get motivated and sorted.
OH and I are off down to the farmers market to get some buffalo LOL and possibly some other stuff....Kitten has realised somethings happening and is generally being a pain in the arse.
Not going to blog till Wednesday as dont want parents to know this exists.
Now. Must get motivated and sorted.
Saturday, 26 May 2007
Bum :(
Went into Leeds instead of Harrogate this morning after a blissful lie in...think we rolled out of bed about 10ish LOL. First stop was mk1...where the sizes STOP at 16 :bawling: Put me out of the idea of finding any nice clothes after that, so went to Lush to comfort shop, and STILL couldnt cheer myself up :thud: and only spent £13 :thud:
Went into Waterstones too, got myself a couple of books and then cos it was 3-for-2, got OH one too and a bag from somewhere that was closing down, so that can be my sports bag, rather than pinching OHs. Also some magazines from smiths, and that was it, we came away....OH got some tops and some bright-white (hehe) pants from H&M.
On the way home, scooted into town and got things for tonight from Waitrose and then wandered down to the butchers for some ham to take down to mums with us tomorrow.
Now have to summon up the enthusiasm to do hoovering, general tidying and start packing to make sure we have everything...
Food: chunk halloumi, toffee & pecan cookie, strawberry bun, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, chicken breast with mozzerella & bacon, boiled potatoes, green beans, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce, ben & jerrys ice cream :blush:
Exercise: none
Went into Waterstones too, got myself a couple of books and then cos it was 3-for-2, got OH one too and a bag from somewhere that was closing down, so that can be my sports bag, rather than pinching OHs. Also some magazines from smiths, and that was it, we came away....OH got some tops and some bright-white (hehe) pants from H&M.
On the way home, scooted into town and got things for tonight from Waitrose and then wandered down to the butchers for some ham to take down to mums with us tomorrow.
Now have to summon up the enthusiasm to do hoovering, general tidying and start packing to make sure we have everything...
Food: chunk halloumi, toffee & pecan cookie, strawberry bun, 1 ham & pie d'angloys baguette, chicken breast with mozzerella & bacon, boiled potatoes, green beans, carrots, gravy, cranberry sauce, ben & jerrys ice cream :blush:
Exercise: none
Friday, 25 May 2007
YAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!
I have really looked forward to this coming week off. Not sure why. Mum has booked me a pedicure and a reflexology session....
Shopping in Harrogate tomorrow, then Sunday there's the Farmers Market, then we're driving down, then I'm off to see Pony! Yay! Monday it's dads birthday, then Tuesday him and OH are off to France for the day and mum and I are having our pedicure. Wednesday we're having this reflexology malarky and then coming home. Thursday I assume will be spent doing Boring Jobs and Friday am back at work and will hopefully find out if Hypothetically Potentially has become a Definate Reality :lol:
Lazy day at work, spent the morning sweeping everywhere, including under the tubs and under the stands. D did W&C, SC did bugger all and LovelyM spent most of his day requesting relationship advice...He needs a boyfriend. Badly!
Was a bit achey this morning, but sweeping worked it off and then I spent the afternoon in the shed, mainly chasing (notso)LovelyM with a pitchfork because he was being spectacularly irritating for the afternoon. Just back from the gym and worked Very Hard. Have a blister from the rower LOL. Just as well have enforced rest!
Food: quavers, salad (ham/cheddar/salad cream), muller light, maltesers, have D's bacon savoury, crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 large baguette with ham & pie d'angloys, 1 bowl Waitrose Gelato Nocciolato....Fucking lovely, although made gym visit pointless! Has dark chocolate in it, which I didnt realise til I'd eaten most of it, so may have a migraine tomorrow. Didn't stop me eating it! And sorry Paul...I didnt leave ANY of my food today, although I did share the quavers & maltesers.
Exercise: 120 situps, gym (increased weights up a 'weight' so now doing 2 sets of 10, put cross trainer on level 6,
Shopping in Harrogate tomorrow, then Sunday there's the Farmers Market, then we're driving down, then I'm off to see Pony! Yay! Monday it's dads birthday, then Tuesday him and OH are off to France for the day and mum and I are having our pedicure. Wednesday we're having this reflexology malarky and then coming home. Thursday I assume will be spent doing Boring Jobs and Friday am back at work and will hopefully find out if Hypothetically Potentially has become a Definate Reality :lol:
Lazy day at work, spent the morning sweeping everywhere, including under the tubs and under the stands. D did W&C, SC did bugger all and LovelyM spent most of his day requesting relationship advice...He needs a boyfriend. Badly!
Was a bit achey this morning, but sweeping worked it off and then I spent the afternoon in the shed, mainly chasing (notso)LovelyM with a pitchfork because he was being spectacularly irritating for the afternoon. Just back from the gym and worked Very Hard. Have a blister from the rower LOL. Just as well have enforced rest!
Food: quavers, salad (ham/cheddar/salad cream), muller light, maltesers, have D's bacon savoury, crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 large baguette with ham & pie d'angloys, 1 bowl Waitrose Gelato Nocciolato....Fucking lovely, although made gym visit pointless! Has dark chocolate in it, which I didnt realise til I'd eaten most of it, so may have a migraine tomorrow. Didn't stop me eating it! And sorry Paul...I didnt leave ANY of my food today, although I did share the quavers & maltesers.
Exercise: 120 situps, gym (increased weights up a 'weight' so now doing 2 sets of 10, put cross trainer on level 6,
Thursday, 24 May 2007
Little Toad...
NeedyKitten that is. Has somehow found his catnip from whereever it was hidden - me and OH both thought it was on the mantlepeice in the living room, but that would involve the cat going in there last night, stealing it, then hiding it ready to spill everywhere this morning.... although knowing him, I wouldnt put it past him lol. The hallway is just a sea of catnip....He will have a shock when I hoover tonight!!
Currently eating a bowl of Crunchy nut cornflakes, very slowly and am enjoying every mouthful :nod: as told to by Paul McKenna. Must listen to that CD tonight, as definately have not woken up full of energy and ready to run 10 miles! I have left some remnants of cornflakes and some milk in the bowl though, just like he told me to...
Only today and tomorrow left at work and then a whole week off (again!) I will have no holiday left soon lol.
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Just back from work....Been so proud of myself all day for not being so hungry and was wondering if Paul was helping! No, I just forgot I had eaten those cornflakes :bawling: I did however leave bits of all my food so far today (except the chocolate hobnobs :blush: ).
Went to S' gym this evening. Very different to mine. The cross trainers made my legs ache more for a start! Did a different programme to what I do at Aireborough....5mins on bike to warm up, 15 on x-trainer, then 10 on rower. Then we arsed about on a toning table for a bit, then I did oblique twists (dont have that at mine, although do have one here at home which I forgot about), Pec Flys, adductor and abductor. They HURT!!! Oh, and one for your bum - you lie on front then lift on leg up at a time on this machiney thing. Very odd. Don't feel particularly worked out though, although will regret saying that tomorrow - I can feel it already!
Busybusy at work, SC was irritating, started waffling on about shires 'crap feet' until I got so irritated, I just turned round and said 'Actually SC, thats just bad farriery...' Looked at me as though I'd just kicked a kitten and walked off. Also made lots of unsubtle hints about baths, and walking dogs and making sure they had water. I'm so awful.
Food: 1 bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, porridge, muller light, quavers, 2 hobnobs, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light cheese, limey chicken, pilau rice, homemade garlic bread
Exercise: Gym
:cuddle: and :goodvibes: for today, E :)
(Just finished tea....didn't leave any of it. Or the rice cakes...)
Currently eating a bowl of Crunchy nut cornflakes, very slowly and am enjoying every mouthful :nod: as told to by Paul McKenna. Must listen to that CD tonight, as definately have not woken up full of energy and ready to run 10 miles! I have left some remnants of cornflakes and some milk in the bowl though, just like he told me to...
Only today and tomorrow left at work and then a whole week off (again!) I will have no holiday left soon lol.
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Just back from work....Been so proud of myself all day for not being so hungry and was wondering if Paul was helping! No, I just forgot I had eaten those cornflakes :bawling: I did however leave bits of all my food so far today (except the chocolate hobnobs :blush: ).
Went to S' gym this evening. Very different to mine. The cross trainers made my legs ache more for a start! Did a different programme to what I do at Aireborough....5mins on bike to warm up, 15 on x-trainer, then 10 on rower. Then we arsed about on a toning table for a bit, then I did oblique twists (dont have that at mine, although do have one here at home which I forgot about), Pec Flys, adductor and abductor. They HURT!!! Oh, and one for your bum - you lie on front then lift on leg up at a time on this machiney thing. Very odd. Don't feel particularly worked out though, although will regret saying that tomorrow - I can feel it already!
Busybusy at work, SC was irritating, started waffling on about shires 'crap feet' until I got so irritated, I just turned round and said 'Actually SC, thats just bad farriery...' Looked at me as though I'd just kicked a kitten and walked off. Also made lots of unsubtle hints about baths, and walking dogs and making sure they had water. I'm so awful.
Food: 1 bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, porridge, muller light, quavers, 2 hobnobs, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light cheese, limey chicken, pilau rice, homemade garlic bread
Exercise: Gym
:cuddle: and :goodvibes: for today, E :)
(Just finished tea....didn't leave any of it. Or the rice cakes...)
Wednesday, 23 May 2007
Yay!! Books came!
And am a bit :huh: It seems fairly common sense-y really and all a bit too easy. I stand to be corrected, obviously, but *dunno* it just seems, well, too easy. Maybe the epiphany will come when i listen to the CD.
There's 4 'rules' - only 2 of which I can remember. 1 is eat what you want, when you want. The other I can remember is chew each mouthful slowly and savour each mouthful.
I managed the first of those, but not the second today :blush:
He says dont weigh yourself for 2 weeks :S thats when I tend to give up when I can't see how I'm doing....But suppose it fits in nicely with us being at mum and dads next week. He also suggests making sure you leave SOMETHING each meal...have cheated tonight and left the crusts, which I never eat anyway lol.
Work wasnt too bad. M1 is an utter arse and I can't wait for him to go. OH told me I eat too much and don't do enough exercise to lose weight :( Although the past 2 weeks I would have to agree with him :(
Food: salad (ham/halloumi/salad cream), muller light, quavers, 1 qalaxy cake bar, lots of caramel & choc biscuits, lots of Hobnobs, a packet of maltesers, half a bacon and cheese savory, a big bowl of crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 salami & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich.
Exercise: 70lengths swimming. Pool was empty! Well, full of women. Their OHs were all obviously watching the football too :rolleyes:
A gaining week :(
There's 4 'rules' - only 2 of which I can remember. 1 is eat what you want, when you want. The other I can remember is chew each mouthful slowly and savour each mouthful.
I managed the first of those, but not the second today :blush:
He says dont weigh yourself for 2 weeks :S thats when I tend to give up when I can't see how I'm doing....But suppose it fits in nicely with us being at mum and dads next week. He also suggests making sure you leave SOMETHING each meal...have cheated tonight and left the crusts, which I never eat anyway lol.
Work wasnt too bad. M1 is an utter arse and I can't wait for him to go. OH told me I eat too much and don't do enough exercise to lose weight :( Although the past 2 weeks I would have to agree with him :(
Food: salad (ham/halloumi/salad cream), muller light, quavers, 1 qalaxy cake bar, lots of caramel & choc biscuits, lots of Hobnobs, a packet of maltesers, half a bacon and cheese savory, a big bowl of crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 salami & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich.
Exercise: 70lengths swimming. Pool was empty! Well, full of women. Their OHs were all obviously watching the football too :rolleyes:
A gaining week :(
Tuesday, 22 May 2007
Paul McKenna ('s book) will have his work cut out!
COnvincing me I dont NEED nice things to eat, then getting grumpy when I refuse them (or not, as the case may be, then I get an attack of the guilts).
Amazon emailed me to say my order was dispatched today, so hopefully will get it tomorrow :crossedfingers:
Super-busy at work. M1 came back off holiday and was fine with everyone else but FOUL to me :unsure: *I* didnt contribute to his problems! Asked him to serve, and he shouted back to ask someone else - I shouted back that if anyone else was about to serve, I would! He came out then, but was NOT happy about it.I really wished Owner was there then... I would have loved to have seen his face. I dont care. I only have to put up with it till Friday, then hopefully never again. Stupid arse.
Tomorrow just me and Mr D in the shop.... Got hopper/biscuit kilos/bird kilos/stands to do plus the shop could do with a bloody good tidy up. It's so frustrating with the builders in - everythings had to move for them to be able to work, but its embarrassing when people ask us for stuff and it's either covered in dust or we just plain can't find it.
I am tired today, despite the fact I had a good sleep last night...I'm so pleased everything is resolved, and in the ponys best interests too. I am still going to see her on Sunday afternoon and I cannot WAIT. It's a nice day as well, which has helped my better mood.
Food: 2 packers Quavers, 1 packet maltesers, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream), muller light, 1 baguette with salami & pie d'angloys, half a pizza (homemade) and half a homemade garlic bread.
Exercise: 5minutes (48.8calories) on bike, 60 sit ups and either 50 lengths in 50 minutes in the pool, or 54 lengths in 50 minutes....I lost count.
(just got on scales....bit of a heads for tomorrow, but HALF A STONE ON! :bawling: )
Amazon emailed me to say my order was dispatched today, so hopefully will get it tomorrow :crossedfingers:
Super-busy at work. M1 came back off holiday and was fine with everyone else but FOUL to me :unsure: *I* didnt contribute to his problems! Asked him to serve, and he shouted back to ask someone else - I shouted back that if anyone else was about to serve, I would! He came out then, but was NOT happy about it.I really wished Owner was there then... I would have loved to have seen his face. I dont care. I only have to put up with it till Friday, then hopefully never again. Stupid arse.
Tomorrow just me and Mr D in the shop.... Got hopper/biscuit kilos/bird kilos/stands to do plus the shop could do with a bloody good tidy up. It's so frustrating with the builders in - everythings had to move for them to be able to work, but its embarrassing when people ask us for stuff and it's either covered in dust or we just plain can't find it.
I am tired today, despite the fact I had a good sleep last night...I'm so pleased everything is resolved, and in the ponys best interests too. I am still going to see her on Sunday afternoon and I cannot WAIT. It's a nice day as well, which has helped my better mood.
Food: 2 packers Quavers, 1 packet maltesers, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream), muller light, 1 baguette with salami & pie d'angloys, half a pizza (homemade) and half a homemade garlic bread.
Exercise: 5minutes (48.8calories) on bike, 60 sit ups and either 50 lengths in 50 minutes in the pool, or 54 lengths in 50 minutes....I lost count.
(just got on scales....bit of a heads for tomorrow, but HALF A STONE ON! :bawling: )
Monday, 21 May 2007
Sorted
The Situation is no longer a Situation.
Pony is staying where she is, I am visiting on Sunday, we are pretending the last 2 weeks havent happened. Well, I am :unsure:
Now exhausted.
Pony is staying where she is, I am visiting on Sunday, we are pretending the last 2 weeks havent happened. Well, I am :unsure:
Now exhausted.
Utterly Exhausted
Only this time I know why..... Can't sleep for thinking of The Situation. :( Whatever happens it will be wrong. I have emailed a horse transport search thingy who make you fill out a form and then all the different transporters get back in touch with their quotes. Will wait till I have a few, then email V and tell her when we're coming to get Pony/Stuff. Not really sure what to do though tbh.
The options:
1. Offer Pony to V for sale, as long as I get £xxxx by a certain date. This is on the understanding that I will never have any further contact with the horse, as long as I get one last chance to say goodbye. (lets not confuse concern with stalking, hey?)
2. Bring Pony back, turn away on grass livery until back/legs sorted. Ask EH to reschool her/take her to parties, then sell.
3. Bring Pony back, turn away on grass livery until back/legs sorted. Loan to a very local home only.
4. Bring Pony back, discover nothing wrong, sell immediately.
5. Bring Pony back, disover pony knackered, field ornament forever.
Also had a shit day with food. I have no willpower and self control - I think I may be expecting too much of this Paul McKenna book.
Was meant to go for a walk with OH tonight, but OH has cried off cos 'it looks like it might rain', thought about going to the gym with S but she's working and I really need someone with me to motivate me and be competitive with today.
Food: half ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light cheese, a twirl (2 fingers), 3/4s packet chocolate hobnobs :blush: salad, quavers, muller light, lamb, boiled potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, gravy, mint sauce.
Exercise: Nothing.
The options:
1. Offer Pony to V for sale, as long as I get £xxxx by a certain date. This is on the understanding that I will never have any further contact with the horse, as long as I get one last chance to say goodbye. (lets not confuse concern with stalking, hey?)
2. Bring Pony back, turn away on grass livery until back/legs sorted. Ask EH to reschool her/take her to parties, then sell.
3. Bring Pony back, turn away on grass livery until back/legs sorted. Loan to a very local home only.
4. Bring Pony back, discover nothing wrong, sell immediately.
5. Bring Pony back, disover pony knackered, field ornament forever.
Also had a shit day with food. I have no willpower and self control - I think I may be expecting too much of this Paul McKenna book.
Was meant to go for a walk with OH tonight, but OH has cried off cos 'it looks like it might rain', thought about going to the gym with S but she's working and I really need someone with me to motivate me and be competitive with today.
Food: half ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light cheese, a twirl (2 fingers), 3/4s packet chocolate hobnobs :blush: salad, quavers, muller light, lamb, boiled potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, gravy, mint sauce.
Exercise: Nothing.
Sunday, 20 May 2007
Very tired!
And not for any particular reason why. Didnt swim this morning because me and OH just couldnt wake up. Eventually rolled out of bed around 9.20 :shock:
Really must pull finger out and look for yards. I suspect I will end up going back to Original Yard, purely for ease rather than anything else. People I know, a yard layout I know, arenas and hacking I am confident with, if I ever sit on her again. A big shame it appears V & I can't work things out though :( Had got myself all worked up for The Chat tonight, and it looks like she can't get to a computer. Heart skips everytime someone new signs into MSN. I am so pathetic.
Acquired (aka, stole) a petometre from work. I'm sure its quicker to rack up the calories than on my old (human!) one. Maybe a dogs metabolic rate is quicker than a humans, despite the fact I put my weight in? I dont know.
I am so hungry, constantly. Had eaten most of my lunch before we even opened the doors today. Just till Friday to go, then I have a half week off to see my parents, then hopefully The Big News will be common knowledge....If it happens.
Food: 1 salad (chicken/mozzerella/halloumi/cranberry sauce), quavers, twirl (both fingers!), 2 Go Ahead apple bars, muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, roast lamb, boiled potatoes, yorkshire pudding, carrots, peas, gravy, mint sauce.
Very yummy. I could eat it all again.
Exercise: Nothing.
Dont know whats wrong with me. No enthusiasm for anything really. Have just bought Paul McKennas book....Hopefully that will kick start everything again. If that works will think about hypnotherapy for confidence etc. I have no idea how I am going to pay for all this though....
Really must pull finger out and look for yards. I suspect I will end up going back to Original Yard, purely for ease rather than anything else. People I know, a yard layout I know, arenas and hacking I am confident with, if I ever sit on her again. A big shame it appears V & I can't work things out though :( Had got myself all worked up for The Chat tonight, and it looks like she can't get to a computer. Heart skips everytime someone new signs into MSN. I am so pathetic.
Acquired (aka, stole) a petometre from work. I'm sure its quicker to rack up the calories than on my old (human!) one. Maybe a dogs metabolic rate is quicker than a humans, despite the fact I put my weight in? I dont know.
I am so hungry, constantly. Had eaten most of my lunch before we even opened the doors today. Just till Friday to go, then I have a half week off to see my parents, then hopefully The Big News will be common knowledge....If it happens.
Food: 1 salad (chicken/mozzerella/halloumi/cranberry sauce), quavers, twirl (both fingers!), 2 Go Ahead apple bars, muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, roast lamb, boiled potatoes, yorkshire pudding, carrots, peas, gravy, mint sauce.
Very yummy. I could eat it all again.
Exercise: Nothing.
Dont know whats wrong with me. No enthusiasm for anything really. Have just bought Paul McKennas book....Hopefully that will kick start everything again. If that works will think about hypnotherapy for confidence etc. I have no idea how I am going to pay for all this though....
Saturday, 19 May 2007
Bargains!
I really must stop spending so much money, especially in light of everything...
Show today, went with works tradestand - took the whole stock of dog beds and we were SO busy!! We must have taken about £500, which considering at the same show last year, we took £7 is going some lol. I got some bargains from the Joules stand (:thud: there was a Joules stand!) and got a summerweight pale blue rugby top which was £50 reduced to £25 and a neon pink jacket which was £85 reduced to £40. Bargainous. Also some red jewelled flip flops which will go well with jeans and my boobs out red top. Must do something about the state of my feet though!
Had a horrendous day food wise. I took a salad, but there was so much temptation everywhere....
Food: 1 bacon sandwich, 1 cheeseburger, chips and tomato sauce, 4 donuts, 2 hot chocolates with whipped cream, 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 turkish delight, quavers, muller light, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream).
Exercise: I walked down to the show and then back home (about 25mins total) and have done 200 calories on the bike so far.
The huge loss I managed over the last 2/3 days has been totally wiped out. Bah.
Show today, went with works tradestand - took the whole stock of dog beds and we were SO busy!! We must have taken about £500, which considering at the same show last year, we took £7 is going some lol. I got some bargains from the Joules stand (:thud: there was a Joules stand!) and got a summerweight pale blue rugby top which was £50 reduced to £25 and a neon pink jacket which was £85 reduced to £40. Bargainous. Also some red jewelled flip flops which will go well with jeans and my boobs out red top. Must do something about the state of my feet though!
Had a horrendous day food wise. I took a salad, but there was so much temptation everywhere....
Food: 1 bacon sandwich, 1 cheeseburger, chips and tomato sauce, 4 donuts, 2 hot chocolates with whipped cream, 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes, 1 turkish delight, quavers, muller light, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream).
Exercise: I walked down to the show and then back home (about 25mins total) and have done 200 calories on the bike so far.
The huge loss I managed over the last 2/3 days has been totally wiped out. Bah.
Friday, 18 May 2007
Annoyed with Myself
Must not be overexcited about Hypothetically, Potentially, but Hypothetically, Potentially, SOMETHING *MAY* be happening around the beginning of Juneish time. Possibly.
Had such a lovely sleep last night, I was utterly exhausted from the night before, and could happily have slept for days. OH on the other hand, didnt, and was wide awake from around 4am.
Work wasnt too bad, still can't concentrate, and still occasionally had to run in the office, shut the door, scream quietly, and come back out again lol. Undecided re the Pony Situation. I dont feel I have been the unreasonable one, but then, I wouldnt, would I? I really dont know what to do, or how to feel. One minute I am over excited about having her back, planning stuff, looking round yards, trying to work out when is best for me to have her... The other side, thinks 'fuck, how am I going to pay for all this? Its not in pony's best interests, I hated that yard, why am I thinking of going back, I wasn't confident on her in a Dr Bristol & a flash, how will I feel with a cheltenham gag and a grackle?' etcetc. The best situation is if the loaner buys her now, but somehow doubt that will happen. At worst, will just have to give her 6months off, get a friend to ride then sell before winter - I cannot afford her. Its a horrible decision, but I have proved I cannot cope with her still being mine and somewhere else. Best if she belongs to someone else and I cut all ties.
So been totally unable to concentrate all day - head is partway Somewhere Down South, partway in the office talking to the owner, partly on the W&C order, partly on the yards I'm going to look at... Basically everywhere it shouldnt be.
Building work is coming on. Wall is totally out now, and beam is in. The metal things holding it all up should come out on Monday, and hopefully the shop wont fall down. Then I think the office is being pulled down, then the counter is moving....then the front is coming off the shop. I wish we'd taken pics, because it will all look so different.
Still havent been to gym or swimming. Another piggy day.
Went to Drs, apparently weight gain is very normal, and although she didnt weigh me (dont they learn?!) accepted I had lost weight, and said it was good, although she could imagine how disheartening it was that it was going so slowly. Suggested the coil as another option. I dont think it is one I will take up. Said the periods thing was totally normal.
Food: 1 bacon & mushroom & brown sauce bun, 1 slice pizza, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream) muller light, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 chocolate muffin, chicken, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, boiled potatoes, cranberry sauce, half bottle pink wine.
Exercise: Nowt. Nada. Bugger all.
Had such a lovely sleep last night, I was utterly exhausted from the night before, and could happily have slept for days. OH on the other hand, didnt, and was wide awake from around 4am.
Work wasnt too bad, still can't concentrate, and still occasionally had to run in the office, shut the door, scream quietly, and come back out again lol. Undecided re the Pony Situation. I dont feel I have been the unreasonable one, but then, I wouldnt, would I? I really dont know what to do, or how to feel. One minute I am over excited about having her back, planning stuff, looking round yards, trying to work out when is best for me to have her... The other side, thinks 'fuck, how am I going to pay for all this? Its not in pony's best interests, I hated that yard, why am I thinking of going back, I wasn't confident on her in a Dr Bristol & a flash, how will I feel with a cheltenham gag and a grackle?' etcetc. The best situation is if the loaner buys her now, but somehow doubt that will happen. At worst, will just have to give her 6months off, get a friend to ride then sell before winter - I cannot afford her. Its a horrible decision, but I have proved I cannot cope with her still being mine and somewhere else. Best if she belongs to someone else and I cut all ties.
So been totally unable to concentrate all day - head is partway Somewhere Down South, partway in the office talking to the owner, partly on the W&C order, partly on the yards I'm going to look at... Basically everywhere it shouldnt be.
Building work is coming on. Wall is totally out now, and beam is in. The metal things holding it all up should come out on Monday, and hopefully the shop wont fall down. Then I think the office is being pulled down, then the counter is moving....then the front is coming off the shop. I wish we'd taken pics, because it will all look so different.
Still havent been to gym or swimming. Another piggy day.
Went to Drs, apparently weight gain is very normal, and although she didnt weigh me (dont they learn?!) accepted I had lost weight, and said it was good, although she could imagine how disheartening it was that it was going so slowly. Suggested the coil as another option. I dont think it is one I will take up. Said the periods thing was totally normal.
Food: 1 bacon & mushroom & brown sauce bun, 1 slice pizza, salad (ham/mozzerella/halloumi/salad cream) muller light, 2 rice cakes with laughing cow light, 1 ham & pie d'angloys sandwich, 1 chocolate muffin, chicken, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, boiled potatoes, cranberry sauce, half bottle pink wine.
Exercise: Nowt. Nada. Bugger all.
Thursday, 17 May 2007
Hypothetically, Potentially
No reply to apology. :( I really dont know what to say or do. Have a list of 20 yards to ring round in the morning. I really dont want to go back to where she was before, but if I have to, I have to. I suppose its better the devil you know really.
Had very little sleep last night, about 4 hours max. Meant that I couldnt get too worked up about today, until Owner actually arrived. I've been left a little bit :huh: and *dizzy* over the review. Basically, I have come out of it looking great, which was a shock! I underestimated myself on everything. M1 did some very political voting and gave everybody horrific scores.... Had it not been for that, my overall score would have been a good 4.5-5 (out of 6) rather than the steady 4 it was. The funniest thing I have EVER heard, is that he gave everyone 2/3 for time keeping - and gave himself 4s & 5s :heehee: This is the man that regularly rocks up at 9.45am, then goes to the bank at 10am, gets back at 11am, and goes for a 3 hour lunch at midday. I can only assume he thought he was marking 1 as the highest LOL. Hypothetically, Potentially, IF eithers M1,2 or 3 were to leave, there will be a new position created for someone (me) to move into. Hypothetically, Potentially, Someone might be leaving in 3weeks time. This means a hefty payrise, lots more input and responsibility, a salary, rather than the rota (no more overtime, boo), so Hypothetically, Potentially, keep those fingers crossed for a while longer. It totally hasnt sunk in yet, I keep wondering if I have made it up. I cant let myself get too overexcited for another 3 weeks. However, I have already mentally spent the money!
Spent most of the day eating chocolate and biscuits. Am pissed off now, as there was a significant loss this morning. Didnt go to gym either as was exhausted by the time I finished work. Am also shocked at the 'comedown' I had at 4pm - I havent had such an amount of chocolate for so long, and that combined with the review and last night, meant that come 4pm I was exhausted and physically couldnt do anything more taxing than chat to builders.
Food: Quavers, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 1 chocolate muffin, lots of chocolate hobnobs, 1 packet of Planets, some Hula Hoops, some Aero bubbles most of a pack of Rolos, pizza, garlic bread.
Exercise: Nothing. At all.
Had very little sleep last night, about 4 hours max. Meant that I couldnt get too worked up about today, until Owner actually arrived. I've been left a little bit :huh: and *dizzy* over the review. Basically, I have come out of it looking great, which was a shock! I underestimated myself on everything. M1 did some very political voting and gave everybody horrific scores.... Had it not been for that, my overall score would have been a good 4.5-5 (out of 6) rather than the steady 4 it was. The funniest thing I have EVER heard, is that he gave everyone 2/3 for time keeping - and gave himself 4s & 5s :heehee: This is the man that regularly rocks up at 9.45am, then goes to the bank at 10am, gets back at 11am, and goes for a 3 hour lunch at midday. I can only assume he thought he was marking 1 as the highest LOL. Hypothetically, Potentially, IF eithers M1,2 or 3 were to leave, there will be a new position created for someone (me) to move into. Hypothetically, Potentially, Someone might be leaving in 3weeks time. This means a hefty payrise, lots more input and responsibility, a salary, rather than the rota (no more overtime, boo), so Hypothetically, Potentially, keep those fingers crossed for a while longer. It totally hasnt sunk in yet, I keep wondering if I have made it up. I cant let myself get too overexcited for another 3 weeks. However, I have already mentally spent the money!
Spent most of the day eating chocolate and biscuits. Am pissed off now, as there was a significant loss this morning. Didnt go to gym either as was exhausted by the time I finished work. Am also shocked at the 'comedown' I had at 4pm - I havent had such an amount of chocolate for so long, and that combined with the review and last night, meant that come 4pm I was exhausted and physically couldnt do anything more taxing than chat to builders.
Food: Quavers, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 1 chocolate muffin, lots of chocolate hobnobs, 1 packet of Planets, some Hula Hoops, some Aero bubbles most of a pack of Rolos, pizza, garlic bread.
Exercise: Nothing. At all.
Wednesday, 16 May 2007
Having Her Back
Both Yay! and Nay!
I'm pleased to have her back, but also, I hate the way it has ended. We were both at fault and neither will accept full responsibility. Need to find a yard now.
Havent swum tonight.
Food: boiled potatoes, sausages, beans, carrots, gravy, chocolate, quavers, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light.
Exercise: None. A mini walk on chevin while trying to contact V and then gabbing to Corinna for a bit.
I'm pleased to have her back, but also, I hate the way it has ended. We were both at fault and neither will accept full responsibility. Need to find a yard now.
Havent swum tonight.
Food: boiled potatoes, sausages, beans, carrots, gravy, chocolate, quavers, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light.
Exercise: None. A mini walk on chevin while trying to contact V and then gabbing to Corinna for a bit.
Tuesday, 15 May 2007
:thud: A Reply!!
At midnight last night and :S dunno.
'Is everything ok? I've just seen post on the forum :S I sent you a txt the day before yesterday, didnt you get it? And I went to the internet cafe but you went offline. Havent spoken to the vet re Dectomax but visit is already booked and she did say at the time no other treatment available. Have to work on Sunday. If you come Monday, I have 2 hours off over lunch but not allowed holidays yet as only been here a couple of weeks. You can come and see her on your own no probs, no one will bother you and can definately skive for half an hour or so :)'
So, hmmm. At 2am I came to the conclusion I *may* tell her the sale is off (there is nothing in writing as such to say M was ever offered for sale) and update the contract, put in a few more specific clauses.
Am still yet to reply to the text. Not sure what to put. No weight loss.
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9.30pm. replied, saying I didnt like the fact I'd sent 7 messages to her 1 reply, and re-asked all the questions I asked in previous texts. Still waiting for an answer. She's been online.
Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), quavers, grapes, 2 mini yorkie bars, half a packet maltesers (:blush:), limey chicken, pilau rice, 6 biscuits
Exercise: 50 lengths in the pool
'Is everything ok? I've just seen post on the forum :S I sent you a txt the day before yesterday, didnt you get it? And I went to the internet cafe but you went offline. Havent spoken to the vet re Dectomax but visit is already booked and she did say at the time no other treatment available. Have to work on Sunday. If you come Monday, I have 2 hours off over lunch but not allowed holidays yet as only been here a couple of weeks. You can come and see her on your own no probs, no one will bother you and can definately skive for half an hour or so :)'
So, hmmm. At 2am I came to the conclusion I *may* tell her the sale is off (there is nothing in writing as such to say M was ever offered for sale) and update the contract, put in a few more specific clauses.
Am still yet to reply to the text. Not sure what to put. No weight loss.
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9.30pm. replied, saying I didnt like the fact I'd sent 7 messages to her 1 reply, and re-asked all the questions I asked in previous texts. Still waiting for an answer. She's been online.
Food: salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), quavers, grapes, 2 mini yorkie bars, half a packet maltesers (:blush:), limey chicken, pilau rice, 6 biscuits
Exercise: 50 lengths in the pool
Monday, 14 May 2007
Nearly 36 hours later
I still dont have a reply! I sent another text at around 7pm as well, no reply to that either.There are Plans in place!
Went to gym this eve, but didnt manage whole routine - it was PACKED. Will try not to go on a Monday evening again I think, it was so busy. Or if I do go, will go later than tonight. Didnt get on rower, leg press,seated row or pec flies.
Finally have an almost date for my review! Either Wednesday or Thursday morning.Starting to prepare my speech.
Food: salad (ham & salad cream), yoghurt, quavers, maltesers, tomato and pasta bake, HUGE garlic bread, banoffi pie (bought when I thought I was going to do whole gym routine!)
Exercise: Gym, 60 sit ups
Went to gym this eve, but didnt manage whole routine - it was PACKED. Will try not to go on a Monday evening again I think, it was so busy. Or if I do go, will go later than tonight. Didnt get on rower, leg press,seated row or pec flies.
Finally have an almost date for my review! Either Wednesday or Thursday morning.Starting to prepare my speech.
Food: salad (ham & salad cream), yoghurt, quavers, maltesers, tomato and pasta bake, HUGE garlic bread, banoffi pie (bought when I thought I was going to do whole gym routine!)
Exercise: Gym, 60 sit ups
Sunday, 13 May 2007
Hiccups!
Had them since about 4pm, they stopped while I was at the gym but have not started again - but I HAVE eaten my tea very quickly!
Odd day, lots of texts sent, but none in return. Still waiting for a reply from one I sent 10hours ago. Sigh.
Did a bit less at the gym today - 15minutes on treadmill (after 11 warmup), 15 on cross trainer and 10 on rower, then weights. I feel like I've worked though!!
Food: salad (ham/cheddar/salad cream), muller light, quavers, pasta bake with pork and tomato, garlic bread
Exercise: gym, 20 sit ups
Odd day, lots of texts sent, but none in return. Still waiting for a reply from one I sent 10hours ago. Sigh.
Did a bit less at the gym today - 15minutes on treadmill (after 11 warmup), 15 on cross trainer and 10 on rower, then weights. I feel like I've worked though!!
Food: salad (ham/cheddar/salad cream), muller light, quavers, pasta bake with pork and tomato, garlic bread
Exercise: gym, 20 sit ups
Saturday, 12 May 2007
Difficult Dilemmas
My pony is poorly - has a very bad back. I really dont know what to do for the best. V is being uncommunicative other than to tell me about the leg mites (what leg mites?!) and vets way of clearing them up *I* don't agree with, but... Nor do I really agree with the 'turn away and dose with painkillers for a month' attitude to her back. Am sat here absolutely bawling my eyes out, can't help but think of my dream the other night where she died, but can't afford to have her back really, but right now...Oh, I dont know. Fuck, shit, bollocks, arse.
Might ring SelfishN and see what she thinks.
Not going to gym today - not that stiff considering, but need a(nother!) day off. Feel awful about the horse now.
Now spending the day uploading more songs to the mp3 player. I can forget how long things (exercise!) takes with it on. My saviour LOL.
Food: 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes, 12 biscuits, garlic ciabatta, pasta with tomato and marscapone cheese.
No exercise
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Rang SelfishN. She thinks I should take her back :S I dont know what to do. People I have discussed it with also think I should take her back. Finally had a text from V, says a lot without saying anything, and still no response to most of my questions. So have sent another text back, and no response to that one. I know she's tired, but :S Someone tell me what to do, I really dont want to be a bitch and I'm trying not to be a selfish brat, but :'(
Fuck fuck fuck
Might ring SelfishN and see what she thinks.
Not going to gym today - not that stiff considering, but need a(nother!) day off. Feel awful about the horse now.
Now spending the day uploading more songs to the mp3 player. I can forget how long things (exercise!) takes with it on. My saviour LOL.
Food: 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes, 12 biscuits, garlic ciabatta, pasta with tomato and marscapone cheese.
No exercise
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Rang SelfishN. She thinks I should take her back :S I dont know what to do. People I have discussed it with also think I should take her back. Finally had a text from V, says a lot without saying anything, and still no response to most of my questions. So have sent another text back, and no response to that one. I know she's tired, but :S Someone tell me what to do, I really dont want to be a bitch and I'm trying not to be a selfish brat, but :'(
Fuck fuck fuck
Friday, 11 May 2007
I need to learn the word 'no' !!
Or self restraint. One of the 2. Preferably both!
Odd day at work, horrid atmosphere. Both MrD & SC are being really 'please watch me do this so no one thinks I'm stealing'. LovelyM thinks its outragous that his 'till priviledges' have been taken away, which I semi agree with but also agree with the fact they *have* been taken away. *dizzy* lol. Didnt really get much done.
S appears to have split up with her boyfriend. Again.
Went to the gym this evening, did 20mins (inc cooldown) on cross trainer, 33 on treadmill (11mins warm up, 22 fast walk and cooldown), then 15mins on rower for first time! Think I did it all wrong and on the highest setting :S Did 144calories in 15 minutes. Burnt about 600 I think in total on the cardio stuff, then I did my weights.
Food: porridge, banana, dime bar, quavers, muller light, 1 pie d'angloys and ham french stick sandwich, 1 big bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, 4 sweet biscuits! See, wheres that self restraint! Just as well I did the 15mins on the rower.
Exercise: gym.
Odd day at work, horrid atmosphere. Both MrD & SC are being really 'please watch me do this so no one thinks I'm stealing'. LovelyM thinks its outragous that his 'till priviledges' have been taken away, which I semi agree with but also agree with the fact they *have* been taken away. *dizzy* lol. Didnt really get much done.
S appears to have split up with her boyfriend. Again.
Went to the gym this evening, did 20mins (inc cooldown) on cross trainer, 33 on treadmill (11mins warm up, 22 fast walk and cooldown), then 15mins on rower for first time! Think I did it all wrong and on the highest setting :S Did 144calories in 15 minutes. Burnt about 600 I think in total on the cardio stuff, then I did my weights.
Food: porridge, banana, dime bar, quavers, muller light, 1 pie d'angloys and ham french stick sandwich, 1 big bowl crunchy nut cornflakes, 4 sweet biscuits! See, wheres that self restraint! Just as well I did the 15mins on the rower.
Exercise: gym.
Thursday, 10 May 2007
Bah
It would appear I might have had the tiniest weightloss since yesterday. Going out tonight and will eat Fat Food. Bah.
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6pm. Joy. Just got home to find we have no water. May not be going now.
Food: salad (chicken/cheddar/cranberry sauce), greek yoghurt, blueberries, raspberries, packet quavers, 1 bacon and cheese burger with bun, chips, coleslaw, salad, tomato sauce, half a slice of cheesy garlic bread, sticky toffee pudding and custard.
Exercise: none.
Bah indeed. Good night though, nice to see everyone.
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6pm. Joy. Just got home to find we have no water. May not be going now.
Food: salad (chicken/cheddar/cranberry sauce), greek yoghurt, blueberries, raspberries, packet quavers, 1 bacon and cheese burger with bun, chips, coleslaw, salad, tomato sauce, half a slice of cheesy garlic bread, sticky toffee pudding and custard.
Exercise: none.
Bah indeed. Good night though, nice to see everyone.
Wednesday, 9 May 2007
:bawling:
No weight change whatsoever this week.
I'm so glad I've swum so far and been to the gym 4 times.
Whinge whinge whinge. Yes, I am in an arse about it. Why can't my body do what it's SUPPOSED to?
Anyway, just back from work. A significant amount of money has gone missing in the last week or so. Only 2 people that could have done it - SC and MrD. Sadly, *I* suspect the latter although....bah, I dont know.
Food: porridge, banana, muller light, 2 biscuits, pasta, cheese sauce, sausages, peas, garlic bread, natural yoghurt, handful blueberries, handful raspberries
Exercise: 40 lengths swimming
I'm so glad I've swum so far and been to the gym 4 times.
Whinge whinge whinge. Yes, I am in an arse about it. Why can't my body do what it's SUPPOSED to?
Anyway, just back from work. A significant amount of money has gone missing in the last week or so. Only 2 people that could have done it - SC and MrD. Sadly, *I* suspect the latter although....bah, I dont know.
Food: porridge, banana, muller light, 2 biscuits, pasta, cheese sauce, sausages, peas, garlic bread, natural yoghurt, handful blueberries, handful raspberries
Exercise: 40 lengths swimming
Tuesday, 8 May 2007
Fat but also fit LOL
Went to lunch with SelfishN. Went to White Hart. Very nice, very posh, very expensive. Didn't help that I had spilt petrol all over myself when filling my car up and stank the place out. :blush: Lunch was really nice though. I got 5 minutes to talk about me and my stuff *shock* but then things went downhill until it was time for my fictional Drs appointment :blush: I'm so awful.
Came home, pottered about for a bit, then went to gym with S. Was quite fun, did my usual workout, and have increased the reps on my weights, so now I do 3 sets of 8. Must remember to keep counting though!!! Moved up to level 5 on the cross trainer too and by the time we finished on the treadmill, the incline was at 4.0 and speed at 6kph. Very red by time I had finished and my legs ache now! I must be crazy to be considering going swimming tonight too! Was fun doing it with S, much easier to stay motivated I think and it helped we're both competitive, although obviously she's far fitter than I am. Hopefully we're going to go next Wednesday as well - fingers crossed this turns into something we do when we both have a day off together.
In other news....apparently, reviews are for definate next week, while G is off. I am hoping this is a good thing.
Food: spaghetti, cream sauce, mushrooms, smoked bacon, half a pizza sized garlic bread, 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes and milk, 5 biscuits.
Exercise: gym, 70 lengths in pool
Came home, pottered about for a bit, then went to gym with S. Was quite fun, did my usual workout, and have increased the reps on my weights, so now I do 3 sets of 8. Must remember to keep counting though!!! Moved up to level 5 on the cross trainer too and by the time we finished on the treadmill, the incline was at 4.0 and speed at 6kph. Very red by time I had finished and my legs ache now! I must be crazy to be considering going swimming tonight too! Was fun doing it with S, much easier to stay motivated I think and it helped we're both competitive, although obviously she's far fitter than I am. Hopefully we're going to go next Wednesday as well - fingers crossed this turns into something we do when we both have a day off together.
In other news....apparently, reviews are for definate next week, while G is off. I am hoping this is a good thing.
Food: spaghetti, cream sauce, mushrooms, smoked bacon, half a pizza sized garlic bread, 2 bowls crunchy nut cornflakes and milk, 5 biscuits.
Exercise: gym, 70 lengths in pool
Monday, 7 May 2007
Irritated
9am this morning, I was in the gym, had done my 10mins warm up and was on the leg press, when who should I see walk in, but IrritatingColin who I used to work with :thud: I ignored him and he did likewise although the gym is so small we couldnt fail but to see each other, especially when he went on the pec fly thing RIGHT IN FRONT of my cross trainer. Got incredibly sweaty on the cross trainer, I swear went quicker but burnt less calories? Odd. So, irritations number 1&2.
Irritation 3 - Bank Holiday, had to work. Funny day. Not busy yet still didnt manage to get much done at all. I was knackered anyway, despite it not feeling (mentally!) like I'd done much at the gym, had irritating customers all day (I love my job, I love my job) and then home to find ...
Irritation 4 - the cat appears to have been sick, numerous times. Mostly on our bed. OH had washed the duvet, so have stuck the bottom sheet and pillows on too.
Irritation 5 - SelfishN is back, and has found out tomorrow is my day off. Have invented a Drs appt to go to in the afternoon, but know my morning is now ruined as will have to trail round after her all morning, listening to herherher. I'm so awful, but I know if I was in a position where I needed the help I've given her or advice or whatever, I know I would be given her opinion, that is what I should do and there would be no further comment on it. FFS, when my horse went on loan, she drove us there (for a fee!), and while I spent the whole time in tears, she wittered on about boy trouble!! Forgive me if I sound bitter.
Irritation 6 - well, there is no irritation 6, yet. No, there is. Why have I not lost weight, and why, knowing this, have I agreed to go out, far away, on Thursday, so no time for the gym? part of me thinks my body isnt used to the gym routine and I should just swim tomorrow and weds, and 'nothing' on Thursday, but the other part thinks 'I'm really not going to lose weight with that attitude'. I dont know, I might swim AND gym tomorrow, or I might go to the gym Friday evening instead :nolife: I also appear, at long last, to be having some kind of excuse of a period. Maybe that will help...
Irritation 7 - I have no self control whatsoever and have had chocolate, a quarter of garlic bread and a slice of pizza today. Therefore have cancelled out the gym-going this morning.
I have also decided that when I get a repeat prescription for the Pill, I will make sure I see a Dr, point out that all weight loss appears to have stopped since I went on Cerazette, my periods have stopped and am generally tired, ratty and moody. Am also going to ask for Fat Pills I think.
Irritation 8 - I think I have another cold starting.
Food: 1 slice ham and mushroom takeaway pizza, 1 quarter home made garlic bread, half a slice homemade pizza, half a penguin, half a blue riband, 1 chunk dairy milk, 1 chicken, cheddar and cranberry sauce salad, 1 muller light, 1 banana, chicken, boiled potatoes & butter, carrots, green beans, gravy, cranberry sauce, 2 rice cakes, 1 laughing cow light triangle.
Exercise: Gym.
Irritation 3 - Bank Holiday, had to work. Funny day. Not busy yet still didnt manage to get much done at all. I was knackered anyway, despite it not feeling (mentally!) like I'd done much at the gym, had irritating customers all day (I love my job, I love my job) and then home to find ...
Irritation 4 - the cat appears to have been sick, numerous times. Mostly on our bed. OH had washed the duvet, so have stuck the bottom sheet and pillows on too.
Irritation 5 - SelfishN is back, and has found out tomorrow is my day off. Have invented a Drs appt to go to in the afternoon, but know my morning is now ruined as will have to trail round after her all morning, listening to herherher. I'm so awful, but I know if I was in a position where I needed the help I've given her or advice or whatever, I know I would be given her opinion, that is what I should do and there would be no further comment on it. FFS, when my horse went on loan, she drove us there (for a fee!), and while I spent the whole time in tears, she wittered on about boy trouble!! Forgive me if I sound bitter.
Irritation 6 - well, there is no irritation 6, yet. No, there is. Why have I not lost weight, and why, knowing this, have I agreed to go out, far away, on Thursday, so no time for the gym? part of me thinks my body isnt used to the gym routine and I should just swim tomorrow and weds, and 'nothing' on Thursday, but the other part thinks 'I'm really not going to lose weight with that attitude'. I dont know, I might swim AND gym tomorrow, or I might go to the gym Friday evening instead :nolife: I also appear, at long last, to be having some kind of excuse of a period. Maybe that will help...
Irritation 7 - I have no self control whatsoever and have had chocolate, a quarter of garlic bread and a slice of pizza today. Therefore have cancelled out the gym-going this morning.
I have also decided that when I get a repeat prescription for the Pill, I will make sure I see a Dr, point out that all weight loss appears to have stopped since I went on Cerazette, my periods have stopped and am generally tired, ratty and moody. Am also going to ask for Fat Pills I think.
Irritation 8 - I think I have another cold starting.
Food: 1 slice ham and mushroom takeaway pizza, 1 quarter home made garlic bread, half a slice homemade pizza, half a penguin, half a blue riband, 1 chunk dairy milk, 1 chicken, cheddar and cranberry sauce salad, 1 muller light, 1 banana, chicken, boiled potatoes & butter, carrots, green beans, gravy, cranberry sauce, 2 rice cakes, 1 laughing cow light triangle.
Exercise: Gym.
Sunday, 6 May 2007
Going to need my day off on Tuesday!
Even so, I can't imagine that the ensuing exercise will in any way, shape or form forgo the gluttony which I am about to partake in. Bah.
Went swimming this morning - did 70 lengths :thud: Finding it very easy to sit here now and say I could have done 80lengths fairly happily...although, I really think I could have done. By the time I got to 60lengths I had a proper energy surge, and while it didnt make me QUICKER exactly, I just kept plugging on. Took 80 minutes, so not great but not exactly shabby either. Bank Holiday tomorrow, so off to the gym at 9am to fit it in before work. With S coming round, this could mean I end up with about 3 hours sleep :lol:
Work....pah. While I do enjoy my job, customers do irritate me occasionally. Although MrD sold a collar and a choke chain to someone doing a bondage show!!
Food: Salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), snack a jacks, muller light, 3 apple custard sucky sweets, pizza, garlic bread, wine, 1 caramel, some tangy cola sweets.
Exercise: 70 lengths in the pool, 40 minutes (416calories) on the bike.
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S & her OH have just gone...they brought their (lab) puppy with them. Once Kitten was over his shock they played together fairly happily, as far as a 8month old dog can be about being chased by a cat.
Went swimming this morning - did 70 lengths :thud: Finding it very easy to sit here now and say I could have done 80lengths fairly happily...although, I really think I could have done. By the time I got to 60lengths I had a proper energy surge, and while it didnt make me QUICKER exactly, I just kept plugging on. Took 80 minutes, so not great but not exactly shabby either. Bank Holiday tomorrow, so off to the gym at 9am to fit it in before work. With S coming round, this could mean I end up with about 3 hours sleep :lol:
Work....pah. While I do enjoy my job, customers do irritate me occasionally. Although MrD sold a collar and a choke chain to someone doing a bondage show!!
Food: Salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), snack a jacks, muller light, 3 apple custard sucky sweets, pizza, garlic bread, wine, 1 caramel, some tangy cola sweets.
Exercise: 70 lengths in the pool, 40 minutes (416calories) on the bike.
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S & her OH have just gone...they brought their (lab) puppy with them. Once Kitten was over his shock they played together fairly happily, as far as a 8month old dog can be about being chased by a cat.
Saturday, 5 May 2007
Stiff!!
Had a horrid awful dream last night, dreamt Pony was shot because she wouldn't travel. Took me ages to cry :S but since then havent really stopped. Texted V at 7am this morning, requesting a picture :blush: she must think I'm crazy, but at least it was better than at 4am which was when I originally woke up! Have been in an iffy mood since then. I know it was only a dream, but still :(
Was stiff from the gym today, kept myself busy at work though by stocking up all day. Very tired now though.
Eaten lots and not exercised much.
Food: 1 handful each of grapes, blueberries and raspberries, 1 laughing cow light triangle, 1 packet snack a jacks (BBQ), porridge, banana, muller light, 1 chewit, some stolen chips, 5 biscuits, chicken, bacon, mozzerella, boiled potatoes with butter, carrots, beans, gravy, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream
Exercise: 1 walk (the 'backwards, 3hills walk on the chevin lol), 20 minutes (210 calories) on bike.
S & her OH coming over tomorrow night, so there will be pizza, garlic bread and lots of wine :S watch that weight pile back on...
Was stiff from the gym today, kept myself busy at work though by stocking up all day. Very tired now though.
Eaten lots and not exercised much.
Food: 1 handful each of grapes, blueberries and raspberries, 1 laughing cow light triangle, 1 packet snack a jacks (BBQ), porridge, banana, muller light, 1 chewit, some stolen chips, 5 biscuits, chicken, bacon, mozzerella, boiled potatoes with butter, carrots, beans, gravy, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream
Exercise: 1 walk (the 'backwards, 3hills walk on the chevin lol), 20 minutes (210 calories) on bike.
S & her OH coming over tomorrow night, so there will be pizza, garlic bread and lots of wine :S watch that weight pile back on...
Friday, 4 May 2007
oooh, check me out!
Went to the gym tonight :lol: was meant to be a 'night off' bearing in mind it's friday, but went anyway. No one outwardly laughed at me, despite me being very hot (bright red!!!) and sweaty, doing obviously a quarter of everyone else. Was a bit, not embarrassing, but...I dont what the word is, but it was that, watching everyone else doing huge weights/hours on cardio machines, then me putting them down to lowest weights and settings when I got on. Had an embarrassing moment when I couldnt get the cross trainer to work - must remember to press HARDER!
It was still fun, even if I did muck up the times on the cross trainer, so I ended up doing more. No bad thing though! As long as it isnt too busy, I think I shall quite enjoy it. Was humilating watching myself on the cross trainer though - unwittingly picked a machine right in front of a mirror. MP3 player was a godsend. Must put some more songs on it, as long as I remember than when I'm on the cross trainer, I shouldnt let go or move my feet, other wise I get disorientated :lol:
Work not too bad today, stayed in the shed for most of it, but SC REEKED. Of, well, piss. Has finally taken water bowls for those poor dogs. Spaced my food out over the whole day, which meant I wasn't hungry - fab. Did eat a lot today though :lol:
My gym workoutas of today is: (no laughing at the back...or anywhere)
10mins warmup - free choice, but will use treadmill, gradually increasing difficulty
then weights: leg press = 2 x 8 reps of 52kg, shoulder press = 2 x 8 reps of 15kg, seated row = 2 x 8 reps of 14kg, pec flies = 2 x 8 reps of 14kg, arm ext 2 x 8 reps of 10kg and arm curl 2 x 8 reps of 15kg. Cardio = 15mins + cooldown of cross trainer on level 4 - tended to go at 7-8kph and then 15mins + cooldown of treadmill again, but increasing difficulty, so by 12minutes am on incline 3 and walking at 5.7kph till cooldown kicks in. Very glad for that then LOL.
Food: 1 x smoothie, 1 x pack of 30g snack a jacks (cheese), 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/LOTS of salad cream), 1 muller light, 5 chewits, 1 whole packet maltesers, half bottle white wine, half garlic ciabatta, pasta, cheese sauce, bacon and peas, 2 peices of turkish delight.
Exercise: gym.
I am glad I went tonight, reminded me it wasnt so scary on my own. Was hoping occasionally to do gym and swim, but will have to work up to that very gradually I think LOL. Am very glad I went, especially as I only decided at 3pm that I would consider it and the whole way there I was getting myself worked up.
Just remembered, went to pick up 30kg today and couldnt do it! unheard of LOL so even if the exercises do feel easy, they're doing something!
It was still fun, even if I did muck up the times on the cross trainer, so I ended up doing more. No bad thing though! As long as it isnt too busy, I think I shall quite enjoy it. Was humilating watching myself on the cross trainer though - unwittingly picked a machine right in front of a mirror. MP3 player was a godsend. Must put some more songs on it, as long as I remember than when I'm on the cross trainer, I shouldnt let go or move my feet, other wise I get disorientated :lol:
Work not too bad today, stayed in the shed for most of it, but SC REEKED. Of, well, piss. Has finally taken water bowls for those poor dogs. Spaced my food out over the whole day, which meant I wasn't hungry - fab. Did eat a lot today though :lol:
My gym workoutas of today is: (no laughing at the back...or anywhere)
10mins warmup - free choice, but will use treadmill, gradually increasing difficulty
then weights: leg press = 2 x 8 reps of 52kg, shoulder press = 2 x 8 reps of 15kg, seated row = 2 x 8 reps of 14kg, pec flies = 2 x 8 reps of 14kg, arm ext 2 x 8 reps of 10kg and arm curl 2 x 8 reps of 15kg. Cardio = 15mins + cooldown of cross trainer on level 4 - tended to go at 7-8kph and then 15mins + cooldown of treadmill again, but increasing difficulty, so by 12minutes am on incline 3 and walking at 5.7kph till cooldown kicks in. Very glad for that then LOL.
Food: 1 x smoothie, 1 x pack of 30g snack a jacks (cheese), 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/LOTS of salad cream), 1 muller light, 5 chewits, 1 whole packet maltesers, half bottle white wine, half garlic ciabatta, pasta, cheese sauce, bacon and peas, 2 peices of turkish delight.
Exercise: gym.
I am glad I went tonight, reminded me it wasnt so scary on my own. Was hoping occasionally to do gym and swim, but will have to work up to that very gradually I think LOL. Am very glad I went, especially as I only decided at 3pm that I would consider it and the whole way there I was getting myself worked up.
Just remembered, went to pick up 30kg today and couldnt do it! unheard of LOL so even if the exercises do feel easy, they're doing something!
Thursday, 3 May 2007
nervous nervous nervous
Gym induction in half hour. Very nervous :lol:
Just been to vote for the first time ever. Fairly painless.
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Pooofffff!! I think I can see myself getting addicted to the gym! Had a great time, as much as I can do getting hot and sweaty on my own :rolleyes: :lol: Have to do 10mins on treadmill to warm up, then upper body machines for 2 sets of 8 reps each I think, then 15minutes each on a combination of 2 on the cross trainer, rower, bike and treadmill again, but working harder than in the warm up. HOW MUCH FUN was the cross trainer?! :lol: I really enjoyed it. Didnt burn as many calories as I hoped though. My bike calorie counter is DEFINATELY wrong!! Wasn't hugely out of breath either, but WAS sweaty....must remember to take a towel and a drink on Monday. I ache a bit now though!
Food: 1 baguette with salami & pie d'angloys, some snack a jacks, limey chicken and basmati rice, 1 piece turkish delight, 1 twix top.
Exercise: Gym, walk with OH and K
Work was fairly boring today. SC REALLY smelt. Then I got a text from S, who said she'd gone and got it from the pile of dirty clothes by the washer, that had been there since AT LEAST Saturday. Well, OH & I saw it on Saturday, and it had been there a *while* before. Ick. I can't understand it, I really can't.
Will ache tomorrow!! I am a bit worried I'll forget how to use the equipment though :blush: and will make sure MP3 has plenty of batteries! What I might do is the 10 mins warm up on treadmill, then my reps, then the 2 x cardio (check me out, sounding like a gym person!), then come home and do 15 mins on bike as a cool down. Maybe. In theory it sounds easy and doable, in practice I could be half dead come Monday evening :lol:
Just been to vote for the first time ever. Fairly painless.
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Pooofffff!! I think I can see myself getting addicted to the gym! Had a great time, as much as I can do getting hot and sweaty on my own :rolleyes: :lol: Have to do 10mins on treadmill to warm up, then upper body machines for 2 sets of 8 reps each I think, then 15minutes each on a combination of 2 on the cross trainer, rower, bike and treadmill again, but working harder than in the warm up. HOW MUCH FUN was the cross trainer?! :lol: I really enjoyed it. Didnt burn as many calories as I hoped though. My bike calorie counter is DEFINATELY wrong!! Wasn't hugely out of breath either, but WAS sweaty....must remember to take a towel and a drink on Monday. I ache a bit now though!
Food: 1 baguette with salami & pie d'angloys, some snack a jacks, limey chicken and basmati rice, 1 piece turkish delight, 1 twix top.
Exercise: Gym, walk with OH and K
Work was fairly boring today. SC REALLY smelt. Then I got a text from S, who said she'd gone and got it from the pile of dirty clothes by the washer, that had been there since AT LEAST Saturday. Well, OH & I saw it on Saturday, and it had been there a *while* before. Ick. I can't understand it, I really can't.
Will ache tomorrow!! I am a bit worried I'll forget how to use the equipment though :blush: and will make sure MP3 has plenty of batteries! What I might do is the 10 mins warm up on treadmill, then my reps, then the 2 x cardio (check me out, sounding like a gym person!), then come home and do 15 mins on bike as a cool down. Maybe. In theory it sounds easy and doable, in practice I could be half dead come Monday evening :lol:
Wednesday, 2 May 2007
Slightly less demoralised
After spending til 3.30 this morning wide awake, thinking constantly....Must have burnt off some calories, cos I am 1lb off where I was 2 weeks ago :crossedfingers: So shockingly, a weight loss week.
Still havent come on since I started this new Pill, but started my last packet of 3 on Monday so will trundle off to Docs for more and have a chat with them. Noticeably harder to lose weight since being on it too and more mood swings. The way I am going, I will have no friends left by July.
Gym induction tomorrow morning, and an afternoon of overtime! I must be crazy lol. Have 45minutes to get back from gym, shower, change, eat and go again!
Sports bra arrived today as well. What a peice of equipment! Belly jiggles more than boobs do :lol: takes me 10 minutes to get in the damned thing.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/LOTS of salad cream), 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, pasta and bolognese sauce, garlic ciabatta, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream, 1 finger Mars delight.
Exercise: 2.5ish mile walk (2 out-of-breath hills), 34 lengths swimming.
Shocked and amazed I am still awake. I fully intended not to go swimming tonight, I was so tired. Wish I had gone a bit earlier though, cos I bet had I not been so adament I was only doing 34 lengths I would have done the whole mile.
I am annoyed its taking me so long to get back to where I was. I know it will come off (it has to, I will actually go crazy if i am still this weight at the end of the month) but...I get so irrationally upset. I can't see it coming off, my scales say it isnt coming off and so does the tape measure. But why am I working so hard for what feels like most of the time, absolutely nothing?
Still havent come on since I started this new Pill, but started my last packet of 3 on Monday so will trundle off to Docs for more and have a chat with them. Noticeably harder to lose weight since being on it too and more mood swings. The way I am going, I will have no friends left by July.
Gym induction tomorrow morning, and an afternoon of overtime! I must be crazy lol. Have 45minutes to get back from gym, shower, change, eat and go again!
Sports bra arrived today as well. What a peice of equipment! Belly jiggles more than boobs do :lol: takes me 10 minutes to get in the damned thing.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/LOTS of salad cream), 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, pasta and bolognese sauce, garlic ciabatta, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream, 1 finger Mars delight.
Exercise: 2.5ish mile walk (2 out-of-breath hills), 34 lengths swimming.
Shocked and amazed I am still awake. I fully intended not to go swimming tonight, I was so tired. Wish I had gone a bit earlier though, cos I bet had I not been so adament I was only doing 34 lengths I would have done the whole mile.
I am annoyed its taking me so long to get back to where I was. I know it will come off (it has to, I will actually go crazy if i am still this weight at the end of the month) but...I get so irrationally upset. I can't see it coming off, my scales say it isnt coming off and so does the tape measure. But why am I working so hard for what feels like most of the time, absolutely nothing?
Tuesday, 1 May 2007
disappointed
Having such a miserable, irritated time at the minute. Everything irritates or upsets me, even when people have been trying to help. I hate it when I text someone a question (which to me is highly important!) and they dont reply until they see me on MSN or the next day etc. OH keeps asking why I am constantly so grumpy. I don't know, I really wish I did.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, 2 smoothies, 2 griddled lamb burgers, huge handful grated mozzerella, lettuce, rocket, tomatoes, 1 red onion, 4 shittake mushrooms, new potatoes with a blob of butter. Stuffed!
Exercise: A pathetic 50 lengths, hence why I am disappointed. It was such hard work too.
Still, am now an official member of the gym.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, 2 smoothies, 2 griddled lamb burgers, huge handful grated mozzerella, lettuce, rocket, tomatoes, 1 red onion, 4 shittake mushrooms, new potatoes with a blob of butter. Stuffed!
Exercise: A pathetic 50 lengths, hence why I am disappointed. It was such hard work too.
Still, am now an official member of the gym.
Monday, 30 April 2007
Unmotivated and Upset
I KNOW that I've eaten shit this weekend, but to have put on 5lbs worth of shit? When I've been walking/bike too? Snot fair, and when I get my repeat prescription for the Pill I'm going to ask about Fat Pills again.
OH's sister in law asked me last night if I'd lost weight. I said no, mainly because it would be round West Yorkshire in about 5 seconds that 'FatBloater is on a diet', people will laugh and then laugh harder when it doesnt come off. I think I was expected to say something about her weight loss (she has slimming world certificates everywhere), but....you can't tell yet. I dont think you can anyway :blush: Does that make me a bitch? Also slightly mollified as she's clearly lost a fair amount to get those certificates, and OH said he couldnt tell any difference either.
Done 30minutes (300calories) on the bike already, had my mp3 player on and played with my phone and just got on with it. The gym is going to be hugely embarrassing, I get so sweaty, so quickly.
Been for a very minimal walk with S & her dogs, to the tennis courts at the park and back. Will convince OH to go to the chevin with me tonight when he finishes work.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light cheese, 1 muller light, 1glace cherry, beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream.
Exercise: 61 minutes on bike (600calories) 50 sit ups, walk round Chevin. Went the 'wrong' way round, so did the 'so big you nearly run down it' hill, but upwards, then went along the bridlepath and then turned left up the next hill (as high as the first hill), back down the way we went up (still with me?!) then back to the car the normal way. So 3 hills in total! Was sweaty & out of breath, so thats good surely.
Went to SCs house to get the dogs with S. It's....I can't even explain it, she doesnt wash - herself or her clothes, she's been wearing the same fleece (m2 gave her it!) since October last year, she neglects her horse, she leaves her dogs in tiny crates all day with no water, we looked in her fridge (we're so awful) and it has some potatoes (?!), out of date sausages, some hard cheese and a mouldy cucumber. She doesnt cook, she just gets take aways. There is mouldy pizza in her bedroom :bluergh: How? I genuinely dont understand how anyone could live like that. I know I was bordering on it when I was with ex, but... I still bathed and my clothes were clean. That poor horse though, she expected to get £10k for her, we told her that was ridiculous, so now she's advertising at £6k. The idea she'll get it is laughable.
Talking of horses....V is being kind of uncommunicative atm. Just dont want her to forget that until she's paid for, she IS still my horse, and I want to come and see her. I don't know, I'm being irritable about almost everything atm. Maybe I'm just over reacting.
Its nice to walk round the chevin, and think of just how lovely it would be to hack round there daily, if only I had a horse. It's harder to remember how much I actually hate hacking and how nervous and uptight I get, and the chevin would just be a minefield. All those joggers and dogs and rustly things in bushes. Its very easy to be a good rider as long as you dont have to be physically within 10foot of a horse :nod:
Have asked a solicitor about divorce, lots of questions about what ex is and isnt entitled to, any future claim he has, if anything, over stuff I do (mortgage) before we get divorced etc.
My sports bra still hasnt turned up, so have ordered another one from a different site. :unsure: Havent got order confirmation from b2g and can't get on their webpage. :wibble: so with this other damned bra costing about a billion pounds, I have spent £70 on bras in last 2 weeks :eek:
OH's sister in law asked me last night if I'd lost weight. I said no, mainly because it would be round West Yorkshire in about 5 seconds that 'FatBloater is on a diet', people will laugh and then laugh harder when it doesnt come off. I think I was expected to say something about her weight loss (she has slimming world certificates everywhere), but....you can't tell yet. I dont think you can anyway :blush: Does that make me a bitch? Also slightly mollified as she's clearly lost a fair amount to get those certificates, and OH said he couldnt tell any difference either.
Done 30minutes (300calories) on the bike already, had my mp3 player on and played with my phone and just got on with it. The gym is going to be hugely embarrassing, I get so sweaty, so quickly.
Been for a very minimal walk with S & her dogs, to the tennis courts at the park and back. Will convince OH to go to the chevin with me tonight when he finishes work.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light cheese, 1 muller light, 1glace cherry, beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, supergold & mint choc chip ice cream.
Exercise: 61 minutes on bike (600calories) 50 sit ups, walk round Chevin. Went the 'wrong' way round, so did the 'so big you nearly run down it' hill, but upwards, then went along the bridlepath and then turned left up the next hill (as high as the first hill), back down the way we went up (still with me?!) then back to the car the normal way. So 3 hills in total! Was sweaty & out of breath, so thats good surely.
Went to SCs house to get the dogs with S. It's....I can't even explain it, she doesnt wash - herself or her clothes, she's been wearing the same fleece (m2 gave her it!) since October last year, she neglects her horse, she leaves her dogs in tiny crates all day with no water, we looked in her fridge (we're so awful) and it has some potatoes (?!), out of date sausages, some hard cheese and a mouldy cucumber. She doesnt cook, she just gets take aways. There is mouldy pizza in her bedroom :bluergh: How? I genuinely dont understand how anyone could live like that. I know I was bordering on it when I was with ex, but... I still bathed and my clothes were clean. That poor horse though, she expected to get £10k for her, we told her that was ridiculous, so now she's advertising at £6k. The idea she'll get it is laughable.
Talking of horses....V is being kind of uncommunicative atm. Just dont want her to forget that until she's paid for, she IS still my horse, and I want to come and see her. I don't know, I'm being irritable about almost everything atm. Maybe I'm just over reacting.
Its nice to walk round the chevin, and think of just how lovely it would be to hack round there daily, if only I had a horse. It's harder to remember how much I actually hate hacking and how nervous and uptight I get, and the chevin would just be a minefield. All those joggers and dogs and rustly things in bushes. Its very easy to be a good rider as long as you dont have to be physically within 10foot of a horse :nod:
Have asked a solicitor about divorce, lots of questions about what ex is and isnt entitled to, any future claim he has, if anything, over stuff I do (mortgage) before we get divorced etc.
My sports bra still hasnt turned up, so have ordered another one from a different site. :unsure: Havent got order confirmation from b2g and can't get on their webpage. :wibble: so with this other damned bra costing about a billion pounds, I have spent £70 on bras in last 2 weeks :eek:
Sunday, 29 April 2007
More Piggery
Walked down to the Farmers Market in the town centre this morning. Bought OH some wild venison haunch, some buffalo burgers, some lamb burgers (I'm thinking BBQ!), some soaps, some Yorkshire Punch, some shitake mushrooms, and sticky toffee pudding which OH announced he wont eat when I got home as it has dates in it :rolleyes: There was a stall selling buffalo burgers (cooked), god they smelt good. Took all of my self restraint not to have one, especially when they did it with mozzerella, onions and mushrooms. Mmmmmmm. I want one. Just as well they've gone home now, otherwise I would talk back and get one!
Walked back, was just hanging washing out and S rang to see if I wanted to take the dogs for a walk with her, so off we went down by the river.
Spent most of the morning putting songs onto my MP3 player, had a great time :blush: :lol: Now trying to convince people to lend me their cds so I can pinch more music :lol:
Seeing the pony next month, can't wait.
I'm very tired today, we were at S' drinking wine till 2am this morning, glad it was just OH who had to work today! Can't really motivate myself to do anything really. Early night tonight....rock n roll.
Food: half bag smarties, 2 rice cakes with 1 laughing cow light cheese triangle, muller light. Tea is roast beef, yorkshire puddings, potatoes, mushrooms, carrots, green beans and gravy with Supergold ice cream for after.
Exercise: Walk round chevin, walk into town and back this morning.
Walked back, was just hanging washing out and S rang to see if I wanted to take the dogs for a walk with her, so off we went down by the river.
Spent most of the morning putting songs onto my MP3 player, had a great time :blush: :lol: Now trying to convince people to lend me their cds so I can pinch more music :lol:
Seeing the pony next month, can't wait.
I'm very tired today, we were at S' drinking wine till 2am this morning, glad it was just OH who had to work today! Can't really motivate myself to do anything really. Early night tonight....rock n roll.
Food: half bag smarties, 2 rice cakes with 1 laughing cow light cheese triangle, muller light. Tea is roast beef, yorkshire puddings, potatoes, mushrooms, carrots, green beans and gravy with Supergold ice cream for after.
Exercise: Walk round chevin, walk into town and back this morning.
Saturday, 28 April 2007
A Fat Pig Day
Where does my diet willpower go on a weekend? Bah. Have had a day off with OH, so went up to Brymors in Masham for ice cream :wub: and we decided we were going to get our wedding cake made there :lol: Drove through the Dales on the way home....Lovely, although a bit hair raising in places!
Having a lovely nerdy day going through all my songs to find ones I want on my mp3 player for the gym-going. Lots of chavvy songs (Bob Sinclar :lol: ) some fun ones to make me smile half way through (B*witched!) and then some of my songs.
Food: 1 ham & mushroom omelette with salad and coleslaw, 1 glass full cream dairy milk, 1 bag smarties, 1 waffle double cone with 2 scoops ice cream, 1 sausage roll, pizza and garlic bread, 1 bottle pink wine.
Exercise: 40 minutes on bike (400calories) walk round chevin.
Had my photo taken for my gym card today :blush: they're AWFUL. And I'm stuck with them for a year. Bah.
Having a lovely nerdy day going through all my songs to find ones I want on my mp3 player for the gym-going. Lots of chavvy songs (Bob Sinclar :lol: ) some fun ones to make me smile half way through (B*witched!) and then some of my songs.
Food: 1 ham & mushroom omelette with salad and coleslaw, 1 glass full cream dairy milk, 1 bag smarties, 1 waffle double cone with 2 scoops ice cream, 1 sausage roll, pizza and garlic bread, 1 bottle pink wine.
Exercise: 40 minutes on bike (400calories) walk round chevin.
Had my photo taken for my gym card today :blush: they're AWFUL. And I'm stuck with them for a year. Bah.
Friday, 27 April 2007
Gaaaah
Must not let myself get stressed by idiotic customers. Was really upset though today by one woman who was lovely in the shop, I checked she wanted junior food and not adult or puppy, she definately wanted junior, but then this afternoon rang back (I answered) and accused me of not doing my job properly cos she'd taken the wrong thing, and then told me I was a liar. Admittedly, I didn't handle it that well, but was close to tears for the rest of the afternoon.
Still no review, but yes to a payrise *dances* a whole 3%. So that should make up what the extra tax has taken from my old wage.
My mp3 player arrived today so suspect will spend most of tomorrow playing with it :lol: It's TINY, about quarter the size of my phone, which is hardly brick-size.
AND!!!! We've found a puppy!! Sadly it won't be born till next year, but need to think of a champagne-related name. Grandma is called Bollinger and Mummy is Tattinger! But Corinna isn't breeding Tat till next year, so will have to be patient. Bah. Anyway, plenty of time to save!! Also, just ready to come live in chaos with builders, pah.
Food: 4 fingers minty kitkat (must instruct Danny to eat them all, I have no self control), salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, a couple of forkfuls of super noodles (mmm, I like super noodles!!), pork casserole with yorkshire pudding, apple sauce and gravy again, a mini magnum, milk chocolate in a strawberry truffle and half a bottle of wine. Oh well, the wagon can be hitched back up tomorrow. I dont care.... That customer I said about at the top REALLY upset me.
Exercise: 2 mile walk round Chevin, 100 sit ups.
Still no review, but yes to a payrise *dances* a whole 3%. So that should make up what the extra tax has taken from my old wage.
My mp3 player arrived today so suspect will spend most of tomorrow playing with it :lol: It's TINY, about quarter the size of my phone, which is hardly brick-size.
AND!!!! We've found a puppy!! Sadly it won't be born till next year, but need to think of a champagne-related name. Grandma is called Bollinger and Mummy is Tattinger! But Corinna isn't breeding Tat till next year, so will have to be patient. Bah. Anyway, plenty of time to save!! Also, just ready to come live in chaos with builders, pah.
Food: 4 fingers minty kitkat (must instruct Danny to eat them all, I have no self control), salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, a couple of forkfuls of super noodles (mmm, I like super noodles!!), pork casserole with yorkshire pudding, apple sauce and gravy again, a mini magnum, milk chocolate in a strawberry truffle and half a bottle of wine. Oh well, the wagon can be hitched back up tomorrow. I dont care.... That customer I said about at the top REALLY upset me.
Exercise: 2 mile walk round Chevin, 100 sit ups.
Thursday, 26 April 2007
Eeeeeek
Have just booked induction at gym - 10.30am next Thursday! Must be crazy :lol: Will take about an hour, need to wear trainers (and sports bra :lol: ), my gym membership form, 2 photographs and the money (cash!) for first months payment.
AND....I got home to an email from Amazon to say my mp3 player had been dispatched - fab!
Exercise: 2 mile walk on chevin
Food: 1 banana, 2 fingers minty kitkat, porridge, muller light, pork stew, big yorkshire pudding and a pastry custardy thing, 1 caramel sweet.
AND!!!! I might have found a puppy :ph34r: advert says: well bred pedigree labrador puppies for sale. Father is a working field champion and mother comes from a line of field champions. Dogs and bitches, black and golden- ready at 7 weeks. Good homes only.
Means they're ready end of May... Just need to show OH the advert... (showed OH the advert, pups are from Harehills. Being total snobs and suspect pups wont be what we want. so search goes ever onwards)
AND....I got home to an email from Amazon to say my mp3 player had been dispatched - fab!
Exercise: 2 mile walk on chevin
Food: 1 banana, 2 fingers minty kitkat, porridge, muller light, pork stew, big yorkshire pudding and a pastry custardy thing, 1 caramel sweet.
AND!!!! I might have found a puppy :ph34r: advert says: well bred pedigree labrador puppies for sale. Father is a working field champion and mother comes from a line of field champions. Dogs and bitches, black and golden- ready at 7 weeks. Good homes only.
Means they're ready end of May... Just need to show OH the advert... (showed OH the advert, pups are from Harehills. Being total snobs and suspect pups wont be what we want. so search goes ever onwards)
Wednesday, 25 April 2007
Weigh Day
A loss! Not much admittedly, and am still more than I was this time last month, but...it's back on the downwards trend again - huzzah!
We're babysitting for OHs sister tonight, so no swimming, but hopefully going to go tomorrow morning instead. We're WERE going to walk there too - its a mile and all flat, but hey, it was still going to be a walk. I've actually missed going on the chevin the last couple days, I guess thats a good thing! Unfortunately we ran a bit late.... So HAD to go in car.
Food: salad (ham, mozerella, salad cream), muller light, 1 mint KitKat (2 fingers), 1 easter egg, bolognese sauce and pasta, garlic bread.
Measured myself again this morning. There is a (significant!) change in my thighs, even though you can't tell :(, but waist and hips have put on. Minimal amounts, but still, it is a gain. So clearly the biking and walking is working for the pins, but hips? waist? I really thought swimming would help there.
I've had 5 hours sleep, so I am going to be the grumpiest bitch EVER today. Not looking forwards to work, M2 (SC day off), the builders and customers.
I WANT to go to the gym, I just dont want people seeing me sweaty, out of breath and struggling.
Exercise: 100 sit ups
We're babysitting for OHs sister tonight, so no swimming, but hopefully going to go tomorrow morning instead. We're WERE going to walk there too - its a mile and all flat, but hey, it was still going to be a walk. I've actually missed going on the chevin the last couple days, I guess thats a good thing! Unfortunately we ran a bit late.... So HAD to go in car.
Food: salad (ham, mozerella, salad cream), muller light, 1 mint KitKat (2 fingers), 1 easter egg, bolognese sauce and pasta, garlic bread.
Measured myself again this morning. There is a (significant!) change in my thighs, even though you can't tell :(, but waist and hips have put on. Minimal amounts, but still, it is a gain. So clearly the biking and walking is working for the pins, but hips? waist? I really thought swimming would help there.
I've had 5 hours sleep, so I am going to be the grumpiest bitch EVER today. Not looking forwards to work, M2 (SC day off), the builders and customers.
I WANT to go to the gym, I just dont want people seeing me sweaty, out of breath and struggling.
Exercise: 100 sit ups
Tuesday, 24 April 2007
Spoiltus Brattus
What a horrid day. Building work started in earnest as they got the rest of the wooden 'sheeting' up around where they're knocking the wall down, and drilling and Big Loud Noises abounds ALL FUCKING AFTERNOON. I have a cracking headache now. Made 100% worse by not being able to hear a damned thing, people being too stupid or ignorant to take heed of 'please look at me while you talk', or just plain complaining about the fact there was noise/things had moved/being generally irritating, such as asking me where to get Lion poo from. Gah. She looked at me gone out when I suggested the zoo.
Then, a man in a suit came in, and announced that the wall which we're having knocked down is a supporting wall and the whole place will fall in. Joy! So we have to have a supporting beam apparently, but needs to be dug down to the foundations, which are 6ft deep.
SC is still following M2 around like a sheep. It is very irritating now. Especially as I suspect he and his wife (oh, yes, he is married and has a young son, and she is getting married next year. As if!) are having major difficulties and she (SC) is Not Helping. Work would be unbearable if those 2 got together.
Food: Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) 1 muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 laughing cow light triangle divided between them, 2 squares shortbread, pizza, garlic bread.
Exercise: 100 situps, 50 lengths swimming. Very busy in the pool tonight.
This losing weight better be damned well worth it...I am constantly tired, snappy and miserable.
Then, a man in a suit came in, and announced that the wall which we're having knocked down is a supporting wall and the whole place will fall in. Joy! So we have to have a supporting beam apparently, but needs to be dug down to the foundations, which are 6ft deep.
SC is still following M2 around like a sheep. It is very irritating now. Especially as I suspect he and his wife (oh, yes, he is married and has a young son, and she is getting married next year. As if!) are having major difficulties and she (SC) is Not Helping. Work would be unbearable if those 2 got together.
Food: Salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) 1 muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 laughing cow light triangle divided between them, 2 squares shortbread, pizza, garlic bread.
Exercise: 100 situps, 50 lengths swimming. Very busy in the pool tonight.
This losing weight better be damned well worth it...I am constantly tired, snappy and miserable.
Monday, 23 April 2007
Big Sigh
What an odd day.
Did NOT want to get up this morning, ached everywhere after 3 mammoth walks :lol: Got up, got to work and remembered the builders were meant to be knocking the main wall down today, so had 4 shelves and a set of racking to clear and find space for. Found space on a rickety old table and was promptly told they needed the table moving too. Moaning customers, plain irritating customers, stupid customers... I had them all today, I did NOT feel customer orientated by the end of the day, especially when one particular customer refused to take any advice whatsoever, wanted the world ordering in for her, then complained about the price.
SC and her 'thing' with M2 is REALLY pissing me off now. If we lose M2, we just need to listen for SCs girly laugh and we'll find him :rolleyes: She smells bad as well, its getting horrid, but I dont know how or what to say to her.
Went on another huge walk this evening after work - walked from the carpark, to almost the top of Leeds Road, then back down to re join the path where we normally turn up the hill, and then carried on with our walk as normal. Reckon it must have been about 3miles this time and some hills. My bottom and legs ache tremendously now though :lol: Will be glad of swimming tomorrow for the rest (ha!). Going to ask as well if I can book an induction for the gym, and join up for the bodyline card.
Food: 1 salad (ham/salad cream/mozzerella), 1 smoothie, 5 squares of short bread, 4 squares of Lindt chocolate caramel, 1 lamb casserole with half a bread flute.
Exercise: 3 mile hilly walk, 60 sit ups
This gym lark is costing me a fortune already... Have just bought a Creative Zen 1GB MP3 player, using the vouchers mum got me for my birthday, and a sports bra, using my, ummm, credit card.
My legs ACHE. This walking must be doing something... Either that or I am going to have the biggest muscles in the UNIVERSE and thats why I'm not losing size. Have changed thinking about starting the gym this Thursday coming to next Thursday. That way my bra has time to turn up and I can get passport photos etc done for the card. Half looking forward to it, half dreading it. I know I will be elated the first time I walk out of the gym, having done a 'workout', but its whether I can do it, on my own, without finding an easier (and therefore, wrong) way of doing it, or just having a tantrum and throwing the towel in.
Was semi considering a second job to increase my money a bit, but.... I want to go to gym Monday and Thursday evenings, so those are out, I swim Tuesday and Wednesday evenings, so they're out. Sunday we go to OHs parents, can't work then, so that just leaves Friday and Saturday night, and despite the fact I never go out and I never do anything....I dont want to give them up. So it looks like thats a non-starter :lol:
Did NOT want to get up this morning, ached everywhere after 3 mammoth walks :lol: Got up, got to work and remembered the builders were meant to be knocking the main wall down today, so had 4 shelves and a set of racking to clear and find space for. Found space on a rickety old table and was promptly told they needed the table moving too. Moaning customers, plain irritating customers, stupid customers... I had them all today, I did NOT feel customer orientated by the end of the day, especially when one particular customer refused to take any advice whatsoever, wanted the world ordering in for her, then complained about the price.
SC and her 'thing' with M2 is REALLY pissing me off now. If we lose M2, we just need to listen for SCs girly laugh and we'll find him :rolleyes: She smells bad as well, its getting horrid, but I dont know how or what to say to her.
Went on another huge walk this evening after work - walked from the carpark, to almost the top of Leeds Road, then back down to re join the path where we normally turn up the hill, and then carried on with our walk as normal. Reckon it must have been about 3miles this time and some hills. My bottom and legs ache tremendously now though :lol: Will be glad of swimming tomorrow for the rest (ha!). Going to ask as well if I can book an induction for the gym, and join up for the bodyline card.
Food: 1 salad (ham/salad cream/mozzerella), 1 smoothie, 5 squares of short bread, 4 squares of Lindt chocolate caramel, 1 lamb casserole with half a bread flute.
Exercise: 3 mile hilly walk, 60 sit ups
This gym lark is costing me a fortune already... Have just bought a Creative Zen 1GB MP3 player, using the vouchers mum got me for my birthday, and a sports bra, using my, ummm, credit card.
My legs ACHE. This walking must be doing something... Either that or I am going to have the biggest muscles in the UNIVERSE and thats why I'm not losing size. Have changed thinking about starting the gym this Thursday coming to next Thursday. That way my bra has time to turn up and I can get passport photos etc done for the card. Half looking forward to it, half dreading it. I know I will be elated the first time I walk out of the gym, having done a 'workout', but its whether I can do it, on my own, without finding an easier (and therefore, wrong) way of doing it, or just having a tantrum and throwing the towel in.
Was semi considering a second job to increase my money a bit, but.... I want to go to gym Monday and Thursday evenings, so those are out, I swim Tuesday and Wednesday evenings, so they're out. Sunday we go to OHs parents, can't work then, so that just leaves Friday and Saturday night, and despite the fact I never go out and I never do anything....I dont want to give them up. So it looks like thats a non-starter :lol:
Sunday, 22 April 2007
I think that is a decision made....
I picked up a gym membership form from the pool today...If I've read it right, then it means that if I join, I have to pay £30 a month, but get to use everything (bar the classes) for free - including swimming. So it would be cheaper to get the card and even not use the gym.
I do think I need to join, it's just a/ getting over the fact boys will see me and b/ going on my own. But I COULD go on a Thursday, which leaves OH to have his night with K. And I'm not over impressed with the idea of some little tiny gym bunny knowing how much I weigh. And I didnt want to go swimming on my own, but I have.
Hmmm, this gym lark could end up costing a small fortune. I need new jogging bottoms (well, jogging bottoms, let alone new ones), a gym-only top, a sports bra, an MP3 player....
Been busybusy this morning, even cooking! Baked some short bread when I got home....It couldnt be described as a COMPLETE success... but it's edible.
Food: shortbread!! lots of it as well :(, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), smoothie, muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light. Roast lamb for tea, with green beans, carrots, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, gravy and mint sauce.
Exercise: 1 mile swimming, 2 mile brisk walk (same as with OH, just on my own and it would appear I walk quicker on my own :lol: )
And at 8.30pm, we have the crash...
WHY after 2 stone is there no SIZE loss??? What more can I do? Four nights a week I will be exercising at the gym/swimming, 2 nights I will be walking... what more can I do?
My next target is to have lost another stone by June.
I do think I need to join, it's just a/ getting over the fact boys will see me and b/ going on my own. But I COULD go on a Thursday, which leaves OH to have his night with K. And I'm not over impressed with the idea of some little tiny gym bunny knowing how much I weigh. And I didnt want to go swimming on my own, but I have.
Hmmm, this gym lark could end up costing a small fortune. I need new jogging bottoms (well, jogging bottoms, let alone new ones), a gym-only top, a sports bra, an MP3 player....
Been busybusy this morning, even cooking! Baked some short bread when I got home....It couldnt be described as a COMPLETE success... but it's edible.
Food: shortbread!! lots of it as well :(, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), smoothie, muller light, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle laughing cow light. Roast lamb for tea, with green beans, carrots, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, gravy and mint sauce.
Exercise: 1 mile swimming, 2 mile brisk walk (same as with OH, just on my own and it would appear I walk quicker on my own :lol: )
And at 8.30pm, we have the crash...
WHY after 2 stone is there no SIZE loss??? What more can I do? Four nights a week I will be exercising at the gym/swimming, 2 nights I will be walking... what more can I do?
My next target is to have lost another stone by June.
Saturday, 21 April 2007
Achey Breaky Legs
My legs ache after yesterdays walk!! And we're off to do it again in a bit. Work not too bad, was in a foul mood again at the beginning. Wish I knew why.
Toying with the idea of joining a gym...It would mean that I KNEW I was targetting the right areas and doing it properly. It's £30 a month though and it's £30 I dont have.
Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) I worked it out that it was a HUGE box and still under 200calories, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, half a dime bar, 1 stick of Kinder Bueno, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle of Laughing Cow Light, limey chicken, pilau rice, apple pie, clotted cream
Exercise: 1 big long walk round the Chevin (OH reckons about 2miles), 60 sit ups, 6 minutes rowing (250 reps)
Really am undecided about joining a gym. Part of me thinks it would be a good thing, the other says it will last as long as the bike. BUT....if I have someone showing me how and where to target to lose weight from where I want to...well, there's my motivation. BUT...its £30 I dont have.
In a funny mood again. I dont know why and I dont like it.
calorie counter site...useful
So much for biking 40minutes a night still. Swimming tomorrow. According to site above, that should burn about 500calories, assuming we swim a mile.
Toying with the idea of joining a gym...It would mean that I KNEW I was targetting the right areas and doing it properly. It's £30 a month though and it's £30 I dont have.
Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) I worked it out that it was a HUGE box and still under 200calories, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light, half a dime bar, 1 stick of Kinder Bueno, 2 rice cakes with 1 triangle of Laughing Cow Light, limey chicken, pilau rice, apple pie, clotted cream
Exercise: 1 big long walk round the Chevin (OH reckons about 2miles), 60 sit ups, 6 minutes rowing (250 reps)
Really am undecided about joining a gym. Part of me thinks it would be a good thing, the other says it will last as long as the bike. BUT....if I have someone showing me how and where to target to lose weight from where I want to...well, there's my motivation. BUT...its £30 I dont have.
In a funny mood again. I dont know why and I dont like it.
calorie counter site...useful
So much for biking 40minutes a night still. Swimming tomorrow. According to site above, that should burn about 500calories, assuming we swim a mile.
Friday, 20 April 2007
Another Tantrum
I have no idea whats up with me.... I am still having the most stupid irrational mood swings.
I'm still not entirely enthralled with the idea of these reviews....Apparently they're going to be next Friday now. Great - another week of waking up after dreaming about it. OH is coaching me through what I should say, but the way he puts it isn't what I want to say. He wants me to try and put a positive spin on things, which I can understand why, but....Whats positive about not having enough money to live (if I wasnt in the fortunate position of no rent/mortgage), feeling undervalued and taken for a bit of a fool?
I was REALLY looking forward to doing overtime on Sunday as its so rare I actually get any....N gets offered it first, then LovelyM, then the rest of the shop staff, then any of the three managers, as they can take a day off in lieu instead of being paid, and then, and only then, if none of them want it, am I offered it. It doesnt exactly make me want to help them out of tight situations, which I know is the wrong attitude, but...Oh, I dont know.
Then on top of that, the weight tantrum has kicked in. I am sick sick sick of being on that bastard bike. But I have semi made (another) decision.... I should just do 40 minutes EVERY DAY, whether I've been for a big long walk, or swimming, or whatever. 40 minutes is fairly do able.... Then I will be more inclined to do rowing/situps as well, which I havent done since my birthday.
Am also semi considering joining FatFighters and a gym, but its more money I don't have... I dont know :(
V&M moved to Milton Keynes today. Hope this one works out better for her. Last place was crazy :(
Food: 1 chocolate muffin, lots of minimini chocolate rolls, lots of minimini flapjacks, 1 pork & apple sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 strawberry bun, pasta, cheese sause and sausages, garlic bread, apple pie, clotted cream.
Exercise: Big walk around Chevin - we were out about an hour and included lots of hills. Legs ache now! Also 10minutes on bike.
All these bad things. I know I shouldnt have them, yet I can't say no :(
I'm still not entirely enthralled with the idea of these reviews....Apparently they're going to be next Friday now. Great - another week of waking up after dreaming about it. OH is coaching me through what I should say, but the way he puts it isn't what I want to say. He wants me to try and put a positive spin on things, which I can understand why, but....Whats positive about not having enough money to live (if I wasnt in the fortunate position of no rent/mortgage), feeling undervalued and taken for a bit of a fool?
I was REALLY looking forward to doing overtime on Sunday as its so rare I actually get any....N gets offered it first, then LovelyM, then the rest of the shop staff, then any of the three managers, as they can take a day off in lieu instead of being paid, and then, and only then, if none of them want it, am I offered it. It doesnt exactly make me want to help them out of tight situations, which I know is the wrong attitude, but...Oh, I dont know.
Then on top of that, the weight tantrum has kicked in. I am sick sick sick of being on that bastard bike. But I have semi made (another) decision.... I should just do 40 minutes EVERY DAY, whether I've been for a big long walk, or swimming, or whatever. 40 minutes is fairly do able.... Then I will be more inclined to do rowing/situps as well, which I havent done since my birthday.
Am also semi considering joining FatFighters and a gym, but its more money I don't have... I dont know :(
V&M moved to Milton Keynes today. Hope this one works out better for her. Last place was crazy :(
Food: 1 chocolate muffin, lots of minimini chocolate rolls, lots of minimini flapjacks, 1 pork & apple sandwich, 1 smoothie, 1 strawberry bun, pasta, cheese sause and sausages, garlic bread, apple pie, clotted cream.
Exercise: Big walk around Chevin - we were out about an hour and included lots of hills. Legs ache now! Also 10minutes on bike.
All these bad things. I know I shouldnt have them, yet I can't say no :(
Thursday, 19 April 2007
Looks like today could be busy
Have just done 20mins on bike and DWSarah has just rung to cancel our Tuesday night swimming forever ( :rolleyes: ). She's going to Weight Watchers with a friend on a Tuesday and I'm half tempted to get her to go for a couple of sessions and maybe join her IF I can still swim - the pool is open till 8.45pm so SHOULD do it? I am also off out on a walk with her in a bit... No idea where though. AND!!! The other thing she wanted to tell me was she's heard of some Lab puppies which should be ready to leave their mum at the end of June time! Says they're absolutely cracking puppies. Have just rung OH to tell him and he's said to get the number and we can possibly go and see them over the weekend!
Off to do some more cycling before I have to go meet her.
(10.40am = 1hr on bike = 610calories)
What a day!! It's now 8.50pm and I have walked (with Sarah) 9 dogs and played with a puppy twice. Then gone clothes, shoes and bag shopping with her, then had a panic when she realised she'd left her house keys and the dogs house keys in a shop 10 miles away which shut in 5 minutes! Major panics till her friend ( :hail : Karen) rushed to shop and got them for her and S came round here and got changed & ready here.
Means I've only just finished my calories on the bike (1016c) but still its done. And 2 walks. And one was up a big hill which we climbed halfway up, then realised we'd lost a bloody dog, so walked back down, then he overtook us from the way we'd just come - typical - so we walked back up again.
Very tired and in dire need of a bath!!
Food: 1 chocolate muffin, 1 double caramel magnum ice cream, 1 packet of Snack bars (bought by S as a thank you!) spaghetti bolognese and home made garlic bread.
Off to do some more cycling before I have to go meet her.
(10.40am = 1hr on bike = 610calories)
What a day!! It's now 8.50pm and I have walked (with Sarah) 9 dogs and played with a puppy twice. Then gone clothes, shoes and bag shopping with her, then had a panic when she realised she'd left her house keys and the dogs house keys in a shop 10 miles away which shut in 5 minutes! Major panics till her friend ( :hail : Karen) rushed to shop and got them for her and S came round here and got changed & ready here.
Means I've only just finished my calories on the bike (1016c) but still its done. And 2 walks. And one was up a big hill which we climbed halfway up, then realised we'd lost a bloody dog, so walked back down, then he overtook us from the way we'd just come - typical - so we walked back up again.
Very tired and in dire need of a bath!!
Food: 1 chocolate muffin, 1 double caramel magnum ice cream, 1 packet of Snack bars (bought by S as a thank you!) spaghetti bolognese and home made garlic bread.
Wednesday, 18 April 2007
Sleeeepy
Can't decide if I'm upset re the extra weight as in how quickly it's gone back on, or not *that* bothered cos I know it WILL come back off again. Positive thinking :nod:
Well, I say that, but I am sat here, having just eaten a slice of toast & chocolate spread and half an easter egg.
I think I have almost made my final decision about ponies...I dont think I do want another one. And if V's circumstances changed and she couldnt have M after all, I think I would sell her anyway. I need the money to go towards the house etc, and I enjoy the fact I can come straight home and DO things, rather than rush from work, rush round the yard, rush home.... I'm not ruling out lessons, but I am never going to be a Good Rider, my nervousness will always hold me back - how many issues did I give M by thinking 'Eeek, C would have had a FIT at that...' or 'C would have carted me home here...' and made her do it? I still cant quite bring myself though to put her Clarendons or her Thermatex up for sale. Or her headcollar. But still, never say never.
Horses just dont really fit into the way I IMAGINE my life to pan out though... When we finish the extension, and have a puppy...I need to be divorced (more money) then I would like to marry OH (MORE money....can't imagine parents shelling out for a second wedding) and then...kids on the horizon I guess. I want kids, but this last 2 weeks of 'am I, arent I', has convinced me that I'm not ready yet. We need the extension doing first and I want to be divorced, and I cant even put that in motion till January next year. The only thing is....I dont want to constantly be saving up for the next part of my life. OH and I already behave like an old married couple, and while I usually enjoy it, I miss 'dating', especially as due to circumstances, we couldnt do that. So once a month, we're going to try and do something, whether that be going out to the cinema, going for a meal or whatever. Or even just hire a DVD and have a bottle of wine and cook ourselves something special....
Food for the day: 1 slice toast & chocolate spread, half an easter egg, 3 chocolate muffins, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, roast chicken with mashed potatoes, carrots, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & cranberry sauce.
Exercise: 40 lengths at the pool and a quick walk along the top of the Chevin after tea.
I'm definately getting old....Today *I* baked muffins. Admittedly, the baking of was a bit of a disaster - I got more muffin mix round the kitchen than I did in the bowl, and I ate half the mix... And also, next time I make them, I must remember to half the recipe - I assumed it would make 6 - it made 11..probably would have been 12 had I not eaten all that mix! Just as well they are yummy. Now I am going to get the veg ready for tea and do the pudding mix. Check me out!
Well, I say that, but I am sat here, having just eaten a slice of toast & chocolate spread and half an easter egg.
I think I have almost made my final decision about ponies...I dont think I do want another one. And if V's circumstances changed and she couldnt have M after all, I think I would sell her anyway. I need the money to go towards the house etc, and I enjoy the fact I can come straight home and DO things, rather than rush from work, rush round the yard, rush home.... I'm not ruling out lessons, but I am never going to be a Good Rider, my nervousness will always hold me back - how many issues did I give M by thinking 'Eeek, C would have had a FIT at that...' or 'C would have carted me home here...' and made her do it? I still cant quite bring myself though to put her Clarendons or her Thermatex up for sale. Or her headcollar. But still, never say never.
Horses just dont really fit into the way I IMAGINE my life to pan out though... When we finish the extension, and have a puppy...I need to be divorced (more money) then I would like to marry OH (MORE money....can't imagine parents shelling out for a second wedding) and then...kids on the horizon I guess. I want kids, but this last 2 weeks of 'am I, arent I', has convinced me that I'm not ready yet. We need the extension doing first and I want to be divorced, and I cant even put that in motion till January next year. The only thing is....I dont want to constantly be saving up for the next part of my life. OH and I already behave like an old married couple, and while I usually enjoy it, I miss 'dating', especially as due to circumstances, we couldnt do that. So once a month, we're going to try and do something, whether that be going out to the cinema, going for a meal or whatever. Or even just hire a DVD and have a bottle of wine and cook ourselves something special....
Food for the day: 1 slice toast & chocolate spread, half an easter egg, 3 chocolate muffins, 2 ham & pie d'angloys sandwiches, roast chicken with mashed potatoes, carrots, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & cranberry sauce.
Exercise: 40 lengths at the pool and a quick walk along the top of the Chevin after tea.
I'm definately getting old....Today *I* baked muffins. Admittedly, the baking of was a bit of a disaster - I got more muffin mix round the kitchen than I did in the bowl, and I ate half the mix... And also, next time I make them, I must remember to half the recipe - I assumed it would make 6 - it made 11..probably would have been 12 had I not eaten all that mix! Just as well they are yummy. Now I am going to get the veg ready for tea and do the pudding mix. Check me out!
Tuesday, 17 April 2007
Last Lazy Day
Before I hitch the wagon back up.
Well, I say lazy, OH and I went and walked up the crag earlier and looked out over the white horse, Emly moor and ferrybridge power station...Then went for a half hour walk with OHs mum round the fields. So while not biking for 10 hours and sit ups, its more than I've done recently!
Writing thank you letters for my birthday presents - havent done that in years! Makes me feel about 6, but do need doing. I've left it too late to ring up :blush:
We went to see the people who live nextdoor-but-one....THey've had done what we're planning to do to the house. I'm not sure I like it. I also think our house is longer than theirs, which is no bad thing :lol: BUT I didnt realise (think?) about how much of the garden it would take up. Puppy & minimal garden....doable? Hmmm.
It's also been quite shocking to me just how much I've come to rely on writing down what I eat on a day... I would be MORTIFIED if I had to write down what I've had today. So that helps a lot in making me not eat so much. Am also considering buying that Paul McKenna book....I dont know,I can't decide if it's a waste of money or not.
On a money saving front, I have bought myself a piggybank :wub: and am putting all my loose change I have at the end of the week in it. Partly to save up for a Radley bag & purse, and maybe Burghley trip, but also for Nice Things for the new house. And random things I want off tinternet instead of using my credit card....
Well, I say lazy, OH and I went and walked up the crag earlier and looked out over the white horse, Emly moor and ferrybridge power station...Then went for a half hour walk with OHs mum round the fields. So while not biking for 10 hours and sit ups, its more than I've done recently!
Writing thank you letters for my birthday presents - havent done that in years! Makes me feel about 6, but do need doing. I've left it too late to ring up :blush:
We went to see the people who live nextdoor-but-one....THey've had done what we're planning to do to the house. I'm not sure I like it. I also think our house is longer than theirs, which is no bad thing :lol: BUT I didnt realise (think?) about how much of the garden it would take up. Puppy & minimal garden....doable? Hmmm.
It's also been quite shocking to me just how much I've come to rely on writing down what I eat on a day... I would be MORTIFIED if I had to write down what I've had today. So that helps a lot in making me not eat so much. Am also considering buying that Paul McKenna book....I dont know,I can't decide if it's a waste of money or not.
On a money saving front, I have bought myself a piggybank :wub: and am putting all my loose change I have at the end of the week in it. Partly to save up for a Radley bag & purse, and maybe Burghley trip, but also for Nice Things for the new house. And random things I want off tinternet instead of using my credit card....
Monday, 16 April 2007
Half a stone :eek:
But tbh, although I am :eek: at how quickly its gone back on, I am also quietly relieived thats all that went on. I have eaten out Wednesday evening, Friday evening, Saturday twice, then sunday lunch time AND had easter eggs and birthday cake.... No exercise. We're having duck tonight - its either going to be a total success or a complete disaster...we're having to substitute some ingredients :S
Did some gardening today :eek: its official, I am nearly 30!! And also a pregnancy test as am now almost 2 weeks late. Was negative. Thankfully.
Did some gardening today :eek: its official, I am nearly 30!! And also a pregnancy test as am now almost 2 weeks late. Was negative. Thankfully.
Sunday, 15 April 2007
The Three Day Rule
I read somewhere once that the longest a family can stay together is 3 days before they start to get fidgetty and pernickity with each other. We're now on the third day and I was ready to shovel my poor parents back to the hotel at 4pm.
We've (me, OH AND the kitten) have all been thoroughly spoilt - I have had loads of new books, some shoes, lots of meals bought and some frippery things....OH has had plants, seeds and all sorts bought and the kitten has had 4 toys.
Spent the day in Harrogate yesterday and also went to Harlow Carr, then went back to HC today cos mum wanted a walking stick - her walking is getting ever so bad.
My parents also met OHs parents....went well. Well, seemed to anyway.
Have eaten so much this weekend - havent dared get on the scales and have done NO exercise!! Will start again on Wednesday!
We've (me, OH AND the kitten) have all been thoroughly spoilt - I have had loads of new books, some shoes, lots of meals bought and some frippery things....OH has had plants, seeds and all sorts bought and the kitten has had 4 toys.
Spent the day in Harrogate yesterday and also went to Harlow Carr, then went back to HC today cos mum wanted a walking stick - her walking is getting ever so bad.
My parents also met OHs parents....went well. Well, seemed to anyway.
Have eaten so much this weekend - havent dared get on the scales and have done NO exercise!! Will start again on Wednesday!
Wednesday, 11 April 2007
Tuesday, 10 April 2007
Back on the bike
It's easier when I have a day off. Having to do 20mins at a time again cos otherwise I snuffle and snort and sweat and can't breathe. Having said that at 10.25 have still only done 20mins :lol:
Birthday tomorrow and havent made my target which is a bit of an arse. I have just measured myself though and I HAVE lost weight :thud: Only an inch or so, but still. At last there's also a size loss. Taken long enough!!
Another big work meeting tonight - hopefully I will get advance warning of whats happening....I just hope to God I don't get sacked on my birthday :rolleyes:
Humm. Back on the bike :lol:
Finished biking! 100mins, 1032calories.
Food: salad (ham,mozzerella,mayonaise) plus some extra ham and mozzerella :lol: and a muller light and a smoothie. 1 Twix top. Tea was 2 helpings of some kind of sausagey soupy stewy thing with garlic bread, then an apple tart with cream & 4 chocolate fudges.
SC broken her finger lunging her crazy horse. So they called M in, all the way from Halifax, took him hours as he had to come on the bus. They could have just asked me, I could have been there in 5 minutes. I could really have done with the extra money or the time off.
So, it looks like just me & SB tomorrow. Have told OH that if this is the case then I will take a day off unpaid. Childish, yes, but I am not having my birthday ruined by him.
Update after meeting: No job changes. Looking for a new job somewhere else.
Birthday tomorrow and havent made my target which is a bit of an arse. I have just measured myself though and I HAVE lost weight :thud: Only an inch or so, but still. At last there's also a size loss. Taken long enough!!
Another big work meeting tonight - hopefully I will get advance warning of whats happening....I just hope to God I don't get sacked on my birthday :rolleyes:
Humm. Back on the bike :lol:
Finished biking! 100mins, 1032calories.
Food: salad (ham,mozzerella,mayonaise) plus some extra ham and mozzerella :lol: and a muller light and a smoothie. 1 Twix top. Tea was 2 helpings of some kind of sausagey soupy stewy thing with garlic bread, then an apple tart with cream & 4 chocolate fudges.
SC broken her finger lunging her crazy horse. So they called M in, all the way from Halifax, took him hours as he had to come on the bus. They could have just asked me, I could have been there in 5 minutes. I could really have done with the extra money or the time off.
So, it looks like just me & SB tomorrow. Have told OH that if this is the case then I will take a day off unpaid. Childish, yes, but I am not having my birthday ruined by him.
Update after meeting: No job changes. Looking for a new job somewhere else.
Monday, 9 April 2007
Urrrrggggghhhhhh
Still no sign :S
Am all bunged up, barely breathe at times, throat hurts, nose is bright red....I hate colds and I'm sick and tired of having them.
Doubt I'll go on the bike tonight either, just feel so mank. Even OH has it this time, which is unusual.
Didn't help we were woken up at 4.30am by the cat stealing a bag of bread off the kitchen side and hiding it under our bed. Little bugger.
Food: - a BAD day! 1 kinder bueno, 3 BLT sandwiches, 1 packet tangy cheese doritoes, chocolate, tea is sausages, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & mint sauce plus mini eggs.
No exercise. Can't be bothered and I can't breathe when I do.
Been reading the side effects for my pill - remind me why I am on it...:
common side effects: acne, breast pain, headache, mood changes, nausea, decreased libido and weight increase. You may also not have any bleeding at all.
So that hopefully explains why I am 5 days late...
Am all bunged up, barely breathe at times, throat hurts, nose is bright red....I hate colds and I'm sick and tired of having them.
Doubt I'll go on the bike tonight either, just feel so mank. Even OH has it this time, which is unusual.
Didn't help we were woken up at 4.30am by the cat stealing a bag of bread off the kitchen side and hiding it under our bed. Little bugger.
Food: - a BAD day! 1 kinder bueno, 3 BLT sandwiches, 1 packet tangy cheese doritoes, chocolate, tea is sausages, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, peas, gravy & mint sauce plus mini eggs.
No exercise. Can't be bothered and I can't breathe when I do.
Been reading the side effects for my pill - remind me why I am on it...:
common side effects: acne, breast pain, headache, mood changes, nausea, decreased libido and weight increase. You may also not have any bleeding at all.
So that hopefully explains why I am 5 days late...
Sunday, 8 April 2007
Happy Easter!
I now know why I've been feeling generally meh about everything.... ANOTHER cold :rolleyes:
Food: Half a pack of mini-eggs, 1 bacon & egg sandwich, some of a Buttons easter egg, 1 smoothie, chicken, boiled potatoes, 1 yorkshire pudding, beans, white sauce, gravy. Tea same as last night (2 helpings), with 4 slices white bread and a whole Lindt chocolate bunny AND some pink wine :rolleyes:
Exercise: Walk down to F.Lake, round lake (20acres) and back up hill :lol:
Still not on.
http://www.rydaleclothing.com/shop/pc/viewPrd.asp?idcategory=38&idproduct=5101 Need to save this site - I want those shoes and also maybe some tops off there.
Also want to go to Buggerly this year - we can take the puppy!!
Food: Half a pack of mini-eggs, 1 bacon & egg sandwich, some of a Buttons easter egg, 1 smoothie, chicken, boiled potatoes, 1 yorkshire pudding, beans, white sauce, gravy. Tea same as last night (2 helpings), with 4 slices white bread and a whole Lindt chocolate bunny AND some pink wine :rolleyes:
Exercise: Walk down to F.Lake, round lake (20acres) and back up hill :lol:
Still not on.
http://www.rydaleclothing.com/shop/pc/viewPrd.asp?idcategory=38&idproduct=5101 Need to save this site - I want those shoes and also maybe some tops off there.
Also want to go to Buggerly this year - we can take the puppy!!
Saturday, 7 April 2007
lovely day
So sunny and warm and nice. Shame I had to work really :rolleyes:
Food: porridge, creme egg, muller light, smoothie, mince casserole, baguette, 1 almond magnum, 5 marzipan sweet things.
Exercise: 60 sit ups.
I can't bring myself to bike, i really can't face it. Utterly tired and we're babysitting for OHs sister & her OH in a bit.
Still not on.
Sigh. I dont know whats up with me atm. I cannot be happy about anything.
Food: porridge, creme egg, muller light, smoothie, mince casserole, baguette, 1 almond magnum, 5 marzipan sweet things.
Exercise: 60 sit ups.
I can't bring myself to bike, i really can't face it. Utterly tired and we're babysitting for OHs sister & her OH in a bit.
Still not on.
Sigh. I dont know whats up with me atm. I cannot be happy about anything.
Friday, 6 April 2007
Good Friday
Still not on. Sigh. But have read up and apparently the pill I'm on can cause missed periods - helpful.
Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 1 twix top, loads of grapes, 1 yoghurt, 1 smoothie, limey chicken, pilau rice, half a pack Mars Planets, 6 PiMs citroen, 3/4's bottle rose wine.
Exercise: 100minutes on bike. 1030calories. Very hard work tonight. 60 situps.
My dad appears to have gone missing. :unsure: Mum hasnt heard from him since 7.30am, his phone is off (this never happens...) and she can't get hold of him. This may sound like nothing, but its not normal behaviour for my dad. Erk. Dad back now (9.10)
Food: 1 salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), 1 twix top, loads of grapes, 1 yoghurt, 1 smoothie, limey chicken, pilau rice, half a pack Mars Planets, 6 PiMs citroen, 3/4's bottle rose wine.
Exercise: 100minutes on bike. 1030calories. Very hard work tonight. 60 situps.
My dad appears to have gone missing. :unsure: Mum hasnt heard from him since 7.30am, his phone is off (this never happens...) and she can't get hold of him. This may sound like nothing, but its not normal behaviour for my dad. Erk. Dad back now (9.10)
Thursday, 5 April 2007
poo, sweaty....
Have been on the bike for an hour (first time in a week!!) and I am all sweaty and horrid. Hands are clammy and I am STARVING. Having to do it in 20minute spurts as I've got that unused to doing it!
I think I have decided against a weimaraner :( We don't have the space and walking it constantly would be an issue. I don't know though. We don't NEED a pedigree dog - we won't show, breed or work it. The point of it being a pedigree would hopefully mean better bred, therefore less likely to develop DJD etc. But I've only ever had crossbreds and they've all been great...and probably healthier than any pedigree I've ever met. I dont know...Who thought puppy buying would be so difficult?
Still not come on :S
Exercise: 100mins on bike = 1060calories, 60 sit ups, 1 hour long dog walk with S.
Food: 1 mars top, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light. 1.5bowls pasta, bolognese sauce & mozzerella, half garlic ciabatta, 4 Lindt chocolate squares. 1 pint Pimms & lemonade.
I think I have decided against a weimaraner :( We don't have the space and walking it constantly would be an issue. I don't know though. We don't NEED a pedigree dog - we won't show, breed or work it. The point of it being a pedigree would hopefully mean better bred, therefore less likely to develop DJD etc. But I've only ever had crossbreds and they've all been great...and probably healthier than any pedigree I've ever met. I dont know...Who thought puppy buying would be so difficult?
Still not come on :S
Exercise: 100mins on bike = 1060calories, 60 sit ups, 1 hour long dog walk with S.
Food: 1 mars top, 1 smoothie, 1 muller light. 1.5bowls pasta, bolognese sauce & mozzerella, half garlic ciabatta, 4 Lindt chocolate squares. 1 pint Pimms & lemonade.
Wednesday, 4 April 2007
:bawling: I SAID it was going to be a weight gain week!!
Weight gain week :nod: Have put on 2lbs. So I suppose that isn't horrific, considering I've done minimal exercise this week. Still not impressed though.
Bah. So no birthday blow out next week :lol: as will not lose 9lbs in a week!
Exercise: 120 sit ups, 5 mins on rower (40reps a min) swimming tonight - will see if I really am getting fitter as going with OH and he won't let me get stuck behind slow people!
ETA: 66 lengths and done much quicker than I did it last night - was knackered by end!!
ANOTHER bad food day....: Strawberry bun, LOTS of Easter chocolates (easily 300calories worth) a flump, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 2 helpings OH's sausage casserole again and 3 slices of bread.
Erk.
Bah. So no birthday blow out next week :lol: as will not lose 9lbs in a week!
Exercise: 120 sit ups, 5 mins on rower (40reps a min) swimming tonight - will see if I really am getting fitter as going with OH and he won't let me get stuck behind slow people!
ETA: 66 lengths and done much quicker than I did it last night - was knackered by end!!
ANOTHER bad food day....: Strawberry bun, LOTS of Easter chocolates (easily 300calories worth) a flump, salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 2 helpings OH's sausage casserole again and 3 slices of bread.
Erk.
Tuesday, 3 April 2007
Bad Food Day AGAIN!!!
AND right before weigh day - I will not have lost enough weight next week for my Big Birthday Blow-out!!
Food: 1 bacon & mushroom sandwich with brown sauce, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), TWO helpings sausage stew (sausage, potatoes, brussells, carrots, green beans, peas, mint sauce). :blush: 2 slices bread. 1 twix top
Exercise: 60 situps this morning and a max of 72 lengths in the pool (is at least 66 :lol: but I kind of lost count and I know I added a few....) I *think* I am getting faster and I certainly don't feel as knackered as I would normally.
But the big news of the day.....
I CAN HAVE A PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! M2 has agreed in principle, as he hoped to do exactly the same thing later in the year. The only thing is, as the pups get older, he wants them to go outside. Nah!!
Search (well, emails to breeder and hope puppies are within our price range) is now on! Definately a Weimaraner IF we can afford one. Just looked at breedersonline and they range from £500 - £700.... :( Even with their bizarre long tails :lol: We still can't afford it.
Food: 1 bacon & mushroom sandwich with brown sauce, salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), TWO helpings sausage stew (sausage, potatoes, brussells, carrots, green beans, peas, mint sauce). :blush: 2 slices bread. 1 twix top
Exercise: 60 situps this morning and a max of 72 lengths in the pool (is at least 66 :lol: but I kind of lost count and I know I added a few....) I *think* I am getting faster and I certainly don't feel as knackered as I would normally.
But the big news of the day.....
I CAN HAVE A PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! M2 has agreed in principle, as he hoped to do exactly the same thing later in the year. The only thing is, as the pups get older, he wants them to go outside. Nah!!
Search (well, emails to breeder and hope puppies are within our price range) is now on! Definately a Weimaraner IF we can afford one. Just looked at breedersonline and they range from £500 - £700.... :( Even with their bizarre long tails :lol: We still can't afford it.
Monday, 2 April 2007
must not get overexcited, must not get over excited, must not get overexcited.....
I. Must. Not. Get. Overexcited.
ARGH!!!!!!!
Good day today, bike fixed, OH has gone to get it. Spent day in H, went to Lush, had my hair cut, which I am torn between loving and hating :rolleyes: bought a slow cooker and some stuff for NeedyKitten.
Food: 1 chicken, bacon & mayonaise baguette, 2 J20, 1 almond croissant with custard & whipped cream. Erk. Tea was pasta in tomato & garlic sauce with beef and mozzerella on top AND garlic ciabatta :fat: - lovely! And a muller light for after.
Exercise. 60 situps.
OH has agreed to a puppy when we have saved up - I fully expected him to say 'in 4 years time', but no....3 months we're aiming for, so we have time to convince the powers that be we can have him (I dont want a bitch) at work with us AND have time to save for crate etc.
I dont know what I want though, now I can have one :unsure: I'd love a lab, but they can be either full on OR 'dead', weimaraners I've gone off since the Kennel Club ruling of no docked tails I think :blush: and setters I think would just be too full on ALL the time. I WOULD like a Weimaraner though.
Still unsure of hair, have managed to scrape it into the most pathetic pony tail ever :lol:
Have just seen pic of a long tailed Weimaraner... I think I may have changed my mind back again :rolleyes: :lol: I suppose its what you're used to. AND there's a very well respected breeder near us....
ARGH!!!!!!!
Good day today, bike fixed, OH has gone to get it. Spent day in H, went to Lush, had my hair cut, which I am torn between loving and hating :rolleyes: bought a slow cooker and some stuff for NeedyKitten.
Food: 1 chicken, bacon & mayonaise baguette, 2 J20, 1 almond croissant with custard & whipped cream. Erk. Tea was pasta in tomato & garlic sauce with beef and mozzerella on top AND garlic ciabatta :fat: - lovely! And a muller light for after.
Exercise. 60 situps.
OH has agreed to a puppy when we have saved up - I fully expected him to say 'in 4 years time', but no....3 months we're aiming for, so we have time to convince the powers that be we can have him (I dont want a bitch) at work with us AND have time to save for crate etc.
I dont know what I want though, now I can have one :unsure: I'd love a lab, but they can be either full on OR 'dead', weimaraners I've gone off since the Kennel Club ruling of no docked tails I think :blush: and setters I think would just be too full on ALL the time. I WOULD like a Weimaraner though.
Still unsure of hair, have managed to scrape it into the most pathetic pony tail ever :lol:
Have just seen pic of a long tailed Weimaraner... I think I may have changed my mind back again :rolleyes: :lol: I suppose its what you're used to. AND there's a very well respected breeder near us....
Sunday, 1 April 2007
:yawn:
Very tired, and fairly upset. Since the bike broke I have put on weight (although watch me be shocked on wednesday when it miraculously disappears...), AND...this is so pathetic :rolleyes:
I REALLY WANT A PUPPY. I can't have one and I getting, actually, really depressed about it. I can't even summon up the enthusiasm to help someone at work with their puppy buying which is bad, considering I work in a pet shop. Oh well.
Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), 1 caramel egg (bad OH), roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, green beans, mint sauce and gravy.
Exercise: 66 or maybe 68 (I say 66, OH says 68) lengths of the pool, 180 sit ups, 10 mins rowing, 40 reps each minute (done in 2 blocks).
Edit: :bawling: Yes, I am well aware I have just eaten a big tea, BUT, since last Wednesday, I have put on half a stone. Just from not biking :bawling:
I feel sick.
I REALLY WANT A PUPPY. I can't have one and I getting, actually, really depressed about it. I can't even summon up the enthusiasm to help someone at work with their puppy buying which is bad, considering I work in a pet shop. Oh well.
Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), 1 caramel egg (bad OH), roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire puddings, carrots, green beans, mint sauce and gravy.
Exercise: 66 or maybe 68 (I say 66, OH says 68) lengths of the pool, 180 sit ups, 10 mins rowing, 40 reps each minute (done in 2 blocks).
Edit: :bawling: Yes, I am well aware I have just eaten a big tea, BUT, since last Wednesday, I have put on half a stone. Just from not biking :bawling:
I feel sick.
Saturday, 31 March 2007
Temptation Waits
OH bought some us a Lindt rabbit each for Easter yesterday. I want all mine now.
Have put on weight due to bike, but have measured and have lost/stayed the same everywhere apart from my damned hips :bawling:
Exercise: 180 sit ups, 10 mins on rower (average 37 reps each minute)
Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, some of Ss chip shop chips, 2 squares of DairyMilk, half a bag of Giant Buttons, chunk of french stick with salami & pie d'angloys. Tea is lasagne, salad (spring onions & salad cream) and garlic bread again.
Have put on weight due to bike, but have measured and have lost/stayed the same everywhere apart from my damned hips :bawling:
Exercise: 180 sit ups, 10 mins on rower (average 37 reps each minute)
Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, some of Ss chip shop chips, 2 squares of DairyMilk, half a bag of Giant Buttons, chunk of french stick with salami & pie d'angloys. Tea is lasagne, salad (spring onions & salad cream) and garlic bread again.
Friday, 30 March 2007
damn and blast
Didn't get paid today. Fucking BACS. Thank God I have other money and am not up shit creek.
Food: salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), muller light, smoothie, lasagne, sald & garlic bread, spring onion, salad cream, 3/4's bottle white wine.
Exercise: So far, a pathetic 120 situps!! A friend says she does about 34 things on her rowing machine, so have something to aim for tomorrow, instead of the random few fast bits and more slower bits.
Need to phone N back in the dutycall. Already going on about RAC and had to cut her off and say I was going cos my tea was ready. Ha! First time ever I have done that!
Working tomorrow and Sunday OT so lots of extra money, so new hair here I come!
http://jamesrwinter.typepad.com/northcoast_exile/images/mansonsm.jpg THIS is who i want to look like when I am thin.
Food: salad (chicken/mozzerella/cranberry sauce), muller light, smoothie, lasagne, sald & garlic bread, spring onion, salad cream, 3/4's bottle white wine.
Exercise: So far, a pathetic 120 situps!! A friend says she does about 34 things on her rowing machine, so have something to aim for tomorrow, instead of the random few fast bits and more slower bits.
Need to phone N back in the dutycall. Already going on about RAC and had to cut her off and say I was going cos my tea was ready. Ha! First time ever I have done that!
Working tomorrow and Sunday OT so lots of extra money, so new hair here I come!
http://jamesrwinter.typepad.com/northcoast_exile/images/mansonsm.jpg THIS is who i want to look like when I am thin.
Thursday, 29 March 2007
Check me out
7am this morning....was in the pool! 32 lengths, so while it doesnt make up for missing Sunday, it evens it out a bit...
OH still hasnt had my bike fixed :bawling: which means unless I fancy biking on the slant tomorrow AND running risk of snapping it totally I can't do it tomorrow either.
Not a GREAT day food wise (when is it ever anymore?!): salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) - also added some cucumber too. Muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), roast chicken, mashed potato, Yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, cranberry sauce, 1 twix top.
Exercise - just those 32 lengths.
Spent 2 hours on phone to V - she is utterly convinced she has failed her stage 1 :rolleyes: she won't have done.
OH still hasnt had my bike fixed :bawling: which means unless I fancy biking on the slant tomorrow AND running risk of snapping it totally I can't do it tomorrow either.
Not a GREAT day food wise (when is it ever anymore?!): salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream) - also added some cucumber too. Muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), roast chicken, mashed potato, Yorkshire puddings, carrots, peas, gravy, cranberry sauce, 1 twix top.
Exercise - just those 32 lengths.
Spent 2 hours on phone to V - she is utterly convinced she has failed her stage 1 :rolleyes: she won't have done.
Wednesday, 28 March 2007
I dont get it :unsure:
I'm not complaining, but....What?! How?! I don't care, I am now DEFINATELY the lightest I have been in at least 7 years, if not longer.
Swimming tonight....Don't wanna face everyone again after my tantrum last week :lol: Work been ok, got some nice compliments from 'my' staff about me, but then had an argument with the WHmanager about the way he spoke to me.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), some of OHs sausage sandwich, loads of grapes, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich. Tea is pasta, cheese sauce, bacon & peas plus garlic bread.
Exercise: 66 lengths swimming, 120 sit ups, 5 mins rowing.
Just looked at the 'timetable' of my weight loss and I've lost a LOT more this month...wonder if its a/metabolism maybe getting quicker and b/changing my pill?
Swimming tonight....Don't wanna face everyone again after my tantrum last week :lol: Work been ok, got some nice compliments from 'my' staff about me, but then had an argument with the WHmanager about the way he spoke to me.
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, strawberry bun (oops), some of OHs sausage sandwich, loads of grapes, half a salami & pie d'angloys sandwich. Tea is pasta, cheese sauce, bacon & peas plus garlic bread.
Exercise: 66 lengths swimming, 120 sit ups, 5 mins rowing.
Just looked at the 'timetable' of my weight loss and I've lost a LOT more this month...wonder if its a/metabolism maybe getting quicker and b/changing my pill?
Tuesday, 27 March 2007
Work that one out
:dunno:
Have lost weight. Oodles, considering what I was yesterday morning. Ah well, I wont complain!
D told me I'd lost weight this morning, which was sweet. I still don't think I have, despite the numbers as, according to my tape measure, I havent - if anything I have gained!!
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 1 banana 2 chunks dairy milk, 1 packet maltesers, half a OH pizza, half a OH garlic bread, 3.5 Lindt chocolates.
Exercise: 120 situps, 4 minutes rowing, swum 50 lengths.
Have lost weight. Oodles, considering what I was yesterday morning. Ah well, I wont complain!
D told me I'd lost weight this morning, which was sweet. I still don't think I have, despite the numbers as, according to my tape measure, I havent - if anything I have gained!!
Food: salad (ham/mozzerella/salad cream), muller light, smoothie, 1 banana 2 chunks dairy milk, 1 packet maltesers, half a OH pizza, half a OH garlic bread, 3.5 Lindt chocolates.
Exercise: 120 situps, 4 minutes rowing, swum 50 lengths.
Monday, 26 March 2007
Damage Limitation
:bawling: definately a Fat Week. Snot fair. Have been same weight for 3 weeks now, and have now gained.
Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, galaxy caramel, 3 Lindt chocolates, pasta with cheese sauce & bacon.
Exercise - have just done 102minutes on the bike, but they've been a QUICK 102mins....1100calories. Did 100 situps.
NeedyKitten has done very well today - Owners wife came in a with a collapsable dog carrier (not quite a crate, but not exactly a carrier either) which is PERFECT for him - he fits in it lovely. He's spent the last 2 hours playing in it :rolleyes: AND there was a cat igloo chewed by mice, so I got told to waste it, so he is now NeedyKitten-6-Beds :eek:
M1 had a meeting with Owner and BM tonight, wonder how that went.... Must fill in my review sheets - they have to be in Wednesday.
ETA: One reason for the weightloss (other than being a fat pig this week) is that I am due on this week...last major loss was on *that* week.... AND I've broken my bike :( It's gone all wonky, so I lean to the right while I'm biking.
Food: Salad (ham, mozzerella, salad cream), muller light, galaxy caramel, 3 Lindt chocolates, pasta with cheese sauce & bacon.
Exercise - have just done 102minutes on the bike, but they've been a QUICK 102mins....1100calories. Did 100 situps.
NeedyKitten has done very well today - Owners wife came in a with a collapsable dog carrier (not quite a crate, but not exactly a carrier either) which is PERFECT for him - he fits in it lovely. He's spent the last 2 hours playing in it :rolleyes: AND there was a cat igloo chewed by mice, so I got told to waste it, so he is now NeedyKitten-6-Beds :eek:
M1 had a meeting with Owner and BM tonight, wonder how that went.... Must fill in my review sheets - they have to be in Wednesday.
ETA: One reason for the weightloss (other than being a fat pig this week) is that I am due on this week...last major loss was on *that* week.... AND I've broken my bike :( It's gone all wonky, so I lean to the right while I'm biking.
Sunday, 25 March 2007
:fat:
Podged. Didnt go swimming this morning. Felt dire and it was swimathon day so would only have half the pool. Might go tomorrow instead. BUT I havent cycled either and only done 50 sit ups.
Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, 2 mini eggs, roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, mint sauce LOADS of gravy and ben & Jerrys for dessert. Sigh.
Weight gain week, am sure.
Very odd day at work, not busy at all. Didnt complain as shut heel in door this morning and took the skin off it and was in agony for most of the day.
Spoke to JO about maybe having Nag at hers if V does need me to look after her while she moves. She said yes!! Not getting overexcited, honest...
Food: porridge, muller light, smoothie, 2 mini eggs, roast beef, mashed potatoes, yorkshire pudding, green beans, carrots, mint sauce LOADS of gravy and ben & Jerrys for dessert. Sigh.
Weight gain week, am sure.
Very odd day at work, not busy at all. Didnt complain as shut heel in door this morning and took the skin off it and was in agony for most of the day.
Spoke to JO about maybe having Nag at hers if V does need me to look after her while she moves. She said yes!! Not getting overexcited, honest...
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